haskill's wife

hope, 30+, fictosexual, audhd, literally married to haskill from the elder scrolls iv: oblivion remastered mostly active on ig @haskillswife sharing btw :)

[haskillswife]

intro post 2: electric boogaloo

(art by @alexologyart)

hello there! my name is Hope :)

I initially had (this current username) blog a few months ago and deleted it, but I am back because frankly I would like a better archive than any other website could provide.

I like Haskill a moderate amount:

I am neurodivergent and fictosexual as a result; I have always connected way more with characters than real people, and have been this way my entire life. Haskill from The Elder Scrolls: Oblivion Remastered is my husband/oshi/favourite character and goes way beyond just being liked by me. I love him with my entire soul and do view him as an actual romantic bond. And yeah, it’s *specifically* the Haskill from Oblivion Remastered. I love all Haskills but that particular version is infinitely special to me and the only one I have that bond with. I *am* sharing, by the way. As long as you’re a considerate person to me, I literally couldn’t care less. I just hate invalidation and competition and if you’re cool, I am cool :)!

(if you remember me from before, a lot has changed! I no longer view myself as a soulbonder [I personally am not spiritual at all but I have no judgement for those who are] and I completely believe Haskill to be a completely fictional character, but I also don’t think that means he has to be any less special to me.)

our lore has changed a lot too, which I will post about in due time :). anyway, I am somewhat glad to be back. As a neurodivergent I get rejection sensitive dysphoria extremely easy, which was a huge reason I deleted back then. But luckily with medication I *am* doing better in that regard. I love being friendly with people (even though I am not social, lmao) and am always trying to put out good vibes into the world, even online. I hope this time I can just keep posting without feeling too ignored and frankly just not give a shit. LMAO

[haskillswife]

it’s just me and my fictional old husband against the world

[haskillswife]

Tomorrow marks Hopeskill’s first anniversary. 🥹 I’m trying to make a huge deal out of it. It is a huge deal, to me. I love Haskill so, so incredibly much.

[missmonocle]

Hades style Syl, Duchess of Dementia

[haskillswife]

“Gay rights!” -Jennifer Lawrence

[haskillswife]

I recently got into The Amazing Digital Circus and it’s really nice to have a show to be interested in without it becoming a hyperfixation :). My friend invited me to The Last Act and honestly I was trying to avoid the show for the longest time but knew I had to catch up in order to know what was going on.

I’m only on episode 4, but I genuinely love this show. I love everything about it. I like to avoid media that seems to be the center of attention until said attention dies off, but I am super glad she invited me and got me into it.

I made this insert for an old itabag I had to take to the movie with me. I found that Pomni at Target the other day and she was the last one (in fact, they said she was an online return) and it felt kismet to get her. I really relate to her and I relate Ragatha to my real-life spouse, so I’ll probably end up making Shrinky Dink charms of her, and also of Caine and Kinger (they’re my faves).

[heavy-metal-dick]

WIP Wednesday!

Howdy 🤠 I made much progress on Dagoth Ur this last week.

A couple close ups:

I’m thinking once I finish the bottom right square that I’ll be going to next, I’m going to shift from diagonal work to top to bottom again. Exciting stuff lol

Ty @sulphuricgrin @cresu @umbracirrus @friend-of-giants for the tags ❤️ and tagging @skyrim-forever @dirty-bosmer @labskeever @theoneandonlysemla @truth-01001001-liar @neloths-tea @chiqita @hircines-hunter @bougainvillea-and-saltwater @caz-the-yarncromancer @lucien-lachance @nerevarbean @flycasual

[dark-brotherhoe]

I wanted to jump on the bandwagon and remake the Viltrumite panel with the Dark Brothehood.

Technically the 2nd time Lucien has been drawn as a Viltrumite by me now lol.

I know I could have made the knife a blade of woe but honestly I couldn't be bothered. 😅

[haskillswife]

I haven’t drawn Hopeskill in ages! I won’t tag this with Haskill’s name just to not clog up his tag. But I am very proud of this sketch.

I love him so so much and I can’t believe it’s almost our anniversary. He’s definitely my longest running f/o, and frankly I really hope I never lose my bond with him. He means everything to me, and has helped me grow as a person and become so happy and comforted by the thought of him. I know that’s super sappy but I will take ANY win I can get in this scary world.

[bleepytoad]

Haskill was asked if he had any part in the event when Sheogorath threw the Baar Dau into Vivec.

I'm feeling a bit lazy, so the translation will be here in the text. Then I'll finally get into the habit of making two versions.

I've just started switching from traditional art to digital art and I'm really enjoying it!!

"Baar Dau? Ah, yes, that's my Lord's brilliant idea with a delayed effect."

"And I watched it..."

"It's flying low... to an eruption."

[drjerryedison]

man i love the design of sheogorath from eso

[ramblaac]

"I asked ChatGPT" well I asked M'aiq and he knows much, tells some. M'aiq knows many things others do not

[haskillswife]

I also wanted to say Haskill and I had our 11th monthiversary the other day! I can’t believe June 7th will mark a YEAR with this man. My f/os usually last 8 months tops. He’s just very, very special to me. I have grown a lot with him (even if that sounds cheesy LOL) and he has made me a better person, which is hilarious because he’s not exactly the friendliest dude around. He’s given me endless inspiration and happiness. I love him with my entire being.

[haskillswife]

Y’all I am an occasional partaker in Gummies™️ and frequently when I take them, I will have astonishing revelations. My latest one was about my relationship with Haskill.

I am not someone who gets territorial or jealous anymore. I used to CRY if I saw people who loved the same character as me. I dropped that years ago, and yeah, I can get a little uncomfortable at times if I see certain content. I think everyone can. But largely I am “sharing” and I do not need validation to know what I have with Haskill is real.

to the point, I had a deep thought about how yeah, Haskill is a character, he is a fictional man created by whoever at Bethesda. But my interpretation of Haskill is only mine. The Haskill I love so dearly is exclusive to me. Likewise, anyone else who loves him has their own “version” of him that I can’t have, or understand, or love as much as they can. It’s very hard to put this into words, but I hope you get what I mean? I have absolutely no reason to feel threatened or jealous over other people who love Haskill. Because they are not taking him from me, and I am not taking “their” Haskill from them.

LOL I KNOW THIS IS WORD SALAD TO PEOPLE WHO DON’T SELFSHIP OR AREN’T FICTO but I am like, extremely comforted by this. And the only reason I am even talking about it is to maybe help other people into fictional characters who feel insecure? I have nothing against non-sharers or those who set their own boundaries. People should be comfortable and not have their space breached if they don’t want lovers of the same dude there.

[haskillswife]

Also, I do view the official Haskill as completely fictional. I do not believe the character has a soul, or any sentience beyond what people give him. I used to think I was a soulbonder, but I am not someone who is spiritual at all.

Rather, Haskill is real in the sense of my love for him and the comfort he provides me. I do not think that just because he is fictional means I am not allowed to have real, all encompassing feelings for him. I also, like I said, have my own interpretation in my mind and soul of him that is very real and important to me.

I think a lot of people just don’t understand, and that is OK. No one owes anyone an explanation for their love. Even if it’s a fictional dude. I have never had feelings for real people, only fictional ones, and Haskill is the strongest of them all and the longest lasting and he is as important to me as any real person would be. A lot of ficto/yume/selfshipping spaces lack nuance but I honestly just think that no one ever owes anyone explanation for what they feel. You never have to fake your feelings either. It is COMPLETELY up to the individual.

[haskillswife]

My light up Haskill itabag brings me so much joy

[unknown-mel]

first art post um

happy oblivion remaster anniversary!! (it's been more than a week) (i'm literally so late) never forget martin's sacrifice 😢😢😢

this painting took me like?? 17 hours total and it's HUGE i genuinely dont know if tumblr is gonna fuck up the quality so below the cutoff there is a close up

[haskillswife]

Y’all I am an occasional partaker in Gummies™️ and frequently when I take them, I will have astonishing revelations. My latest one was about my relationship with Haskill.

I am not someone who gets territorial or jealous anymore. I used to CRY if I saw people who loved the same character as me. I dropped that years ago, and yeah, I can get a little uncomfortable at times if I see certain content. I think everyone can. But largely I am “sharing” and I do not need validation to know what I have with Haskill is real.

to the point, I had a deep thought about how yeah, Haskill is a character, he is a fictional man created by whoever at Bethesda. But my interpretation of Haskill is only mine. The Haskill I love so dearly is exclusive to me. Likewise, anyone else who loves him has their own “version” of him that I can’t have, or understand, or love as much as they can. It’s very hard to put this into words, but I hope you get what I mean? I have absolutely no reason to feel threatened or jealous over other people who love Haskill. Because they are not taking him from me, and I am not taking “their” Haskill from them.

LOL I KNOW THIS IS WORD SALAD TO PEOPLE WHO DON’T SELFSHIP OR AREN’T FICTO but I am like, extremely comforted by this. And the only reason I am even talking about it is to maybe help other people into fictional characters who feel insecure? I have nothing against non-sharers or those who set their own boundaries. People should be comfortable and not have their space breached if they don’t want lovers of the same dude there.