Life lately

[unlovablep]

One day, I'm going to be everything to someone.

[hauntandhaunted]

👌😌

[ss-writess]

“I stayed long enough to watch you become someone I wouldn’t have fallen for.”

[hauntandhaunted]

😭😭😭😭😭

[hauntandhaunted]

Lost and dont want to be found.

[descentintoentropy]

[hauntandhaunted]

To my TOTGA..

This is the time that I was really afraid to happen..

Remember why it took me so long to give up or stay?

Even how deep the wound you caused me I still choose to put bandaid using your presence .. .

I stay as hard as I can ..

Because I'm afraid that this day would come ..

The day that I would be finally healed from you and realize you will no longer important..

Now.. take my apology ..

Because I can no longer stay ..

I'm not seeing you the way how I look at you before with all the sparks I've felt inside..

I'm okay now.. I'm sorry ..

Please know that I'm grateful for your existence ..

Please know that .. I've tried hard to keep you but you are not seeing it the way I do ..

And thank you.. so thank you ..

Because of those times I learned a lot from you ..

I learned that I was one of the bravest person alive ..

For bearing the worst pain you caused me..

Thank you because Ive realized that I could actually give everything even the things I thought I don't have..

Thank you because I know on my next love story ..

My lover would be so fcking lucky cause I know what I could do to make her stay ..

Thank you for giving me the chance to still know myself more ..

Now.. I'm slowly walking away and still will pray for the both of us to win in life separately..

[hauntandhaunted]

Slowly giving distance to the way you can't notice..

Because I'm afraid I might get you hurt..

Hopefully things will end between us.. because we know that's really need to be done..

I mean I'm done.. 😌

[remanence-of-love]

[hauntandhaunted]

😌

[perfectfeelings]

“Just leave me alone. I’m not myself. I’m falling apart, and I don’t want you here.”

— Daniel Keyes, Flowers for Algernon

[hauntandhaunted]

When you used to be the strongest person in your life ..

The strongest Sibling

The bravest daughter

The unbreakable friend

And the most masculine lover..

You thought stress/depression can't beat you

Because you've been through a lot..

You always set to be positive always whatever may come along..

You always believe that He is with you ..

And yes He really is..

But at some days you know you're human too..

You have made wrong decisions in life

You sacrificed a lot to ungrateful people

You were always the giver..

You carry burdens alone because of the love you have with the people around you ..

And never have thought that this day will come..

A day of anxiety, exhaustion, stress and disappointments..

You tried hard to fight for it ..

Because you always know you are strong

No amount of problem can beat you ..

But now you're down self..

You can't get up ..

You can't find any reason to get up ..

All the darkness that had passed in your life come all together to beat you ..

Now you wanted help but you just scream at the top of your lungs..

That no one could really hear..

You cry a lot but no one knows aside from your pillow..

Now, where do you run Unaa. Where? 😭

[disc90s]

ah i’d sit beside it forever... quietly loving it, gently watering it, and making sure it never felt alone 🥺

[hauntandhaunted]

May you realize how I love you that much Can't even dare to be selfished for you to choose me .. Go on with your life .. please be happy love because now I can confidently say that I'm now free from pain , free from love and free from your world.. 😌🤍

[quotefeeling]

“Be with someone that requires you to grow, makes you forget your problems, holds your hand, likes to kiss, appreciates art, and adores you.”

— Unknown

[hauntandhaunted]

And if things get hard may she hold me harder..

[neckkiss]

FYB.

[hauntandhaunted]

Ill do what i want after I resign ..

[perfectfeelings]

“I’m like that. Either I forget right away or I never forget.”

— Samuel Beckett

[hauntandhaunted]

I stayed because I believed love required patience, not realizing..

it also required reciprocity..

[hauntandhaunted]

G.. please guide me. I'm on the edge of losing it again ..

Lost direction

Lost of reason to keep going

Very exhausted..

G.. I don't know what to do..

I maybe physically fine but I was having a hard time moving forward.. to stand up, to show up to do my thing..

I'm so down.. Im really am.. 😭

Guide me to all of my decisions..

I want to go home.. even home doesn't feel like it anyway.. I'm just so lost .. 😭

[hauntandhaunted]

I don't know who needs to hear this but normalize moving on silently when someone doesn't want you. You don't need to send them long messages and beg them to see your worth. Let them lose you and find out once you're gone what they lost.