Hawks & Roses

Random gleanings from my internet wanderings. Mostly Marvel, some Jurassic World (because raptors!), and Avatar and Korra of course :)

[genderkoolaid]

we need more stories about high femme prom queen types who become weird faggy guys. you haven't seen Behaviors until you've seen a repressed closeted tboy holding on to socially acceptable heterosexual femininity by the skin of his teeth

[thatflutefaggot456]

Me before I came out, when I did pageants and modeling.

Me after I came out, cut off my hair, bought comfortable clothes, and decided to actually wear my glasses because fuck contacts.

[crematedequally]

This was me the day of my junior prom. The dress weighed around 20 lbs, was the first one I tried on, and my makeup was done by someone who still thought brown lip liner looked good on white people. I spent the entire day being photographed and generally hating how I looked and wishing I could figure out why, when everything was technically perfect.

And this was me about eleven years later- two weeks after I started T in the first photo, and at around 5 months on T in the second. Much happier, married to the love of my life, and finally looking like myself!

[sisceal]

Such girl, very wow (pro ballet, modeling, and my first wedding)

Came out in 2016, here's nine years of transformation (in reverse order, sorry)

Turns out I'm neither a Normal Guy nor a woman, but a much weirder type of faggy masc thing.

And that's pretty great.

[antisocial-transfag]

In my lifestyle lolita egg era. Somehow getting to dress like a princess gave me the will to get up in the morning

1 year and 5 months on T

[romanticfatale]

[hauntedchronicler]

granted being a big ol goth doesn't really fit the bill of "socially acceptable heterosexual femininity" but i was HYPER feminine when i was closeted, especially in the years between when i FIRST tried to come out (age 16 - around the time of those first photos) and when i actually made the jump (age 19 - about a year after the last photo)

you can tell in that second to last photo i literally got a tattoo that said "MAD GIRL" which was an exercise in many things, including abstract self-harm, a visual reminder that i had given up on myself, and wildly underestimating the number of dudes who would misread it as BAD GIRL and take that as a cue to say gross shit to me while i was at work

anyway never kill yourself

[toyourliking]

haha yeah 🫣

consciously dipped my toes into the gender fuckery pool at around 15/16 but I was pentecostal at the time and well. took them out real quick

i tried very very hard to be “femme” for a LONG time but during covid lockdowns I didn’t have to perform for anyone and I slowly started to let it all go and now I’m a silly little man 😌

[mj-theskywitch]

ahem

these are about 10 years apart, 7 years on t and 5 years post op. it gets better guys

[genderkoolaid]

this too is a poem. these are my favorite kind of tags to see on this post btw. you will be in one of these posts someday <3

[systlin]

"Sys how is your decent into fiber arts hell going"

Glad you asked. I have arrived at 'modern flax is Bullshit compared to what we had in historical textiles, the flax widely available for handspinning is basically the tow that would be discarded from textile creation and used with tar to caulk ships back in the day'

This naturally led me down a hole of 'why is the staple length of this stuff a bullshit 6 inches' and the answer is 'we have bred modern flax more for the oil than the fiber because cotton usurped the place of everyday textile thanks to slavery and the cotton gin'

Anyway, THIS led me to a rabbit hole that culminated in me finding flax seed bred for proper 30 inch tall plants for fiber, sold by some fellow minded nerds on a website that has not been updated since 1998 and you have to email them to buy anything.

Anyway how are all of you doing.

[systlin]

I FAILED YOU ALL here is the site. You can also buy flax fiber from them. The PROPER shit, not the hot garbage ass tow fiber sold as flax top for handspinners.

[systlin]

'machine combing shortens the flax fibers by several inches'

This right here is part of why modern linen is a pale shadow of historical linen. Legitimately it cannot be properly replicated by machines. It HAS to be made by human hands if you want the best quality.

[cityfaringcountrymouse]

Oh hey update. Don't use this website for flax seed purchasing. It's a failed cult.

This one, however, is a bit more legit.

Home | Landis Valley Associates

[systlin]

Oh damn thanks man good catch.

Reblogging this

[kosmogrl]

[gay-hrithik-roshan]

[animentality]

[mikkeneko]

#my family does this thing#when we've majorly unfucked a room or done chore that we were putting off#or whatever. Any sort of household Improvement.#'Come brag on me.'#I means come look I cleaned/rearranged/did dishes/put away the laundry#and the scripted response is 'oh nice it looks SO much better in here now'#like my mom did this when we were kids.#'girls comr brag on the garage I finally organized it so I can get my car in there'#and we go and 'ooh' and 'aah' and tell her how nice it looked and how she did a good job#and we could have her 'come brag on' us for like doing the dishes or cleaning our rooms#I do it to my wife now too#it's a dialogue that means#'I did a chore and it feels like an Accomplishment even if it objectively wasn't a big thing. Please acknowledge this.'#and#'Wow you sure did do a thing. It has improved our material circumstance even if only in a small way. Thank you for doing it.'#like yeah scrubbing the pans is my Job and it's a Little Task but sometimes it feels like a Big Task#and it's nice to have an Accepted Script where I can just demand 'I have functioned as an independent adult praise me with great praise' - by @thepioden

[brosser-les-dents]

Omg, I love this. And it can be applied for brushing teeth. Like yes, you should do it. It's your body to care for. But it's a pain. So for all of you who have brush and/or flossed today. Good job getting it done! It's cleaner now than it was before and it's another step to keeping your teeth healthy and happy.

[dysphoria-things]

forcefem and forcemasc are OUT. we’re force-emoing tonight

[dysphoria-things]

reblog to make prev listen to my chemical romance and wear black ripped jeans and bad eyeliner. key word here is make. you WILL be emo

[del3141]

i was force-emo'd as a kid actually. when i was a young boy, my fa-

[un-fixed--stars]

so i'm reading murderbot again, and i'm having thoughts about parallels between murderbot's experience and chronic pain/illness. the parallels between murderbot and the autistic experience have been well discussed, and chronic pain/illness is one aspect i haven't seen talked about as much.

i'm thinking specifically of the way it is constantly turning down its pain sensors, or in network effect where it is sitting at a display surface, "leaking" and barely able to hold itself upright, trying to accomplish something while it's lost a significant portion of the muscles in its back and chunks are sliding down the chair. it's constantly pushing past pain and bodily injury to get shit done, and to me, that just resonates a lot with my chronically ill experience of being in a state where most people would at least rest if not seek medical attention, but i can't because i need finish this thing and i'd be in pain anyway.

there's also the aspect of murderbot's friends seeing it get shot and/or otherwise injured, and going "hey, maybe we should get you to medical or at least address this somehow", and it had been carrying on, worrying about things it considered more pressing. it just sort of reminds me of say, my partner telling me i should sit down and let them take over making dinner because i was standing there groaning in pain while i chopped vegetables, carrying on because sure, i'm hurting, but we still need to eat, and i didn't think to ask for help myself.

any other chronically ill/hurting murderbot fans see what i'm getting at?

[thestuffedalligator]

They’ve been rebuilding the Tower of Babel, but this time they have a team of linguists on site. Every time God smites the builders and invents a dozen new languages, the linguists have a dozen decently sized translations in about a month and work can start up again.

The linguists have been really into it. They say the new phonemes are fascinating. As for God, I assume that at this point he’s just curious to see how far this goes.

[somethingusefulfromflorida]

To keep us on out toes, God gives the next group of builders an extra place of articulation called the flongus between the pharynx and the glottis, creating an entire new column of the IPA chart with sounds between sounds that are literally physiologically impossible for non-flongled people to replicate.

[somethingusefulfromflorida]

Improved symbols for the flongal plosives ("gacks"), flongal trill ("hacks"), flongal fricatives ("groans"), and and the flongal lateral approximant ("moans")

[inthefallofasparrow]

Update: The builders have now simply switched to communicating entirely through a universal sign language like they should've done to start with. No sounds need be spoken, flongal or otherwise. The Tower steadily rises. Be seeing you soon, God, you little bitch.

[koth-harvest-final]

update: the builders are all speaking different sign languages now

[secondlina]

No transphobes allowed, only transborbs.

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[snitchanon]

"You know that thing would eat you if you died, right?" I say, pointing at your potted fern.

[aropride]

I... DONT... LIKE... CHANGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! [MY TELEKINESIS THROWS EVERYTHING ACROSS THE ROOM] [I SEE MY ITEMS STREWN ABOUT THE ROOM AND GET EVEN MORE UPSET]

[pajamasecrets]

Uh, I don’t think this is my style.

Shut up, kid! Tell me more about my eyes.

Star Trek: The Next Generation, 2x10.

[honourablejester]

I had no memory of this scene whatsoever, so I went back and rewatched it real quick on youtube. And the thing I love about it …

Okay. So Wesley is extremely uncomfortable here, and it’s for extremely teenage boy reasons. He doesn’t think this is his style, because it’s too much. Too romantic, too sincere, too over the top. He’s afraid he’d be laughed at, he’s never going to say words like that to a real woman.

But Will Riker, full of confidence, argues that you need to take the plunge immediately. You need to go all in, play in unsafe, take your chances. Because Will Riker’s self-confidence is godly.

BUT. But. The gifs don’t quite show this, but if you watch the scene. Right after his opening, ‘you are the most beautiful woman in the galaxy’, and just before he says ‘but that might not work’, there’s a tiny moment where Wes and Guinan share a look, and that look is amused. Slightly incredulous. And that’s where Riker immediately dials back and goes ‘but that might not work’. He only comes back and goes all in when Guinan goes, no, no it would, and basically gives him her blessing to follow this path. Which is where Will, having permission, knowing this is what his conversation partner wants and enjoys, goes in and gives it his all.

And Wesley’s expression, incidentally, slips and becomes both embarrassed and somewhat concerned.

It isn’t verbalised, but that was also a great lesson on why Riker is as successful as he is. Because he asks. Not verbally, but he takes his chance, and then adjusts his approach from feedback. If she acts embarrassed or upset or amused or incredulous, he takes a step back and goes, right, that’s not the approach you want from me. But if she responds, if she indicates that hey, this conversation is in fact something she might enjoy right now, he grins and locks in and puts some effort into it.

It’s also a tiny detail, but the conversation starts, after Riker has asked Guinan over to help him, with him pulling out her chair. Even if it’s a lesson and they all know it’s a lesson, he still takes the time to get the small details right. This is a date, even if it’s a fake one. You damn well pull out your lady’s chair for her.

And in the conversation itself, he and Guinan are having genuine fun. They’re playing off each other. And they address the ‘sincerity’ of the play-acting. Because flirting, ‘lines’, always have an air of artificiality to them, but their fake flirting actually addresses that. The line is a ‘knock on the door’. It’s fake, but it’s an indication that the other person is willing to put some effort in. To say things to make you feel good, and have a good time in the conversation. There might or might not be anything serious happening behind them, but the game can be fun in and of itself, and you never know, something might develop from it. Guinan is having genuine fun. To the point that she doesn’t need it poo-pooed by a teenage boy, and tells him to shush while she enjoys a man having taken time out of his day to flirt outrageously with her.

Wesley doesn’t get any of this. He doesn’t understand more than the words that are happening. But there are actually a lot of good lessons in here. To take it less seriously, to be willing to be foolish and embarrassed, because it’s not life or death or the end of the world, no matter how much if might feel like that to a teenager in love. To take it more seriously, to be willing to say things that are rich and expansive and romantic, because you want your partner to feel valued. To respond to cues, to start from an overt opening where your interest is clear, so that you can see if your partner wants that or not. To be willing to go all in, if it turns out your partner does, at least right now. To make some effort, to get the little details right, to go out of your way and do the small things, the romantic things, to make the other person feel special.

Like. He probably should have verbalised more of that for Wesley, because if teenagers could pick up non-verbal cues like this they wouldn’t need lessons to start with. But it actually is a pretty good showcase of why Riker-the-flirt had as much success as he did. Because he’s responsive, because he’s expansive, because he puts the effort it, because he’s willing to look foolish, because he wants to make his partners feel good about what’s happening. He’s confident, but he’s not predatory. He wants everyone involved to have a good time. And it shows.

(And he also is a little uncertain, as well. He has self-confidence to match Q, but he is also taking chances, and when they appeared to laugh at him a little bit, he did pull back and recalibrate. His grin had something nervous around the edges. He’s afraid to be laughed at too. He doesn’t like rejection any more the next man. He’s just willing to take his chances regardless, and to take the hit if turns out he has to).

[hustlerose]

[hustlerose]

[hustlerose]

i have been informed by literally every french speaker on earth that “une pipe” is slang for blowjob

[horsefriend]

[putnamspuppeteer]

For those who don't know: Ikumi Nakamura is the woman who was senior artist on Bayonetta, and designed the titular character along with Hideki Kamiya. Their greatest moment of bonding was over their insistence that Bayonetta keep her glasses on at all times. Nakamura cannot go to horny jail. She is the warden.

[brookietf]

[catgirlforeskin]

Happy pride month to her and her exclusively

[seraphiminn]

she made a comic about the experience on twitter

[catboybiologist]

happy pride

[ikindamaybewanthertositonmyface]

An Update from back in October I'm surprised wasn't added to this post. lol

[fleshengine]

I love the face of a woman having the time of her life.

[heartpdf]

[importantcatpics]

[comicgeekscomicgeek]

Let’s have technical difficulties with mama

[sugarmage]

[bellringermal]

[thyrell]

[fendalan]

Way too funny not to share

[ms-demeanor]

[optimisticrunawaygalaxy]

[thekaumidyking]

Trust Gru

[oysters-aint-for-me]

there’s a used bookstore in rural western massachusetts (the montague book mill) whose motto is “books you don’t need in a place you can’t find” and i just feel like that summarizes tumblr too

[oysters-aint-for-me]

posts you don’t need on a site you can’t search