<<how Mcyt’s would cope with your death >>
. Would take him ages to accept it and would keep denying it to himself and others
. Would get angry and lash out when people brought you or your death up
. Would either get rid off or hide things that belonged to you or reminded him of you because it made him sad which made him angry
. Would try and keep as busy as possible
.he’d be so busy trying to distract himself he’d forget to eat, drink or sleep
. He couldn’t sleep because he’d always dream of you
. If anyone brought you up in chat or donations he would get angry at them and stay slightly angry through out the video
. Would always think “ how come great people like y/n die but horrible people like (someone) get to live” and think about how unfair it was
. His first thought would be how he didn’t get to say bye
. Would try and constantly  exercise
. He wouldn’t sleep he would just go for a jog or start doing push ups
. He would plug in his headphones and listen to his music as loud as possible
. He tried to put on a persona so that people thought he was ok and wouldn’t worry
. Would stop streaming for a while but would still try and be active on social media’s
. Would cry anytime he saw a fanfic that fans had drawn of him and y/n or saw an edit of you two
. Would take his anger out on the world
. Would get Angry and just go outside and scream
. Wouldn’t Liston to reason
. Would lock himself in his room and try and ignore dream
. Would deny crying but cry every time he thought of you would burst into tears
. Would try and stream but would have to have his face cam off
. Would ignore all donations or messages in chat about you
. Would learn all of your favourite songs on the guitar
. Would watch TV shows or movies and think about how he wishes he could watch them with you
. Wouldn’t be able to leave bed
. Would drink an insane amount of coffee
. Would cry in the shower
. Would eat takeaway or instant noodles, wouldn’t cook any meals
. Would write a song about you and listen to it on loop
. Would buy your perfume and spray it all over his room and office
. Would punch a punching bag so hard it would make his fist bleed
. He wouldn’t bandage them as you would always bandage them for him
. Lock himself in his room so no one would see him
. Would think about what he should’ve done
. Think about all the things you planned to do together and would never do them because he was scared to do it without you
. He would keep all the little bits of decor that you placed around the house and after awhile would smile every time he seems them
. Would never wash that one hoodie of his that you would always wear
. Would clench just fist when anyone would bring you up
. Would keep all the gifts he got for you in a box under his bed or in the back of his closet and looks at them every year on the anniversary of your death
. Would have multiple breakdowns everyday
. Wouldn’t sleep or eat for days
. Would put nail varnish on just to scratch it of two days later
. Would rely on his friends a lot
. Would turn off his phone or turn off all his notifications for his socials
. Would look at pictures of you and him constantly
. Would reread your midnight chats
. (If you own or use mail varnish)
Would use your nail varnish because it made him feel more connected to you and would be devastated with himself when he finds out that he’s almost used it all up
. Would ALWAYS find himself thinking of you
. Would go to all your favourite spots or all the places you would hang out together
. Steals your things because they have your scent
. Sprays your perfume in his office/room because he likes to pretend your still there
. Wouldn’t want to go to your funeral (because he doesn’t want to accept it) but Wilbur would eventually convince him to go
. Would go to your funeral every day but would eventually only go once every weekend and would just talk to you for hours
. Would get really uncomfortable and try and ignore it when people in donations or chat would bring you up
. Would cry whenever he heard yours and his song
. Would like to imagine your watching over him and always try’s to make you proud
. Would smile and cry every time he saw a clip off you or scrolled accidentally onto one of your old TikTok’s
. Would watch all videos of his you were in just to hear your voice
. Would learn your favourite songs on piano
. When he first found out he would practically beg that it was just a joke or a prank
. Spends all his time in his room
. Would rely heavily on ranboo
. Would try not to bother people
. Would have dreams about you and try and find messages behind them
. Would leave a flower at your grave or a place you always hung out together
. Would love fanart of you two
. Would sit in his room and talk to you before he went to bed
. Would fell bad about getting rid of your makeup or products so would just keep them until ranboo forces him to get rid of them
. Would eat your favourite foods and drinks even if he doesn’t like them
. Would blame the universe
. Would question why it had to happen to him
. Idk why but I feel like he’d be the sort of person to just lay in the road whilst it rains
. Wouldn’t want to leave his fans in the dark and would try and do a video on it, he would have to retake the video so many times because he stated crying so much he couldn’t talk
. He would try and answer donations or messages in chat about you but would be very blunt about it and then change the subject
. Would try and interest himself in your hobbies
. Would sit in your room a lot
. Would sleep in your bed or sleep in his bed and imagine your next to him
. Is terrified of forgetting you so keeps all the pictures he has of you around his house
. Would wear your hoodies
. Would listen to your Spotify playlists
. Would love sitting in bed and watching old videos of you
. Would try and look at the memories happily
. Would accept that she needs time to grief so would take a month or so off of streams and eventually come back and do a stream addressing your death and how she feels at the moment
. Would rely on Wilbur a lot
. Wouldn’t leave the house for a while
. Would spend hours talking to your grave
. Would try and get back to normal but you would always be at the back of her mind