3.5 months
It’s hard to believe it’s been that long. I neglected writing in this blog as my mental health has been suffering over the festive season, as it always does. There were a number of stressors - looking for work, adjusting to a new way of eating and planning meals, trying to begin exercising, Christmas, preparing for a convention, and so on.
My eating has gone to shit, honestly. I’m in a place now where I can start getting back on track, I hope. I’ve been neglecting exercise as well. The gym has been intimidating and I haven’t been more than a couple of times since I signed up. I’m still losing weight and becoming more flexible. I noticed over the convention weekend that I wasn’t tiring as quickly and I could stand for longer periods of time.
I’ve hit a nice round number of 25kg lost since starting this whole process, which I suppose merits this post. While I have more energy when I’m motivated to do things, my mental health is about the same as before. I’m self-sabotaging my efforts to find work because I’m scared of the whole process; it’s been 6 years since I had a successful job interview. While my marks and degree say that I can do the job, I don’t feel qualified nor able to sell myself in cover letters/interviews.
I met someone who I really fell for at the convention, and the impossibility of anything serious coming from it is also getting me down. While it’s clear that I am finally opening myself up to the possibility of seeing someone, I feel like it would be easier to shut myself off from that. I’m trying not to be melancholy about this but it really does feel pretty crap.












