Journey to Healthy Happiness

This blog is my weight loss story in progress. I’ve gone from supplement shakes to paleo to keto to pregnant and now postpartum & keto again! Thanks to keto I’ve lost all of my baby weight and am now trying to reach my original goal of 150. CW: 149 Original GW: 150 New Goal: 140

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149!

I have officially supassed my goal weight of 150 which has been my goal weight for...Maybe 6 years? I am so happy! I don’t deel deprived at all eating keto and I can’t wait to see where it continues to take me. In almost 3 months I have lost 21 pounds. I love, love, LOVE keto!

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New Goal

Well, I’ve been back and forth the last couple of weeks between a pound or two but basically I’m stuck at 151. One. Fifty. One! My goal for literally years has been 150 and thanks to keto I’m SO close. With that being said, although I feel better and look amazing compared to what I did...I need a new goal. I’m still not physically where I want to be. So, 140 it is. I’ll get there!

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Staying Strong

I have stayed keto since December 30th. Today I am 156 pounds! I haven’t weighed this in roughly 5 years and it was my lowest weight with 2 meal replacement shakes a day. I am 14 pounds less than when I got pregnant and my little guy is almost 11 months. I feel amazing! I wasn’t sure I’d ever see myself weighing this low again unless I did shakes again which is not for me. I am eating real, delicious food. I love keto!

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So. Proud.

For as long as I remember my mom and I have had a tradition of eating a certain icecream together from a local drive in restaurant. I’ve told her about my goals and she knows how hard I’m working towards them. Well, today when I went to visit at lunch she had one waiting for me. I told her I have been going strong for 25 days and I’m not going to ruin it. I even placed it in the freezer for my dad. Never...NEVER have I denied one of these! I am so proud of my will power today! Maybe it’ll make her think twice and hopefully start taking her health seriously because her diet is awful and honestly, it caused me to have the bad habits I’ve always struggled with. Keto on.

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Carbs Are The Enemy

You guys...I started eating low-carb on July 10th and today I am DOWN 10 POUNDS! Not even a month yet and I've lost that much stubborn baby weight. To say I'm excited is an understatement.

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2 Weeks Down!

I've lost a total of 7 pounds. I know this is a lot less than a lot of people lose in the beginning but losing postpartum weight while breastfeeding is quite difficult for my body apparently. Considering the scale didn't budge for about a month before I began low carb, I'm super stoked! 7.9 pounds away from pre-pregnancy weight and then I need to keep on keepin' on. My macros look quite a bit different than a lot of people's because I'm actually just aiming for less than 80 carbs a day so I don't lose my milk supply. It's already gone down some so I've gotta be really careful.

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How to talk to your daughter about her body, step one: Don’t talk to your daughter about her body, except to teach her how it works. Don’t say anything if she’s lost weight. Don’t say anything if she’s gained weight. If you think your daughter’s body looks amazing, don’t say that. Here are some things you can say instead: “You look so healthy!” is a great one. Or how about, “You’re looking so strong.” “I can see how happy you are – you’re glowing.” Better yet, compliment her on something that has nothing to do with her body. Don’t comment on other women’s bodies either. Nope. Not a single comment, not a nice one or a mean one. Teach her about kindness towards others, but also kindness towards yourself. Don’t you dare talk about how much you hate your body in front of your daughter, or talk about your new diet. In fact, don’t go on a diet in front of your daughter. Buy healthy food. Cook healthy meals. But don’t say, “I’m not eating carbs right now.” Your daughter should never think that carbs are evil, because shame over what you eat only leads to shame about yourself. Encourage your daughter to run because it makes her feel less stressed. Encourage your daughter to climb mountains because there is nowhere better to explore your spirituality than the peak of the universe. Encourage your daughter to surf, or rock climb, or mountain bike because it scares her and that’s a good thing sometimes. Help your daughter love soccer or rowing or hockey because sports make her a better leader and a more confident woman. Explain that no matter how old you get, you’ll never stop needing good teamwork. Never make her play a sport she isn’t absolutely in love with. Prove to your daughter that women don’t need men to move their furniture. Teach your daughter how to cook kale. Teach your daughter how to bake chocolate cake made with six sticks of butter. Pass on your own mom’s recipe for Christmas morning coffee cake. Pass on your love of being outside. Maybe you and your daughter both have thick thighs or wide ribcages. It’s easy to hate these non-size zero body parts. Don’t. Tell your daughter that with her legs she can run a marathon if she wants to, and her ribcage is nothing but a carrying case for strong lungs. She can scream and she can sing and she can lift up the world, if she wants. Remind your daughter that the best thing she can do with her body is to use it to mobilize her beautiful soul.

Sarah Koppelkam (via itsnotjustpms)

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Postpartum Weightloss

It's been forEVER since I've posted. Long story short I had an amazing planned pregnancy and an all natural birth almost 4 months ago! I have an amazing baby boy and I've gained a whole new level of respect for my body and the things it can do! However, I've got this little guy who needs a happier, healthier mommy now. I gained 45 pounds during my pregnancy (oops) and for the first time saw the scale go over 200 - I was 215. The weight didn't fall off of me, I lost 25 slowly and then 6 more this last month. 31 total lost since birth. So currently 184. My original goal was 150, at the moment I'm aiming for 170 (pre-prego weight) but would love to see where my willpower can take me! 150 would be amazing. Today was the first day I've aimed for less than 80 carbs. I am breastfeeding and don't want to lose my supply so we shall see how this goes! I turned down chocolate cake today. That's huge.

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Vacation Eating

So I took a mini trip with the hubs this weekend. We had cheesecake, asian food, boneless wings and fries, all crappy food really. I didn't even try to justify it this time, I just ate what made me happy. I gained 3 unhappy pounds, though. I'm really disappointed in my current status. I wanted to be 140 by now. By June of 2016. Instead, I'm lingering between 163 - 169 and have been for a couple of months. Annnnd the main reason I wanted to lose the weight by now is because the hubs and I would like to start a family. I've always had a fear of gaining too much pregnancy weight, then not being able to lose it. My metabolism has always sucked...maybe I'll luck out and having a baby will make it better. Another thing recently is I absolutely hate everything about my legs. They're short, they're filled with cellulite, stretch marks...they just all around suck. When the hell did this happen and why didn't I stop it from getting worse years ago?! I want so badly to be confident. Not just when my husband calls me sexy, not just when a guy at the store checks me out, not just when a friend compliments me...I want to look in the mirror naked, and think, "Damn I look good." And I haven't done that in way too long. Regardless, hopefully I will be pregnant soon. And then hopefully after baby is here, I can reach my goal. At least tone my legs waaaay more and reach 150. Pray for me y'all. I want to be a healthy mommy, in every way.

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My Food Journey

It's quite frustrating to find something that "works" for me and then slowly but surely fall of the wagon again. I've gone from meal replacement shakes to what I thought was healthy to very strict paleo to low carb/high fat. Part of me still thinks there could be some major complications later on from eating high fat long term. I am currently eating low carb, but also have quite a few cravings that I let get to me more and more often. So, I am only maintaining. I am far from where I used to be, but not where I truly want to be. I feel like my happy spot would be 150, which means 14 pounds to go. I've been around 164-170ish for the last year now. The lowest I got with paleo was 161. I just really need to find a routine that is real food, keeps me from craving, and can help me slowly lose and then maintain. I have to stop changing my diet every few months before my body hates me. I've thought about making it this simple and seeing where it takes me: Eggs, meat, vegetables, fruit, cheese and some extra dairy like whipping cream and sour cream. Other than that, maybe an OCCASIONAL cheat day. Maybe if I set in place one day a week, maybe a month to have that one "treat" I've been craving it will be enough to make me not go all out and completely off track. Maybe I just need to go back to the basic "well balanced diet and exercise." Not less than 30 carbs a day, but definitely less than I used to eat. At the most 100 a day. Maybe I'll try this.

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Clean Eating

Some days I'm really motivated. Today, all I can think about is cookie dough ice-cream.

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Child of God

I am working very hard on trying to be more positive about the khakis. It's one day, it will not kill me, and hopefully no one even notices my cellulite. If they do, it shouldn't matter to me anyway. My body has come a long way, I am not morbidly obese, I am overweight and working on it. I probably also won't be the only self-conscious person there. I need to let this be a positive learning experience instead of that terrible day I had to wear tan pants and was worried all day that someone would see my flaws that I hate so much. I am a child of God, and I am created in his image. If he thinks I am perfect, no one else's opinion should matter.

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Khakis

I seriously need to work on body image. I always wear black pants or dark jeans, I believe no one wants to see my cellulite. Well, I have to go to an event next week where khakis are MANDATORY. Last time I work khakis was probably 10 years ago, back when I realized I was overweight. I am struggling so bad with this. I bought a pair last night that do fit, but I think I look terrible in them. I've literally been stressing over it all day. Is there a way to make them look better? Is everyone going to notice my cellulite? Should I call in sick that day? Should I just suck it up? Also, I hate dressing rooms. They leave me feeling disappointed in my 164 pound self for days.

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Fuck Food Addiction

I'm just pissed today. I took a road trip yesterday with some friends and gave into temptation. I had sweets, Mexican food and Mongolian stir fry all in one day. This caused me to gain 3 pounds that will take days of very clean eating to get off. I have been avoiding carbs except for every once in awhile, which is really stupid because I shouldn't be having any more than 20 a day if I want to lose the weight. If I know this, why do I still give in? If I'm unhappy with the results carbs give me, why the hell do I still want to taste them? And I see someone like a friend that can eat whatever the fuck she wants and not gain a pound, she's flawless. She hardly ever eats a healthy meal. She is just as addicted if not more addicted than me, but it doesn't phase her because it doesn't change he appearance. It's such bullshit! I hate the food industry. I hate my taste buds. I had that I love food. I especially hate my shitty metabolism. I needed to rant.

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LCHF Week 2 Complete

2 week mark! Down 3.4 this week. That’s a total 7.2 pounds in 2 weeks!!! 😍

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Peanut Butter Chocolate Fudge

This stuff is holy: Rich, velvet peanut butter chocolate fudge with a crushed peanut topping makes for a decadent low carb dessert or sweet treat! (2.2g carbs per square)

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Which tortillas did you use?

The Mission with 4 net carbs!