she nodded, feigning sorrow for her past actions, even though if presented with the choice - she would probably do everything the same. it wasn't kind to emilia, but she had never seen their relationship as real in the first place. something more akin to a business partnership, maybe, with willow helping her to maximize her benefits and making sure she kept part of it for herself. her eyes flashed upwards as emilia mentioned their relationship and willow wondered if the blonde still considered her as an ex-girlfriend, or an ex-something, with everything she had done to her. "i know. i just - i didn't want this to become a whole thing where you provided for me, it's .. embarrassing." she exhaled, lowering her gaze again. she had to play this subtly, to make sure emilia believed it all, if she wanted to find her spot back in her life, or something close enough to it. and well, she did miss the blonde. sometimes. the other's words echoed at the same time and she couldn't help the slight smile that tugged at the corners of her lips. i do really like you. was emilia still so foolish, after everything that had happened? ignoring the obvious boundary that the blonde hid behind, willow walked around the counter until she was close enough, hand reaching for the blonde, only to shift course at the last minute and toy with one of the flowers. "are you really asking me that, baby?" her voice was softer and she took another step closer to emilia, exhaling softly. "i want you. i've never stopped wanting you, or thinking about you. despite everything i did, it's .. it's always been you, emi." her head tilted to face the blonde, teeth chewing in false nervousness at her bottom lip as she slowly let her hand graze her shoulder before she dropped it back along her side. "but i know i don't deserve you. i never did. i just - it's not the same without you around. i think about you all the time, i can't help it. do you think about me too? it's okay if you don't."