✧ outlet ✧

𝖒𝖊 𝖊𝖝𝖕𝖗𝖊𝖘𝖘𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖒𝖞𝖘𝖊𝖑𝖋 𝖆𝖓𝖉 𝖑𝖊𝖙𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖊𝖛𝖊𝖗𝖞𝖙𝖍𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖒𝖞 𝖒𝖎𝖓𝖉 𝖎𝖘 𝖈𝖗𝖊𝖆𝖙𝖎𝖓𝖌 𝖑𝖊𝖆𝖛𝖊 𝖒𝖞 𝖇𝖔𝖉𝖞.

[heavyheartsshallspeak]

I just don't know where to begin and where to end anymore. And I don't want one of your rational and pragmatic solutions. I don't want any solution at all. I just want to be comforted and loved.

[heavyheartsshallspeak]

* insert LilyPichu/ comfi beats - dreamy night here *

[heavyheartsshallspeak]

things just have been pretty tough these couple of days, been taking my breath and making breathing harder. but that's alright, as long as i know i'll keep on breathing anyways it's alright.

my heavy heart just spoke

[bamsara]

the overwhelming grief of losing an entire year to sickness, violence and pandemic fatigue is settling in so id like to remind everyone that: you are not a failure, yes there is still a happy future for you, and wearing a mask is very sexy

[heavyheartsshallspeak]

✊🏻✊🏼✊🏽✊🏾✊🏿

[heavyheartsshallspeak]

feelings suck

                                            💘❤️💔❤️💘

                                   - – ⇾ feelings suck ⇽ – -

                                                      💔

She is there. She is here. With him. With her boyfriend. And she does nothing about it. And she seems happy with him. Pain runs through my body. Pain paralyses my head. I watch them, feeling left out. I sit next to them, feeling out of place. He is now always by her side. He is now hers. In front of them, I am nothing. In front of them, I am alone.

            ❝Did he make your heartbeat faster than I could?                       Did he give you what you hoped for?       All nights so loveless love, I hope it made you feel good                         knowing how much I adored you.❞

                   How can she talk about our beautiful time in front of him?               How can she smile, thinking about our time and look at him?                                                                Did she ever really love me?                                                                     Has she forgotten all that?                                                                                 What am I to her?                                                                       What have we become?             Does she see me suffering, suffering from the way she acts?                                                                    Does she see what I think?                                                                Why did she bring him here?                                          Why doesn't she care about me anymore?                                                          Does she know that it hurts me?                                                       Does she know I'm uncomfortable?              Does she feel as comfortable with him as she does with me?                  Does she feel the same about him as she does about me?

      ❝I swear, that every word you sang, you wrote them for me.           Like it was a private show, I know you never saw me.                   When the lights come on and I'm on my own,                            will you be there to sing it again?               Could I be the one you talk about in all your storys?                                             Could I be him?❞

                                                      💔

                                     ⇽ – - ʞɔns sɓuılǝǝɟ - – ⇾

                                            💘❤️💔❤️💘

                            [first songtext: daughter - love                second songtext: james arthur - can i be him?]

[heavyheartsshallspeak]

🌫️🌆

[heavyheartsshallspeak]

crystal clear minds aren’t crystals. they’re just empty.

[heavyheartsshallspeak]

𝖏 𝖆 𝖓 𝖎 𝖓 𝖆

small secret santa gift for a friend who luckily isn't on this platform and won't know of it until i’ll finally give it to her :)

                                      ⊱ ────── {⋅.  ✧ .⋅} ────── ⊰

                                                           warm summer days in the town                                                         lost and aimlessly going for walks                                                                                 in unknown places

'cause we are too much into our words and talks and shared toughts to actually notice where we are        and where we are going

dancing in a dark practice room which could be anywhere with you                                       wild happy hyper                                                 calm soft tender

                                                                     trust and darkest places                                                                                          of our souls                                                                                 together with you                                                                                  i want to explore

[heavyheartsshallspeak]

i really want to leave this life right now.

[heavyheartsshallspeak]

i need summer

[heavyheartsshallspeak]

standing in the bathroom in the middle of the night, realising how much you actually can't stand yourself while brushing your teeth, crying silently being disappointed in yourself. - this is the mood.

[heavyheartsshallspeak]

midnight sky

stars in mind, fog in sight, deep in thoughts

mid of night, lonely sky, i always think about

what we could have been until i never saw you again

my heart still hurts, but i just try to not think about it

my friends, they probably see how i die don’t want to admit that

you’re totally gone and i won’t ever see you again.

[heavyheartsshallspeak]

i was looking for fairies, so they showed me their home and gave me some sunshine ❀