❝ ʜodnes ʟaik ҡwelnes ❞

Written By Medusa

[hedaiism]

The pain was UNBEARABLE. Each time she tried to take a breath it was pulled right back out of her as if she were being punched repeatedly. Lexa wanted nothing more than to just lie down && let the earth swallow her. But with so many depending on her she couldn’t. The only thing she could do was mustered every ounce of strength she had left && blinked the tears from her eyes before they had a chance to become too noticeable. She didn’t even have to be looking at those around her to know that they were waiting to see whether this would BREAK her. It felt as though their stares BURNED through her like ACID, watching && judging as she struggled to hold herself together.

                        Was this what it meant to be Commander?

                                                                        To n e v e r let anyone get c l o s e to you?

Anya had warned her it was going to be hard, but she thought she could take it. && if needed she was prepared to sacrifice her love for the sake of the clan, but not like this. This clan was like her family, && she NEVER wanted anyone to get hurt, especially not Costia . The moment Lexa first locked eyes with her she knew it would be hard to ignore her. Day after day she would find herself glancing over at the girl, always to be met with a smile. That smile alone was enough to create a hurricane of butterflies to form, though she was sure to never show it. She knew that others would be watching && if she was to do something, even as small as smiling for a second or two, those around her would deem her weak && start disobeying her.

                                                         But that didn’t stop them.

Whether it was brushing her fingers over Lexa’s while she handed her some fruit or even being as bold to fix up her war paint when it wasn’t even, Costia always managed to find ways to get close to her. && although Lexa enjoyed it a little bit more than she was suppose to she stuck to her plan; refuse to show any signs of affection back to her. Which, she thought, was a rather effective solution, until one day when that determined girl snuck into her tent. To do something so reckless just in order to get some alone time with her was something Lexa hadn’t foreseen. Though this time was different to all the rest, she wasn’t playing around anymore, && what’s worse, she had caught the commander off-guard; her lips slightly parted && eyes glued to the girl, trying to anticipate her next move as if it were a battle.

                                                       Why was her heart beating so f a s t ?

                                                                                      she had lost c o n t r o l {of herself}

Before she even had a chance to collect herself the girl with raven hair && that radiant smile closed the space between them within seconds. Lips crashing against lips in a fervent kiss. Lexa loathed herself for being so easy to succumb to her desires. They had trained her to withstand torture, to pull the knife out && keep fighting, but they never trained her how to resist l u s t . Pushing her away, in her mind, would have been worse than death by a thousand cuts.

How could she let this happen? To let her heart get to her head, && let Costia get close to her. She should have heeded Anya’s warning:

                              you are fire. Stand too close, && people get BURNED.

[dateagirlwhosuggestion]

date a girl who says “fight me” to everything, including inanimate objects

[hedaiism]

" if we burn, you burn with us. "

【 @zeusveined​ 】⇾ hunger games trilogy || starters

❝ I’m not staying here, waiting to die. ❞

Not  when she was stuck here with him. She has no problem accepting that her time as commander is over, && that it’s time to let the next in line take her place. but she wasn’t about to give up && be burned to ash. 

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[toodrunktofindaurl]

“Death is not the end”

Bonus: After-life Anya finds out it was Titus’ fault

[hedaiism]

[ Okay so I have some uni shit due tomorrow & i may or may not have forgotten abt it until a few days ago so bear with me guys. I’ll b more active once i finish is. ]

If you would like a i’m sorry i havent been on much but here you go starter then feel free to like this post and I’ll get round to it 

[mybcst]

i don’t even know how this happened because i’ve only had this account for (not even) a week but i’m so grateful to hitting my first milestone already. as a little thanks to the fandom for being so welcoming, i’m doing a ‘small’ giveaway.

Rules/Extra Entries

You must be following me.

You must be an RP account.

You must reblog this to enter but if you reblog and like you get two entries.

if you reblog my promo, located here you get an extra two entires.

so all in all you can have a total of 4 entries by two simple reblogs within the next two weeks. 

how many winners and what are the prizes

depending on how many people enter 2 or 3 people will get to choose 4 out of the 6 bellow.

( theme, icon psd to match your theme and 25 icons, short fan-vid, gif-set, promo, duel promo with me. )

Examples?

this post contains a lot of my examples, as well as everything made on this blog.

When will this end?

In exactly two weeks.

[fightersuggestion]

why should i resolve things peacefully when i can fucking punch you in the face

[becomcdeath-blog]

                           “ the ONLY way out of the LABYRINTH of suffering                                                                is to FORGIVE. ”

                                              indie clarke griffin

[unseenmockingjay]

FLASH THEME GIVEAWAY.

i’m in a serious theme making mood so here is a flash giveaway! ends in 2 hours —- 2am GMT. and theres 2 winners. must be following me, likes a reblogs count, must be a roleplay blog. enjoy!

examples ;  ★   ★   ★   ★   ★

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hunger games trilogy || starters

feel free to change pronouns , tenses , etc .

❝  it takes 10 times as long to put yourself back together as it does to fall apart .❞ ❝  why am i not dead ? i should be dead .❞ ❝ having an eye for beauty isn’t the same thing has having a weakness .❞ ❝  i wish i could freeze this moment , right here , right now , & live in it forever .❞ ❝  no one really needs me .❞ ❝ remember , we’re madly in love , so it’s all right to kiss me anytime you feel like it .❞ ❝  i am not pretty . i am not beautiful . i am as radiant as the sun .❞ ❝  you love me . real or not real ? ❞ ❝  ally . friend . lover . victor . enemy . fiancee . target . mutt . neighbor . hunter . ally. i’ll add it to the list of words i use to try to figure you out.  ❞ ❝  here it’s safe , here it’s warm .❞ ❝  i’m not like the rest of you . there’s no one left i love .❞ ❝  i’m very hard to catch , & if they can’t catch me , they can’t kill me .❞ ❝  stupid people are dangerous .❞ ❝  you don’t forget the face of the person who was your last hope .❞ ❝  you’ve got about as much charm as a dead slug .❞ ❝  my nightmares are usually about losing you .❞ ❝  for there to be betrayal , there would have to have been trust first .❞ ❝  destroying things is much easier than making them .❞ ❝  here’s some advice . stay alive .❞ ❝  they’ll either want to kill you , kiss you , or be you .❞ ❝  you’re not leaving me here alone .❞ ❝  well , i don’t have much competition here .❞ ❝  you here to finish me off , sweetheart ? ❞ ❝  i stand by what i said . do you want me to lie about it ? ❞ ❝  because i’m selfish . i’m a coward . ❞ ❝  you & me , we’re even . no more owed . you understand ? ❞ ❝  if we burn , you burn with us .❞ ❝  what ? do you find this distracting ? ❞ ❝  i can still rip your throat out .❞ ❝  where’s loverboy ? ❞ ❝  i’m the kind of girl who , when she might actually be of use , would run to stay alive and leave those who couldn’t follow to suffer and die .❞ ❝  the kisses have the opposite effect , of make my need greater . i thought i was something of an expert on hunger , but this is an entirely new kind . ❞ ❝  hope . hope is the only thing stronger than fear .❞ ❝  a spark could be enough to set them ablaze . ❞ ❝  kind people have a way of working their way inside me and rooting there .❞ ❝  whatever breaks you .❞ ❝  i am in pain . that’s the only way i get your attention . ❞ ❝  i’m not going anywhere . i’m going to stay here and cause all kinds of trouble .❞ ❝  imagine thousands of your people , dead . your loved ones , gone . ❞ ❝  i hate being so alone .❞ ❝  don’t make me sorry i restarted your heart .❞ ❝  they will kill us .❞ ❝  you know , you could live a thousand lifetimes and not deserve him .❞ ❝  please feel free to take this personally . ❞ ❝  at some point , you have to stop running & turn around and face whoever wants you dead .❞ ❝  aim higher in case you fall short .❞ ❝  some walks you have to take alone .❞ ❝  whatever breaks you .❞ ❝  well , you’re a piece of work , aren’t you ? ❞ ❝  isn’t it strange that i know you’d risk your life to save mine , but i don’t even know what your favorite color is ? ❞ ❝  you are my life .❞ ❝  i’m here to help you make an impression .❞ ❝  you have no idea . the effect you can have .❞ ❝  if desperate times call for desperate measures , then i am free to act as desperately as i wish .❞ ❝  so when did I become so special ? ❞ ❝  you’re not afraid i’ll kill you tonight ? ❞ ❝  technically , i am unarmed . but no one should underestimate the harm fingernails can do .❞ ❝  i doubt they’ll figure out our plan , since we can barely understand it ourselves .❞ ❝  mess with us & we’ll do something worse than kill you . we’ll kill your children .❞ ❝  you’re kind of squeamish for such a lethal person .❞ ❝  you’re not going to die . i forbid it . all right ? ❞ ❝  i thought we had an agreement not to lie to each other. ❞ ❝  closing my eyes doesn’t help . fire burns brighter in the darkness . ❞ ❝  jealousy is certainly involved . ❞ ❝  what is the worst pain ? to me , it’s always the pain that is present . ❞ ❝  i’ve been down by the stream collecting berries . would you care for some ? ❞ ❝  may the odds be ever in your favor .❞ ❝  what i need is the dandelion in the spring . the bright yellow that means rebirth instead of destruction . the promise that life can go on , no matter how bad our losses .❞ ❝  ____ ? maybe some pants ? ❞ ❝  i can’t tell what’s real anymore , & what’s made up . ❞ ❝  i knew you’d kiss me . ❞

[hedaiism]

Okay so I’ve been thinking abt a scenario where clarke (or someone else) is at the markets with lexa && they’re both casually looking at stuff but lexa is always drawn to the different candles for sale && whoever is wth her is just like “lexa pls u have enough!”

[v0dv4rk4]

RBLOG/LIKE this post if you're NOT watching The 100 after lexas death

[hedaiism]

         I AM:                                 Absolute, abomination, alone.

                   I AM:                               Breath-taking, baleful, bitter.

                              I AM:                                        Damned, darling, d e a d.

[chattiest]

if karma doesn’t hit you, I gladly will.

Chattiest (via chattiest)

[musingmemes]

suggestive starters meme ( nsfw )

why don’t you make me?

i like you better on your knees.

i can think of a few ways to shut you up.

i wonder if you’re as loud in bed as your are everywhere else.

try and stop me.

is that a complaint i hear?

i hope you’re not too fond of that shirt.

why are you siting over there? there’s a perfectly good lap right here.

i thought you liked it when i was bossy.

are you saying this doesn’t turn you on?

i can tell you’re hot and bothered from all the way over here.

i hope you don’t plan on walking much tomorrow.

you’re not the boss of me.

you’re hot when you’re angry.

don’t make me come over there.

i’m this close to taking you over my knee.

you’re being an awfully bad boy/girl.

you know you want it.

you sure talk a big game… but can you live up to it?

i’m not sure you could handle me.

is that a challenge?

[warmsuggestion]

I like to frown upon things in my free time.