I feel like I’m underwater and when I come up for air Heeseung is going to be back. None of this will be true. But if I am being honest…I knew something was wrong. He hasn’t looked happy. Something was so subdued about him and I was hoping it was just a phase. We all go through down times…
I wonder if he just was not willing to go all in on the vampire concept? It sounds like he created a lot of releasable stuff that perhaps did not fit the group conceptually, but why would he need to leave to make it? Yeonjun made a ton of music solo as part of TXT and Yeonjun is like one of the biggest names in 4th gen…
I feel like part of this had to be Heeseung’s decision… Which leads me to question WHY would he make this decision? Were they trying to give his stuff to other groups or soloists? There is no question he has the ability to be a soloist, the group in made up of incredible talent. But why would he choose to be alone? Truly, what aren’t they telling us…
Keep it a Secret (or try) | 08. unfortunate live tweeting
synopsis you kinda (literally) catch your brother’s best friend touching himself and can't stop thinking about him after that. He doesn't make it any easier when he starts teasing you.
pairing brother's bff!heeseung x reader
contains kys jokes; suggestive jokes; little age gap (19&22); profanity; a lot of dick jokes; Rei being so into Jake (obviously fake don’t take it seriously).
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synopsis you kinda (literally) catch your brother’s best friend touching himself and can't stop thinking about him after that. He doesn't make it any easier when he starts teasing you.
pairing brother's bff!heeseung x reader
contains kys jokes; suggestive jokes; little age gap (19&22); profanity; a lot of dick jokes; Rei being so into Jake (obviously fake don’t take it seriously).
Keep it a Secret (or try) | 05. stolen glances - written
synopsis you kinda (literally) catch your brother’s best friend touching himself and can't stop thinking about him after that. He doesn't make it any easier when he starts teasing you.
pairing brother's bff!heeseung x reader
contains kys jokes; suggestive jokes; little age gap (19&22); profanity; a lot of dick jokes; Rei being so into Jake (obviously fake don’t take it seriously).
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“No, literally get out.”
Jake ignores you as he slides the door open into the backyard with ingredients on his hands. "I come here in peace, I swear."
"You're not bribing us, dude."
You say, splashing water on him. He jumps back and laughs, "yo, I'm getting into the water anyway."
"You are?" Rei asks, resting her arms on the pool deck with a teasing smile.
He winks at her, making you turn to Wonyoung with a disgusted frown, to which she laughs, obviously.
"Yeah, but that's until the others get here. Mom notices everything, she'll know if I step into the house with wet feet." He glares at you. "Or if something gets broken."
You roll your eyes at him, "you're looking at me like I was at fault."
"You broke our vase."
"That was literally Jungwon's fault. And he replaced it." You defend your friend, earning a smile from your friends.
"Where is your mom anyways?" Liz asks from the corner across you. "Are your parents out?"
You and your brother nod simultaneously.
"Can you believe they went on vacation without us? Said it was for their anniversary." Jake pouts dramatically.
You shake your head in disbelief, about to open your mouth when you hear the door bell ring, cutting you off. Jake looks at you and smiles, "is it your boyfriend?"
You quickly take your feet out of the pool, grabbing your shorts and putting them on. You walk past your brother and flick his head.
"Not my boyfriend."
He mimics you and goes back to cooking whatever he was cooking.
You dry your feet before sliding the door open, rushing to the entrance. But when you open the door with a gigantic smile on your face, instead of Jungwon standing behind the door, it's Heeseung, who looked fine as hell. Your smile faded away.
You didn't think what you were wearing was revealing; you were wearing a tankini that covered most of your stomach and shorts to cover your actual swim bottom. But you suddenly felt too self-aware of the little clothes you were wearing when you saw Heeseung basically analyzing every part of your body.
He looked good himself, that you couldn't deny; a simple white shirt, a peachy colored cap that he was wearing backwards, and trousers that were not only matching his cap, but your tankini. When he finally finished analyzing you, he smiles and looks back at you, tilting his head to the side.
"You seem disappointed to see me."
“Not who I was expecting.” You open the door wider for him to be able to walk in with the box of beer he was carrying. He chuckles, the sound of it filling your ears as he walks past you. Instead of going straight to the backyard, he goes to stand behind you, helping you hold the door.
And before you could say something to him, that one friend of your brother’s interrupts:
“Looking good, little Sim!”
Sunghoon eyes you from head to toe and smirks, making you roll your eyes and step back, letting Heeseung hold the door for the others as you ignore them and walk back to the backyard.
Heeseung hits the back of Sunghoon’s neck, earning a grunt from him.
Once you’re settled in the backyard with your girl friends, you grab your phone and quickly text Jungwon.
you: door's unlocked
junglost: yes ma'am🫡🫡
You chuckle at his response and throw your phone back to your seat, then turn to your friends. Liz is already taking her cover-up to go into the pool when you see Wonyoung grinning at you, swimming over like a puppy.
"He totally checked you out."
Knowing who she meant, your eyes instantly found Heeseung's, who was already looking your way. He bites his lips and turns back to your brother, who for some reason was about to burn all the food.
You turn back to your friend and chuckle. "Am I immature for thinking about his—you know what—every time I see him?"
"Girl, i see it too and I didn't even see the thing." She giggles, "I don't think it's immature. But, I do think you're still thinking about it because you're into him."
You scoff a laugh, "that doesn't mean I want to see his—" you cut yourself off, "—you know what I mean."
She blows a kiss before swimming back to Liz, who was playing mermaids with Rei.
You stand up and take off your shorts, going unnoticed of the eyes trailing over your body. You weren’t a self-conscious person, you knew you were pretty, but you weren’t aware that your body made an effect on people. Even though your brother’s friends have made it clear they thought you were hot, you aren’t awkward around them, you aren’t uncomfortable taking your shorts off to jump into the pool when they were around. On the other side, around boys your age.., that was a different story.
When you finally jump into the pool, you don't notice the amount of water you splash on the group of boys. You come back out of the water, leaving your body under it and turn to your friends with a smile.
"The water's freezing!" You giggle, making Rei swim to you and wrap her whole body around you.
"I'll warm you up, baby." She teases, leaving kisses on your face affectionately.
Your smile could make someone fall to their knees, your laugh? It could kill millions.
"I've never wanted a threesome this much." Sunghoon says out loud for his friends to hear. They all slowly turn to him, to which he shrugs. "What? We're all thinking the same thing here." He nudges his arm with Jake's before chugging his beer.
"That's my sister?" Jake cries out loud, flipping the burger patty. Sunghoon rolls his eyes at him then turns to the oldest with a grin.
"You know what I'm talking about, don't ya'?" He teases.
Heeseung ignores him, the cold beer in his hand still as he watches you do flips under water with Liz.
It was weird, he never saw you this way. He always saw you like Jake's little sister. He was only three years older than you, he used to give you and your friends rides to parties and hang outs because you weren't old enough to drive. So why did that change now? He always thought you were cute, but the kind of cute he giggles at the sight of just because. But right now? The sight of you— how your the sun reflected on your beautiful skin, leaving it sun-kissed, how your hair broke into curls from it being wet, how your smile— gosh, your smile. His heart beat increased by your smile. He swears he could almost died if you smiled at him really close.
"Y/n!"
Heeseung immediately looks away from you when your brother calls your name and you turn around, almost like he was embarrassed to be caught staring.
"What?" You scrunch your face, placing a hand close to your face to cover the sun.
"Are you sure it's only you four and five more?" You nod, making him groan. "Ugh, okay. Here I go; if I give you guys hamburgers are we allowed to go in the pool?"
Rei gasps and jumps on your back, splashing water on everyone. "Yes, you can, jakey." She winks, leaning closer to you to whisper; "say yes, pretty please."
"Oh, my God." You laugh, throwing her back underwater. You turn to Jake and the others and smile, "we get fries with that too."
He salutes you, "sir, yes, sir!"
Right when you were about to go back under the water, the door slides open, revealing your best friend. And with excitement, you hop out of the pool and hug him.
Jungwon was your best friend; you had med each other in kindergarten, cliche, you know that. He was a shy kid and shy kids used to get bullied back then, so you did what any good person would do; punch the monster who was bullying the cute boy. After that? You two have been inseparable. It's all platonic, you two know that, and nothing would ever change that.
You don't notice, but Heeseung definitely rolled his eyes and completely ignored the boy.
"Hi, Junglost!" You smile as you pull away from the hug. The boy scrunches his face, now looking at his wet shirt.
"This was my dry shirt." He pouts, making you hit his shoulder. "Only Anton and Sunoo could make it, by the way."
"Yeah.. too sad, I haven't seen the girls since we entered spring break." You pat his should before completely pulling away. "Where are the others?"
He throws his head back dramatically, gesturing to the open door. You bite your lip, waiting for the two other guys to come in, and when they do, you can't help but smile.
Then enters Lee Chanyoung— but everyone calls him Anton. You have a huge crush on him, always have, and always will. He's cute, smart, sweet, and hot. But everyone knows that, and unfortunately for you, you don't want to ruin the friendship you have with him. It wasn't like the one you had with Jungwon, but it was close.
Behind you, Jungwon is saying 'hi' to the girls, dabbing up the guys, dabbing up a certain guy whose grip was really rough.
"Hey, Y/n." The boy comes in with Sunoo, both their smiles basically lighting up the world. "We brought iced tea, your favorite, right?" He raises four bottles and you nod excitedly.
"Yes, how did you know?" You take one from his hands with a smile. Sunoo hugs her by the side and mumbles a small 'hey' before walking past the pair and going to the girls.
Anton chuckles, "it's all you drink when we hang out." He says, making you awkwardly nod. And just when he was going to open his mouth, someone cuts him off. "I—"
"—what's up?" Heeseung butts in, standing between you two. You look at him, confused, as his hand raised to dab up Anton. "Heeseung."
The younger one chuckles and nods, taking his hand. "Anton."
Heeseung nods, gripping a little bit too hard on the boy's hand as he turns to you with a flat smile. "You two...?"
"Friends." You both respond.
"Ah..." he nods, letting go of Anton's head. "Nice meeting you, bro." He gives him a quick pat on the back before taking one of the iced tea bottles, walking away from you two.
You and Anton stand there, awkwardly looking everywhere but the other.
"Are you going into the pool?" You ask.
He smiles at you, and gosh that smile made you want to die.
—
Hanging out with your brother's friends wasn't as bad as you thought it would be, if you excluded the fact that the boys were too close to the girls even though the pool was 20ft long.
You and Wonyoung were talking to Jungwon and Anton, like the friends you were, only one of those friends a tad close to you, close enough that his bicep brushes on your arm. On the other hand, Heeseung and Sunghoon weren't doing well, they were shooting straight daggers at the boys, making it painfully obvious that they wished they were in the younger ones' place.
"Guys, should we play battles?" Jake shouts over the sound of the music.
Sunoo clapped next to him, quickly gesturing to you to pick Anton. You shake your head almost immediately and gesture at him to shut up. He rolls his eyes at you and pouts, making you laugh.
"Are you laughing at Sunoo?" Anton whispers next to you, almost startling you from how close he felt. You turn to him and immediately blush when you see how, in fact, close you two were. You nod, not being able to respond with words and he chuckles, so softly it almost makes you have an eargasm.
"I pick Rei!" Jake raises his hand almost instantly.
"Okay, I'll pick Wonyoung!" The girl groans at Sunghoon's words but still swims over to him, making him smile in victory.
"Jungwon and Y/n cannot be together." Liz pointed her finger at you two.
You and Jungwon were competitive, and unfortunately, were banned from being in the same team.
Jungwon frowns and dramatically swims away from you, making his way to Sunoo, who cheered.
You giggle at the boy, not noticing the two boys who were looking your way. Heeseung was hesitant, but way faster than Anton was, because just when Anton was about to ask you to be with him, he stole you.
"I get Y/n." He says, too casual.
You feel being dragged away from Anton, suddenly feeling someone's hands around your lower abdomen.
Anton didn't really seem sad or betrayed, for some reason, he seemed even happier. "I get to be the judge then, right?" He asks Jake.
"That's correct, my brother!"
You only realize Heeseung's arms are actually on you when he presses your abdomen a little bit, pressing you close to him. You slightly cock your head to the side, meet with his eyes, and look away, not giving him any reaction.
You feel him chuckle, the feeling of his laughter vibrating on your body.
"Okay, wonyoung and sunghoon versus Heeseung and Y/n battle each other because they're the tallest." Anton guides everyone to move away to let you guys be in the center.
Heeseung turns you around, facing you and with a smirk, he says; "hop on."
On the inside, you had exploded. On the outside, you only roll your eyes at him and go on his back. He goes underwater and grabs your thighs, wrapping them around you, and when he goes above the water, you immediately grab his hair for support, tugging it slightly to make him groan. You laugh, slapping the back of his head.
"My bad." He mumbles.
You look ahead of you, noticing Sunghoon wrapping his arms around Wonyoung and her flicking them away, making you laugh.
"It's for support!" He defends.
"I don't need it!" She yells back, pulling his hair.
"Okay, ladies ladies. Let the judge judge." Jake turns to Anton, who smiles brightly, swimming over to float perfectly next to both teams.
Heeseung suddenly grips harder, making your thighs press harder on him, making you almost groan at the touch. He notices, of course he notices, and looks up, enough for his eyes to meet with yours. "Comfortable?"
"Shut up." You scoff a laugh.
"Go!" Anton shouts.
You and Wonyoung grab each other and immediately start laughing, trying to push each other off of your partners.
"This is my wet dream!" Rei screams, making Jungwon splash water on her to shut her off, but she only laughs.
You feel Heeseung holding you tighter, his laugh vibrating even more than before as he backed you up. You tickle Wonyoung's side and she immediately giggles, giving you the advantage to push back, letting both Sunghoon and her fall.
"Defeated! Team Y/n and Heeseung have won!" Anton cheers.
You laugh as everyone cheers, splashing water on both of you. You feel Heeseung grab you by the waist and put you down on his back, making you face him. He grabs your hand up high and grins.
"Great job, partner."
You grip on his hands and cock your head to the side. "You too."
You let go of his hand and look away, flexing your nonexistent biceps everywhere, making them laugh.
Behind you, all Heeseung could do was smile, to the point where his cheeks started to hurt.
—
It was 7 pm and you were all still inside the pool, except for Sunoo, who was sitting on one of the chairs, updating his Instagram. And Heeseung, who was nowhere to be found.
Jake and Jungwon had made drinks for everyone, and you couldn't say no to fun drinks. They were your weakness. But because of the lack of alcohol you actually take, your alcohol tolerance is not good.
"I'll be right back." You yawn, your eyes blurry from the mix of dizziness and water.
You take a step back from the group and carefully grab on to Anton's shoulder for support, he helps you get out of the pool and you thank him, before walking into the house. You walked straight upstairs and into your bedroom, for whatever reason and drop to the floor, for whatever reason.
You close your eyes for a second, your energy already fading away. You stay there for a few minutes before you sigh and stand up, walking out of your room. To your surprise, you bump into the chest of the person who was missing.
As a reaction, you gasp. You see Heeseung looking down at you, those doe eyes staring right at you, almost hypnotizing you.
"Hey,"
His voice is quiet, sending chills down your spin.
"Hi." You smile shyly at him.
He chuckles when your eyes trail down his chest, his bare chest which you bumped into. When you look back at him, he drags his eyes down to your body, analyzing the same way he did when he first got to your home. He smiles, taking the string of your tankini underwear with his hand, tugging it slightly. He leans close to your ear, so close you could feel his lips on you.
"Pretty."
Your breath hitches, you freeze, and when he lets go of you and walks away, you go back to your room.
"Oh my gosh." You repeat to yourself in shock as you lock the door and silently scream.
Outside of your door, Heeseung quickly ran down stairs and locked himself in the bathroom.
mars' after notes I WAS GIGGLING THE WHOLE TIME I WROTE THIS BTW
ʚɞ summary - you were never supposed to be the girl at the gallery. just the annoying little sister. a background character, the stubborn omega with her scent locked away and her life carefully contained. but ninety unguarded seconds is all it takes for lee heeseung—your older brother’s best friend—to catch a trace of jasmine and rain and spend a year chasing a ghost. but what he doesn’t know is that his ghost lives down the hall, pretending not to hear him searching. and when the clock finally strikes and he realizes the girl he’s been hunting is the one he’s been fighting for a decade, there’s no glass slipper or fairy godmother—just your thighs around his waist, a bite mark that brands, and a line you’ll never be able to step back across ever again.
ʚɞ tags - 18+ MDNI, f!reader, brother’s best friend, a/b/o dynamics, somewhat cinderella-esque, alpha!heeseung, omega!reader, reader is beomgyu’s sister, true mates, penetrative sex (p in v), knotting, mating
ʚɞ w.c - 8.5k
“You have got to be kidding me.”
You stared at the two men in your brother’s cluttered living room with a distinct sense of dread curling in your stomach.
Your brother, Beomgyu, at least had the decency to look sheepish, scratching the back of his head with a wince. “Look, Y/N, it’s just for a few days. His apartment’s getting fumigated. He’ll even sleep on the couch.”
The other man, Lee Heeseung, also known as the bane of your existence, leaned against the kitchen counter with an infuriatingly casual grace that had grated on your nerves for a decade. He offered a lazy, lopsided smile. “Don’t worry, Choi. I’ll try not to be too much of a nuisance.” The way he said your surname, as though it was a private joke between you two—which it was, a joke where you were always the goddamn punchline—made your teeth click together.
“You’ll try not to be a nuisance?” you repeated, your voice dangerously low. “Heeseung, the last time you ‘crashed’ here, you used my limited-edition shampoo as body wash and left the cap off so it all congealed into a disgusting gel.”
“It smelled pretty good by the end of it,” he shrugged, as if that justified the thirty-dollar waste. “And hey, I got confused. All your little bottles look the same.”
“And the time before that,” you continued, stepping further into the room, “you ‘accidentally’ ate the entire birthday cake I spent three hours baking for Mom’s surprise party.”
“In my defense, it was on the counter. How was I supposed to know it wasn’t up for grabs?” His tone was light, teasing, but his dark eyes watched you with a sharp, unnerving focus that had always felt like too much. When he did that, it always felt like he was seeing past the carefully constructed walls you’d built against him, and you hated it.
Beomgyu sighed, the peacekeeper as always. “Guys, come on. It’s three days. Four, max. Can we not do the whole snarling-at-each-other thing? We’re not kids anymore.”
But you felt like you were, all over again. In a way, you always would be whenever Heeseung was around. The history between the two of you was a live wire.
It had started when you were thirteen. Beomgyu, two years older and infinitely cooler, brought home his new best friend from school: Lee Heeseung, fifteen, all long limbs, sharp wit, and a quiet intensity that set him apart from Beomgyu’s more boisterous friends. You’d been a nerdy kid, predicted to present as an omega in the next couple of years.
But that was the thing—we’re all equal now, the societal mantra went. Alpha, Beta, Omega: they were all just biological quirks. True mates? Fairy tales for children. Your own parents were betas, wonderfully mundane and loving, who’d met at a library and bonded over a love of bad mystery novels. They’d raised you to believe your omega nature was just another facet of you, like your hair color, nothing to define your life. You didn’t use scent-blockers out of shame—no, it was more out of convenience, to keep public spaces neutral.
But Heeseung… Heeseung was an alpha, through and through, and as expected, he presented as one when you were 14. And he wasn’t just any alpha. He was the kind who made the whole “it doesn’t matter” philosophy feel like a flimsy lie. He carried his alpha energy not with the chest-thumping arrogance of stereotypes, but with a coiled, potent presence. It was in the way he commanded a room without saying a word, the way his gaze could feel like a physical weight, the subtle scent of bergamot and cedar that even the strongest blockers couldn’t quite conceal if you were standing close enough.
And he’d disliked you on sight.
Or so it seemed. Your first interaction was him looking down at the fantasy novel in your hands, his lip quirking. “Realm of the Moon Goddess? Isn’t that for kids?” he’d asked, not maliciously, but with a bored condescension that lit a fire in your thirteen-year-old soul.
“It’s about complex political dynamics in a matriarchal society,” you’d shot back, your voice trembling only a little.
“Sure it is,” he’d said, sharing a look with Beomgyu that clearly said, ‘Your sister is a weirdo.’
From there, it was a decade-long war. He was the arrogant, too-perfect golden boy, top of his class, star of the basketball team, effortlessly talented at everything he tried. You were the prickly, overly-sensitive little sister who was too smart for her own good and had a habit of pointing out his flaws with ruthless precision. You stole his homework answers just to change them to be wrong before he turned them in. He’d set your alarm clock two hours early on the day of a big exam. You’d argue about everything—music, books, the best way to make ramyeon. The hostility was familiar, almost comforting.
But…well, there were layers to it.
At seventeen, you’d tried to date. A nice beta from one of your AP classes asked you to the winter formal. You’d said yes. Two days later, he approached you at your locker, face pale. “I, uh… I think it’s best if we don’t go,” he’d stammered, not meeting your eyes. “Your um… friend? Heeseung? He had a talk with me, and—” his bottom lip had started to quiver. “I’m sorry.” Then he’d scurried away. You’d found Heeseung leaning against the wall at the end of the corridor, casually sipping on an iced coffee. “What did you do?” you’d demanded. “Nothing,” he’d said, his dark eyes glinting. “Just had a little chat with him.”
When you were nineteen, you brought an alpha from your university to a family barbecue. His name was Kai, and he seemed perfect on paper—smart, charming in a way that didn’t scream macho alpha bravado. You’d thought, maybe this time, maybe this was the one who wouldn’t make your instincts prickle or send Heeseung into one of his inexplicable moods. Kai even brought your mom flowers, which earned him points before the grill was even lit.
Heeseung, however, had other opinions.
He’d been home for the weekend, lounging in his usual spot on the patio, a beer in hand and a smirk that could cut glass. But the moment Kai walked through the gate, Heeseung’s easygoing demeanor shifted. His posture stiffened, his jaw tightened, and though he didn’t say a word, his presence became suffocating. His scent, usually so controlled, betrayed him, turning sour.
Kai tried to make conversation with him. “So, Heeseung, Y/N was telling me you’re a music producer. That must be intense.”
“It is,” Heeseung replied curtly, his eyes flicking to you as if daring you to intervene.
You’d rolled your eyes and dragged Kai away, determined not to let Heeseung ruin the day. But it was no use. By the time the burgers were served, Kai looked pale and uncomfortable. He excused himself early, claiming a sudden headache. You walked him to the gate, apologizing profusely.
“It’s not you,” he said, glancing over your shoulder toward the house where Heeseung stood watching like a sentinel. “It’s just… your brother’s friend. He’s…” Kai cleared his throat. “Intimidating. And I don’t think he likes me very much.”
You sighed. “I’m sorry. He’s just… like that, I guess.”
Later, you overheard Heeseung talking to Beomgyu in the kitchen, his voice a low, frustrated rumble. “He wasn’t right for her. Y/N deserves better, you know? Not some random guy.”
Beomgyu chuckled, clapping him on the shoulder. “Yeah, yeah, big bad alpha protector. Who is right for her then? You?”
Heeseung hadn’t answered, and you hadn’t known how to take that.
The older the two of you grew, the more the simple dislike mutated. There were stolen, confusing moments where the animosity would crack. The time he found you crying in the backyard after your first real heartbreak at seventeen, not from a person, but from a rejection to your dream university. He’d said nothing, just sat beside you on the grass for an hour in silence, his bergamot and cedar scent strangely calming. The time you sprained your ankle at Beomgyu’s, and Heeseung, without a word, carried you all the way back to your dorm, his grip firm and careful, his jaw tense the entire way. You’d felt his heart hammering against your side, or maybe it was yours.
And then, there was The Scent ™.
It was the great, unspoken mystery of the last year. Heeseung had started talking about it with Beomgyu, and by extension, within your earshot, with a single-minded obsession that was completely unlike his usual detached self.
“It was at your gallery opening,” he’d say, his voice taking on a rare, almost reverent softness that made your skin prickle. “You remember? Last fall? I was by the installations near the back, and it just… hit me. Like jasmine and summer rain on concrete.”
You’d been frozen, listening from the hallway outside Beomgyu’s room. Jasmine and rain.
Your scent.
“I’ve never smelled anything like it,” Heeseung continued, frustration creeping into his tone. “It was—it just smelled like… my mate. I know how that sounds, Gyu. I know we’re supposed to think it’s all bullshit. But it was real. And it was gone as fast as it came. Like—I don’t know, whoever it was put their blocker back on or left the room, or something.”
Beomgyu laughed, clapping him on the shoulder. “Dude, you’re losing it. True mates? Come on. You’ve never believed in all that,” he’d snorted. “You probably smelled some fancy new air freshener the gallery was testing.”
“It wasn’t an air freshener,” Heeseung insisted, his voice low and intense. “It was a person. My person. And I’m going to find them.”
And you’d stand there, your heart trying to beat its way out of your chest, your own scent threatening to spike with panic. No. No, no, no. It was impossible. You’d slid down the wall, hand clamped over your mouth, remembering—
You were fourteen, Heeseung sixteen. He’d leaned over your shoulder to mock your homework, and his scent had washed over you. A bolt of electricity had lanced through you, a feeling of something so intense it stole your breath, but… you’d written it off as just a weird omega response to a potent alpha, just a fluke. That’s all it could’ve been, right? But now, hearing his words, you could see the truth assembling itself with terrifying clarity before your eyes. The pull that had always been there, the overt protectiveness Heeseung had towards you, the way your recent arguments had started feeling like a desperate, fucked-up form of foreplay…
Fuck, it had to be some sort of cosmic joke. Lee Heeseung, your personal nemesis, the man you’d spent half your life building a fortress of dislike against, was apparently your… mate? The one person biologically, primally, tuned to be your perfect match? You could have cried. It was the worst idea in the history of bad ideas.
First, because it was Heeseung. Arrogant, insufferable, messy, condescending Heeseung.
Second, and more importantly, because he was Beomgyu’s best friend. His brother, in all but blood. The unspoken rule in your family, in any sane family, was clear: friends’ siblings were off-limits. It was a recipe for nuclear fallout. If things went bad—and with your history, how could they not?—it would shatter Beomgyu’s longest and dearest friendship and tear your family apart. You’d be the selfish little sister who seduced her brother’s best friend. He’d be the betraying friend who couldn’t keep it in his pants. The potential for ruin was catastrophic.
So you’d doubled down. You’d become colder, sharper, more hostile towards him. You made sure your scent-blockers were the strongest possible. You became, if possible, an even bigger pain in Heeseung’s ass, hoping to drive him so far away that the fragile, impossible thread of that scent in his memory would snap.
And now he was going to be sleeping on your couch for four days.
“Fine,” you bit out, the word tasting like ash. “But you touch my stuff, you breathe wrong, you so much as look at my food, I will castrate you with a rusty spoon.” you threatened. “And for the love of god, shower regularly. Your…” you sneered witheringly. “Alpha musk is overwhelming.”
“Crystal.” he smirked infuriatingly. “Wouldn’t dream of offending your delicate omega sensibilities, Choi.”
The designation in his mouth was another barb.
“Good,” you snapped, turning on your heel and marching to your room, slamming the door just hard enough to be satisfying, but not so hard that Beomgyu would lecture you.
Then you leaned against the door, your breath coming in short, quiet gasps. Jasmine and rain on hot concrete. You could still hear the awe in his voice from a year ago. And now there was a terrifying, traitorous curl of heat low in your belly that had nothing to do with anger.
The first day, you woke to the sound of someone Heeseung whistling off-key in the kitchen. The smell of burnt toast and overly strong coffee invaded your perfect sanctuary. You emerged from your room, dressed in your work-from-home attire—sweatpants and an oversized sweater—your scent-blockers freshly applied.
Heeseung was at the stove, wearing nothing but a pair of low-slung sweatpants. His back was to you, the defined lines of his shoulders and spine shifting as he attempted to flip a pancake. It landed half on the counter, half on the floor.
“Typical,” you muttered, heading straight for the coffee maker to salvage what you could.
He turned, a boyish grin on his face, completely unbothered by the mess or his state of undress. “Morning, sunshine! Sleep well? I tried to be quiet but the cabinet door kinda fell off when I was looking for a plate. It’s propped up now, though. Good as new.”
“It’s 7 AM,” you said, your voice flat. “Why are you shirtless?”
He shrugged, the movement fluid. “Got syrup on my shirt. It’s soaking. Don’t worry, I’m not offended if you stare.” He winked, and you rolled your eyes in response.
“I’d rather stare at that pancake carcass on the floor.” You poured your coffee, deliberately keeping your gaze away from the expanse of his chest, the faint trail of dark hair that disappeared into his waistband. Your omega, usually a quiet, dormant thing, gave a faint, restless stir of awareness, recognition of an alpha in your space. It put your senses on alert.
“So, what’s the plan today, roomie?” he asked, scraping the failed pancake into the trash.
“I’m working. In my room. With the door closed. You are going to be quiet and not disturb me.”
“You got it, boss,” he said, giving you a mock salute. His bergamot-and-cedar scent, warm without the usual blocker-dulling, was already filling the small apartment. It wasn’t oppressive by any means, but it was everywhere. It seeped into the fabric of the couch, mixed with the smell of food, clung to the air. Your own scent, carefully locked-away, prickled beneath your skin in response desperately.
You retreated to your room, shutting the door firmly. For a few hours, it worked. You focused on spreadsheets and video calls, the mundane routine a shield. But your body was betraying you. A low, steady warmth had taken up residence in your lower belly, unrelated to the coffee. Your skin felt hypersensitive; the brush of your sweater against your arms was a minor distraction, the seam of your sweatpants a faint, persistent annoyance. Pre-heat symptoms. Of course, you were familiar with them—they came sometimes, mild and manageable, triggered by stress or hormonal shifts. And having an unmated, virile alpha in your living space with his scent was the definition of a hormonal shift.
You tried to ignore it. Around noon, you heard the TV click on, the sound of some loud sports commentary filtering through the door. Then, the sound of him talking on the phone, his voice a low, animated rumble.
“—no way, man, I told you, the stats from the second half completely invalidate that argument… Yeah, well, your mom’s—oh, hey, gotta go, my warden is emerging for her lunch break.”
You opened your door to glare at him. He was sprawled on the couch, one arm behind his head, phone still in hand. He’d put a shirt on, thank god, a thin, worn grey cotton one that did little to hide the shape of him.
“I’m not a warden,” you said, marching to the kitchen.
“Prison guard, then. Room monitor. Supreme overlord of the apartment.”
“Just because you have the maturity of a frat boy who never graduated doesn’t mean you have to sound like one,” you shot back, pulling out leftover stir-fry from the fridge.
He chuckled, a rich, warm sound that did things to your stomach it had no business doing. “Aw, come on, Choi. You love it. Admit it, life is boring without me around to keep you on your toes.”
“Life is peaceful without you around,” you corrected, busying yourself with the microwave.
“So, Beomgyu’s got that big date tonight after work, huh?” Heeseung said, changing the subject. “The chef guy?”
“Mhm.” You didn’t turn around.
“He’s nervous. Called me three times from work about what flowers to bring. Like I’m some florist. I told him if he’s stressing that much, just bring a bouquet of cash. Everyone loves money.”
A surprised laugh burst out of you before you could stop it. You clamped your hand over your mouth. Heeseung’s silence behind you was palpable and pleased.
“See?” he said, his voice softer. “Not so bad, is it? A little civil conversation?”
You swallowed, the laugh still echoing in your chest. “It was a moment of weakness, Lee. Don’t get used to it.” You took your heated food and headed back to your room. “And remember, be quiet!”
The afternoon was worse. The warmth in your core was building, a slow, sweet ache. Your thoughts kept drifting from your work, snagging on inconsequential things: the memory of his bare back that morning, the way his laugh sounded, the intensity of the brown in his eyes when he wasn’t pissing you off. You found yourself listening for sounds of him—the creak of the floorboards, the tap running, the low murmur of his voice if he was on another call.
This is just biology, you told yourself sternly. Stupid, primitive omega biology reacting to an alpha in close quarters. It doesn’t mean anything.
But it did feel like something. It was a magnetic pull, and you were restless, shifting in your chair, finding excuses to get up and pace the few steps your room allowed.
At around 6 PM, you gave up on work. You needed a shower, something to cut through the scent of him that seemed to have permeated your very walls and the growing, needy feeling of your own impending heat. You gathered your things and moved quickly to the bathroom, locking the door. The hot water was a relief. You scrubbed your skin, washing away the day, then used a neutral, unscented bar of soap, avoiding anything that might trigger a more potent omega response. But as you dried off, the symptoms persisted. A faint, pleasant slickness that wasn’t from the shower. A tenderness in your breasts. That persistent, hungry warmth in your core.
You dressed in the softest, least restrictive clothes you owned: a thin, sleeveless camisole of pale silk and a pair of loose, cotton sleep shorts. You were brushing your teeth when you heard the crash.
It was loud, a shatter of glass followed by a solid thump and a sharp, pained hiss from Heeseung.
“What did you break now?” you called, padding into the living area.
Heeseung was by the sink, clutching his hand. A shattered glass lay in the basin. “It slipped,” he muttered, his face pale.
You saw the blood then, a bright red rivulet running down his palm. “Oh, for—come here.” Your medical instincts, honed from years of patching up a clumsy Beomgyu, took over. You grabbed the first-aid kit from under the sink and pointed to a kitchen chair. “Sit.”
He obeyed, uncharacteristically silent. You pulled up another chair, sitting close as you took his hand. It was large, his fingers long and elegant, now marred by a nasty gash across the palm. You set to work, cleaning the cut with antiseptic wipes, completely focused and thorough, until—
A tremor.
There was a fine, uncontrollable shake running through his hand and up his arm, and his scent… changed. The bergamot-and-cedar deepened, warmed, becoming almost smoky. Alpha… distress?
Your head snapped up. You were close, so close you could see the gold flecks in his dark brown eyes, the faint stubble along his jaw, the way his throat worked as he swallowed. His gaze was locked on you, not on his injury, and suddenly, you smelled it. Not just his scent…
Yours.
Your scent was rising from your own skin, reacting to his proximity, his pain, his attention. The shower had washed away the edges of your blocker’s effectiveness, fuck—why hadn’t you remembered?
You saw the exact moment it registered with him: his eyes, already dark, seemed to swallow all the light in the room, widening, then narrowing, his pupils blowing out. His nostrils flared, once, twice, and the tremor in his hand stopped, replaced by a sudden tension.
“Choi,” he breathed, the word barely a whisper, ragged and full of dawning, earth-shattering realization.
You froze, the antiseptic pad dangling from your fingers. No. No, no, no.
“That… scent…” His voice was rough, scraping over gravel. He leaned in, just an inch, inhaling slowly, deeply, right at the junction of your neck and shoulder where your scent gland lay beneath the patch. A low, involuntary sound rumbled from his chest, not quite a growl, but a visceral, hungry vibration that went straight to your core.
You should have shoved him away. You should have run. But you were paralyzed, caught in the gravity of his shock.
His uninjured hand came up, not to touch you, but to hover near your cheek, his fingers trembling. “It’s you,” he said, the words filled with devastating, terrifying awe. “All this time… it was you?”
The spell broke. You jerked back, the chair legs screeching on the floor. “No,” you said, but it was a weak denial, your voice shaking as badly as his hand had been. Your scent was everywhere now, a sweet, rain-soaked confession in the air.
He stood up slowly, looming over you.. The blood on his hand was forgotten. All his focus, that relentless, hunting focus he’d had for a year, was now laser-locked on you. “The gallery,” he murmured, more to himself than to you, piecing it all together. “You were there. You were wearing that blue dress. You spilled champagne on your wrist and went to the bathroom to wash it off… you must have taken your blocker off to clean it properly.”
You remembered. You’d been annoyed, worried the sticky sugar would attract insects. You’d scrubbed your wrist raw in the sink, the little patch peeling off from the moisture. You’d been in a hurry, exposed for maybe ninety seconds in a secluded hallway.
Ninety seconds. That’s all it took to derail your entire life.
His question hung between you, a guillotine blade waiting to drop.
“So the whole time, t was you?”
No. Lie. Run.
You stumbled back another step, your spine hitting the cool edge of the kitchen counter. “You’re confused,” you choked out, the words tasting like a pathetic, transparent falsehood. “The antiseptic. It probably smells like—like, um, like flowers or something. You’re concussed from the shock of the glass.”
He didn’t even blink. He took a slow, deliberate step forward, closing the distance you’d created. His wounded hand hung at his side, blood dotting the linoleum, but his good hand came up again to hover beside your head, caging you against the counter. His scent was a raging storm now. It was overwhelming, a tidal wave that crashed against your senses, making your knees weak.
“Don’t,” he said, his voice low, a gravelly vibration that traveled straight down your spine. “Don’t insult us both by lying. I’ve been hunting this scent in my sleep for a year. I’d know it in a burning building. I’d know it on my deathbed, Y/N.” He leaned in, his nose brushing the air just beside your ear. You flinched, a full-body shudder wracking you. “It’s jasmine. After a summer rain.”
A whimper caught in your throat. You pressed your palms flat against the cold counter behind you, seeking an anchor. “Heeseung, please.”
“Why?” The word was a breath against your temple. “Why did you hide? All those times I talked about it right in front of you… with your brother—you just sat there, knowing?”
“Because it’s not real!” you burst out, pushing against his chest. Your hands met solid, unyielding muscle beneath his thin t-shirt. The contact was electric, a jolt that made you snatch your hands back as if burned. “It’s biology playing a stupid trick! It doesn’t mean anything! We live in apartments and pay taxes, for god’s sake! True mates are—are an olden-day concept for children’s stories!”
“It doesn’t mean anything?” Heeseung repeated, his voice dropping to a husky, disbelieving whisper. He didn’t retreat. Instead, he leaned in closer, his body a solid wall of heat that you felt through the thin cotton of your camisole. His breath fanned over your lips. “You feel this,” he said, his eyes darting between yours, searching for the lie, “this… thing between us, and you tell me it’s a trick?”
“It’s adrenaline,” you insisted, your own breathing shallow and rapid. Your chest rose and fell, the neckline of your camisole brushing against him with every gasp. “You’re bleeding. I’m panicking. It’s basic physiology.”
A low, humorless chuckle escaped him. “Right. Physiology.” His good hand finally touched you, not to restrain, but his fingertips grazed your bare arm, from your shoulder down to your wrist. The touch was feather-light, but it ignited a trail of fire under your skin. You jerked, a full-body flinch that had nothing to do with wanting to get away and everything to do with the sheer, overwhelming sensation of his hands on you.
“See?” you breathed, your voice trembling. “I don’t like that.”
“You sure about that?” he murmured, his eyes dark pools of intensity. His fingers traced back up, this time with more purpose, his thumb stroking the sensitive skin of your inner arm. A shudder you couldn’t suppress racked you, and a small, traitorous sound—a sigh, a moan, you didn’t know—escaped your parted lips.
Fuck.
You saw the flash of smug, hungry triumph in his eyes.
“Heeseung,” you whispered again, but it lacked all conviction.
“Can’t believe it,” he murmured, his voice a rough caress. His head dipped, his lips now hovering a hair’s breadth from yours. You could feel the phantom pressure, the promise of a kiss that felt as inevitable as your next heartbeat. The air between the two of you was thick with the mingling of your scents—his thick bergamot-and-cedar, your jasmine-and-rain now laced with the sweet, unmistakable spike of arousal. You couldn’t hide it. “Fuck, you smell so good.”
“I hate you,” you gasped out.
“I know,” he said, and he sounded almost sad. “You’ve made that brilliantly clear for ten years. But you know what I think, Choi?” His nose brushed yours, the most intimate, non-kiss imaginable. “I think,” he murmured, his lips so close they moved against yours with the words, a ghost of a kiss that made your stomach clench, “that you don’t hate me at all. I think you’ve been at war with the same thing I have.”
You couldn’t breathe. His thumb stroked your arm again, a slow, deliberate caress that felt like it was branding you. “What are you talking about?”
“This,” he said simply, and finally, he closed the last, imperceptible gap.
His mouth was on yours.
It wasn’t gentle. His lips were firm, demanding, moving against yours with a hunger that stole the last of your resistance. A shocked, muffled sound escaped you, lost in the heat of his mouth. You should have pushed him away. You should have slapped him, screamed, done anything. But your body, traitorous and alive in a way it had never been, betrayed you utterly. Your hands, which had been flat against the counter, flew up of their own accord, fingers tangling in the soft fabric of his t-shirt to hold on as the world tilted on its axis. Your lips parted on a gasp, and he took the invitation, his tongue sweeping into your mouth hotly.
The taste of him flooded your senses, and it was familiar and alien all at once, a flavor you’d somehow known you’d been missing your whole life. A low groan vibrated from his chest into yours, and you echoed it, the sound weak and desperate.
He kissed you like a man starving, like he was trying to consume every argument, every biting remark, every stolen glance across a crowded room in the last couple of years. His good hand slid from your arm to cup the back of your neck, his fingers threading into your hair, holding you firmly in place. His injured hand came up to rest on your hip.
The kiss broke, but only just. He rested his forehead against yours, both of you breathing harsh, ragged gulps.
“See?” he panted, his voice wrecked. “Not hate.”
“Not true,” you retorted automatically, but before you could really think it through, you dragged his mouth back to yours.
This time, you kissed him back. You poured every ounce of that confused, furious energy into it. Your tongue met his, fierce and slick, and you bit his lower lip, a sharp, punishing nip, making him growl, answering with a deeper, more devouring kiss that made your head spin.
His hand on your hip slid lower, gripping the curve of your ass through the thin sleep shorts, pulling you flush against him. You felt him then, the hard length of him pressed against your stomach, and the evidence of his arousal, so blunt and physical, sent a fresh, liquid wave of heat between your own legs. You whimpered into his mouth, arching into him, your tits crushed against him.
“Fuck, Choi,” he groaned against your lips, his voice thick with a need that mirrored your own. “You’re driving me insane. You—hah—really have no idea what you’ve been doing to me.”
“You started it,” you accused breathlessly, dragging your mouth down to his jaw. “Talking about it… hunting for it… like some… mm, some tragic hero.” You punctuated each broken phrase with a kiss, a nip, along his stubbled jawline.
He threw his head back with a sharp hiss, giving you better access. “I was. I am. And I found you.” His hand left your hair, sliding down your back, under the hem of your camisole. His palm was hot, slightly rough, against the bare skin of your spine. You shivered violently. “Hiding in plain sight,” he murmured, his lips at your ear now, his teeth grazing the lobe. “My best friend’s infuriating, beautiful little sister.”
“Don’t fucking call me that,” you muttered, but you were rubbing yourself against the hard ridge of his erection, a fast, mindless grind that had him cursing softly.
“What should I call you then?” His fingers slipped beneath the waistband of your shorts, cupping the bare flesh of your ass cheek. You jolted. “Y/N? Is that better?”
“Shut up.”
“Y/N,” he repeated against your mouth, the sound vibrating through your bones. “Tell me you want this. Tell me you’ve thought about it.”
His words were a challenge, a dare thrown down in the heat-drenched space between your bodies. You broke the kiss, gasping for air. “I’ve thought about strangling you,” you panted, your fingers still twisted in his shirt. “Daily.”
A dark, knowing smirk curved his kiss-swollen lips. “Yeah? Is that why you’re dripping for me, huh? Is that why your sweet little omega scent is screaming for me to bend you over and fuck you?”
You hated him. You hated the way he saw right through you, the way his words sent a fresh, slick pulse of heat between your thighs. You tried to shove him back, but your body refused the command, your hips instead canting forward, seeking the delicious friction of his length against you. “Shut up,” you repeated, your voice a broken whisper.
“Make me,” he taunted again, his voice dropping to a husky register that vibrated through your very bones. His good hand, still splayed on your ass, squeezed possessively. “Go on. Tell me to stop. Say the word, and I walk away right now. We’ll pretend this never happened.”
He pulled back just an inch, his dark eyes searching yours, giving you an out you didn’t want. You didn’t say the word. You just stared at him, your chest heaving, your lips parted, every frantic breath giving you away more and more.
The smirk sharpened into something more predatory. “Didn’t think so,” he murmured, and then his mouth was on yours again, swallowing your gasp.
This kiss was different. It was slower, deeper. He licked into your mouth, exploring you with a thoroughness that made your knees weak. His hands began to move, mapping your body through the thin fabric of your camisole, and he palmed your tit, his thumb finding your nipple and rubbing it into a hard, aching point. A sharp cry escaped you, muffled by his lips.
He broke the kiss, his lips trailing a wet, hot path down your jaw to your throat. “All those times,” he breathed against your fluttering pulse, his teeth grazing the sensitive skin. “All those guys you brought around…”
You whimpered, your head falling back against the cabinet. Your hands were in his hair now, clutching the dark, soft strands. “Wh-what about them?”
He bit down gently, not enough to mark, but enough to make you jump, a jolt of pure lust shooting through you. “Drove me fucking crazy,” he confessed, his voice a rough growl against your skin. “Seeing them look at you. Talk to you. Smile at you. That fucker Kai even brought your mom flowers. I wanted to rip his throat out with my teeth.”
Much to your disappointment, your omega preened at the violent jealousy in his voice. “You—you scared him off,” you accused, your voice trembling.
“Damn right I did.” He licked the spot he’d bitten. “He wasn’t good enough. None of them were.” His mouth moved lower, his lips closing over the thin silk covering your nipple. He sucked, hard, through the fabric, the damp heat and the rough friction of the wet material sending sparks exploding behind your eyelids. “You’re mine,” he said, the words vibrating against your sensitized flesh. “You always have been. You were just too stubborn to see it.”
You wanted to argue, to fight the words, but all you could do was moan, your back arching off the kitchen counter as his mouth worked you through the silk. The fabric was soaked, clinging to your tight nipple, and every pull of his lips, every scrape of his teeth, sent waves of desperate pleasure straight to your throbbing core.
His hand left your breast, sliding down your trembling stomach, over the thin waistband of your shorts. He didn’t hesitate. His fingers slipped beneath the elastic, delving through the curls, and found you.
“Fuck, Y/N,” he groaned against your breast, his voice muffled and ragged. “You’re fucking soaked. Is this all for me? All for your alpha?”
You couldn’t form words. His fingers slid through your folds, gathering your wetness, the sound obscenely loud in the quiet kitchen. He pressed the pad of his thumb against your clit, and your hips bucked violently off the counter, a sharp cry tearing from your throat.
“Answer me,” he demanded, his eyes blazing up at you. He rubbed slow, torturous circles. “Is this because of me?”
“Y-yes,” you gasped, your head thrashing side to side. “Yeah.”
“Good girl,” he purred, and the praise, in that cocky, teasing tone of his, made you clench around nothing. His fingers slid lower, one, then two, pressing against your entrance. “Always so fucking difficult with your words, but your body… your body doesn’t lie to me, does it, Choi?”
He pushed inside you, and you saw white. Your inner muscles fluttered, gripping him greedily. He was deep, his fingers long and clever, curling just right as he began to pump them slowly and maddeningly.
“You feel that?” he whispered, his mouth back at your ear, his breath hot. “That’s how perfectly you take me. You were fucking made for it. For me.”
“Sh-shut up,” you moaned, but you were grinding down on his hand, meeting every thrust, your hands fisting in his hair. “Give—hn—give me more.”
“More what?” he teased, adding a third finger, the stretch making you gasp. “Use your words, princess. You want my fingers? Or do you want something else?”
He scissored his fingers inside you, hitting a spot that made your vision blur. “Heeseung—!”
“That’s my name,” he said, his own breathing growing harsh. He was watching your face, drinking in every twitch, every desperate expression. “But it’s not an answer, baby. Tell me what you want.”
You were unraveling, the coil in your belly tightening to a painful, exquisite point. His fingers, his scent, his voice, it was all too much. Your omega was screaming, a frantic, pulsing need for him, for his claim, for his knot. The thought should have terrified you, but it only made you wetter.
“Your cock,” you blurted out. “I want your cock, you insufferable asshole. Now.”
He laughed at that, withdrew his fingers, slick and glistening, and brought them to his mouth. Then he sucked them clean, his eyes locked on yours, and you nearly came from the sight alone. “Fucking delicious,” he murmured. “Now, since you asked so nicely.”
In one swift motion, he hooked his hands under your thighs and lifted you off the counter. You yelped, wrapping your legs around his waist as he carried you the few stumbling steps to the living room couch. He fell back onto it, landing with a soft grunt, with you straddling his lap.
“You’re in charge,” he said roughly. His hands settled on your hips, his thumbs stroking your skin. “Go on, show me how much you want it.”
You looked down at him, at his kiss-swollen lips, his flushed skin, the raging need in his eyes barely held in check. The bulge in his sweatpants was enormous, straining against the fabric. With trembling fingers, you tugged at the waistband, pulling them down just enough to free him.
He sprang out, thick and long, the head flushed a deep red and already beading with pre-cum. A shudder wracked you. You’d imagined what he’d look like, in dark, shameful moments during your heats, but the reality was… more. So much more.
“Good enough for you?” he taunted, but his voice was strained.
“It’ll do,” you shot back. You positioned yourself over him, the head of his cock nudging against your soaked entrance. You sank down, just an inch, and both of you cried out. The stretch was immense, a burning, perfect fullness that left your heart hammering against your chest.
“Fuck,” Heeseung hissed, his head falling back against the couch, his knuckles white where he gripped your hips. “Slow down, baby, fuck, you’re so tight—”
But you were done with slow, done with waiting. With a low moan, you dropped your weight, sheathing him completely in one swift, brutal motion.
The sound he made was pure animal—a choked-off groan. You were full, so impossibly full, stretched to your limit around him. You stayed there, panting, adjusting to the sensation, your inner walls fluttering and clenching around him involuntarily. He groaned, his hips jerking up minutely.
“Ride me,” he commanded, his voice guttural. “Ride me, Y/N. Come on.”
You began to move. It was awkward at first, then instinct took over. You rose up until just the tip remained inside you, then sank back down, taking him deep. A rhythm found you, slow and rolling at first, then faster, driven by the building, screaming want in your core. Your hands braced on his shoulders, your nails digging into his skin through his shirt.
“That’s it,” he encouraged, his own hips meeting your downward strokes, driving even deeper. “Use me. Take what you need. You feel so fucking good, I can’t—fuck, baby, I can’t think.”
You were losing yourself in the overwhelming rush of it all—the relentless slap of your skin against his, the obscene, wet squelch of your pussy swallowing his thick cock over and over, his guttural groans vibrating through your core. His hands roamed possessively, squeezing the firm globes of your ass, fingers digging into your hips to guide your frantic pace, then sliding up to grope your tits through the thin, sweat-soaked camisole. With a rough tug, he yanked the damp fabric down, exposing your heaving breasts to the cool air. He surged forward, capturing a stiff nipple between his lips, sucking hard with a swirl of his tongue.
You cried out, the feeling of his hot mouth latching onto your sensitive peak and his cock spearing deep into your clenching heat shoving you perilously close to oblivion. Your thighs burned as you bounced on him, thighs flexing with each desperate rise and fall, your ass slapping down onto his lap in a hypnotic rhythm. Your pussy gripped him tighter with every descent, the slick drag of his veined shaft against your inner walls bring you closer and closer.
“Look at you,” he groaned, his head tipped back against the cushion, eyes slitted with pleasure as he watched you ride him. “Fucking look at you. All that fucking attitude, and now you’re just a dripping, desperate little thing for my cock, aren’t you?”
“Shut up,” you gasped, but it was a weak protest, lost in the slap of skin and your own ragged breaths. You leaned forward, bracing your hands on his chest, changing the angle. He hissed, his cock hitting a spot deep inside that made you see stars. “Oh, god—“
“There it is,” he snarled, his grip tightening. “Right there. You found it. Fuck, Choi, just like that.” His hands slid up to your breasts, thumbing your hard, wet nipples. The sensation was almost too much, a sharp, sweet overstimulation that had you crying out. “You gonna come? Hmm? Gonna come all over my cock after all that big talk?”
You couldn’t answer. You were a mess of sensation—the stretch and burn of him filling you, the delicious friction on your clit with every grind, the possessive heat of his hands on your skin. Your scent, jasmine and rain, had gone heavy and sweet with vanilla and musk, saturating the air. His own scent was a wildfire of bergamot and cedar and pure, undiluted alpha.
His own control was fraying. You could see it in the tense cords of his neck, the way his jaw was clenched, the desperate, hungry rolls of his hips. He was holding back, letting you take your pleasure, but the alpha in him was straining at the leash.
“Heeseung,” you whimpered, your rhythm faltering as pleasure coiled, tight and unbearable, in your core. “I—I can’t—“
“Yes, you can,” he commanded, his voice rough. He sat up suddenly, wrapping his arms around you and flipping you onto your back on the couch cushions in one swift, powerful motion. You yelped, the movement driving him even deeper, making you gasp. He was on top of you now, caging you in, his weight a delicious, crushing pressure. “You can take it. You’re gonna come for me. Say it.”
He began to fuck you in earnest, his thrusts deep, measured, and devastatingly accurate. Each one punched a broken sound from your throat. “Say it, Y/N,” he demanded, his lips against your ear.
“I’m gonna come,” you sobbed, the admission torn from you. “Fuck, Heeseung, I’m gonna—“
“That’s it,” he growled, his pace turning brutal. “Let go. Come on my cock. Show me.”
The world shattered. Your orgasm tore through you, and your back arched off the couch, a silent scream on your lips as your body clamped down on him in a series of ruthless, fluttering spasms. Pleasure, white-hot and endless, flooded every nerve ending, leaving you trembling and boneless beneath him.
He fucked you through it, his thrusts turning shallow and frantic as he chased his own peak. “So good, baby, so fucking tight,” he chanted, his voice ragged. “Gonna knot you. Gonna fill you up. You want it? You want my knot?”
Through the haze of your climax, his words registered. Knot. Your omega screamed yes, a frantic, inner howl of need. Your body, still convulsing with aftershocks, clenched around him eagerly, milking him, pulling him deeper. “Hngh—yeah,” you slurred, your mind foggy with pleasure. “Knot me. Do it, Heeseung, please.”
He let out a choked, guttural sound. His thrusts became erratic, then stopped, buried to the hilt. You felt him swell, the base of his cock thickening, expanding, locking him inside you. It was incredible, overwhelming, a fullness so complete it bordered on pain. With a final, shuddering groan, he came, his release hot and endless, flooding you in pulsing waves.
You could only hear the sound of your combined panting, the feel of his weight on you for a long while. But slowly, you came back to yourself. The rough fabric of the couch under your back. His heavy, warm weight. The dull, pleasant ache between your legs where he was still locked inside you. His knot was beginning to subside.
He lifted his head, his dark eyes glazed with satiation. He looked wrecked, beautiful. He brushed sweat-damp hair from your forehead. “Fuck,” he breathed, the word full of awe.
You were too spent for your usual barbs. You just stared up at him, your mind a sluggish, post-coital blank. Then, your eyes drifted to the side of his neck, to the strong, corded line of it. His scent gland.
You tilted your head, nuzzling into his throat. Your lips brushed over the spot where his scent was strongest, where his pulse thrummed steadily. You inhaled, and a low, needy whine escaped you.
He went very still. “Y/N…” His voice was a frail warning.
“You said I was yours,” you murmured against his skin. “Prove it.”
He shifted, trying to pull back to look at you, but the knot still held you together. “Baby, we’re… I don’t know about this. A bite is… it’s permanent.”
You felt a sharp, irrational sting of rejection. You pulled your head back, meeting his eyes. The fog of pleasure was receding, replaced by a sudden, vulnerable ache. “You don’t want to?” you whispered, insecurity flaring up inside you. “You hunted for me for a year, you just knotted me on my brother’s couch, but you don’t want to mate me?”
His eyes snapped back to yours, wide with shock. “What? No. Fuck, no, Y/N, that’s not it.” He shifted, wincing slightly as the movement tugged at your joined bodies. “I want to. God, you have no idea how much I want to sink my teeth into you right now and make sure every alpha on the fucking planet knows you’re mine.” The raw possessiveness in his voice made your stomach clench. “But… a mating bite? That’s not just… this.” He gestured weakly between your bodies. “That’s forever. That’s it. And we just… we just fucked on a couch after ten years of screaming at each other. We’re not… we might not be thinking straight.”
The logical part of your brain knew he was right. It was the sane, responsible thing to say. But the omega in you, the part that had just been thoroughly claimed and knotted by her alpha, the part that could still feel his seed inside her, didn’t give a single damn about logic. It wanted the claim. It wanted the finality. It wanted him, irrevocably.
A low, pathetic whine escaped your throat before you could stop it. You hated the sound, but you couldn’t help it. You nuzzled into his neck, inhaling his scent, your lips brushing over his own gland. “Please,” you breathed against his skin, the word barely audible.
He sighed. “Y/N…”
His tone pissed you off. “Don’t you dare talk down to me, Lee Heeseung,” you snapped, your voice gaining strength. “You don’t get to decide what I want or what state I’m in to want it. I’ve wanted you for as long as I can remember,” You arched against him, feeling him twitch inside you as your inner walls clenched reflexively. “So either bite me, or get the hell off me and we’ll pretend this never happened.”
His eyes flashed, the alpha in him rising to the challenge in your tone. The possessiveness you’d seen earlier roared back to the surface, hotter and fiercer. “You don’t mean that,” he growled.
“Try me.”
The standoff lasted three heartbeats, and then, a slow, dangerous smile spread across his lips. “You’re impossible,” he murmured, lowering his head again.
This time, when his mouth found your throat, there was no hesitation. His tongue laved over your mating gland, the sensitive skin there prickling instantly under the wet heat. You moaned, your fingers digging into his shoulders. “Heeseung…”
“Last chance to tell me no,” he breathed, his teeth grazing the spot. A shiver of anticipation racked you.
“Do it,” you begged, the words a raw, honest plea. “Please.”
He bit down.
It wasn’t a gentle nip—it was a deep pressure that broke the skin. There was a sharp, bright pain that melted almost instantly into a wave of dizzying, overwhelming pleasure. It felt like a circuit completing, a final, missing piece slotting into place. A bolt surged through you, and he laved his tongue over the bite, soothing the sting.
Then he finally eased off you, his knot having subsided enough for him to slip out. The loss of him made you feel empty and cold, but he didn’t go far. He gathered you against his chest, turning so you were both on your sides, facing each other on the cramped couch. He tucked your head under his chin, his arms wrapping around you in a warm hold. He turned your face toward his and kissed you, deep and slow.
“All mine,” he breathed against your mouth.
But before you could answer, before you could even process the seismic shift in your universe, the sound of a key rattling in the front door lock cut through the air.
Click. Clack.
Your eyes, still locked with Heeseung’s, widened in identical, dawning horror.
Beomgyu’s cheerful, unsuspecting voice called out from the entryway. “Hey, losers! I’m back early. The date was a bust. Who wants takeout?”
for the anon who requested !!! ♡ i hope i did ur request justice - as i said this is my first time writing het omegaverse and even omegaverse as a whole i havent written in a while so HOPEFULLY it was okay 🥹 didn’t turn out exactly how i wanted it to but oh well 🚬 also the chef guy beomgyu was on a date with was soobin
“everybody knows i’m a good girl, officer,” - lana del rey, playing dangerous
ʚɞ summary - back in your hometown for christmas, the last thing you wanted was to be pulled over for speeding. you’re freezing and desperate to get out of a ticket—but the cop in front of you is park sunghoon, the nerdy boy you used to tease in high school. and you’ll do whatever it takes to make him let you go, even if it means letting him handcuff and bend you over in his cruiser like he wanted to all those years ago.
ʚɞ tags - 18+ MDNI, f!reader, hard dom!sunghoon, police officer!sunghoon, authority/officer kink, car sex, handcuffs, gunplay, power imbalance, penetrative sex (p in v), unprotected sex, rough sex, creampie
ʚɞ w.c - 3.9k
“License and registration, please.”
The voice was flat and professional in the sub-zero December air, and it came from a figure silhouetted against the blinding red and blue strobes of the patrol car’s light bar, casting long, accusing shadows across the frosted asphalt of the old county road. You fumbled with the glove compartment, your fingers numb from more than just the cold.
“I’m sorry, Officer, I was just—”
“The limit is forty-five. Radar clocked you at sixty-eight.” The voice cut through your excuse like a knife. It was familiar, in a way that scraped against a memory you’d buried years ago. “Step out of the vehicle, please.”
A gust of wind whipped through the open door as you complied, the cold biting through your thin holiday sweater. You squinted against the flashlight beam he pointed at the ground, finally getting a look at his face as he stepped closer.
The sharp line of his jaw, the severe set of his mouth, the dark, intent eyes under the brim of his patrol cap—
Holy shit. It was all Park Sunghoon.
But… it wasn’t the Sunghoon you remembered. The lanky, awkward boy with glasses and wonky teeth who’d trailed after you in high school calculus, whose notes you’d borrowed and never returned? That boy was gone. In his place was a muscular man carved from duty, his broad shoulders straining against the dark blue of his uniform shirt, his posture rigid with authority.
“Sunghoon?” The name left your lips before you could stop it, a disbelieving whisper.
His eyes, which had been clinically examining your out-of-state plates, snapped to yours. A flicker of something—recognition, then immediate, intense suppression—passed through them so fast you might have imagined it. His expression hardened further.
“Ma’am. This is a traffic stop. Your license and registration.”
The formality was a slap, but you handed them over nonetheless, your mind racing. A speeding ticket. A court date. A mark on your clean record, all while you were supposed to be home for a peaceful, boring Christmas. Your parents would love that. The humiliation of it, especially in front of him, of all people, boiled into a reckless, desperate ache in your chest.
He took the documents, his gloved fingers brushing yours. A static shock jolted up your arm. He didn’t react, turning to walk back to his cruiser to run your information.
“Wait.”
He paused, half-turning, an eyebrow arched.
You took a step forward, closing the distance. The flashing lights painted his face in alternating waves of blue and red, highlighting the harsh beauty of it. It was almost funny how once upon a time, you’d wielded all the power over him. But now—he held it all. And the only currency you had left was the one you’d always had over him, even if you’d never deigned to spend it.
“It’s really you,” you said, your voice dropping, losing its panicked edge and gaining a low warmth you didn’t have to fake. The cold made you shiver, and you hugged yourself, not entirely for effect. “Park Sunghoon. I—I can’t believe it. You look…”
You let your gaze travel over him, slow and appreciative. Over the badge pinned to his chest, the heavy utility belt laden with tools of control, the way his uniform pants fit his lean hips and strong thighs. You looked your fill, and you made sure he saw you doing it.
His jaw tightened. “Please return to your vehicle.”
“Do you remember? Senior year, in Mr. Henderson’s class?” You took another small step. “You always let me copy your notes before the tests. You saved my GPA.”
“That was a long time ago.” His voice was gruff, but it lacked the robotic certainty from before. He was looking at you now, really looking, and you could see the conflict in his dark eyes.
“It was,” you agreed softly. You were close enough now to see the rapid pulse in his throat. “You’ve changed so much.”
“So have you.” The retort was automatic, but his eyes betrayed him, tracing the lines of your face, the curve of your mouth, the way your chest rose and fell with each quickening breath.
“Have I?” You smiled, a little sadly. “Still getting into trouble, apparently. And you’re still… helping me out of it?”
“I’m not helping,” he ground out, but he hadn’t moved back. He was rooted to the spot, a statue of conflicted authority. “This is the law. You were speeding, and there are consequences.”
“Are there?” you murmured. You reached out, not touching him, but letting your fingertips hover just above the hard plane of his chest, over his badge. “What if I appealed to the officer’s… discretion?”
His breath hitched. A visible tremor ran through him. “Don’t.” It was meant to be a command, but it sounded like a plea.
“Don’t what, Sunghoon?” you whispered, leaning in. Your lips were inches from his ear. You could feel the heat radiating from his skin. “Don’t remind you that you used to dream about this? That you’d stare at the back of my head in class and wonder what I smelled like?”
“This is wrong.” He hissed the words, a mantra for himself. His hands, which had been hanging at his sides, clenched into white-knuckled fists. But his eyes were locked on your mouth.
“Then give me the ticket,” you challenged, your voice a low, daring thrum. “Write me up. Send me to court. Do your duty, Officer Park.”
You saw the battle rage in him, but at the end of the day: he was just a man. A man who now had the object of every teenage fantasy shivering before him, offering herself up on a silver platter of transgression.
With a sound that was almost a growl, he snapped. One hand shot out, curling around the back of your neck with a firm grip. It was the answer you’d been gambling on.
“Get in the car,” he ordered, his voice a rough, dark thing that sent a lightning bolt of pure, liquid heat straight to your core.
“Which one?” you breathed, your heart hammering against your ribs.
His eyes blazed. “Mine. Now.”
He didn’t wait for you to obey. He guided you, his hand on your neck at a steady, uncompromising pressure, to the passenger side of his patrol car, then opened the door. You slid inside. He followed you in, slamming the door shut, plunging you into a weirdy intimate silence, broken only by the idle rumble of the engine and the muted flash of lights through the windows. The barrier between the seats was down. He was right there.
For a long moment, he just stared at you, his chest rising and falling heavily. The control was slipping, cracking, and what was emerging from beneath was terrifying and thrilling. “You think you can just walk back into town and play your little games?” he said, his voice low and dangerous. “You think I’m still that pathetic kid you could twist around your finger?”
“I don’t know,” you said, meeting his gaze without flinching, “You tell me.”
A muscle ticked in his jaw. Then, with a swift, decisive motion, he leaned over you. You thought he might kiss you, but he didn’t. He reached past you, his body pressing yours into the seat, and popped the glove compartment. When he pulled back, he was holding a single item: a pair of standard-issue metal handcuffs.
He held it up between you, his eyes never leaving yours. “You want to get out of this ticket?” The question was a gravelly challenge.
You nodded, your mouth dry.
“Then you’re going to be very, very quiet,” he instructed, his tone leaving no room for argument. It was the voice of a man used to giving orders and having them followed. “And you’re going to do exactly as I say. This is my jurisdiction now. Understood?”
“Yes,” you whispered.
“Yes, what?”
The correction was immediate and sharp. You felt a fresh rush of wetness between your thighs. “Yes, Officer.”
A low, ragged breath escaped his lips. “Hands together. On the dash.”
You obeyed, shifting in the seat to press your palms flat against the cool, textured plastic of the dashboard. The posture arched your back, thrusting your chest forward against the thin fabric of your sweater. You heard the metallic click-clack of the cuffs being readied, then the cold, unforgiving circle of steel closed around your left wrist. He was efficient. He pulled your right hand down to meet it, the second cuff snapping shut with a definitive snick that echoed in the quiet cruiser.
He sat back in the driver’s seat, his eyes raking over you, before he finally reached over, his movements slow and deliberate, and turned off the engine. Now, you could only hear the frantic drumbeat of you heart.
“This is so wrong,” he murmured again, but this time it wasn’t a refusal. His hand came up, and he removed his patrol cap, tossing it onto the console between you. His hair was darker, shorter than you remembered, slightly mussed. It made him look younger, and somehow even more dangerous.
He tugged off his leather gloves, one finger at a time, the action slow and deliberate, his eyes never leaving yours, and dropped them onto the floor. Then his hands, now bare, found the hem of your sweater. He didn’t ask. He just tugged it up, the wool scraping softly over your skin. You lifted your arms as much as the cuffs allowed, and he pulled the sweater over your head, leaving you in just your simple lace bra. The cold air in the car kissed your exposed skin, raising goosebumps, your nipples pebbling instantly into hard points against the delicate fabric.
Sunghoon’s eyes darkened, his pupils swallowing the brown of his irises. He stared at your chest, his breath coming quicker. One hand rose, and he traced the lace edge with a single, blunt fingertip. The touch was electric, smooth and cool against your feverish skin. “You used to wear those tight little tank tops to school,” he said, his voice a rough scrape. “Drove me fucking insane. I’d get headaches from trying not to stare.”
“You never said anything.”
“What was I supposed to say?” His finger dipped under the lace, brushing the soft underside of your breast. A jolt shot straight to your core, and you gasped. “‘Please, Y/N, could you cover up? I’m trying to learn about trigonometry but all I can think about is how your tits would feel in my hands’?”
It didn’t matter how crude the words were—spoken in his low, controlled cop-voice, they made you throb. You arched into his touch, and he answered you, unhooking the front clasp of your bra with a flick of his fingers. Your tits spilled free, full in the intermittent light.
A choked sound escaped him. He shed his gloves, tossing them onto the floor. His bare hands were warm, slightly calloused. He palmed your tits, his thumbs sweeping over your nipples in slow, agonizing circles. The sensation was maddening, the contrast of his work-roughened skin against your sensitive peaks making you whimper. He leaned in, his hot breath fogging in the cold air, and took one bud into his mouth.
Fuck.
His mouth was searing hot, his tongue flat and firm as he laved the tight bud. He suckled, gently at first, then with increasing pressure, pulling a deep, needy ache from somewhere inside of you. You cried out, your cuffed hands curling into fists against the dash. He switched to the other breast, giving it the same thorough attention, his free hand massaging and kneading the flesh he’d just abandoned. You were panting, little white puffs in the cold air, your head falling back against the headrest. The world narrowed to the wet heat of his mouth, the demanding pull of his lips, the rough caress of his hands.
He pulled back, his lips glistening, his own breathing harsh. “Still so fucking perfect,” he growled, more to himself than to you. His hands left your breasts and went to his utility belt. Your eyes widened as you watched.
This was it. The point of no return.
He unbuckled it, the heavy leather sighing as he pulled it free, then laid it carefully on the passenger seat beside your hip, the weight of it making the cushion dip.
His focus dropped to your jeans. He popped the button, dragged the zipper down with a slow, torturous rasp. He hooked his fingers into the waistband of your jeans and your panties and peeled them both down your thighs in one strong, relentless motion. You had to lift your hips, helping him, the denim and cotton catching on your shoes before he tugged them free and discarded them into the footwell. You were completely exposed now from the waist down, the coldness of the seat biting against the backs of your thighs, the warm, wet center of you utterly vulnerable.
Sunghoon’s eyes drank in the sight, but, much to your frustration, he didn’t touch you there yet. Instead, he unbuttoned his own uniform trousers and freed his erection. Your breath hitched. He was thick, long, veined, and already leaking at the tip. Your mouth pooled with drool.
“Spread your legs,” he ordered, his voice guttural.
You did, the cuffs clinking softly as you widened your knees, offering yourself to him. He moved between them, his body crowding yours in the confined space. One hand braced on the seat back by your head, the other finally, finally touched you. His fingers slid through your slick folds, and he groaned, a deep, shuddering sound. “Fuck. You’re completely soaked. For me?”
“All for you, Officer,” you moaned, pushing your hips up against his searching fingers.
He circled your clit, once, twice, in a teasing way that made you sob with frustration. Then he plunged two fingers inside you, curling them expertly, taking almost no time in finding the spot that made you see stars. He pumped them, in and out, his eyes locked on your face, watching every twitch, every gasp, every helpless contraction of your inner muscles around his digits. “You used to laugh,” he said, his voice thick with a dark, vengeful pleasure as he fucked you with his hand. “Laugh at me in the hallways, whisper with your friends about how pathetic I was, chasing after you like some lovesick puppy. Remember that? How you'd flirt just enough to string me along, then turn away with a giggle.”
“I’m sorry,” you gasped, the apology ripped from you, half-sincere, half just a plea for more. “I was stupid.”
“Don’t be sorry.” He withdrew his fingers, shining with your arousal. He brought them to his mouth, sucked them clean, his eyes never leaving yours. “Be fucking quiet.”
He positioned himself at your entrance, the head of his cock nudging against you. He didn’t push in. He just held himself there, letting you feel the insistent pressure, the promise of fullness. “You want me to fuck you right here, in my cruiser?” he breathed against your lips.
“Yeah,” you nodded eagerly. “Yes, please.”
He didn’t ease into you. He drove in with one hard, deep, conquering thrust, sheathing himself to the hilt in your tight, welcoming heat.
You screamed, the sound muffled as you buried your face against the stiff fabric of his uniform shirt. The stretch was immense—he filled you completely, it felt like he was carving out a space for his cock inside of you.
“Fuck,” he snarled, his forehead dropping to yours. “You’re so—hah—fucking tight, Y/N.”
Then he began to move.
The leather creaked. The handcuffs bit into your wrists. The world outside the windows—the empty road, the falling temperature, the reason you were both here—ceased to exist. There was only the slap of skin on skin, the raggedness of your breaths, and the deep, wet sounds of you taking him inside.
His thrusts were powerful, each one driving a gasp or a moan from your throat. He was in control, and it made your mind drift pleasantly.
One of his hands gripped your hip, his fingers digging in, surely leaving bruises. The other hand came up to tangle in your hair, holding your head still, forcing you to look at him. His face was painted with fierce concentration.
“Look at you,” he grunted, his hips pistoning. “Handcuffed in my car. Taking my cock like you were made for it. You think your little high school friends would believe this?”
But you were lost, utterly gone. “Hngh—ngh—Sunghoon” you whimpered, his name spilling from your lips like a broken prayer, over and over as his cock plunged deeper, stretching you out. “Sunghoon—oh, hngh—please—hn...” Your body arched, helpless.
He fucked you harder, faster, the car rocking slightly with the force of his movements. You were climbing, a tight, coiling tension gathering at the base of your spine, spreading through your belly. You were so close, teetering on the edge, the friction of him dragging over your most sensitive spots with every deep stroke.
But then, suddenly—
He stopped. He pulled out of you completely, leaving you empty, aching, and bereft. A whine of protest escaped your lips.
“Not yet,” he panted, his own body trembling with the effort of stopping. His eyes were wild, burning. He looked away, to his utility belt lying on the seat, and your heart stuttered as his hand reached over.
He bypassed the key of the handcuffs. For a second, you thought he was going for something else—his baton, his radio, you didn’t know. You couldn’t guess. But his fingers closed around the textured grip of his service weapon. He didn’t draw it from the holster. He simply unfastened the strap and lifted the entire belt, holster and all, placing it on your stomach. The weight was heavy, and the coldness of the holster’s hardware pressed into your skin.
Then, his eyes holding a dark, challenging gleam, he slowly drew the pistol from its leather cradle.
It was black and matte. He held it by the barrel, offering the polymer grip to you. “Touch it,” he said, his voice dangerously soft.
Tentatively, with your cuffed hands, you wrapped your fingers around the grip. It was cool, the texture rough.
“Now,” he instructed, taking the gun back from you. With his other hand, he guided his cock back to your entrance. He pushed in, just the head, a shallow, teasing penetration. Then, holding your gaze with hypnotic intensity, he brought the cold, blunt tip of the pistol’s barrel to your lower lips, just beside where his flesh disappeared into yours.
You flinched at the touch.
“Hold still,” he commanded. He began a slow, shallow rhythm with his hips, rocking into you just an inch or two as he simultaneously used the gun’s barrel to trace your outer folds, to circle your clit, to press gently against your sensitive skin.
It was taboo. It was terrifying. It was, quite possibly, the most erotic thing you had ever experienced.
“Oh my god,” you sobbed, your hips bucking helplessly, trying to get more of him, more of this impossible sensation.
“You like that?” he breathed, his own control fraying. He increased the pressure of the barrel, rubbing it in firm circles over your clit while he continued his shallow, fucking motions. “You like having a cop’s gun on your pussy while he fucks you? While the cop you used to think nothing of fucks you good?”
“Yeah—hngh—oh, fuck—Sunghoon—”
The combination tipped you over. The coil broke. Your orgasm crashed through you like a filthy wave of raw ecstasy, your pussy clenching and spasming wildly around his thick, bare cock buried deep inside you. Juices gushed out in hot, messy squirts, your walls milking him greedily, sucking at his shaft, begging for his seed, every pulse a dirty, desperate throb that made your thighs quake and your toes curl. A fleeting thought flashed through your mind—he was fucking you raw, no condom, he could knock you up right here with his hot cum flooding your womb—but you didn't care, not one fucking bit. The pleasure was too overwhelming, his cock stretching you so perfectly, hitting every sensitive spot, making you feel alive and used in the best way. Your cuffed hands strained against the steel, the bite of the cuffs digging into your wrists as you yanked futilely, desperate to touch him, to claw at his back. It was so intense that it flirted with the line between pain and pleasure, the sharp twinges from your bound limbs and the cold metal still pressed against your throbbing clit amplifying everything a thousand times. The wrongness of it only made the release dirtier, hotter, your cries turning into whimpers and moans as wave after wave ripped through you, leaving you a trembling, soaked mess impaled on his unrelenting cock.
Sunghoon watched you come apart, but the sight of your ecstasy, the feel of your inner muscles pulsing around his cock, must have been too much, because a second later, with a ragged shout, he came inside you.
You felt the hot, wet release of him inside you, spurt after spurt, filling you, marking you. He slumped forward, his body shuddering, his forehead resting on your shoulder, his breath scalding hot against your neck. The pistol, forgotten, clattered onto the seat beside you.
There was only the sound of your labored breathing mingling in the cold air, and the occasional soft click of the handcuffs as you tried to shift your numb wrists.
Slowly, he pushed himself up. He looked dazed, wrecked, his uniform shirt crumpled, his hair a mess. He looked down at where your bodies were still joined, at the evidence of what you’d done smeared on your skin and his. His expression was unreadable, and it made you feel strangely insecure.
Without a word, he pulled out of you. The loss was physical, a sudden hollow coldness, and you shut your legs together quickly. Sunghoon tucked himself back into his trousers, fumbling with the buttons. Then he reached for the small silver handcuff key on his belt loop. He leaned over you, his scent enveloping you once more, and unlocked the cuffs. The metal fell away, and you brought your aching wrists to your chest, rubbing the red marks left behind.
He gathered your clothes: your sweater, your bra, your jeans and panties from the floor. He handed them to you, his movements stiff, his eyes avoiding yours now. “Get dressed,” he said, his voice hoarse but already edging back toward the flatness from before.
You dressed in silence, your limbs feeling like lead. The sweater felt scratchy now. Your jeans chafed your sensitive skin. You were shivering again, but this time it was from the aftershocks, the adrenaline crash.
He had already straightened his own uniform, re-buckled his utility belt, holstered his gun. He picked up his patrol cap from the console but didn’t put it on. He just held it, staring at it.
Eventually, he looked at you. “Your license and registration are on the dash.” He nodded toward them. “The citation has been voided. Consider it a warning.”
You just nodded, unable to speak.
“Drive the speed limit the rest of the way home.”
“I will.”
He opened the passenger door. The freezing night air rushed in, a brutal shock to your overheated skin.
do you read fiction? yes. do you enjoy fanfiction? also yes. are you responsible for what you choose to read and engage with? absolutely.
are you allowed to dislike certain genres, including noncon? yes—preferences are personal, and no one is obligated to enjoy everything.
however, are you allowed to spread hate toward people who write noncon or shame those who enjoy it? no, that’s where the line should be drawn.
here’s why. fiction is fiction. it exists as a space for imagination, exploration, and storytelling, not as a direct reflection of someone’s morals, beliefs, or real-life actions. it’s important to broaden our understanding of how literature works and why people consume different types of content. these discussions can be debatable, and that’s understandable, but they should still be approached with respect.
writing or reading certain themes does not automatically mean that a person supports, endorses, or promotes those themes in real life. many works of fiction explore dark, uncomfortable, or controversial topics precisely to examine them or to understand them better —not to glorify them. readers engage with stories for many reasons: curiosity, emotional processing, or simply enjoyment of complex narratives.
at the end of the day, everyone has agency over their own reading habits. you are free to like what you like, dislike what you dislike, and set boundaries for yourself. what you are not free to do is weaponize those preferences to shame others or discredit their intelligence, morality, or character. respecting different tastes in literature is part of respecting people themselves.
this is the last time i will speak about this. i’m asking, genuinely, again, that we widen our understanding and apply our morality where it actually matters. discourse is important, yes, but it loses its purpose when it becomes performative outrage aimed at fiction instead of real harm.
let us redirect our attention to issues that are actually happening in real life, issues that are causing tangible harm and affecting real people right now. while we argue about fiction and personal taste, the world continues to face systemic violence, ongoing wars and displacement, exploitation of workers, gender-based abuse, human trafficking, environmental destruction, and widening gaps between the privileged and the marginalized. these are not narrative devices—they are lived realities for millions.
morality should not be selectively applied. if concern is truly about ethics, then it should extend beyond fictional material and into the real structures and behaviors that perpetuate suffering. it is easier to criticize stories than to confront truths about society but the latter is where meaningful action actually matters.
fiction will always remain fiction. real-world issues, however, demand our attention, compassion, and accountability now more than ever.
𝑨𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 ⸺ even four years of built up resentment can’t put sexual tension in the grave.
l. heeseung x ƒ. reader smut college au enemies to lovers fake dating forced proximity toxic heeseung character dev micro angst dom heeseung pet names teasing fingering ab riding cream pie ✶ 4000
“i’m so tired of this shit,” you whined to jungwon, slamming your laptop shut. university life, you’re tired of the relentless nagging from your parents to find a serious relationship.
they always compare you to others, such as your cousin who’s already engaged. “like seriously, why do they make me feel like my life is incomplete without a partner?”
“we’re already in our last year of college, and they’re still complaining?” jungwon flinched a little at the sudden snap of your laptop. “at this rate, i think they’ll arrange a blind date for you..”
a familiar, deep chuckle caught your attention. as you twisted in your seat, you spotted heeseung’s tall frame leaning against the bookshelf closest to you. he was studying you and jungwon with an amused expression, clearly having overheard the tail end of your conversation.
you scowled, feeling the heat rise in your cheeks. of course, he would show up at the most inconvenient moment. “what do you want, heeseung?”
jungwon muttered something that sounded like a quick goodbye before excusing himself, leaving you alone with heeseung, and he took that moment to drop into the now vacant seat across from you, that infuriating smirk still on his handsome face.
“someone’s pissed. what happened? parents giving you a hard time about your social life again?”
you rolled your eyes and let out a frustrated sigh. “yeah, because being a college student isn’t stressful enough according to them. i get to deal with their weekly lectures about my love life. it’s exhausting.”
heeseung chuckled, tilting his head slightly as he studied you. it was like your annoyance amused him. “still single?”
you shot him a glare, bristling at his mocking tone. “and i’m proud of it. i prefer being single over dealing with the drama and heartbreak that comes with the package.”
“you sound awfully bitter.” heeseung raised an eyebrow. “did you have your coffee today?”
you clench your jaw, resisting the urge to throw your half-finished latte at his stupidly perfect face. “i’m not bitter, i’m realistic,” you snapped. “and yes, i’ve had my coffee, not that it’s any of your business.”
heeseung leaned forward slightly, resting his elbows on the table. “you know,” he mused, voice dropping to that smooth tone. “i might have a solution for your little.. parental pressure problem.”
you narrowed your eyes. “oh really? and what’s that?”
his smirk widened, “fake date me.”
you blinked once, twice, then scoffed. fake dating? heeseung? a cliche. you and heeseung never liked each other since the start of college years.
of course, it all started with a simple misunderstanding, but as the years passed, everything crumbled between the two of you.
the worst part of it was last year, when he dated your ex best friend, yoona. she was a year older, and your roommate since your freshman year.
she knew about everything between you and heeseung, but she still went and dated him behind your back. you only found out where you walked in on them making out in your dorm.
she even had the decency to look guilty. and heeseung? he just smirked and asked if you had a problem. you moved out a week later and when she ghosted the both of you a month later after her graduation—heeseung dared to blame you.
he claimed that you “must have said something to scare her off.” are we fucking serious? saying that as if you were the toxic one. dick.
so now with almost four years of mutual resentment, it all built up to this very moment. heeseung with his effortless charm and infuriating smirk, and you with your fiery temper and sharp tongue.
“in your fucking dreams. i don't even want to be within a six foot radius of you, and now you think i want to be in a fake relationship with you?” you laugh at this stupid idea. “tell me, heeseung, what’s your motive for this?”
his smirk only widened at your reaction, finding your scoff and laugh amusing. “believe me, i don’t particularly enjoy the idea of being your fake boyfriend either,” he drawled. “but my reasons are simple: your parents will get off your back, and i will make yoona insanely jealous.”
you rolled your eyes at his cocky response. “of course, because why not add a dash of revenge to an already complicated situation?”
heeseung just shrugged, leaning back in his chair with his arms crossed. “what can i say? i mean, it’s killing two birds with one stone.”
as much as you loathed him, heeseung was, unfortunately, exactly the kind of guy your parents would love. smart, charming, annoyingly good looking. he was the perfect golden boy to parade in front of their judgmental friends.
and yoona? well, seeing her face when she realizes heeseung had moved on? that did sound satisfying.
you exhaled sharply through your nose. “fine, but we’re setting strict rules.”
heeseung’s smirk deepened as he leaned forward, resting his chin on his hand. “oh? mind sharing?”
“first,” you began, holding up a finger, “no actual feelings. purely transactional. second, no unnecessary physical contact. only what’s required to sell the act.”
heeseung pretended to think for a moment before shrugging. “so boring, but that’s fair.”
”third,” you said firmly, “the second your ex backs off and my parents are satisfied, this fake relationship ends. no exceptions.”
he just chuckled darkly. “trust me, sweetheart, the moment i get what i want, i’ll be gone.” you just glared at him. “good. then we agree.”
he extended his hand toward you. “deal?” You hesitated for only a second before gripping his hand tightly. “deal.”
his palm was warm with his firm grip—and you hated that you noticed. hated even more the way his thumb brushed against your knuckles before he let go, as if he knew exactly how much it unsettled you.
“great,” he said, standing up. “our first public appearance starts now.”
your eyes widened. “what?” heeseung just nodded toward the entrance of the library where yoona had just walked in with her new boyfriend.
heeseung’s grin was downright predatory as he held out his hand to you. “ready to put on a show?”
you just shrugged your shoulders in response just in time as he slung an arm casually around your waist, pulling you close. you tried to ignore the way your heart fluttered when his hand met your side and the scent of his cologne.
almost four weeks into this game and you forgot to mention to heeseung that you’d have to be inviting him to your family's traditional winter getaway.
heeseung didn’t mind—he never minded, anyway, but the drive to your family’s mountain lodge was complete torture.
he had insisted on driving— “can’t have my girlfriend’s parents thinking i don’t know how to treat her right.” the entire two hour trip was filled with his stupidly charming commentary, and you hated how normal it felt.
your stomach kept flipping when he glanced at you, too.
“nervous?”
you scoffed. “please, i’m more worried about you surviving my parents.”
your parents were waiting on the porch when you pulled up. your mom’s eyes lit up the second heeseung stepped out of the car—tall, handsome, and dressed up in an expensive winter coat that made him look like he’d just walked out of a romance novel.
your dad, on the other hand, eyed him with suspicion. heeseung flashed them both his most charming smiles.
“mr. and mrs..” he greeted smoothly, offering a handshake to your dad—firm, respectful—before turning to your mom. “you must be the reason your daughter is so beautiful.”
your mom blushed and you wanted to vomit.
when dinner came around, your parents grilled him like he was a suspect in a murder case.
“what are your career plans?”
“do you come from a good family?”
“how serious are you about our daughter?”
and heeseung handled it flawlessly. he was polite. he was articulate. he even complimented your mom’s cooking. “this is incredible.. did you ever train as a chef, by chance?”
your dad finally cracked a smile and you wanted to scream.
there came the real problem. you had completely forgotten that there were only two bedrooms in your family’s lodge, both bedrooms being disconnected from the main cabin, and both bedrooms only having one bed.
”your room is ready!” your mom announced cheerfully and you froze. heeseung, however, didn’t seem particularly concerned. in fact, he seemed delighted.
he smirked at you over your parents’ heads, his eyes practically glinting with amusement. “sounds perfect,” he said casually, slinging an arm around your shoulders. your heart skipped.
heeseung’s hand on your shoulder felt way too hot as he squeezed it. you tried to push down the little flutters in your stomach and forced yourself to smile. “it’s the bedroom with the balcony right?”
your mother beamed, “yes, honey! and, heeseung dear?” he hummed, turning that charming smile back to your mom. “yes?”
she blushed. it was ridiculous. you had to bite the inside of your cheek to keep from rolling your eyes. “you’ll behave while you’re sharing a room with our daughter, right?”
heeseung chuckled, wrapping his other arm around your waist to pull you closer. “absolutely. I wouldn’t even dream of doing anything inappropriate.”
you eyed him shrewdly, but your mom looked absolutely delighted. “excellent! heeseung, dear, you’ve been raised properly. i’m sure you’ll take good care of our daughter. you two are already adults as well.”
your dad opened his mouth to protest—most likely to make a pointed comment to tell heeseung to keep his hands to himself, but your mom elbowed him discreetly.
“i’ll take good care of her, don’t worry,” he said smoothly, his fingers tracing little patterns on the exposed skin of your waist.
the detached guest cabin was small. picture this, it was a small cabin with barely two floors. the first floor had a comfortable couch and tv set up right by the fireplace, and a ladder led up to the second floor.
it didn’t have a wall, just a railing so you could see the living room from the top. there was a door that led to a balcony and a queen sized bed.
okay, it was spacious, you could say that. but there was absolutely no privacy with the loft design. you barely had time to process the situation before heeseung kicked the door shut behind you. “cozy,” he mused, tossing his bag on the sofa.
you crossed your arms. “don’t get any ideas. i should make you sleep on the couch.”
he chuckled, stepping closer. “oh, you wound me.” his fingers hooked under your chin, tilting your face up.
your breath hitched. “rules still apply.” you whispered.
heeseung’s thumb brushed your lower lip. “do they now?” the cabin suddenly felt far too warm.
you swallowed, your heart racing, but you refused to back down. “yes. definitely. especially the one about no unnecessary contact.”
heeseung’s thumb traced the line of your jaw, his eyes dark. “especially that one, huh?”
god, why was he looking at you like that? as if he wanted to ravage you, right here, right now—
no. no, no, no. you pushed those treacherous thoughts out of your mind and tried to take a step back, but his fingers wrapped around your hip, holding you in place
”stop,” you managed, your voice barely above a whisper. “you’re too close, hee.”
heeseung’s grip tightened on your hip, but there was a hint of hesitation in his eyes like he was warring with himself. finally, after a moment, he let out a shaky exhale and took a step back. “sorry.”
you blinked, taken aback. “might be the first time i’ve heard you apologize.”
”i’ll sleep on the couch tonight.” he added.
when it hit midnight, neither you nor heeseung had gotten an inch of sleep in your systems. the blizzard howled outside as you sat on the sofa, fire all lit up, and wrapped in a blanket.
heeseung wordlessly handed you a mug of hot cocoa and sat next to you. you stared at the marshmallow floating in the warm drink, too stunned to reply right away. “thanks,” you finally murmured, not meeting his eyes.
he just grunted in response. you took a cautious sip, the warm liquid easing the chill. the silence wears deafening, broken by only the sound of the fire crackling.
you fidgeted with the hem of your blanket, stealing glances at heeseung. his gaze was fixed on the flamed, expression unreadable.
”can i sit next to you?”
you swallowed, fingers tightening around your mug. “um, sure.”
he didn’t look at you. instead, he sunk next to you and stared at the fire, his words so quiet that you almost didn’t catch them. “why did you agree?”
your heart skipped a beat. “what?” he finally turned to face you, something in his expression you couldn’t quite place.
”the fake dating. you could have said no.”
you hadn’t been expecting that question—certainly not the almost vulnerability in his tone. you could have given him a snarky reply, a sharp retort. but something about the moment felt too raw for that. so you took a deep breath, trying to find the right words.
”i guess.. i just wanted a distraction,” you said finally. “from everything else going on rather than my parents.”
he gave you a skeptical look. “and you couldn’t find anyone better than me?”
you bristled, the familiar spark of their animosity flickering back to life. “excuse me?”
he rolled his eyes, slouching back against the couch. “come on, princess,” he drawled, his usual teasing edge back in his voice. “you can admit it. i’m not exactly boyfriend material.”
you studied his profile, the way the firelight caught up the sharp line of his jaw. for once, the smirk was gone. “you’re right,” you said quietly. “you’re not.”
you continued, “but you’re also not the guy who makes hot cocoa at midnight just because. we both know there’s a sweet guy under there.” heeseung just went very still.
the wind howled outside as you both sat there, the space between you charged with something new. finally, heeseung cleared his throat, shattering the moment. “it’s just hot cocoa,” he grumbled, setting his mug down with a clink.
you watched him closely, trying to decipher the meaning behind his words. you set your own mug down as well. “doesn’t have to be,” you offered cautiously. “I mean, you could be a good boyfriend. If you wanted to be.”
heeeseung let out a low, incredulous huff. “you’ve got to be kidding..”
”i’m not. you’ve been different lately. i don’t know, just more considerate..”
he rolled his eyes. “don’t, give me too much credit. it’s just common sense.”
you frowned, leaning forward. “no it’s not. the heeseung i know would’ve stolen the bed and laughed. he’d probably throw a pillow at my head when i got up to use the bathroom.”
he went quiet at that, his expression unreadable. you continued quietly. “but you didn’t, and you offered to take the couch, and you made sure i got the last marshmallow in my hot cocoa.”
he just looked away, “don’t read too much into it.”
you crossed your arms, studying his profile. he looked conflicted and confused. it was as if he was warring with himself, trying to put up the casual, careless front he always showed you—but not quite able to keep his emotions in check.
you took a deep breath, “hee. can i be completely honest here?”
the nickname got his attention. he stiffened visibly as your question cut through the crackling of the fire. he just nodded reluctantly, not looking at you. “go ahead.”
your stomach tightened. you had to pick your words carefully here. if you pushed him too hard, heeseung would just shut you out, but if you choose your words right..
”look.. you and i, we’ve never seen eye to eye, ever.”
“that’s an understatement,” he grunted.
you pushed ahead, encouraged by his response. “we fight about everything. we make each other crazy, drive each other insane.”
he huffed out a bitter laugh, but before he could interrupt you, you started again: “you annoy me so much. you frustrate me to my boiling point.”
“yeah, the feeling’s mutual.” heeseung’s head snapped to look at you, eyes narrowing.
you met his gaze unflinchingly. “yet, here we are, drinking hot cocoa at midnight in the same cabin. sharing a blanket. talking without trying to rip each other’s throats out.”
heeseung opened his mouth to protest, but you cut him off quickly. “before you argue, just listen to me for a second.” you pleaded.
after an hour of you and heeseung just ranting about the relationship between you two, you found yourself underneath heeseung. he had you pinned beneath him on the spacious couch, his solid body weight pressing you into the cushions.
your breath hitched and heeseung’s eyes just stared into yours. “still wanna talk?” his hips rolled against yours and you gasped at the sudden, delicious friction. “because i can think of way better uses for that mouth of yours.”
his hips rolled again, harder this time, and a whimper escaped your lips before you could stop. his smirk was devastating. “that’s what i thought.”
heeseung’s mouth was suddenly on yours, stealing the breath from your lungs. you arched against him, nails digging into his shoulders as his tongue slid against yours, hot and demanding.
his hands were everywhere—tugging at your clothes, skimming up your thighs, leaving trails of fire in their wake. “hee—“ you whimpered.
he growled against your lips, biting down on your lower lip just hard enough to make you gasp. his fingers hooked into the waistband of your pants, yanking them down in one rough motion.
the cold air hit your skin—but then his palm was there, hot, rough, sliding between your thighs. you choked on a moan.
“fuck,” heeseung breathed, his voice wrecked as he felt how wet you already were. “you’ve been thinking about this too, huh?”
you couldn’t even deny it. not when his fingers pressed just right, drawing a broken sound from your throat. “you want this, right?” he double checked, just in case.
”yes, hee,” you gasped, hips bucking against his hand. “god, yes—“
heeseung didn’t waste another second. his fingers pushed into you, curling just right, and your back arched off the couch as pleasure burned through you. “fuck—! heeseung..”
”barely a month of us fake dating and look what we’re doing,” he pulled his fingers out of you to take off his sweatpants, almost immediately flipping you both over so you were straddling his waist.
”almost four years of knowing you and i think i’ve wanted this the whole time,” your hands pressed to his bare chest, feeling the heat radiating off him, the muscles working beneath your fingers. “you’re impatient,” you murmured, a grin tugging at your lips.
he grunted in response, his hands sliding down to grip your thighs. “you have no idea.”
you shifted to remove his shirt, tugging it over his head, and the moment your wet pussy met his abs, you shivered. heeseung’s body was sculpted—hard ridges and taut muscle beneath your thigh as you settled over him.
”damn,” he hissed, eyes locked on where your bodies connected, “look at you.”
you didn’t need guidance. your hips rolled slowly at first, grinding against all of the curves of his abs, relishing the way his breath hitched. heeseung’s jaw clenched. “tease.”
the fireplace crackled nearby, casting flickering shadows across heeseung’s torso as you rocked against him. his abs glistened with a sheen of sweat—your wetness smearing over his skin as you teased him, slow and deliberate.
his grip on your thighs tightened. “fuck, you’re killing me,” he growled, hips bucking up to meet your movements. the friction was maddening, but neither of you was ready to give in yet.
you leaned down, nipping at his collarbone. “i thought you’d always be one for torture,” you breathed, dragging your nails down his chest.
a ragged laugh escaped him. “not when i’m this close to bending you over this couch.” his hands slid around to squeeze your ass, pulling you harder against him, and you gasped at the sudden pressure of your clit against his core.
”who says i’d let you?” you sat up, grinding in a slow circle, feeling his stomach muscles clench under your sensitive opening.
heeseung’s eyes darkened, a small grin forming at his lips. “oh, you want me to take over.” his thumb brushed your thigh softly, making you bite your lip. “i can feel how bad you want it.”
damn him.
he suddenly flipped you onto your back again, pinning your wrists above your head. “enough playing, pretty.” his knee nudged your legs apart, body caging you in as he leaned down to lick a stripe up your neck.
you stopped talking and teasing when one of his hands wrapped around your throat, just holding, as the other lined himself up to you.
”ngh—!” you almost instantly cried, trying to keep your noise down. the first thrust was deep and brutal against your gummy walls that your back arched off the couch.
”mm, this what you wanted?” heeseung hissed, pulling almost all the way out before slamming back in, his rhythm ruthless.
you could only nod without making any louder noises, clutching at the cushions as pleasure coiled in your stomach. “hee— hee, baby, i can’t!”
the fireplace’s heat was nothing compared to the way he fucked you. in fact, you weren’t one to get orgasms quickly, or so you thought.
but you were close, so so close—just another thrust and you’d topple over the edge, but heeseung slowed his movements teasing you at the edge. “you’re so pretty.”
your eyes flickered open. trying to focus on his face. heeseung’s expression was a mix of smugness and something possessive that made your insides clench.
your chest heaved as you desperately tried to catch your breath. heeseung was so intense like this, and he knew exactly what his words did to you. it felt way, way too intimate.
he leaned down to capture your lips in a soft kiss, his tongue coaxing yours out to play—an imitation of what he wanted to do to you in other places.
you tried to lift your hands to grab him, but he didn’t let you. he was in complete control, holding you down, making you feel every bit of him and nothing else.
heeseung’s free hand slid between your bodies, his fingers finding your clit. circling, pressing—just enough to make your thighs tremble.
“this feel good?” he murmured against your lips, his thrusts turning slow and deep, dragging against every sensitive spot inside you.
you whimpered, nails scratching down his back. “yeah, mm—! heeseung, ‘m gonna..”
he nipped your earlobe, his voice dripping with mischief. “can i cum in you?”
you could only nod your head aggressively. you were past coherent sentences, and your eyes were rolled back. the dual stimulation of his fingers and his cock has you teetering on edge.
his pace was merciless, just shy of what you needed. “heeseung—!” you finally choked out, back arching as the tension snapped.
pleasure ripped through you, white hot band consuming, and he fucked you through it, his whimpers and groans rough in your ear. “fuck, fuck, yes— cum all over my cock, princess.”
“ah— ah, hee!” you cried, vision going white.
it was only when your body went limp beneath him did he finally let go—chasing his own release with a few ragged thrusts before spilling inside you with a growl of your name.
heeseung collapsed onto you, both of you breathless and sticky with sweat. the firelight danced over his shoulders as he pressed a lazy kiss to your neck. “still see me the same way?”
”fuck off, heeseung.” you said roughly into his chest, but you can admit, you didn’t see him the same way anymore. even after four years of resentment.
🐹🍰 this has been in my drafts since nov but i didn’t think it was post worthy… haha..
when you make a bet with your best friend—loser is forced to do what the winner wants—but his demands for you aren't exactly what you expected, but you're fully willing to comply.
Pairing - heeseung x fem!reader
Genre - friends with benefits, friends to ???, smut
Word count - 2k
Warnings - p in v, creampie, cliche, degrading (he calls reader a slut), fingering, mentions of other enha members, Mario kart mention, stripping, lmk if I missed anything!
A/N - I was gonna lowkey abandon writing but here I am.. back again... again, sorry if it's bad, and thank you to the anon in my inbox who gave me writing advice! i dont feel like using capitalization in this one so im not gonna... anyways.. enjoy! also yes im aware its kinda cliche
MDNI 18+
heeseung was always your best friend; he was always there when you needed him and vice versa. meeting him in high school was the best twist of fate ever. those four years would've ended up miserable had it been someone else.
there was a decent amount of girls after him, but that was never a bother. in fact, he was always your wingman, helping you find ways to ask out your crush without looking like a complete ditz. he had a couple of girlfriends throughout high school, but they never really lasted.
he was able to tell when you were upset and was somehow always able to pinpoint the reason. you'd never thought of him in a romantic light, although he was extremely attractive. it was like a forbidden fruit, something you were too scared to explore.
after graduation, applying to the same college as one another seemed scary. what if only one of you got in? what if neither of you got in? those worrying questions quickly disappeared when one day you both opened your results and found out you were both accepted.
he made new friends, and so did you, but one thing was that you never forgot each other. you both still regularly hung out and went to your usual coffee shops or shopping malls.
heeseung and his friends are at his dorm, and he had given you permission to come and go in his dorm without asking whenever you wanted whether he was there or not. his roommate, Jake, was hesitant about this at first, but just agreed to avoid drama, however, he grew to not mind it.
you were bored lying in your dorm room, so you got up to go to his dorm. upon walking in, you find him, his roommate, and his friends all huddled together in the living room, some on the couch, some on the floor, and the rest standing around. through a closer look, it wasn't hard to locate a couple of them, including heeseung, who were equipped with gaming controllers; they were playing video games.
one of his friends who wasn't playing hears the door opening and looks at you. you don't know his friends well, except for his roommate, but you did know their names.
the friend who saw you, jay, smirks upon noticing your presence. you didn't know the reason, but you just left it alone with a shrug of your shoulders. jay tapped heeseung—whose attention was occupied by whatever game it is that they're playing—and he replied without even looking away from the tv screen. "what is it? I'm trying to win, dude," he said. jay leaned into heeseung's ear and whispered something that you were unable to hear.
heeseung paused the game, earning him a few groans from his friends who also held controllers before turning his head to the door where you were standing. he smiled at you, "hey y/n! come here, we're all playing video games!" after walking over to him you both quickly realize there's no room on the couch for you to sit, but that problem didn't last very long. he hits his friend sitting next to him, sunghoon, not very hard but so sunghoon will know what heeseung is trying to get him to do.
sunghoon promptly got up, before you even got time to process him getting up, heeseung grabbed your wrist and pulled you to sit down next to him on the couch. it wasn't hard to notice the looks and smirks his friends gave each other once he did this, but you didn't think anything of it.
"why'd you show up to my dorm this time?" he looked at you, the game still paused, but it seemed his friends were more focused on you two rather than the game now. you let out a small laugh at his comment, "i got bored so i came here, but you're already busy i see." he shakes his head, "i'm not busy, we're just playing games, now watch me win," he smirks, he's always been quite cocky but it's part of his charm.
he unpaused it and continued the competitive game with an intense focus. after a bit, the game was over, and well, heeseung didn't win, but that's not important. he throws a playful fit about losing, and after a bit, he turns to you. "hey, lets play the hardest map on mario kart and whoever loses gets to boss the loser around, but it's just us two," he grins at his own idea, hoping you accept.
he almost cheers when he sees you nod, and signals one of his friends to hand you a controller. he selects the map, and as the game starts, he's completely in the zone; he really wants to win, to have power over you.
after crossing the finish line for the final time, heeseung had won, which makes you let out a groan of disapproval. his friends all laugh as heeseung lightly pushes and teases you. "I knew you were a loser!" he teases, making you hit him on the shoulder. "knock it off, i hate you, you have more experience!" you argue back, and he just laughs.
"okay so now I get to tell you what to do," he smirks. you roll your eyes, but he suddenly shooes his friends out of his dorm while they shoot him knowing looks, and mocking kissing gestures. it's like they know something you don't, which makes you nervous. why would they leave that easily?
after they had left, heeseung shifts around in his seat and turns back to you. "so.. now I need to think about what I'm gonna make you do.. maybe me and jakes dishes? the laundry?" he says, basically talking to himself. he just sits there thinking for a moment, occasionally throwing out random ideas until his face changes, finally landing on one. "y/n, we've been friends for a long time, yeah?" you nod, waiting for him to continue. "you know.. you're really pretty, and I think I've made my decision..." your heart flutters for a second at the tone he used; he never really talked to you like this before. he's told you you're pretty, but the way he said it this time was different.
"strip for me," his tone completely serious, lacking any bit of sarcasm or signs that he's joking. your eyes go wide, and you look at him, bewildered at what he chose. "seriously? strip? hee—" he stopped you before you could finish, "I'm serious, I've always felt something towards you, this is my opportunity, I choose for you to strip," his tone lowering, you can see the desire and the hunger written in his eyes.
through your utter shock, you take a moment to think, he is attractive.. you've always thought he was. what's the harm in this? why not just do it?
you started by removing your hoodie. once he realized you were down for his demands, he couldn't look away. then you removed your shirt, followed by your pants, now just leaving you in your bra and underwear. heeseung was just sitting back, manspreading, smirking at you. he'd never seen you so exposed like this before. "so pretty, your body is so sexy," he commented, you could see the growing bulge in his grey sweatpants.
suddenly, he stood up, grabbing your wrist dragging you to his bed before promptly pushing you down onto it. he quickly crawled on top of you and smashed his lips onto yours. it was unexpected but not unwelcome as you kissed him back and moved one of your hands to bury your fingers in his hair. as the kiss continued, your grip on his hair got tighter, earning a groan from him, while one of his hands explored your thighs.
his hand made its way to the wet patch on your panties, touching you over the cotton. this caused you to let out a whine at the feeling; you wanted more, wanted him to touch you more. he clearly noticed this, "beg for it," he demanded. he clearly wasn't going to give it to you that easily even though it was his idea. "please heeseung, touch my pussy, please.." your pleas made his cock twitch in his boxers, he finally took your panties completely off, sliding them down your legs.
he ran his fingers slowly and teasingly through your already wet and slick folds. "all this for me? didn't think you loved the idea of fucking your best friend so much, you're just a slut aren't you?" his degrading words just fueled your desire for his cock even more even though it probably shouldn't.
he slowly inserted one finger into your cunt, the feeling causing a small moan to release itself from your mouth. he then added a second one and started out slowly moving his fingers in and out of your hole, but then he sped up and even curled the slightly making them hit your g-spot at just the right angle. you moaned at the pleasure that took over you as he continued to scissor his fingers inside of you. his thumb started to rub your clit further stimulating your pussy.
"heeseung im s' close—" he removed his fingers without warning, making you whine at the newfound emptiness. before you could even question, he removed his sweatpants and his shirt. you could feel the drool forming at the sight of his chest and physique, but then your eyes landed on something even more exciting, the stain on his boxers due to his leaking cock.
he removed his boxers next, his large cock springing out, the sight of it made your eyes widen. how would he even fit? "it'll fit baby, don't worry, I'll make it fit," he said almost as if he had read your mind. he ran the tip of his cock through your slick folds and gave himself a couple strokes before finally lining himself up with your entrance. "i'm gonna fuck this pussy so good you hear me?"
he was so eager he didn't even go slow this time; he immediately rammed himself into you, enjoying the sight of the slight bulge he created on your stomach. he pulled out almost fully before thrusting back in, he repeated this process, making you a moaning mess. it was hard to tell where one of you started and where the other ended, "seungie- p-please.. keep going," you begged him, and he listened. he wasn't going to stop until you both came. you could feel his tip grazing your cervix, his cock stretching your pussy so good. you'd had sex before, but you could already tell heeseung is the best you'll ever get.
"come on baby, i know you're close, you like this don't you? like being my little slut," he was right, you did like it, you were close, he knew how to read you like an open book. "gonna cum—" is all you could manage to get out as the pleasure took over you making it almost impossible to form coherent sentences. not long after your words you let go, your release painting his cock forming a white ring at his base as he continued his thrusts chasing his own orgasm. "hold on love, i'm almost there, you can take it," he encouraged. his thrusts started to grow sloppy; he was close. finally, he came, his release painting the inside of your gummy walls. you'd never had anyone cum in you, you'd always had them pull out, but heeseung was different. you wanted him to cum in you.
he rolled off of you, now lying beside you as he brushed a sweaty strand of your hair out of your face. he looked at your bra still covering your tits, he leaned in to your ear and whispered "next time, I'm gonna fuck these pretty tits. I was so caught up with your pussy your poor boobs didn't get any love," he said almost sounding genuinely upset and sympathetic for them.
you wanted to ask what you two were now, but a pang of fear hit you; you were scared of his answer, so you decided to stay silent. you wanted to stay awake, but exhaustion was catching up. no matter how hard you tried to fight it, you couldn't. you finally closed your eyes and fell asleep, heseung followed soon after.
i hope you all liked it!! i'm not too confident about this one but yk.. anyways, this is only like the 4th evber fic ive ever written..... im aware its kinda fast paced, i did rush it oops....
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contents 7.4k words. mentions of alcohol, creepy behavior from a man (doesn't escalate), light flirting, brief description of sensory overload, themes of social anxiety and feeling out of place, strong language.
you wipe down the counter at the cozy corner café, the familiar scent of freshly ground coffee beans mingles with the faint vanilla from the pastries in the display case. it's a slow afternoon, the kind where sunlight filters through the large windows, casting warm glows on the wooden tables scattered with laptops and half-empty mugs. you like it here — it's predictable, always the same, quiet, a bubble of calm in the busy, noisy city. as a barista, your days blend into a comforting routine: steaming milk, pulling espresso shots, chatting lightly with regulars who know your name but not much else. you're not one for crowds or chaos; introverted by nature, you prefer the soft hum of the espresso machine over blaring music or flashing lights.
you started working here almost two years ago, right after college, when the job market felt like a sea you weren't ready to navigate. you'd studied literature, dreaming of quiet days spent reading or maybe writing something of your own one day, but reality hit with student loans and the need for steady income. a friend tipped told you about this little independent café tucked on a side street that was hiring — nothing flashy, no corporate chain vibes — and you applied without a doubt. the owner, an older woman named mrs. han, interviewed you over coffee and hired you on the spot because you "had kind eyes and steady hands." it stuck. the job doesn't pay a fortune, but it covers rent, leaves tips for small treats, and most importantly, it suits you. no high-pressure sales, no endless meetings — just the rhythm of brewing, the satisfaction of a perfectly layered latte, the gentle interactions that never demand too much of your energy.
today, like most days, sakura is on shift with you. she's the other full-timer, a few years older than you, with short black hair and a great sense of humor that balances your quieter demeanor. she's wiping down the pastry case when she glances over. "slow as molasses out there," she says, nodding toward the near-empty tables. "i think the cold front scared everyone off."
you hum in agreement, rinsing the cloth in the sink. "at least it's better than yesterday's rush… my arms still ache from steaming all those milks."
she laughs. "tell me about it. that group of college kids ordered like they were fueling a study all-nighter. one guy asked for a quad espresso with extra foam — i almost told him he'd vibrate through the ceiling."
you smile, picturing it. sakura's been here longer than you, she practically runs the place when mrs. han isn't around. she's the one who taught you the tricks: how to get the milk temperature just right without scalding, the perfect amount of the house syrups you need to put, even how to handle the occasional rude customers without losing your cool. you two aren't best friends outside work — you don't hang out on weekends, just stick to regular check-ups over text, as well as to the occasional memes about baristas you send each other — but there's a comfortable camaraderie, built from shared shifts and inside jokes.
"do you have any plans tonight?" she asks, restocking the cups. "or is it another thrilling evening with your books?"
you hesitate, thinking of chaewon's impending ambush. "i think chaewon will try to drag me somewhere. i just hope it's not to a club."
sakura raises an eyebrow, pausing mid-stack. "you? in a club? the girl who once said crowds give her hives?"
"exactly," you sigh, leaning against the counter. "she's… relentless. but she said something along the lines of "needing a night out" on monday, and i can only hope she forgot about it."
sakura smirks. "well, if anyone can get you out of your apartment, it's her. just don't let her push you too far. remember that time she tried to get you on a rollercoaster?"
you groan at the memory — chaewon convincing you for a theme park trip, only for you to spend most of it on benches with cotton candy. "don't remind me. if she ends up convicing me to go to a club… i'll probably end up hiding at the bar the whole time."
"smart plan," she says, tossing you a clean towel. "at least wear something cute. you never know, you even might meet someone who appreciates the quiet type."
you roll your eyes, but her words linger as you finish cleaning. the idea of meeting someone in a club feels… absurd, but a tiny part of you wonders. it's been a while since you've dated — nothing serious since that short fling in senior year that fizzled out from mismatched energies. since then, you've been content alone, or so you tell yourself. work, friends like chaewon, occasional coffee dates with sakura after closing — it's enough.
a regular comes in then, mr. kim, the older man who always orders a black coffee and sits by the window with his newspaper. "good afternoon, ladies," he greets, nodding at both of you.
"the usual?" you ask, already reaching for a mug.
"please. and one of those blueberry muffins if you've got any left."
sakura rings him up while you pour, the routine soothing. as he settles at his table, you and sakura fall back into easy silence, the café's ambient jazz playing softly overhead. these moments are why you stay — the peace, the familiarity. crowds and noise feel like another world, one you're happy to visit only when forced.
(DIVIDER HERE)
chaewon bursts through the door just as you're clocking out, her energy a stark contrast to the serene atmosphere. she's your best friend, the one who's always pulling you out of your shell — or trying to, at least. with her vibrant orange hair tied in a messy ponytail and a grin that could light up the room, she waves enthusiastically. "hey! perfect timing. i need you tonight."
you raise an eyebrow, slinging your bag over your shoulder. "need me for what? chae, i told you already, if it's another netflix marathon, i'm in. but if it's anything involving leaving the apartment—"
"the club!" she interrupts, linking her arm with yours as you both step out into the cooling evening air. the streets are alive with people heading home from work, but chaewon's voice cuts through the noise. "come on, it's friday! i've been dying to check out this new spot downtown. the dj is supposed to be amazing, and i promise it'll be fun."
you groan inwardly. clubs are not your scene. the last time you went — years ago, dragged by some college friends — you spent the night nursing a soda in a corner, counting down the minutes until you could leave. "chaewon, you know i'm not a party girl. i'd rather curl up with a book or bake those chocolate chip cookies we talked about, the ones you sent me on tiktok? do you remember how good they looked and how tas—"
"oh no, no, no. i can see what you're trying to do." she shakes her head, staring at you. then she walks closer and pouts, her eyes wide and pleading. "pretty please? just this once. i told you i've had the worst week at work — too many deadlines, that new girl always asking for help, my annoying boss — and i need a night out!" and, just as you're about to say no, she reminds you: "plus, you owe me for covering your shift that time you had the flu."
you sigh, knowing she's got you there. chaewon's persistence is legendary; she's the type who won't take no for an answer, especially when she's set her mind on something. as you walk toward the subway, she chatters on about the club's vibe — neon lights, thumping bass, cute guys — and you find yourself nodding along, even though your stomach twists with reluctance. "fine," you relent. "but i'm not staying late, and if it gets too overwhelming, i'm out."
"deal!" she squeals, hugging your arm tighter. the subway ride is filled with her excitement, planning outfits and what drinks to try. she rattles off ideas nonstop: "something fruity for me, maybe a cosmopolitan or that new blue cocktail everyone's posting about. you should try something fun too — even if it's just a mocktail with a cute umbrella."
you listen, half-amused, half-dreading, staring out the window as the train rattles through the tunnels. the lights flicker past in streaks, matching the nervous flutter in your stomach. chaewon keeps going, describing the club's vibe from reviews she's read. "apparently the dj drops these remixes that make everyone lose it, and the lights are insane, like you're inside a kaleidoscope." you nod along, offering small hums of agreement, but your mind drifts to how out of place you'll probably feel. crowds drain you, the noise makes your head throb after a while, and dancing? that's chaewon's domain, not yours.
still, her enthusiasm is contagious in small doses, and you can't help smiling at how animated she gets, gesturing wildly even while holding the pole for balance.
the train jolts to a stop at your station, and you both spill out with the crowd, climbing the stairs into the cool evening air. the walk to your apartment is short, just a few blocks through tree-lined streets where a few early leaves crunch underfoot. chaewon links arms with you again, still talking. "i'm thinking about that off-shoulder top for you — the black one? it makes you look mysterious and sexy without trying too hard." you laugh softly. "mysterious? me? i think you mean 'awkwardly standing in a corner.'"
she bumps your hip. "exactly why we need the glow-up. trust me."
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by the time you reach your apartment, she's already raiding your closet, pulling out hangers with the efficiency of someone on a mission. clothes fly onto the bed: tops, dresses you haven't worn in months, jeans in various washes. "no, too casual. no, too much. ooh, this one!" she holds up the fitted black top, the one with the subtle scoop neck that you've always thought was a bit much. "perfect. try it."
you change in the bathroom, showing yourself to her critical eye. "turn," she commands, and you oblige, feeling exposed even in your own space. she nods approvingly. "yes. now jeans — those dark ones that hug your butt just right." you dig them out, pairing them with the low heels she insists on 'flats being for work, heels being for fun.' sitting at your vanity, she takes over makeup: foundation to even your skin, a touch of blush, eyeliner that wings out slightly, mascara that makes your lashes dramatic. "not too much," she promises, but it feels like a transformation. your hair comes next — she runs a curling iron through it, creating loose waves that fall soft.
hours later, you're standing in front of the full-length mirror on your closet door, feeling like a stranger in your own skin. the outfit fits perfectly, accentuating curves you usually hide under oversized sweaters at home. the top clings in a way that's flattering but unfamiliar, the jeans make your legs look endless with the heels, and the makeup brings out your eyes in a way that surprises you. chaewon has convinced you into this version of yourself — one that's bolder, more put-together than your usual comfy leggings and hoodies.
"you look hot," she declares, snapping a selfie of you both, her cheek pressed to yours. "seriously, you're gonna turn heads."
you roll your eyes, but a small part of you appreciates the boost. it's been a while since you've dressed up for anything beyond work — since that blind date chaewon set up last year that ended in polite small talk and no spark, or the occasional work holiday party where you still opted for simple. most nights, you're in pajamas by nine, curled up with tea and a novel, content in your solitude. but seeing yourself like this stirs something — a flicker of confidence, maybe curiosity about how it feels to step outside your routine. chaewon catches your expression in the mirror. "see? you like it. admit it."
"it's... different," you concede, smoothing the top. "good different, i guess."
"exactly," she grins. "now let's go before you change your mind and put on sweats."
still, as the uber pulls up to the club, your nerves kick in. the line outside is long, filled with groups laughing and chatting, the bass from inside vibrating through the pavement. neon signs flash the club's name — eclipse — in pulsing blues and purples.
"this is gonna be epic," chaewon says, pulling you into the line. you nod, forcing a smile, but inside, you're already plotting your escape route. the bouncer checks ids, and soon you're stepping into the dim, throbbing interior. the music hits you like a wave, loud and insistent, the kind that makes conversation impossible without shouting. strobe lights flicker across the dance floor, where bodies move in sync, a sea of swaying hips and raised arms.
chaewon grabs your hand, weaving through the crowd toward the bar. "first round on me!" she yells over the noise. you follow, the air thick with a mix of perfume, sweat, and alcohol. it's overwhelming — the lights are too bright, the music too loud, the press of people too close. you cling to the bar like a lifeline once you reach it, the cool metal grounding you.
"what do you want?" chaewon asks, scanning the menu.
"just a soda," you reply, not wanting to add alcohol to the sensory overload. the last thing you need is a buzz making the lights feel even brighter or the music pound harder in your head. she orders a cocktail for herself — something bright pink with a sugared rim — and your plain cola, handing it to you with a wink. "loosen up a bit. dance with me later?"
"maybe," you say noncommittally, sipping your soda. the cold fizz feels nice against your tongue. chaewon spots some acquaintances from work — a couple of girls from her marketing team — and waves enthusiastically. "i'm gonna say hi real quick! don't move, okay?" she squeezes your arm before disappearing into the crowd, her orange hair a flash of color swallowed by the sea of bodies.
you don't mind; it's a chance to people-watch, observing the chaos from a safe distance. couples grind on the dance floor, lost in the rhythm, their movements fluid and unselfconscious. groups of friends cluster in booths, laughing loud enough to carry over the bass, heads thrown back, drinks raised in toasts. the bartenders behind the counter put on a show — one flips a bottle high in the air before catching it smoothly, drawing cheers from the patrons pressed against the rail. neon reflections dance across spilled liquor and glossy tabletops, and every few seconds a strobe freezes the entire scene in sharp white light, like snapshots of a life you only visit occasionally.
you lean your elbows on the cool metal edge of the bar, letting the condensation from your glass drip onto your fingers. it's easier being here, perched on a stool with your back to the wall, a clear view of the room but enough space to breathe. you scan faces idly: a girl in a silver dress twirling under the lights, a guy checking his phone with a bored expression, a cluster of friends taking selfies with exaggerated poses. part of you envies their ease, the way they seem to belong in this pulsing, loud world. you've always felt a step removed — like you're watching a movie instead of living in it. chaewon belongs here, feeding off the energy, while you recharge in quiet corners. still, there's something mesmerizing about it all, the collective abandon, the way strangers become temporary allies on the dance floor.
your mind drifts to how different this is from your usual friday nights: curled on the couch with a blanket, a mug of chamomile tea steaming beside you, some quiet playlist or a book in your lap. or baking — testing a new recipe for brownies, the apartment filled with the scent of chocolate. peaceful. predictable. safe. here, everything feels unpredictable, and while that's chaewon's fuel, it's your drain. you check your phone — no messages, just the time ticking slower than you'd like. you wonder how long "real quick" will be for chaewon. probably until she gets pulled into dancing or another round of drinks.
a burst of laughter from a nearby booth pulls your attention. three guys are clinking shot glasses, one of them spilling a little as he gestures wildly. you smile faintly, amused. the music shifts to a new track, heavier bass dropping, and the crowd erupts in cheers, bodies surging closer together. the air feels thicker now, warmer, carrying waves of different perfumes and colognes. you take another sip of soda, the ice clinking softly, and adjust your position on the stool to ease the slight ache starting in your feet from the heels.
that's when the annoying guy approaches. he's tall, with slicked-back hair and a shirt unbuttoned a bit too low, exuding overconfident energy. "hey, beautiful," he says, leaning in too close, his breath reeking of beer. "are you here alone?"
you shift uncomfortably, forcing a polite smile. "no, i'm with a friend."
the words come out steadier than you feel, but inside your stomach tightens. the guy — mark, he said earlier, though you barely registered it — doesn't seem to hear the dismissal in your tone. he just grins wider, like you've thrown him a challenge instead of a boundary. his eyes flick over you in a way that makes your skin crawl, lingering too long on the neckline of your top before snapping back to your face.
"well, she must be busy if she left you here all alone. mind if i join you?" he persists, his hand brushing your arm as he leans even closer on the bar. the touch is light, but deliberate, his fingers lingering a second too long on your sleeve. you pull back subtly, shifting your weight to create even an inch of space, but the press of bodies around you limits how far you can move.
the bar feels smaller suddenly, the air thicker. your heart picks up, not from excitement but from that low-level alarm that tells you this isn't going to end easily. you glance toward the dance floor, hoping to spot chaewon's flash of orange hair among the crowd, but the lights are strobing too fast, turning everyone into blurred silhouettes.
he doesn't take the hint — or chooses not to. instead, he launches into a monologue about his job in finance and how he comes here every weekend. "yeah, i'm in investments — private equity, actually. big deals, you know? closed a seven-figure one last month. that's why i hit eclipse every friday. best spot in the city to unwind after killing it at work." his voice is loud, carrying over the music, like he's used to people hanging on his every word. he gestures broadly, nearly knocking into the person next to him, then laughs at his own near-miss. you nod vaguely, eyes darting for an escape route, but the crowd behind you is a wall of shoulders and elbows. your soda sits forgotten on the bar, condensation pooling around the base. you hold it tighter, the cold glass grounding you as you try to figure out how to shut this down without making a scene.
he keeps talking. "something about his gym routine now, how he "stays in shape for the long hours." you catch fragments while your mind races. you've dealt with pushy guys before, but never quite this oblivious in such a packed space. chaewon's orange hair is still nowhere in sight; she's probably deep in conversation or already on the dance floor. you consider texting her, but pulling out your phone feels like it would invite more commentary from him. instead, you scan the bartenders, wondering if flagging one down would help, but they're slammed, moving in a blur of shakers and pours.
"look, i'm just waiting for my drink," you say, trying to edge away, voice firmer this time. you angle your body toward the bar, creating a subtle barrier with your shoulder, hoping he'll get the message and drift off to easier targets.
he laughs, too loud, and leans closer, his elbow now resting on the bar right next to yours, closing the gap you just made. "come on, don't be like that. let's dance. i'll show you some moves. you look like you could use a little fun tonight." his breath is hot against your ear as he says it, the smell of beer stronger now, mixed with whatever cologne he's doused himself in.
your throat tightens. the word "no" sits ready on your tongue, sharper this time, but before you can force it out.
a new voice cuts in — smooth, calm, but firm. "she's good, man. back off."
the words slice through the tension like a clean cut, not loud enough to draw attention from the rest of the bar, but steady enough that the annoying guy freezes mid-sentence. there's no aggression in the tone, just quiet authority — he doesn't need volume to be effective. you feel the shift immediately: the air around you lightens, the pressure on your personal space eases even before the guy reacts. your shoulders, which you hadn't realized were hunched, drop a fraction.
you turn, and there he is. tall, with dark hair falling slightly over his forehead, the strands a little tousled like he's run his hand through them a few times tonight. sharp features softened by an easy smile that reaches his eyes first, crinkling the corners just enough to make him look approachable rather than intimidating. his eyes are dark, intense, but there's a kindness in them as they meet yours — steady, assessing the situation without making you feel scrutinized. he's dressed casually — black button-up over a plain t-shirt, sleeves rolled once to his forearms, dark jeans that fit well — but he carries himself with a quiet confidence that makes him stand out. not flashy, not trying too hard; he just occupies the space like he belongs there. something about the way he stands — relaxed posture, hands loosely at his sides — tells you he's not here to start anything, just to end it.
the annoying guy sizes him up, eyes narrowing as he takes in the newcomer. there's a beat of silence where you can almost see the calculation happening: push it or back down? he mutters something under his breath — "whatever, man" — barely audible over the music, then turns and melts back into the crowd, shoulders hunched like he's trying to save face. the whole exchange lasts seconds, but it feels longer in the relief that follows.
you exhale a breath you didn't know you were holding, the tightness in your chest loosening. "thanks," you say, voice softer now that the threat is gone. "that was getting awkward."
"no problem," he says, sliding into the spot next to you at the bar with an easy movement, not crowding you but close enough to continue the conversation. he signals the bartender casually, like he's comfortable here. "you looked like you needed a rescue. i'm heeseung, by the way."
"nice to meet you," you reply, introducing yourself with a small smile that comes more naturally now. up close, he's even more handsome — high cheekbones, a jawline that could cut glass, but his expression is open, not intimidating. there's a faint scar just above his left eyebrow, barely noticeable unless the light hits it right, and his lashes are unfairly long. he smells clean — something subtle, like fresh laundry mixed with a hint of cedar. your pulse, still elevated from the earlier discomfort, settles into something different: a quiet awareness, curiosity flickering to life.
he orders a drink — bottled water, surprisingly, no alcohol — then turns back to you, leaning one elbow on the bar in a relaxed way that somehow makes the space between you feel less like a barrier. his gaze is direct but not overwhelming, like he's genuinely interested in your answer rather than just filling silence. the blinking lights catch the edge of his hair every few seconds, turning the dark strands almost blue under the neon.
"not your scene, huh?" he asks, the corner of his mouth lifting in a half-smile that feels like he's sharing a secret rather than judging.
you laugh, surprised he picked up on it. "is it that obvious? yeah, my friend dragged me here. she’s got this endless battery for nights like this. me? i’m usually home by now, probably halfway through a book or messing around with some random recipe in the kitchen. quiet apartment, low lights, maybe a playlist that doesn’t threaten to rupture my eardrums. this whole thing…" you gesture vaguely at the flashing lights and writhing crowd, "feels like i accidentally walked onto someone else’s planet."
"i get it," he nods. "i'm here with some buddies, but honestly, i'd rather be chilling at home with music or a game. clubs are... intense."
his honesty catches you off guard, and you find yourself relaxing. the tension from the earlier creep fades completely, replaced by the easy rhythm of talking to someone who actually gets it. "exactly. the music's so loud i can feel it in my chest."
he chuckles, a low, warm sound that cuts through the din. "yeah, it's like the bass is trying to restart your heart. one wrong drop and i swear i’m gonna need a defibrillator by midnight. you start wondering if the dj’s secretly a cardiologist testing new equipment." he tilts his head, amused at his own joke, then leans in just a fraction so you can hear him better without shouting. "so, seriously, what do you do when you're not being peer-pressured into nightlife?"
"barista at a little café downtown," you say. "pouring lattes, recommending muffins. glamorous stuff."
"hey, that's essential work," he teases, his eyes sparkling under the shifting lights. "world runs on caffeine. i'm a graphic designer — freelance, so my office is wherever my laptop is."
you talk easily after that, the conversation flowing like you've known each other longer than five minutes. he asks about your favorite drinks to make, and you describe the satisfaction of nailing a perfect foam art — how a simple tulip or a little heart can make someone's whole morning, the quiet pride you feel when they snap a photo before the first sip. he shares stories of late-night design sessions, fueled by endless coffee, admitting he once pulled an all-nighter for a logo that the client ended up scrapping entirely. there's laughter — genuine, belly-deep — when he mimics a picky client's ridiculous requests, dropping his voice into a nasally whine: "can you make it pop more? but also calmer? and maybe add some whimsy, but not too whimsical." you counter with tales of customers who insist on "extra hot" drinks that could melt steel, the ones who send it back because it's "not hot enough" even when steam is practically burning your hand through the cup.
the work talk drifts naturally into lighter things. "so how'd your friend talk you into this place tonight?" he asks, nodding toward the dance floor where chaewon's orange hair flashes under the lights every few seconds.
you roll your eyes, smiling. "classic chaewon move. she showed up at the café right as i was closing, gave me the whole 'i've had the worst week, i need my best friend' routine. next thing i know, i'm in heels and she's raiding my closet. she's got this talent for making 'no' feel like the wrong answer."
he laughs. "sounds like my friend jake. he's the one who dragged me out tonight. texted me 'emergency wingman duties' and wouldn't take no for an answer. apparently his crush is here somewhere, but i've lost him in the crowd twenty minutes ago."
"same with chaewon," you say. "she spotted some coworkers and vanished. i give her ten more minutes before she tries to pull me onto the dance floor."
"you don't dance?" he asks, eyebrow raised, teasing but not pushy.
"not if i can help it. i'm more of a 'sway awkwardly in place' kind of person. you?"
he shrugs, a small grin. "only if the song's good and i'm a few drinks in. tonight i'm sticking to water. i have a design deadline tomorrow. can't risk the hangover fog."
"responsible," you tease. "i respect that. i'm on soda duty tonight too. solidarity."
he lifts his water bottle in a mock toast. "to bad influences and good excuses to stay sober."
you clink your glass against his, both laughing. he asks what kind of music you actually listen to when you're not being assaulted by club remixes, and you admit to low-key fuck with some playlists — indie stuff, lo-fi beats for work, the occasional old r&b throwback when you're baking at 2 a.m. he nods like he gets it, mentions he leans toward alt-rock and whatever's trending on his design playlists, but he's got a soft spot for 90s hip-hop when he's in a good mood.
it's all surface-level, nothing deep — just favorite takeout spots (you vote for the korean place near your café, he claims a late-night taco truck is unbeatable), worst movie you've seen recently (you both agree on some over-hyped blockbuster that flopped), silly hypotheticals like "if you could only eat one pastry for the rest of your life, what would it be?" (you say almond croissant, he picks pain au chocolat, and you pretend to be offended on behalf of croissants).
no one asks about family or exes or where you grew up. it's easy, light, the kind of conversation that doesn't demand anything but feels good anyway.
as you chat, light touches happen naturally: his hand brushes yours when he gestures to emphasize a point, fingers lingering half a second longer than necessary; your shoulder bumps his when someone pushes past in the crowd, and neither of you shifts away immediately. each contact sends a small spark through you, warm and unexpected, but it's innocent, charged with unspoken potential. the chemistry is instant, palpable — a magnetic pull that makes the crowded club fade into the background. the lights, the bass, the strangers — all of it blurs until it's just the two of you in this little pocket at the bar, talking like the night isn't slipping away.
chaewon reappears briefly, cutting through the crowd like a burst of energy, her orange hair catching the strobe lights in flashes of fire. she's flushed from dancing, a thin sheen of sweat on her forehead, drink in hand and eyes bright. she spots you talking to heeseung and immediately breaks into a knowing grin, eyebrows waggling dramatically. without saying a word, she gives you an exaggerated thumbs-up behind his back, then mouths "he's cute!" before pointing at herself and the dance floor like she's about to drag you in. you shake your head slightly, half-laughing, half-mortified.
heeseung notices the movement over your shoulder and turns just in time to catch the tail end of her performance. he smirks, amused rather than embarrassed. "your friend seems fun."
"she is," you agree, glancing back at chaewon as she blows you a kiss and vanishes again into the sea of bodies. "the yin to my yang. she's the one who lives for this — dancing till closing, making friends with everyone, turning a random night into a story. i'm usually the one dragging her home before she does something chaotic."
he chuckles. "sounds like a solid balance. my friends are the same — always pulling me out when i'd rather stay in sketching or messing with new fonts. they say i work too much."
"fonts?" you raise an eyebrow, teasing. "that's your idea of a wild friday night?"
"hey, don't knock it till you try it," he defends, mock-serious. "there's something satisfying about finding the perfect typeface. nerdy, i know."
"not nerdy," you say. "kinda cool, actually. better than pretending i like places where the music physically rearranges your organs."
he leans in a bit closer to be heard, his voice dropping lower, warm against the noise. "so, if you're not a club regular, what's the verdict so far? besides the rescue mission."
you tilt your head, pretending to think it over, enjoying the easy back-and-forth. "jury's still out. the lights are giving me a headache, the floor's sticky, and i’ve already had one too many guys think 'no' is a negotiation tactic. but..." you let the pause hang, meeting his eyes with a small smile, "the company's improving it. significantly."
his smile widens, slow and genuine, the kind that reaches his eyes and makes them crinkle at the corners. he doesn't say anything right away, just holds your gaze a second longer than casual, and for a moment the air thickens between you — the music fades to a distant thump, the crowd blurs. you can feel the almost-pull, the unspoken question of what might happen if one of you leaned in just a little more. your heart beats faster, not from the bass this time.
but then, chaos intervenes.
chaewon stumbles back out of nowhere, laughing breathlessly, grabbing your arm with both hands. "okay, okay, come with me, only one song! you have to! this remix is fire, come on!" her grip is firm, already tugging gently, eyes pleading in that way you know too well.
at the exact same moment, a group of guys across the bar starts shouting. "heeseung! shots over here, man! you're missing out!" one of them — tall, messy hair, holding up a tray of glowing blue liquors — waves dramatically.
heeseung glances over, then back at you, regret flickering across his face. "duty calls," he says, half-laughing, half-apologetic.
you nod, hiding the sharp pinch of disappointment behind a casual smile. "yeah, go. thanks again for the save."
"anytime," he says, his gaze lingering one last beat, like he's memorizing the moment. then he pushes off the bar, gives you a small wave, and he's gone, swallowed by the crowd and his friends' cheers.
you watch him disappear, the space beside you suddenly cooler, quieter. chaewon tugs again, but even as you let her pull you toward the floor for that "one song," your mind is still at the bar, replaying that almost-kiss that never quite happened.
the rest of the night blurs — chaewon keeps pulling you onto the dance floor for a bit, but your heart isn't in it. you keep scanning for heeseung, catching glimpses but never reconnecting. eventually, the crowd thins, and chaewon declares it's time to go, her energy finally giving up.
in the uber home, you stare out the window, the city lights blurring into streaks of neon as the car hums along quiet streets. chaewon is next to you, half-asleep against the door, her orange hair messy from dancing, makeup slightly smudged but still glowing under the passing streetlamps. she mumbles something about the dj being "insane tonight" before dozing off, leaving you alone with your thoughts.
you replay every moment on a loop. his laugh — low and unforced, the kind that starts in his chest. the accidental brushes of his hand against yours when he talked with his hands, the way he'd gesture to make a point and his fingers would graze your wrist like it was nothing and everything at once. the way his eyes crinkled at the corners when he teased you about your soda order, dark and warm, like he was genuinely enjoying the absurdity of the conversation. the almost-moment before chaos pulled you apart — how close he'd leaned, how the air had shifted, how you'd actually considered closing the distance yourself.
no numbers exchanged — just a fleeting connection that feels unfinished, like a sentence cut off mid-thought. you didn't even think to ask in the rush of friends calling and chaewon tugging your arm. now it's too late, and the regret sits heavy in your chest.
the driver pulls up to your building, and you nudge chaewon awake. she groans dramatically but manages a sleepy grin. "did you have fun? even a little?"
you hesitate, then nod. "yeah. more than i expected."
she perks up slightly. "because of the cute rescuer guy?"
you don't answer, just roll your eyes as you pay and climb out. she hugs you at the door, promising to text tomorrow, then stumbles into her own ride share. inside your apartment, you kick off the heels with relief, the cool floor soothing your aching feet. you wash off the makeup, change into soft pajamas, and collapse into bed, but sleep doesn't come easy.
he's all you think about, a stranger who's already etched himself into your mind. you stare at the ceiling, replaying snippets: the way he said your name once, testing it like it fit, the easy confidence without arrogance, how he actually listened instead of waiting for his turn to talk. it's ridiculous — one conversation in a loud club, interrupted before it could go anywhere — and yet here you are, wide awake at 2 a.m., wondering if he’s thinking about it too.
the next morning, sunlight streams through your curtains, pulling you from a restless sleep. dreams fragmented with club lights and heeseung's smile linger as you stretch, groaning at the slight ache in your feet from those heels and the dull throb behind your eyes from the late night. your mouth feels dry, your body heavy, but your mind is sharp — immediately back on him.
you roll over, checking your phone — no messages, of course. why would there be? you didn't even get his number. it was a stupid mistake, now permanent.
but that doesn't stop the thoughts. as you brew coffee in your tiny kitchen, the aroma filling the air, you wonder what he's doing right now. is he nursing a hangover with greasy takeout, or is he the type to wake up early and hit the gym, all disciplined and annoyingly put-together? you imagine him at his desk, laptop open, sketching designs with that same focused look he had when listening to you, brow slightly furrowed in concentration, hair still messy from sleep.
stupid, you tell yourself, pouring the coffee into your favorite mug — the one with the chipped handle you can't bring yourself to replace. it was one conversation. one nice, unexpectedly good conversation in a place you don't even like. people meet strangers all the time and forget them by morning. but as you lean against the counter, steam rising in lazy curls, you know you won't forget him that easily. the what-if sits there, quiet but persistent: what if you'd stayed longer? what if you'd asked for his number before his friends called? what if chaewon hadn't pulled you away right at that moment?
you shake your head, trying to snap out of it. it's saturday — no work, no plans. maybe you'll bake something complicated to distract yourself. or reorganize your bookshelves. anything to keep your mind from drifting back to a pair of dark eyes and a half-smile in a crowded club.
but deep down, you already know it's going to be a long day of wondering.
you spend the afternoon trying to shake him off — cleaning the apartment, reorganizing your spice rack alphabetically, even attempting a new sourdough recipe that requires more attention than usual. but every quiet moment brings you right back to the club: the brush of his fingers, the way he leaned in to hear you better, that half-smile when you teased him about fonts.
by late afternoon, your phone buzzes.
chaewon: on my way over. bringing snacks and wine. we NEED to debrief last night.
you smile despite yourself. of course she’s coming. you text back a quick thumbs-up, then tidy the living room a bit more, even though she’s seen it in way worse states.
twenty minutes later, the intercom buzzes. you let her up, and she bursts through the door like she owns the place — orange hair now tied up in a messy bun, oversized hoodie, leggings, and a plastic bag swinging from her wrist. she kicks off her shoes and immediately flops onto your couch, dumping the bag on the coffee table: a bottle of cheap rosé, a family-size bag of spicy chips, and those gummy peaches she knows you like.
"okay," she says without preamble, twisting open the wine and pouring two generous glasses without asking. "spill. all of it. i saw you talking to that guy for, like, an hour straight. who is he? what happened? why didn't you get his number?"
you take the glass she hands you, curling up on the opposite end of the couch, legs tucked under you. "his name is heeseung. he saved me from a creep at the bar, then we just... talked. that's pretty much it."
chaewon narrows her eyes, popping a gummy peach into her mouth. "that's pretty much it? babe, you were smiling like an idiot every time i glanced over. and you never smile at clubs. you usually look like you're calculating how many minutes until you can leave."
you feel your cheeks heat. "he was easy to talk to. like, weirdly easy. we bitched about work stuff, laughed about stupid customers and clients, talked about music and food. nothing deep, but it didn't feel forced."
she leans forward, elbows on her knees. "and? details. what does he do? is he single? did he flirt? because from across the room it looked like flirting."
"graphic designer, freelance. and yeah, he flirted a little. or maybe i was just reading into it." you pause, sipping the wine — cold, sweet, exactly what you need. "there were these little touches, like his hand brushing mine when he talked, or when people pushed past us. and at one point it felt like... i don't know, like something might happen. but then you grabbed me for dancing and his friends yelled for shots, and it just… ended."
chaewon winces dramatically. "oh my god, i'm the worst wingwoman ever. i cockblocked you without even realizing."
you laugh. "you didn't. it was bad timing, that's all. we didn't exchange numbers or anything. he's probably already forgotten about me."
"doubt it," she says firmly, crunching a chip. "you looked cute last night. like, really cute. and you were laughing — actually laughing — in a club. that's rare footage. if he has any sense, he's kicking himself right now for not asking for your number."
you pull a throw pillow into your lap, picking at the fringe. "i keep replaying it. like, why didn't i ask? i never ask, but i almost did. and now it's just... gone."
chaewon softens, scooting closer to bump your shoulder with hers. "hey. it was one night. a good one, from the sound of it. maybe it's one of those stories you tell later — "that one hot guy i met at a club before i swore off clubs forever.""
you snort. "except i haven't sworn off clubs yet because you keep dragging me."
"true," she grins. "but seriously — if you want to go back next weekend, we can. same place, same vibe. maybe he'll be there again."
your heart does a stupid little flip at the idea, even as you try to play it cool. "i don't know. feels kinda desperate, showing up just to see if some random guy is there."
"it's not desperate if i'm dragging you again," she says, like it's already decided. "besides, the dj was good. we can go for the music. and if he happens to be there... bonus."
you take another sip of wine, considering. "maybe. i'll think about it."
she studies you for a second, then smirks. "you're thinking about him right now, aren't you?"
"shut up," you mutter, but you're smiling.
chaewon tops off your glasses, satisfied. "that's what i thought. operation 'find club boy' is officially on standby. but tonight, we finish this wine, eat all these snacks, and watch something trashy. deal?"
"deal," you say, clinking your glass against hers.
the conversation drifts after that — recapping her dancing adventures, complaining about work, ranking the snacks — but heeseung lingers in the back of your mind, a quiet hum you can't quite turn off. and when chaewon finally leaves around ten, hugging you tight at the door with a promise to text tomorrow, you crawl into bed still wondering if he's out there somewhere, thinking about you too.
author’s note — the first chapter is out!!! i’m so excited 🥹 i’ve been working on these series for so long, i can’t believe you’re finally getting to read them. as always, your comments, likes and reblogs are very much appreciated!! i’d love to hear your thoughts 🫶🏻 just so you know, from now on, the chapters will be published every tuesday and friday. stay tuned!
This is truly a case of Virtual Munchausen Syndrome for real. I don’t think she ever intended to deactivate the first time, but people were starting to get suspicious. She was crazy, but she wasn’t careful. Deleting her blog was a Hail Mary into the end zone that Alice fully intercepted and ran back for a touchdown.
Still you gotta admire the energy though. She was out here singin both parts of the duet and she was in the audience too. Never let it be said miss si3rren couldn’t commit to the bit.
I saw u had asked for asks so I'm sending my very first ask ever on tumblr to u . Can u please do a VERY freaked out fic for sunghoon , I genuinely don't know what trope I want but something related to husband and wife would be nice 🫶🏻
hai cutie super honored to be ur first ever ask :0 i hope u like this !! ^^
super freak ! | psh
ʚɞ summary - there’s only so many times you can test your husband’s limits until he finally breaks.
ʚɞ tags - 18+ MDNI, f!reader, hard dom!sunghoon, bratty reader, penetrative sex (p in v) unprotected sex, spanking, edging, crying during sex, pwp
ʚɞ w.c - 4.8k
The coffee maker gurgled its last drops into the carafe, filling your apartment with its rich scent. You stood in your pajamas, leaning against the kitchen counter, and watched it. Sunghoon’s favorite mug, a heavy black one with the gold rim, sat clean and empty next to the machine. A small, wicked smile touched your lips. You reached out, filled your own floral-patterned mug to the brim, added a splash of cream, and left his sitting there, pristine and untouched.
You heard his footsteps in the hall, and he appeared in the doorway, already dressed in tailored black slacks and a crisp white button-down, the sleeves rolled to his forearms. His dark hair was still slightly damp from his shower, and his sharp features were set in a look of focused concentration. His eyes, usually so warm when they landed on you, scanned the room and settled on the coffee maker, then on his empty mug, then on you, sipping from yours.
A flicker of confusion passed over his face, quickly replaced by a soft, questioning look. “No coffee for me today, sweetheart?” he asked, his voice still morning-rough, a low timbre that made your stomach flutter.
You took an exaggeratedly slow sip, meeting his gaze over the rim. “Oh, did you want some?” you asked, your tone all innocent surprise. “I figured you were in such a hurry, you wouldn’t have time for it. I didn’t want to get in your way.”
He blinked, his brow furrowing slightly. He moved toward you, his hand coming up to brush a stray hair from your cheek. You leaned away just an inch, turning to place your mug in the sink. His hand hovered in the air for a moment before dropping. “You’re never in my way, baby,” he said, his voice dropping. He stepped closer, his body heat radiating against your back. “C’mere. I didn’t get my good morning kiss.”
You busied yourself rinsing the mug, the water running loudly. “You were on your phone the second you got out of the shower,” you said, not looking at him. “Seemed like you had more important things to do.”
He was silent for a beat. You could feel his stare on the back of your neck. “It was a work email,” he said simply. “It’s a big deal today. You know that.”
“I do,” you said brightly, finally turning off the tap and turning around. You offered him a breezy smile, patting his chest. “So you’d better get to it. Wouldn’t want you to be late.” You ducked under his arm, which had been poised to encircle you, and padded out of the kitchen toward the bedroom.
You felt the tension you left behind him, thick and palpable. The game had begun.
You didn’t let up, even as the day unfolded. When he called you from his home office at lunch, asking if you’d ordered in, you told him you’d already eaten—a homemade sandwich, all by yourself, while watching a TV show. You didn’t ask if he wanted anything. You heard the quiet sigh on the other end of the line.
A couple minutes later, you grabbed your phone and opened your messages with him.
hi baby! hope work is going well, don’t forget to eat! you sent, adding three heart emojis for good measure.
Almost immediately, you saw the three dots indicating he was typing. But before he could respond, you muted the conversation and set your phone face down. You made your way to the living room, where you sprawled out on the couch with a book, leaving the TV on low for background noise.
A few minutes later, your phone buzzed with his reply: Thank you, baby. I’ll make sure to order something. What are you up to?
You read it, smiled to yourself, and ignored it, leaving him on read. Instead, you got up and started tidying the apartment, humming softly to yourself as you flitted from room to room. You made sure to pass by his office door a few times, your footsteps just loud enough to be heard but not enough to warrant a comment.
When he emerged from his office an hour later, looking for you, you were nowhere to be found. He called your name softly, but you stayed in the guest bedroom, rearranging drawers that didn’t need rearranging. You heard his footsteps retreat back to his office, and you grinned.
You waited another hour before sending another text: hey, just saw this cute pic of us from last weekend. made me smile. You attached a photo of the two of you at the park, his arm wrapped around your shoulders, both of you laughing.
Again, the three dots appeared almost instantly. I miss you, sweetheart, he replied. Come see me.
You typed back, busy rn, maybe later, and left it at that. You could practically feel his frustration through the screen.
Later in the afternoon, you put on a soft sweater that clung to your curves and a short skirt that showed off your legs. You wandered past his office a few times, each time catching his gaze lingering just a little too long. When you finally ‘accidentally’ needed something from his desk, you bent over to retrieve a book from a low shelf, knowing full well the view you were presenting. When you straightened, you caught his eyes darkening, his fingers pausing over his keyboard.
You gave him a wide, guileless smile. “Just getting my reading material. Don’t let me distract you!” You sashayed out, leaving the door slightly ajar.
But you weren’t done yet. A little while later, you sent him another text: forgot to ask, do u want anything from the store? i might run out.
This time, he replied immediately: No, stay here with me.
You paused for effect before responding: oh, never mind then :) ill just go anyway
You didn’t leave the apartment, of course, but the anticipation in the air was thick enough to cut with a knife. He was starting to catch on, but you weren’t ready to let up just yet.
By the time he emerged from his office just after six, you could see the tightness around his jaw, the controlled set of his shoulders. The easy affection he usually wore at the end of a workday was gone, replaced by a simmering intensity.
“We’re going out for dinner,” he announced, his voice leaving no room for argument. He didn’t ask; he stated. It was the first sign of the control beginning to slip, to reassert itself. “Get ready. Wear your black dress.”
A thrill shot through you. The black dress was his dress—backless, sinfully short, the fabric so soft it felt like a second skin. He loved it. He loved the way people looked at you in it, loved the possessive pride it gave him to have you on his arm, loved even more taking it off you later. You put it on without a word, feeling the silk whisper over your hips. You saw his reflection in the bedroom mirror as you fastened a necklace. He was leaning against the doorframe, watching you, his arms crossed. His gaze was a physical weight, traveling from the nape of your neck down the exposed line of your spine to where the dress ended on your thighs.
The restaurant had low lighting and intimate booths, and you were the picture of a charming, slightly ditzy wife. You flirted with the sommelier, laughing a little too brightly at his jokes about the wine. You let your foot ‘accidentally’ brush against Sunghoon’s calf under the table, then pulled it away when he shifted. You took tiny, deliberate bites of your food, moaning softly about how delicious it was, licking your fork clean with slow, sensual swipes of your tongue. You were a living, breathing provocation.
Sunghoon played the part of a perfect, attentive husband. He ordered for you, refilled your water glass, asked about your day. But his responses grew shorter, his smiles tighter. His knuckles were white where he gripped his steak knife. The conversation became a duel.
“The filet is incredible,” you purred, cutting a piece and holding it out on your fork toward him. “You have to try a bite, baby.”
He looked at the proffered fork, then at your lips. “I’m fine,” he said, his voice low.
“Oh, come on,” you coaxed, leaning forward, letting the neckline of your dress gap just slightly. “Just one? For me?”
His eyes dipped to the shadow of your cleavage for a fraction of a second before snapping back to yours. A muscle ticked in his jaw. He leaned forward and took the bite, his teeth closing over the tines with a quiet, definitive click. He chewed slowly, never breaking eye contact. “Satisfied?” he asked, the word loaded.
“Mhm,” you chirped, turning your attention back to your plate, a victorious little smile playing on your lips.
The drive home was silent. The air was thick, but you hummed along to the radio, tracing patterns on the fogged-up window while Sunghoon drove with a focused, almost brutal precision, his hands firm on the wheel. You could feel the energy coming off him in waves, and it made you want to burst out laughing.
He parked in your building’s underground garage. The engine cut, and the sudden quiet was deafening. You unbuckled your seatbelt and reached for the door handle.
“Wait.”
His voice wasn’t loud, but it was a command. It stopped you cold. You turned to look at him. The interior light was off, his face illuminated only by the eerie glow of the garage’s security lights. His expression was unreadable, but his eyes burned: they tracked over your face, down to where your hands were clasped in your lap.
He got out, walked around the car, and opened your door. He didn’t offer a hand. He just stood there, waiting. You slid out, the dress riding up dangerously. He didn’t comment. He simply closed the door, locked the car with a beep, and turned toward the elevator. You fell into step beside him, the click of your heels echoing loudly in the concrete space.
In the elevator, he pressed the button for your floor. The mirrored walls reflected the two of you—you, looking flushed and slightly breathless, him, a portrait of restrained power. You watched his reflection as he watched yours. His gaze dropped to your mouth, then lower, to the swell of your breasts against the black silk. Your own breathing hitched.
The elevator doors pinged open.
He strode out, and you followed. At the door to your apartment, he unlocked it and held it open. You walked past him, and as you did, your shoulder brushed his chest. You felt him go utterly still.
The door clicked shut behind you, the deadbolt sliding home with a final, ominous thunk.
That was when he moved.
In one fluid, powerful motion, he swept you off your feet. A small gasp escaped you as his arms hooked under your knees and back, lifting you effortlessly into a bridal carry. He didn’t look at you. His face was a mask of intent, his jaw clenched, his eyes fixed on the hallway leading to your bedroom. He carried you as if you weighed nothing, his steps long and deliberate. Your heart hammered against your ribs.
He shouldered the bedroom door open, crossed the room in three strides, and deposited you firmly onto the center of the bed. You bounced a little, the silk of your dress murmuring against the duvet. Then Sunghoon stood at the foot of the bed, looking down at you, finally meeting your eyes. All the pretense, all the civility, was gone. What remained was hunger.
“All day,” he said, his voice a low, dangerous rasp. “All fucking day, you’ve been testing me. Pushing me. Denying me.” He began to unbutton his cuffs, rolling the sleeves up higher with slow, deliberate movements. “No kiss. No coffee. Flirting with strangers. That little show at dinner.” He took a step closer. “You think it’s funny, baby? You think teasing your husband is a game?”
You pushed yourself up on your elbows, your brattiness surging one last time, fueled by adrenaline. “Maybe,” you said, your voice coming out more breathless than you intended. “Maybe I just wanted to see if you’d notice.”
He let out a short, humorless laugh. “Oh, I noticed.” He reached down, his fingers hooking into the hem of your dress. In one sharp pull, he yanked it up over your hips, bunching it around your waist, exposing your panties and your bare thighs. The cool air hit your skin, making you shiver. “I noticed everything. But now, baby, you’re going to learn what happens to brats.”
He leaned over, his hands gripping your waist, and flipped you onto your stomach with effortless strength. Before you could react, he was straddling your thighs, his weight pinning you to the mattress. One large hand pressed between your shoulder blades, holding you down. The other landed on your ass.
The first spank was a loud, stinging crack that echoed in the quiet room. Heat bloomed instantly under your skin.
“Count,” he ordered, his voice devoid of all warmth.
You jerked, a gasp tearing from your throat. “Wha—?”
The second spank landed, harder, on the other cheek. The sting was sharper, blooming into a deep, throbbing heat. “One!” you yelped.
Smack. “Two!”
Smack. “Three!”
Each blow was measured, deliberate, designed to sting and brand. Your skin grew hotter and hotter, the pain a bright, clarifying fire. You squirmed beneath him, but his hold was unbreakable, and with each number you choked out, the humiliation and the arousal began to twist together, a confusing, potent mixture. By “seven,” your voice was shaking. By “nine,” tears of frustration were welling in your eyes.
The tenth spank was the hardest yet, a brutal impact that made you cry out, your body arching against the bed. “Ten!” you sobbed, the word muffled by the duvet.
Sunghoon's hand hovered for a moment after the tenth strike, his palm resting possessively on the heated skin of your ass. He could feel the warmth radiating from you, the way your body trembled beneath him. Slowly, deliberately, he trailed his fingers down between your thighs, brushing against the damp fabric of your panties. You gasped as he pressed there, right over your soaked core, the thin material clinging transparently to your folds.
“Look at you,” he drawled, his voice low and mocking, laced with dark amusement. “Dripping like a desperate little slut after just a couple of spanks. I can feel how wet you are, baby. Your pussy's practically begging for it, isn't it? Soaking through your panties.”
You bit your lip, heat flooding your cheeks even as your hips twitched involuntarily toward his touch. The humiliation burned, but it only made the ache between your legs worse. Instead of submitting, you twisted your head to glare at him over your shoulder, your voice coming out in a defiant whine. “Yeah? Well, I bet you're hard as fuck right now, aren’t you, Sunghoon? All worked up from smacking my ass?”
His eyes narrowed, a dangerous glint flashing in them. He yanked your panties down in one rough pull, exposing your glistening pussy to the cool air of the bedroom. The fabric caught briefly on your thighs before he tossed it aside, leaving you bare and vulnerable on your stomach. His fingers returned, this time skin on skin, parting your slick folds with ease. You were drenched, your pussy lips swollen and puffy, slick arousal coating his fingertips as he traced the length of your slit. He circled your entrance, dipping just the tip of one finger inside before pulling back, making you clench around nothing.
“Fuckin’ brat,” he growled, delivering a light smack directly to your exposed pussy. The wet sound of it echoed, sending a jolt of sharp pleasure-pain straight to your clit. “You think you can mouth off after I just punished you? Keep teasing, sweetheart, you know what’ll happen.”
You squirmed, pushing back against his hand despite yourself, your bratty facade cracking just a little under the building need. “Oh, please,” you shot back, though your voice wavered. “Like you’d last. You’re probably throbbing in those pants, dying to shove your cock in me. Admit it—you spanked me because you were desperate to touch me.”
Sunghoon chuckled darkly, withdrawing his hand entirely. The sudden absence made you whimper, your pussy throbbing emptily. He shifted behind you, the mattress dipping as he knelt between your spread legs. You heard the zipper of his pants, the rustle of fabric, and then he was free, his thick cock springing out, heavy and rigid. It was long and girthy enough that even after years of dating and a year of marriage your mouth still watered at the prospect of it stretching you out.
He gripped the base, guiding it toward you. The first contact was a firm slap—his cock smacking down against your pussy with a lewd, wet thwack. The impact made your clit pulse, arousal splattering lightly against his skin. You jolted forward, a sharp cry escaping your lips as the sting mingled with overwhelming heat.
“That’s for talking back,” he said, voice rough with restraint. He slapped it again, harder this time, the broad head landing right on your sensitive folds. Your pussy quivered, lips parting slightly around the underside of his shaft as if trying to pull him in. Slick coated him immediately, making each subsequent slap slide a little more.
“Sunghoon,” you gasped, fingers twisting in the sheets. The teasing friction was torture, his cock heavy and hot against you, but not pushing inside. You rocked your hips back, trying to grind against him, but he held you steady with one hand on your hip, controlling the pace.
“No,” he scoffed, slapping his cock against your entrance now, the tip nudging your hole without entering. Precum mixed with your wetness, dribbling down your thighs. “Why would I give it to you, baby? You haven’t learned your lesson.”
He dragged the length of his shaft up your slit, slow and deliberate, the veined underside bumping over your clit with every inch. Your pussy clenched visibly, inner walls fluttering as arousal leaked out in a fresh gush. He did it again, sliding from your entrance up to your clit, pressing just enough to make your vision blur at the edges but pulling away before you could hump against him.
“Fuck, you’re so needy, baby,” he mocked, his free hand kneading the reddened flesh of your ass. “Pussy's all puffy and pink, begging to be filled. But you're still acting like a brat. Tell me, baby, how bad do you want this cock?”
You whined, the sound high and needy, but your stubbornness held. “I—I don’t,” you lied through gritted teeth, even as your body betrayed you, hips circling desperately. “I don’t care. Bet you couldn’t make me beg if you tried. You're just dragging it out because you're scared you’ll cum too fast.”
His response was immediate—a hard slap of his cock right on your clit again. The sharp sting radiated through your core, your swollen nub pulsing with electric pleasure. Then he slid down again, the bulbous head catching at your entrance, stretching the tight rim just barely, enough to make your inner walls flutter in anticipation, before he pulled back with a deliberate slowness. Your pussy sucked at the air, the hole winking open and closed, glistening with fresh arousal.
He repeated the motion over and over, up and down your slit, coating himself in your juices until his shaft glistened like it was oiled. Each pass dragged the thick veins along your inner lips, parting them obscenely and sending sparks of frustration through your body. Your clit throbbed under the relentless pressure, hypersensitive and begging for more direct contact, but he kept the rhythm torturously light, teasing glides that built the ache without granting release.
Sunghoon's control was ironclad, his hips rolling with precision to keep you on the edge. He leaned forward slightly, one hand sliding up your side to cup your breast, his fingers pinching your nipple hard enough to make you arch. The bud was already pebbled from the cool air and your arousal, and he rolled it between his thumb and forefinger, tugging just shy of pain. “Keep mouthing off, baby,” he taunted, his voice a low rumble that vibrated against your back. “Let’s see how long you last when I play with these pretty tits too.”
You gasped as he squeezed your breast fully, kneading the soft flesh while his cock continued its maddening path along your folds. He switched to the other nipple, twisting it sharply, the sensations making your pussy clench harder around nothing. More and more slick gushed out with each contraction, soaking his length and dripping onto the sheets below. Your thighs quivered, muscles straining as you fought the urge to spread them wider, to beg him to just shove inside.
But he wasn’t done. His free hand trailed down your spine, fingers dipping into the dimples at the base of your back before skating over the reddened curves of your ass. He spread your cheeks slightly, exposing you further, and let the tip of his cock nudge against your puckered hole for a fleeting second, just enough to make you tense, before returning to your pussy. The brief tease there sent a thrill through you, but he focused back on your dripping slit, slapping his heavy shaft against it once more.
“Fuck, look at your greedy little hole,” he murmured dazedly, watching as your entrance fluttered desperately. He pressed the head there again, circling the rim with slow, shallow dips—barely breaching, just stretching the outer muscles until they burned with need. Your walls rippled inward, trying to pull him deeper, but he withdrew every time, leaving you emptier than before. Minutes stretched into what felt like hours, the frustrating tease building until tears of need pricked your eyes.
Sunghoon's breathing grew heavier, his massive cock twitching against your skin. He shifted his weight, reaching around to your front again—this time targeting your clit directly. His fingers parted your folds, exposing the swollen nub, and he flicked it lightly with his thumb while his cock dragged upward along your slit. It had you keening, your hips bucking wildly, but he pinned you down with his body, controlling every movement.
“Always so sensitive,” he whispered, pinching your clit between his fingers and rolling it gently, then harder, alternating the pressure to keep you teetering on the brink. Your pussy spasmed in response, inner lips quivering as more cream leaked out, coating his hand. He brought those slick fingers up to your mouth, pushing them past your lips. “Taste how wet you are for me, sweetheart. Suck them clean while I decide if you've earned my cock yet.”
You obeyed despite yourself, tongue swirling around his digits, the tangy flavor of your own arousal flooding your senses. It only heightened the humiliation and desire, making your core throb painfully. He withdrew his fingers with a pop, trailing saliva down your chin before returning to your breasts. This time, he pinched both nipples simultaneously, pulling them outward until you whimpered, the sharp tugs sending jolts straight to your clit.
He ground his cock against your entrance now, not entering, but rutting the full length along your pussy, the underside pressing firmly against your clit with each forward motion. Your folds hugged him, lips wrapping around his girth like they were made for it, and you could feel every ridge and vein pulsing hot against your most sensitive spots. Your neck arched as he nipped at the skin there, teeth grazing your earlobe before sucking the lobe into his mouth. His tongue traced the shell, hot and wet, while his hand snaked down to trace circles around your navel, dipping lower to feather over your inner thighs—everywhere but where you needed him most.
Tears welled up fully now, spilling over as the edging dragged on, your body a live wire of unfulfilled tension. Your pussy was a sopping wreck: lips puffy and dark pink, entrance gaping slightly from the constant teasing, clit erect and aching. You rocked back futilely, chasing any friction, but Sunghoon’s grip on your hip tightened, holding you still. He slapped his cock against your ass cheek now, the impact making your skin jiggle, then brought it back to tap repeatedly against your clit—light, then heavy, over and over until you were sobbing into the pillow.
“Still holding out?” he challenged, his voice rough with his own building arousal. He leaned over your back fully, chest pressing against your spine, lips brushing your ear as one hand cupped your throat gently, tilting your head back. His other hand delved between your legs again, two fingers spreading your folds wide while his thumb strummed your clit in feather-light strokes. His cock hovered at your entrance, the head kissing it softly, dipping in a fraction—your walls clamping down hungrily, sucking greedily—before he yanked back again with a chuckle. “Your whole body’s begging for it, sweetheart.”
You whined frustratedly. “Y-you’re being so mean,” you managed, voice hoarse and broken. Your hips circled again, grinding air, the emptiness inside you a torturous void.
He laughed lowly, rewarding your sass with another teasing thrust—the tip breaching halfway this time, stretching your tight channel around his girth before he pulled out completely. Your skin flushed hot, every nerve ending alight, the prolonged denial pushing you to the razor's edge of sanity. But finally, after what seemed an eternity of this exquisite torment, Sunghoon leaned over your back, his chest pressing against your spine, lips brushing your ear.
“Still wanna act up, baby?” he murmured. “Your pussy’s so wet for it. So tight, just waiting to milk my cock. But I want to hear you say it. Apologize for being bad. Beg your husband to fuck you.”
The word sent a shiver through you, amplifying the ache. You tried to hold out, biting down on the pillow, but another slow drag of his cock—pressing firmly against your clit and grinding—shattered your resolve. “Please,” you mewled, voice breaking. “Sunghoon, I'm sorry—sorry for being bad—hngh—I need it—need your cock inside me, fuck me, please.”
He hummed approvingly, but didn't give in yet. One more teasing slide, his tip circling your entrance, stretching it teasingly. “Louder, baby. Tell me what you want.”
"Fuck me!" you whined, pushing back futilely against his iron grip. "Please, please—hn—please, baby fill me up. I’m sorry,” you sobbed. “I’ll be good, I swear, just fuck me—” you wailed.
That did it. With a guttural groan, Sunghoon lined himself up and thrust in, hard and unrelenting. His thick cock speared into you in one brutal stroke, the head breaching your tight entrance and stretching your walls to their limit. You screamed, the burn of the intrusion mixing with the fullness as inch after girthy inch sank deep. Your pussy gripped him like a vice, inner muscles rippling around his length, sucking him in until his balls slapped against your clit.
“That’s my girl,” he panted, pulling back almost to the tip before slamming forward again. The force jolted you up the bed, your ass cheeks jiggling from the impact. Each thrust bottomed out, his cockhead kissing your cervix, the veins dragging against your sensitive walls.
You clawed at the sheets, moans tearing from your throat as he pounded into you. Your pussy squelched obscenely with every plunge, arousal foaming at the base of his shaft. He reached around, fingers finding your clit and rubbing in tight circles, making your walls flutter wildly around him.
“Gonna breed this tight little cunt,” he growled, hips snapping forward with bruising force. "Fill you up, baby. Pump you full until it takes. Is that what you want? Want your husband’s cum dripping out of you?"
“Yes!” you sobbed, the words spilling out between gasps. “Fill—hngh—me up, Sunghoon—please, cum inside. I need it—”
He fucked you harder, the bed creaking under the assault. His free hand gripped your hip, pulling you back onto his cock with every thrust, ensuring he hit that spot inside you that made stars explode behind your eyes. Your pussy clenched, milking him as your orgasm built, walls contracting around his girth. When you came, it was shattering—your body convulsing, pussy gushing around him in hot spurts, soaking his balls.
Sunghoon didn’t stop, driving through your climax with relentless strokes. “Fuck,” he grunted, burying himself to the hilt one final time. His cock pulsed, thick ropes of cum flooding your cunt. He held you flush against him, grinding deep as he bred you, ensuring not a single drop was wasted, and the warmth spread through your core, your pussy overflowing, cum leaking out around his shaft.
Only when he was spent did he slow, but he didn’t pull out, staying seated inside you, his hand stroking your back possessively. “Good girl,” he murmured, pressing a kiss to your shoulder. “Did so good for me. I love you, baby.”
Pairings: Omega! Jake Sim x Alpha! fem reader
Wordcount: 17k+
Summary: You love Jake, but believing you are a Beta who can never truly satisfy his Omega nature, you push him away only to realize during a dramatic twenty-first birthday presentation that you were his fated Alpha all along.
A/N: so uhhh I saw a Jake edit at work and wrote this at work 😭even though I see him as a soft dom I really wanna take care of him! Anyways hope you guys enjoy this. It was supposed to be a short Drabble I SWEAR IDK WHAT HAPPENED. Like always Please Like, Reblog and Comment! They are very appreciated.
[Masterlist]
The day the Sim family crossed the border into the Silver River Pack territory, the sky was the color of a bruised plum. It was late autumn, the air crisp and smelling of damp earth and decaying leaves.
You were five years old, a scrap of a thing with scraped knees and your father’s stubborn chin. Being the daughter of the Head Alpha meant you walked with a certain swagger, even in your light-up velcro sneakers. You felt like you owned the woods.
You were playing near the community center, digging for worms in the mud, when the old station wagon rolled in. It sputtered and died right in front of the intake office.
Two adults stepped out first. They were quiet, unassuming people. They kept their heads lowered, their shoulders hunched—universal body language for we mean no harm. They smelled like nothing. Just soap and nervousness. Betas.
Then, the back door opened.
A boy climbed out.
He looked to be about your age. He was wearing a yellow raincoat that was two sizes too big, the sleeves swallowing his hands. But it was his face that stopped you mid-dig.
He was the prettiest thing you had ever seen.
He had a mop of soft, dark hair that fell into his eyes. And those eyes... they were enormous. They were dark pools, wide and shimmering with a mixture of terror and wonder. When he blinked, you swore you could see galaxies swirling in them.
He looked around, clutching a stuffed puppy to his chest. He looked at the towering pine trees. He looked at the gruff Alpha guards standing by the gate. And then, he looked at you.
You stood up, wiping your muddy hands on your overalls. You marched over to him.
The boy flinched, taking a half-step behind his mother’s leg. He peeked out at you with those big, sparkly doe eyes.
"Hi," you announced, your voice loud in the quiet clearing.
"Hello," he whispered. His voice was soft, like wind chimes.
"I'm Y/N," you said. "My dad is the boss. Who are you?"
"Jake," he said, hugging the stuffed puppy tighter.
"You have mud on your face," he pointed out, pointing a tiny finger at your cheek.
You scrubbed at it, probably making it worse. "I was hunting worms. Do you like worms?"
Jake wrinkled his nose. It was an adorable motion, scrunching up his entire face. "No. They're slimy."
"That's the best part!" You grinned, showing off a gap-toothed smile. "You want to see?"
He hesitated, looking up at his mom. She gave him a gentle nod.
Jake stepped away from her leg. He walked toward you, his yellow raincoat swishing. "Okay. But if they touch me, I'm going to scream."
"Deal," you said.
That was the beginning. It wasn't an explosion; it was a seed taking root.
Pack dynamics are brutal, even for children. Wolves value strength, lineage, and scent. Even before presentation, children mimic their parents.
Jake was an anomaly. His parents were Betas, "drifters" who had joined the pack late in life. They didn't have the rich history of the founding families. They didn't have status.
And Jake... Jake was soft.
He didn't like roughhousing. He didn't like play-fighting. While the other boys were tackling each other in the dirt, growling with their baby teeth, Jake preferred to sit on the swings and look at the clouds. He liked to collect shiny rocks. He liked to hum to himself.
This made him a target.
It happened on a Tuesday. You were six.
You were looking for Jake during recess. You found him behind the equipment shed.
Three older boys—Marcus, Tyler, and Sam—had him cornered. Marcus was eight, big for his age, and already smelling faintly of his Alpha father’s aggression.
"What's wrong, stray?" Marcus sneered, kicking dust onto Jake’s shoes. "Cat got your tongue?"
Jake was pressed against the wooden wall. His big eyes were filled with tears that threatened to spill over. He wasn't fighting back. He was trembling, his lower lip wobbling.
"Leave me alone," Jake whispered.
"My dad says your parents are useless," Marcus laughed cruelly. "Just worker bees. You're going to be a useless worker bee too. You don't even smell like a wolf. You smell like air."
"I am a wolf!" Jake cried, his voice cracking.
"Prove it," Tyler taunted. "Growl. Come on. Let's hear it."
Jake opened his mouth, but only a small, choked sob came out.
The boys laughed. It was a mean, sharp sound.
You felt a heat rise in your belly. It wasn't the hormonal rage of an adult; it was the pure, righteous indignation of a best friend.
You dropped the pinecone you were holding. You didn't think. You just ran.
"HEY!" you screamed.
You barreled into the circle, shoving Marcus with all your might. He wasn't expecting it, and he stumbled back, tripping over his own feet and landing on his butt.
"Leave him alone!" you yelled, standing in front of Jake. You spread your arms wide, making yourself a shield.
Marcus scrambled up, his face red. "Move, Y/N. This isn't your business."
"He's my friend!" you shouted back. "And if you touch him, I'm telling my dad!"
The ultimate threat. The Head Alpha.Marcus paled. He looked at you, fierce and muddy, and then at Jake, who was peeking out from behind your shoulder with wide, terrified eyes."Whatever," Marcus muttered, trying to save face. "He's just a crybaby anyway. Come on, guys."
They ran off, hooting and hollering.You turned around immediately.
"Jake?" He was crying now, silent tears tracking down his soft cheeks. He looked so small. So fragile.
"Are you okay?" You reached out, wiping a tear from his chin.
Jake sniffled, looking at you like you were Superwoman. "They said... they said I'm not a real wolf."
"They're stupid," you declared firmly. "You are a real wolf. You're just... a nice wolf. You're not mean like them."
"You saved me," Jake whispered. He stepped forward and wrapped his arms around your middle, burying his face in your shirt. He smelled like baby shampoo and rain.
"I'll always save you," you said, patting his back. "That's what friends do."
Jake pulled back, his eyes sparkling again, the fear replaced by adoration. "I want to be strong like you, Y/N."
"You will be," you promised, having no idea what you were talking about.
By the time you were eight, you were inseparable. The pack elders called you "The Shadow and the Shield." Where you went, Jake followed. He was clingy. It was the only word for it. He didn't like being alone. If you were watching TV, he had to be sitting next to you, his shoulder pressed against yours. If you were walking to the bus stop, he was holding your hand. If you were eating lunch, he was stealing food off your plate just to have an excuse to lean close.He was tactile in a way that defied his gender. Usually, boys at that age were going through the "cooties" phase. Jake didn't care about cooties. He only cared about you. One rainy Saturday, you were having a sleepover at his house. His parents, sweet Betas who baked excellent cookies, had built you a fort in the living room out of couch cushions and blankets.You were lying inside the fort, flashlight on, reading comic books."Y/N?" Jake asked. He was lying on his stomach, his chin resting on his folded arms. His eyes were reflecting the flashlight beam, making them look like pools of honey.
"Yeah?"
"Do you think I'll be a Beta?"
The question hung in the air.
"My mom and dad are Betas," he continued softly. "So I'll probably be one too. Right?"
You looked at him. He was so delicate. His eyelashes were long and dark against his pale skin. He was soft-spoken and kind. He rescued spiders instead of squishing them. He cried during sad movies. "Probably," you said honestly. "But being a Beta is cool. My uncle is a Beta and he flies airplanes."
"I don't want to fly airplanes," Jake said, rolling onto his back. "I want to be an Alpha."
You giggled. "You? An Alpha?"
"Hey!" He kicked your shin gently. "I could be! I'm growing! Look at my muscles!"
He flexed his arm. It was a noodle. A very cute noodle.
"Wow," you teased, poking his bicep. "So scary. Marcus better watch out."
"I'm serious," Jake said, his face growing solemn. "If I'm an Alpha, I can be the boss. And if I'm the boss, I can make a rule that no one is allowed to be mean to you. Ever." Your heart did a funny little flip.
"I don't need rules, Jake. I can take care of myself."
"I know," he sighed, shimmying closer until his head was resting on your shoulder. "But I want to take care of you, too. You always protect me. I want to take a turn."
"Okay," you whispered, turning off the flashlight so the room was plunged into darkness. "When we grow up, you can take a turn."
"Promise?"
"Promise."
He fell asleep like that, breathing softly against your neck, his hand clutching the sleeve of your pajamas.
Fifth grade at age 10 brought the dreaded "Pack Biology" unit in health class.
The teacher, Mrs. Gable, pulled down a chart showing the three dynamics: Alpha, Beta, Omega. Alphas: The leaders, the protectors, the ones with the ruts and the knots. Strong, aggressive, dominant. Betas: The backbone, the stabilizers, standard biology. Calm, steady. Omegas: The nurturers, the heart of the pack, the ones with heats and slicks. Rare, precious, submissive. You sat next to Jake. He was staring at the chart with intense focus.
"Statistically," Mrs. Gable droned, "Two Beta parents have a 95% chance of producing a Beta offspring. There is a 4% chance of an Alpha, and a less than 1% chance of an Omega."
Jake slumped in his chair. After class, you found him sitting on the swing set, dragging his feet in the woodchips.
"What's wrong?" you asked, swinging next to him.
"95 percent," he grumbled. "That's basically 100 percent."
"So? What's so bad about being a Beta?"
"Betas are... boring," Jake said, kicking a rock. "And they can't mate bond. Not really. They don't have the bite."
"The bite sounds painful anyway," you shrugged.
"It's not about the pain," Jake looked at you with those big, earnest eyes. "It's about the connection. My dad says Alphas and Omegas are tied together by their souls. Like... magic. Betas just... like each other."
"Well, I like you," you said. "That's enough, isn't it?"
Jake looked at you. The sun was setting, casting a golden glow over his face. He looked otherworldly pretty and handsome. "I guess," he murmured. "But I want the magic."
"Maybe you'll get lucky," you said. "Maybe you're the 4 percent."
"And you?" he asked. "What do you think you are?"
You thought about your parents. Your father was a massive, commanding Head Alpha. Your mother was a beautiful, elegant Omega.
"I think I'll be an Omega," you said confidently. "Like my mom. I like taking care of people. And I like soft blankets. And I hate fighting."
"You fought Marcus," Jake pointed out.
"That was different. That was for you."
Jake smiled, swinging a little higher. "Okay. So, if you're an Omega... and I'm the Alpha... then we're a perfect match."
"We're best friends, Jake. That's already a perfect match."
"Yeah," he said, looking at the sky. "Best friends."
The summer you turned twelve was the last summer of true childhood innocence. Puberty was knocking on the door, but it hadn't kicked it down yet.You spent every day in the treehouse your dad had built in the backyard. It was your sanctuary. No parents allowed. No bullies allowed. Just you and Jake. It was a hot August afternoon. You were lying on the wooden floorboards, drinking juice boxes and sweating. Jake was sketching in a notebook. He was getting really good at drawing. He was drawing you. "Stop moving," he mumbled, tongue poking out of the corner of his mouth in concentration.
"It's hot," you complained, fanning yourself.
Jake put the pencil down. He crawled over to you.
"Y/N?"
"Yeah?"
"What happens if we present and... things change?"
"What do you mean?"
"Like... what if I become an Alpha and the pack tells me I have to find an Omega? A stranger?"
"You just say no," you said simply.
"Can you do that?"
"You can do whatever you want, Jake. It's your life."
He looked unconvinced. He picked at a loose thread on his shorts. "I don't want a stranger. I want to stay with you."
"We're neighbors, Jake. We're going to the same middle school. We're not going anywhere."
"No, I mean..." He struggled for the words. He was twelve, and the feelings were too big for his vocabulary. He just knew that the idea of being separated from you, of having a life that didn't revolve around you, made his stomach hurt. He lay down next to you, his head resting near yours. He turned so he was facing you.
His eyes were so close. You could see the flecks of gold in the brown. They were sparkly, innocent, and full of a blind trust that terrified you sometimes.
"Promise me something," he whispered.
"What?"
"Promise that no matter what we present as—Alpha, Beta, Omega, alien—we stick together. Two peas in a pod."
"Obviously," you rolled your eyes, reaching out to flick his forehead.
"No, say it. Promise."
"I promise, Jake. Me and you against the world."
"And..." he hesitated. "If you turn out to be an Omega... promise you won't let any big, mean Alphas take you away. Unless I say they're okay."
You laughed. "You want to approve my boyfriends?"
"Yes," he said deadly serious. "I have to vet them. If they can't beat me in Mario Kart, they can't have you."
"Deal," you giggled. "And if you turn out to be a big, scary Alpha... I promise to make sure you don't turn into a jerk like Marcus."
"I could never be a jerk to you," Jake said softly. He reached out and took your hand, intertwining his fingers with yours. His palm was clammy.
"I love you, Y/N," he said. It was the platonic, intense love of a child.
"Love you too, Jakey."
You lay there in the heat, holding hands, listening to the cicadas buzz. You didn't know then that biology was already writing a different script. You didn't know that the soft, sweet boy with the sparkly eyes who wanted to be your protector was carrying the genetics of a rare, high-level Omega. And you didn't know that you, the girl who wanted to be soft like her mother, had a beast sleeping in her chest that would one day wake up and burn the world down for him.For now, you were just two kids in a treehouse. Two peas in a pod. Waiting for the rest of your lives to start.
Age 14 Puberty hit Jake Sim like a freight train, but instead of awkwardness and acne, it brought angles and height.
It happened over the summer before freshman year. You went away to a leadership camp for three weeks. When you came back, the boy waiting for you on your front porch wasn't the boy you left. He stood up as your dad’s car pulled into the driveway. He was taller—at least three inches taller. His shoulders, once bony and narrow, had broadened out, filling his t-shirt in a way that made your mouth go dry for a split second before your brain caught up. His jawline had sharpened, cutting a striking silhouette against the afternoon sun.But then he smiled, and the "Hot Stranger" vanished, replaced instantly by Jake. "You're back!" he yelled, bounding down the porch steps with the same puppy energy he’d had at five. He engulfed you in a hug, lifting you off your feet. He smelled different, too. Not the pheromones of a presented wolf yet—you were both still technically "pups"—but he smelled like deodorant, laundry detergent, and something distinctly warm and masculine.
"Put me down, you giant!" you laughed, slapping his back.
He set you down, grinning. "Did you shrink? Or did I just win the genetic lottery?"
"You grew," you accused, looking up at him. "It's unfair." He leaned down, bringing his face close to yours. And there they were. The eyes. Despite the sharp jaw and the new height, his eyes were exactly the same. Dark, shimmering, and impossibly round. Boba eyes, you called them. They still held that galaxy of innocence, that wet, shiny look that made it impossible to say no to him.
"Missed you," he whispered, the playfulness dropping for a second to reveal the clingy attachment underneath.
"Missed you too," you admitted.
Age 15 High school was a strange ecosystem. As everyone waited for their secondary genders to manifest, hormones were running rampant. Jake became popular by accident. He was quiet, he was athletic (soccer star), and he was devastatingly handsome. Girls—and some boys—would whisper when he walked down the hallway.
“Is he an Alpha? Look at those shoulders.”
“He has to be. He’s too hot to be a Beta.”
Notes appeared in his locker. Girls would "accidentally" bump into him. Jake didn't just reject them; he didn't even notice them.You were at your locker one morning, struggling with a jammed zipper on your backpack. "Here," Jake appeared out of nowhere, his chest pressing against your shoulder as he reached over to fix it. He was always in your personal space. He treated your personal bubble like it was his vacation home.
"Thanks," you muttered.
A girl from your math class, Sarah, walked by. She stopped, twirling her hair, looking at Jake with hungry eyes. "Hi, Jake. I like your sweater."
Jake didn't look up. He was focused on your zipper. "Thanks."
"Are you going to the pep rally?" Sarah pressed, stepping closer.
"I'm going with Y/N," Jake said, finally freeing the zipper. He zipped your bag up and patted it. "Done."
"Oh," Sarah’s face fell. She looked at you with a mix of confusion and jealousy. "You guys are... always together."
"Yep," Jake smiled, draping his arm heavily over your shoulders, pulling you into his side. "Two peas in a pod."
He turned you around and walked you to class, leaving Sarah standing there.
"You're rude," you whispered, though you leaned into his side.
"I'm not rude," he said, bewildered. "I answered her question."
"She was flirting with you, Jake."
"I don't care," he shrugged, resting his chin on the top of your head as you walked. "I'm busy."
"Busy doing what?"
"Hanging out with you."
It wasn't a grand romantic gesture. It wasn't in the rain. It was in his bedroom, on a Tuesday afternoon, while playing video games.
You were sitting on the floor, leaning back against the edge of his bed. Jake was sitting between your legs, his back resting against your chest. It was a tangle of limbs that would have looked scandalous to anyone else, but for you two, it was just Tuesday.
You were both sixteen. The pressure of "Firsts" was heavy in the air at school. First dates. First kisses. First presentations.
"Jacob kissed Jessica under the bleachers today," Jake said, his eyes glued to the TV screen as he mashed buttons on the controller. "Gross," you commented, braiding a small section of his hair. "Was it sloppy?"
"He said it was... wet. And electric." Jake paused the game.
The silence in the room shifted. It became heavy, charged with the curiosity of two teenagers who were too close for their own good.
Jake turned his head. Because he was leaning back against you, his face was upside down from your perspective. "Do you think it's electric for Betas?" he asked softly. "Or is that just an Alpha/Omega thing?"
"I don't know," you whispered. You stopped braiding his hair. Your fingers were resting on his scalp. "We could check," Jake said. It wasn't a proposition. It was a scientific inquiry. Or at least, that's what he pretended.
"Check?"
"Kiss," he clarified. "To see if it's electric. Since we haven't presented yet. We're the control group."
Your heart hammered against your ribs. You knew, logically, this was a bad idea. Friends didn't test-drive kisses. "Okay," you breathed out.
Jake shifted, turning his body so he was facing you. He sat cross-legged, his knees bumping yours. His boba eyes were wide, searching your face for any sign of hesitation. "Just a test," he whispered.
He leaned in.
His lips were soft. That was your first thought. They were chapped from the cold, but soft.He pressed his mouth to yours tentatively. Closed mouth. Innocent.
But then, he sighed. And you sighed. And the kiss deepened. Jake’s hand came up to cup your jaw, his thumb stroking your cheekbone. You instinctively grabbed the front of his shirt, pulling him closer. It was electric. It wasn't the biological spark of a mate bond—not yet—but it was the terrifying, white-hot electricity of realizing that the person you loved most in the world tasted really, really good. Jake made a low sound in his throat, a tiny whimper that sent a shiver down your spine. He tilted his head, his nose brushing against yours, and pressed harder. For ten seconds, the world dissolved. There was only Jake. Jake’s warmth. Jake’s smell (still just laundry detergent, but somehow intoxicating). Jake’s lips moving against yours with a clumsy, desperate hunger.
Then, he pulled back. You were both panting slightly. His lips were red. His eyes were blown wide, pupils dilated. He looked at you with a terrifying amount of hope.
"That was..." he started. Panic set in. If you acknowledged what just happened—that you liked it, that you wanted to do it again—everything would change. The friendship, the safety, the "peas in a pod." What if you presented as something incompatible? What if he met his fated mate later and you were just a mistake?
"Scientific," you blurted out, your voice cracking. Jake’s face fell. The light in his eyes dimmed just a fraction. "Right," he swallowed, pulling his hand away from your face. "Scientific. No electricity."
"Nope," you lied, your heart breaking a little. "Just... lips."
"Okay." He turned back around, picking up the controller. But his hands were shaking. "Level four?"
"Yeah. Level four."
You didn't talk about it. But the air between you had changed. It was thicker now. Heavy with things unsaid.
Age 17 The kiss haunted you. To escape it, you did what any confused, panicked teenager would do: you tried to find "normal." You started dating Caleb. Caleb was safe. He was a year older, a newly presented Beta. He was nice enough. He played guitar. He smelled like cedar chips (a standard Beta scent).
Jake didn't take it well. When you told him, he went quiet. His face went blank, shutting down in a way you rarely saw.
"Oh," was all he said. "Okay."
He didn't make a scene. He didn't fight for you. He just... retreated. He stopped coming over every night. He stopped touching you constantly. He still sat with you at lunch, but he sat across from you, not next to you. The loss of his physical presence felt like phantom limb pain. The relationship with Caleb lasted three months. And it was terrible.Caleb was insecure. He didn't like how close you were with Jake.
"Why does he look at you like that?" Caleb asked one night while you were watching a movie.
"Like what?"
"Like he owns you."
"He's my best friend, Caleb."
"He's a guy. And he's not presented yet. He could be an Alpha waiting to happen. I don't like it."
You tried to make it work. You created distance with Jake to appease Caleb. You ignored Jake’s texts. You stopped going to the treehouse. And then, Caleb cheated. You found him at a party, making out with a girl from the drama club. The breakup was messy. Caleb was defensive, calling you "frigid" and blaming your obsession with your "little pet Jake." You walked out of the party, tears streaming down your face, feeling hollowed out. You didn't call your mom. You didn't call your dad.
You walked three miles in the dark to Jake’s house.
It was 1:00 AM. The Sim house was dark. You threw a pebble at Jake’s window.
He opened it almost instantly, as if he had been waiting. He was shirtless, wearing pajama pants, his hair tousled from sleep. He looked down, saw you crying on his lawn, and didn't hesitate.
"I'm coming down."
He met you at the back door. He didn't ask what happened. He didn't ask why you were there. He took one look at your tear-streaked face and opened his arms.
You collapsed into him. "He... he..." you sobbed, unable to get the words out.
"Shh," Jake whispered. He pulled you into the living room, onto the big plush sofa.
He sat down and pulled you into his lap. You were seventeen, almost fully grown, but he held you like you were five. He wrapped his legs around yours, his arms banding around your waist, burying his face in your neck. "He's an idiot," Jake murmured into your skin. The vibration of his voice soothed the ache in your chest. "Whatever he did, he's an idiot."
"He cheated," you choked out. "And he said... he said I was cold."
Jake stiffened. His arms tightened around you, his grip bordering on painful. "You're not cold," he growled. It was a low sound, surprising for an unpresented boy. "You're warm. You're the warmest thing I know."
He rocked you back and forth. He used his thumb to wipe the tears from your cheeks, his touch incredibly tender.
"I hate him," Jake said quietly. "I want to punch him."
"Don't," you sniffled, leaning your head on his shoulder. "He's not worth it."
"He made you cry. That makes him worth hurting."
Jake looked at you then. The moonlight was filtering in through the window, illuminating his face. He had grown into his features so well. He was beautiful. But his eyes... those boba eyes were shiny with unshed tears of his own. He was crying because you were crying.
"I'm sorry," you whispered. "I'm sorry I pushed you away."
"Don't do it again," Jake said, his voice cracking. He pressed his forehead against yours. "Please. I can't... I can't function when you're not there. It's like trying to breathe underwater."
"I won't," you promised. "No more boyfriends. Just us."
"Just us," he agreed. He didn't kiss you. He could have—you were vulnerable, you were close—but he didn't. Instead, he just held you. He ran his fingers through your hair, massaging your scalp until your breathing evened out.
"Sleep," he commanded softly. "I've got you."
You fell asleep on his chest, listening to the steady, strong beat of his heart. You woke up the next morning in his bed (he had carried you upstairs). He was asleep next to you, his hand gripping your waist even in his sleep. You looked at him and realized that Caleb was right about one thing. Jake did look at you like he owned you.
But as you watched him sleep, his eyelashes fluttering against his cheek, you realized something else. You wanted to be owned.
Your eighteenth birthday was supposed to be the start of your life. In the Silver River Collective, eighteen is when the biological clock strikes midnight. It’s the unveiling.
You spent the weeks leading up to it terrified and excited. Would you be a regal Omega like your mother? A commanding Alpha like your father?
The day came. You woke up. You checked the mirror.
You looked exactly the same. You smelled exactly the same.
You waited a week. Then a month.
Nothing. The pack doctors ran tests. "Late bloomer," they shrugged, marking your chart with the clinical code for Unpresented/Presumed Beta. "It happens. Not everyone gets a wolf." You watched the light in your father’s eyes dim just a fraction. He didn't love you less, but the expectation of a legacy had evaporated. You were just... Y/N. Normal. Boring. Invisible. Then came November. Then came Jake.
Jake Sim turned eighteen and the universe didn't just knock; it kicked the door down.
His presentation was violent and immediate. One day he was the beta boy next door; the next, he was one of the Pack’s Crown Jewel.
He presented as a Male Omega.
In your pack, Male Omegas were unicorns. They were prized for their high fertility, their potent scents, and their rarity. When Jake returned to school after his first heat week, the atmosphere shifted gravitationally. He walked down the hallway, and heads turned. Alphas stopped mid-sentence, nostrils flaring, tracking the scent of peaches and fresh rain that trailed behind him like a royal cape. He had filled out. His skin glowed with that distinct Omega luster. His lips looked softer, redder. He was undeniably, breathtakingly beautiful.
And you? You were the shadow walking beside the sun.
People stopped seeing you. They looked right through you to get to him.
"Jake, want to sit with us?"
"Jake, did you finish the calc homework?"
"Jake, you smell amazing."
You expected him to drift away. It would have been natural. He belonged to the elite now, the hierarchy of scents and instincts. You belonged to the background.
But Jake didn't drift. He anchored. If anything, his presentation made him more obsessed with you. "They're so loud," he complained one day at lunch, pressing his face into your shoulder to hide from a group of staring Alphas. "Can we go to the library? I need to smell your detergent. It quiets my brain."
"I'm boring, Jake," you muttered, stabbing at your salad. "Go sit with Sunghoon and Jennie. They're Alphas. They're your crowd now."
"They smell like warm body spray and ego," Jake mumbled, wrapping his arm around your waist and pulling you closer. "I'd rather sit with you."
Sophomore year of college. The dynamic was set in stone. Jake was the campus idol—the Music Production major with the face of a model and the scent of heaven. You were his "friend." The Beta bodyguard. It was a Friday night in October. Jay, a popular Alpha and friend of Jake’s, was throwing a massive house party. "I don't want to go," you groaned, lying on your bed.
"Please?" Jake pleaded. He was standing in your doorway, dressed in a black band tee, and ripped jeans. He looked dangerous. He looked edible. "Jay invited me, and he said I could bring a plus one. I'm not going without you. If I go alone, I'll get eaten alive."
"You love the attention," you accused, though you were already reaching for your shoes. "I hate the attention," he corrected. "I only want attention from one person."
He gave you that look—his eyes, wide and shimmering—and you crumbled. You always crumbled. Jay’s house was a sensory nightmare. The bass was shaking the floorboards. The air was thick with the smell of cheap beer, sweat, and a cocktail of pheromones. You stuck to the wall, nursing a red solo cup. Jake was seated on the main sofa, a king in his court. He was laughing at something Jay said, throwing his head back, exposing the long, elegant line of his throat. He looked radiant.
You watched him, a familiar ache settling in your chest. You loved him. God, you loved him. But you were a dud. A non-entity. You couldn't give him what he needed. He needed a mate. He needed a bite. He needed an Alpha.
"Hey."
You looked up. A girl was standing next to you. A Beta you recognized from History class. "You're Y/N, right? Jake Sim's... friend?"
"Yeah."
"Is he single?" she asked, shouting over the music. "My roommate is dying to ask him out, but she's scared of you."
"Scared of me?" You let out a bitter laugh. "Why? I'm nobody."
"You have a vibe," she shrugged. "Like a guard dog."
You looked back at the sofa. The mood had shifted. A woman had sat down next to Jake. You knew her. Kim Minji. A senior. A Female Alpha. She was stunning—tall, sharp-featured, radiating a scent of crushed mint and leather that cut through the room. She was everything you weren't. Powerful. Presented. Compatible. She was leaning into Jake’s space. Her hand was resting on the back of the sofa, fingers inches from his neck. She whispered something in his ear. Jake smiled. It was a polite smile, tight at the corners, but he didn't pull away. He couldn't. Social etiquette for an Omega dictated he be polite to high-ranking Alphas. Then, Minji moved. Her hand slid from the sofa to Jake’s knee. A red haze dropped over your vision.
It wasn't rational. It wasn't logical. It was primal. The sound of your plastic cup crushing in your hand was lost in the music.You felt a growl vibrating in your throat, low and dangerous. Get your hands off him.But you were just a Beta. You had no right.
"I'm leaving," you snapped at the girl next to you.
You turned and shoved your way through the crowd, heading for the door. You couldn't watch it. You couldn't watch him be claimed by someone worthy.The night air was cold, biting at your heated skin. You marched down the sidewalk, angry tears stinging your eyes.
"Y/N! Wait!"
Footsteps pounded on the pavement behind you.
You didn't stop. "Go back to the party, Jake. Minji was just getting started."
"I don't care about Minji!"
Jake caught up to you, grabbing your arm. He spun you around.
He was out of breath, his chest heaving. His band shirt was slipping off one shoulder. He looked frantic. "Why did you leave?" he demanded.
"Because I don't belong there!" you shouted, ripping your arm from his grip. "I'm not part of your world, Jake! I'm just the background character holding your bags while you get flirted with by real Alphas!"
"Real Alphas?" Jake scoffed, stepping closer. "You think she's a real Alpha? She smells like mouthwash and desperation. She touched my knee and I wanted to vomit."
"She can give you a bond!" you yelled, the truth finally spilling out. "She can knot you! She can bite you! I can't do anything! I'm just Y/N! I just have... this." You gestured vaguely to your body. "It's not enough for an Omega."
Jake went silent. He stared at you, his eyes searching your face in the streetlights. His chest was rising and falling rapidly.
"Is that what you think?" he whispered, his voice trembling. "That I want a knot? That I need some biological lock to feel safe?"
"It's what you're built for."
"I'm built for you," Jake hissed.
He stepped into your space, eliminating the distance. He grabbed the lapels of your jacket and yanked you close.
He kissed you. It wasn't the innocent, scientific kiss from when you were sixteen. This was desperate. It was angry. It was hungry.
He tasted like beer and peaches. He kissed you like he was trying to breathe you in, his tongue sweeping into your mouth, claiming you. You froze for a second, then you broke. You wrapped your arms around his neck, hauling him flush against you. You kissed him back with all the pent-up frustration of the last year.
"My place," Jake gasped against your lips. "Now."
Once yo reached his place you stumbled into his room, lips locked, hands roaming.
The door slammed shut, locking out the world.The room smelled like him—concentrated, sweet, safe. But tonight, the air was crackling with a different kind of energy. Jake broke the kiss, shoving you gently towards the bed. He looked frantic, his eyes wide and glassy with unshed tears.
"Take it off," he ordered, his voice shaking. He was pulling at his own band tee shirt, ripping it over his head. You stripped quickly, your hands trembling. When you were both bare, the silence in the room was deafening. You stood there, feeling exposed, feeling inadequate.
"Jake," you started, "I don't know if I can—"
"Shh," he silenced you, stepping forward. He placed his hands on your shoulders and turned you around. You faced the wall, your heart hammering against your ribs. You felt the mattress press against your knees as he guided you down.
"I want to show you," he whispered, his breath hot against your ear. "I want to show you that I don't need a knot. I need to be inside you. I need to feel you."
He pushed you forward until you were on your hands and knees. It was a submissive position, one usually reserved for Omegas, but tonight, he was flipping the script. He wanted to claim you.
You felt him move behind you. He was shaking. You could feel the heat radiating off his body, the sweet, cloying scent of an aroused Omega filling your lungs.
"Y/N," he whined, a high, needy sound that made your toes curl. He pressed himself against your back. His skin was soft, burning hot. He wrapped his arms around your waist, clinging to you like a lifeline. He buried his face in the crook of your neck, his wet eyelashes fluttering against your skin.
"Please," he whimpered. "Let me."
You nodded, unable to speak. He guided himself to your entrance. He was trembling so hard it took him a moment to find the rhythm. But when he pushed inside, a sob tore from his throat. "Oh god," he cried, the sound muffled against your shoulder. "You're so warm. You're so warm."
He didn't take control like an Alpha would. He didn't dominate. He moved with a desperate, clingy need. He kept his chest pressed to your back, his arms locked around your waist as if he was terrified you would disappear if he let go.
He began to move. It wasn't a power play. It was a plea.
With every thrust, he made a sound—a soft, broken whine that was pure Omega. He was the one penetrating you, but he was the one unraveling.
"Do you feel me?" he sobbed, biting gently on your shoulder to ground himself. "I'm right here. I'm connected to you. No knot can do this. Only us."
You gripped the sheets, your head falling forward. The sensation was overwhelming—not just the physical pleasure, which was sharp and blinding, but the emotional weight of it. He was literally pouring himself into you.
"Jake," you gasped.
"I love you," he cried, his hips snapping forward, driving deeper. "I love you so much it hurts. Don't make me find an Alpha. I don't want them. I hate them. I only want you."
He was crying openly now, his tears dripping onto your bare back. He sounded so pathetic, so needy, and yet he was the one holding you down, the one filling you up.
"I'm yours," you whispered, the truth finally slipping out.
"Say it again," he begged, his pace quickening, his breath hitching. "Tell me you're mine."
"I'm yours, Jake. I'm yours."
That was it. That was the trigger. Jake let out a long, high-pitched wail, his body tensing. He thrust into you one last time, burying himself to the hilt, and collapsed against your back. He held you with a crushing grip, shaking violently as he came.
You felt him pulse inside you, and you shattered with him, your own climax hitting you in a wave of white light. He didn't pull away. He couldn't. He stayed there, slumped over your back, his face buried in your neck, sobbing quietly. He was heavy, warm, and smelled like peaches and salt. "Don't leave," he mumbled into your skin, his voice thick with sleep and exhaustion. "Stay inside. Stay close."
You reached back, running your hand through his sweat-damp hair. "I'm not going anywhere."
The morning sun was cruel. It illuminated the dust motes and the reality of the situation.You woke up with Jake’s limbs tangled in yours. He was the big spoon, curled around your back, his arm heavy over your waist. He was still asleep, his breath hitching every now and then like a child who had cried themselves to sleep.
Panic set in. Cold and sharp.
What have I done?
You had crossed the line. You had slept with the pack’s most eligible Omega. You, the unpresented nobody. You had taken something that should have been saved for a real Alpha who could take care of him properly.
Jake stirred. He tightened his grip on your waist, nuzzling your shoulder.
"Morning," he murmured, his voice raspy and content.
You carefully untangled yourself from him and sat up. You pulled the sheet around your body, creating a barrier.
The smile froze on Jake’s face as he felt the loss of your warmth. He sat up, rubbing his eyes. "Y/N?"
"We... we shouldn't have done that," you whispered, staring at the floor.
Jake looked like you had slapped him. "What? Why? It was... it was perfect. You felt it."
"It was a mistake, Jake. I got jealous. I let my emotions get the better of me."
"So?" Jake asked, his voice rising, panic creeping in. "I wanted you to! I've been waiting for you to get jealous! Does this mean we're... are we together now?"
He looked so hopeful. His eyes were wide, pleading. It killed you.
"No," you said, forcing your voice to be steady, even though your heart was breaking. "We can't be."
"Why not?"
"Because look at you, Jake! You're an Omega! A high-level Omega! And I'm... I'm nothing. I'm a dud. I can't knot you. I can't bite you. Last night... last night was great, but eventually, your biology is going to demand those things. Eventually, you're going to meet your fated mate."
"I don't want a fated mate!" Jake yelled, grabbing your hand. "I want you! I don't care about the knot! Didn't I prove that?"
"You say that now," you said, pulling your hand away. "But you're eighteen. You don't know what's out there. I won't be the reason you miss out on your true mate."
You took a breath, steeling yourself to offer the only compromise you could live with. The only way to keep him without ruining his future. "But... if you want... we can keep doing this. Until you find someone else."
Jake went still. He stared at you, his eyes welling with fresh tears. "You want to be... friends with benefits?"
"It's better than nothing, isn't it?" you said, hating yourself. "I can take care of your needs. I can keep the Alphas away. But no labels. No promises. Because I can't promise you a future I can't give."
It was a cowardly offer. You were terrified of losing him, so you built a cage of "no strings" to protect yourself from the inevitable heartbreak.
Jake looked down at his hands. He looked at the empty space in the bed where you used to be.He knew he should say no. He knew he deserved a mate who would claim him proudly in the streets. He knew he was worth more than a secret.
But he looked at you—his best friend, his protector, the person who let him cry while he fucked her because he was so overwhelmed with love.
"Okay," he whispered, his voice small.
"Okay?"
"If that's all you can give me," Jake looked up, a single tear tracking down his cheek. "I'll take it."
He crawled to the edge of the bed, reaching out to grab your hand again. He pressed his cheek against your palm, submitting to your terms, even though it broke his heart.
"Just don't leave me," he begged. "Please don't leave me alone."
"I won't," you promised, leaning down to kiss his forehead. "I'm not going anywhere."
That was a year ago.
Now, you are both twenty. The "situationship" has become a lifestyle. To the outside world, you are best friends. To the walls of Jake’s apartment, you are everything.
You sleep together almost every night. You know every inch of his body. You know that he likes to be the one in control, but he needs to be praised while he does it. You know that he cries when it’s too good. You know that he needs to be held for exactly twenty minutes afterward before he can speak. He is still the talk of the campus. Alphas still bring him gifts. He politely declines them all. "I'm busy," he tells them.
He comes home to you. He crawls into your lap, smelling of other people's perfumes and colognes, and scrubs his face against your neck until he smells like you again.
"You're mine," he whispers in the dark, when he thinks you're asleep. "Even if you won't say it. You're mine."
And you? You hold him tighter, consumed by the guilt and the pleasure, waiting for the other shoe to drop. Waiting for the day the universe corrects its mistake and takes him away.But for now, in the dark, he is yours. And you are his loser, his unpresented mistake, his secret keeper.
The lie began on a Thursday afternoon in the lecture hall of the Science Building.
Jake was sitting in his usual spot, third row, tapping his pen against his notebook. He was tired. His cycle was approaching—he could feel the pre-heat itch under his skin—but the calendar said he had at least another week. He was managing it. He was fine.Then, the door opened.A girl walked in. She was late. She was a transfer student, someone Jake hadn’t seen before. She was tall, with sharp eyes and a confident stride.She walked right past Jake’s desk to get to an empty seat.
As she passed, the air shifted. It hit Jake like a physical blow. Cinnamon . Leather. Woodsmoke. It was the scent of a dominant Female Alpha. And not just any Alpha—a compatible one. Jake’s biology betrayed him instantly. His heart hammered a frantic rhythm against his ribs. His mouth watered. A sharp, cramping heat coiled low in his stomach, seizing his insides. His Omega instincts, usually dormant and suppressed by blockers, woke up and screamed: Pack. Protection. Mate.
He gasped, dropping his pen. The girl paused. She turned, looking down at him. Her eyes flashed red for a microsecond—her Alpha recognizing a distressed Omega.
"Are you okay?" she asked, her voice low and rumbling.
That voice. It vibrated in Jake’s bones. It told him to bare his neck. It told him to submit.
And Jake hated it.
He hated the lack of control. He hated that his body wanted to bow to a stranger just because she had the right hormones. He hated that for a split second, he forgot about you. "I'm fine," Jake choked out, grabbing his bag. "I have to go."
He scrambled out of his seat, ignoring the Alpha’s confused look, ignoring the professor calling his name. He ran out of the building, bursting into the cold autumn air. He leaned against the brick wall, hyperventilating. The heat was already rising. The encounter had triggered a biological override. His heat wasn't a week away anymore. It was coming now. He pulled out his phone. His hands were shaking so hard he could barely type.
Y/N.
He needed you. He needed your scent—your neutral, detergent scent. He needed your hands. But he couldn't tell you the truth. If he told you that a Female Alpha had triggered his heat, you would do the "noble" thing. You would tell him to go to her. You would push him away, convinced that biology knew better than love. You would leave him. The thought made his chest ache more than the heat did. He swallowed the bile in his throat and typed the lie.
Jake: I think my suppressants failed. It's starting early. Can you come over? Please
You got the text while you were in line at the campus bookstore.
Panic, cold and familiar, washed over you. Early? You abandoned your place in line. You called your boss at the library and told him you had a family emergency. You emailed your professors that you were sick.
Then, you went to the grocery store. You moved through the aisles with robotic efficiency, playing the role you had carved out for yourself: The Beta Caretaker.
Items:
Gatorade (Blue, his favorite).
Protein bars (he wouldn't want to cook).
Soft blankets (he liked new textures when he was nesting).
Peaches (canned, in syrup—comfort food).
Painkillers.
You arrived at his apartment twenty minutes later. The hallway already smelled faintly of him—a sweet, rising dough scent that warned of the storm to come.
You unlocked the door.
"Jake?"
The apartment was dark. The blinds were drawn.
"Bedroom," a voice croaked. You walked in. Jake was buried under a pile of blankets on his bed. Only his eyes were visible—those big, shiny boba eyes, now glassy with fever. "You're here," he whimpered.
He scrambled out of the blankets. He was wearing nothing but a pair of gray sweatpants. His skin was flushed a deep, rosy pink.
He practically tackled you. "Whoa, easy," you said, dropping the grocery bags as his weight hit you. He buried his face in your neck, inhaling deeply. He made a frustrated sound.
"You smell like the bookstore," he complained, rubbing his cheek aggressively against your collarbone. "I need you."
"I'm here, Jake. I'm right here."
You walked him back to the bed, though he clung to you like a koala. You sat down, and he immediately straddled your lap, wrapping his arms around your neck. "It hurts," he whispered, pressing his hot forehead against yours. "It feels heavier this time."
You ran your hands up and down his bare back, trying to soothe the tremors running through him. You felt the guilt rise in your throat.
"Jake," you said softly. "The books say the second heat is more intense. The body is... demanding a mate."
He stiffened in your arms.
"So?" he challenged, pulling back to look at you. His eyes were dark, pupils dilated.
"So... maybe we should call someone. Not a stranger. But maybe... Jennie? Or Jay? Someone safe. Someone who can help you properly."
It tore your heart out to say it. The thought of Jake with anyone else made you want to vomit. But you were a dud. A placeholder. If his heat was this bad, could you really satisfy him?
Jake’s expression shifted from pain to pure, unadulterated anger.
"No," he growled.
"Jake, be reasonable. I can't knot you. I can't—"
"Shut up!" he shouted, his hands gripping your shoulders hard enough to bruise. "Stop trying to give me away! I don't want them! I don't want an Alpha! I want you!"
"But why?" you cried, frustration leaking out. "I can't give you what your body is screaming for!"
"You don't know what my body is screaming for!" he yelled back, tears spilling over. "It's screaming for safety! It's screaming for Y/N! If you bring an Alpha in here, I will bite them. I swear to god, I will hurt them."
He collapsed against you again, sobbing into your shoulder.
"Don't leave me," he begged, his voice breaking. "Please don't make me be with them. They smell wrong. They feel wrong."
The lie hung in the air between you, unspoken. He wasn't just rejecting Alphas; he was rejecting the memory of the girl in the lecture hall. He was fighting his own biology to keep you.
You sighed, wrapping your arms tight around him. You were weak. You should be stronger. You should force him to do what was right for his health. But you couldn't deny him."Okay," you whispered into his hair. "Okay, Jake. No Alphas. Just us."
"Just us," he echoed, his grip tightening. "Promise."
"I promise."
The evening passed in a haze of tension.
Jake was unbearable. The pre-heat hormones stripped away his filters. He was needy, demanding, and incredibly sensitive.
He wouldn't let you leave the bed.
"I need water," you said, trying to untangle yourself from his limbs.
"No," he whined, pinning your leg down with his own. "Stay."
"I'm thirsty, Jake."
"I have spit," he offered, completely serious.
You laughed, despite the heaviness in the room. "You're gross."
"I'm dying," he corrected dramatically. "I'm dying of need and you want water."
Eventually, you managed to get the water and the snacks. You fed him peach slices in bed while he watched you with predatory, hazy eyes.
"You know," he murmured, licking syrup off his thumb. "You smell better than them."
"I don't smell like anything."
"To me you do," he insisted. "You smell like... stillness. Like the eye of the storm. Alphas smell like noise. You're quiet."
He crawled over to you, pushing the bowl of peaches away. He pushed you down onto the mattress.
"Sleep with me," he commanded.
"I am sleeping with you. I'm right here."
"No. Sleep." He emphasized the word. "I need to wake up with you. If I wake up alone..." He shuddered. "Don't make me wake up alone."
"I won't."
You lay down. Jake curled himself around your back—usually he liked to be the big spoon, claiming you, but tonight he wanted to be held. He backed into your chest, grabbing your arms and wrapping them around his waist.
"Hold me tight," he whispered. "Like a seatbelt."
You squeezed him. His skin was radiating heat like a furnace. The scent of peaches was thickening, turning from fresh fruit to something darker, heavier. Like fruit left in the sun too long. Intoxicating and overwhelming.
You fell asleep with your nose buried in his hair, breathing in the scent of your best friend, your lover, your forbidden Omega.
You didn't wake up to sunlight. You woke up to movement.
It was the gray hour of the morning, just before dawn. The room was heavy. The air felt thick, humid, and tasted of sugar and salt.
Jake was moving.
You were lying on your stomach—you must have rolled over in the night. And Jake... Jake was on top of you.
But not in the usual way.He was straddling your thighs, his weight pressing you into the mattress. He was panting, short, sharp breaths that sounded wet in the quiet room. "Jake?" you mumbled, sleep still clouding your brain.
He didn't answer. He couldn't.
The heat had hit. He was in the throes of it. His logic was gone. His human inhibitions were gone. He was pure instinct now. And his instinct was confused, beautiful, and desperate. Usually, an Omega in heat would be submissive, presenting, waiting to be taken. But Jake... Jake had always been a little different with you. He felt safe enough to take what he needed. You felt him shifting, his hips grinding against your lower back. He was slick—so slick. You could feel the wetness soaking through your pajama pants. "Y/N," he whined. It was a high, broken sound. "Need. Need."
He fumbled with your waistband, his hands clumsy and shaking. He shoved your pants down, exposing your skin to the cool air, which was immediately replaced by the searing heat of his body.
"Jake, wait," you tried to push up, but he shoved your shoulders down.
"Mine," he growled. It wasn't an Alpha growl—it didn't have the bass. It was a possessive, desperate snarl. "Don't move. Please. Don't move."
He wasn't asking for permission to top you. He was asking for permission to use you as his anchor. He positioned himself. You felt the tip of him—hard, weeping pre-cum, hot as a branding iron—press against your entrance.
"I love you," he sobbed.
And then, he sank into you. He entered you from behind, collapsing forward so his chest was pressed against your back.
"Oh god," you gasped into the pillow.
He was so hot. Inside and out. It felt like being filled with lava.
He didn't wait. He began to move immediately. It wasn't the rhythmic, controlled lovemaking of your usual nights. This was frantic. This was survival.
He was humping you, his hips snapping forward with a violence that shook the bedframe. But the sounds he was making... they broke you.
He was crying. He was whining. He was babbling nonsense into your skin.
"Right there. Good. So good. You're so warm. My Beta. My Y/N."
He reached around, his arms wrapping under your chest, locking his hands together to hold on for dear life. He was clinging to you like a sailor to a mast in a hurricane.
You reached back, grabbing his hair, trying to give him some resistance, something to ground him."I've got you, Jake," you gritted out, the friction building rapidly. "I'm here."
"Don't let go," he pleaded, his thrusts becoming erratic, shallow then deep. "I feel empty. Fill me. No, let me fill you. I don't know. I don't know."
The confusion of his biology—needing to be filled but needing to claim you—was making him delirious. He solved it by trying to merge with you completely.
Then, you felt it.
His teeth. He turned his head, finding the sensitive curve of your neck.
He didn't ask. He didn't hesitate.He bit down.
"Ah!" you cried out.
It wasn't the mating bite. He didn't have the Alpha fangs to pierce deep enough for the soul-bond, and you didn't have the gland to receive it. But it was hard. It was primal.
He clamped his teeth onto the muscle of your shoulder/neck junction. It was a hold. A scruffing. He was holding you in place, grounding himself through the taste of your skin, the texture of your flesh. The pain was sharp, but the pleasure was sharper.
Feeling him claim you like that—like an animal, like he had every right to leave a mark on you—sent a jolt of arousal straight to your core.
"Jake," you moaned, pushing back against him.
The bite seemed to trigger him. The taste of you, the submission of you lying there letting him use you... it pushed him over the edge.
He let go of your neck with a gasp, his head falling back.
"Y/N! Y/N!"
He slammed into you, once, twice, three times—deep, ruinous thrusts that hit your deepest spot. He came with a shout. It was a raw, shattering sound. You felt him pulsing inside you, twitching wildly as his heat-fueled orgasm ripped through him.
He collapsed completely.
He was dead weight on top of you. He was panting, his breath hot and wet against your ear. He was trembling so hard his teeth were chattering. You lay there, pinned beneath him, your own body throbbing with the aftershocks of his intensity. The room was silent for a moment, save for the harsh breathing. And then, the scent hit.
It exploded.
Before, he smelled like peaches. Now?
The room smelled like a peach orchard that had been set on fire. It was thick, sugary, smoky, and heavy. It was the scent of a satisfied Omega in the peak of his heat.
It was so strong you could taste it on your tongue. If you were an Alpha, you would have gone into a rut instantly. If you were an Alpha, you would have lost your mind.
But you were Y/N. You were a Beta. So instead of a rut, you just felt... love. And an overwhelming, protective fieriness. Jake shifted. He didn't pull out. He stayed inside you, keeping the connection. He nuzzled his face into your messy hair.
"Did I hurt you?" he whispered, his voice wrecked. You reached up, touching the stinging spot on your neck. It was definitely going to bruise.
"No," you lied softly. "You didn't."
"I bit you," he confessed, sounding horrified. "I tasted you. I'm sorry. I just... I needed to make sure you were real. I needed to hold you."
"I'm real, Jake. I'm not going anywhere."
"You smell like me now," he murmured, sounding pleased, almost drunk on the hormones. "You smell like my heat. No Alpha will come near you. They'll smell me all over you."
"Is that what you want?"
"Yes," he hissed, tightening his arms around you again. "I want everyone to know. You're taken. You're the Omega's. You're mine."
He kissed your shoulder, right over the bite mark, soothing the skin he had just abused. "Round two," he mumbled, his body already reacting again, defying the laws of exhaustion. "Please. Don't make me move."
"I'm not moving," you promised, closing your eyes and letting the heavy, sweet scent of him lull you into submission. "Do whatever you need."
And he did.
The seventh day of an Omega’s heat is not a slope; it is a cliff. It is the biological finale, the "Crest," where the body stops asking for a mate and begins to demand one with a ferocity that overrides logic, dignity, and sanity.
For six days, you had been enough. You had been his anchor, his cool washcloth, his hydration, his comfort. You had held him through the tremors and the fever dreams.
But on the morning of the seventh day, the atmosphere in the apartment shifted from heavy to suffocating. Jake woke up not with a soft nuzzle, but with a frantic, jerky movement. He was thrashing in the sheets, his skin burning so hot it felt dangerous to touch, like a fever that had spiked past the safety zone. His scent—usually peaches and rain—had soured. It didn't smell like fruit anymore. It smelled like burnt sugar and ozone. It smelled like distress.
"Jake?" You sat up, reaching for him. "Jake, look at me."
He opened his eyes.
They were swimming. The dark, warm brown you loved was swallowed by a dilated pupil, rimmed with a hazy, golden desperation. He looked through you, not at you. His wolf was at the surface, scratching at the controls.
"Hurts," he whimpered, a broken, reedy sound that tore at your chest. "It hurts. Inside. Everywhere."
He clawed at his own neck, his nails digging into the sensitive skin over his scent gland. The gland was swollen, pulsing visibly beneath the pale skin, desperate for the release of a claiming bite.
"Don't do that," you said, grabbing his wrists to stop him from hurting himself.
"Need," he sobbed, his body arching off the mattress. "Need... tight. Need to be held. Need... Alpha."
The word hung in the air, sharp and cruel.
He didn't mean to say it. He didn't even know he was saying it. But his biology knew what was missing. He looked at you then, his eyes focusing for a split second. He saw you—his Y/N, his safe place. And he lunged.
He didn't attack you. He collapsed onto you. He pushed you back against the pillows, his weight heavy and feverish. He wasn't trying to dominate you in the way an Alpha would; he was trying to merge with you. He was trying to climb inside your skin because his own was too painful to inhabit. "Help me," he cried, his hands fumbling blindly with the waistband of your pajama shorts. "Please. Help me. Fill the empty. Make it stop."
You helped him. You always helped him. You shimmied out of your clothes, your heart hammering against your ribs. You lay back, opening your legs for him, offering the only thing you had: your body. Your Beta body.
Jake didn't wait. He couldn't. He positioned himself between your legs, his movements erratic and clumsy with heat-shakes. He was trembling so violently that his teeth chattered.When he entered you, he didn't thrust with power. He sank into you with a sob.
"Oh god," he wept, burying his face in the crook of your neck. "Y/N. Y/N."
He felt huge, hot, and desperate. He filled you completely, but the physical connection wasn't enough to quell the storm in his blood.
He began to move.It was heartbreaking. He wasn't fucking you for pleasure; he was fucking you for survival. He ground his hips against yours, seeking friction, seeking depth. He wrapped his arms around your torso, locking his hands together under your back, clinging to you as if the bed was a raft in the middle of the ocean.
He didn't scream. He didn't roar.
He whimpered. With every thrust, a soft, high-pitched cry escaped his throat. It was the sound of an animal in a trap.
"Please," he babbled into your skin, his tears wetting your collarbone. "Please, please, please."
"I've got you," you whispered, wrapping your legs around his waist to pull him closer, running your hands down his sweat-slicked back. "I'm right here, Jake. I'm holding you."
"Not enough," he moaned, the truth slipping out in his delirium. "It's not... it's not locking. Why won't it lock?"
He was searching for the knot. The biological mechanism that Alphas had (and he needed) to lock inside him or, in rare cases, the reaction that would lock him inside a Female Alpha. But you were a Beta. Your body was soft, welcoming, and warm, but it didn't have the clamp. It didn't have the biological key to his lock.
He picked up the pace, his desperation mounting. He was chasing a horizon he couldn't reach.
Then, he turned his head.
His nose brushed your neck. He inhaled deeply, searching for the pheromones that would trigger his release. He found only your detergent and your fear.
"Bite," he begged, nuzzling your pulse point frantically. "Mark me. Claim me. Please, Y/N. Bite me."
Your heart shattered. You knew it wouldn't work. You knew your teeth were flat. You knew your saliva lacked the enzyme. But hearing him beg, feeling him throb inside you, knowing he was in pain... you couldn't say no.
"Okay," you choked out. "Okay, Jake."
You turned your head. You found the swollen, pulsing gland on the curve of his neck.
You opened your mouth and bit down. You bit hard. Harder than you ever had. You put all your frustration, all your love, all your desperate desire to be enough into your jaw. Jake gasped, his back arching.
"Yes!" he moaned, a long, shaky sound. "Yes, yes, there. Take it."
For a moment, the sharp pressure was enough. It tricked his brain. He felt teeth on his gland, he felt you inside him (or rather, him inside you), and he felt the pain spike. He drove into you, his hips snapping forward in a frantic rhythm. He was chasing that sensation, trying to force the bond to snap into place. "Harder," he whined, tears streaming down his face. "Break the skin. Make it stay. Don't let go."
You bit harder. Your jaw ached. You tasted the salt of his sweat. You felt the skin under your teeth yield slightly, but it didn't puncture. It didn't tear. It just bruised. You were gnawing on him like a dog with a bone, but you couldn't break the seal. You couldn't give him the chemical rush of a mate claim.
Jake’s whimpers turned into sobs. "Why?" he cried, his voice wrecking. "Why isn't it working? Alpha... where is Alpha?"
He wasn't calling you Alpha anymore. He was calling for an Alpha. Any Alpha. The abstract concept of the thing that could save him.
The realization made you loosen your jaw. You pulled back, gasping for air.
You looked at his neck. It was a mess. A purple, angry welt was forming where you had bitten him. It looked painful. It looked ugly. It wasn't a claim; it was an injury.
"I can't," you whispered, tears blinding you. "I can't do it, Jake."
"You have to!" he cried. He slammed his hips into you one last time, his body seizing.
The orgasm hit him, but it wasn't the wave of relief he needed. It was a crash.
He cried out—a sharp, keening wail of overstimulation. He stiffened, pouring himself into you, his muscles spasming uncontrollably. But instead of the relaxation that should follow, he kept shaking. He was overwhelmed. His system was flooded with heat hormones that had nowhere to go because the bond hadn't grounded them.
He slumped forward, collapsing onto your chest. He was dead weight.
He didn't drift into a peaceful sleep. He passed out. It was a blackout induced by exhaustion and biological frustration. His brain simply pulled the plug because the body couldn't handle the stress anymore.
"Jake?"
You touched his cheek. He was burning up. His breathing was ragged and shallow. He was unconscious, but even in sleep, his brow was furrowed in pain.
You lay there, pinned beneath him, feeling his seed inside you and his tears drying on your chest. You looked at the bruise on his neck. It was a brand of your failure.
You carefully, slowly pushed him off you. He rolled onto his side with a soft groan, curling into a fetal position instantly, seeking warmth.You sat up. You were shivering. The room was cold now that the heat of the moment had passed.
You looked at him. He was beautiful. Even now, messy and exhausted and bruised, he was the most beautiful thing you had ever seen.
And you were killing him. It wasn't a metaphor anymore. You were physically hurting him. By keeping him in this situationship, by pretending that your love could override millions of years of evolution, you were denying him the one thing his body needed to be healthy: a true mate.
If he had been with an Alpha—Jay, Jennie, even that girl Minji—they could have bitten him. They could have knotted him. He would be asleep right now with a smile on his face, the bond humming in his blood, the heat broken and satisfied.
Instead, he was passed out from trauma, sporting a bruise instead of a bite.
"I'm sorry," you whispered into the silent room. "I was so selfish."
You thought you were protecting him from Alphas who might treat him like a trophy. But in reality, you were the one treating him like a possession. You were keeping him for yourself because you needed him, ignoring the fact that he needed something else.You stood up. Your legs were shaky. You felt liquid running down your thighs—a stark reminder of the intimacy you had just shared, and how futile it was.
You walked to the bathroom.You showered. You scrubbed your skin until it was raw, trying to wash off the scent of burnt sugar and failure. You watched the water swirl down the drain, taking your hopes with it.
You dressed in the clothes you had arrived in a week ago. Jeans. Hoodie. Sneakers. They felt like armor. You went to the kitchen. It was quiet. The hum of the refrigerator was the only sound. You opened the pantry. You needed to do one last thing for him. You couldn't leave him to wake up hungry. You pulled out the ingredients for Kimchi stew. It was his comfort food. You moved automatically. Chopping the kimchi, slicing the tofu, measuring the water. You stood over the stove, stirring the pot, letting the steam warm your face. You poured your love into the food because you couldn't pour it into a bond.When it was done, you ladled it into a glass container. You placed it on the top shelf of the fridge, right at eye level. You grabbed a sticky note.
You held the pen, your hand trembling. What could you say? I love you? No. That would make him chase you. I'm sorry? Not enough.
You wrote:
Jake,
Stew is in the fridge. Drink the Gatorade.
- Y/N
It was cold. It was practical. It was the note of a friend, not a lover. It was a wall.
You walked back into the bedroom.
The air was still thick with his scent. It made your wolf—the tiny, dormant thing inside you—whine in protest. Mate, it whispered. Don't leave mate.
"Shut up," you told yourself. "He's not ours."
You placed a fresh glass of water and two painkillers on the nightstand next to his head.You looked at him one last time. You memorized the curve of his eyelashes, the slope of his nose, the way his lips parted slightly in sleep. You memorized the ugly purple bruise on his neck so you would never, ever forget why you had to leave.
You bent down. You wanted to kiss him. You wanted to kiss the bruise and apologize.
But you didn't. If you touched him, you wouldn't leave.
You straightened up. "You need an Alpha, Jake," you whispered, your voice cracking. "Not a Beta who plays pretend."
You grabbed your bag. You walked to the door. You stepped out into the hallway. The click of the lock sliding home sounded like a gunshot.
The walk back to your apartment was a blur.
It was late. The campus was quiet. The streetlights blurred into streaks of light as your eyes filled with tears you refused to shed.
You made it to your building. You made it up the stairs. You made it into your apartment.You locked the door.And then, you collapsed.You slid down the door until you hit the floor. You pulled your knees to your chest and buried your face in your arms.The tears came then. Not quiet, polite tears. Ugly, heaving sobs that shook your entire body. You wailed into your knees, the sound muffled by the fabric of your jeans.
You cried for the boy you loved.
You cried for the biology that hated you.
You cried for the bite you couldn't give.
You decided then and there. No more situationship. No more "friends with benefits." No more holding him while he cried for someone else.You had to be the villain. You had to be the one to cut the cord.He would hate you. He would scream. He would cry.
But eventually, the pain would fade. Eventually, his heat would come again. And without you there to enable him, he would be forced to seek out an Alpha. He would find someone who could truly claim him. He would be happy.
And you?You would be the Beta in the background. The guard dog who finally opened the gate and let the wolf run free.You sat there on the floor of your dark apartment, crying until your throat was raw, mourning a relationship that was doomed before it ever began.
The Next Morning Jake woke up to silence.
The sun was streaming through the blinds, hitting him right in the face. He groaned, shielding his eyes. His body felt like he had been hit by a truck. Every muscle ached. His head was pounding. His neck...
He reached up. His neck throbbed with a dull, bruised pain.
Memory washed over him in fragments.The heat. The desperation. The biting. The failure. "Y/N?" he rasped.
He rolled over. The other side of the bed was empty. The sheets were cool.
"Y/N?" he called louder, panic starting to prickle in his chest.
He sat up, ignoring the dizziness.
"Y/N!"
Silence. He saw the water on the nightstand. The painkillers.
He scrambled out of bed, his legs weak. He stumbled into the kitchen.
Empty.He saw the note on the counter. He picked it up.
Jake,
Stew is in the fridge. Drink the Gatorade.
- Y/N
He stared at the handwriting. It was neat. Steady.
He crumpled the note in his fist.
"No," he whispered. "No, no, no."
He ran to the front door. He yanked it open and looked out into the hallway, as if hoping you were just standing there.
Empty. She was gone. She had packed her bag. She had cooked him food. She had medicated him. And she had left.
Jake slid down the doorframe, clutching the crumpled note to his chest.
He felt the bruise on his neck throb. It wasn't a claim. It was a goodbye kiss.
Tears welled in his eyes, hot and fast.
"You idiot," he sobbed into the empty apartment. "You think you're saving me? You're just breaking me." But he was too weak to chase you. His heat was broken, but his body was exhausted. He curled up on the doormat, holding the note, and cried for the Alpha he didn't want and the Beta he couldn't keep.
The silence between two people who have shared a soul since childhood is not empty; it is heavy. It is a physical weight that presses down on your chest, making every breath a conscious effort.
For the first two weeks after you walked out of his apartment, Jake didn't let you go easily. He was Jake. He was the boy who had clung to your leg on the first day of kindergarten. He didn't understand the concept of giving up on you.
His name lit up your phone screen constantly.
Jake (8:02 AM): Y/N, please. Just talk to me.
Jake (12:30 PM): I’m sorry. I didn’t mean what I said during the heat. I was out of my mind. It wasn’t real.
Jake (7:45 PM): I’m outside your door. I know you’re in there. I can hear you walking. Please open up.
Jake (11:00 PM): Did I hurt you? Is that why? I’ll never ask for a bite again. I promise. Just come back.
You read every single one. You read them sitting on the floor of your living room, your back pressed against the door he was knocking on.
You listened to his knuckles rap against the wood.
Knock. Knock. Knock.
Then a pause.
"Y/N?" his voice muffled, thick with unshed tears. "Please."
It took every ounce of willpower you possessed not to rip the door open. Your body screamed at you to go to him. Your heart ached with a physical sharpness that felt like a heart attack. But then you would remember the bruise. You would remember the way he looked at you with golden, delirious eyes and screamed for an Alpha. You would remember the way your teeth had failed to break his skin, leaving him sobbing in frustration. You weren't saving yourself. You were saving him. So you stayed silent. You let the tears stream down your face in the dark, biting your own hand to keep from sobbing aloud, until his footsteps finally retreated down the hall.
By the third week, the knocking stopped. The texts slowed down to a trickle, then ceased.
Jake Sim was sweet. He was kind. He was the type of boy who rescued spiders and apologized to inanimate objects when he bumped into them. He wasn't the type to harass someone who clearly wanted to be left alone.
He respected your decision, even though it was killing him.
But the campus was small, and the pack was smaller. You couldn't avoid seeing him.
The first time you saw him after the "breakup" (if you could call it that), it was in the cafeteria. You walked in, tray in hand, head down, trying to be invisible.
You looked up and froze. Jake was sitting at a large round table in the center of the room. He was surrounded. Jay was there, laughing loudly. Sunghoon was leaning in, saying something that made Jake smile—a small, polite smile that didn't reach his eyes. There were other Omegas there too, giggling and preening.
Jake was the sun. He had always been the sun. Even when he was an unpresented, shy kid, people were drawn to his warmth. Now that he was a presented Omega with a scent like heaven, he was a gravitational singularity.
And you? You stood by the condiment station, alone. You realized, with a crushing wave of clarity, just how much of your social life had been Jake.
People didn't talk to you because you were Y/N. They talked to you because you were the gatekeeper to Jake. You were the Shield. Without the person to protect, you were just... a Beta. A background extra in the movie of his life.
You took your tray to a small table in the far corner, near the trash cans. You sat with your back to the room. You didn't see it, but across the cafeteria, Jake had stopped eating. He was staring at the back of your head. His hand was gripping his fork so hard his knuckles were white.
"Jake?" Jay asked, touching his shoulder. "You okay?"
"Yeah," Jake whispered, tearing his eyes away from your lonely figure. "I'm fine."
Pack Nights were mandatory for the Silver River Collective. It was a time for community, for reinforcing the bonds that kept the wolves together.
Usually, Pack Night was your favorite. You and Jake would sit on a blanket near the fire, roasting marshmallows, making fun of Marcus, and sharing earbuds. You were a unit. A two-person pack within the pack.
This month, you went alone. You arrived late, slipping into the shadows at the edge of the clearing. The fire was roaring, casting long, dancing shadows against the pine trees. The air smelled of woodsmoke, roasting meat, and the intermingled scents of a hundred wolves. You sat on a cold log, pulling your knees to your chest.
You scanned the crowd. You found him instantly. It was impossible not to.
He was sitting near the Elders, a place of honor for high-ranking wolves. He was wearing a thick cream-colored sweater that looked soft enough to melt into. He was flanked by Heeseung and Sunghoon—two powerful Alphas who looked like his personal bodyguards. Heeseung was peeling an orange for him. Sunghoon was draping a blanket over his shoulders. They were taking care of him. They were doing your job. And they were doing it better. They were Alphas. They could offer him protection you couldn't.
A lump formed in your throat, hot and choking. You felt a wave of jealousy so potent it made your vision swim. That's my spot, you wanted to scream. That's my blanket. That's my Omega. As if he heard your thoughts, Jake turned his head.
He looked past the fire, past the Alphas, past the crowd. His eyes locked onto yours in the darkness. Even from fifty feet away, you could see the devastation on his face. He didn't look happy to be pampered. He looked lonely. He looked like a kid who had lost his mom in the grocery store. He made a movement to stand up. He placed his hands on the ground, ready to push himself up and come to you.
You panicked. If he came over here... if he looked at you with those sad, wide eyes... you would break. You would beg him to take you back, and the cycle would start all over again. The heat. The failure. The pain. You stood up abruptly. You turned and walked away, disappearing into the tree line. You didn't see Jake sink back down onto the blanket, his shoulders slumping in defeat. You didn't see him push the orange away, his appetite gone.
Three more weeks passed.
You were approaching your twenty-first birthday. The cutoff. The day you would officially, medically be declared a Beta for life.
But instead of settling into acceptance, your body was revolting.
It started subtly. You were in your dorm room, trying to study for a Business Law exam. Your roommate, Sarah, was chewing gum.
Smack. Smack. Smack.
Usually, you could tune it out. Today, it sounded like a gunshot next to your ear.
"Can you stop?" you snapped, your voice harsh in the quiet room.
Sarah jumped, looking at you with wide eyes. "Whoa. Sorry. Are you okay?"
"I'm fine," you gritted out, rubbing your temples. "It's just loud."
"It's gum, Y/N."
"Just stop!" you slammed your book shut.
The anger was sudden and white-hot. It felt like a physical thing living in your chest, a caged animal throwing itself against your ribs. You stood up and stormed out of the room, leaving Sarah bewildered. Then came the nights. You couldn't sleep. You would toss and turn, kicking off the blankets because you were burning up, then pulling them back on because you were freezing. You woke up every morning soaking wet. Your sheets were damp with sweat. You showered three times a day, scrubbing your skin raw, but you never felt clean. You felt... sticky. Heavy. Like your skin was too tight for your body. "You look terrible," your reflection told you in the mirror. You had dark circles under your eyes. You looked pale, gaunt. But your eyes... there was something strange about your eyes. They looked brighter. Sharper.
"Stress," you told yourself. "It's just stress. Heartbreak is a physical illness."
You were starving. Always.
You ate four meals a day and were still ravenous. You craved meat. Rare meat. You found yourself ordering steaks at the campus diner and eating them like you hadn't seen food in weeks. "Growth spurt?" the waitress joked as she cleared your third plate. "Something like that," you muttered, feeling shameful. You stopped going to lectures.The lecture halls were too loud. Too smelly. That was the worst part—the smell. Suddenly, your nose was a superpower you didn't want. You could smell everyone. You could smell the Alpha in the front row who hadn't showered. You could smell the Omega three rows back who was wearing cherry blossom perfume. You could smell the fear on the students before a test. It was overwhelming. It was a sensory assault.So you stayed in your apartment. You drew the blinds. You sat in the dark. You were convinced you were having a nervous breakdown. You were convinced the grief of losing Jake had finally snapped your mind.
Jake noticed.
He noticed you weren't in your usual seat in Business Law. He noticed you weren't in the cafeteria. He noticed you hadn't been to the library in a week.
He was terrified.
He sat in his Music Theory class, staring at his phone. He typed out a text.
Are you okay? (Deleted)
I haven't seen you. (Deleted)
Please just tell me you're alive. (Deleted)
He respected your space because you asked him to. He loved you enough to let you go. But the silence was driving him insane. He started walking past your apartment building at night. He would stand on the sidewalk across the street, looking up at your window. The lights were always off.
"Where are you?" he whispered to the cold wind. "Y/N, where are you?"
He didn't know you were right there, sitting on the floor in the dark, clutching a pillow that smelled faintly like him, shivering through another wave of cold sweat.
The agitation became aggression.
You went to the corner store to buy water (you were so thirsty, all the time).
A guy bumped into you in the aisle. A tall, burly Alpha.
"Watch it," he grunted, not looking at you. Usually, you would have mumbled an apology and moved on. You were a Beta. You stepped aside for Alphas.
Not today. A low, vibrating sound started in your chest. It wasn't a word. It was a growl. The Alpha stopped. He turned slowly, looking at you. He looked confused. He was looking for the source of the sound, but he was looking right over your head. He didn't register you as the threat.
"Did you say something?" he sneered. You looked up at him. You felt a strange, cold calm wash over you. You looked at his neck. You visualized exactly where the jugular vein was.
"I said," you spoke, your voice dropping an octave, sounding rough and unrecognizable, "You're in my way."
The Alpha blinked. He took a step back. He looked unsettled. He couldn't explain why—you were just a small girl—but his instincts were telling him to move.
"Whatever, freak," he muttered, hurrying away.
You stood there, shaking.
What is happening to me?
You ran home. You locked the door. You curled up in your bed and cried.
Jake couldn't take it anymore. He had heard rumors. People were saying you looked sick. People were saying you had snapped at a professor. He bought a birthday gift. It was a small box. Inside was a silver bracelet with a charm shaped like a pea pod. Two little peas inside. He walked to your apartment. He stood outside your door. He could hear movement inside. Heavy, pacing footsteps. Like a caged animal.
He raised his hand to knock. But then, he smelled it. Through the crack in the door, a scent was leaking out. It wasn't your usual detergent scent. It wasn't the smell of illness. It was faint, but it was there.
Burnt Cedar. Honey. Dark Rum. It was the scent of a dominant Alpha. Jake froze. His heart hammered.
Is she with someone?
The thought nearly brought him to his knees. Had you moved on already? Was there an Alpha in there with you? Was that why you were missing classes? Were you... nesting? Tears pricked his eyes. He lowered his hand.
He couldn't interrupt. If you were with a mate, if you had found happiness... he had to let you have it. That was the deal. He placed the small box on the doormat. "Happy Birthday, Y/N," he whispered, his voice cracking. He turned and walked away, leaving you alone with a monster you didn't know you were becoming.
You were dying.
That was the only explanation. It was 11:00 PM. One hour until you turned twenty-one.Your apartment was a wreck. You had ripped the sheets off the bed because they were too rough. You had thrown a lamp across the room because the light was too bright. You were pacing the living room, naked, sweating profusely.
Your skin felt like it was splitting open. Your bones felt like they were lengthening, cracking, reshaping. The pain was blinding. You fell to your knees on the rug.
"Jake," you groaned. You didn't want to say it. You had promised to let him go. But in the face of this agony, your brain reverted to its default setting.
Jake. Jake. Jake. You needed him. You didn't know why. You just knew that if you didn't smell peaches and rain right now, you were going to shatter.
You crawled toward your phone, which was lying on the floor where you had dropped it hours ago.
You picked it up. Your vision was blurry, red around the edges.
You dialed his number. It rang once.
"Y/N?"
His voice was breathless, panicked. He picked up on the first ring.
"Jake," you rasped. Your voice sounded terrifying. It sounded like gravel grinding together.
"Y/N? What's wrong? You sound... are you sick?"
"Help," you choked out. "Hurts. Dying."
"I'm coming," he said instantly. No hesitation. No questions. "I'm coming right now. Don't move."
The line went dead. You dropped the phone. You curled into a ball on the rug, shivering violently. The clock on the wall ticked.
Tick. Tick. Tick.
11:58 PM.
11:59 PM.
The heat inside you hit a crescendo. It wasn't a fever anymore. It was an explosion.
A wave of energy ripped through your body, starting at the base of your spine and shooting out to your fingertips. You screamed, your back arching.
And then, the dam broke. The scent exploded out of you.
Thick. Heavy. Dominant.
Cedar forests burning in the night. The sharp tang of lightning (ozone). The deep, intoxicating warmth of spiced rum. It filled the room instantly. It saturated the furniture, the walls, the air.
12:30 AM.
You weren't dying. You were arriving.
The door burst open. The door didn't just open; it slammed against the wall, the handle punching a hole in the plaster.
Jake stood in the threshold, chest heaving, hair plastered to his forehead with sweat from his sprint across campus. He had burst in expecting a tragedy. He expected to find you sick, dying, or worse—nesting with the Alpha whose scent he had smelled outside.
"Y/N!" he screamed, scanning the dark room.
Then, the air hit him. It wasn't a drift of scent anymore. It was a tsunami.
It rolled over him in a physical wave—thick, suffocating, and terrifyingly potent. Burnt Cedar. Honey, dark Rum. It was the scent of a Prime Alpha, a dominant force of nature entering a Presentation Rut.
And it was coming from you. You were on the floor in the center of the rug, curled into a ball, shaking violently. You were naked, your skin glowing with a feverish, supernatural sheen. Jake froze. His brain short-circuited. There is no other Alpha, his mind whispered, the realization shattering his reality. It’s her. It’s always been her. And then, his biology answered.Jake’s suppressants, which he had been taking religiously since you left, evaporated instantly. The sheer force of your pheromones reached into his genetic code and flipped a switch.
His knees buckled. He gasped, clutching the doorframe, as a bolt of liquid fire shot through his veins. It wasn't the slow build of a normal heat. It was a flash flood. His scent glands flared open, dumping a concentrated cloud of Ripe Peaches and Heavy Cream into the room to meet your Cedar.
"Y/N," he groaned, the sound wrecked and wet.
You lifted your head. Jake stopped breathing.
Your eyes were no longer the soft, familiar color he had known since kindergarten. They were glowing. A deep, burning, bioluminescent red. The color of embers in a dying fire. The color of a predator.
You looked at him, and for a second, he saw the animal inside you assess him.
He stared back. His own irises flooded with gold, the pupil blowing wide until his eyes were pools of molten honey.
"Jake," you growled.
It wasn't your voice. It was a command that vibrated in the floorboards.
"It's you," Jake whimpered, stumbling forward, kicking the door shut behind him with his heel. He didn't lock it; he didn't care. "It was you all along." You didn't answer. You couldn't speak human words anymore. Your brain was entirely offline, replaced by the singular, driving need of a rutting Alpha who had just found her mate.
You uncoiled from the floor with terrifying speed. You didn't stand; you launched yourself at him. Jake met you halfway. You collided in the center of the living room with the force of two planets crashing. You grabbed him, your hands searing hot against his cold leather jacket. You slammed him back against the wall, the impact knocking a picture frame to the floor."Mine," you snarled, burying your face in his neck. You inhaled violently, dragging the scent of him into your lungs like oxygen.
"Yours," Jake sobbed, grabbing your face, forcing you to look at him. "I'm yours, Alpha. I'm yours."
You kissed him. It wasn't gentle. It wasn't sweet. It was a devouring.
Your mouths clashed, teeth grazing lips, tongues tangling in a messy, desperate war for dominance. He tasted like salt and desperation. You tasted like fire.
Jake made a noise against your mouth—a high, needy whine that drove you insane. He wrapped his legs around your waist, jumping into your arms, trusting your new Alpha strength to hold him up.
You caught him easily. You felt powerful. You felt limitless.
You carried him to the bedroom, not breaking the kiss. You kicked the door open and stumbled toward the bed, which was stripped bare to the mattress.
You threw him down. He bounced on the mattress, looking up at you with those wide, golden eyes. He was panting, his chest rising and falling rapidly. He reached for the zipper of his jacket, his hands shaking so hard he couldn't grasp the metal.
"Help me," he begged, his voice cracking. "Take it off. Please. I need skin. I need you."
You didn't have patience for zippers. You ripped the jacket open, popping the mechanism. You tore his t-shirt over his head. You shoved his jeans down his hips.
He helped you, kicking wildly to rid himself of the fabric.
When he was finally naked, sprawled out on your mattress under the moonlight filtering through the blinds, he looked like an offering. His skin was flushed pink, his nipples hard, his scent gland pulsing on his neck.
You crawled over him. The visual of you—a Female Alpha, powerful, muscles defined by the tension of the rut, eyes glowing red—hovering over him broke Jake completely. "Alpha," he whined, reaching up to trace the line of your jaw. "You're so beautiful. You're so strong."
You didn't wait. You couldn't. You settled between his legs. The heat radiating from him was intense, scorching your inner thighs. He was slick—his body producing the natural lubricant of an Omega in distress.
"Fill me," Jake pleaded, his hips bucking upward, seeking contact. "Fix me. You're the only one who can fix it."
You aligned yourself with him. This was different from before. Before, you were two friends trying to make biology work. Now, you were lock and key.
You guided him to your entrance. He was hard, weeping, desperate.
You sank down. "Oh, god!" Jake screamed, throwing his head back into the pillow.
The sensation was blinding.
Because you were presenting, because you were in a rut, your internal anatomy had shifted. You were tighter, hotter, your muscles gripping him with a possessive intensity that felt completely different.
You took him all the way in, until your pelvis ground against his.
"Y/N," he babbled, his eyes rolling back. "So hot. You're so hot."
You began to move.It was primal. You grabbed his wrists, pinning them to the mattress above his head. You dominated him completely. You set the pace—a punishing, grinding rhythm that forced cries out of him with every thrust.
Slap. Slap. Slap.
The sound of skin on skin filled the room, mixing with his wet, broken moans and your low, guttural growls. You leaned down, capturing his mouth again. You kissed him deeply, your tongue sweeping his mouth, tasting him, owning him. You swallowed his cries, drinking them down like wine.
Jake was a mess beneath you. He was thrashing, his hips snapping up to meet yours, trying to get deeper, trying to fuse his body to yours.
"Deep," he mumbled against your lips. "Deeper. Don't leave any space."
"I'm right here," you growled against his neck. "I'm inside you. I'm keeping you."
Your wolf was singing. Mate. Mate. Perfect Mate. He smelled right. He felt right. The way he submitted to you, baring his throat, hands around your waist to pull you closer—it was exactly what your Alpha instincts needed.
The tension built rapidly. This wasn't a marathon; it was a sprint to the claim.
You felt the pressure in your lower abdomen spike. It was a cramping sensation, heavy and inevitable. Your body was preparing the trap. "Jake," you panted, looking down at him. Your red eyes bore into his golden ones. "I'm going to lock."
Fear flickered in his eyes for a microsecond—the fear of the unknown—but it was instantly drowned out by longing.
"Do it," he commanded, his voice raw. "Trap me. Don't let me go. Never let me go."
He thrust up, burying himself as deep as he could go, and held it there.
You let go. You cried out, a roar tearing from your throat as your orgasm hit.
And then, it happened.
Deep inside you, the Alpha muscles—the mechanism you didn't know you had until today—slammed shut. It was a violent, powerful contraction. Your internal walls rippled and clamped down around the base of him, creating a vacuum seal. It was tighter than anything you had ever felt. It was a vice grip.
Jake screamed.
"Y/N! Y/N! Oh my god!"
The sensation of being gripped that tightly, of being literally milked by your body, sent him over the edge instantly. He shattered. He convulsed in your arms, his body bowing off the mattress. He poured himself into you, his release unending, triggered and sustained by the crushing pressure of your lock.
"I can't—it's too much—Alpha!" he sobbed, shaking violently.
But you couldn't stop. You were locked. Your body had him. You were holding him prisoner in the most intimate way possible. You collapsed forward, your chest heaving against his. You were fused together.
But the ritual wasn't done. The heat was broken, the rut was satisfied, but the bond needed the seal. The scent in the room was now a perfect, swirling nebula of your combined essences. Burnt Cedar and Peaches and Cream.
You lifted your head. Jake was panting, his face wet with tears and sweat. He looked wrecked. He looked divine. He saw where you were looking. He saw your eyes fixate on his neck. He didn't flinch this time. He didn't cry out for a stranger. He tilted his head back, exposing the gland. The bruise you had left weeks ago had faded to a faint yellow shadow. It was ready.
"Please," he whispered, his golden eyes locking onto yours. "Make it permanent. I don't want to be anyone else's. I only want you."
You lowered your head. You licked the skin first, tasting the salt, tasting the pulse that fluttered frantically beneath the surface.
Then, you opened your mouth. Your canines—longer now, sharper, designed for this exact moment—grazed his skin.
You bit down.
Crunch.
It was a sickening, beautiful sound. Your teeth pierced the tough skin of the scent gland, sinking deep into the muscle. Jake cried out—a sharp, high sound of pain—but he immediately grabbed the back of your head and shoved you closer.
"Yes!" he hissed through his teeth. You clamped down. You felt the connection snap into place like a physical tether. It wasn't just blood you tasted; it was his soul. A flood of emotions that weren't yours crashed into your brain. Relief. Safety. Overwhelming love. Belonging. You pushed your own feelings back down the bond.
Possession. Adoration. Protection. Forever. You held the bite, your jaw locked, marking him, changing his biology, writing your name on his very DNA.
After what felt like an eternity, you slowly released the pressure. You licked the wound, your saliva sealing the puncture marks, leaving behind the jagged, raised scar of a Mated Omega. You pulled back to look at him. Jake was limp beneath you. His eyes were rolling back in his head, a look of pure, drugged bliss on his face. He was floating in the endorphin rush of the bite. "Mine," you growled, your voice rough.
Jake blinked, focusing on you slowly. He reached up, touching the fresh mark on his neck. He smiled—a messy, tear-stained, radiant smile.
"Yours," he whispered. "Finally."
The lock didn't release for twenty minutes.
You stayed there, joined, breathing the same air. The red faded from your eyes, settling into a warm, dark brown. The gold in Jake's eyes softened back to his deep doe-eyed color. He ran his hands up and down your back, tracing the muscles that had emerged during your presentation. "I knew it," he murmured, his voice raspy.
"You knew what?" you asked, kissing the tip of his nose.
"I knew you weren't a Beta. I knew you were special." He chuckled, a weak sound. "Though I didn't expect... this." He gestured to the intensity of the room. "You're a powerhouse, Y/N."
"I'm sorry," you whispered, resting your forehead against his. "I'm sorry I left. I'm sorry I made you wait."
"Shh," he silenced you with a soft kiss. "You didn't make me wait. You were cooking. You needed to bake until you were ready."
He shifted his hips, wincing slightly as the knot finally began to loosen.
"Besides," he smirked, a flash of his old playful self returning. "The stew you left was really good."
You laughed, a sound of pure relief. "You ate the stew?"
"Of course I ate the stew. It was made with love. And guilt. But mostly love."
The knot released. You pulled away slowly, the separation leaving a phantom ache. You rolled off him, collapsing onto the mattress beside him. Jake immediately rolled over, draping his arm and leg over you, burying his face in your neck. He took a deep breath of your new scent.
"Cedar," he hummed happily. "I love cedar now."
"I love peaches," you replied, wrapping your arm around him.
The sun came up, but you didn't move.
You were in a nest. Sometime during the night, instinct had taken over. You had pulled every blanket, pillow, and piece of clothing within reach onto the bed.
Jake was asleep on your chest, drooling slightly. The bite mark on his neck was angry and red, but it was healing. It was real.
You traced the line of his spine. You felt different. The anxiety that had plagued you for years—the feeling of being invisible, of being a "dud"—was gone. You felt grounded. You felt heavy in a good way. You knew exactly who you were.
You were Y/N. The Alpha. Jake’s Mate. Jake stirred. He lifted his head, blinking sleepily. He looked at you, then at the bite mark on his reflection in the mirror across the room.
He grinned.
"Happy Birthday, Alpha," he whispered.
"Best birthday ever," you agreed.
"So," he traced circles on your chest. "Since we're mated now... and since you're in a rut... and since I'm in heat..."
"Yeah?"
"We have about four days of lost time to make up for."
He climbed on top of you, his eyes darkening with intent.
"Can you handle it?" he teased.
You grabbed his hips, flipping him over so you were hovering above him again. You flashed your eyes—just a flicker of red—and saw him shiver with delight.
"I can handle you, Jake Sim," you promised. "I was made to handle you."
"Two peas in a pod," he breathed, pulling you down for a kiss.
"Two peas in a pod."
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don't you know how sweet it tastes, now that I'm without you?
pairing soccerplayer!sunghoon x sororitysister!yn
synopsis When your sorority president volunteered the house to work with the soccer team for fundraising, you didn’t know how you were supposed to react. Not when your assigned partner turned out to be Park Sunghoon, the vice-captain and your worst enemy since grade school.
featuring chaewon (LESSERAFIM), sophia (KATSEYE), yunah (ILLIT), ENHYPEN’s hyung line, and MORE! — xinyu (TRIPLES) as your faceclaim
content warning kys jokes, sexual innuendos, drinking, swearing, yn is stubborn, sunghoon is rizzful, sunghoon and Haruna (BILLLIE) are dating and shes rly bitchy :/
note NO HATE TO ANY IDOLS INVOLVEDDD its just a story guys and i dont wanna hear serious hate about the idols only their characters in this story AT MOST!!!!