Wounded Inner Lunar Children, astrolocherry
This child can be nurtured through experiences that forced
strong and reactive defences to develop, and as an adult she is always on guard and prepared for people to harm rather than love her, there tends to be an experience or encounter that reveals what people are truly capable of, even those she thought she knew best, so sometimes the offering of your support or concern is subconsciously threatening.
Vulnerability means that she could be hurt again
This child can be very aware of everything wrong and disordered in the world. There was an emulation of maturity and wisdom far behind her years,
her love was demonstrated through helpfulness, support, and taking up grown-up responsibilities very prematurely,
and sometimes this can condition the adult who is negligent with self-nourishment and self-care because she has rarely focused on her own, a jaded self-image of being worthless and valuing herself on the scale that she is depended on and needed by other people
The vast spectrum and potential of her intelligence is vague as the moon against daylight until adulthood. She is taken by a dreamy and distracted reverie until a Full Moon bloom when she is old enough to leave home and come to earth completely,
extreme dysregulation and confusion during adolescence severely impacted her capacity to learn and focus to her potential, the sense that she is without an identity and defined future can take the priority
Her emotions have always attracted attention - in all of the right and wrong ways, she could make the whole world stop fighting, she could do it all with those eyes- the ones that moved you like Moon’s gravity from the inside and seemed to captivate your conscience, she could distill the wrath of the devil with her look of fear.
If you were to damage her and be witness to the complete aftermath of everything you’d done to her, you could vow to never hurt another person again
This child is a display of a star in the making, seeming to shine brightly across many scenes of life with a variety of talents to pick from, but sometimes she does this for love and not out of love, the will to win and fear of failure can be pure projected expectation
It’s in the need to be noticed as valid for something, the sense that she is only worthy of being loved if she is the best because a golden girl will never be left
This child is very in tune and responsive to the natural routines and temperament of her parents, so she can develop that ability to spot subtle signs of distress and unrest in people very early in life,
and as an adult she can see the symptoms being hidden and the pain that everyone is going through,
so not wanting to afflict them with anymore she keeps her secrets waiting until she can repair everyone else - then maybe she will be worthy of her own recovery
She was a magic child with a habit of magical over-thinking, in amongst the many gifts and tricks she could magically believe that she was the cause of it all, like her behaviour or presence caused her mother’s sadness or sickness,
sometimes the subconscious holds onto these thought patterns while the rest of her grows up,
it’s all seemingly conditioned her around a sentiment like, everything you say or do, the universe will hold against you
This child’s unique intelligence, intense imagination, and profound observations can make it difficult to relate to the other children around her age, and in some cases she has no older adults or caregivers she can turn to either
She is so sensitive to the unseen that she can see the wars inside the worlds that consume them, and that asking for the time and energy to be truly understood is like asking for a world, that she could go missing from this one and no one would notice a thing
The child finds great comfort in knowledge and discomfort in ambiguity,
she is insecure and ill at ease when she is given vague details or sugarcoated answers, maybe it’s assumed that she’s not ready, or too young, or the truth is too dark
but the dark truth is that what she doesn’t know can hurt her,
her intelligence and imagination will fill it up the empty space of the unknown with fears, anxieties, insecurities mixed by a ravenous intellect instead
Sometimes this childhood is spent waiting to grow up and take on the world that has made her feel so small, growing up means freedom from the vulnerability of being dependent, it means safety because with the means to protect and defend herself, it means that every day only she decides her fate, and in a strange twist of all things fate, when she grows up like she’s always wanted, she longs for a childhood again, there begins the inner tension that she has missed out and deserves it now, and the sense that now she really is the bigger person and to accept, let go, and truly move on once and for all
The child’s temperament is wild and bewildering for all involved, she’s a puzzle of paradoxes with pieces of changing edges that don’t fit together, it could almost derange and re-arrange your own head, and she’s probably only young when she learns that most of her experiences are better left secret,
it seemed like the adults dismissed or hardly believed it,
but she never had to believe a thing, she knows that she knows it all came true and it was never ‘just a dream’
This child had a serene way of interacting with the world that seemed far beyond her years, a deep awareness and understanding of life that kept her placid while adults shattered,
but this serenity often hides the sinister, she only has her angels because she called for rescuing from a demon, she only remembered the path to oasis because she needed to find a way to escape out from hell
Cherry
art by Richard J Oliver
