okay I just saw fan art of Kakashi making this face
which makes me go feral so time for a kakashi meta that nobody wants or needs cuz i'm not gonna say anything new that everybody already knows
right so, that face, from the infamous scene where Obito convinces Kakashi whoopdeedoo you SHOULD care about teammates and friends actually
BUT THAT'S THE THING
THIS IS THE THING THAT MAKES ME SO FERAL ABOUT THSI
Kakashi ALWAYS cared about teammates and friends. Like it IS just a part of who he is. If he didn't actually care, it'd take alot more than a guy like Obito saying 1 thing to change his mind, because that was never the case
right? RIGHT YOU GUYS KNOW WHAT IM SAYING RIGHT
Kakashi's problem was never that he genuinely believed that he should prioritize rules over lives. Literally same scene, start of the scene, Obito asks him if he realizes what he's saying (ditching Rin to complete the mission) and THIS is the face he makes
He looks down BEFORE he looks up at Obito. Yes, he absolutely realizes what he's saying and he absolutely thinks it's messed up. He 100% thinks it's a gross and ugly truth, but it's still gross and ugly. Something he wishes weren't true. And then, what happens after that? Obito declares saving Rin takes priority over the mission. What does Kakashi do?
sdfasfdkmsafdlkaHE FREAKING LOOKS DOWN AGAIN and he just tells Obito the same dumb mantra he's had on loop in his head since his dad died about shinobis needing to carry out missions even at the expense of the team
Obito punches him, they get into an "argument" (ngl it felt more like Kakashi just word vomiting at Obito all the things he keeps telling himself to justify his own behavior because again, KAKASHI HIMSELF DOESN'T ACTUALLY BUY INTO IT, it's like he keeps needing to convince HIMSELF over and over)
Then Obito asks if Kakashi genuinely believes what he's saying/genuinely feels that way. And cue the face I go feral over.
HE DOESN'T
KAKASHI DOESN'T ACTUALLY FEEL THAT WAY
KAKASHI KNOWS HE'S FULL OF SHIT
He doesn't say yes immediately. He doesn't say yes with conviction. He looks down and away like he's guilty
And then of course he remembers his dad's suicide and
he hardens his resolve and THEN answers yes
Cuz what's really going on here? Kakashi's whole deal in the main series, yeah go after your friends, saving lives is more important, and he's always believed that. Obito was even SURPRISED when he first heard about baby-Kakashi suddenly going rules-comando-abandon-friendso because he had heard Kakashi declare that he cared about protecting his friends
we all know what's really going on here, *cough cough* Sakumo *cough cough* but like it's not JUST trauma
Kakashi is a child, he saw what happened to his dad, and MORE than being true to his own personal convictions, he's SCARED. He's scared of consequences. He doesn't believe you should abandon friends, but he is scared of the consequences of prioritizing them over the mission cuz he saw what happened to his dad
What do people do when they're scared? They try to gain control of the situation, his obsession with the rules, and they get angry, because anger feels better than fear. So now we have our cranky rules-driven boy
WHO STILL CARES ABOUT HIS FRIENDS
and does genuinely feel conflicted and horrible when he's forced to pick between being true to his own convictions, or listening to his fear
and moreso
What's the first thing Kakashi do when Obito begins leaving to rescue Rin himself?
he WARNS Obito, he wasn't trying to convince him as in "hey this is the right thing you need to do" he was trying to warn Obito because he didn't want to see what happened to his dad ALSO happen to Obito (also like, straight up sidenote, every time he lectures his team about rule following feels like he's trying so damn hard to like, make. them. get. it. IDIOTS he doesn't want you all to die the same way either)
LIKE GRRRRR
THATS WHY THAT FACE MAKES ME SO FERAL
We're watching real time someone betraying their own personal convictions because they're scared, and they're feeling ashamed over it. When you don't act in accordance to your own personal values, that can really mess you up as a person. It feels awful
And it does. So Kakashi doubles down, trying to justify his fear and drown out his actual beliefs but it clearly just makes him feel worse.
I think that's kinda the whole reason why Obito's whole "abandon your friends and you're worse than scum/trash" whatever hit him so hard. Right before that Obito told him that he thought his dad was a hero, followed by acknowledging that yes there is a stigma against breaking rules, but it's better to break rules and have friends alive, than to have been the "perfect shinobi" and people dead
because THATS WHAT KAKASHI WANTS TO BELIEVE
he wants to believe that his dad, his hero was RIGHT
he wants to follow his internal convictions
but the real kicker
Obito acknowledges that yeah, there are consequences, but are those really worse than letting people die? HE'S LITERALLY BOTH VALIDATING KAKASHI'S FEAR AND ALSO SAYING THAT KAKASHI'S INTERNAL BELIEFS ARE RIGHT AT THE SAME TIME
oh OH and lets not forget Obito complimenting Sakumo again, let's circle back to that. The root of Kakashi's fear all comes from that. And here's his teammate saying: A) hey idiot, saving friends IS important B) What your dad did was good, despite the consequences, he was right
Of course this doesn't sink in right away, but Kakashi does eventually double back because this all mattered to him
But yeah like, Kakashi never BELIEVED that the rules were more important, he was just scared of breaking them. He was MORE scared of the consequences
If Kakashi didn't already believe that friends mattered, Obito's words never would have reached him
anyways in conclusion, Kakashi was a child reacting out of fear and Obito helped him be brave, and I am feral over the clear answer to Obito's question "Do you really believe that?" because the answer is clearly "No" despite what Kakashi says, the answer is no, he doesn't believe that, but he's scared so he will still say yes
Thanks for coming to my TEDtalk about Kakashi in which I say nothing new
Underrated part of shippuden imo is that Kakashi is perfectly fine reminiscing on the past and talking about Sasuke casually but to Naruto and Sakura any mention of him is like a trigger word for instant depression
Like you know it's bad when even Kakashi is going "this really fucked you guys up damn". But on a more serious level it makes sense that Kakashi would "move on" in a sense quicker than them, since he's probably had to deal with runaways and traitors before. That isn't to say he isn't still affected [we know he is] I'm just saying he's more experienced with it so he also knows how to move past it enough to be able to talk about it without much issue
Sakura and Naruto though... this is still like. A very fresh new experience for them lmao. Rip
More Black clover x demon slayer au, this time with the magic knight captains as the hashira!
It took embarrassingly long to draw this and half that time was spent trying to come up with designs. rant about au under cut:
William's design doesn't have every colour in existence on it like in canon i'm sorry i have my limits. i love how you can tell i spent the most time thinking about dorothy and william's designs
Anyway here are the roles:
Yami - Shadow hashira; his tsuguko is nacht but they dont have the usual mentor student dynamic, being the same age + partners. Shadow breathing is derived from idk (i wanna say moon but yk). He found Asta and Liebe in this au and takes the role of giyuu in the trail (with everyone SO ready to execute yami along with asta and liebe)
William - Earth hashira; he trains yuno occasionally but he is not his tsuguko. Earth breathing (maybe tree idk) is derived from stone breathing. He has empathy towards the demons and believes that they can coexist, which may or may not be related to the fact that he is harbouring an upper moon in his mansion. Sides with asta and liebe during the trial.
Dorothy (<3) - Dream hashira; her tsuguko used to be rill before he became a hashira 3 months after being taken in by dorothy. Dream breathing is similar to mist breathing and derived from water breathing. She slept through the meeting so did not pick a side in the trial.
Fuegoleon - Flame hashira; tsuguko is leo but he is struggling a bit. Not on asta and liebe's side at first (think rengoku but less loud and more calm).
Charlotte - Flower hashira; tsuguko is mimosa. Not on asta and liebe's side at first
Rill - Art hashira; used to be dorothy's tsuguko before becoming a hashira, has no student of his own yet. Art breathing is a combo of flame and dream. On asta and liebe's side in the mitsuri way if that makes sense. He waits for julius to come and give the decision.
Jack - Wind hashira; used to be Kaisers tsuguko before becoming a hashira (kaiser is retired), has no student of his own since his training is hell. SO ready to kill asta, liebe and yami (doesnt even care about the corps laws)
Nozel - Water hashira; doesnt have a tsuguko. Immediately says to execute asta, liebe and yami and still holds suspicion after the trial.
Julius is the master, kaiser is the retired wind hashira and mereleona isnt even in the corps but hunts demons for love of the game anyways.
This was meant to be a single panel comic… and then I came up with dialogue for the following conversation, BUT THERE WAS NO WAY I HELL I WAS GONNA POLISH AND COLOR THOSE PANELS TOO, the first one took me 3 hours.
I also would like to clarify: THIS IS NOT A ROMANTIC SHIP! It is a friend ship, that being said, don’t tag this as Zora x Noelle pls. Im thinking of calling them the Silveale siblings.
Anyways, reasons why I think they’d be friends
- Their dynamic would be funny as shit, they’re both tsunderes that love to tease. I think most of the time, Zora is the one teasing Noelle, but every once in a while she smacks him back harder, and he cant come up with a good retort XD
- Zora’s fairly isolated from the Bulls(as of rejoining them anyways), he hasnt been close to anyone since his fathers’ death, I think it’d be good for him to have a younger sister figure
- Their powers contrast nicely. One has very little mana but is very tactical and controlled when using it, and the other has a shit ton of mana but struggles with managing it
- Noelle’s family is ass. Nozel is kind of alright, but for most of her life they have been ASS. She’s already got a big sister in Vanessa, I think it’d be neat if she found a big brother in Zora
Annd some headcanons for their dynamic:
- Both of them would rather die than praise/show verbal affection (to everyone, not just each other) so sometimes they get each other small gifts or do favors
- Zora slowly gets more protective of Noelle overtime, and he’s a wingman whenever she’s around Asta
- Neither of them admit that they’re close, only a few of the Bulls notice that theyre close (Vanessa, Finral, Gordon, and Luck)
- When Zora finds out how shit her family was to Noelle, he sets traps in the Silva castle
Aaand yeah, thats all I got XD You can see me slowly getting better at drawing Zora throughout the comic, I dont like how his face turned out in the colored panel, he’s such a bitch to draw.
Shit Im glad Im not a Mihoyo fan, drawing the details on their outfits nearly killed me, AND THEY’RE FAIRLY TAME DETAILWISE
This Superman is such a sweetie. He’s kind to the robots. He makes his girlfriend breakfast for dinner. He pretends he doesn’t care what social media thinks of him but gets genuinely upset over juvenile name calling. He tortured a despot with a cactus but the spines “weren’t that big.” He tries to capture the giant monster alive. He loves people and does his best to help them and he’s not an idiot he knows people are complicated, but he’s genuinely heartbroken when they turn on him. The idea of him having a harem is utterly ridiculous. He loses it over a pain-in-the-ass dog. He makes fun of the despot for pissing his pants. He wept at seeing an innocent man murdered. His open devastation over Mali’s murder is part of what brings Metamorpho to take the risk of helping him. He saves that weird baby. He saves a squirrel. He not only would not fuck his clone, he killed him. He makes that shithead Lex cry. His flirting with Lois is so swagless and unsubtle that her boss immediately clocks that they’re together. He loves his parents. He’s good all the way down, not because he was born that way but because he chooses to be.
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