Cc

C, kpop, writes songs from experiences, the girl who can't be moved. (ang babaeng hindi pwedeng galawin)

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At twenty-Six, you go insane,

every love song makes you sick,

You get by, you get high,

You just wake up to survive,

Oh I would give up anything,

just to be a kid again,

Cause at twenty-six, your life’s at stake,

you need to figure out what’s next.

I remember when I was nine,

I always wanted to be the girl in white,

I should probably date in my mid-20s,

I’ll grow up and I’ll marry my prince charming.

No, it doesn’t go the way you plan it,

I thought then I’d be far from here right now,

I’m still writing this song in my parent’s house

I’m no where near where I plotted out

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I’m just empty. I feel nothing.

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What do you do when you’re on the verge of breaking down but still have to keep it all in because you need to.

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Will I be remembered if my body is already buried 6 feet below the ground?

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don’t grow up too fast, stay where you are,  where it’s peaceful, where it’s calm, your perfect little eyes are too precious to see lies, your perfect tiny hands are too short to reach for the sky, your heart, your precious heart, is too pure to be hurt, your smiles, your giggles, your simper and even when you cry, for the world you may be amazed of, may not be as beautiful as it may seem, so hush, sleep, play, and just continue being a kid 

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Did you get your heart broken recently?

My heart is happy and it has been for a while now. 

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Like my coffee you were warm,

and comforting

you made my heart race

made me feel alive

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Back then, I was lost and had a hard time finding myself.

Now, I am still lost, but I have come to embrace it. I think that’s the essence of life. You let yourself get lost in it. Instead of fighting the waves, you let yourself go with its flow. Instead of constantly fighting to breathe, you let yourself drown and get carried away.

Because the future isn’t really something you can plan and control completely. I made it my daily mantra that I just need to live in the moment and survive the day.

I don’t know if that’s the right way to live but fuck it, we’ll all gonna die anyways.

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Song draft inspired by Kim Taehyung’s IG Story:

“He called me up and I hurriedly ran down,

In his top down convertible he asked me for a drive around town

He was standing there outside, all dreamy in his sweatpants,

I said yes because for him I’ll say yes a million times,

I asked him where we’re going and he just smiled,

But I don’t even care, I’ll go with him even in thousand miles,

Hair blown by wind, his hands only leaving mine if shifting gears

It’s calm, it’s sweet, it could also be overwhelming,

Him and the background as sun sets, it’s like the ones you see in postcards,

He finger combs his hair, his boxy smile, he looked at me, and yet again it melted my heart,

He’s all that I want, all that I need,

With him right here is all I ever wanna be”

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the world is too scary

you won’t know who’ll hurt you

you’re not sure whom you tell it to

hush, shush, be careful who you trust

do you blame the red tiny dot that blinks

or do you think it would be her or him

at the end of the day

it’s just you who’ll stay

befriend everyone but you need to trust no one

they may be here for a while but soon they’ll be gone

learn how not to give a fuck

rely on your own luck

give what’s only been given

take what’s supposed to be taken

you don’t know what’s true

you only got you

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take me away from this

[taylorswift]

Spinning in my highest heels, luv

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I love you

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I’m so tired

Tired of people making me feel stupid

Tired of the know it alls

I’m tired

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where did my heart go?

who put out the flame?

where’s the passion, the inspiration?

the will to live on?

the fire turned to ashes,

the dreams flew away,

who’s that girl standing

can you tell if she’s the same?

I picked up my smile

I’d put on a show

concealing with some tricks

hiding away the shadow

the ocean was endless

but my feet were stuck

I’ve been staring out at some blankness

when can I find my luck

I tried running

but where did it get me

help me, save me,

I’m on the brink of giving up

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She was a believer

She once dreamed of having a lover

She was a hopeless romantic

A fanatic

of love and destiny and fate and magic,

She easily gave him her trust

She wanted it to be her first and last,

She had all the love kept in stored for so long,

Waiting to pour it all out to the right one,

She believed in people,

She believed in the goodness of people,

She believed that somewhat, somehow,

She might be the game changer,

She easily believed,

She had faith,

She was me.

How did it go from that to this.

How did love become such a traumatic thing?

How did I lose my faith in people? In men?

I once loved the idea of love,

but now I wanna find a way out;

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the COVID attack

I smile, I get by,

but at night, as I close my eyes

I feel a pang in my chest

Tears starts to form inside

As we end the day,

I start to realize

I only have my self

I am alone

I feel trapped inside these 4 walls,

It’s still cold,

it’s still lonely,

No matter how much I brush it off,

I still feel alone