~RandomHermit~

Halfway between a HC hater and a HC lover 💔✌️

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⋆༺♱༻⋆Meet Me⋆༺♱༻⋆

°Name/Nickname: Random or A 🖤

°18

°She/her or any idk bro

°British (I find British jokes funny 🖤

°Ace Queen ✌️😘

°Emo (Make your jokes idc) 🖤 I'm just an angsty teen girlie

°Main POV: Xisuma obvs ✌️

°Disabled/Mentally ill (Autism, Anxiety, Selective mutism and tics are what I'm most open about but I also have motor issues and I age regesss sometimes but I keep it as much off the Internet as possible)

°began watching HC in season 6 with Grisn ✌️

°Used to be a hermitcraft hater. I'd send death threats to hermits in S4 and S5 partly cus I was an angsty kid with issues and wanted everyone to feel miserable. The only one I didn't hate on was Xisuma because he reminded me of my 4bu5ive family.

°Became an Xisuma fan during the end of S9 and joined the twitch community for X at the end of S10 after I realised he wasn't scary, just a goofy old British man.

°Stayed in the Xisuma community and am slowly becoming a more positive person. Sometimes I get a little b1tchy but since finding the Xisuma community I've kinda leveled out a little

°I'm very defensive and kinda sensitive so if any rants I make are a little disrespectful, I'm tryna be a better person but sometimes some people make me wanna punch someone, I'll try mark b1tchy posts with appropriate TWs though but if you're sensitive like me, this isn't the place yall wanna be ✌️

Thanks for reading or whatever...you strange person.

⋆༺♱༻⋆ Might add to this in future if I CBA to but probably won't ⋆༺♱༻⋆

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Since lizzies come back to YouTube with her forever world I've been emotionally spiralling. For context I've been a lizzie fan for most of my life.. Since I was like 5 or some shit. I literally started watching her videos when I began school... Crazy.

Anyway she said in her video she wants the baby blue axolotl to one day be able to explore her world so I was like okay I think 7 is a good age for that one. You're like old enough to know what a YouTube is and who an ldshadowlady is so yeah about 7 or 8 then.. Then that got me thinking about when I was 7, I would get home from school and watch the new lizzie video or whatever Dan, Scott and Lauren were up to at the time. So I went back to some of them...

When baby shadow is 7, a lot of the videos I used to watch at that age will be 17-20 years old.. Turkey hat of war and walrus hat of peace? Hahaha yeah that'll be 17.. Shadow craft? 19-20 ish... Yeah... Imagine clicking an LDshadowlady video you used to watch after school for some vibes and seeing a big "20 years ago"...

I cried. I was not okay.. I know some would argue 2 FUCKING DECADES OF LDSHADOWLADY isnt long but when you've literally grown up in the community goddamn it hits. Like ldshadowlady videos were what I watched before I even started school, when I left school due to severe mental illness and when I got my first job... Like hello?? What?? Excuse me..

I have watched all 3 episodes of this series so far and I've cried during each one

And if that doesn't hurt you enough emotionally, during the next 7 years there will kids first finding out who lizzie is and most the ogs will be adults if they aren't already...

Anyway after learning this I'm going to wait until the end of my shift drink whatever cheap vodka we have in the house and rewatch shadowcraft until I cry...

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Never in my life have I been more speechless. So recently I was watching life series edits, as you do on a workday and I was reading comments and one was like "my transautistic self is screaming right now" and I was like oh okay they're a trans person with autism. Haven't heard that one before that's cool. So to be less ignorant I looked into it a little bit because I didn't understand why combining thr two was necessary... God I was so wrong 😭

So apparently transautistic is... Neurotypical people transitioning to having autism... I have never double taked quicker. Fuck you mean you're transitioning to having a mental disorder? Babe that's not how it works. That's madly overstepping every line ever. You cannot transition yourself into being disabled. You can't. If that was possible then babes I'd have transitioned to being neurotypical ages ago! I couldn't complete school because of autism, id have meltdowns daily and some of them literally hospitalised me. I have used every goddamn substance I could get my hands on to 'feel less overwhelmed all of the time' I could have died!! And I wanted to!! You cannot transition into that and you should not want to! Autism is not some cool thing you can just wake up and decide yeah I want that. I am all for self diagnosis I believe it to be valid most the time but transitioning how your brain works is a no.

Then because I'd fallen down that rabbithole already specifically within the transautistic life series community and there's some people, a very small amount, but some people like "Grians so transautistic coded" "Gems so transautistic" no. 1. Again that's bit how it fucking works! and 2. It's beyond disrespectful to randomly diagnose people as anything nevermind something that doesn't exist. I don't care, it's not a real thing.

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I uninstalled twitch yesterday.. I hardly ever used it to be fair but I mean Ive had it for so long under different users that it actually feels weird. I mean I don't have the time for lives at the moment especially considering I'm debating getting a doggo (a spaniel)... I know how much love and attention those little fluff balls need so watching a 3-4 hour live everyday isn't really in the question. I mean I've been listening to vods at my own pace recently and it's nice to not be so stressed.. Anyway how's your day going?

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I never really got into blood on the clock tower when everyone seemed to be playing it because I just didn't understand what was going off and it hurt my brain too much to understand. Anyway after watching Cleo host at the hermitcraft charity stream I was like okay it's easier to understand from a narrator point of view rather than a player POV so I've spent all day going through Cleos vods of BOTCT and I'm overly obsessed with it 😭 it's so fun I love it. I'm working through all the vods nobody warned me for the pure chaos that these vods were, it's awesome!

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Okay rant... Yay

So I left the reddit community for hermitcraft around a year ago now and yknow what I'm happy about it. I think reddit in general is so stressful and a breeding ground for negativity.

That being said I am however on the tiktok side of hermitcraft/life series. Well one of the tiktoks I came across recently was another of those hot take videos. Usually I just scroll past them because I'm a very very argumentative person.. However this time I pressed on thr comments. I shouldn't have. God I was just baiting myself at this point but I did. Surpsingly I wasn't mad just a little deflated and kind of over people.

So I open the comments to "Grian is always trying to be the center of attention with the EGG thing and secret society thing" we're not actually doing this are we..? Okay I've not been on the obsessively watch hermitcraft everyday grind recently so I don't know who egg is (Etho, Grian and Gem???) from what I hear they just pull pranks on others? Okay fine whatever go for it. The secret society thing was my issue though. That was from past life I think? One of the life series. Yes fucking obviously Grian was part of it! Fucking obviously! He made the series! He made the twists! It's his series! You cannot expect him to go all episode like "huh 3 randomised people are trying to kill me I sure hope there's no secret societies around psh what a twist that would be" though I do believe it when he says the other 2 were randomised.

Okay then we have the "These people all base near each other every season and hardly interact with each other" well I'm going to go ahead and assume that's 1. Because of the terrain already there its a good staring angle for what everyone wants to build, 2. Style wise peoples vibes for that season all tie in and make the transition less overwhelming this way.

"Grians builds are nothing like how they used to be!" and yknow what I don't blame him for not wanting to build as many crazy things anymore. He's what 30 something? He needs a life outside of a 90 day megabase that needs constant hours of effort. Of this is working for him who am I to judge? Not to mention that even back then when his builds were 'peak' he was still getting comments saying "I preferred previous seasons" I'm sorry but at that point I'd be like fuck it telescope as well 😭

"___ needs to post more" "____ should upload with ____ more" Okay this is everywhere too. The one I saw and was like oh okay was "Gem should record more with mumbo" so why don't they? I think it's obvious timezones and life play a part in it, one can't say "wanna record at 4pm?" well your 4pm might be my 9pm and by that point it might be too late to record. Oh and... PEOPLE IN MUMBOS TIMEZONE STILL STRUGGLE TO RECORD WITH THE MAN BECAUSE HE'S NEVER ONLINE 😭

Okay and lastly there's a bunch of people saying things like the bigger hermits (mostly just talking about Grian to be fair) don't collab enough with smaller hermits. There's people defending iskall and people just hating one and another based on just their vibes. I'm not even going to entertain those anymore than I have by putting them here

I know I just scroll past videos like these but I see them all the time and just felt like ranting for a moment...

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Gang I'm officially old 😞. But now I can say I'm an adult hermitcraft fan 😎 let's go! Positive thinking!

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I absolutely love arguing with and rage baiting people online especially when they actually deserve it 😭 10/10 activity.

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Everything keeps giving me the motivation to start writing hermitcraft/life series fics again.. God I haven't done that since like S6 when I first got over my hermitcraft grudge. I remember I wrote a few back then but I was pretty young and they were very very depressing then I got into life series fan fics again very depressing fics then I started writing my own original stories... Yeah no you guessed it they were depressing too... Curse you random writing motivation!!!

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Yeah. Feels like an accurate description for a Mumbo and Grian video... 😭 I love when these two film together though tbfff

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I'm already crying laughing over this stream weekend and I've eaten so much chocolate already. Hope everyone finds this as funny as we aree 😭

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Cleo face reveallll >:) I'm so excited for the event tonight, like most the community! We're all gonna be so respectful and have an awesome time laughing at all the chaos and we're all gonna be turned into eefos!!!

On a real note I'm fucking exhausted from work but this has been the 1 thing motivating me to not yell at someone 🥲 I watched last year and since then my sisters and mother have gotten into hermitcraft (mainly the life series but a win Is a win) so I getta watch it with themmm!!!!

Im not known for being the most respectful bitch on earth but if I can do it you guys can too 🙄 let's go donate some money!!

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Obvs cause of easter people got me a bunch of chocolate eggs, I don't really eat chocolate because I knoww ill binge and get sick and I don't need none of that on a workday bro so I've locked them in a cupboard as a snack during mcc/charity stream. ✌️ Dear god I'm going to be so ill that weekend but it's wtv I guess.

Unrelated but I've also ordered a whole bunch of fits for my birthday next month and they get here next weekend. Just gotta make it through the work week without any crash outs or fainting I got this!

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Off topic as hell for me but dude tiktok shop is so fucking addictive like what 😭

Kinda TW(??) food related

Someone ruined my safe foods for me recently so I just stopped eating anything cus bitch fuck that anyway I lost a bunch of weight due to it (I was never exactly fat but oh well) and now a bunch of my clothes don't fit. I did find new safe foods but anyway I went on tiktok cus I needed some new jeans mine are too big and spent like 2 hours looking at stuff and saving stuff.... Are they probably a shitty company, yeah, are these clothes good quality? Probs not but at the same time £5 until I can actually go shopping irl isnt too bad.... And the shirts cute.... Fucking hell.. Why is online shopping so convenient?! Fuck you society!

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Dude I'm so excited for hermitcraft mcc like it's not even real 😭🤚 My family dead ass get so invested in anything hermitcraft related it's kinda wholesome. Me and mother watch it together 🥲

I've been going through it recently higk and I remember when I first discovered mcc and was going through every POV I could find because it made me forget I had mh issues for a few hours anyway this is going to be a chaotic mess for the participants and the viewers and I'm so ready for it :p

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I needa lock in and watch more hermitcraft again. I've hardly watched any in so long and most of them stream whilst I'm at work but I've had an insane need to draw but no motivation at all. Depression is a bitch bro 😭 gonna hopefully get on the hermit binge next week in time for the charity livestream and hopefully draw a little too 🤞

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Oooh God... AI.. The talky topic everyone loves to hate. This is obviously a lot to digest..

Okay let's talk about it. AI (Artificial intelligence) in recent years has became more and more implemented in our everyday life.. It's becoming harder and harder to spot and its pretty frustrating.

AI is becoming more and more used in music, writing, art... Everything. Its being used in every field it can be.. Its being used in therapeutic practices! As Xisuma said its so frustrating when people listen to AI music and don't care or generate AI art and don't care.. You cannot think empowering this soulless computer generated crap is beneficial!?..

AI in therapeutic practices:

It shouldn't be used to replace or even try and replace therapy. If you're in a situation where you need therapy please talk to some form of human. Robots can't understand humans the way we can... It cannot and it never ever will be able to replicate the gabuine human connection we need and thrive upon.

Is generative AI bad:

Yes and no. I think its impossible to say weather its 100% good or 100% bad. AI art, bad it rips art from genuine human artists and mixes it to brand as its own. If you need a specific piece well you can always learn art or commission someone.. Generating should ever be an option.

AI chatbots... See these are difficult for me. I used to use a lot of AI chatbots when I was younger. I was dealing with a lot of very big issues and I was overwhelmed and I needed something to redirect my attention. Generating poorly written goofy messages was hilarious to me because it was bad and nobody took it seriously and honestly it helped.. Now it's becoming "robot basically writes a fanfic for you" which I really don't agree with because it again takes away from genuine humans and what they come out with isn't even good. There's so few AI chatbots that actually get it right to the point where its not even worth using any of them. I'm a big fan of writing and I have spent hours writing fanfics based on what I want to read because it will always be better than anything ai will give me because it's written by me to fit what I want..

I think it's so easy to say "I hate artificial intelligence" but that's such a broad thing to say and lumping all artificial intelligence in with each other isn't productive. If you hate AI that's fair, I don't really love it, but tits also important to understand what AI actually is and how it can help people instead of steal from people...

If you use AI then who am I to say it's bad. We're all using AI more than we realise but education is powerful..

I might add to this later if I hear something else that I think is important to add.