@herrshepard - Tumblr Blog

Hi! You can call me Eze. I'm an autistic bisexual guy, a wearisome millennial (30s), European. I am a Tumblr ancient; I've been here since 2011...

Current special interests: IWTV (edits, fanart + horny fanart), Baldur's Gate 3 (edits)

Vampires in general, too. I'm very horny about them + ⚠️ I am thirsty here on my blog!

I tag 98% of my posts so it is very easy to blacklist a tag/tags.

#p.s. my ask and chat are always open!#intro

snailifier

happy pride, yall. happy pride to everyone who's getting or has been misgendered. happy pride to everyone who's had to defend their choice of partner (or lack thereof). happy pride to everyone who can't come out, and to everyone who didn't get to choose who knows. happy pride to everyone who has to choose between being themselves and being safe. i see you. i love you. there is so much joy to be had in being who and what you are. we're in this together and we're going to be better than okay.

Hey internet stranger, just wanted to check up on you. Depression is a cruel bitch but don’t let go of the imminent sexy vampire feast and renewed collective thirsting coming our way. Gotta hold on to any lifeline in a storm that gets us back to shore. Not my place so I’ll quietly fade back into the hedge à la Homer, but this rando has been there too and is rooting for you

Thank you 🖤

I probably won't be joining in on the thirsting, that's the sad part. 😔 Waiting for s3 was my lifeline (and so was thirsting at vampires/Lestat) and now all I have is this massive disappointment (no thirst, no excitement at all for it). It feels atrocious.

I guess the whole rockstar Lestat is just not to my taste or something? Even tho I still think the 2024 teaser with 1.0 ver of Long Face is still amazing & has the best rockstat to me.

Guess something about the promo, the tone and/or how they've made Lestat look really does not work for me, or I have some kind of weird phase of complete anhedonia and thirstlessness. Never had this kinda thing before, lasting for 4-5+ months. I do not feel extremely depressed otherwise, either.

Worst thing would be that my special interest is genuinely ending and that is very heavy news to me. 😓

#I miss slimmer cutieful s1 Lestat...#I yearn for gnc/more fem Lestat as well but I know that is not show canon :c #he seems like a pretty 'normal' rock idol who has that 90s/00s 'style' to me imho #that girls/women loooooovvve #and I kinda wished he'd be more fruity haha. but that is just my own 2p on this!#anyway I'm turned off and kinda frustrated with the promo of this show in general.#I hope the fuckups AMC did wrt the concert won't tarnish too much for me.#thank you for the ask <3 #ask

I legit feel insane cos the promo stuff of rockstat is turning me wayyyy off. ☹️😓 What the hell is wrong with me now? I've been horny for him for two freakin' years straight, every day and night. I love leather! I love makeup on men! I love his long hair and the nails and esp the vampire eyes. Yet. I don't get a single nice feeling, a single molecule of dopamine from all of this. S.O.S 😥🙃

#the ingredients are there to make me specifically thirsty and excited. still nothing. i feel suicidal #cos I managed not to kms during the last 1 #1 and ½ years cos I was waiting for season 3!#and now I feel *this*? this must be some kind of a sick joke...#there's nothing I can do since my libido died off in the past months for no apparent reason. great. so nice to feel s*icidal every day now!#tfw special interest interests you -200%.

souvenirs

spitfaggot

happy birthday, gilbert baker. (june 2, 1951 — march 31, 2017)

#🌈#pride

trainsandpaperplanes

Summer is suicide season

#it really is!#why is that happening literally every summer of my life.#this is so fucked.

Happy Pride

crying cos the new stuff from the concert is still not awakening anything in me. I'm broken :))

herrshepard

no, yeah, I'm gonna jump off that cliff cos the last nice thing in my life is now gone for good. (6 months and ongoing, no reason why it's happening, so no ways for me to make it come back, either. I kept going since my attempt in hopes that s3 would bring me so much excitement/energy/passion, too.)

#thanks libido you *literally* kept me alive for the last excruciating 15+ years. i will always miss you.#thank you for the only dopamine hits I could gain. I loved it.

victusinveritas

Yes, Sam Altman really said that (the intelligence is utility quote). The response to this absolutely cannot be meek acceptance.

crying cos the new stuff from the concert is still not awakening anything in me. I'm broken :))

#do i legit need psychiatric help cos i feel literally nothing or...#or is this the end of my special interest/hyperfixation? cos if yes i'm just gonna jump off a cliff

lioncourtz

THE VAMPIRE LESTAT poster in NYC x

#Lestat #rockstat #AMC TVL #bi magenta

fuzziiwuzzii

happy bisexual visibility day to this unholy non-discriminating trio

#BISEXUAL

fuzziiwuzzii

⚠️NSFW⚠️

IM SORRYHTKJGHGH😭😭😭 HE WOULD

#ULTRA FAVE #LOUSTAT

eosphoroz

Happy Pride Month ❤🧡💛💚💙💜

#happy pride month friend!!!#🌈

hanthikhai

Watching the iwtv pilot is like watching a whole movie and appreciating the insane work that went into ALL of it and then realising you've got 14 more of those and how lucky you are that the creators didn't sit back after finishing that epic episode. No they got up and made more!

#yeah!!!!!#IWTV