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If criminals don't get to have human rights, then the people in charge of deciding what a criminal is get to decide who is and is not human. Do you understand? Is this not blindingly obvious? Do you care?
Or do you assume you will always be "one of the good ones"?
an unmatched feeling actually
The most interesting question you can ask about any character is not what do they want. it's what do they believe they deserve. because those two things are almost never the same and the gap between them is where your entire story lives. a person can want love completely and believe they don't deserve it and that belief will destroy every good thing that comes toward them in ways they won't even notice they're doing. write the gap. the gap is the character.
i feel like antipsych as a movement doesnt get taken seriously, because well people see us as crazy. but the history and the path forward are very serious. we cannot keep having the same ''oh but what about meds'' argument bc that is a separate argument. the psych industry doesnt care what drugs youre on. it doesnt care if youre ''actually crazy''. it cares about control of disruptive behavior. and it will de-person you as much as it needs to get it. the fact is you have to rely on diagnoses from specifically programmed paternalistic indexes like the DSM for treatment if you do need it, with the caveat that it is also a justification for nonconsensual treatment should you ever stop behaving right. we must be antipsych to move forward. its part of abolition in the end. the state should not have the ability to determine the validity of your emotional health/poor crisis response/addictions/variations in personal experiences. nor should it detain or practice medical procedures on you should their judgement run negative.
i love being prevd its like getting a good grade in thoughts
a being getting good grade i in its like love prevd thoughts
"Idiots," I say, referring to the characters I have spent hundreds of my real life hours contemplating.
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Anyway can we meditate on this, fellas?
Every time I point out that disabled people are chill and that presuming we are violent monster maniacs is a bit ridiculous, at least one fuckwit has to be like, "oh yeah? What about [condition]?"
"Oh yeah? Well my sister works at a special school and she gets bitten by autistic kids all the time!" Okay. I was an autistic kid who went to special school. Didn't bite anybody, didn't see anybody bitten. I also worked in SPED for a while as an adult. Never saw an incident. Hm.
Oh look, studies show that violence is common in pretty much all schools because exploring and experimenting with violence is actually really common for kids aged three to nine. But oh, we notice it more when the retards do it. Why is that. Could it be ableism. We discuss it as an especially common and problemaitc thing when the retards do it. Why is that. Could it be ableism.
"Oh yeah? Well I'm a psychiatric nurse and my schizophrenic patient punched me!" I am a diagnosed schizophrenic. The whole reason I'm not working any more is that I lost years of my life in psychosis. Now, follow me here, I never assaulted anybody, but I have been assaulted a number of times since I became ill, always with the excuse of "well he could've become violent." Hm.
Every single major study on violence and schizophrenia finds schizophrenics are not more violent than the general population but experience violence at massively, massively disproportionate rates. In fact, they usually find the majority of violence in these contexts is perpetrated by support workers, family members, and police. Hm.
It just doesn't work mate. I'm sorry. You not only look ignorant, you just become useful fodder to prove my point that ableism is a real social force, because you've seen some disabled dude on social media talking about being disabled and thought to yourself, "aha, this is a fine time to be ableist." Come on.
also I was a "bites adults" retard and it was because I was being violently sexually abused. I was terrified of people. if you reached under the table where I was hiding, I knew what adults did with their hands and how much it hurt. I was a nonverbal screamer retard, though, so I was seen as intentionally pissing people off For Fun to fuck with them or whatever. as a like, 2-8 year old.
maybe if someone IS being violent, their behaviour is a RESPONSE, like ALL BEHAVIORS ARE?
but it's the inability to see us as people. dipshit tard bites because it doesn't know any better. meanwhile I was a trafficked, nonverbal child, terrified of adults.
even under healthy circumstances, if you're "retarded" (which I was considered! for a long time!) then people randomly handle you. and I think if you were small and crying because you were hungry or scared or overwhelmed and someone grabbed your body tightly, you'd fight back out of fear.
and I cannot speak to psychosis or schizospectrum individuals experiences, but I can say I sympathize in my own ways. a huge case happened here decades ago, and the man had a breakdown upon realizing what he had done. who he was, what was going on for him, all discarded to parade him as a ticking time bomb, a mentally ill man waiting to snap on a poor sane normal person at random. it's been used ever since to bludgeon mentally ill people, though I haven't seen the same for worse & more frequent crimes being committed by white collar white men!
i cannot imagine coming to lucidity out of a dissociative state, for example, and realizing what i did. that would be awful. i am routinely afraid of that happening, due to horror depicting my illness that way. i am afraid to wake up and see that i am the monster. so i studied these things in real life - what really happens? what does it really look like? is there such a thing as a senseless, random act of violence? (yes & it's acts committed by our governments but this is already so long)
i see these cases, these visibly traumatized people who are accused of callousness or lack of care because they have flat expressions, flat affects... like a trauma response. like a symptom of the illness they have. i sympathize. every time.
perhaps we sympathize/empathize with people who are under high amounts of distress? people do not typically commit these acts "for no reason". a trigger is a reason, stress is a reason, fear is a reason.
dehumanizing these people and mystifying their acts is all ableist as fuck. you just want to see us as unthinking, bloodthirsty monsters. you will never have adequate supports in place "to prevent this from happening again" if you cannot see these individuals as people with interiority. you will not prevent acts of violence by shoving us all into state institutions, in fact that will increase acts of violence occurring! there is no "solution" to this that fixes or stops it, because each situation is different. flattening it all as "mentally ill people dangerous we must get rid of them" is reductive & childish & inhumane. this all solves for nothing.
it's all the result of being unable to see the person first. just propping up a cardboard cutout of what YOU THINK their illness or disability looks like, and blaming it for whatever you need. it's dehumanization. and i must stress, if you dehumanize a violent person, you are sprinting AWAY FROM preventing violence. you are treating violence as inevitable instead of as a behavior that was prompted by stimuli/input/reinforced thought patterns.
It's well-articulated!!
I want to say thank you for bringing up the random handling element, that is very much a thing.
Mate I once had a teacher from the SPED see me at a local store and without warning she grabbed my hair and YANKED it with full force to tilt my head back so she could look at me. My grandma saw it happen and was like, "what the fuck?" and she rolled her eyes and went "oh I didn't hurt him!" And y'know, she got away with it because being very autistic, I didn't cry or yell when hurt, I just kind of froze and shut down.
And this kind of thing is just normal when you're disabled, especially if you're non/limited verbal. No one ever talks about it, but your right to your own space just doesn't exist in the eyes of able adults, who see the increased physicality as acceptable because you "can't understand." There's a reason we're victims of violence and C/SA at such massively disproportionate rates and while I'm not expert, I think part of it must be the sense of a social right to our bodies and space, or a belief that we "can't understand," or knowledge that others won't take us as seriously when we disclose abuse.
Anyway can we meditate on this, fellas?
Every time I point out that disabled people are chill and that presuming we are violent monster maniacs is a bit ridiculous, at least one fuckwit has to be like, "oh yeah? What about [condition]?"
"Oh yeah? Well my sister works at a special school and she gets bitten by autistic kids all the time!" Okay. I was an autistic kid who went to special school. Didn't bite anybody, didn't see anybody bitten. I also worked in SPED for a while as an adult. Never saw an incident. Hm.
Oh look, studies show that violence is common in pretty much all schools because exploring and experimenting with violence is actually really common for kids aged three to nine. But oh, we notice it more when the retards do it. Why is that. Could it be ableism. We discuss it as an especially common and problemaitc thing when the retards do it. Why is that. Could it be ableism.
"Oh yeah? Well I'm a psychiatric nurse and my schizophrenic patient punched me!" I am a diagnosed schizophrenic. The whole reason I'm not working any more is that I lost years of my life in psychosis. Now, follow me here, I never assaulted anybody, but I have been assaulted a number of times since I became ill, always with the excuse of "well he could've become violent." Hm.
Every single major study on violence and schizophrenia finds schizophrenics are not more violent than the general population but experience violence at massively, massively disproportionate rates. In fact, they usually find the majority of violence in these contexts is perpetrated by support workers, family members, and police. Hm.
It just doesn't work mate. I'm sorry. You not only look ignorant, you just become useful fodder to prove my point that ableism is a real social force, because you've seen some disabled dude on social media talking about being disabled and thought to yourself, "aha, this is a fine time to be ableist." Come on.
also I was a "bites adults" retard and it was because I was being violently sexually abused. I was terrified of people. if you reached under the table where I was hiding, I knew what adults did with their hands and how much it hurt. I was a nonverbal screamer retard, though, so I was seen as intentionally pissing people off For Fun to fuck with them or whatever. as a like, 2-8 year old.
maybe if someone IS being violent, their behaviour is a RESPONSE, like ALL BEHAVIORS ARE?
but it's the inability to see us as people. dipshit tard bites because it doesn't know any better. meanwhile I was a trafficked, nonverbal child, terrified of adults.
even under healthy circumstances, if you're "retarded" (which I was considered! for a long time!) then people randomly handle you. and I think if you were small and crying because you were hungry or scared or overwhelmed and someone grabbed your body tightly, you'd fight back out of fear.
and I cannot speak to psychosis or schizospectrum individuals experiences, but I can say I sympathize in my own ways. a huge case happened here decades ago, and the man had a breakdown upon realizing what he had done. who he was, what was going on for him, all discarded to parade him as a ticking time bomb, a mentally ill man waiting to snap on a poor sane normal person at random. it's been used ever since to bludgeon mentally ill people, though I haven't seen the same for worse & more frequent crimes being committed by white collar white men!
i cannot imagine coming to lucidity out of a dissociative state, for example, and realizing what i did. that would be awful. i am routinely afraid of that happening, due to horror depicting my illness that way. i am afraid to wake up and see that i am the monster. so i studied these things in real life - what really happens? what does it really look like? is there such a thing as a senseless, random act of violence? (yes & it's acts committed by our governments but this is already so long)
i see these cases, these visibly traumatized people who are accused of callousness or lack of care because they have flat expressions, flat affects... like a trauma response. like a symptom of the illness they have. i sympathize. every time.
perhaps we sympathize/empathize with people who are under high amounts of distress? people do not typically commit these acts "for no reason". a trigger is a reason, stress is a reason, fear is a reason.
dehumanizing these people and mystifying their acts is all ableist as fuck. you just want to see us as unthinking, bloodthirsty monsters. you will never have adequate supports in place "to prevent this from happening again" if you cannot see these individuals as people with interiority. you will not prevent acts of violence by shoving us all into state institutions, in fact that will increase acts of violence occurring! there is no "solution" to this that fixes or stops it, because each situation is different. flattening it all as "mentally ill people dangerous we must get rid of them" is reductive & childish & inhumane. this all solves for nothing.
it's all the result of being unable to see the person first. just propping up a cardboard cutout of what YOU THINK their illness or disability looks like, and blaming it for whatever you need. it's dehumanization. and i must stress, if you dehumanize a violent person, you are sprinting AWAY FROM preventing violence. you are treating violence as inevitable instead of as a behavior that was prompted by stimuli/input/reinforced thought patterns.
It's well-articulated!!
I want to say thank you for bringing up the random handling element, that is very much a thing.
Mate I once had a teacher from the SPED see me at a local store and without warning she grabbed my hair and YANKED it with full force to tilt my head back so she could look at me. My grandma saw it happen and was like, "what the fuck?" and she rolled her eyes and went "oh I didn't hurt him!" And y'know, she got away with it because being very autistic, I didn't cry or yell when hurt, I just kind of froze and shut down.
And this kind of thing is just normal when you're disabled, especially if you're non/limited verbal. No one ever talks about it, but your right to your own space just doesn't exist in the eyes of able adults, who see the increased physicality as acceptable because you "can't understand." There's a reason we're victims of violence and C/SA at such massively disproportionate rates and while I'm not expert, I think part of it must be the sense of a social right to our bodies and space, or a belief that we "can't understand," or knowledge that others won't take us as seriously when we disclose abuse.
Anyway can we meditate on this, fellas?
Every time I point out that disabled people are chill and that presuming we are violent monster maniacs is a bit ridiculous, at least one fuckwit has to be like, "oh yeah? What about [condition]?"
"Oh yeah? Well my sister works at a special school and she gets bitten by autistic kids all the time!" Okay. I was an autistic kid who went to special school. Didn't bite anybody, didn't see anybody bitten. I also worked in SPED for a while as an adult. Never saw an incident. Hm.
Oh look, studies show that violence is common in pretty much all schools because exploring and experimenting with violence is actually really common for kids aged three to nine. But oh, we notice it more when the retards do it. Why is that. Could it be ableism. We discuss it as an especially common and problemaitc thing when the retards do it. Why is that. Could it be ableism.
"Oh yeah? Well I'm a psychiatric nurse and my schizophrenic patient punched me!" I am a diagnosed schizophrenic. The whole reason I'm not working any more is that I lost years of my life in psychosis. Now, follow me here, I never assaulted anybody, but I have been assaulted a number of times since I became ill, always with the excuse of "well he could've become violent." Hm.
Every single major study on violence and schizophrenia finds schizophrenics are not more violent than the general population but experience violence at massively, massively disproportionate rates. In fact, they usually find the majority of violence in these contexts is perpetrated by support workers, family members, and police. Hm.
It just doesn't work mate. I'm sorry. You not only look ignorant, you just become useful fodder to prove my point that ableism is a real social force, because you've seen some disabled dude on social media talking about being disabled and thought to yourself, "aha, this is a fine time to be ableist." Come on.
also I was a "bites adults" retard and it was because I was being violently sexually abused. I was terrified of people. if you reached under the table where I was hiding, I knew what adults did with their hands and how much it hurt. I was a nonverbal screamer retard, though, so I was seen as intentionally pissing people off For Fun to fuck with them or whatever. as a like, 2-8 year old.
maybe if someone IS being violent, their behaviour is a RESPONSE, like ALL BEHAVIORS ARE?
but it's the inability to see us as people. dipshit tard bites because it doesn't know any better. meanwhile I was a trafficked, nonverbal child, terrified of adults.
even under healthy circumstances, if you're "retarded" (which I was considered! for a long time!) then people randomly handle you. and I think if you were small and crying because you were hungry or scared or overwhelmed and someone grabbed your body tightly, you'd fight back out of fear.
and I cannot speak to psychosis or schizospectrum individuals experiences, but I can say I sympathize in my own ways. a huge case happened here decades ago, and the man had a breakdown upon realizing what he had done. who he was, what was going on for him, all discarded to parade him as a ticking time bomb, a mentally ill man waiting to snap on a poor sane normal person at random. it's been used ever since to bludgeon mentally ill people, though I haven't seen the same for worse & more frequent crimes being committed by white collar white men!
i cannot imagine coming to lucidity out of a dissociative state, for example, and realizing what i did. that would be awful. i am routinely afraid of that happening, due to horror depicting my illness that way. i am afraid to wake up and see that i am the monster. so i studied these things in real life - what really happens? what does it really look like? is there such a thing as a senseless, random act of violence? (yes & it's acts committed by our governments but this is already so long)
i see these cases, these visibly traumatized people who are accused of callousness or lack of care because they have flat expressions, flat affects... like a trauma response. like a symptom of the illness they have. i sympathize. every time.
perhaps we sympathize/empathize with people who are under high amounts of distress? people do not typically commit these acts "for no reason". a trigger is a reason, stress is a reason, fear is a reason.
dehumanizing these people and mystifying their acts is all ableist as fuck. you just want to see us as unthinking, bloodthirsty monsters. you will never have adequate supports in place "to prevent this from happening again" if you cannot see these individuals as people with interiority. you will not prevent acts of violence by shoving us all into state institutions, in fact that will increase acts of violence occurring! there is no "solution" to this that fixes or stops it, because each situation is different. flattening it all as "mentally ill people dangerous we must get rid of them" is reductive & childish & inhumane. this all solves for nothing.
it's all the result of being unable to see the person first. just propping up a cardboard cutout of what YOU THINK their illness or disability looks like, and blaming it for whatever you need. it's dehumanization. and i must stress, if you dehumanize a violent person, you are sprinting AWAY FROM preventing violence. you are treating violence as inevitable instead of as a behavior that was prompted by stimuli/input/reinforced thought patterns.
It's well-articulated!!
I want to say thank you for bringing up the random handling element, that is very much a thing.
Mate I once had a teacher from the SPED see me at a local store and without warning she grabbed my hair and YANKED it with full force to tilt my head back so she could look at me. My grandma saw it happen and was like, "what the fuck?" and she rolled her eyes and went "oh I didn't hurt him!" And y'know, she got away with it because being very autistic, I didn't cry or yell when hurt, I just kind of froze and shut down.
And this kind of thing is just normal when you're disabled, especially if you're non/limited verbal. No one ever talks about it, but your right to your own space just doesn't exist in the eyes of able adults, who see the increased physicality as acceptable because you "can't understand." There's a reason we're victims of violence and C/SA at such massively disproportionate rates and while I'm not expert, I think part of it must be the sense of a social right to our bodies and space, or a belief that we "can't understand," or knowledge that others won't take us as seriously when we disclose abuse.
Anyway can we meditate on this, fellas?
Every time I point out that disabled people are chill and that presuming we are violent monster maniacs is a bit ridiculous, at least one fuckwit has to be like, "oh yeah? What about [condition]?"
"Oh yeah? Well my sister works at a special school and she gets bitten by autistic kids all the time!" Okay. I was an autistic kid who went to special school. Didn't bite anybody, didn't see anybody bitten. I also worked in SPED for a while as an adult. Never saw an incident. Hm.
Oh look, studies show that violence is common in pretty much all schools because exploring and experimenting with violence is actually really common for kids aged three to nine. But oh, we notice it more when the retards do it. Why is that. Could it be ableism. We discuss it as an especially common and problemaitc thing when the retards do it. Why is that. Could it be ableism.
"Oh yeah? Well I'm a psychiatric nurse and my schizophrenic patient punched me!" I am a diagnosed schizophrenic. The whole reason I'm not working any more is that I lost years of my life in psychosis. Now, follow me here, I never assaulted anybody, but I have been assaulted a number of times since I became ill, always with the excuse of "well he could've become violent." Hm.
Every single major study on violence and schizophrenia finds schizophrenics are not more violent than the general population but experience violence at massively, massively disproportionate rates. In fact, they usually find the majority of violence in these contexts is perpetrated by support workers, family members, and police. Hm.
It just doesn't work mate. I'm sorry. You not only look ignorant, you just become useful fodder to prove my point that ableism is a real social force, because you've seen some disabled dude on social media talking about being disabled and thought to yourself, "aha, this is a fine time to be ableist." Come on.
also I was a "bites adults" retard and it was because I was being violently sexually abused. I was terrified of people. if you reached under the table where I was hiding, I knew what adults did with their hands and how much it hurt. I was a nonverbal screamer retard, though, so I was seen as intentionally pissing people off For Fun to fuck with them or whatever. as a like, 2-8 year old.
maybe if someone IS being violent, their behaviour is a RESPONSE, like ALL BEHAVIORS ARE?
but it's the inability to see us as people. dipshit tard bites because it doesn't know any better. meanwhile I was a trafficked, nonverbal child, terrified of adults.
even under healthy circumstances, if you're "retarded" (which I was considered! for a long time!) then people randomly handle you. and I think if you were small and crying because you were hungry or scared or overwhelmed and someone grabbed your body tightly, you'd fight back out of fear.
and I cannot speak to psychosis or schizospectrum individuals experiences, but I can say I sympathize in my own ways. a huge case happened here decades ago, and the man had a breakdown upon realizing what he had done. who he was, what was going on for him, all discarded to parade him as a ticking time bomb, a mentally ill man waiting to snap on a poor sane normal person at random. it's been used ever since to bludgeon mentally ill people, though I haven't seen the same for worse & more frequent crimes being committed by white collar white men!
i cannot imagine coming to lucidity out of a dissociative state, for example, and realizing what i did. that would be awful. i am routinely afraid of that happening, due to horror depicting my illness that way. i am afraid to wake up and see that i am the monster. so i studied these things in real life - what really happens? what does it really look like? is there such a thing as a senseless, random act of violence? (yes & it's acts committed by our governments but this is already so long)
i see these cases, these visibly traumatized people who are accused of callousness or lack of care because they have flat expressions, flat affects... like a trauma response. like a symptom of the illness they have. i sympathize. every time.
perhaps we sympathize/empathize with people who are under high amounts of distress? people do not typically commit these acts "for no reason". a trigger is a reason, stress is a reason, fear is a reason.
dehumanizing these people and mystifying their acts is all ableist as fuck. you just want to see us as unthinking, bloodthirsty monsters. you will never have adequate supports in place "to prevent this from happening again" if you cannot see these individuals as people with interiority. you will not prevent acts of violence by shoving us all into state institutions, in fact that will increase acts of violence occurring! there is no "solution" to this that fixes or stops it, because each situation is different. flattening it all as "mentally ill people dangerous we must get rid of them" is reductive & childish & inhumane. this all solves for nothing.
it's all the result of being unable to see the person first. just propping up a cardboard cutout of what YOU THINK their illness or disability looks like, and blaming it for whatever you need. it's dehumanization. and i must stress, if you dehumanize a violent person, you are sprinting AWAY FROM preventing violence. you are treating violence as inevitable instead of as a behavior that was prompted by stimuli/input/reinforced thought patterns.
It's well-articulated!!
I want to say thank you for bringing up the random handling element, that is very much a thing.
Mate I once had a teacher from the SPED see me at a local store and without warning she grabbed my hair and YANKED it with full force to tilt my head back so she could look at me. My grandma saw it happen and was like, "what the fuck?" and she rolled her eyes and went "oh I didn't hurt him!" And y'know, she got away with it because being very autistic, I didn't cry or yell when hurt, I just kind of froze and shut down.
And this kind of thing is just normal when you're disabled, especially if you're non/limited verbal. No one ever talks about it, but your right to your own space just doesn't exist in the eyes of able adults, who see the increased physicality as acceptable because you "can't understand." There's a reason we're victims of violence and C/SA at such massively disproportionate rates and while I'm not expert, I think part of it must be the sense of a social right to our bodies and space, or a belief that we "can't understand," or knowledge that others won't take us as seriously when we disclose abuse.
Anyway can we meditate on this, fellas?
Every time I point out that disabled people are chill and that presuming we are violent monster maniacs is a bit ridiculous, at least one fuckwit has to be like, "oh yeah? What about [condition]?"
"Oh yeah? Well my sister works at a special school and she gets bitten by autistic kids all the time!" Okay. I was an autistic kid who went to special school. Didn't bite anybody, didn't see anybody bitten. I also worked in SPED for a while as an adult. Never saw an incident. Hm.
Oh look, studies show that violence is common in pretty much all schools because exploring and experimenting with violence is actually really common for kids aged three to nine. But oh, we notice it more when the retards do it. Why is that. Could it be ableism. We discuss it as an especially common and problemaitc thing when the retards do it. Why is that. Could it be ableism.
"Oh yeah? Well I'm a psychiatric nurse and my schizophrenic patient punched me!" I am a diagnosed schizophrenic. The whole reason I'm not working any more is that I lost years of my life in psychosis. Now, follow me here, I never assaulted anybody, but I have been assaulted a number of times since I became ill, always with the excuse of "well he could've become violent." Hm.
Every single major study on violence and schizophrenia finds schizophrenics are not more violent than the general population but experience violence at massively, massively disproportionate rates. In fact, they usually find the majority of violence in these contexts is perpetrated by support workers, family members, and police. Hm.
It just doesn't work mate. I'm sorry. You not only look ignorant, you just become useful fodder to prove my point that ableism is a real social force, because you've seen some disabled dude on social media talking about being disabled and thought to yourself, "aha, this is a fine time to be ableist." Come on.
also I was a "bites adults" retard and it was because I was being violently sexually abused. I was terrified of people. if you reached under the table where I was hiding, I knew what adults did with their hands and how much it hurt. I was a nonverbal screamer retard, though, so I was seen as intentionally pissing people off For Fun to fuck with them or whatever. as a like, 2-8 year old.
maybe if someone IS being violent, their behaviour is a RESPONSE, like ALL BEHAVIORS ARE?
but it's the inability to see us as people. dipshit tard bites because it doesn't know any better. meanwhile I was a trafficked, nonverbal child, terrified of adults.
even under healthy circumstances, if you're "retarded" (which I was considered! for a long time!) then people randomly handle you. and I think if you were small and crying because you were hungry or scared or overwhelmed and someone grabbed your body tightly, you'd fight back out of fear.
and I cannot speak to psychosis or schizospectrum individuals experiences, but I can say I sympathize in my own ways. a huge case happened here decades ago, and the man had a breakdown upon realizing what he had done. who he was, what was going on for him, all discarded to parade him as a ticking time bomb, a mentally ill man waiting to snap on a poor sane normal person at random. it's been used ever since to bludgeon mentally ill people, though I haven't seen the same for worse & more frequent crimes being committed by white collar white men!
i cannot imagine coming to lucidity out of a dissociative state, for example, and realizing what i did. that would be awful. i am routinely afraid of that happening, due to horror depicting my illness that way. i am afraid to wake up and see that i am the monster. so i studied these things in real life - what really happens? what does it really look like? is there such a thing as a senseless, random act of violence? (yes & it's acts committed by our governments but this is already so long)
i see these cases, these visibly traumatized people who are accused of callousness or lack of care because they have flat expressions, flat affects... like a trauma response. like a symptom of the illness they have. i sympathize. every time.
perhaps we sympathize/empathize with people who are under high amounts of distress? people do not typically commit these acts "for no reason". a trigger is a reason, stress is a reason, fear is a reason.
dehumanizing these people and mystifying their acts is all ableist as fuck. you just want to see us as unthinking, bloodthirsty monsters. you will never have adequate supports in place "to prevent this from happening again" if you cannot see these individuals as people with interiority. you will not prevent acts of violence by shoving us all into state institutions, in fact that will increase acts of violence occurring! there is no "solution" to this that fixes or stops it, because each situation is different. flattening it all as "mentally ill people dangerous we must get rid of them" is reductive & childish & inhumane. this all solves for nothing.
it's all the result of being unable to see the person first. just propping up a cardboard cutout of what YOU THINK their illness or disability looks like, and blaming it for whatever you need. it's dehumanization. and i must stress, if you dehumanize a violent person, you are sprinting AWAY FROM preventing violence. you are treating violence as inevitable instead of as a behavior that was prompted by stimuli/input/reinforced thought patterns.
It's well-articulated!!
I want to say thank you for bringing up the random handling element, that is very much a thing.
Mate I once had a teacher from the SPED see me at a local store and without warning she grabbed my hair and YANKED it with full force to tilt my head back so she could look at me. My grandma saw it happen and was like, "what the fuck?" and she rolled her eyes and went "oh I didn't hurt him!" And y'know, she got away with it because being very autistic, I didn't cry or yell when hurt, I just kind of froze and shut down.
And this kind of thing is just normal when you're disabled, especially if you're non/limited verbal. No one ever talks about it, but your right to your own space just doesn't exist in the eyes of able adults, who see the increased physicality as acceptable because you "can't understand." There's a reason we're victims of violence and C/SA at such massively disproportionate rates and while I'm not expert, I think part of it must be the sense of a social right to our bodies and space, or a belief that we "can't understand," or knowledge that others won't take us as seriously when we disclose abuse.
sometimes people experiencing psychosis and/or mania will come up to you on the street and talk in confusing or upsetting ways. your job is to either have a regular human-to-human conversation with that person or politely leave. your job is not to call 911. do not call 911. you might kill that person if you call 911.
I don't even have the energy to screenshot and respond to your tags- what the actual fuck is wrong with you? "the cops are scared and rightfully so" "mental health calls are the scariest for cops" OH so this isn't about the safety of psychotic & manic people this is about piggy feelings?
and no, actually, this is not USA specific and no, actually, people from other countries should not ignore this post. police violence and sanism weren't invented in the US and they are certainly not unique to here. if you (or anyone) thinks that this bullshit doesn't happen elsewhere then you are not listening.
Someome having an episode is a medical emergency, not a crime in progress; it should be handled by medical personnel and not cops.
some of us live in constant psychosis or have long term or frequent manic episodes. medical emergencies are acute problems, not chronic baseline states. the majority of people with a psychotic disorder experience psychosis regularly. for most psychotic people a psychotic episode is not a medical emergency it is an average Tuesday.
don't call an ambulance on someone who does not want one.
a psychotic episode is not inherently an emergency
oughhh just mixed such a good green
listen to me. this is my final message to you. when you are at your lowest a fictional guy will come to you and when that happens you must start putting them in situations. this is the meaning of life.
