In the Constant Pursuit of Doing Good

Viktor | Co-Founder of HexTech

[hextech-workaholic]

Hello, I am Viktor, a co-founder of Hextech. At the recommendation of my partner Jayce, I have made this blog so that I can engage with the public in their curiosities. Ideally, about Hextech, but I suppose I will answer whatever questions I can within reason.

(This is a roleplay blog for Viktor from post-season 1 time-skip Arcane. I write mainly with @jayceofprogress as my Viktor's Jayce- and @askskyyoung as my Sky but I am happy to interact with any other Jayce/character/ocs.

There will be suggestive content on this blog, and canon-typical content warnings apply.)

Viktor's Notes One | Two | Three | Four

Other Blogs: @industrialist-eye | @zauns-pussycat | @heralds-jayce Some house rules/info below the cut.

My Viktor is gay and trans because I am too, and I need to be able to project on him, so expect that.

I am an adult, so please interact appropriately. Topics can get mature and I do not want to have to go out of my way to block anyone.

Also, please do not send super serious vents into my ask box as I can not provide that level of emotional support right now. If you need some cheering up from Viktor I will absolutely do what I can, but please be respectful to my own mental health.

I don't mind if you send asks with flirting/crushing on/etc with Viktor but unless you're rping a Jayce it's gonna be one-sided, I'm sorry. I'm only here for Jayvik.

[ellenchain]

I know someone who would hang this on their bedroom wall

[technohumanlation]

Looking good @jayceofprogress

[jayceofprogress]

Thanks! It’s always great to speak about our work with the press. Glad the pictures came out alright, too.

[hextech-workaholic]

Do we, eh, have a copy for the office? I do not believe I have had a chance to, eh...read the interview.

[jayceofprogress]

💐

Hey, @hextech-workaholic! This must be another belated birthday delivery for you. Stay right there—don’t get up. I’ll stick these in some water.

You’ve…got a lot of admirers, huh? Obviously, I mean. It’s not like it’s surprising. Just…anyone I know?

[hextech-workaholic]

Jayce, they have a card right there that says "For Mr. Talis." I believe you have more admirers, do you not? You are the one in the public eye, after all.

They are rather interesting flowers, though. I do not think I have seen some of these- imported, maybe?

[hextech-workaholic]

🍆

Why are we getting so many deliveries of food? I suppose it is convenient, I did forget to pack a lunch today but...hmm...I bet I can roast this in here.

[hextech-workaholic]

Mango 🥭

Eh, thank you. I do not know that I have had one of these.

...I hope Jayce does not mind if I get the juice, eh...everywhere. I did not expect cutting it to be so...messy.

[jayceofprogress]

V, you gotta slice the cheeks off. Like this. Then you cube it up and flip it inside out.

…oh, man. Your whole face is sticky. It’s running down your neck!

[hextech-workaholic]

I have made a mistake, Jayce. It is everywhere. I do not think these notes will survive.

[jayceofprogress]

Just. Stop touching things. Stay still. I’ll clean you up.

Ugh, my hands are a mess. There’s juice running down your chin. Can you reach it with your tongue? Do you mind if I…?

[askskyyoung]

Viktor? Jayce? Did you guys get a mango-oh Janna! I-I'm so sorry! I'll come back later-!

[hextech-workaholic]

It is getting everywhere even if I do hold still- I- Miss Young?

...this does look, eh, very compromising, Jayce. Perhaps we should just, eh, wash off in the sink.

[hextech-workaholic]

Mango 🥭

Eh, thank you. I do not know that I have had one of these.

...I hope Jayce does not mind if I get the juice, eh...everywhere. I did not expect cutting it to be so...messy.

[jayceofprogress]

V, you gotta slice the cheeks off. Like this. Then you cube it up and flip it inside out.

…oh, man. Your whole face is sticky. It’s running down your neck!

[hextech-workaholic]

I have made a mistake, Jayce. It is everywhere. I do not think these notes will survive.

[hextech-workaholic]

Mango 🥭

Eh, thank you. I do not know that I have had one of these.

...I hope Jayce does not mind if I get the juice, eh...everywhere. I did not expect cutting it to be so...messy.

[hextech-workaholic]

can i bite your neck? it looks very biteable

I do not even like strangers touching me, so I would strongly prefer if you did not.

[hextech-workaholic]

Hi Viktor, would you be comftorble telling about your transition? How old were you? Did your parents support it? And what was it like in Zuan.

I will warn you there...isn't really much to tell. I feel when people in Piltover ask me this question they often expect a big, dramatic story because I come from Zaun but...it really is not so interesting. I figured it out young, I can not really pin point an exact age but it was after my parents were gone, at least. Honestly, I do not remember much of them to say if they would have approved or not, but being on your own a lot gives you lots of time to figure things out, I suppose. There was lots of reflection. Paying attention to what things made me feel comfortable. Sleeping outside didn't. Having a full stomach did. Being called a girl didn't, and I tried to understand why. There was a long period of watching people and really paying attention to those I felt like I wanted to be when I grew up. I don't remember my father much but I remember I wanted to be like him. Whatever idea I had of him, really. One day it just...clicked. I wanted to be Viktor. It was my father's name, and it felt right.

So it was...simple? I suppose. I did not really have many friends down in Zaun, so I did not really worry about anyone approving. I introduced myself as Viktor, I dressed myself as I wanted. Childhood was a breeze in that sense- a few people may have given me looks or pushed back but Zaun was no worse than Piltover is. Truly I have had more trouble being accepted as simply being from Zaun in Piltover than I have had with my transition in either place. And when I was older and puberty hit- I found places to get what I needed when it came to the right hormones. Surgery was...a bit of a challenge, admittedly. It is always a challenge in Zaun, regardless of what for, but I did not really have much development there to begin with and so...it was perhaps easier than most. By the time I entered the Academy, I had settled into a comfortable routine of shots and had a brief moment of struggle paying for them but...that has long since settled, really. Sometimes I get too invested in work and realize I skipped a dose but...that is life, I suppose.

I am sorry if it was...less exciting than you hard hoped.

[hextech-workaholic]

what was your dating history like? did you date anyone at the academy? or anyone named dimitri?

It is a bit, eh, boring...but I suppose. I mostly dated at the Academy, really. I had one short relationship before that in Zaun, but it was more a relationship of convenience, I feel. We drifted away to pursue our own goals- the Academy for me and well, it is not my business to speak of anyone elses. Beyond that I, eh...I am not the best at relationships, I have learned. Most were a couple months at most, and I quickly learned that I...struggle when it comes to putting down work in exchange for quality time and well, relationships reasonably wither when you don't water them. So they were...short-lived.

I have had a colleague say that perhaps it's just hard to catch my attention, but really I think it was just immaturity and different priorities on my part. I have since not, eh, really pursued relationships.

As for Dimitri, he did ask once. I, however, turned him down. I had already sworn off trying to date at the time. Though he has kept in touch and occasionally brought the topic back up in passing- reminiscing Academy days more than anything else, I think.

[hextech-workaholic]

You don’t look like a bug Viktor don’t listen to Jayce :(

I do not think there is anything wrong with looking like a bug, for what that is worth. Jayce knows I am rather fond of them, it is not exactly an insult. Having now looked in the mirror when my hair is standing up, I do in fact see the resemblance.

[askskyyoung]

check up

Sky woke to an empty apartment the next morning. Jayce had stayed the night on her couch.

They had shared a humble meal of pasta and sauce. Had shared their worried thoughts. Sky had held Jayce as he cried and exhausted himself.

She had reluctantly pulled away from her dearest friend and retreated to her own bed.

Circling the couch, she found that he had folded the blankets and reset the cushions. A sad smile came to her lips. Always so polite… The woman went through the same daily morning routine: breakfast, preparing for the day ahead, feeding Kiki, and then heading to work. Arriving at the lab, however, was different. It was quiet.

Oddly so.

"Viktor?" She called. Nothing. No wafting scent of tea. Jayce's smelly breakfast choice or haul from the bakery. No fumbling request to fetch a document before a 'good morning' was said.

Nothing.

She set her belongings on her desk and walked through the workshop. Was her alarm early? Were the clocks set back, and she didn't know? She checked the time and found that she was on time.

"Jayce?" Her voice trembled with growing worry, a knot of fear tightening in her chest.

Did…did something happen? A surge of panic shot through her, the thought of the worst-case scenario looming ominously in her mind.

@jayceofprogress @hextech-workaholic

[jayceofprogress]

Jayce wakes groggy on Sky's couch, his eyes salt-crusted with sleep and a night of soaking in self-loathing. He splashes water on his face in the basin, tidies the couch, and starts home. It's quiet on the street outside. Dawn is breaking, and with it, renewed clarity. He's been stupid. Selfish. Viktor is his best friend. The single most important person in Jayce's life; the reason he's alive. Viktor is the only person with whom he's ever felt truly seen, like the other half of himself he hadn't even known was missing.

So what if Jayce also just happens to be in love with him? Is it really worth throwing away everything they have over one disastrously misguided night? Jayce thinks he can shove his own childish heartache down for the sake of their partnership. He can fold it into something small and easily-hidden, with soft-worn corners from opening it up and holding it close in secret when he's alone, and tucking it safely away again in the dark. He can do that, for Viktor's sake.

It feels like an easy decision from there. Once home, he only stays long enough to shave, wash, and change into fresh clothes. Then he's back out into the early morning light. It's a little busier now, with market stalls opening and delivery workers beginning their rounds. He stops to buy a sweetmilk-custard pastry from a glass-fronted bakery—too sweet for Jayce's taste—and it's still warm from the oven inside its brown paper bag when he knocks on Viktor's door.

@hextech-workaholic

[hextech-workaholic]

He meant to get up. Dawn had already broke. He could be at the lab by now. Working. Helping. Instead, he'd managed to push himself to sit up in the bed and had been staring bleary eyed at schematics pinned to to his wall instead with too little energy and perhaps too much emotional pain mixed in with the usual body aches to get much farther than that.

Why did he even have to invite Jayce in? If he'd been smart and left it at goodbye at the door instead of greedily wanting more of Jayce's time then everything would be normal. Fine. He wouldn't be worried about how exhausting it would be to go into the lab and have to pretend like he didn't-

He startles at the knock. Cursing as he bumps his cane just so and knocks it a bit out of reach.

"One moment!" He calls. Stretching his foot out to pull it closer and lift it back up as he finally gets up and drags himself to the front door.

Certainly not expecting- "Jayce. I thought you would, eh, be at the lab by now. Is everything-" He stops for a breath. "Is everything alright?"

@jayceofprogress

[jayceofprogress]

“I could say the same to you,” Jayce says. Viktor’s lab hours often exceed his own, particularly recently, with Jayce’s increasing Council meetings and endless paperwork. Jayce takes in Viktor’s sleep-mussed hair and the faint crease on his cheek from his pillow, and realizes with a tender jolt of affection that he’s barely woken up.

“Hi,” he says, softly. Then he clears his throat, and lifts the pastry in its bag. “Brought you something for breakfast. And…I wanted to talk.” Not waiting for Viktor’s invitation, Jayce steps up past him into the narrow hall. He talks fast, before he can lose his nerve.

“I’ve been thinking. A lot. And I know things have been weird lately. I hate feeling like there’s this…barrier between us. So I need to just say this: what happened between us, the other night? I’m never going to forget it. Not for the rest of my life. I’ve never felt like that with anybody. You’re my best friend. You’re the most important person in the world to me. And I know it’s selfish, and I’ve been stupid, and inconsiderate, but the truth is that I’m in love with you. I think I have been for a long time. I meant that, when I said it.” Jayce’s cheeks feel hot, but he plows ahead, stroking his thumb over the crystal in his wristband as though for courage.

“So even if you…don’t feel the same way. I wanted you to know that I don’t regret it. And if you never want me to talk about it again, I won’t. Just say the word, and I swear I’ll drop it for good. But having you as my partner…it’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me. Even if that’s all we ever are. Even if it means I’m making an ass of myself right now by saying all of this. I just…can’t stand you pushing me away. Please, Viktor.”

Breathing hard, Jayce finally stops talking.

[hextech-workaholic]

Viktor glances away at the initial comment. He should be at the lab. He swallows. Tries to think of how exactly he wants to say that he's fine. Jayce says he wants to talk before Viktor can even think of what to say- and then he's inside, and Viktor doesn't know if Jayce is moving far too fast or if he's really processing things this slowly.

It is at least...mostly the first thing, he decides, when Jayce doesn't even let him get a hello in himself. He is... overwhelmed before he's even finished what he's saying. Leans back against the wall behind him as he processes that Jayce is confessing- again- and his emotions are starting to feel like very confused knots he can't untangle.

His hand goes to his face. Pinching the bridge of his nose for a moment before he looks at Jayce and rubs his face.

"Jayce. You are the most...infuriating, confusing, and frustrating man that I have ever known and you are trying to kill me." He takes a deep breath. His heart is racing. This is too much for how tired he is. "I want to talk about it, Jayce. I want to do more than talk about it- I-" He sighs, moving past Jayce to at least make them both a cup of coffee.

"I do not regret it, either. I meant everything I said." He says, taking down a jar of coffee. It feels nerve-wracking talking about it. Again. Sober. After all of the confusion and second guessing and perhaps... misunderstanding. At least doing something helped a bit with the nerves.

"I have been in love with you for years, Jayce." He says, finally. "I want it to...be more. But I do not want to ruin what we have, Jayce. Or jeapordize HexTech or...it was too terrifying to bring up. Thinking about what might go wrong if I mentioned it again- and...and you said it was a mistake and I-"

He turns the coffee pot on. Looks over at Jayce, exhausted. "I cannot do the back and forth of my emotions, Jayce..."

@jayceofprogress

[jayceofprogress]

Which one of you and vik invented this beauty

The…Hexbug?

I didn’t authorize this. If I had, you’d be able to tell; it’d have my smithing mark stamped on it. @hextech-workaholic, do you know anything about this?

It is…kind of cute, I guess.

[hextech-workaholic]

I may have, eh, gotten a little bored with some scraps at some point. Perhaps. And then misplaced the, eh, consequences of that boredom.

...it was perhaps not intended to find its way off of my desk.

[jayceofprogress]

Huh. What…does it do, exactly? Apart from looking cute.

I probably shouldn’t have been surprised it was one of yours. After all, I can see the resemblance. Ha!

[hextech-workaholic]

Jayce, are you telling me I look like a bug?

As for what it does...not much, actually. Mostly that. It...moves. And gets lost.

[jayceofprogress]

Well, you do have those big shiny eyes. And your legs are pretty long. And sometimes, after you’ve been twirling your hair, it sticks up like antennae…

[hextech-workaholic]

It does? I suppose I can, eh, see the resemblance.

...thank you, Jayce.

[jayceofprogress]

Which one of you and vik invented this beauty

The…Hexbug?

I didn’t authorize this. If I had, you’d be able to tell; it’d have my smithing mark stamped on it. @hextech-workaholic, do you know anything about this?

It is…kind of cute, I guess.

[hextech-workaholic]

I may have, eh, gotten a little bored with some scraps at some point. Perhaps. And then misplaced the, eh, consequences of that boredom.

...it was perhaps not intended to find its way off of my desk.

[jayceofprogress]

Huh. What…does it do, exactly? Apart from looking cute.

I probably shouldn’t have been surprised it was one of yours. After all, I can see the resemblance. Ha!

[hextech-workaholic]

Jayce, are you telling me I look like a bug?

As for what it does...not much, actually. Mostly that. It...moves. And gets lost.

[jayceofprogress]

Which one of you and vik invented this beauty

The…Hexbug?

I didn’t authorize this. If I had, you’d be able to tell; it’d have my smithing mark stamped on it. @hextech-workaholic, do you know anything about this?

It is…kind of cute, I guess.

[hextech-workaholic]

I may have, eh, gotten a little bored with some scraps at some point. Perhaps. And then misplaced the, eh, consequences of that boredom.

...it was perhaps not intended to find its way off of my desk.

[hextech-workaholic]

Ever thought of getting a tattoo?

I did once briefly consider getting some related to the work Jayce and I are doing, about a year or so into our research together. It was sort of an absent-minded idea, I never nailed down any specifics. Perhaps a rune or something. Ultimately I decided there were better uses for the money, and I wasn't sure how my body would take to suddenly have to heal a tattoo, even if small. But it was a fun, sentimental idea for a brief time.

Perhaps if things had lined up just right I would have. But eh, I do not believe I will be revisiting the idea anytime soon, unfortunately.

[hextech-workaholic]

Hi viktor how are you feeling? Do you have e any health concerns we should know about

I am perfectly fine, to the degree I always have been. Thank you for asking.