Rediscovering myself, I guess?
I’m still not sure where I am at this moment. I really don’t know, i’m lost. Maybe it’s because this all new to me? No one gave a lecture or a primer on how this all should be handled and up until now I don’t know where to start. But I’m tired, of being strong, of taking things with a stride.. I want to feel the pain. I want to cry and let my emotions envelope my personality, my mood. Let it swallow me whole, only then I think, I would know what to do.
Its not that I do not want to cry, nor am i stopping myself from doing so (Or maybe my subconscious does?) Its the fact that I don’t know how. To connect with my feelings- with my vulnerable side. I think I lost it.
And now I am lost, with no idea where to go, what to do or where I am. But i know im lost, I just have to find myself. Rediscover who I am and what I am capable of. Idk, mindless ramblings. I hope I made sense. Or maybe my not making sense right now is what gave sense to all of these. Maybe.



















