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Death

The day before yesterday, I lost my grandfather. Death I would say is something that I am uncomfortably familiar with, as it has come to me in many forms. From the grandparents who raised me, to my best friend, aunt, and uncles, I am no stranger to losing people I love. It has stolen people away from me like a thief in the night without any warning. It has also arrived as an expected visitor, its…

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Hello! I hope everyone is doing well. I decided writing this little blog post while juggling between writing articles, decluttering the mess that is my bedroom and trying (emphasis on trying) to establish a consistent workout routine because honestly being kept under lockdown was getting to me.

Yes, I know I might seem self-centred for feeling this way. People have lost their lives, there are…

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Immortality

The secret to immortality, is something most don’t share. It is simply to fall in love with an artist and watch them keep you alive.

What they don’t tell you is this.

The touch of your hands is forever ingrained in stone. Reminiscent of calluses and old scars. Weathered away by a mysterious past.

You are sculpted into a masterpiece Even putting the great David to shame.

You are scribbled on…

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One day someone is going to fall in love with you. And they will love you no matter the circumstances. They will love you through the good and bad.

They will love you when the sun shines and when the clouds are heavy with rain. They will love you unconditionally.

When the right person comes along, you will truly know love.

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I was the moon. Always

shadowed by another, hidden

in the clouds, never true to myself.

And you were the sun.

Brilliant and bright.

I did not deserve you.

I was the sun. Constant and

consistent, always doing what

was expected of me. Never

putting myself first.

And you were the moon.

Beautiful and breathtaking.

I could not stop staring.

We were light years apart, but I

knew that without you I was

nothing. And the entire

universe knew that too.

Because slowly and surely

gravity brought me closer to

you and we stopped loving one

another from afar.

You are the moon and I am the

sun tied together till the world

is cleaved apart.

[Forewarning: This is a piece I wrote when I realised that 2018 was good to me. ]

Saying goodbye to 2018 is bittersweet. It was tough I will give you that, but 2018 taught me one thing. That no matter what, through all the battles I’ve won and lost, I am still here. Happier than I’ve ever been.

Family is the most important thing I’ll ever have. My family that has come with blood we share and the family I made through life. To every single person, I consider family. I love you to the stars and beyond. Thank you for not giving up on me when I had given up on everything.

I have fallen in love and I have broken my heart. I have laughed till my heart has been content and I have cried my lungs out. I have done so many things and I have so much more to do.

I closed a chapter in my life by leaving school and saying goodbye to everything familiar and opened a new one by starting to work. And I’m still learning so much. It was a year of firsts for me.

I made friends that I genuinely really like, I can be myself around them and we more or less share similar interests so I can go gaga about books with (and isn’t that the most important thing?).

I wrote a book! Yes, maybe it was just on Wattpad and only has 9 chapters, but I did it. I put myself out there and left a piece of my heart out for strangers I don’t know. I wrote a book putting in my heart,my blood, my sweat and tears.

I have met people that have made me more confident than I’ve ever felt. So a sincere thank you to them. I have let go of people from my life and I’m sorry that it took so long to realise that I didn’t need you any longer in my life.

I learnt that you can fall in love with the wrong person no matter how perfect they seem. I learnt that no matter how you want something it won’t magically appear at your side, you have to go after it. I have learnt there are only a few people you can trust to stay by your side and the fewer they are the better cause you get hurt less.

I can genuinely say that I’m happier than I have ever been. Yes, 2018 was hard but nothing ever comes easier. I am proud of who I am today and nobody can take that away from me.

Because for the longest time I did not like the person I saw in the mirror. My happy moments fleeting and the sad ones long. It is kind of upsetting when you think long on it. That in my short 18 years of life I was more sad than happy. Always confused as to why we call life a gift. Yet at this moment when I reflect, the person I was yesterday was not who I am today.

Today as I look around at the family I’ve made and the life I am living, I am so thankful. Thankful that 2018 was good to me.