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Asal-asalan

Kamu tahu?

aku suka menulis puisi, atau mengirimkan rangkaian kata aneh,

tidak, aku tidak sepintar itu,

aku cuma asal-asalan,

aku cuma pura-pura,

supaya rasa sedih ku terlihat indah dimata orang,

dan kamu,

supaya kamu tidak mengerti kalau aku sedang sedih.

(Elsa, 2018, baru sadar tidak bisa menulis)

Pura-pura Lupa

Katanya, kalau ada masalah, kau pura-pura lupa saja

aku sekarang sedang pura-pura lupa,

pura-pura lupa kalau aku baik-baik saja,

pura-pura lupa kalau aku harus pura-pura lupa,

eh,

jadi bagaimana?

aku salah?

iya, memang,

tapi aku kali ini tidak pura-pura lupa kalau aku sedang pura-pura.

(Elsa, 2018, mengantuk)

I’m dying,  yet dying refuse to be me  then what? I’m survive

Elsa

#survive #survivor #my words #spoken word #thoughts

Naked

You said you have seen her naked as she took her clothes off. I wanna know then. Tell me about her scars, I wanna know why she hates promises, tell me Tell me about her dad, I wanna know why she didnt believe in family, tell me Tell me about her favorite smell, I wanna know why she didnt like coffee, tell me Tell me why she chose to stay alive You cant? Oh, well, you have not seen her naked. You just saw her body. You do not know her at all. -Me, as I am, Elsa.

#naked #my body #my rights #body #women

Papa💘

Dad, can you explain what is hurt? I'm in a lot of pain. Then, what is pain? I know, you will never strong enough to tell me what hurt is or what pain is. Because, I know, you're also in a lot of pain. So, I will tell you first. Hurt is when I started to realize that we are not in the same house anymore. You are not here anymore, but many miles away. Hurt is when we only meet once a year or twice in a year, not everyday. Hurt is when I only have 10-20 days to tell you about all my life stories. Hurt is when I remember I could have everyday to tell you about all my stories. Hurt is when 365 days are not enough. I'm in a lot of pain, because I need you more than 365 days. I need you "everyday". I'm in a lot of pain, because the distance tends to keep us apart. Suddenly, I remember your voice when you said "When will you visit me? I miss you more than much. Don't you miss me?" Remembering that voice, I begin to cry. I wipe away a tear and trying to be OK. I envy your new family. They should be grateful for having you in their life. And I miss you. More than every second. And forever. -Your (always) little girl.

#daddy #father #daughter #letters #daddysgirl #daddyslittlegirl #poetry #poem #daddysdaughter #fatherhood

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#vscoph #vsco #vscocam #beachday #beach #beachlife #beachvibes #summer #summervibes

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May Kyliejenner be with me. Amen😜😂 . . . #makeupbyme #selfie #selfiemadness #kyliejenner #kyliejenneronduty #makeup #happyholiday #guegabisabobo #guelaper

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TDD. Teman Dorong Dorongan. . . . #vscocam #vsco #peopleintrolly #anakhastag #panaslohsumpah #trollylife #streetfashion #streetphotography #streetstyle #stretchmarks #jualpeninggibadan #jualwakdoyok (at Yogyakarta)