Shigaraki doesnât do outsiders or new people unless itâs an absolutely pivotal part of his plan to dismantle hero society, so if youâre his youâve always been his. Whether that be because you were another of All For Oneâs protĂ©gĂ©s or someone he met before he knew what it truly meant to be a villain, you were always there. And he was drawn to you by sheer human instinct. There was no plan or ulterior motive and in hindsight it almost annoys him.
Youâre a constant in the every evolving line up of the League. Yes, Kurogiri is also kept around, but itâs because Shigarakiâs plan necessitates a constant and near instantaneous mode of transportation. He has yet to find a place for you to fit perfectly into his grand scheme, but heâs too selfish to do away with you as he has with so many others. With a Quirk like his it wouldnât be hard to make you disappear almost without a trace.
Because of his inability to get rid of you, Shigaraki has taken to referring to you as his Player 2 which had seemed like an odd video game reference at first, until you realized it was his attempt at giving you a meaningful pet name that wasnât a nuisance to say in front of others. Shigaraki denies its meaning as a term of endearment, stating that it only makes sense as heâs Player 1 and youâre the only member of the Leagueâhonorary or notâthat comes close to his rank.
He finds you devotion to him to be something meant to be tested. You can say you trust him wholeheartedly until your voice is gone and heâll still do things in an attempt to provoke the so-called truth out of you. He knows having a pretty face is something of value in society and has developed a habit of holding your face in his hands, pointer fingers only a hairâs breadth away from your skin. He wants to mutilate you to the point that you understand he could hurt you if he wanted to. Never once does he seem to factor in the fact that once heâs touched you nothing short of cutting off your head will stop his Quirkâs effect, so youâd die either way.
Itâs probably because he doesnât actually want to hurt you. Shigaraki is big on shock and awe campaigns to assert his dominance. Like the first attack at the USJ building when he first unveiled his League using expendable lackeys. He didnât put all his eggs in one basket for a reason. Probably the same reason heâs managed to keep such good control over his own erratic Quirk even though youâre always in close proximity; it isnât a part of his plan.
Planning is important to Shigaraki and if just one thing is misaligned in execution, then everything goes sideways. Even if it was only a minor hiccup that barely stalled the situation, Shigaraki will become manic in his obsession over the minuscule error, misconstruing everything in his mind until it seems like everything has gone south at the smallest of inconveniences. Usually he scratches at his neck to soothe himself, as the small burst of pain help him focus, but if you cover the already irritated areas with your hands he always regained enough focus to not turn them to dust.
Your relationship is more instinctually driven than a normal coupleâs would be simply because youâre not a normal couple. A life in relative isolation with only media to base your perceptions off of has led to both of you acting as archetypes of certain partners. With Shigaraki being the typical cynical realist thatâs in control at all times, except when it comes to their significant other. Because while he rarely speaks to you, heâs constantly in your vicinity; sitting next to you, shoulders touching, sometimes even leaning his head against you if heâs in a particularly vulnerable mood, but only if youâre already asleep.
Shigaraki is a touched starved man and often gets frustrated when heâs reminded that he canât touch you. It usually results in more than a few things being disintegrated while you sleep peacefully, unaware that your lover just wants to hold you. Kurogiri has witnessed more than one of his bossâ fits of rage and went out of his way to buy special, two-fingered gloves meant for graphic tablets.
The first time he touched you, the two of you were completely alone. He hadnât wanted anyone to witness what he might do, whether or not the gloves were successful in protecting you. His foresight was well-worth it because Shigaraki began to cry the moment his hand touched yours, he didnât notice until you wiped his tears away and promised that you were okay. He hadnât hurt you.
Though Shigaraki isnât talkative outside of absolute necessityâat least in public because he doesnât enjoy socializing with his lemmings, especially the Stain followersâhe makes an effort to show you that he cares for you in the best way his stunted emotions allows him to. What may seem like a simple gesture to others means the world to the two of you; like pausing a movie when you couldâve easily let it play or him allowing you to play as Player 1, however rarely.
Because Shigaraki has a naturally low sex drive intimate moments between the two of you are usually smaller instances of skinship. Shigaraki has a newfound fixation with your hands now that he can touch you and often presses them to his face. Not exactly in the same place as Father, but having you touch him is soothing when heâs in a sour mood.
Shigaraki will never tell you he loves you even if you say it every once in a while. Part of it is due to maintaining his superiority complex and in part due to the fact that heâs not even sure if he loves you. Thereâs no denying that thereâs an emotional connection between the two of you, but Shigaraki isnât quite sure which feelings are classified as love. Heâll accept your words, but isnât in any position to return them. At least, not yet.
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