Monstrous Existence

Trans. Lesbian. Butch. Dyke. Appalachian. Call me Sable.

[thefiresontheheight]

A Subtle Thievery of Demons beta readers wanted!

AKA "if a demon-summoning Catholic girl's school yuri novel sounds good then boy do I have good news."

THE PITCH

Kenning Panganiban is trying her best. She really is. When she was a kid she was trouble, yes, got arrested, nearly killed someone, but she's better now! A rich dad she never met is paying for her to go to a private school, she's working two-jobs, she's trying to keep up her grades, and she's trying to not disappoint her mom again. Yes, she's tired, yes, the college is Christian and she's not, yes, the headaches are constant, but if she can keep her head down, not be noticed, then she might just be able to get by. Except for Elise D'Aboutage.

Elise is, literally, the worst. A rich church girl with a grudge, for literally no reason. And, one day, when the bullying gets too much, and a strange grimoire ends up in her possession, Kenning slips up, is bad one last time. It should be nothing but instead Kenning, out of luck, summons the brattiest demon the world has ever known and, even worse for her headache, is stuck with A Subtle Thievery of Demons until Elise's life is ruined and the rich girl expelled. But if she gets through this without snapping she'll be good again. She promises.

WHAT IS IT

An 89,000 words romantasy story of trans and cis dykes and demons trying and mostly failing to communicate and deal with their emotions. That I am looking for readers to give feedback on, and help improve. In other words, I hope you'll beta read this, let me know what you like or don't like, and help me make it better!

WHERE CAN I READ THIS

Right here and right now, dear reader!

Thank you so much and feel free to reblog and share this, if you like. Much appreciate the time!

[thefiresontheheight]

A woman not shaving or wearing a dress or wearing makeup or wearing femme clothes or having styled or long hair or caring how she looks or using a masc name or whatever else is actually a neutral thing and not a sign of her being depressed or giving up or being sad or whatever

[thefiresontheheight]

This is true if she’s normal or cis btw, regardless, still neutral.

[thefiresontheheight]

I swear to fuckin god if you see this post and think “ah yes, unlike trans women who fetishize feminity” go fuck yourself this was made by a trans women. Also I swear to fuckin god if you see this post and god “but I love being femme it’s gender affirming to me” this post was made by a enby and maybe fuckin ask if it’s not about you.

[thefiresontheheight]

Oh my godddddddd I hate this I hate this post I made to vent about me (butch) (transfem) (faggot) (dyke) getting talked at about style. Dear God.

[thefiresontheheight]

I’m going on a vacation end of the month whatever shape that takes. And I help run a five day a week distro and a once a week on a different day distro and contribute to two other distros for a total of 7-8 a week and I am sorry, I truly am. I think doing this may hurt people if other folks aren’t able to step up and keep things going while I’m gone. But if I don’t so this I’m gonna break down and then it’ll happen anyway with less of a warning so…you know, I’m taking the break.

[poetrylesbian]

good news everyone

[hal-monitor]

✨⚾️ BASEBALL YURI ⚾️✨

[thefiresontheheight]

I met the love of my life on here. I'm sure there's someone for you.

I’m gay married and want a second partner lmao. Or failing that someone to sincerely shoot their shot ya know.

[thefiresontheheight]

Would it kill someone to make the first move with me?

[prokopetz]

Look, I get what you're saying, but sometimes you've gotta reach for the low-hanging fruit. Let's get you a proper meal, refill your meds, and unfuck your living space as best we're able; if after that you still want cute girls to kill you with axes, you'll be in a much better physical and mental place to pursue that goal.

[shadedwillow]

ok google how do i propose deeper friendship and intimacy to my mutuals without feeling like a pervert predator

[shadedwillow]

hey. can we DM? do you want a voice message? do you want to see a picture of my face? do you wanna call? do you wanna get off on call with me? do you wanna consider us friends? do you wanna share secrets? do you wanna hint vaguely at where we both live to gauge how far we are from each other? do you wanna meet? do you wanna hang out? do you wanna fuck? do you wanna hold hands and kiss? does this make me creepy? is this too far? do you wanna kill me. i'm really sorry

[zyrkon01]

[thefiresontheheight]

A woman not shaving or wearing a dress or wearing makeup or wearing femme clothes or having styled or long hair or caring how she looks or using a masc name or whatever else is actually a neutral thing and not a sign of her being depressed or giving up or being sad or whatever

[thefiresontheheight]

This is true if she’s normal or cis btw, regardless, still neutral.

[thefiresontheheight]

I swear to fuckin god if you see this post and think “ah yes, unlike trans women who fetishize feminity” go fuck yourself this was made by a trans women. Also I swear to fuckin god if you see this post and god “but I love being femme it’s gender affirming to me” this post was made by a enby and maybe fuckin ask if it’s not about you.

[thefiresontheheight]

God the notes on that post about women not having to shave or doll it up are all so fcking rancid

[thefiresontheheight]

Feministly, online: Many depictions of women adventurers, heroes, warriors and protagonists across fantasy fiction has been extremely demeaning in that Frank Frazetta/Boris Vallejo way. Lesbianly, in private: GOD wearing a bikini chainmail in a lovingly rendered oil painting is such a look.

[slowlikehoney1996]

If your lover lives in Hong Kong and cannot get to Chicago, it will be necessary for you to go to Hong Kong. Perhaps you will spend your life there, and never see Chicago again. And you will, I assure you, as long as space and time divide you from anyone you love, discover a great deal about shipping routes, airlines, earthquake, famine, disease, and war. And you will always know what time it is in Hong Kong, for you love someone who lives there. And love will simply have no choice but to go into battle with space and time and, furthermore, to win.

James Baldwin, Nothing Personal

[dogglegog]

dominant things you can say during sex

i didnt hear what you said

hold on i need to blow my nose

wow

i feel kind of nauseous

is this anything

i don't know

this kind of reminds me of that one song

we can probably ignore that noise if you want to

why is my sock wet

it smells bad in here

that was weird

where are my glasses

ow

this is normal

sorry

just 2 chill people chilling

this is cool

can you say that again

are we good

youre actually naked

[ironmyrmidon]

When the AI bubble pops, the demand for computing power will fall much more quickly than the supply. For a brief window, we will have an amazing digital surplus.

[hemipenal-system]

"why when someone mentions trans butches is it always transmasc butches? why are there never any transfem butches" well you also post about how you think all masculinity is toxic masculinity so if i'm being honest i think you probably treat transfem butches like shit and they don't like interacting with you

[hemipenal-system]

“what’s with the endless talk about he/him transmasc butches but there’s never the same for transfem butches” well see it’s actually the same reason there’s seemingly a dearth of AMABed nonbinary people! it’s because you treat them like fucking dogshit!

everyone in the trans community, including way too many trans women who call themselves transfeminists, plays this funny little game where if you’re transfemme you have to look as close to being a cis woman as possible and if you don’t it means you have internalized transmisogyny or you’re idolizing transmisogynistic caricatures. there’s “no” transfem butches because if you want to be masculine and transfem, you simultaneously have to deal with all the people who think you’re a predatory man and all the people who think you only want to be butch because you don’t understand your gender and the way it’s oppressed well enough.

it’s harder to find masculine trans women because being a masculine trans woman fucking sucks. ask me how i know this

[letterful]