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cursed child (2)

Summary: when the blessed one crosses paths with the cursed one, their lives are suddenly intertwined in all the best and worst ways possible.

Genre: angst, 18+, romance, a bit of enemies to lovers, frenemies, gojo x fem!reader.

series warnings: profanity, adultery, smut, commitment issues, mentions of harm, violence, harassment, misogyny , manga spoilers.

There will be mature themes and a major manga spoilers so please dni if you are a minor or have not read the manga.

TW: mentions of abuse, blood, and torture this chapter.

chapter 2

You thought things were going well. This morning you had a little hiccup when you broke down but then again, who doesn't ?

So far on this journey you had saved Tengens vessel, who you now knew as Riko, right at the start from Q soldiers. She really had people coming for her head and yet when you looked at her there was nothing but a smile on her face. Here you are, waiting to escort this young girl to the end of her normal life and yet all that's laced on her face is a fake smile that she has perfected.

You took a liking to Riko, so when she asked to be taken to school you vouched for her. Much to Geto’s amusement and Gojo’s annoyance, Yaga sensei shared your sentiment and agreed that Riko should be able to enjoy school for the moment.

You stood outside the school a bit away from everyone. You couldn’t help but try to envision yourself in Riko’s position as you overheard Geto and Kuroi speaking on the matter.

“Lady Riko does not have any relations,” Kuroi explained, “ When she was younger her family was involved in an accident…. Since then I've been her caretaker. So please at least let her spend time with her frie-”

“So that makes you her family then.” Geto sympathized.

You perked up hearing this. The topic of family has never really meant much to you. Your family was ashamed of you and ended their lives because of it. Looking back at your ancestors, you couldn’t help but feel out of place and even a little uncomfortable when the topic came up. In a way you envied Riko for being able to have someone as caring as Kuroi by her side.

What you knew was violence, growing up after your family died, the jujutsu higher up’s decided to raise you at the school. Most of your memories are fuzzy, you really can’t remember anything before the age of 5 due to the amount of beatings and the torture you had been exposed to, they called it “theraputic” to suppress the cursed eyes true power. The end goal was to use you as a weapon, their weapon, a cursed tool essentially.

The cursed eyes when paired with the Kaneko clan’s cursed singing technique has the ability to weaken the six eyes user almost to the point of immobility, almost.

The legend goes as follows, your ancestor Ren Kaneko was the partner of Ryomen Sukuna believe it or not. He was so enamoured with not only their technique but Ren herself, you aren’t very sure how but he was able to enhance her and thus she was given the cursed eyes. Together they ruled and even had a family of their own. Ren eventually betrayed Sukuna and teamed up with the 3 clans and used her abilities to immobilize him, without her they would not have been able to succeed in defeating him. However, even though Ren contributed to his defeat, she had shed just as much blood as he did and therefore was banished. The Kaneko clan lived in the shadows of jujutsu society, hoping that one of their members would never inherit the cursed eyes, you could only imagine the disgust shown on their faces when you were born.

“Y/n!” You look up from your thoughts to see Geto with a worried look on his face.

“ We got company, you and Satoru head over to Riko.”

You look over to where you last saw Gojo only to see that he did not wait for you.

“Seriously ?!” You yell at him while you run over.

“I recall only agreeing to babysit the kid, not you too, so keep up y/n,” he teased.

“Well I don't recall giving you permission to call me by my first name.” You respond.

You see him smirk, but never looking at you as you run towards the double doors leading to Riko.

Despite your upbringing, you were patient.

Gojo Satoru was testing said patience.

Not only was he not a team player, at least with you he wasn't, but his lack of empathy in some situations was a lot, even for you, and now was one of those times.

Not only had you all just figured out Riko had a bounty on her head like 10 minutes ago, but Kuroi was taken. Despite your powers, you still hold anxiety when put into situations like this. You didn’t care about your own life, you were expendable. Someone like Kuroi however was not, and seeing Gojo and Riko go at it made your chest ache, especially when you saw the way her knuckles turned white from her gripping her skirt. You placed your hand over hers and looked into her eyes.

“I- It'll all be okay, everyone just calm down, we should be getting a call from the kidnappers soon right?”

You look over to Geto who gives you a nod and with it, a smile.

You feel your cheeks heat up a bit and look back at Riko and do your best to imitate the smile Geto gave you hoping it reassures her.

“If the kidnappers are smarter than we thought...” You both look up once you hear Gojo speak, “... And if taking you means that Kuroi’s chances of survival decrease, we’re gonna leave you behind.”

“Understood!”

You looked at Riko who looked like her flame was just ignited, she looked at you and gave you a smile while still holding her hand, this time it wasn’t a fake one.

You had never traveled before.

You had never been anywhere other than Jujutsu tech and the Zen’in estate.

So when Kuroi was rescued and Gojo had suggested that you all take a day to go to the beach, you couldn’t help but panic.

Riding a plane earlier this morning for the first time was already pushing your limits. Geto had offered to hold your hand during the ride which you gladly accepted as you were having a literal panic attack, all while Gojo was planning a trip itinerary as if this was a vacation. As you were trying to control your breathing however you couldn't help but notice that his eyes were stuck on your hands that were entwined with Geto’s.

“ Y/n you’re stuck in your thoughts againnnn” Riko whined as she looked at you with puppy eyes.

“Lady Riko she probably isn’t feeling too well from the flight this morning and then having to come save me, I thank you again Kaneko- san.” Kuroi said as she bowed.

“No no! I’m sorry you were taken in the first place Kuroi, and I’m also sorry if it seems like my mind keeps wandering. I am a bit nervous since it’ll be my first time at the beach.” You say as you browse the racks of bikinis. After getting Kuroi back you all realized that you didn’t pack for the beach since it was a last minute stop. So Riko suggested you all go shopping beforehand.

“Y/n this would look so good on you!”

You look over and see Riko holding a thin black bikini, instinctively you pull up your school uniform. You had seen women wearing bikinis in magazines in the Zen’in estate or on Tv the rare times that you were permitted to watch. To see one in person is a bit intimidating.

“Riko, I think it would suit you more, especially with this hat.” You put the hat over her head as it covers her eyes and you both laugh as Kuroi watches fondly.

“Y/n I was wondering how come you don’t really speak much in front of those two idiots.” Riko grinned.

You laugh, “Those two are idiots aren't they?” You say looking out the window of the store. You see Geto and Gojo sitting on a bench bickering about something as they wait for the three of you.

“ For a very long time I was alone, “ you say, still looking through the racks of clothes, “ I had only met those two a day ago, it felt like I was intruding on their lives if I'm being honest. I don't have many good experiences with Jujutsu sorcerers so I prefer to keep my guard up around them. So far though, Geto has shown me nothing but encouragement and kindness and even respect, and you Riko have shown me what resilience and hope can look like, so thank you.” You say and stop when you see a high neck bikini top. You only turn when you hear sniffling coming from behind you only to see Riko tearing up.

“Y/N! You can't just say that !” She runs towards you and takes your hands, “ I am so happy to have met you y/n!” She looks out the window again and turns back to meet your eyes.

“What about the idiot with the glasses ?” she laughs.

You look out the window of the boutique to look at Gojo. During this entire mission you really haven't interacted much with him. When you did have interactions they were very minor. Being around him reminded you of the past that you keep trying to forget, in a way though, he saved you whether you like to admit it or not. If you had been born before him you would have been killed on sight with no hesitation. You are a tool only alive for the purpose of keeping him in check if it ever gets to that point.

However, what you have observed is that he is self centered, nonchalant, blunt, but most of all complex. At times he can show respect, especially towards Geto and you can't help but wonder if this detour to the beach wasn't just a “it’s right there so we might as well” type thing or could it be that he actually did this for Riko’s sake?

“I think he’s a bit complicated.” was the only answer you could give the younger girl who looked up at you.

Looking up you couldn't help the tightening in your chest when you notice that he too is looking directly at you.

You never really thought much of life.

You didn’t ever think there would be much of a life to experience due to your situation. You thought you were going to be locked up or eventually executed, things like trips to the beach had not ever crossed your mind and yet here you are. The ocean breeze felt like serenity, you had no idea what to do, for the first time in your life you weren't on edge. You picked an area in the sand and sat down running the sand through your fingers and looking out into the vast beautiful ocean.

“It's just like he said it would be.” you mumbled to yourself.

“Like who said what?” You perk up and look at who the voice belonged to.

“Oh I thought You and Riko were running around looking for little sea animals?” You inquired as he took a seat next to you in the sand. Looking at him, you couldn't help but feel that feeling in your chest tightening when you noticed how the sun reflected and showed off his eyes. What is this ? you think while bringing a hand to your heart.

“I got tired of chasing her, so she, suguru, and kuroi went to start building a sand castle, we’re staying in okinawa tonight and heading back to the school tomorrow by the way.” adjusting his sunglasses to better protect his eyes as he laid back in the sand, “but what were you mumbling about before ? “

“Oh it was nothing” you brought your knees up to your chest feeling dumb. You didn't know how to feel about Gojo. Was he your enemy or comrade? In a sense he was both, in another sense he was neither.

“You know,” he says, still laid back, “We’re at the end of the line here and yet the only thing i know about you is that you have the cursed eyes which i have yet to see in battle, it seems like you don't want to use them huh?”

How could you argue with the truth? The cursed eyes activate on your command but you still have a long way to go before you can use it’s full potential. At times they can activate due to high levels of emotion and that's why it’s so important for you to be able to control your breathing. All those beatings and torture you endured in your childhood was to test your ability to suppress the activation of the cursed eyes. When they do activate, it’s like having the devil and angel on your shoulder, it takes over your whole soul and you need to have the mental strength to be able to always come out of it. Sometimes in certain situations you don't fully trust yourself or the people around you to be able to help if things go wrong.

“When I was younger….” you hesitate before finally opening up, “I'm sure you're aware of where i've been and why i was put on this mission Gojo.”

You look over at him, as he’s still lying in the sand and he raises his hands and gives a clap. “Now we’re getting somewhere, I'm not fully aware of where you were before this point but I do know that those old geezers finally let you out so you could be their watchdog right?” He says showing his clear dislike and distrust in not only the higher ups but in you.

“As rude as you are, I can't argue with you there.” You force out a sad laugh.

Even though he lacks trust, he can't help but sit up and look at you as if motioning for you to continue.

So you do.

You explained the painful horrendous crimes you succumbed to at the hands of the higher ups. Throughout your story you see his hands clenching but continue anyway. You were a survivor and yet still a prisoner not only in your own mind but in the real world. You knew you were powerful but lacked the confidence someone like Gojo had to use their abilities. You have also been locked up since you were a child, if you ever did try to go against the higher ups orders, you had nothing. No leverage, no support system, and no renowned clan to back you up. If anything they would probably send Gojo for your head and he knew this.

“Why did they send you to the zen’in estate?” he questioned not meeting your eyes but rather looking out at the ocean.

You avoided going into detail about it when you were telling him your story but you should've known that he would catch on. You bring your hand up to your throat and close your eyes. He notices and scoots towards you but still keeping a distance.

“You don't have to tell m-”

“No... no it's okay... I'm okay.” You say opening your eyes and looking out into the sea, you look at the waves crashing into each other and look over at Gojo’s face, you can’t help but see curiosity and a bit of worry mixed into it. The ocean breeze fills your senses and you’re brought back into your thoughts.

“I wasn't meeting their expectations, I couldn't control my emotions enough to not awaken the cursed eyes. When I awaken them on command it’s easier to just turn it off, like a switch. But when they are awakened unexpectedly by pure emotions it gets difficult to control. I-”

“So they fucking abuse a kid and wonder why you cant control your emotions?!” he spat.

He knew the higher ups were unbelievable, but to think that this was what they were doing behind closed doors made him feel an unbelievable amount of anger. He was pulled out of his thoughts when he felt a hand on his. Satrou had lived a pretty privileged life, from the moment he was born all eyes were on him. He had notoriety, he scared adults as a child just with a glance in their direction, he was untouchable and he was strong and yet here you are. You suffered from his very existence and yet you’re the one trying to show him comfort.

You pull your hand away once his eyes are on yours and you feel your cheeks heat up a bit. You knew he disliked the way the higher ups decided things in jujutsu society but the hatred emitting from him was on another level.

“Sorry , you can continue..” He said, looking away.

“No it’s okay, um so yes I wasn't meeting their expectations so they thought sending me to the Zen’in estate would toughen me up….” You go quiet and in return this time it’s Gojo’s hand that's being placed on yours. You look up to see that he isn't looking in your direction but rather at the sun that'll be setting soon. Your chest tightened but it gave you the courage to continue.

“I spent a month there, it was no different from the way the higher ups did things, it was the same abuse but the difference was the higher ups knew when to stop.” You take a deep breath and look over at your hands that were entwined with Gojo’s. “The zen’ins couldn't understand why at the time i couldn't pair my cursed singing technique with my eyes yet, they got frustrated so they decided to put me in a sparring match with some members of their clan.” you whince recalling the memory. At only 8 years old you were up against 10 grown and highly trained jujutsu sorcerers, you had no chance and they knew it, you were fucked from the start. The moment you were born your life was cursed, your life was not your own.

“i...i..i obviously lost and when i did my p-punishment was-” You let go of Gojo’s hand and brought it to your throat. You couldn't help the tears that fell as you tried to breathe. The painful memory of your throat being slashed, you recall the pain, the desperation, and the helplessness as you laid in your own blood waiting for your life to end, hoping that it would so you wouldn't have to go through this misery of a life anymore. Your heart hammered in your chest and you couldn't help but hyperventilate, the pain was too much to bear.

You’re brought back into the present when you hear his voice call your name, “y/n!”

You open your eyes and see Gojo inches from you and his hands are on either side of your face. Your breathing is rapid, he’s trying to speak but the ringing in your ears won't let you hear him. The pain in your chest is still prevalent, your breathing erratic, the tears cascading down your face. Your hands rush to cover your throat that you now notice has been exposed, did he pull the high neck down a bit?! Did he do it to help me breathe a bit? Wait no my scar! He’ll see it, everyone will!

The panic you were feeling in your throat was insurmountable. It isn't until he took off his glasses and looked into your eyes that your breathing faltered. The painful memories of your past abuse that have been spiraling in your head for years finally come to a halt. All your focus is set on the gorgeous blue eyes paired with long beautiful lashes in front of you, you have glanced at them from afar but up close they have just taken your breath away. Pretty is all you can think. You took in a deep breath, your tears no longer for the pain and misery you had endured but instead are for the heavens that you see in his eyes.

You feel his thumbs wipe away your tears and suddenly you're conscious again of the situation and where you are. You turn away quickly cursing at yourself for pushing your boundaries too far. After a couple of minutes of silence, you calm down and cover your neck back up, you quickly realize that the atmosphere is now too uncomfortable. How could you let this happen? He planned this trip to give Riko a chance at being happy before her inevitable doom and here you are basking in your sorrows. You feel a hand under your chin bringing you around to meet his face once again. not able to meet his eyes again Your cheeks glow red from embarrassment from you unraveling, but it quickly dissipates when you hear,

“So you think I'm pretty?”

You’re dumbfounded.

You finally meet his gaze and see that obnoxious smirk across his face.

‘W-what?! Satoru are you-”

“Oh and I see we’re now on a first name basis, y/n.” He teased recalling what had happened the day prior.

Pretty? You said that in the comfort of your own mind, unless you were so out of it you said it out loud. You mentally curse yourself for giving this man an ego boost during a time where you are very vulnerable. You can't help but feel a twinge of anger at him for making a joke at this time. You're prepared to get up when he takes hold of your hand, you glance over at him only to find him staring straight ahead. You look in the direction and see that the sun is setting. The beautiful array of orange and pinks and even some purple riddle the sky.

“It won't happen again.” he said sternly, voice deep. The shift in his demeanor took you by surprise. You had only known this man for less than 2 days and yet the serious look on his face was something you never expected from him.

“What are you talking about?” You ask, he was just joking a moment ago, you thought.

“What they did to you. It won't happen again,” His grip on your hand tightens as the sun finally sets, ” I promise you.”

After you and satoru’s moment on the beach you two met up with the rest of the group and had dinner.

You never ate with a group of people before so for the majority of dinner you sat and just listened to Riko and Satoru’s banter. You looked around and noticed Geto and Kuroi laughing and couldn't help the warm sensation you had in your heart when you looked around the table. Seeing Riko throw a fit over Satoru adding spices to her food, made you laugh like you never had before. You never knew you could laugh this way, and neither did everyone else. You stopped when you noticed everyone looking at you.

“Y/n you have the prettiest freaking laugh i’ve ever heard!” Riko couldn't help her excitement at finally seeing you engage with everyone and not just her.

“I second that opinion” You turn to see geto giving you a smile. You blush at this gesture.

“Well if everyone’s done with their meals I have something else planned.” Satoru said grinning as geto gives him an irritated look. Riko can't help but scream in excitement as he announces that we’ll be going to the aquarium.

“Isn't that a big fish tank?” You inquire, this throws Riko and Gojo into a fit of laughter while Geto looks at you sympathetically.

“Essentially, yes it is Y/n. don't mind those two, they share one brain cell.” He says loud enough for them to hear. Right as he’s about to say more to them, everyone stops what they're doing once again when they hear your angelic laugh.

“I… i don't mind at all.” You give the most genuine smile to everyone and head over to the exit of the restaurant. Along with the gleam in his eyes, satoru can't help the warm feeling in his chest grow as he watches you walk away.

Fear raced through your heart when looking at the animals in the tanks

This is what's in our oceans?! Geto also informed you earlier that apparently only 5% of the ocean has been explored. Your new fear has been unlocked. Looking around, everyone seems to be off in their own worlds.

You wanted to go over and speak to Riko who looked beautiful in her black gown, but you decided against it when you realized she seemed to be in deep thought. You turn back and see your reflection in the fish tank, you opted to go for your usual turtleneck and layered a pinafore dress on top. Your eyes try to focus on the sharks swimming in front of you but you notice a tall figure standing behind you in the reflection. You turn to see Satoru looking down at you instead of looking at the sharks swimming around you two in their tanks. You both don't say a word to each other as satoru comes to stand by your side, you just watch the marine life in front of you, enjoying each other's company in silence. You glance over at him and the blue glow reflecting on his face from the water is a sight to see, so much so that you can't look away.

“You never told me how you got out of there, you don't have to finish, I’m just shocked that you survived.” His bluntness at this point wasn't a bother to you. You actually appreciated it.

“After the incident, I woke up later in a dark room, I obviously couldn't speak but there was someone else in there with me..” You smiled remembering the man who made you who you are today, your savior. You don't have many memories of him, you don't even remember his name, but he is the reason you survived the hell you endured in the zen’in estate.

“He helped me when I couldn't help myself, he told me stories about the woman he loved and wanted to marry once he got out of the zen’in estate. She sounded too good to be true. If I'm being honest, she seemed like such a wonderful woman so I strive to be like her.” No matter how hard you tried you couldn't hide your happiness when recalling these memories and satoru noticed this. He saw life come back into your eyes as you recalled those rare happy moments.

“He helped me get strong enough to the point where I was able to leave. I never saw him again though, come to think of it he never even really told me his name.” you sighed frustratingly. Looking over at Satoru you can see a hint of a smile and you didn't even notice that you two gravitated toward each other during the course of your story.

“Well, I do remember one thing about him though,” Satoru looks at you with curiosity in his eyes. You smile before looking back into the tank to see two sharks circling a fish, “It was dark but the few times I was able to see him, he did have a small scar on the corner of his mouth.”

Yay! I finally posted! I am very sorry it took so long and please excuse the spelling errors! This chapter was a lot of info and I am more than happy to answer any questions or theories you have! Thank you again for reading !

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