editing note:
this is a textless BT au!edit where buck and tommy talk it out and stay together ā all videos used were sourced from @zainclaw's BT scenes master list which you can find here.
P.S. on a very rare free day, I decided to dust off my long-neglected video editing muscles instead of writing my (less so but similarly neglected) fanfics, so apologies to any readers who might've been waiting on an update š« still sending much love -xoxoxo
sorry to all my followers that my recent posts have been very oof and not full of whimsy and sarcasm like a folklore accurate faerie of yore trying to figure out someoneās name
I think something that (still) pisses me off is that some people in the queer community are (weirdly) comfortable enough to joke about how people who are homophobic are probably themselves repressed homosexuals, but when it turns out to be true ā in some cases ā it immediately turns into contempt, derision, and the furthest thing from the kind of understanding that should come after
this is not talking about forgiveness, that is not expected nor should it be demanded, because it is up to each person if they can forgive whatever degree of hurt the offender had done
what Iām pulling focus to is the absolute refusal to even entertain the thought that that person in question was in a position where theyāre not *able* to āchooseā to ānot be homophobicā
that being homophobic, or rather, the things that made them a ābad personā, is part of their nature and not something that might have been the result of their circumstances and environment
if you canāt cope that those people deserve some form of acceptance too, or you āhaveā to make their journey of accepting themselves as difficult as possible because you believe they have to pass an imaginary bar to āredeemā themselves as if they had personally offended youā
Iām so sorry to say that youāre just mirroring, and perpetuating, the kind of issues queers face with close-minded people
youāre free to dislike them all you want according to your set of rules, but youāre not a ābetter queerā for disposing your judgement to someoneās actions
and more importantly, those people are not āwrongā nor are they ābad queersā for not ticking your personal checklist of queer behaviours
there isnāt a right choice between āstaying true to yourselfā and āhaving a roof over your headā because thatās the reality some people faced back then; thatās the reality some people face even now
one is not ābraverā, one is not ābetterā, theyāre both just āareā and it fucking pisses me off when fellow queers demonize others for it
write your damned character bashing fics but for the love of this fucking fandom, TAG it with the appropriate tags!
character bashing includes and is not limited to;-
bashing on a character
bashing a character's personality
making a character ooc for bashing purposes
"this is just my headcanon" and its bashing, tag it
"I needed a villain for the story" its still bashing, tag it
"they're not the focus" but they're being bashed? tag it
"it's in the notes/summary" you're a huge pile of shit, tag it
do you know how many times I've accidentally come across stucky fics that were not tony stark friendly? or winteriron fics that weren't steve rogers friendly? zero, the number is ZERO
for all the things that happened in the episode, I'm still stuck on why would the writers have harry of all people question why connor and kam would ask buck to be a donor
buck has been a pseudo brother to him all season and is practically half the reason why harry still has a good relationship with his own mother, it just makes no sense why'd they have harry cast the first doubts
even ravi would have been a better mouthpiece if the writers wanted to "tease" buck with the subtlety of a wrecking ball to teeth
it doesn't even come across as a "joke" with how they had harry phrase it, like he genuinely wondered why they asked buck of all people to be donor and ooooh I fear I am getting heated wtf
just to add on, but the show already went about the right way of asking "why" buck was chosen ā and that was with them NOT asking about it at all because it's none of their dang business why buck's friends wanted to ask buck to be the donor
it's RUDE to ask why! in ANY circumstances!
the only way you should ever know the reason behind the decision if the PARTIES INVOLVED divulged you the information itfp ffs
the chimney and buck scene should have been harry and buck btw
if they were gonna have harry be dumb about it and make a throwaway comment of being confused why buck got asked to be a donor they could have had harry "realize" that his pseudo-brother is one the best guys anyone could ask for as far as people go
like stay with me, we could have had this dialogue;
"actually, if the kid grew up to be buck 2.0, he'd be pretty badass too"
"maybe we can skip 2.0 and have him go straight to this version of me"
get it? cause buck and his software updates okay I'll stop now
for all the things that happened in the episode, I'm still stuck on why would the writers have harry of all people question why connor and kam would ask buck to be a donor
buck has been a pseudo brother to him all season and is practically half the reason why harry still has a good relationship with his own mother, it just makes no sense why'd they have harry cast the first doubts
even ravi would have been a better mouthpiece if the writers wanted to "tease" buck with the subtlety of a wrecking ball to teeth
it doesn't even come across as a "joke" with how they had harry phrase it, like he genuinely wondered why they asked buck of all people to be donor and ooooh I fear I am getting heated wtf
me telling all my multi-talented, incredibly gifted, amaze amaze amaze friends to please watch project hail mary so they can fuel me with their fanart, fanfics and edits
discourse below will focus on the writing, specifically writer intention, competency, subterfuge, and conflict resolution
my last post talked about how the lead writers (for the episode) had failed to offer an equally satisfying resolution/fix to the arguably problematic/toxic dialogue they wrote in previous episodes (that they were also the lead writers for), then I made an assumption that it was due to their inability, specifically I said:-
they are just that excellent at writing in genuine toxicity into the dialogue while simultaneously being so piss poor at writing an equally genuine fix to remedy the consequential āconflictā
but after thinking it over, there is an alternative in mind
assuming they are plenty competent (they got the job for a reason right?) to write a fix, they instead CHOSE not to do so - why?
contrary to my previous belief, if the writers hated buck, they would NOT have him be the subject of the toxicity, because as the fandom knows, a lot of people did not take kindly to "trials and tribulations" and the strays he caught during the dinner argument - the dialogue they wrote pushed a part of the fandom to defend buck
that would mean the one these writers were targeting instead turns to chimney and eddie
if they deliberately had both of them be in conflict with buck and wrote half-baked resolutions, then that begs another 'why'?
do they dislike the characters? or do they dislike the actors?
of course this all assumes that they are competent and had purposefully wrote the bare minimum to garner the least amount of empathy and sympathy for the toxicity the dialogue brought
absolutely necessary mention that I liked 9x15, just not thrilled about the whole episode either? also fair warning, my thoughts are a mess so this post will be too
to be clear, the discourse below will NOT be discussing buckās specific storyline this episode, rather will focus on the choice of dialogue and a critique on the writers
overall I liked the outcome*, from a narrative point it's a soft reboot/reminder of the firefam dynamics (whether itās earned is a different argument), but there were lines and scenes I was not particularly a fan of ā namely the buck and chim scene and that āchain of command" line again
to me, it felt like those two things in particular was written in only to address (or rather backtrack) their awful context back in 9x8 with the dinner fight, and just made it feel more performative with being all "see? chimney wouldn't actually fire buck", not to mention the way they were trying to make "chain of command" sound like a positive
and again, this is my opinion, it just ended up highlighting how bad the implications really was that they had to shoehorn some damage control for the dialogue they had written
which, by the by, even that is too generous to say ā cause let me tell you, there are probably hundreds of things Iād say a āchain of commandā actually was before Iād say itās āthe thing that ties us all together, so that no one person has to carry the weight aloneā
like wow, Iād say that almost counts as gaslighting with how far and away the definition went to
in fact, that line left such a familiar bad taste in my mouth that I had to look up if I recognized who the writers were for the episode (in case you didnāt know, different episodes have different lead writers) and you know what I found out?
not only are they the same people who wrote the dang dinner fight in the first place, they are the same people who were responsible for āthe trials and tribulations of evan buckleyā
with full offence intended, it was at that point I realized why I felt their attempt of course correcting buck and chimneyās dynamic felt a bit cheapā
they are just that excellent at writing in genuine toxicity into the dialogue while simultaneously being so piss poor at writing an equally genuine fix to remedy the consequential āconflictā
buck and chris playing cards is so important to me btw. buck being open and honest with christopher the way he always is, and chris responding very maturely! the fact that chris is able to find a way to empathise with buck, 'it sucks when they touch your stuff', the intersection between the way addicts and disabled people have their autonomy taken away. the way that chris clearly knows what's going on, because buck and eddie told him, because they're a family and they trust him with this, with something big and scary, because it's his buck, and he deserves to know.
listen listen listen, I ain't mad about the episode and that is what matters; a soft reboot/reminder of the firefam dynamic is something I can get behind
there is a quiet, screaming grief about giving up on being queer when you are a young person living in a town where even the whisper of a rumor might forfeit your life
how can you be alive when you cannot live as you are
what use is a space promised in the future for a life you already buried
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