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[hisbucky]

tag your character bashing

also also also fuck yall who be doing this kind of juvenile no tagging shit during pride month btw

like fyi “don’t like don’t read” only works if you put the tags so we can dni safely and properly losers

hope your future fic reading sesh is full of untagged tropes and kinks you abhor like I do yall

[kinardsevan]

if you ship bucktommy in any form, can you like/repost this?

I’m trying to see something.

[kinardsevan]

if you ship bucktommy in any form, can you like/repost this?

I’m trying to see something.

[hisbucky]

dni if didn’t read this whole thing

I think something that (still) pisses me off is that some people in the queer community are (weirdly) comfortable enough to joke about how people who are homophobic are probably themselves repressed homosexuals, but when it turns out to be true — in some cases — it immediately turns into contempt, derision, and the furthest thing from the kind of understanding that should come after

this is not talking about forgiveness, that is not expected nor should it be demanded, because it is up to each person if they can forgive whatever degree of hurt the offender had done

what I’m pulling focus to is the absolute refusal to even entertain the thought that that person in question was in a position where they’re not *able* to “choose” to “not be homophobic”

that being homophobic, or rather, the things that made them a “bad person”, is part of their nature and not something that might have been the result of their circumstances and environment

if you can’t cope that those people deserve some form of acceptance too, or you “have” to make their journey of accepting themselves as difficult as possible because you believe they have to pass an imaginary bar to “redeem” themselves as if they had personally offended you—

I’m so sorry to say that you’re just mirroring, and perpetuating, the kind of issues queers face with close-minded people

you’re free to dislike them all you want according to your set of rules, but you’re not a “better queer” for disposing your judgement to someone’s actions

and more importantly, those people are not “wrong” nor are they “bad queers” for not ticking your personal checklist of queer behaviours

there isn’t a right choice between “staying true to yourself” and “having a roof over your head” because that’s the reality some people faced back then; that’s the reality some people face even now

one is not “braver”, one is not “better”, they’re both just “are” and it fucking pisses me off when fellow queers demonize others for it

[hisbucky]

write your damned character bashing fics but for the love of this fucking fandom, tag it with the appropriate tags!

character bashing includes and is not limited to;-

bashing on a character

bashing a character's personality

making a character ooc for bashing purposes

"this is just my headcanon" and its bashing, tag it

"I needed a villain for the story" its still bashing, tag it

"they're not the focus" but they're being bashed? tag it

"it's in the notes/summary" you're a huge pile of shit, tag it

do you know how many times I've accidentally come across stucky fics that were not tony stark friendly? or winteriron fics that weren't steve rogers friendly? zero, the number is ZERO

TAG. YOUR. CHARACTER. BASHING.

have a good day

[hisbucky]

praise be detective athena

[hisbucky]

for all the things that happened in the episode, I'm still stuck on why would the writers have harry of all people question why connor and kam would ask buck to be a donor

buck has been a pseudo brother to him all season and is practically half the reason why harry still has a good relationship with his own mother, it just makes no sense why'd they have harry cast the first doubts

even ravi would have been a better mouthpiece if the writers wanted to "tease" buck with the subtlety of a wrecking ball to teeth

it doesn't even come across as a "joke" with how they had harry phrase it, like he genuinely wondered why they asked buck of all people to be donor and ooooh I fear I am getting heated wtf

[hisbucky]

just to add on, but the show already went about the right way of asking "why" buck was chosen — and that was with them NOT asking about it at all because it's none of their dang business why buck's friends wanted to ask buck to be the donor

it's RUDE to ask why! in ANY circumstances!

the only way you should ever know the reason behind the decision if the PARTIES INVOLVED divulged you the information itfp ffs

[hisbucky]

the chimney and buck scene should have been harry and buck btw

if they were gonna have harry be dumb about it and make a throwaway comment of being confused why buck got asked to be a donor they could have had harry "realize" that his pseudo-brother is one the best guys anyone could ask for as far as people go

like stay with me, we could have had this dialogue;

"actually, if the kid grew up to be buck 2.0, he'd be pretty badass too"

"maybe we can skip 2.0 and have him go straight to this version of me"

get it? cause buck and his software updates okay I'll stop now

[hisbucky]

for all the things that happened in the episode, I'm still stuck on why would the writers have harry of all people question why connor and kam would ask buck to be a donor

buck has been a pseudo brother to him all season and is practically half the reason why harry still has a good relationship with his own mother, it just makes no sense why'd they have harry cast the first doubts

even ravi would have been a better mouthpiece if the writers wanted to "tease" buck with the subtlety of a wrecking ball to teeth

it doesn't even come across as a "joke" with how they had harry phrase it, like he genuinely wondered why they asked buck of all people to be donor and ooooh I fear I am getting heated wtf

[hisbucky]

me telling all my multi-talented, incredibly gifted, amaze amaze amaze friends to please watch project hail mary so they can fuel me with their fanart, fanfics and edits

[hisbucky]

*keep reading for (minor?) 911 discourse*

discourse below will focus on the writing, specifically writer intention, competency, subterfuge, and conflict resolution

my last post talked about how the lead writers (for the episode) had failed to offer an equally satisfying resolution/fix to the arguably problematic/toxic dialogue they wrote in previous episodes (that they were also the lead writers for), then I made an assumption that it was due to their inability, specifically I said:-

they are just that excellent at writing in genuine toxicity into the dialogue while simultaneously being so piss poor at writing an equally genuine fix to remedy the consequential ‘conflict’

but after thinking it over, there is an alternative in mind

assuming they are plenty competent (they got the job for a reason right?) to write a fix, they instead CHOSE not to do so - why?

contrary to my previous belief, if the writers hated buck, they would NOT have him be the subject of the toxicity, because as the fandom knows, a lot of people did not take kindly to "trials and tribulations" and the strays he caught during the dinner argument - the dialogue they wrote pushed a part of the fandom to defend buck

that would mean the one these writers were targeting instead turns to chimney and eddie

if they deliberately had both of them be in conflict with buck and wrote half-baked resolutions, then that begs another 'why'?

do they dislike the characters? or do they dislike the actors?

of course this all assumes that they are competent and had purposefully wrote the bare minimum to garner the least amount of empathy and sympathy for the toxicity the dialogue brought

[hisbucky]

*keep reading for (major?) discourse*

absolutely necessary mention that I liked 9x15, just not thrilled about the whole episode either? also fair warning, my thoughts are a mess so this post will be too

to be clear, the discourse below will NOT be discussing buck’s specific storyline this episode, rather will focus on the choice of dialogue and a critique on the writers

overall I liked the outcome*, from a narrative point it's a soft reboot/reminder of the firefam dynamics (whether it’s earned is a different argument), but there were lines and scenes I was not particularly a fan of — namely the buck and chim scene and that “chain of command" line again

to me, it felt like those two things in particular was written in only to address (or rather backtrack) their awful context back in 9x8 with the dinner fight, and just made it feel more performative with being all "see? chimney wouldn't actually fire buck", not to mention the way they were trying to make "chain of command" sound like a positive

and again, this is my opinion, it just ended up highlighting how bad the implications really was that they had to shoehorn some damage control for the dialogue they had written

which, by the by, even that is too generous to say — cause let me tell you, there are probably hundreds of things I’d say a “chain of command” actually was before I’d say it’s “the thing that ties us all together, so that no one person has to carry the weight alone”

like wow, I’d say that almost counts as gaslighting with how far and away the definition went to

in fact, that line left such a familiar bad taste in my mouth that I had to look up if I recognized who the writers were for the episode (in case you didn’t know, different episodes have different lead writers) and you know what I found out?

not only are they the same people who wrote the dang dinner fight in the first place, they are the same people who were responsible for “the trials and tribulations of evan buckley”

with full offence intended, it was at that point I realized why I felt their attempt of course correcting buck and chimney’s dynamic felt a bit cheap—

they are just that excellent at writing in genuine toxicity into the dialogue while simultaneously being so piss poor at writing an equally genuine fix to remedy the consequential ‘conflict’

[tweetsongs]

buck and chris playing cards is so important to me btw. buck being open and honest with christopher the way he always is, and chris responding very maturely! the fact that chris is able to find a way to empathise with buck, 'it sucks when they touch your stuff', the intersection between the way addicts and disabled people have their autonomy taken away. the way that chris clearly knows what's going on, because buck and eddie told him, because they're a family and they trust him with this, with something big and scary, because it's his buck, and he deserves to know.

[weird-goodbyes]

feel free to disagree with me, but it was actually really important to me that Chris was fully aware and involved with what was happening.

[hisbucky]

listen listen listen, I ain't mad about the episode and that is what matters; a soft reboot/reminder of the firefam dynamic is something I can get behind

[hisbucky]

there is a quiet, screaming grief about giving up on being queer when you are a young person living in a town where even the whisper of a rumor might forfeit your life

how can you be alive when you cannot live as you are

what use is a space promised in the future for a life you already buried

[callmebrycelee]

The "Right" Kind of Gay

A little something I posted on Reddit:

Back in 2010, when Glee had the entire planet in a theatrical chokehold, the show revealed that Dave Karofsky—former tormentor of resident gay kid Kurt Hummel—was also gay. A few months later, I came out myself. And here’s the thing about Dave: yes, he bullied Kurt. Yes, he terrorized the glee club. No, being outed didn’t magically wipe his slate clean. But I found myself unexpectedly endeared to him. He was messy, complicated, and—unlike Kurt—decidedly not the “right kind of gay.”

Fast‑forward to 2018, when Tommy Kinard drops into 9‑1‑1 season two. The show sprinkled hints about his sexuality in “Hen Begins,” “Chimney Begins,” and “Bobby Begins Again,” but didn’t confirm anything until much later. And like Karofsky, Tommy had his own history of questionable behavior toward Hen and Chimney. By the time Bobby arrives, though, it’s clear he’s made peace with them.

Dave eventually apologizes to Kurt. Tommy eventually apologizes to Hen and Chimney. In both cases, we’re looking at queer characters who screwed up, owned it, and tried to do better. Yet in certain corners of their fandoms, forgiveness is off the table because they aren’t Kurt Hummel or Evan Buckley—the “acceptable,” tidy, poster‑ready versions of queerness.

And honestly? That’s a problem. Most of us weren’t perfect before we realized we were gay or bi or queer. Many of us were messy, scared, reactive, or just trying to survive. What message does it send when only the polished, palatable queer characters get grace?

It’s a shame that some viewers never gave Tommy Kinard—or Dave Karofsky, for that matter—a real chance simply because they weren’t the “right kind of gay.” Their journeys were chaotic, painful, and deeply human. But they’re no less valid than Kurt’s or Buck’s. In fact, for a lot of us, they might be a little closer to the truth.

[hisbucky]

not saying this to diminish the experience of queer youths of the modern day who are my peers, my babies and my hopefuls for the future

but *some* of yall have no idea what it means to live in a time or place where it was NECESSARY to break your own bones to fit into a box labelled self-hate cause “being” homophobic might have been the only thing keeping you from being the next matthew shepard

that kind of fear does not go away even when you get to a place where you think you might be okay