words are so heavy

twenty-five, MA "You remember too much," my mother said to me recently. "Why hold onto all that?" And I said: “Where can I put it down?"

[witchesversuspatriarchy]

Full Moons 2023

[neckkiss]

10 Things I Hate About You

[quotemadness]

“It’s so much darker when a light goes out than it would have been if it had never shone.”

— John Steinbeck

[preschooldr0pout]

[4am-reflections]

1. I can’t believe you actually love me. The last time I fell for someone the way I’ve fallen for you I got hurt in a way that made me feel like a part of me had died. And maybe it did. They made me believe they loved me, that we’d have a future together. But none of it was ever real. So when you tell me you love me all I can see is a ticking time bomb, counting down the minutes until you break my heart.

2. Before you I didn’t know what fireworks felt like. You kissed me and the world got brighter. When I was growing up my mum always talked about finding the spark. Where they touch you, soemthing as simple as brushing past your arm, and you can feel it all the way down to your toes. I never really thought this spark existed. That is until I met you. You light my entire body on fire and it god damn terrifies me.

3. No ones ever tried to fight for me. I’m easy to leave, something insignificant that people use to waste time. But you, every single day you fight for me, for us. Make sure I know you want me around. Show me for once what being taken care of is actually like. After everything maybe you’re what I’ve been waiting for.

3 things I don’t know how to tell you// 4am

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

“Loving you feels a lot like running on a circular staircase, that goes on and on in an endless loop. It seems like I am going on with my life, but the truth is, I am going nowhere.”

— Lukas W. // Going nowhere

[somepiecesofmyheartandsoul-deac]

It will no longer be you. – Lukas W.

[juansendizon]

“Two things you should never beg for in a relationship: Loyalty and respect. If neither is being served then be kind enough to yourself and walk away.”

— Juansen Dizon, A Kindness to your Heart

[thegoodvybe]

[wnq-books]

Turtle All The Way Down By John Green  |  @wnq-books

[sunsetquotes]

“I kissed her until there was more happiness inside me than sadness.”

— Benjamin Alire Sáenz; He Forgot to Say Goodbye

[rudyfrancisco]

“Be with the one who makes you forget how terrified you are of falling in love.”

— Rudy Francisco (via aboycrazyinlove)

[rosehipz]

[naturaekos]

“Some people turn sad awfully young. No special reason, it seems, but they seem almost to be born that way. They bruise easier, tire faster, cry quicker, remember longer and, as I say, get sadder younger than anyone else in the world. I know, for I’m one of them.”

— Ray Bradbury, Dandelion Wine (via goodreadss)

[sunflowerletters]

“The truth is, if he really did find someone else, then I’m happy for him. I’m still a little sad that it wasn’t me, but I’m glad he found someone he’s known for a long time, someone he grew up with. Someone who can be there with him all the time. I’m glad because that means, I can finally let go.”

— Excerpt from a Book I’ll Never Write

[thepersonalquotes]

[4am-reflections]

over the years i learnt to hate my birthday. i’ve spent 18 years watching my friends as they got their locker decorated, party’s planned even when they insisted they weren’t having one, their boyfriends showering them in flowers and love poems. while each year when my birthday comes around it’s full of twitter balloons instead of real ones, my best friend forgetting until the days half way over even though i’ve been with her since 8 am, and boys breaking my heart. why can’t just one year people treat me as though i am actually special to them. maybe it’s because i’m not.

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