yall idk how to make these but with the amount of f1 stories I have in my drafts I felt i should try.. this doesnt have any of my stuff from before the end of 2021 so sorry about that
Requests are open! especially for f1 :)
updated 3/18/2023
f1 driver stories, insta aus, blurbs
charles leclerc
champagne
5+1 times charles and alysia run into each other. charles x oc
blurb
post imola feels. charles x oc (alysia favale)
I gotta feeling
you surprise charles in bahrain. charles x reader
midnight call
charles gets a late night call from you. charles x reader
lord perceval
you’re a youtuber. 5 times charles ended up in your videos, and one time you’re in his. charles x youtuber!reader
Pierre Gasly
wags (habs)
pierre dating a professional tennis player. pierre x oc
style
hadley takes over styling pierre, he joins her in a youtube video and everyone knows they’re in love. pierre x oc
ig au 2 3
celeb yn insta edit
daniel ricciardo
ig au 2 3 4 country singer yn
this is it
sasha is at the Aus GP and can’t be more in love with this honeybadger. dan x oc
sydney
daniel and his wife have a baby. dan x female reader
lewis hamilton
sugar
lewis likes to spoil his girl. lewis x female reader
untitled
Lewis Hamilton is a loyal brit through and through. what happens when he meets the youngest member of the royal family? lewis x oc
untitled
lewis surprises his girlfriend at her fashion show. lewis x model!reader
ig au singer!yn au
she’s safe with me
request that went a lot sadder than anticipated!! prompt idea: lewis in a relationship with someone who has a good relationship with their dad. the ending would prob be like “don’t worry, i’ll keep her safe & happy just like you did, she’s in safe hands.” PLS. lewis x fem!reader
mick schumacher
crazy girl
mick and his childhood friend In love, thats it. mick x oc
embarassing
mick meets someone and gets a date in the most interesting of ways. mick x oc
bare with me
based on this request! Heyy would you please write a part 2 of crazy girl (mick story) where they end up talking about the kiss and their feelings? Cheers love xx. part 2 to crazy girl. mick x oc
max verstappen
familial ties
5 times max and isabella ricciardo annoy daniel with their relationship + 1 time he thinks he can get over it. max x ricciardo!oc
champion
max wdc win smut. max x female reader
my girl
max goes looking for a fight after bahrain. max x oc
insane
jos and anna verstappen get into an altercation. time for max to step it up. max x fem oc
wing men
the moment when max has a crush and the paddock tries to help wing man. max x oc
insta au (characters from familial ties)
burning up
request: can I please request an at-home dinner date w/max where he makes food but is useless so you take over (he’s happy to watch tho bc he’s so in love) or you make food from the start as a sweet gesture or something, will leave the choice up to you! just absolute fluff and cuteness all around. max x reader
lando norris
day in the life
ciara goes through old quadrant videos and decides recreate one. lando x ofc
untitled blurb
lando coming home to you after a race. ln x reader
streaming
you wake up and Landos streaming. Lando x reader
insta au
carlos sainz
meddler
natalia norris and carlos sainz just need a push in the right direction. carlos x norris!oc
insta au
regrets
after meddling to get his sister and former team mate together, Lando may have regrets (4+1). part 2 to meddler. carlos x norris sister!reader
sebastian vettel
love report
sebastian vettel? notorious flirt. what happens when his future wife is a reporter? seb x fem oc
nhl player stories, insta aus, blurbs
erik johnson
new number
you meet ej at a bachelorette weekend. ej x female reader
story
the ej x landeskog!sister moment I feel like I needed. ej x fem oc
cale makar
ig au
meant to be
cale makar x reader
jacob markstrom
baby fever
olivia is obsessed w her sister’s baby and jacob wants one. jacob x oc
4 times Seth Jarvis isn’t able to speak his feelings + 1 time when he does
AN: wow, my first foray back in a while is for the Stanley cup champs… if it couldn’t be my Avs it had to be my favorite Danish Goalie and the canes
First: Trips in a Minivan
Sloan had been the one to suggest the plan. The 6 of them had been on FaceTime, reviewing the Four Nations schedule and talking about Seth being called up. “It would be so insane if Canada made it to the final,” Leah said, scrolling the Team Sweden roster absentmindedly.
“We should go if they do,” Sloan laughed and everyone slowly went quiet.
“No way,” Lucas said. “We couldn’t.”
“Well, we could,” Noah laughed. “We could steal my parents minivan.”
And that’s how, two weeks later, Leah and 6 idiotic men showed up in Boston after 30 hours in a car to support Seth Jarvis in the Four Nations Championship. They were all exhausted, but nothing could stop them from shrugging on their jerseys, grabbing some drinks and making the trek into the stands to watch Seth and Team Canada in an electrifying final.
“Thanks for coming with us,” Bryan wrapped his arm around Leah’s shoulder. “I know Jarv will be glad you’re here.”
“Shut up,” Leah laughed, shoving his face. “Hell be happy to see all of us.”
“Nah, we know we’ll be chopped liver once he sees you,” Sloan laughed. “You’re the one hold out who almost couldn’t make it.”
“So sorry my finals were inconvenient for your plan,” Leah laughed, all of them locking in as the lights dimmed and the teams made it onto the ice.
90 minutes later, Leah’s voice was raspy, her body was sore, and she was covered in beer as she made her way to the glass with the boys and the rest of the Teams family and supporters. “Absolutely wild,” Lucas laughed as the made it to the glass and watched the trophy make its way around the team.
“I’m so proud,” Leah said, her phone out and snapping pictures like a stage mom. Shortly after, team staff started directing the families to the tunnels in order to greet the players. Leah’s heart was full as she watched the players get wrapped up by wives, parents, children, and in Seth’s case, 6 oversized hyperactive friends.
“So insane dude,” Tremblay said as he rubbed Seth’s head, Bryan patting his shoulders. “You killed it.”
“I can’t believe you guys are here,” Seth laughed, his eyes meeting hers. His smile got softer as he noted the tears in your eyes, nonchalantly shrugging off Lucas’ arms and stepping forward to wrap her in a tight hug. “Thank you.”
“We’re so proud of you,” she whispered into his chest, pulling back to cup his cheeks with a big grin. “Everyone is so happy for you. We called your mom.”
“You’re just-“ he cut himself off, rubbing a hand through his hair and looking around and seeing all the bodies. “You’re amazing. I couldn’t do this without you.” He hesitated for a second, and Leah almost asked him what was the matter before he suddenly leaned in and pressed a kiss to her forehead before turning and taking the beer Matt was holding.
Second: Olympic Run
Things had blown up after Four Nations. News teams had picked up the story of the hometown friends who drove 30 hours to watch their friend win the Four Nations, and their lives had gotten funny after that as well. Leah had had to make her Instagram private, and the boys had started a funny Instagram to feed into the buzz around them. Seth loved it: he loved that the people who meant so much to him were being recognized for being so supportive and helping keep him sane.
Seth had been totally prepared to get some sun and rest over the Olympic break. He had plans to pop home for a couple days before flying to Cancun, check in with everyone and then get his well deserved vacation on.
And then he got the call: Point was out and Seth was in.
So Seth changed his plan, cancelled his tickets, and called Leah on his way to the airport. “I mean this is obviously a once in a lifetime opportunity,” Seth said as he stared out of the car window, gazing at the landscape passing by.
“But you’re bummed you’re not going to get to reset like you hoped,” Leah said sympathetically from her bed in another country with her macroeconomics textbook laid out in front of her.
“Yeah,” he sighed. “And I’m bummed I won’t get to catch up with you guys too. This season has felt long.” And it had been long: the Canes were performing well which came with more scrunity, and Leah could tell Seth was tired.
“You deserve that rest,” Leah said softly. “But now you get to take your naps in Italy instead of Cancun.”
Six days later, the news outlets were running with the fans outrage that the Jarvis support team wasn’t in Milan yet. Almost the same day, Sloan texted everyone.
Sloan: Air Canada offered to fly us to Italy
Lucas: I’m sorry ?
And somehow, that text ended up with the seven of them rearranging their schedules and taking a last minute flight to Milan to support Team Canada.
“I can’t believe you guys are here,” Seth said as the group of them took advantage of his free time and explored the city.
“We can’t either,” Leah laughed, leaning into his side and linking her arm with his. “Pretty romantic city for me to be in with 7 men.”
“I’m yournumber one though, right?” Seth asked cheekily.
“Don’t worry Jarv we all kno you’re her number one,” Noah shoved the brunette as he walked by them, the group entering a piazza with vendors. Seth noticed immediately when Leah slowed down for a specific art stall, hovering over her shoulder as she conversed with the couple working the stall.
“A piece of art to remember this trip by,” Leah smiled at him sweetly when she turned around with a bag on her arm.
“I don’t need art,” Seth said absentmindedly, watching as the Italian breeze whipped her hair around and she snuggled deeper into her jacket. “There’s no one else I’d rather be here with. I-“
Whatever he was about to say was cut off by Sloan yelling for them. Leah stared at him, clearly waiting for him to finish his sentence, but he just shook his head and wrapped his arm around her shoulder, leading her away.
Three: Sick in Raleigh
Seth thought he was safe. A bunch of guys on the team had picked up a bug that was running through the schools, and Seth had stayed far away. He hated being sick. More than that, he hated being sick when he wasn’t near someone to coddle him. But when he almost keeled over at practice because of the pounding in his sinuses, Brind’Amour had practically shoved him out of the locker room.
“Go home, dose up, and try to be better by the time we leave for the roadie,” the man advised, shaking his head as Seth immediately began whining.
Since his coach wouldn’t sympathize, he called his mom on the way home.
“Seth, you’re old enough to take care of yourself,” she laughed exasperatedly, clearly out and about. “Take some Sudafed or call the team doctor and get a prescription.”
“But I want soup,” he whined.
“You know how Uber Eats works,” she clearly rolled her eyes. “I’ve got to go honey, I’ll call and check on you later.”
Seth sent one word to the group chat. Sick.
Cruel people, all of his friends, because no one responded by the time he set up his sick nest and climbed into bed. He watched two episodes of Abbott Elementary, taking notes so he could discuss his thoughts with Leah who had reccomended it, before there was a knock at his door.
He climbed out of bed slowly, shuffling to the door and huffing in annoyance when he didn’t see anyone through the peep hole. He opened the door and looked down, shocked to see two bags: one from CVS and one from Panera.
He felt like a kid as he unloaded supplies like NyQuil and the nice tissues that wouldn’t hurt his nice, and most importantly: a large tub of Chicken and Wild Rice soup with a side of bread.
Stop whining came the text on his phone, and he immediately FaceTimed the culprit.
“Don’t pout,” Leah said as she answered, propping him up on her desk at home. “I know you. You would’ve stayed sick just to prove a point that you can’t take care of yourself.”
“I would not!” He gasped, getting out his spoon. “Thank you though, seriously.”
“I don’t want you getting on the back foot like you usually do when you get sick during the season,” she looked at him pointedly. “You complain for weeks when that happens.”
“I don’t,” he defended, then looked at his soup. “Ok maybe I do. But I appreciate you taking care of me even from a country away.”
“Of course bub,” Leah looked at him softly through the camera. “Need you healthy to finish the season.”
“I wish you were here. I miss you,” it slipped out before he even realized. “Sorry that was the meds talking I-“
“I wish I was there too,” she cut him off. “I hate thinking about you being alone and if you needed something.”
“Don’t worry, Svech is on call,” he joked. “Can’t compare to you.”
Four: Eastern Conference final
I’m really sorry the text from Leah had read before Seth got to the rink. She was supposed to have been able to fly in for Conference Game 5, which could send the Hurricanes to the Stanley Cup Final. But her boss had an emergency, and all of a sudden Leah was expected to lead a major client presentation in Winnipeg the same day.
Seth knew he was being unreasonably upset. She lived in another country. There was no guarantee this game would be won, there could be two more games. But Seth was more himself when she was in the building. She reminded him that at the end of the day, he was still just Seth to the people he loved, no matter the score.
“You ok?” Sebastian Aho asked as Seth began to get rid of his game day clothes for his gear.
“Leah can’t make it,” Seth said gruffly. Most of the guys knew her, had met her and felt the impact she had on Seth. And most of them knew without words that he was in love with his best friend.
“That sucks,” Sebastian frowned. “I’m sure she wishes she could be here.”
“I know she does,” he shrugged. “Not her fault. Just a bummer.” Seth carried a bit of that chip on his shoulder the whole game. Even as they realized they were about to win, Seth’s smile was dimmed by the fact she couldn’t be here to witness it.
But as he watched his teammates and their families, he still felt some of the love. He had told his parents to stay in for this game, because of the uncertainty. But now he wished he’d told them to come. Even without them, he still basked in the moment, accepting hugs from his teammates and partners and family members.
“Jarvy!” He heard Svech yell while he took a picture for the Staals. “I have delivery for you.”
He turned around and embarrassingly his skate caught an edge as soon as he saw the form next to the smiling Russian.
“Hey,” Leah beamed. She stood there in work clothes, her carry on sitting in the family suite after she barely made it in time for puck drop. “This seems like a big deal.”
“You little shit,” Seth laughed as he quickly shuffled forward and wrapped her up in his arms. “I can’t believe you’re here.”
“I wouldn’t miss this for the world,” she breathed into his chest. Then she tilted her chin up on his chest to stare at him. “You’re going to the final.”
“You’ll come right?” He asked immediately. “I’ll buy flights, I’ll do whatever. I need you there.”
“I’ll be there,” she smiled softly.
“God you know I’m in l-“
“JARVY!” Jacob Slavin came barreling into them. “Leah! Cmon, beer in the locker room. Let’s go.”
“What were you saying?” Leah asked quietly as Seth helped her across the ice.
“Nothing important.”
+1
“How are you feeling?” Leah asked in a hotel room in Vegas, watching as Seth fiddled with his tie.
“Nervous,” he admitted. “Ready. I don’t know.”
“You’ve played so hard this season,” she came up behind him. “Tonight is just another game. Against a team you know you can beat. You’ve got this.”
“Just another game,” he nodded with a big sigh. “I’m trying hard to beleive that.”
“No matter what, the game doesn’t chance anything,” Leah said, pulling on his arm so he faced her and she could adjust his tie. “You’re still Seth. Still an amazing teammate and leader. A great friend and brother. None of that changes.”
“Just the shiny cup,” he smiled slightly.
“Just the shiny cup,” she agreed, smoothing her hands over his shoulders. “I’m so proud of you Seth.”
“I don’t think I’d be here without you,” he said gruffly. “And the boys too, but you just-“ he cut himself off. “You make me want to be better. To play better.”
“You don’t need to be better,” she said softly. “You just need to be you.”
He smiled, checking his watch and realized the bus was about to leave. “I’ve got to head out. I’ll see you after?”
“No matter what,” Leah nodded as he gathered his bag. He wrapped her in a hug, kissed her head, and headed out of the door. Leah had turned around as the lock clicked, gathering her own bag to go to her room, when the door buzzed open again. “Hey- what’d you forget?”
“You know I’m in love with you?” Seth blurted, halfway through the door. “Like fully in love.”
“Seth what-“ she stared at him wide eyed. “You’re just-“
“If I don’t say it now I never will,” he interrupted her. “I don’t want to keep being a coward. Not today.”
“Seth-“
“I just had to say it,” he stood up straight. “I’ll see you later.” And he walked back out.
“Are you fucking joking?!”
3 hours later, Leah had tears streaming down her face. The boys were squishing her between them, screaming and crying tears of their own as they watched the dog pile on the ice.
“He did it!” Noah cheered as he wrapped his arms around Leah’s shoulders, the group looking for Seth’s parents as they made their way down from the suite. Then there was another round of shouting as they all hugged and his mom wrapped Leah in her arms.
“You’re so much of the reason he’s here,” Tracey said tearfully. “You’ve always been so good for him. I can’t thank you enough.”
“He’s my best friend,” Leah said thickly as she pulled back and wiped her eyes with a smile. “I love him.”
The group made their way to the ice with the rest of the families, and they were quickly surrounded by the large men on skates shouting as the were united with their biggest fans.
“There he is,” Kaden said, watching as his parents beelined to Seth, quickly following and joining their embrace. Leah followed slowly, trying not to fall as the boys surged around her, screaming and piling on Seth. Leah stood back, taking pictures with tears streaming down her cheeks as she saw the emotion on Seth’s face.
After a moment he caught sight of her over Sloans shoulder, pulling back to his full height and skating to her with a nervous smile. “I’m mad at you,” she said through her smile and tears.
“You usually are,” he smirked but Leah could see the nerves in his eyes. “I’m sorry-“
“Shut up,” she cut him off this time. He opened his mouth again but before he could speak, she moved until her sneakers met his skates and wrapped her hand in the front of his jersey and yanked him down until his lips met hers.
Around them, families cried and team mates celebrated the ultimate achievement. But Seth’s family and friends were just happy he had finally gotten the girl.
seth jarvis x fem!reader || friends to lovers; long read; swearing and mentioning of alcohol and smoking
description: Contrary to the famous saying "What happens in Vegas, stays in Vegas," not everything actually stays in Vegas. For instance, it turns out that your freshly printed marriage certificate is perfectly legally binding in all 50 states, not just Nevada.
Based on the amazing request by @solros-world: "So we all know that after a team wins a cup they go out and party. So imagine Jarvy and reader get married while drunk in Vegas, chaos ensues, and they end up staying together."
I absolutely loved this idea and may have gotten a little carried away with it. I hope you enjoy reading it just as much as I enjoyed writing it. <3
You got ripped out of sleep by the sharp, relentless sound of a notification. Apparently somebody's phone was blowing up.
Fuck.
You opened your eyes and instantly regretted it. The room tilted. A wave of dizziness rolled through your stomach, slow and awful, and suddenly you became very aware of every drink you'd had the night before.
Shit. You definitely needed more sleep.
Unfortunately, the phone wouldn't stop buzzing and there was absolutely no chance of falling back asleep through that noise. With a groan, you pushed yourself upright and looked around - Seth's hotel room, closed curtains, stale air. The faint smell of alcohol, perfume and whatever poor life choices had happened after midnight.
You were still wearing yesterday's clothes - a white denim skirt and Seth's jersey. One boot remained on your foot, the other was lying near the door.
Jesus. You must've been absolutely wasted. Normally, no matter how drunk you'd been, you always showered before bed, always changed into pajamas, always removed your makeup. Apparently last night had been an exception.
On the other side of the bed, Seth was snoring face-down on the mattress, fully dressed as well. Still completely unconscious, which honestly felt impressive considering the amount of notifications currently detonating somewhere in the room.
You reached into your skirt pocket and immediately let out a relieved breath. Wallet was still there. Good. Losing it in Vegas would've been catastrophic. Bank cards, driver's license, health insurance card - half your adult identity lived inside that thing. So really, things could've been worse - your wallet was still on you, your phone was obviously somewhere nearby, Seth was breathing and you were mostly alive. As far as Stanley Cup celebration hangovers went, that definitely qualified as a success.
The notification sound pierced the room again and you physically flinched.
Jesus Christ. You seriously needed to change that ringtone.
Half-asleep, you reached toward the phone lying between you and Seth's leg. The screen stayed black. And more importantly - it was Seth's phone. That made sense. His phone had been ringing almost nonstop since the Hurricanes won the Stanley Cup - distant family, friends, former teammates, reporters and probably half of Winnipeg. At some point the poor thing had clearly given up.
Another notification sliced through the silence. Not Seth's phone. Yours. Right. You dropped his phone back onto the mattress. Shit, now you actually had to get up and find yours.
The room still spun slightly when you stood, but after a few steps it settled into something manageable. The headache remained and you stomach felt like somebody had replaced all your organs with loose bowling balls. But hey, you could function. Eventually you spotted your phone on the floor beside your missing boot. You grabbed it and immediately switched it to Do Not Disturb. Silence. Beautiful silence. You checked the time.
5:23 a.m. Oh, you've got to be kidding me.
There was no point going back to bed now. Your flight back to Raleigh left around ten and, unlike Seth, you actually required more than sixty minutes to become a presentable member of society. You glanced through the lock screen notifications.
Instagram. Instagram. Instagram.
That checked out. You'd posted a few photos and videos the night before - The Cup on the ice and the champagne showers in the locker room. At one point the NHL account had even reposted one of your stories, which apparently meant the entire hockey world had found you overnight. Not exactly the attention you'd been looking for.
But honestly? You couldn't regret it. You'd spent years watching your best friend chase this thing, years of playoff heartbreaks, near misses and "maybe next season." Watching Seth finally lift the Cup had felt too important not to document.
You locked your phone and sighed. Okay. This wasn't your first hangover, you knew the drill: hot shower, fresh clothes, brush your teeth, strong coffee, greasy breakfast, Ibuprofen, survive. As simple as that. The only problem was that the rest of the day would still suck, since there were very few places worse to be hungover than an airplane. Especially an airplane full of hockey players.
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The first part of the recovery plan actually worked better than expected. You didn't throw up and the shower helped. The hot water loosened the stiffness in your shoulders and washed away the lingering smell of cigarettes, alcohol and last night's Vegas. By the time you'd brushed your teeth and changed into an oversized T-shirt and shorts, you almost felt human again.
You grabbed your phone and charger, cracked the window open to let some fresh air into the room, then slipped out as quietly as possible. Seth didn't even move. Unbelievable.
By 6:40 a.m. you were already riding the elevator down toward the hotel restaurant. The digital floor numbers glowed above the doors while soft jazz played through the speakers and you regretted not taking your sunglasses with you.
First things first you pulled out your phone and set an alarm for 8:30, the time you'd have to wake up Seth at. There. Done. The one responsible, functional thing you absolutely had to do as the group's designated Type-A friend. Now you could focus entirely on saving your own life through caffeine and carbs.
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The restaurant was surprisingly full for not even being seven in the morning. Clusters of people sat around half-empty coffee cups and room-service trays, speaking quietly beneath the soft music drifting through the speakers. Luckily, you managed to grab a small table in the corner near a wall outlet. Perfect.
You plugged your phone into the charger and sank into the chair with a relieved sigh. A quick glance around confirmed there were no players, no wags, no parents, no familiar faces at all around you. Thank God. You weren't emotionally or physically prepared for social interaction yet.
Ten minutes later the waitress arrived carrying enough food to resurrect the dead. A bowl of steaming unsweetened porridge landed in front of you first, followed by three thick slices of toast, butter, lemon curd, a double espresso and a large glass of water.
Immediately after that, she placed a wrapped grilled chicken sandwich and two bottles of water on the opposite side of the table. That would be Seth's breakfast. Or rather Seth's hangover survival kit. The sandwich would eventually make its way back to the room so he could eat it on the drive to the airport. Again, Type-A-Friend type of shit.
Finally, she carefully set down a single ibuprofen tablet on a napkin. You'd specifically requested it, just as Seth's breakfast.
The woman nodded knowingly.
"Looks like somebody had a fun night."
You laughed weakly, the entire hotel knew the Stanley Cup champions were staying there, so nobody needed detective skills to figure out what had happened after the game.
Then she placed something else on the table.
You frowned.
A full glass of cold, bubbly champagne.
Absolutely terrifying. The last thing you needed now.
"Oh, I didn't order that."
The waitress smiled.
"It's complimentary. Congratulations."
You blinked.
"On...?"
"The special occasion."
The special occasion? You stared at her. What a weird way to call The Stanley Cup Finals. You're definitely telling all about it Seth on a plane. Oh, he's going to have a good laugh.
Then she smiled even wider.
"The hotel hopes you enjoyed your stay."
You nodded slowly.
"That's very nice, but honestly, it wasn't necessary. The boys did all the hard work. I was just there to support them."
For some reason the waitress gave you the strangest look, like you'd just spoken a completely different language.
"Well. Congratulations anyway."
"Thank you?"
The confusion somehow managed to exist on both sides of the conversation. Eventually she walked away.
You looked down at the champagne, the smell alone nearly killed you.
Nope. Absolutely not. Your alcohol-free era officially started right now.
You pushed the glass as far away as possible and focused on the food instead. The porridge was warm, rich and exactly what your body needed. After a few spoonfuls you assembled your toast. Butter melted instantly into the hot bread. The lemon curd added just enough sourness to cut through the heaviness of the butter.
Honestly? Life was improving.
A few bites later you washed everything down with two sips of espresso and finally took the ibuprofen. Within minutes the headache started slowly retreating. Still, you didn't want to eat too quickly and risk upsetting your stomach, so after another bite of toast you unlocked your phone. Time to deal with the Instagram situation.
As expected, the amount of notifications was ridiculous - new followers, likes, comments, messages. The usual post-Stanley-Cup madness. You've scrolled through the notifications and most comments looked exactly how you'd expected.
CONGRATS!!!
FINALLY!!!
WHAT A NIGHT.
SO HAPPY FOR YOU GUYS.
KNEW IT WOULD HAPPEN ONE DAY.
The normal stuff.
Then one comment caught your attention, mostly because it had an absurd amount of likes.
BUT DID YOU TAKE HIS NAME ????
You frowned. What? That made absolutely no sense. None. You hadn't posted anything remotely related to it. Sure, people occasionally joked about you and Seth. That happened. But even by internet standards this felt like a massive leap. You clicked the comment and took another sip of espresso, then immediately forgot how to swallow. The toast crumb went down the wrong pipe and you started coughing.
No.
No, no, no. That was definitely not your post.
You distinctly remembered posting exactly three things before going out - two photos from the ice and one video from the locker room celebration. That was it. And yet somehow you were staring at a collaboration post between your account and Seth's.
Your stomach dropped.
The photo showed both of you standing in front of a Vegas chapel - you held a tiny bouquet, Seth held a piece of paper. The words visible at the top read:
MARRIAGE CERTIFICATE
The caption underneath simply said:
Best night of my life. Got the Cup and the girl of my dreams.
Your entire body went cold. The likes were insane - NHL had liked it, half the team had liked it. Mary had commented three crying emojis. The comments numbered in the thousands. Nothing about this made sense. Nothing.
You immediately took a screenshot, closed Instagram and opened it again. Nope, still there. The very first post on your profile.
Maybe the ibuprofen had finally kicked in, maybe the shock had. Either way, the hangover disappeared instantly.
The waitress, the congratulations, the champagne, the weird look..
Oh no. No. No, no, no.
There had to be a logical drunk explanation. That's all.
You and Seth had probably gotten caught up in some stupid dare.
Think. Think. Think.
The last thing you clearly remembered was Svech buying everyone Mai Tais. Several of them. That had happened way before midnight. Everything after that looked like somebody had taken your memory, put it through a blender and then set the blender on fire.
Shit.
You opened your camera roll and started scrolling - tequila shots, more tequila shots, a blurry video of Chatty singing, a close-up picture of a tattoo with some text below it.
You squinted.
The text read:
don't freak out but that's my butt now. Show it to Jarvy
Honestly? That somehow wasn't even in the top three most concerning things you'd seen this morning. You squinted at the screen and took another sip of water.
Wait.
Suddenly something clicked - a memory, small at first. Then another. And another.
You and Seth sitting on a curb outside the club. The neon lights reflecting off the pavement. Music thumping faintly through the walls. A cigarette between your fingers. The two of you laughing so hard you could barely hold the phone while FaceTiming the Winnipeg guys.
Right.
After Svech's round of Mai Tais you'd announced that a cigarette was personally calling your name and that you absolutely had to go outside. Seth had immediately volunteered to come with you. At the time you'd thought it was because he didn't want you wandering around Vegas alone. Now, looking back, he probably needed a break from the chaos just as much as you did. The Stanley Cup celebrations had basically turned into a non-stop sensory overload.
On the way outside your phone had buzzed. A message from Sloan. You'd handed both your phone and your half-finished rum and coke to Seth while digging through your purse for a lighter.
Then you'd heard Seth say:
"Why is Sloan sending you a picture of his ass and why do you have to show it to me?"
The memory became clearer.
You remembered grabbing the phone and looking at the photo, then immediately laughing so hard you nearly dropped your cigarette.
A few minutes later both of you had been FaceTiming the Winnipeg guys only to discover that Sloan and another friend had apparently commemorated the Stanley Cup by getting matching tattoos on their butts.
You remembered sitting on the curb beside Seth, smoking and wheezing with laughter.
"That's genuinely the stupidest tattoo I've ever seen," Seth had said.
"Oh, come on," you'd argued. "I have plenty of stupid tattoos." You'd pointed at a few small ones on your ankle and arm. Seth had immediately shaken his head.
"No. This is different."
"How?"
"This is Top Five Worst Decisions territory."
You remembered laughing.
"No chance."
"One hundred percent."
You'd taken another drag from your cigarette and pointed at him.
"Fine. Tell me your Top Five."
The rest was fuzzy, very fuzzy.
You couldn't remember most of Seth's list but one thing suddenly resurfaced. Drunk marriage. Somehow that had ended up on your list, not his.
You remembered passionately arguing about it, because you couldn't understand how getting married drunk wasn't automatically worse than getting a tattoo drunk. You had dozens of tats, you knew what you were talking about.
Then Seth had said:
"Well, it depends who you're marrying."
You remembered rolling your eyes.
"It absolutely doesn't."
"It does."
Then he'd looked at you, completely serious despite being very obviously not sober and said:
"I'd never call marrying you a mistake. Even if we were drunk."
At the time you'd assumed he was just trying to win the argument. There was absolutely no way the two of you had used that conversation as a springboard to actually get married.
...Right?
Your stomach dropped and you scrolled further - a photo of Seth sitting at a desk, with his Canadian passport in one hand and a pen in the other, filling out some paperwork.
No.
Another swipe. A blurry photo of your ID.
No.
Another swipe.
A three-minute video. You pressed play.
The video opened with your face filling the entire screen. Apparently you were trying to prop the phone up somewhere, the angle was awful. „Our grandkids are gonna appreciate this someday." You heard Seth laughing in the background.
Your stomach performed a full somersault.
No no no no no.
You wanted to close the video immediately but you couldn’t, because there was still a tiny chance this was a joke. A prank. A dare. Anything.
The video continued.
Eventually you seemed satisfied with the camera angle, which had apparently taken forever. You stepped back and now both of you were visible. Seth handed you a ridiculously tiny bouquet of flowers. Then an Elvis impersonator stepped into frame. The ceremony lasted maybe two minutes. Neither of you seemed remotely sober but alarmingly enthusiastic.
Finally Elvis said:
"I now pronounce you husband and wife, you can kiss your wife.“
Which Seth immediately did. And judging by the video, his wife appeared very happy about that development.
The video ended.
You sat frozen. After that came blurry selfies. One with the marriage certificate. One with Seth holding the certificate over his head like he'd just won a second Stanley Cup.
Then finally the exact photo from Instagram. The end of your life as you knew it.
You lowered the phone then gently rested your forehead against it.
Fuck. Fuck. Fuuuuuck.
No, this couldn't be real. People that drunk weren't allowed to get married. That had to be a rule. There had to be a breathalyzer, a sobriety test, a multiple-choice exam. Literally anything… Also it was Vegas. Vegas marriages barely count, right? Immediately your brain replayed that episode of Friends. You swore out loud and then opened Google. Two minutes later you learned two things.
Number one: Vegas marriages were very real.
Number two: You were very, very married.
FUCK.
You checked the time. 7:50 a.m. At this point nothing mattered anymore, so you shoveled the last spoonful of porridge into your mouth (somehow you managed to eat all of your breakfast), then grabbed the champagne and drank the entire thing in one go.
Honestly? What was one more terrible decision at this point?
Then you unplugged your phone, grabbed Seth's sandwich, the two bottles of water and headed for the elevators because there was only one thing left to do.
Wake up your husband.
⸻
The room smelled slightly better by now thanks to the open window, but not by much. Stale alcohol, some hotel soap, and the lingering remnants of last night's celebration still hung in the air. Seth was still asleep.
You stepped carefully toward the nightstand with the two bottles of water and the sandwich in your hands, intending to leave them there for later. Then you froze. There it was.
The marriage certificate.
Lying right there in plain sight. Not a hallucination brought on by tequila and three hours of sleep. An actual marriage certificate.
The curtains flew open so violently that one of the hooks popped loose from the rail. Bright Nevada sunlight flooded the room like a personal attack.
"JARVIS, WAKE THE FUCK UP. RIGHT NOW."
One of the water bottles flew across the room and hit him square in the chest.
Not hard enough to really hurt but definitely hard enough to wake him. Seth jerked upright immediately, years of NHL survival instincts kicking in before consciousness had fully caught up.
"What the.."
He squinted into the sunlight and immediately regretted it.
"Oh my God." His voice sounded rough. "What time is it?"
"TIME DOESN'T MATTER."
Seth blinked. You were standing at the end of the bed looking like a mess. One hand gripped your phone and the other was clutching the marriage certificate. His eyes landed on the paper.
„Jarvis, I need you to explain yourself."
"Why are you yelling?"
"WHY ARE YOU MARRIED TO ME?"
A distant air conditioner hummed somewhere in the room.
Seth stared.
"What?"
"YOU HEARD ME."
Another blink, then he rubbed both hands over his face and groaned.
"You're gonna have to give me more information than that."
You marched forward and practically threw the certificate onto his lap.
"We got married last night."
Seth looked down.
"...we did?"
"YES."
"You sure?"
You unlocked your phone and shoved it at him.
"Oh, I'm very sure. Everyone is sure.“
Seth frowned and hit play. The video started.
"This is for the grandkids," you announced proudly, behind the camera Seth laughed.
You were wearing his jersey, he had an arm wrapped around your shoulders.
Then came the part. The part.
Video-you pointed dramatically at the name across the back of the jersey.
JARVIS.
"See?" you announced proudly. "It already has my future last name on it."
Video-Seth looked at you for a second before a grin spread across his face.
"It does sound kinda nice."
Then he kissed you and the video ended.
Silence settled over the room, Seth stared at the screen and a short laugh escaped him. Disbelieving and almost impressed?
"We actually did it."
"THIS ISN'T FUNNY."
That got through to him immediately. His amusement vanished as he finally took in the fact that you were genuinely spiraling.
"Hey..“
You started pacing. The panic had been building for over an hour now. Ever since the horrifying realisation that this wasn't some drunk joke. This was legally binding in all of the 50 states and actually all around the fucking globe. Your throat tightened.
"I don't know how we're supposed to fix this."
"We'll figure it out."
"How?"
You threw both hands into the air.
"Even if we get divorced..“ The word felt awful and you hated it instantly. „..then you're my ex-husband." You pointed accusingly at him. "I don't want an ex-husband before thirty."
Of all the things he expected you to say, that wasn't one of them.
"What?"
"I said I DON'T WANT AN EX-HUSBAND BEFORE THIRTY."
His mouth twitched despite himself.
"That's your biggest concern?"
"NO ...maybe. That's not the point!"
The room fell quiet again. Outside, somebody rolled a suitcase down the hallway, a door slammed somewhere nearby. Vegas carried on as usual while your entire life actively collapsed.
You sat heavily on the edge of the desk and rubbed your temples. The hangover was making a hard comeback.
"I wanted the whole thing." This time your voice came out smaller. "I wanted to get married because I was in love."
Seth's eyes lifted and you kept going.
"I wanted the proposal." You laughed bitterly. "The stupid romantic speech, the love part..“
Something shifted across Seth's face and gone almost immediately. So quickly you couldn't identify it. Instead he looked down at the certificate again. For a second it genuinely looked like he was about to say something important. Something big. Something that had apparently been sitting behind his teeth for a while. Instead he exhaled slowly.
"Maybe we should have this conversation when we're both less hungover."
You laughed once. Totally humorless.
"Yeah."
You grabbed your bag from the chair. Immediately Seth looked up.
"Where are you going?"
"I need air."
"Hey.."
You shook your head. "I can't do this right now." You gestured vaguely between the two of you. "The flight leaves in two hours." You picked up your phone. "You should get ready. I just want to be alone for a bit."
That one landed. You saw it the brief disappointment, the way his shoulders shifted before he nodded. Not arguing or stopping you. Just accepting it.
"Okay."
You headed for the door, your hand was already on the handle as you heard Seth quietly speak again.
"Hey."
You looked back, he was still sitting on the bed - marriage certificate in his hands, hair a complete disaster, looking almost as lost as you felt.
"We'll figure it out."
For the first time all morning, he didn't sound calm. He sounded worried. You swallowed, nodded once and left before he could see how much that almost made you cry.
⸻
By the time boarding started, your headache had already fully returned. A dull, relentless pressure sitting somewhere behind your eyes, steadily reminding you that champagne, twelve tequila shots, Mai Tais, rum cokes and an accidental marriage were not a combination the human body was designed to survive.
The second you stepped onto the plane, you knew - everybody knew.
Every single person wore the exact same expression - the one people got when they were absolutely dying to ask a question but were desperately trying to be polite about it. A few heads turned. A few people glanced away suspiciously fast.
Before anybody could open their mouth, you lifted a finger.
"I don't want to talk about it."
Immediate silence. Good. Good. Because if one more person said congratulations, you were genuinely considering opening the emergency exit and throwing yourself onto the tarmac.
The worst part came a few minutes later when you had to find Brandon.
"Hey, Brandon?"
He looked up and you could practically see the curiosity behind his eyes.
"Can we switch seats?"
His eyebrows lifted.
"With you?“
"Please."
Then, thankfully, he nodded.
"Sure."
A minute later you were safely settled into the seat beside Mary, hoodie pulled over your head and headphones ready. Far away from Seth. Far away from conversations. Far away from whatever the hell your life had become in the last twelve hours.
Perfect. Or at least it would've been perfect, if Seth hadn't boarded the plane five minutes later.
You noticed him immediately. Of course you did. The entire cabin could've burst into flames and you probably still would've noticed him. He looked exhausted, still slightly hungover. Seth glanced toward the row where the two of you had originally been assigned seats and realised you weren't there.
Your stomach tightened instantly.
His eyes moved through the cabin searching until they found you. For one brief moment your gazes locked. And there it was. Not anger. Not frustration. Something worse. Disappointment. The kind that looked like he'd already known this would happen but had still hoped he was wrong. Your chest squeezed painfully and you cowardly looked away. Anything was easier than looking at him right now.
The flight felt like eternity mostly because your phone was useless. Your entire digital existence had apparently become one giant reminder that you were somebody's wife now. Mrs. Jarvis. Technically. You shoved your phone face-down onto the tray table.
The cabin hummed softly around you and your headache pulsed behind your eyes. Across the aisle you could occasionally hear the guys laughing. As usual. Everything felt completely normal for everyone else, which somehow made it worse.
Halfway through the flight, Mary sighed dramatically. You didn't even have to look at her.
"Mary. Stop it."
She smiled innocently.
"I haven't said anything."
"I know what you're thinking."
"Oh really?"
You groaned and rubbed your forehead.
"It's not like that. You don't get it."
Mary folded her hands in her lap. The picture of innocence.
"Then explain it to me."
You stared out the window. Nothing but clouds. Endless clouds.
"I wanted..." Your voice came out quieter than expected.
Mary didn't interrupt.
"I wanted to get married because I was in love."
The words felt embarrassingly vulnerable the second they left your mouth.
"I wanted the whole thing - the wedding. The family. Actually remembering it."
Mary stayed quiet.
"I wanted a proper proposal. A real ceremony."
Your laugh sounded hollow.
"Instead I apparently got married in Vegas after a shit ton of alcohol and barely remember half of it."
For a moment Mary said nothing and then:
„So if I heard right, the part that bothers you the most is not the actual-marrying-Seth-part but not-getting-the-wedding-you-wanted one?“
Your throat tightened instantly and you hated that. Because you didn't have an answer. Or maybe you did. And maybe that was exactly the problem.
Mary watched you for several seconds. Far too observant. Far too smug.
"I'm sure you will both figure it out."
Then, before you could argue, she put the AirPods in and effectively ended the conversation.
⸻
The moment the plane landed, you escaped. Cowardly. The second the seatbelt sign switched off, you were already grabbing your bag. You ignored the conversations and the laughter. All you wanted was home and not running into Seth. Nobody really tried to stop you and for some reason that hurt, too.
Your apartment felt too quiet, you threw your bag near the door, kicked off your shoes and dropped face-first onto the bed. The hangover and the absurdity of the day got back to you and eventually you passed out.
When you finally woke up, the apartment was completely silent and dark. For a second you thought it was morning, then you checked the clock. 3:07 a.m. Great. Your mouth felt dry, your head still slightly hurt. And despite every good decision you'd made earlier, your hand reached for the phone anyway. Just one look. Just checking. Nothing more.
No texts. At least not from Seth. Not even one.
You stared at the screen. A weird feeling settled in your stomach.
Relief. Probably relief. That was what this was. Right?
You'd literally told him you wanted space. You'd avoided him for an entire day. You'd switched seats. You'd left the airport without saying goodbye. Of course he hadn't texted. That was normal. Reasonable. Respectful, actually. So why did it feel awful?
Your thumb moved before your brain could stop it. Instagram. Huuuge mistake.
The first video appeared immediately. Chatty singing terribly in a Raleigh bar. The second one showed half the team dancing.
The third..
Your stomach dropped.
Seth. Laughing. A beer in one hand. Svech hanging off his shoulders. A lot of girls and guys around them. Girls.
He looked happy. Really happy. As if he wasn’t thinking about complicated things. Like marriage certificates.
Or you.
You stared at the video longer than necessary. Then another one appeared. And another. Each one somehow hurt more. Which made absolutely no sense. Because this was exactly what you wanted.
Space. Distance. Time.
So why did it suddenly feel like somebody had quietly removed all the air from the room?
You locked the phone and set it face down on the mattress, then immediately rolled over and buried your face in a pillow.
Ridiculous. Completely ridiculous.
You'd spent the entire day running away from Seth Jarvis. And now, at three in the morning, the thing making your chest ache was the possibility that maybe he had finally stopped running after you.
⸻
You spent the next morning doing things that should've tipped somebody off that you were having a crisis. Instead of your usual espresso, you drank herbal tea and spent the next twenty minutes doing yoga from a Spotify podcast with a woman whose voice sounded suspiciously like she lived in a forest.
"Release what no longer serves you."
You almost threw your phone across the room. If only it was that easy. Release.
The rest of the morning wasn't much better. You cleaned, then cleaned things that were already clean, ran the dishwasher and started laundry. Then folded laundry and unfolded laundry because apparently you didn't like the way you'd folded it the first time.
Your brain refused to shut up. Every thought eventually circled back to Vegas. To Seth. To the fact that somehow you had accidentally become his wife. To the fact you haven’t heard from your husband for the last 24 hours or so. To the fact the last time you’d seen him was on some video and he was enjoying his life.
Around 2 p.m. you finally gave up and went for a run. That actually helped a little. The rhythm of your feet hitting pavement pushed the noise in your brain away for almost forty minutes. For the first time since waking up, your chest loosened and you felt like you could breathe again.
You stopped by your favourite café on the way home, ordered a matcha and bought two cinnamon rolls. One for now and one as a late night treat.
By the time you stepped out of the elevator and turned toward your apartment, you were almost feeling human again. Then your keys nearly slipped from your hand because the current Stanley Cup Champion Seth Jarvis was sitting right outside your door. Apparently waiting with what appeared to be your marriage certificate in his hands. He looked up and stood up immediately. You froze and neither of you spoke for a second.
God.
He looked exhausted, so was his voice.
„Hey, we need to talk."
Your stomach dropped.
"Yeah."
You unlocked the door, neither of you spoke while walking inside. You dropped your keys onto the counter and placed the paper bag between you, then silently slid one cinnamon roll across the table.
Seth looked down.
"Thanks."
You shrugged.
The cinnamon roll immediately became your coping mechanism. You sat down and took a giant bite, then another. Seth watched.
"You always do that."
"What?"
"Stress eat." Seth took a breath then and continued. "I get it."
You stopped chewing.
"I get why you're upset." His fingers traced the edge of the paper bag. "You wanted something different."
The apartment felt strangely quiet and his voice softened a notch.
"You wanted the whole thing."
You looked down, the cinnamon roll suddenly became very interesting. Was there a hint of vanilla or was this macadamia?
"The proposal, the wedding, the dress."
Your throat tightened.
Silence settled and for a moment neither of you moved. Then Seth laughed quietly. Not because anything was funny. More because he couldn't believe he was finally saying this.
"You know what's stupid?"
You looked up.
"What?"
His eyes met yours.
"I've imagined it, too."
You frowned.
"Imagined what?"
A small nervous, almost embarrassed smile appeared on his face. Which was quite unsettling because Seth Jarvis was rarely embarrassed. Actually never.
"I've imagined marrying you."
The cinnamon roll stopped halfway to your mouth.
"What?"
Seth exhaled. Slowly. Like he'd been holding that breath for years.
"I imagined telling you how I felt."
Your heart skipped.
"I imagined our first real date."
You stared.
"I imagined introducing you to everyone as my girlfriend."
The room suddenly felt too small and way too warm to be inside.
"I imagined proposing." His eyes never left yours. "Somewhere romantic." A laugh escaped him. "Definitely not in Vegas."
You blinked. Once. Twice.
"What?"
Seth smiled softly.
"I imagined all of it." The smile faded. "But not marrying you?" His head shook. "That never occurred to me."
Everything stopped. The refrigerator hummed quietly somewhere behind you, traffic moved outside. And yet somehow the entire world narrowed to the space between you.
"Seth..."
His voice became quieter.
"Do you know why I wasn't freaking out?"
You couldn't answer.
"Because the part that scared me wasn't the marriage."
Your chest tightened.
"It was watching you leave."
The words hit harder than they should have.
"I thought maybe you'd decide this ruined everything."
His eyes dropped briefly.
"Maybe you'd decide I ruined everything."
You swallowed.
"Seth..."
"I know it happened wrong." He shook his head. "I know this isn't how anybody pictures it." A pause. "But is it really that bad?"
The question lingered between you and you looked up.
There he was - Seth, who always answered your calls, Seth, who somehow magically appeared whenever things went wrong, the person who'd been your favourite part of almost every room for years.
Your throat tightened and you finally spoke.
"When I imagined my future partner..."
Seth immediately looked terrified, which was honestly a tiny bit adorable. You laughed softly.
"I always imagined somebody kind."
His shoulders loosened.
"Somebody patient."
A little more.
"Somebody who always makes me laugh."
Now he looked hopeful.
"Somebody who feels like home."
The room fell silent.
"So maybe the wedding happened completely wrong."
His breath caught.
"But the husband part?"
A pause.
"I think I got lucky."
For a second Seth simply looked at you, like he wasn't entirely sure he'd heard correctly. Then he stood so fast the chair nearly tipped over.
"Oh my God."
You started laughing.
"Seth- "
He crossed the kitchen in two steps and then kissed you. The kind of kiss that felt years overdue, even though you technically kissed just a day ago back at the chapel.
When he finally pulled back, he rested his forehead against yours. Neither of you able to stop smiling.
"You know," Seth said.
"What?"
His grin widened.
"You did get my name."
You frowned.
"What?"
He pointed toward the marriage certificate sitting on the counter.
"The signature."
You followed his gaze and then groaned.
"Oh my God."
Because there it was. Your new legal name, printed clearly on the certificate.
The same name stitched across the back of every jersey you'd ever worn to his games.
No Thing Defines A Man Like Love That Makes Him Soft ╰┈➤ NM29
summary: everyone knows that nathan mackinnon is a hard ass. monotonous. grumpy. maybe even a little boring to the outside perspective. then there’s you, who’s the complete opposite—giggly, bubbly, loud and cries anytime the titanic soundtrack plays. he should hate you—you’re all that plus cale’s little sister—but he just can’t. so nathan just pretends. but it’s not easy when his teammates start seeing through the facade.
[word count] 14.8k
warnings: MATURE! grumpy x sunshine trope | friends to lovers | obvious pining | humour / crack | cliches | drinking | swearing | mentions of throwing up (from drinking) | the most soft yearning nathan mackinnon you ever did see | a kiss | mentions of smut | timelines that make no sense obviously | mature themes and dialogue | read at your own discretion
pairing: nathan mackinnon x makar!reader
authors note: if you don’t like nate you’re just lying to yourself! kidding, kidding. but in all seriousness, I love writing for him so much and what better way than to do a little brothers teammate/ sunshine x grumpy trope :) title from strawberry wine by noah kahan.
lace dividers from @cursed-carmine
🎶 strawberry wine by noah kahan, bells & whistles by megan moroney and kacey musgraves, fool for you by zayn, wishful dreaming by 5 seconds of summer, staying by lizzy mcalpine, the longest goodbye by role model + kiss it better by rihanna
PART ONE: superman's citrus kryptonite
nathan mackinnon knows you've arrived landy's annual avs pre season afternoon barbecue once he hears your all too familiar laugh echo throughout his perfectly groomed backyard.
in nathan’s defense, it's a very distinctive laugh. loud, bright, and completely unrestrained. and you also usually snort, like a pug, which he would never admit he finds endearing, but he definitely does.
it's spills over the low hum of conversation and the crackle of the grill in front of him, cutting through everything else like it belongs at the center of it all. it bounces off the wooden fence, carries over the clink of bottles and the thud of a cooler lid slamming shut, and somehow manages to shoot right through nathan's chest.
he exhales slowly through his nose and forces himself to not look around like a lost puppy until he can spot you. because that would just be...obvious. the air smells like charcoal and something sweet—barbecue sauce, probably—thick and warm under the late afternoon sun. but when nathan takes a deep breath in, he swear he can only smell your perfume.
fruity, clean, and light. he'd never admit it, but one time he smelt almost 30 bottles in a marshall's, trying to find something that remotely resembled you.
but don't get it twisted, nathan mackinnon isn't a freak—or a pervert or anything else in that realm. he's just...no, he can't think of that right now.
someone's playlist hums in the background, bass low and steady, and just loud enough to fill the quieter moments. if there were anyway. but erik is yelling in the pool as he plays marco polo with the kids, and kadri is going crazy at corn hole. and you're still laughing.
"...and then I tripped," you're saying, voice animated. surely, your hands are moving as much as your words. like windmills. "like fully tripped—no recovery, no saving it—just straight down in front of everyone."
a chorus of reactions follows—laughs, groans, someone who sounds suspiciously like mikko mutters no way.
nathan keeps his composure, smashing some more burgers on landy's black stone like he's not actively yearning to catch even just the smallest glimpse of you. but he doesn't need to look because he can picture it anyway—your expression, the way your eyes go wide, and the inevitable grin that would follow like embarrassment is just another thing you turn into a joke.
he can't help but smile down at his feet just as the thought.
"you're lying," a different voice sounds. definitely ashley kadri, he thinks. it's confirmed when you briefly start cooing at nylah. always easily distracted.
eventually, you continue. "I swear! there was, like, a full second where I thought I could play it off, and then—nope." you clap your hands together once, sharp. "gone. and so was my popcorn, all over the floor of the theatre."
more laughter follows, and nathan's got to press his back molars together. god, who even is he?
it all started on a summer evening the year after their stanley cup winning run. everything smelt like sunscreen and chlorine. ice coffees melting faster than they can be drank. and the team, still high from winning the whole damn thing, decided to have some sort of celebration—a big lunch thing for friends and family at a local denver spot.
cale introduced you in passing. his kid sister, fresh out of college, coming out to denver to live closer with who you called your sibling turned best friend. nathan can relate, he feels that close with sarah as well.
he barley noticed you at first. well, that's technically a lie. because obviously he noticed your yellow sundress, and the way your smile lit up the entire restaurant, and how everyone seemed to gravitate towards you without knowing more than just your name.
but it was just a quick glance, a tight nod and a clipped—hey, nice to meet you—as nathan put out his calloused palm for you to shake. but you didn't shake it. no, you brushed it off with another smile and claimed you were a hugger, before pushing up onto your toes to embrace him.
you should've been his worse nightmare...so why for that entire evening could he not stop looking at you? and it's not like you didn't notice it—he wasn't exactly subtle from across the long table, wedged between EJ and melissa landeskog. how his eyes would keep flicking back to you when he thought you weren't looking, how he went unnaturally still when you laughed—like he was trying to memorize the sound without letting himself react to it.
he didn't ask you questions, didn't lean in, never smiled the way everyone else does—but he listened. it was easy to think he didn't like you. hell, at one point melissa turned to him, voice all hushed and straight up asked what his deal with you was.
but nathan didn't have an answer, which only made him look guiltier. but he was blushing and melissa knew. then landy, and then all of his teammates had this sort of suspicion that even they don't believe half the time.
even to this day, it would be easy to think he doesn't like you—he kind of makes sure of that, all distance and short answers and carefully controlled indifference—but there's something just slightly off about it.
too deliberate and too practiced like he's trying not to give himself away. and over the past few years, it seems to have worked at getting his teammates off his back, but it doesn't change the fact that deep down, ever seen you walked into the restaurant in that yellow dress, nathan has been obsessed with you. adores you. wants you.
wants you in every way he shouldn't want someone that much younger than him. someone who's related to one of his closest teammates. someone who is the complete opposite of himself. but he does—he wants all the late night pillow talks, the arguing over what colour to paint the living room walls, the sweet kisses and babies and everything in between.
but if someone was to ask? deny, deny, deny. sure—he'd say, acting indifferent—y/n is nice but she's just not my cup of tea. nathan mackinnon will lie through his perfect teeth before ever admitting to one of his insufferable friends that he has feelings for you.
the sound of your laughter breaks nathan out of his own thoughts. he curses to himself as one of the burgers starts smoking—blackened and charred. whoops, that's what he gets for thinking about you like that. your laugh, your mannerisms, your scent....no!
he turns away from the grill and grabs a drink from the open cooler by his feet. maybe a little harder than necessary when a few ice cubes shoot up and over the edge. the cold beer can seeps into his palm, a nice distraction from his own racing mind.
nathan exhales as he straightens, slow and measured, willing himself to chill the fuck out.
without wanting to burn anymore food, or get an earful from his captain, nathan turns heel back towards the grill. only, he's momentarily stunned when he sees you making your way over to him.
fuck.
your eyes meet and you're already grinning, expression brightening like seeing him is the best part of your day. maybe it is. and you weave through people with an ease that feels practiced and natural. effortless even.
he straightens slightly without meaning to. he still hasn't blinked by the time you stop in front of him, close enough that he can catch that faint citrusy scent. the long, white sleeves of your top are pushed up, some lacy, frilly thing that probably costs too much. you've paired it with jean cut offs and sandals, looking like a dream.
"hi nate," you say, slightly breathless from the heat and your trek across the yard. you reach up and tuck some of your hair behind your ear, passing your neck.
he gulps, burger press and can of beer still in hand. "y/n, hi."
there's a pause that follows, and in that you take the time to study him. and you're not shy about like he would be. it's open, and curious like you're trying to figure something out.
you hum, light a breezy, stepping impossibly closer. if you shifted an inch to the right, the knuckles that have gone white around his beer can, would brush your boobs. jesus.
"you look like you'd rather be literally anywhere else."
he swallows. puts down the beer. very careful to avoid touching your covered nipples or anything else just as incriminating. "i'm fine."
there's that hum again. unconvinced or something similar sounding at the back of your throat. your eyes dance over his features softly, and nathan has to force them to stay stoic. "scale of one to ten?" you prompt.
of course you're asking him that. it's just so you—so much so that it gets him to crack a smile. a barely there thing, half upturned lip that resembles a smirk more than anything. but a smile nonetheless. because you're the only one who could be asking him to rate his experience on a scale and nathan get all giddy about it.
however, he keeps his composure, getting back to the smokey grill and burgers. "i'm not doing a scale."
"okay," you drawl out, sliding in closer. "but if you were—"
"i'm not." he cuts in, sending you a look over his broad shoulder that says if you ask me one more time i'll totally rate it.
but you don't push. just grin—immediate and unfiltered. like that was exactly the response you wanted.
"landy come tell you how to properly do this yet?" you muse, all mock innocent, looking between nathan's tan face and the darkened, greasy stone.
"what?" he half bristles, stopping mid press. "I am doing it properly."
your grin only widens. "you're not, i've been watching and cringing for like, 10 minutes." it's an exaggeration, because nathan knows you've only been here for maybe 6.
"you're so full of it. there's no wrong way to smash a burger."
your mouth falls like he's just declared something catastrophic. like pineapple belongs on pizza. or that new moon is the worst movie in the twilight franchise. he can't help but roll his eyes at your dramatics, but he's also obsessed with them so he can't help the grin splitting his face again.
if someone was to look over, they'd think he's having a stroke. because there's no way that nathan fucking mackinnon would be having a good time with y/n makar—who is unarguably his complete opposite. if your personalities were powers, yours would be his kryptonite.
"there absolutely is," you tell him, "and you're butchering it." not waiting for a response, you push your way between him and the grill, and nathan is immediately hot with two things. your scent up close, expect now there's also something vanilla-y about it—a shampoo or something. and the second is that your ass is pretty much against his crotch, which is a whole new territory.
he swears lowly, so quiet that you don't hear it. or maybe you don't hear it because you're too busy trying to grab the burger press from his hand.
"i'm serious. let me do it." you say, looking at him over your shoulder. it shouldn't be so sexy because you're surrounded by everyone and there's kids running around with snotty noses and popsicles. but somehow it is.
nathan tries to put some distance between your bodies, but it only ends up with him bumping into a chair, which then sends him jumping back into you.
"you've never even grilled before." his protest is weak, because he can't even fucking concentrate properly.
"that not the point—give me the pressy thing."
and he does. of course he does. and you smile triumphantly like it's more than just a burger press.
with your bodies still an inch from being together in a way that would be indecent, nathan watches over your head as you start pressing against the balls of raw beef, flattening them and all their inter-webbed seasoning against the stone.
"see," you slightly grunt, putting real strength into it. but you're also laughing, joyful and happy. far too much enthusiasm for cooking burgers, but nathan feels proud like you're accomplishing something greater.
grease pops, making you flinch and yelp back into his strong chest. his warm palm settles on your torso—right on the sliver of skin between your shorts and top—meaning to steady you, but as soon as he's touching your bare skin, nathan’s forgotten how to breathe like a normal person.
you laugh at yourself, shaking out your hand. the grease must've made contact.
he blinks, "are you okay?" his eyes then asses you at the speed of lightning. fingers, palm, wrist. then briefly over the rest of your exposed skin, checking for grease related injuries. he finds none.
you spin, still pressed close. a smile on your face. "i'll be better when you let me do the next round as well."
"do I really get a say if you continue?"
"nope." and then you're back at it, grabbing more meat from the blue and white patterned bowl beside the blackstone, dropping it down with a splat (which makes you snort and make some comment about it looking like plankton from spongebob on the bottom of a shoe).
but he forces himself to look away from you. because you're too much in the best, most overwhelming way possible.
thankfully, gabe comes over and immediately starts telling you that your smash burgers are better than nathan's—which has you fucking floating. it's good, because he's sure if he was alone with you and your smell and your pretty lips and annoying laugh a minute longer, he would've done something stupid like kiss the shell of your ear. or tell you how he feels.
but he knows he just...can't.
PART TWO: reel it in
the line to the downtown nightclub curls halfway down the block. a slow moving, impatient thing made up of heels on concrete, low conversations, and the distant thud of bass leaking through the club doors. the night air is warm for september, but in that sticky, city way—perfume and exhaust and something sweet drifting from somewhere nearby.
every few seconds the line shifts forward just enough to make it feel like progress. nonetheless, you're practically vibrating in the spot.
"okay, no, but this was a good idea," you insist for what has to be the third time, turning halfway around to face the group, hands uselessly flailing around as if gesturing to it. the club. the line. who knows. "like, objectively, this is fun already."
you're already tipsy. borderline plastered and already in that state where it's a gamble whether you'll remember from here on out in the morning.
"it's a line," erik mutters behind you, hands tucked into his jacket.
you shoot him a pointed look. "and you're old."
he snorts.
"besides, it's the anticipation," you correct, grinning. "very exciting."
nathan stands just off to the side, adjacent to your bare shoulder. he's close—close enough that if you leaned back even slightly, you'd bump into him. he lets himself think about that for only a second. wrapping you up, forearm around your collarbones.
he hasn't said much since you all got here, which was about 15 minutes ago. actually—he hasn't said much since you told him the plan earlier in the week.
because...clubs aren't his thing. their loud, crowded and unpredictable and everything he tries to avoid. in other words, they're exactly like you. everyone knows that, and when you mentioned wanting to do this for your birthday, you said that you didn't expect him to come because of his hatred for the party lifestyle.
and yet here he is. black button down open to reveal his white t-shirt, sleeves pushed up just enough to show his forearms. jaw tight like he's already over it, eyes scanning the street instead of the line. instead of you.
in all honesty, he hasn't been able to properly look you in the eye without going through an internal crisis since he pulled up to landy's, where you had already been getting ready with mel, tracey and ashley.
he had walked in and could already smell you, which was a whole thing in itself. but then you came waltzing down the stairs, glittery and dressed like that. a tight complicated looking dress that looks painted on—paired with a birthday sash and crown. even though your birthday wasn't technically till midnight.
nathan tried to look unaffected when you hugged him, drunk and loud, but erik had caught on. and nathan knew that he did—so he's been avoiding both erik and your eyes since then to save some face.
it's not until you spin, unsteadily, to face him that nathan looks at you properly again. mostly because he's scared you're going to fall on your face, so he's already got his hands out to steady you.
but you don't fall, only giggle when the crown stars to slip. you shimmy closer to him through the packed line, which hasn't moved since the last time, and blink up at him like a doll.
"you're gonna hate it in there," you say.
he avoids breathing through his nose when he replies, because you smell like fucking heaven. tequila as well, but that's not even a problem.
"I won't." he lies. just then, a couple of drunk frat guys come stumbling out of the club, yelling something about their greek affiliations that make nathan pull a face.
you squint, teasing and accusing all the same. "you already do."
he looks back at you and forces his features back to that unaffected, neutral look that he uses in every interview. "I don't."
"you're scowling."
"i'm not scowling."
you lean in slightly, still peering up at him. like you're inspecting the evidence. the crown slips down again, sitting against your eyebrow, but you don't notice. "you definitely are."
"i'm not."
you hum, unconvinced. "we'll fix that."
nathan not sure who we entails, but his mouth twitches despite that.
just then, erik just has to squeeze between where you're standing and gabe, meaning that you’re forced to shuffle closer into nathan's orbit to make room for the giant defender.
obviously, you don't care. practically snuggling up to nathan and all his warmth. meanwhile, he's freaking out. naturally.
and it's like you know that when you look back up at him, because your grin widens like you've just won something.
he, once again, has to immediately look away. jaw tightening to stone, composure snapping back into place. because maybe if these were different circumstances and nathan wasn't such a weirdo, he'd wrap his arms around you and keep you against his chest. press kisses to your jaw and neck until you're laughing at the feeling of his stubble—attempting to escape his hold but also not trying at all.
"you didn't have to come, you know," you say, nudging his chest lightly with your elbow, snapping him out of his thoughts. he blushes like he's been caught. you continue, "I wouldn't have been offended. I know you don't like all this stuff."
"I know." he shrugs. like...that's that. so simple.
"but you did anyway." you note, already half way back to grinning. the line inches forward. someone up ahead laughs too loudly, the bass inside the club pulsing stronger now every time the door opens. erik is still babbling on about something irrelevant with gabe.
nathan exhales, gaze still fixed somewhere over your shoulder. "it's your birthday...thing," he says eventually, like that's explains why he's like, abandoned his morals. and then like you don't know what he's talking about, he pokes at your lopsided crown.
you raise a brow.
then, ever so timidly and only after making sure all your friends weren't watching him with the eyes of a hawk looking for its dinner, nathan's knuckle hits the bottom of the crown and then pushes it back up. into place.
once he drops his hand, you tilt your head slightly, studying him. "yeah, it is."
he swallows the golf ball sitting in his throat. fingers itching to reach back up and graze your hair. or your forehead. frankly, any part of you would do. a beat passes, before he says anything more, eyes still locked with yours.
"so happy birthday," he adds, quieter.
your smile should be illegal. "thanks nate." then you add, tone almost conspiratorial. "although, it's not my birthday quite yet."
catching that comment behind you, erik makes a noise, now invading your bubble of space. "by the time we get in there it will be."
—
considering that the music sounded loud outside of the club, it shouldn't come as a surprise that when you, nathan and the rest of the group finally get inside, it becomes deafening—loud enough that it stops feeling like sound and starts feeling like something physical. settling in nathan’s chest and rattling his ribs with every beat.
the lights flash in quick bursts—neon blues and pinks and whites—catching on faces, on moving bodies, on raised hands and spilled drinks and everything in between. it's too much for nathan, and he's scowling again.
but all the reason he hates it are the exact reasons why you love it.
you're immediately wrapped up into the crowd with ashley, tracy and melissa. once again, you've all already been drinking and getting pumped up for this, so nobody can blame you. the guys kind of just hover at one of the tall tables that line the floor and bar, looking out for you all while also just…chilling before the season really begins, and nathan stars jumping on their asses for even thinking about beer.
he can't keep his eyes off of you, because of course he can't. and in the dark of the club, nathan isn't worried about being caught, so he lets his eyes roam over your figure freely. your dress, your legs, the glitter sash sitting between your boobs. it's ethereal. and then you smile, laugh, and nathan feels like he's ascending to the clouds.
you're enjoying yourself, that much as clear. and he thinks he's starting too as well.
it's only about 45 minutes after arriving that you seem to remember the guys even came with you, and when you manage to spot them through the crowd and squeeze through dancing sweaty bodies, you're gone. unsteady on your feet, and warm and light and giggly in that way that makes everything feel softer.
"nate!" you beam, appearing in front of him like you've been dropped out of nowhere. you practically fall into him, between the table and his torso. your front to his. "I missed you!"
the drinks you'd been nursing (and spilling) are long gone. nathan is sure you've been sneaking shots that he hasn't noticed, because he can smell them on your breath.
"you okay?" he asks like an idiot, completely ignoring the admission on purpose. gabe snickers at that from beside you, and nathan is sure to shoot his captain a look.
he looks back at you, eyes scanning your face—the too bright smile, the way you're bouncing a little on your toes without realizing it, the glassy, dazed look in your eyes.
"yes," you slur a little. "i'm great. this is the best night ever."
erik and naz snicker from across the table, finding humour in the way you’re drag your words and stumble into nathan's chest without evening meaning to. then, naz the little shit, calls your name with a teasing twinkle. "hey y/n, want another shot?"
and you gasp, like its the best idea you've ever heard. nathan groans like it's the worst. "no," he tells you and his way too amused teammate. "no more shots."
"but i'm thirsty," you all but pout, fisting the material of his shirt in your palm.
once he stops shooting daggers at his friend, he looks back down into your eyes. fuck, that damn pout. nathan keeps his hand at his side uselessly, even though he wants nothing more than the slide the pad of his thumb over your petruding bottom lip.
"that won't help," he tells you, gentle but firm. if nathan was a better man, he'd be embarrassed about how controlling and possessive he sounds over a girl that's not even his. but the other part of his brain, the one that can register the feeling of you pressed against him and the way you’re now playing with the fingers he's got wrapped around his beer bottle, doesn't think about how it looks.
in his moment of distraction (or weakness) you manage to take the bottle right out his hand and press it to your lips. he opens his mouth to protest, but nothing comes out when you begin to promptly down the entire thing without breaking his gaze.
jesus—
"I hate beer," you grimace, then hiccup in a way that almost makes you gag.
he takes the bottle and puts in on the table with an empty clink. "you didn't have to drink it," nathan reminds you, a hint of a grin on his face that you don't catch because he's dropped his head down next to your ear, so you can hear him over the roaring bass.
warm breath fans over your cartilage as he continues. "it was also mine."
you giggle at that, like you know that despite his authoritative tone, he's full of shit. pulling your head back just enough, you look back up at him, full of mischief and something else equally as belly swooping. "come dance with me."
nathan almost hesitates in telling you no. because you're just so beautiful and smiley, peering up at him like he's the best part of your night. but at his core, nathan is anything but submissive. especially when it comes to dancing in public.
"i'm not dancing." he tells you through a laugh.
you stare at him for a second—like you're trying to process that answer. just a second. "please," you say, drawing the word out. even go as far to tip your head back, giving him your most exaggerated, over the top pleading look. "it's my birthday."
and despite himself and all his best efforts, nathan mackinnon lets you drag him onto the dance floor.
—
by the time you all make it back to gabe and mel's place, the night has tipped fully into that blurry, disjointed kind of late. nathan doesn't even want to look at the clock above the fireplace because he knows it's way passed the time he usually sleeps. meaning his routine will be all fucked up tomorrow. but his heart tells him the way you're leaning all your weight onto him makes it worth it.
multiple pairs of heels are kicked off at the front door in uneven piles, erik is laughing too hard in the kitchen all things considering, and ashley is already halfway collapsed on the couch with her arm thrown dramatically over her eyes like she's been personally victimized by the evening.
your groan next to him, now considerably shorter with your shoes discarded. the smell of leftover takeout and sweet caramel candle wax mix together in a nauseating way. because despite nathan's best efforts, you managed to sneak a shot, or three, off of ej and naz when nathan wasn't paying attention.
and to your credit, you held on for a long time, including the ride home in the back of an uber—which is just a pukey nightmare. you had been squished between mel and nathan, gabe yapping away in the front to the driver about the upcoming season—because of course the driver was a fan. that's probably why he let you guys in the car, even though you looked like one stomach roll away from throwing up all over nathan's lap.
you manage to make it two steps into the living room before the level of your alcohol intake finally catches up to you.
you sway, lost of all colour and your grasp on reality. "oh no," you whine, sticky crown falling off your damp head and onto the floor.
cale looks over from the kitchen immediately, pausing his water chug. "what?"
"I don't feel—" you swallow, face scrunching as the room tilts just slightly. "I don't feel good."
that's all it takes. there's a chorus of uh ohs and yep there it is from your friends—minus ashley because she's already snoring on the couch. someone snorts (erik definitely), and someone else mutters something about it being inevitable (melissa probably), and before you can even properly complain, you're being gently yet firmly redirected down the hall.
"bathroom," your brother says, steering you towards the powder room at the front of the house.
"I know where the bathroom is," you mumble half heartedly, deeply offended for no real reason other than being drunk.
cale snorts when you walk into the door frame. "clearly."
you try to glare at him, but it doesn't stick as the bathroom light flickers to life. it reflects off the mirror, making everything feel worse.
you drop to your knees with significantly less grace than you'd like, bracing yourself against the edge of the toilet like it personally wronged you. "this is the worst day of my life," you declare after a violent, spitty dry heave.
the door clicks closed softly, shutting out most of the noise from the rest of the house.
"you're fine," a familiar voice that definitely doesn't belong to your brother says. nathan's voice is low and steady, like he's intentionally keeping things calm.
you don't even bother asking him what he's doing, because it's obvious enough. he's taking care of you, undeterred by your bile or the perspiration lingering by your hairline.
"i'm not fine," you argue immediately. "i'm dying."
he grins behind your back, "you're not dying."
"you don't know that." you whine, cheek dropping to the toilet seat until it's pressed flat. you can’t think about the germs, or else you'd start gagging again.
there's a soft huff—almost a laugh—as he moves closer. a second after he appears as a blur in your line of sight, you feel his hand on the side of your face, fingers gently pushing tangled hair back behind your ear. gently, not tugging.
"stay still," he murmurs.
"I am still," you protest, even though you're shifting and rubbing your hot cheek against his rough palm.
he almost throws up himself at that, simply because the feeling of you nuzzling against his skin is enough to send him on a roller coaster.
"oh my god," you mumble suddenly, voice muffled. "I feel like kat in that scene from 10 things I hate about you."
nathan's hand stills for a half a second against the side of your head. "what's that?"
your head snaps up—almost smacking his nose in the process—enough to look at him, completely scandalized. "you've never seen it?" you gasp, much to his amusement. "oh my god, nate, please watch it with me."
and then you gag over the toilet bowl again. nathan runs his hand up the nape of your neck without thinking, and takes ahold of your hair in a makeshift ponytail as you continue to heave.
"maybe when your head's not in a toilet bowl." he reminds you, firm yet gentle.
you blink at him when you've calmed down, tears in your eyes. then, despite everything—the nausea, the spinning, and the general state of your existence—you laugh.
it comes out a little weak, a little breathless and stinky, but neither of you seem to care. you because you're hammered, and nathan because he fucking, like, loves you.
"you're funny," you muse, like you've just discovered something shocking.
"i'm not." he breathes a laugh of his own.
"you are," you insist, turning your head slightly so you can look at him better. "you just pretend you're not when everyone's around."
he doesn't have a response to that. he just watches you for a second, expression unreadable but softer than it usually is, like the edges have been smoothed down by the privacy of the bathroom. and you. always by you.
"you hate this," you add suddenly, a little quieter now, wiping at your runny nose with the back of your hand. "tonight, I mean."
"I didn’t hate it."
"you hate clubs." you remind him.
he hums, "I do."
"and you came anyway."
he exhales lightly, gaze dropping for a moment before coming back to you. "yeah." his grip on your hair adjusts again, thumb brushing lightly near your temple like he's making sure everything stays out of the way.
and you're looking at him all fuzzy and sweet—nathan doesn't even care that you're all clammy and there's a little bit of puke on the toilet seat, because to him, you're still the most beautiful thing he's ever seen.
it's too much all at once, and he's on the brink of telling you thing he shouldn't—not only because you're drunk and gagging, but because he knows he can't.
"focus on not throwing up," he tells you instead, pushing away all mushy thoughts of kissing you and feelings and confessing out of his head.
"bossy." you mumble, smile faint as your eyes begin to flutter closed. exhaustion slowly creeping its way into your bones.
—
nathan isn't surprised when he walks downstairs and sees that you haven't woken up yet.
it's all decorated, courtesy of melissa who's smile changes when she sees it's him coming into the kitchen and not you. a big glitter birthday banner hags from the ceiling, along with balloons and a matcha drink with a candle on top—because you don't like cake.
the guys and tracy and ashley are scattered around the island, some noticeably worse for wear. erik groans like he's been shot when the toaster pops.
"it's bread," gabe snickers in the direction of his oldest teammate. "relax."
"you relax," erik hisses, heels of his palms pressed so deep into his eye sockets that it must be painful.
nathan sits down on one of the empty bar stools, looking like he didn't even go out last night. to be fair, he only had like two beers. and despite the time on the clock when he finally got you into bed and the went to sleep himself, nathan still managed to get up at the crack of dawn. where he then promptly took an hour in gabe's home gym to get his muscles moving, and then took a long hot shower.
because he kind of smelt like your perfume and your bile, which wasn't the most ideal. neither was staying up an extra hour once all the chaos has died down because he couldn't stop thinking about you. or your tiny dress, or how you looked at him while chugging his beer. or your drunk smile—especially that smile.
the stairs creak, and before he can be chill about the idea of seeing you this morning, nathan's head whips aorund so fast it's a shock that his neck doesn’t snap.
but it's not you, just the dog.
with a sigh, he faces forward again, gaze landing on the ice matcha with the pink candle melissa shoved into the straw opening. he itches to get up and put it in the fridge, because the ice is starting to melt and you hate when it's watery like that.
"you gonna bring that up to her?" gabe suddenly asks, leaning on the island directly across from him.
nathan blinks in suprise. "no?"
"why not?"
"she's probably still asleep." he huffs, and when gabe's knowing and all too pleased smirk starts to grow, nathan can't help but scoff. "don't you have food to cook?"
his captain laughs, bright and too loud, making nathan's scowl deepen. "and?"
his jaw tightens slightly. "and i'm not waking her up."
gabe tilts his head, studying him in that way that feels a little too perceptive. the eggs sizzle un-attended on the stove, and he briefly leaves nathan to flip them.
"you sat with her last night." he notes, looking over his shoulder at him.
nathan stills for half a second.
"cale told me," gabe adds easily. "said you didn't leave until everything settled."
he shrugs, like it's nothing, even though his stomach suddenly feels queasy at the prospect of his friend being able to read him so well. because if gabe knows, then melissa knows and then you'll know.
jesus, he needs to like go home or something.
"she wasn't feeling good." nathan answers like that all there is to it.
"right." gabe can only muse, but its layered. because he knows that nathan doesn't do this kind of shit. go to clubs, take care of drunk girls. fucking hold their hair back while they puke. its easy to see that nathan is down bad for you, no matter how much he tries to hide it from you, his friends, and himself.
thankfully, gabs doesn't add to that, only sliding a mug of decaf coffee across the counter until it sits between nathan's clenched fists.
and all the nova scotia native can do is pick up the mug and takes three scolding gulps.
PART THREE: 99 sonny angels on the wall
the next few months of nathan's life continue the exact same way they have since the moment he met you—switching between watching you from afar with his heart in his ass, and watching you up close, lightheaded from your scent, your smile, your laugh, and everything else about you.
at this point, it's more obvious than it's not. because nathan is almost giving up on try to hide it more so than he is trying to come across indifferent. he just can't with you.
it starts ramping up in the way all good things do, two weeks before the season is supposed to really start. cale and tracy are hosting an intimate engagement party that nathan just so happened to be invited to. and knowing you'd obviously be there—in the wedding party and the sister of the groom—he made sure to dress up as nice as he could with his lack of nice yet casual fashion knowledge, spray on cologne and prepare to spend an unknown amount of hours with you.
you'd been wearing some flowy and butter yellow. that's the first thing nathan noticed when he arrived halfway into the afternoon. you'd also been fluffing about a long desert table, telling one of tracey's college friends all about how the count bites were to die for. he had gravitated towards you without even realizing he was doing so.
up close, he could see that you were a little glassy eyed and flushed. but smiling so wide. always smiling. and the second your eyes landed on him, you gasped and skipped right up to his chest.
"nate!" you had beamed, tugging at the open collar of his linen button down. "I made you something." and nathan let you pull him around the backside of the table, a little dazed and totally not watching the way your hips swayed under your dress.
"cookies." you brightened when his eyebrows raised a fraction. "I looked up your whole, like, superstar diet thing," you explained, waving a hand vaguely. "and I made them with all the stuff you're allowed to have. less sugar, more...whatever it is you eat. they actually turned out really good."
he almost wanted to tell you everything in that very moment—seconds and one half bitten cookie away from dragging you further into the garden to kiss you silly.
but he didn't.
and then the season started, and where nathan should've been completely focused on hockey and his own high performance schedule, he was focused on you.
your name brought up in passing in the locker room? nathan's head was snapping up to listen in. cale mentioning his family coming down to watch a game? nathan's wondering if you'll be with them. a dinner at a teammates house? nathan's all nonchalant (no he's not) wondering if you'll be attending.
then there was that one dinner party at the kadri's, where you were sat next to nathan. he'd been trying not to look at you because he was trying to remain composed, but you laughed at something ej said and put your hand on nathan's thigh—and he almost choked on his steak, leaving him a coughing blubbering mess while you thumped on his spine and ej just laughed at the ordeal.
and he couldn't even be mad about it, because you were so concerned, and so sweet and made some little joke about not choking for you again anytime soon. nathan almost said something back about that, but he bit his tongue.
because it isn't just the fact that you’re cale's sister—though that alone would make things complicated. it's that, in his mind, you and him exist on completely different wave lengths. you're soft where he's sharp. impulsive where he's careful. open in ways nathan's never quite learned how to be. and the thought of trying—of actually letting himself have you, let himself feel what it would like to call you his beyond the walls of his mind—sort of scares him.
because if it falls apart, if the differences between you nathan is so sure will break you actually do, then he doesn't just loose the possibility of you, but he looses you entirely.
and nathan knows, deep down, that once he crosses that line and even has a piece of you, going back to pretending you're nothing to him won't just be hard—it'll be messy and impossible.
so once again, once he just can't. or rather, he's trying really hard not to.
—
nathan's barely out of the locker room post game, still half in that post win haze—adrenaline not fully settled, teammates talking over each other in the background—when he hears your voice mixed in with some of the WAGs and lingering teammates.
you're leaning on a wall next to melissa, baby luke cuddled in your arms like he's yours. you're rambling about something that based on the twinkle in your eye, clearly feels urgent to you and absolutely not to anyone else.
he laughs through his nose at that, a breathy little sound only for his own ears. and the closer he gets, the easier your words are to make out.
"...and it's literally just been on my floor for, like, a week," you huff, exasperated. "because I thought I could build it myself, which—clearly—was a mistake."
nathan glances over, just as tracy snorts. "how hard can a bookshelf be to build?"
the sound of you pressing a loud kiss on the baby’s cheek sounds before you answer your sister-in-law. "you tell me, trac. seriously, damn you ikea and your minimalistic instructions."
truly, nathan meant to just walk past you. swear. sure, if you noticed him and said something, nathan would've obviously said hello. he's trying to be respectful, not an asshole. but that just goes straight down the drain the second your eyes lock.
"nate," you smile, sliding next to him like a magnet. "good game."
he tickles under luke's chin—because how else are you supposed to great a smiley baby?—and then looks back at you. too blinded by your pretty face to form a response that's not stupid, he just mumbles—"you watched?"
then his eyes fall closed because immediately he wants to take it back. obviously you watched the game because here you are, standing in front of him with a family & friends pass hanging from your neck.
but you only laugh and bump your elbow against his arm. "always," you say instead.
nathan is sure you're trying to kill him with that. he watches, a little dazed, as you pull down luke's little jersey, dividing your attention between the baby and your friends who have moved on from the whole book shelf debacle he overheard.
then before he can think better, nathan gently gets your attention, this time by brushing his elbow against your torso. it's subtle, but it works and you peer up at him, pretty.
"I can help," he swallows, then continues, "with your book shelf."
at first, you just blink at him, but as the words register, a big grin splits across your face. "you can?"
he nods. "yes."
you breath a sigh of relief and almost sag into him. "please, yes. a million times yes. there are too many screws and the instructions are like, aggressive but also lacking."
"aggressive?" his smirk is full of amusement, and you mirror it.
"don't judge until you see them."
"alright," he holds up a hand in surrender, "not until I see them."
—
a few days later, nathan mackinnon finds himself standing in your apartment and is instantly overwhelmed. because he's never been in your space before. sure, he's imagined every single corner, but his imagination pales in comparison to the real thing. it's just so...you.
colourful with big open windows, curtains that are nothing but beads. it's cluttered, but not messy. never dirty. and it smells like you, so much so that when you first opened the door for him and the scent wafted out, nathan had to hold himself up on the door frame.
and it didn't help that you looked like a dream. hair pulled back into two twisty braids. wearing a open button down with a paint mark on the cuff, paired with sun coloured dungarees.
even now, sitting on a fuzzy area rug that resembles a cat more than anything else, instruction sheet held in his calloused hands, nathan can't help but to keep stealing quick glances at you.
wood panels are scattered all around like they've been there since you unpacked them. knowing you, they truly have. nathan hums, flipping a page.
"well?" you ask, sitting crossed legged beside him, gesturing to the instruction.
"these are fine."
"they're not fine," you argue, handing him something that may or may not be the right piece. "they skip steps."
he smiles down at the papers. "they don't skip steps."
you frantically move your finger between two of the steps. you definitely think they don't make sense, but they totally do. "see this?" you look at nathan, exasperated. "they imply steps."
he exhales, but there's no real bite to it. instead he puts them down and reaches for two of the wood panels. "hold this."
and you do. for the most part. your attention drifts every few seconds while you loosely attempt to assist nathan in the bookshelf endeavours, bouncing between him, your phone and the pile of things that still haven't been put away—books, yes, but also a concerning number of stuffed animals that have somehow migrated into the construction zone.
it takes less than an hour to build, which is kind of disappointing because nathan doesn't want to leave you in your element so soon. so he lingers purposefully. not that he needs to make an excuse though, because you're grabbing at his wrist like a kid and asking him to help you put everything on the new shelves.
obviously, he tried to play it nonchalant and like, pretended he didn't want to stick around. "I just built it." nathan had reminded you, secretly hoping you'd keep pushing.
"and now you help style it," you replied, like it was obvious and thank jesus.
it started somewhat normal considering he is always one second away from loosing it around you. books get stacked together and sorted by author and series. apparently it's a system, at least that what you told him when you stepped back for the 10th time to admire the aesthetic.
it makes absolutely no sense to nathan, but he doesn't complain. just offers appropriate hums and nods when you ask him if the boys of tommen series looks good next to the chestnut springs series. whatever that means.
it's not until you start asking him where the stuffed coffee cup should go that he raises a brow. "you've got more stuffies than books." it's not true, but he can't resist teasing you in his own, awkward way.
and it works—you gasp, offended but also not at all. "that's just a lie! and they add decorum anyways."
"right," he mutters, clearly unconvinced, picking up a small figure from the pile. he turns it over in his hand, frowning. "are these...naked babies?"
you immediately grab it back. "they're called sonny angels, you wouldn't get it."
"that's doesn't answer anything."
"they're cute." you pout, holding a baby dressed like a strawberry up to your cheek.
nathan has to swallow back his initial reaction. because you look so fucking cute, all pouty and big eyed like the baby figurine you're holding. instead of leaning down and kissing the pout off your mouth though, he just plucks the figurine out of your hand.
"they're weird." he muses, turning it and flipping it over. his frown deepens when he sees it's actually fucking naked.
"they're collectible," you correct, snatching it right back and then placing it carefully on the shelf in front of some brightly coloured books.
for a moment, it's like his body forgets that you're you—the biggest infatuation of his mind, and the blood pumping through his veins. the reason he considers forgetting his entire moral system.
nathan smiles behind your back. before he gets too distracted looking at your pink painted toenails or the exposed nape of your neck, he reaches for another book apart of one of the many stacks sitting on the rug.
you watch him over your shoulder as he flips it, scanning the back. "what are these about?"
"romance."
he glances up. "all of them?"
you shrug and take it from it. "mostly."
there's a pause—one of those quiet, suspended moments where you can practically see the gears turning in his head. his eyes narrow just slightly, like he's trying to piece something together, and then—"...do they have... sex stuff in them?" he asks, the question coming out slower than expected, cautious in a way that almost feels studied.
you freeze. just for a second. and then the realization hits in a blinding flash. a slow, dangerous grin spreads across your face—bright, delighted, a little bit wicked.
nathan sees it happen in real time, and immediately regrets everything.
"oh my god," you breathe, like you've just uncovered something priceless, waving the book between you like a toy.
"what?" he mutters, defensive already, even though he's not entirely sure why.
"you don't know?"
"I didn't say I don't know."
"but you asked."
"I was asking like—generally," he insists, crossing his giant arms like that somehow solidifies his point.
"yeah," you nod, already turning toward the shelf, fingers skimming over the spines like you're browsing for something specific now. "they do."
nathan watches you, dread settling low in his stomach as he clocks the way you're enjoying this. "don't—"
but the protest comes too late because you've already pulled a different book free, flipping it open with an ease that suggests you've done it a million times. your thumb slides along the pages, scanning quickly, eyes darting—and then you stop, whole face lighting up.
"oh, this is a good one," you say, barely containing your excitement.
"don't read it out loud."
you clear your throat dramatically anyway, because of course you're not going to listen. nathan's stomach already feels tightly coiled, and he exhales sharply, dragging a hand down his face. "seriously—"
you start reading, way too happy. "his tongue licks up her dripping folds, lapping up her sweet and sticky arousal," you quote, unaffected as you continue. every word lands clearly, every implication slipping into the space between you, every line getting a little more suggestive, a little more pointed the longer you go.
nathan goes still at first. like if he doesn't react, it won't register to the part of brain that controls his dick. then he stiffens—subtly, but noticeably—because obviously he's getting hard. how can he not when the girl of his dress is reading him porn. her own book with porn!
so he gets busy. very deliberately busy. he reaches for a stack of books beside him, shifts them, straightens them, picks one up just to put it back down again. his movements are controlled, purposeful—but his ears are turning red now.
then quickly the color spreads, creeping down the back of his neck.
and you notice of course, because now you're giggling, making your voice wavers like you're trying not to. you keep going, dragging out a line just a little longer than necessary. "and as he pushes his rock hard length into her tiny entrance, they both let our guttural sounds."
"okay," nathan cuts in finally, sharper than he means it to be.
but you don't stop because that's just not in you're nature. because you're enjoying this.
you push through another sentence, then another, eyes flicking up just in time to catch the exact moment it clicks for him—that you're not stopping.
"you're unbelievable," he mutters, but there's no real bite to it. just tension. something tight and coiled underneath.
you snap the book shut with a soft thud, grinning up at him like you've just won something. you eye his flush. "oh, you loved that."
"I didn't."
"you so did." you move closer, and he swallows. "maybe you've just found your new favourite form of porn."
"I don't..." he stops himself, laughing once. "you're so—"
"you're blushing." you snicker, poking his cheek.
"i'm not."
"you are," you insist, stepping even closer—enough to close some of the space between you. enough that he has to look down slightly to meet your eyes. "it's cute."
and that doesn't something, deep in his stomach. right between his ribs. everywhere. nathan mackinnon feels those two words, and the way you’re gazing up at him, everywhere.
his jaw tightens, shoulders shifting like he's trying to reset himself—like he's trying very hard to stay in control of whatever is happening.
"put the books away," he says instead, voice lower than possible.
you hum, clearly pleased with yourself, turning back to the shelf. your fingers trail along the spines again, slower this time, like you're considering your next move. but you're still smiling.
mostly because you can feel his eyes on you, tracking every step. and he doesn't even care that you're aware. he's not avoiding, or trying to distract himself from your smile or scent. instead, nathan is basking in it all.
he steps towards you without thinking just as you reach for another book with the cartoon cover—how can something so innocent be so filthy, nathan wonders.
you didn't hear him move, but suddenly he's right there, just behind you, close enough that you can feel the warmth of him, the faint brush of his arm near yours. and your breath catches—just slightly.
slowly, you turn your head, and find he's already looking at you. the air has shifted now, and not just because of the smutty words exchanged between you. it's because of your proximity. proximity that for the first time since you've met, he’s initiated.
your hand is still on the book, but you've forgotten about it entirely now.
his gaze drops—just briefly—to your mouth, and then back up again. it's subtle enough, but also not at all because he's physically unable to hold himself accountable anymore.
obviously you catch it, because how could you not? your heart stutters, just once. "what?" you murmur, soft like the teasing edge has slipped into something else entirely.
he doesn't answer right away. instead, his eyes search your face, like he's trying to decide something. like he's right on the edge of it—the edge of really doing it this time.
you don't move. don't breathe. don't dare break whatever this is.
nathan lifts his hand, a little hesitant, then settles it lightly against the shelf beside your head, caging you in without quite touching you.
your lips part slightly, anticipation curling low in your stomach, your pulse loud in your ears as he inches closer. is this it? is the moment that, unbeknownst to everyone else including nate, you've also been wanting. needing.
but then—he huffs out a quiet breath, something almost like a laugh, and shakes his head just slightly as he pulls back. nathan pushes off the shelf, "we should finish up."
you blink, still caught halfway in the moment. your body a step behind your brain. you watch as he turns away, picking up a stack of dark romance books you've never read because they kind of scares you.
you take them from his hands. the knowing look in your gaze shouldn't surprise him, but it does. "you were gonna kiss me," you state, narrowing your eyes at him.
despite the blush that's been adorning his face for the greater part of the evening, nathan pales.
"I wasn't."
"you were."
"I wasn't."
you stare at him for a beat and then grin. and that's when nathan knows he's ultimately screwed. instead of doing what he should—throw those books to the floor, grab your face and kiss you until you're both dizzy—he’s backing down. he's incapable of committing to you. because he can't no matter how badly he wants to.
instead, he scoffs, not looking at you now. he reaches past you to grab the book from your hand and shove it back onto the shelf.
"put. the books. away." nathan reiterates.
you just laugh softly, leaning back just a little. still entirely too close for his hearts sake. "yeah," you murmur. "okay."
you don't let it get awkward. in all honesty, you pretty much allow the space for nathan to forget it even happened. which he can't decide if he hates or not yet. easy conversation flows between you as you finish putting away all your books and trinkets, and soon enough, the red hue leaves his cheeks and everything goes back to how it was.
nathan watching wishfully from a distance and you pretending you don't realize.
—
cale makar
to nathan mackinnon
heard you helped my sister build her bookshelves. and apparently she read to you? whatever that means
cale makar
to nathan mackinnon
bro you're so whipped
PART FOUR: a love like that
by the time 7:30 rolls around, the movie night you planned with your friends seems to be unraveling. on your phone screen, a list of sorry's and babe i'm gunna have to reschedule's sit. ashley can't come cause nylah is running a fever, and when one kid gets sick, so do the others, meaning melissa and gabe are also out. and tracy got her dates mixed up, and she has to be up early for a flight, so there goes that. cale said he'd come, but you waved him off.
now you sit cross legged in the middle of your couch, staring at the wall like it might change everything. you're not mad per say, it's just—you bought all the good snacks and wine and we're gunna order a pizza and just chill.
but now you're alone, lights dimmed just right, throw blankets ready for people who won't be occupying them, and a big glass of wine you've already polished off.
fuck, you even vacuumed. which is crazy.
"i'm so tragic," you groan to yourself as you flop back against the cushions dramatically. the tv glows painterly across from you, sitting on the netflix home page.
you can't help but sigh wistfully and reach for another slug of wine, this time right from the bottle. once again, you're not mad, but you've just been looking forward to it all day and ugh! for the first time ever, you're feeling truly upset you don't have a husband and family like your friends do.
it's just you and your snacks and wine.
you're mid tying your hair back when a knock sounds at the door. and for a moment, you freeze. because who changed there mind? who's kid miraculously got better?
wait.
the sound comes again, softer this time, like whoever's out there knows you're home. and remembering who you invited know, you know there's one person who didn't cancel—one who would never.
you're off the couch in seconds, nearly tripping over one of your carefully placed blankets on the way before you yank the door open—and there he is.
nathan is standing there like he belongs on your doorstop, a soft blush on his cheeks like he's remembering exactly what happened last time he was in your place. you let your eyes briefly wander over his outfit—a dark hoodie and sweats. he looks comfy and ready for a movie. and maybe it's because you thought everything went into the toilet tonight, but the idea that he came prepared makes your heart swell.
you're completely at odds with the way your brain short circuits for a second. "you came," you say after a beat, a little breathless.
and knowing nothing about the evening besides everyone getting together for a movie, he just looks down at you like that's a strange thing to say. "I said I would."
"I know, but—" you wave a hand vaguely, stepping aside to let him in. "everyone else canceled."
"oh." he hums, almost freezing at the revelation that you're about to be alone. together. again. thankfully, he manages to move his cement filled feet and slip off his shoes—without being asked, of course.
and then he's moving like he knows the space, which is a way he does. h nathan walks into the living room, huffing what sounds like a laugh as he looks over your snack filled coffee table.
you follow. "you don't have to stay."
but much to your surprise, he just shrugs, easy, like it's nothing. "It's fine."
something warm and steady settles under your ribs. "okay," you say, breezing past his ridged body to plop back into your favourite spot. middle cushion, duh. you purse your lips and look up at him, "then you're stuck with me."
he glances between you and the cushion next to you warily before settling down beside you. thigh pressing into yours, arm too. it's nice. he's nice. and warm and big and smells like a clean shower.
your grab a blanket to distract yourself from like, grabbing him.
"what are we watching?" he asks.
the grin you give him is involuntary. "it was going to be that new action movie, but know that it's just us...i'm thinking something more, light hearted."
nathan exhales through his nose, already bracing. "what?"
"10 things I hate about you, obviously. you said you've never seen it," you tell him, pointing at him with the remote like you've just caught him in something incriminating. "it's perfect."
"perfect for who?"
"for me," you reply shamelessly.
he snickers under his breath, but there's no real bite. only adoration.
the movie starts, filling the room with familiar dialogue and the soft glow of shifting scenes. instantly, you're locked in—quoting under your breath, reacting before things happen, occasionally glancing over to gauge his response like it's a test.
at first, nathan doesn't give anything away. arms crossed loosely, posture relaxed but not fully sunk into the couch. eyes on the screen in that deliberate, observant way—like he's studying it instead of watching it.
"you're analyzing it," you accuse quietly about 30 minutes in.
he looks over at you, momentarily dazed at how you look under the glow from the tv. "i'm watching it."
you only laugh, nudge him once and then return to your attention back to the screen. but nathan? he lets his gaze linger on your profile for a moment longer than he should.
it's not soon after you pause the movie because you're hungry. nathan's immediate reaction is to make a comment about the food on the table, in which you respond with a almost slurred need for pizza. he orders it on his phone because you get distracted explaining a scene that hasn't even happened yet.
the door bell rings soon after because he paid extra for express delivery. he also gets up before you can even blink, which is just hot for no reason.
when he walks back into your living space, holding a pizza box in just one hand, the smell of warmth and grease and saucy immediately invades your senses.
"ohmygod," you exclaim so quick it all blends together into one word, "smells like sex."
he shoots you an amused look as he puts down the box next to the wine bottle and the untouched popcorn, but you don't notice because you're too busy flipping open the cardboard lid and sniffing like a mad woman.
"dinner," he says before sitting back down.
you grab a slice and it hits your wrist, which only makes your mouth water. nathan raises a brow as your eyes meet, but instead of answering with words you just take a messy bite—grease and sauce smearing on your cheek.
"you having some?" you ask him through a mouthful.
he shrugs, "I don't eat that stuff during the season."
"boooooo!" you chant until he laughs. but you're not done being a slim, because you dance the slice in his direction, as if trying to tempt him. it doesn't. "don't think about it," you tell him, mouth still unattractively full. "just experience joy."
he pushes your hand away. "I experience joy."
"you observe joy from a distance," you correct, eyebrow quirked knowingly. "do it for my shit movie night."
nathan sighs, a little reserved, but when your pleading eyes don't waver, he's already got his mind made up. there's a long second where he just looks at you, but then—like he's making a conscious decision to ruin his own reputation—he reaches forward and grabs a slice.
a slow grin covers your face as you chew, and before you can think otherwise, you grab your phone and start recording. because this is like, unheard of.
"oh my god, is nathan mackinnon about to eat something with grease?" you whisper dramatically, camera pointed at him.
he pauses, looking between your eyes and the lens. "put your phone down." he says, but he's already grinning.
"no, I have to record this for the future. this is gold."
"oh my god."
you grin, unwavering, holding your ground.
nathan takes a bite then, because it'll make you happy. he chews thoughtfully, enjoying the flavour, because let's be honest, it's been so long since he's eaten something this unhealthy.
and you gasp. naturally.
he keeps chews, expression carefully blank, but you can see it—the flicker, and the split second shift when he realizes grease can be good.
"say something," you urge quietly.
"i'm not saying anything."
"you love it."
"I didn't say that."
"you love it." you beam, "admit it. grease is fucking delicious. maybe not for the gut, but for the soul."
nathan exhales something that sounds suspiciously like a laugh as he drags a hand down his face. "you're so stupid." but he says it with so much softness that you want to kiss him.
you eat almost half the pizza, and nathan only manages to polish off one slice. but you'll take it. the movie keeps playing, beating the climax of the plot.
you've shifted closer to him without realizing it—if that was even possible. the blanket you'd been using has somehow started to spill onto his lap, and your shoulder is practically in his armpit. your legs are tucked under you now, angled slightly toward him, like your body's made the decision before your brain has.
and nathan doesn't move because of he wouldn't dream of it.
the sven plays out, and instinctively you turn to look at nathan, wanting to catch his reaction. but when you do, you find him already looking at you.
the moment stretches like molasses. the movie plays on, familiar lines and voices filling the room, but it all fades—background noise to something quieter and fragile. because neither of you look away.
"watch the movie," he says quietly.
"you're not watching it."
"I am."
"you're not." you challenge, voice barley above a whisper.
the only answer he can manage is to look back at the movie, but it says enough.
when the movie ends and the familiar credits roll, it's probably late enough for it to be concerning. you're both completely sunk into the couch, and you've toed the pizz box away so nathan has somewhere to rest his sock covered feet.
"...I want that," you murmur suddenly—wishfully—almost to yourself.
nathan's attention shifts immediately. he lazily looks over at you. "want what?"
you don't meet his gaze right away. for a beat, your attention stays on the screen, following the moment as it unfolds. "love," you clarify, quieter now. "I want a love like that."
you're not sure why you tell him that. but it's the kind of honesty that slips out when you're comfortable. when your guard is down. when you're not thinking about how it sounds. and maybe it's lingering longing from earlier about feeling alone, or maybe it's something else entirely.
it's all the same when you watch nathan go still. it's subtle enough, but you're still pressed together, so even if it was just a hitched breath, you would've felt it.
he holds your gaze. his hand, resting near yours on the couch over the throw, flexes once—like he's about to reach for you but can't quite get there.
"you will."
your voice goes soft. "you think so?"
nathan swallows down the lump in his throat. he could say it then. tell you, right here. right now. tell you that he knows you'll get a love like that, because he already feels that way for you, and whether you know it or not, you have it.
and just for a second, the admission is on the tip of his tongue.
and you can see it. clear as anything. it's in the way his expression changes, and in the way something deeper pushes past the usual control he keeps locked in place.
his gaze drops briefly to your mouth, then back to your eyes, like he's weighing something, like he's standing right on the edge of it.
"I—" but he stops, words hanging in the space between you like a vice.
your heart stutters with disappointment.
nathan exhales as every fear and doubt about telling you how he feels climbs up his throat. no matter how badly he wants to say it, he can't risk it. can't risk the possibility of loosing you.
the moment folds back in on itself, the walls snapping back into place like they were never down to begin with.
"you will," nathan says instead, quieter this time, like he's settling on something safer. "you deserve that."
not knowing what to say without telling him exactly how you feel about another failed kiss, you just study for a moment. and as you do, underneath the shadows cast from the tv and the hard exterior he blankets his face with, you can see there something there. making him hold back.
"okay," you say finally, just as soft.
he doesn't stay much longer after that. muttering I should go while the credits nears the end—because you'd been too dazed to stop them from rolling—already standing from the couch and leaving you feeling cold. and you had just nodded, and instead of asking him a million questions like you want to, you walk him to the door.
there's a moment there—of course there is—where you both linger a second too long. nathan's hand brushes yours as he reaches for his shoes. your breath catches for no good reason. and he looks at you like he's about to say something again. but you already know he won't.
"thanks for coming," you mumbled, leaning against the wall.
he pauses, and then—"goodnight y/n."
the second the door closes behind him, it all hits you. from the moment you met all those summers ago with the season looming around you, to all the barbecues and birthdays and every quiet moment in between.
you stand there for a moment, staring at nothing, back against the door now—the quiet of your apartment pressing in loud.
what the hell was that?
you replay it instantly—the couch, the way nathan looked at you, the almost. the very obvious, very real almost. the way he started to say something and then didn't. the way his eyes dropped to your mouth like—god.
why didn't he kiss you?
It wasn't just in your head, you think you know that much. because It couldn't have been. because if you felt it—he felt it. that kind of moment doesn't just happen for no reason. people don't look at each other like that and then just...leave like it's another day accomplished.
unless you've read everything wrong. because maybe this entire time you thought you've discovered who the enigma that is nathan mackinnon, and what makes him tick. but maybe—just maybe—you've been mistaking every snear for a smile. every awkward laugh as a pleased one.
your stomach twists at the idea that you've been sitting here for years building something up that was never actually there in the first place.
"no," you mutter, grabbing your phone, pacing once across your living room before turning sharply back. "no, i'm not doing this."
it won't be another night of wondering. not another week of overanalyzing every look, every word, every almost until you drive yourself crazy. if you've been wrong, you need to know now.
if he's going to confuse you—whether it was accidental or on purpose or you're just going crazy—he can deal with the consequences.
"okay," you say to yourself, already pulling on your shoes, barely even thinking about it. "fine. great. perfect."
and then you do something any slightly insane girl would do—call and uber and give him nathan's address.
—
by the time you're standing outside his place, your heart is beating so hard it feels ridiculous. because this is insane. you know that. but you also know you're not one to brush this kind of shit under the rug, if there's something that needs to be said, you're ready to hear it. no more pussy footing around.
you knock before you can overthink it. and then you're immediately holding your breath, panicking while your hand is frozen in place mid air.
then the door opens.
nathan blinks in surprise, obviously not expecting to see you all things considered, hair slightly messier than before, hoodie swapped for a t shirt now. he looks soft, but also more off-guard than you've maybe ever seen him.
"y/n? are you okay? what are you doing here?"
his eyes roam over you, looking for injuries or an answer you haven't given him. he steps out into the porch, eliminating a foot of space between you.
you don't give yourself time to hesitate, words coming out firmer than you intended. "do you hate me or something?"
his brows pull together immediately. "what?"
"I mean," you huff a laugh, hands slapping the sides of your thighs as you drop them, "I thought you liked me. I thought that I made you nervous or something—but it's been years and i'm starting to think I got the wrong impression."
he just stares at you for a second, like his brain is trying to catch up to the fact that you're here. now. saying this. because how could you ever think that? sure, nathan thinks, he has never been forthcoming with your about his feelings, but he's sure he's never given the impression that he hates you. right?
"do you...want to come inside?"
you blink. "do you want me to come inside?"
a beat. he swallows, fingers twitching like he's trying not to touch you. "yes. I do."
your chest tightens, even though you're trying to remain neutral. you tilt your chin up, "then yes."
nathan steps back without another word, gesturing for you to go ahead.
you walk past him, heart in your throat, door clicking shut behind you with a finality that makes everything feel suddenly, terrifyingly real.
there's a moment of silence. mostly because you don't have a plan and you're already regretting it.
"I don't hate you, y/n."
you turn to face him, arms crossed like a shield. "no?"
he shakes his head, stepping a little closer, voice quieter now. "never."
the word lands between you, steady and certain, and it does nothing to calm the way your chest is rising and falling like you've just run all the way here instead of taking an uber.
"okay," you breathe, but it comes out thinner than you mean it to. "then you can't just—" you gesture vaguely between the two of you, frustration bleeding through now that you're here, now that you've started, "—do that and then leave."
his brow furrows. "do what?"
"you know what," you insist, stepping closer without really deciding to. "the couch. the looking at me like you were about to—" you cut yourself off, exhaling sharply. "you almost said something."
and based off the look in your gaze, nathan knows you don't just mean tonight. his jaw tightens slightly. "I didn't."
"you did. you do," you push. "and then you just...shut it down. like always."
"that's not—"
"It is," you interrupt, softer now but more certain. "you get right up to the edge of something real and then you just—pull back. like it doesn't even matter."
"It does matter," he says immediately, stepping closer.
"then why have you never kissed me?"
at that, the room goes silent. your breath catches, eyes never leaving his. there's no taking it back. not that you would, but the idea is almost suffocating. alan or as much as the way he's looking at you.
his eyes bore into yours—like the question physically hit him. like he wasn't expecting you to say it out loud even though it's been sitting there for god knows how long now, obvious and unavoidable.
your heart is pounding, loud enough you're sure he can hear it. "well?" you press.
he exhales slowly, dragging a hand through his hair, pacing once like he needs the movement just to think. "it's not that simple."
"then explain it to me," you fire back. "because for me, it is."
the quick pace he'd been doing comes to a stop as his eyes meet yours again. there's something less guarded about his gaze now, but it comes with a rise of concern. "you want me to be honest?" he asks.
your stomach flips and then flips again—because like usual, you're not sure what to expect from him. "yeah," you swallow, nervous, and continue, "I came all the way here, didn't I?"
a beat passes between you, and then he takes a step closer. "I didn't kiss you," nathan says, voice low, and rough around the edges, "because if I did, I wouldn't be able to stop." the air leaves your lungs as he continues, "and I don't trust myself to do that halfway. I can do that with you."
"why not?" your pulse stutters, heat rushing up your neck.
"because it won't be just a kiss for me," he admits. and as he continues, a weight begins to ease off his rigid shoulders. "It wouldn't be something I could just walk away from after. It wouldn't be something I could pretend didn't change everything. because for me it would be more."
you swallow. "and that's a bad thing?"
"yes," nathan says—too quickly and it makes you flinch. at that, his expression shifts immediately—because he doesn't mean it that way. he could never.
"no," he corrects, softer. "not bad. just—" he exhales, frustrated now, searching for words he clearly doesn't like having to say out loud. "complicated."
"complicated how?" you almost whine, defeat weighing on you now. and it hits nathan right in the gut—because how can he make you understand when he barley knows himself.
"you're—" nathan stops himself after a pause, then shakes his head once like he's trying to recalibrate. "you matter too much."
"that doesn't make any sense."
he moves towards you, stopping so close that you're almost pressed together. "It does to me." he admits, voice so quiet it's almost impossible to register.
"then help me understand," you say, meeting his gaze as you take that final sliver of space and crush it. chest to chest. "because right now it just sounds like you're scared of something that hasn't even happened."
"I'm not scared," he snaps, automatic, that media trained side of the best atheist in the world coming to the surface. it makes your raise almost a playful yet knowing brow. nathan huffs, quieter this time. "okay. maybe I am."
you soften, just a little. "of me?"
his gaze drops to your mouth again—quicker this time, like he doesn't mean to, like it's instinct. maybe it is. "of what happens if I let myself have you."
that does it. you can't help the laugh that bubbles out of your mouth. because hearing that has everything in your chest just—clicking into place.
"nate," you start, placing your palm on his stomach. "the only things what happen is that i'd let you."
nathan blinks at you like he's fighting something—like every instinct he has is telling him to hold the line, to keep things where they are, safe and controlled and unchanged. but he's losing. you can see it.
"y/n—"
"tell me you don't want to kiss me," you interrupt him gently.
there's a choking, thick beat before he closes the small distance left between you, one hand coming up—hesitant for only a fraction of a second before it settles at your jaw, thumb brushing lightly along your cheek like he's testing something fragile.
"I can't tell you that because it wouldn't be true."
your nose brushes his, a smile beginning to take its way over your face. "so maybe you should stop lying to yourself...and just let this happen."
"yeah," he says, voice dipping lower as he finally closes that distance and kisses you. it's not tentative, or unsure. it's everything he's been holding back all this time. yet it's controlled, but only barely, like he's still trying to keep a grip on it even as it slips.
nathan's hand tightens just slightly against your jaw, tilting your head as he pulls you closer—he's been thinking about this for a long time, and he's finally giving himself permission.
your hands bunches in his shirt without thinking, gripping, grounding, and pulling him in like you're afraid he might disappear if you don't.
but he doesn't, because of course he doesn't.
if anything, he deepens it—just a fraction. just enough to make your head spin. just enough to prove his point of you being more to him than just this.
when nathan pulls back, it's only far enough to properly peer down at you. breathing uneven, and forehead almost brushing yours.
"that's why," he says quietly.
and you don't have to ask him to explain.
PART FIVE: the kat stratford ending
1 year later
you're wedged into the corner of cale's sectional that's definitely too small for the number of bodies currently occupying it, one of nathan's hoodies swallowing your hands, socked feet tucked under his thigh like it's second nature.
because now, it is.
the tv is on, but no one's really watching it. someone—probably mikko—has the remote, flipping channels with zero commitment while a half finished debate about something stupid unfolds in the background.
nathan's barley paying attention, to be honest. he's beside you, an arm slung across the back of the couch, fingers idly tracing patterns against your shoulder like he doesn't even realize he's doing it. every so often, his thumb will hook into the fabric of your sleeve, tugging you just a little closer without looking.
this close, he can smell that citrusy sweetness that used to haunt him. now, he craves it more than anything. nose brushing against your head as if trying to find the source.
a year ago, this would've short circuited his brain. you lean deeper into him, humming contently as you drop your head back to look at him.
"you're not even listening," you murmur, smiling.
"I am," he says automatically, but there's a familiar twinkle in his eyes that tells you he's totally lying.
"you're not."
"I know exactly what's happening," he insists.
"okay," you hum, amused. "then what are they arguing about?"
that has him pausing before taking a very educated guess. "hockey?" you just stare at him, brow quirked, and nathan shrugs, pressing his lips to your temple. not a kiss, just an absentminded brush. tender.
"that's usually a safe option." nathan says.
you huff a laugh and nudge him with your shoulder. his hand slides down your arm in response, settling warm and steady at your elbow.
across the room, your brother is watching. which is never a good sign because he likes to annoy you at the best of time. he leans back in his chair, eyes moving between the two of you with the kind of slow, knowing look that immediately makes you suspicious.
"what?" you ask in a way only a sibling could, narrowing your eyes.
he shrugs, way too casual. "nothing."
"that's not a nothing face."
he almost scoffs, "it's absolutely a nothing face."
"It's not," you say flatly. "you're about to say something annoying."
"I'm just saying," he starts, already grinning and you groan out a here we go. cale continues, "this is exactly how I pictured it."
nathan's hand stills slightly against your arm as he listens in.
you blink. "what is?"
"this," he repeats, gesturing vaguely between the two of you. "you. him. the whole—" he waves again, like the concept is too obvious to need words. "being in love thing."
in the past year, your relationship with nathan grew into something he used to have doubts about. being with each other has been easy and undeniable. he's still steady and guarded, while you're definitely still too bubbly to digest. but instead of how he feared that would pull you apart, it's made you both blossom.
whatever the odds felt like at the start, the two of you were always going to make sense. thinking about it now, nathan almost feels stupid for thinking your lack in similarities would be your demise.
mikko, from the other end of the couch, snorts. "took you guys long enough anyways."
now it's nathan turning to look. "excuse me?"
"I'm just being honest," the finland native muses, holding his hands up like he's not about to stir the pot anyway. "we all knew."
"you did not all know," nathan argues immediately.
gabe raises a brow from where he's sprawled out on the rug, luke between his thighs playing with a toy. "we absolutely did."
"no, you didn't," you say now, looking between all of them—which now includes mel, tracy and susanna who are nodding along knowingly. traitors. you practically squawk, "because if you did, someone could've maybe said something instead of letting me think I was insane for—" you cut yourself off, gesturing vaguely. "—for years."
"you were just as bad as each other," your sister in law speaks up, sending you a sheepish smile when you send her a baffled look. "we were just letting you two figure it out."
gabe hums, "don't lie tracy," the blonde directs his attention towards you then, "if it's any consolation, y/n, nathan was like immensely worse."
your boyfriend sits up. "hey, I wasn't that bad."
"you used to run away when she walked into a room."
melissa snorts, "one time you texted me trying to figure out what perfume she wears."
"you held her hair back when she puked."
"you built her a bookshelf dude."
"alright," nathan grumbles, cutting of his friends attack. but there's no bite there.
across the room, someone says something else because they can't help themselves from bugging you. mikko argues, cale throws a cushion at him, and the tv keeps playing something no one's watching—
But here, in this small space carved out between all of it nathan leans down just enough to press another quick kiss to your temple.
absentminded and certain. like it was always going to end up this way.
Pairing: Sidney Crosby x Hollander!Reader, Quinn Hughes x Ex!Reader
Warnings: Trump mention, US men’s national team, cursing
Summary: I was so prepared to fight a war on your side
Authors Note: anything to distract me from the bigger picture (my 30k word Sidney Crosby Olympic fic)
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user1 “bestie” girl, you kiss that man on the lips
user2 like she’s seen more of that man than god has, that is not just her best friend
user3 so proud of Quinn
user4 so excited to get to see the Hughes brothers in the Olympics!!!
user5 idk why I giggle everytime Yn posts Quinn as if they haven’t been dating for like six years
user6 it’s the fact that we all know Shane and Ilya are in her DMs telling her to dump him
user7 girl get that man out the way I wanna see u
user8 I don’t come to this page to see a man
user9 they’re adorable
user10 kinda the cutest couple OAT
user11 she litteraly has an Oscar but she’s dating a man who plays hockey, this is the representation Canada dreams of
user12 Yn you were so good in one battle after another
quinnhughes ❤️
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user13 I will #notice that her family never comments on posts with Quinn in them
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user13 girl broke up with her boyfriend and moved to….Pittsburgh????
user14 serving
user15 love her so bad
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laila_edwards you’re the cooler Hollander
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user16 she’s kind of the coolest person ever
user17 so obsessed
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user18 she really broke up with Quinn and didn’t look back
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yunahollander my sweet girl!!!
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user19 yn’s insta comments kinda the hottest place to be for celebrities im ngl
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user20 WHO IS THAT
user21 Yn saw Twitter speculating that she’s dating Sidney Crosby and said “oh, let me confirm that for you”
user22 SIDNEY CROSBYYYYY
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user23 my dream date….cute
user24 oh to be an actress model model actress dating Sidney Crosby and having Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander as your brothers
user25 the concept of Sidney Crosby spending his summer with Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander
user26 who remembers the time Ilya fought Sid
user27 and then they started playing for Canada together so everything’s fine
user28 so glad Yn escaped the curse of dating an American
shanehollander24 ☀️☀️☀️
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user29 lando what are you doing here 😭
evgeni71malkin what is this “soft launch”? I have photos of you making out with him
ynhollander Geno.
user30 Yn never replies to comments this is so funny
yunahollander my VOGUE cover girl!!!!!!!
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user31 Sidney Crosby log in your beautiful gf is soft launching you but you don’t have Instagram to post a really vague comment neither confirming nor denying
krisletang 🐧🐧🐧
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🎵 bloodonmyhands - Tate McRae
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user32 that soft launch really went out the door
user33 the concept of Sidney Crosby talking shit about Quinn Hughes
ilyarozanov81 I also hate him
shanehollander24 me too 🙋♂️
user34 I love this
yunahollander my favorite couple 🫶
shanehollander24 ?
user35 QUINN HUGHES FIGHT BACK WHERES YOUR ANGER
user36 the mostly cropped pic of Sid omg I’m melting
user37 just the cutest couple ever
evgeni71malkin showed him this post and he wants me to comment “my beautiful girl” do not make me communicate for him ever again this has disgusted me
user38 IM DYINGGGGG
user39 Sidney’s never ending commitment to being a digital nomad will never not make me giggle
user40 how quickly the Hollander-Rozanov’s accepted Sidney actually warms my heart
user41 mind you they NEVER liked Quinn this much
user42 the concept of Yn using a song by her ex boyfriends brothers Canadian girlfriend to shade her ex boyfriend and posting her new Canadian boyfriend….there’s levels to this
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🎵 Free Bird - Lynyrd Skynyrd
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Summary: in which Oscar becomes an inadvertent getaway driver for literal royalty
Warnings: revenge porn (from an ex)
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The sunlight hits the water just right, turning the Mediterranean into something that looks like it belongs in a painting rather than real life. You’re sitting at your favorite cafe, the one tucked away on the waterfront where the tourists don’t usually venture, where the owner knows your name and doesn’t make a fuss about who your family is. It’s late morning, that perfect lazy stretch of Sunday when brunch blurs into early afternoon and no one’s in any hurry to be anywhere else.
“So I told him,” your friend Lilou is saying, gesturing with her mimosa in a way that makes the liquid slosh dangerously close to the rim, “if you can’t handle me at my worst financial quarter, you don’t deserve me at my best ROI.”
You laugh, really laugh, the kind that comes from your stomach. “You did not say that to a venture capitalist.”
“I absolutely did.” Lilou grins. “His face went purple. It was magnificent.”
Your other friend, Naomie, is scrolling through her phone with that particular expression that means she’s looking at something either very good or very bad. You’re about to ask which when she looks up, and her face has gone pale under her carefully applied bronzer.
“Y/N,” she says, and her voice has gone careful in a way that makes your stomach drop. “Don’t freak out.”
Which is, of course, the worst possible thing anyone can say if they want you not to freak out.
“What?” Your voice comes out sharper than you intend.
Naomie hesitates, then turns her phone toward you. The screen shows TMZ’s homepage, and your face is plastered across it. Not your face from some charity gala or royal engagement. Your face from-
Oh God.
The photos. The ones from two years ago, the ones that were supposed to be private, the ones that Sacha promised-
“That fucking bastard,” Lilou hisses, and you realize she’s looking at her own phone now. “That absolute piece of-”
You can’t breathe. The cafe suddenly feels too small, too exposed. You’re dimly aware that people at other tables are looking at their phones, looking at you, whispering. Monaco is small. Monaco is safe. Monaco has the strictest privacy laws in Europe, but that doesn’t matter when the photos are already out there, when TMZ and The Sun and every other vulture has already posted them.
“We need to go,” Naomie says, already standing. “Right now.”
Your security team materializes from wherever they’ve been discretely positioned. Augustin, your head of security, has his phone pressed to his ear and his face set in that expression that means things are very, very bad.
“Your Highness,” he says, which he only does when things are serious. Usually he just calls you by your name. “We need to get you back to the palace. Now.”
But it’s already too late. You can see them coming, a swarm of photographers with cameras that look more like weapons, shouting questions that blur together into meaningless noise. How did they get here so fast? How did they even know where you were?
Sacha. It has to be Sacha. He probably tipped them off, probably wanted to maximize the humiliation. His family’s title might be meaningless now, but his capacity for spite is apparently infinite.
“Back exit,” Augustin is saying into his radio. “Prepare the car at the back-”
But when you make it to the back exit, there are more of them. They’re everywhere, like they’ve multiplied, like they’ve surrounded the building. The noise is overwhelming — cameras clicking, voices shouting, a wall of sound and bodies and flashing lights even in the bright Monaco sunshine.
“Princess! Princess! How do you respond to the leaked photos?”
“Did you know he was going to release them?”
“What does the Prince have to say about this?”
Augustin is trying to clear a path, his team forming a protective circle around you, but there are too many of them. Someone’s camera hits you in the shoulder. Someone else’s hand grabs at your arm. The world has become a blur of aggression and invasion, and you can’t-
A gap opens up. You don’t think. You just run.
“Your Highness!” Augustin’s voice is distant now, swallowed by the crowd.
You run toward the residential streets, toward anywhere that isn’t here. Your sandals weren’t made for running, and you can feel blisters forming, but you don’t stop. Behind you, the paparazzi are following, shouting, some of them running too. They’re like sharks who’ve smelled blood in the water, and you’re the blood.
Your lungs are burning. Your vision is blurring with tears you won’t let fall, not where they can photograph them. The streets of Monaco blur past, familiar and foreign at the same time. This is your home. This is supposed to be safe.
You turn a corner and nearly slam into a parked car, catch yourself on the hood, keep running. You can hear them behind you, relentless. Your phone is buzzing in your pocket — probably Augustin, probably your mother, probably everyone — but you can’t stop to answer it.
Then you hear it. A car engine, and tires squealing, and a voice shouting, “Get in!”
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Oscar is having a perfectly normal Sunday. Or what passes for normal when you’re a Formula 1 driver living in Monaco. He’s just finished his morning training session — a brutal workout that his performance coach insists is necessary even during the off-season — and he’s driving back to his apartment in one of his McLarens, thinking about whether he has enough eggs left for an omelet or if he needs to stop at the store.
The Monaco streets are quiet at this time of day, that lazy Sunday lull when even the tourists seem to take a break. He’s got the windows down, enjoying the Mediterranean air, already planning the rest of his day. Maybe he’ll call Lando, see if he wants to play Tarkov later. Maybe he’ll finally beat that one level he’s been stuck on.
Then he sees you.
You’re sprinting down the street like your life depends on it. You’re wearing a sundress that was probably pretty before you started running, and your hair is coming loose from whatever style it was in. Behind you, there’s a mob of photographers, cameras bouncing as they run, shouting things Oscar can’t quite make out.
Oscar doesn’t think. There’s no time to think. He slams on the brakes hard enough that the car skids slightly, and he’s already rolling down the passenger window, already shouting.
“Get in!”
You don’t hesitate. You yank the door open and throw yourself into the passenger seat, and Oscar is already accelerating before you’ve even closed the door. In his rearview mirror, he can see the photographers slowing, some of them still taking pictures, some of them shouting things he’s glad he can’t hear.
You’re breathing hard, almost hyperventilating. You’ve got your hand pressed to your chest like you’re trying to keep your heart from bursting out of your ribcage.
“Are you okay?” Oscar asks, which is possibly the stupidest question he’s ever asked. You’re clearly not okay.
You don’t answer immediately, just nod while still trying to catch your breath. Oscar keeps driving, taking random turns to make sure they’re not being followed. He’s had his own experiences with aggressive photographers — not nearly as bad as what he just witnessed, but enough to know how terrifying it can be.
He hits a red light, and Oscar finally has a chance to actually look at his unexpected passenger.
You’re beautiful. Like, stupidly beautiful. Even with your makeup smudged and your hair a mess and tears threatening to spill down your cheeks, you’re the most stunning person he’s ever seen. There’s something familiar about you, too, something nagging at the back of his mind, but he can’t quite place it.
“Thank you,” you say, and your voice is shaky but controlled, like you’re using every ounce of willpower to keep it steady. “Thank you so much, I don’t—I couldn’t—they were everywhere-”
“Hey, it’s okay,” Oscar says, trying to sound calming. “You don’t have to explain. I get it.”
You look at him then, really look at him, and he sees the moment recognition hits. Your eyes widen slightly.
“You’re Oscar Piastri,” you say.
“Uh, yeah.” He feels his ears go red, which is ridiculous. He’s been recognized plenty of times. It shouldn’t make him blush like a teenager. “And you’re …” He trails off, waiting for you to fill in the blank.
You hesitate, and in that hesitation, Oscar realizes you’re debating whether to tell him the truth. Which means you’re probably someone. Someone famous enough that paparazzi would chase you through the streets like a pack of wild animals.
“I’m Y/N,” you say finally, not offering a last name.
The light turns green. Oscar drives.
“Is there somewhere I can take you?” He asks. “Somewhere safe?”
You’re quiet for a long moment. Your phone is buzzing constantly in your pocket, and you pull it out, look at the screen, and Oscar catches a glimpse of dozens of missed calls and hundreds of notifications before you turn it off completely.
“I don’t know,” you say, and your voice cracks on the last word. “I should go home, but I can’t—I can’t deal with it right now. With all of it.”
Oscar makes a decision that is either the smartest or stupidest thing he’s ever done. Probably stupidest. Definitely stupidest.
“You can come to my place,” he offers. “If you want. Just until things calm down a bit. No pressure.”
You turn to look at him, and there’s something in your expression he can’t quite read. Surprise, maybe. Or disbelief that a stranger is offering you refuge.
“You don’t even know me,” you say.
“I know you were running from those psychos,” Oscar says. “And I know what it’s like when the media decides you’re their story of the day. It’s not fun.”
“You’re comparing Formula 1 media to-” You stop yourself, shake your head. “Sorry. That was rude. You’re being incredibly kind and I’m being a bitch.”
“You’re being someone who just had a really shit morning,” Oscar corrects. “There’s a difference.”
A small smile tugs at your lips, the first one he’s seen. It transforms your entire face.
“Okay,” you say quietly. “If you’re sure you don’t mind, I’d really appreciate it. Just for a few hours.”
“I don’t mind,” Oscar says, and realizes he means it. There’s something about you that makes him want to help, want to make sure you’re okay. Maybe it’s just basic human decency. Maybe it’s something else he doesn’t want to examine too closely right now.
He takes a deliberately roundabout route to his apartment building, checking his mirrors constantly to make sure they’re not being followed. You’re quiet beside him, staring out the window at Monaco passing by. Your hands are twisted together in your lap, knuckles white.
“So,” Oscar says, because the silence is starting to feel heavy, “tennis player or model?”
That gets a surprised laugh out of you, short and sharp. “What?”
“I’m trying to figure out who you are,” he admits. “You look familiar, but I can’t place you. And given that you live in Monaco and the paparazzi are that interested in you, I’m guessing you’re either an athlete or a model. Or maybe an actress?”
You’re quiet for a moment, and Oscar wonders if he’s overstepped. Then you say, “None of the above, actually.”
“Mysterious,” Oscar says. “I like it. Very James Bond.”
Another small smile. “I’m really more of a Bourne Identity girl.”
“Good taste,” Oscar nods approvingly. “Though I have to say, you don’t seem like you have amnesia.”
“Right now I kind of wish I did,” you mutter, and there’s real pain in your voice.
Oscar wants to ask what happened, what could possibly warrant that level of media frenzy, but he doesn’t. You’ll tell him if you want to. Or you won’t, and that’s fine too.
They pull into the underground garage of his building, and Oscar breathes a small sigh of relief. No paparazzi waiting here. You take the elevator up to his floor in silence, and he fumbles with his keys for a moment before getting the door open.
“Sorry about the mess,” he says automatically, though his apartment isn’t actually that messy. There’s a racing simulator set up in the living room and some dishes in the sink, but that’s about it.
You step inside and look around, and something in your posture relaxes slightly. “This is nice,” you say. “Normal.”
“I’ll take that as a compliment,” Oscar says. “Can I get you anything? Water? Tea? Something stronger?”
“Water would be great, thank you.”
He grabs two bottles from the fridge and hands you one. You take it gratefully and drink half of it in one go.
“You can sit,” Oscar gestures to the couch. “Make yourself comfortable. I’m just going to …” He trails off, not sure what he’s going to do, actually. Hover awkwardly? That seems to be his current plan.
You sit down on the couch, and for a moment you just stare at your hands. Then you say, very quietly, “My ex-boyfriend leaked nude photos of me.”
Oscar, who was in the process of sitting down in the armchair, freezes halfway. “Shit.”
“Yeah.” You laugh, but there’s no humor in it. “They went live about an hour ago. TMZ, The Sun, every disgusting tabloid on the planet. I was having brunch with my friends when it happened, and suddenly there were paparazzi everywhere, and I just—I couldn’t think. I just ran.”
“That’s …” Oscar tries to find words and fails. “I’m so sorry. That’s awful. That’s beyond awful.”
“The worst part is I trusted him,” you continue, and now the tears are falling, sliding down your cheeks. “We broke up months ago, and it was messy, but I never thought … I never imagined he would do something like this. That he could be this cruel.”
Oscar sits down properly, not sure if he should try to comfort you or give you space. He settles for just being present, being quiet, letting you talk if you want to.
“I need to call my security team,” you say, wiping at your eyes. “They’re probably losing their minds. And my parents are definitely having a breakdown.”
“You can use my phone if you want,” Oscar offers. “If you don’t want to turn yours back on yet.”
You consider this, then nod. “That would be good, actually. Thank you.”
Oscar hands over his phone and then makes himself scarce, going into the kitchen to give you privacy. He can hear your voice, low and controlled, explaining where you are, that you’re safe. He tries not to eavesdrop, busying himself with actually doing those dishes in the sink.
When you come back into the kitchen, you’re wiping your eyes again, but you seem calmer.
“My head of security is on his way,” you say. “But he said it’ll be about thirty minutes. The palace-” You stop yourself. “Where I live is dealing with a media circus right now, apparently.”
Palace. Oscar’s brain catches on that word and turns it over. Palace. Who lives in a palace in Monaco?
Oh.
Oh no.
He must make some kind of expression because you catch it.
“What?” You ask.
“Nothing,” Oscar says, too quickly. “Just … you said palace.”
You close your eyes. “Right. Yeah. So, full disclosure, I’m kind of a princess.”
“Kind of?”
“Officially. Princess Y/N Grimaldi of Monaco.” You say it like you’re admitting to a crime. “Which is probably why you thought I looked familiar. I’m at most of the Monaco Grand Prix events.”
Oscar’s brain is short-circuiting. He just rescued an actual princess. An actual princess is currently standing in his kitchen. An actual princess just told him about her leaked nude photos while drinking from one of his reusable water bottles.
“I’m going to sit down now,” he says, and does so, right there on the kitchen floor.
You look down at him, and despite everything, you’re smiling. “Are you okay?”
“I just need a minute,” Oscar says. “I’m processing.”
“This is why I didn’t tell you,” you say, but you don’t sound upset about it. If anything, you sound amused. “People get weird.”
“I’m not being weird,” Oscar protests. “I’m being completely normal about the fact that there’s royalty in my apartment.”
“You’re sitting on the floor.”
“It’s a very comfortable floor.” He pauses. “Should I call you Your Highness? Do I need to bow?”
“God, please don’t,” you say, and you sit down on the floor next to him. “Just Y/N is fine. More than fine. Preferred, actually.”
You sit there on his kitchen floor in silence for a moment. It should be awkward — he barely knows you, you’re a literal princess, this whole situation is insane — but somehow it’s not.
“For what it’s worth,” Oscar says, “I would have helped you even if I knew who you were.”
“Yeah?” You look at him, and there’s something vulnerable in your expression.
“Yeah. Nobody deserves to be chased like that. Princess or not.”
You smile at him, a real smile this time, and Oscar feels something shift in his chest. Dangerous territory, his brain warns him. This is a princess who just had her privacy violated in the worst possible way. This is not the time to develop a crush.
His heart, unfortunately, doesn’t seem to be listening.
“Do you want to talk about it?” He asks. “Or we could talk about literally anything else. I’m good either way.”
You consider this. “Anything else sounds good. I’ve been thinking about it nonstop since I saw Naomie’s phone. I could use a break from my own brain.”
“Right. Okay. Distraction.” Oscar thinks. “Have you seen that new documentary about the guy who tried to live underwater for a month?”
“Wait, what?” You laugh, surprised. “That’s a real thing?”
“Completely real. He set up this whole habitat thing and tried to break some kind of record. It went about as well as you’d expect.”
“Which is to say, poorly?”
“He made it three weeks before he got so sick of his crewmate that they almost killed each other. The footage is incredible.”
You’re smiling now, the tension in your shoulders easing. “That sounds amazing. And also terrible.”
“It’s both. I watched the whole thing at like two in the morning after a race. Could not look away.”
“You watch documentaries at two in the morning after races?”
“The adrenaline makes it hard to sleep sometimes,” Oscar admits. “So yeah, I watch a lot of weird stuff. Last month I went down a rabbit hole about competitive cheese rolling.”
“Competitive cheese rolling.”
“They chase a wheel of cheese down a hill. People get seriously injured. It’s wild.”
You’re laughing now, really laughing, and Oscar decides that might be his new favorite sound.
“You’re kind of weird, Oscar Piastri,” you say.
“I prefer charmingly eccentric,” Oscar says, and you laugh again.
You talk for the next twenty minutes, about everything and nothing. You tell him about the time you accidentally started a diplomatic incident by insulting the French ambassador’s tie in what you thought was a private conversation. Oscar tells you about the time Lando convinced him to try stand-up paddleboarding and he fell in the water nineteen times.
“Nineteen?” You’re incredulous. “How is that even possible?”
“I have no idea. Lando said it was a gift. A very specific, very embarrassing gift.”
“He sounds like a good friend.”
“He is. Even if he does film all my humiliating moments and threaten to post them online.”
“I have a friend like that,” you say. “Lilou. She once got us kicked out of a casino in Shanghai for counting cards.”
“Can you actually count cards?”
“Not even a little bit. That’s what made it so funny.”
There’s a knock at the door, and your expression immediately shifts, the easy happiness draining out of it.
“That’s probably Augustin,” you say quietly.
Oscar gets up and checks the peephole. There’s a man in a suit standing in the hallway, looking exactly like what Oscar imagines a royal security guard would look like.
“It’s him,” Oscar confirms.
You stand up slowly, and Oscar can see you putting on armor, becoming the princess again instead of just Y/N who laughs at stories about competitive cheese rolling.
“Thank you,” you say. “For everything. For pulling over, for bringing me here, for …” You gesture vaguely. “For being normal. I really needed that today.”
“Any time,” Oscar says, and realizes he means it. “I mean, hopefully not under these circumstances again, but you know. If you need someone to talk about weird documentaries with.”
You smile, and it’s sad and sweet at the same time. “I’d like that.”
Oscar opens the door. Augustin looks relieved and furious in equal measure.
“Your Highness,” he says, and his tone makes it clear there will be words later. “We need to go.”
“I know,” you say. You turn back to Oscar. “Goodbye, Oscar. And thank you. Really.”
“Take care of yourself,” Oscar says, because he doesn’t know what else to say.
You nod, and then you’re gone, following Augustin down the hallway. Oscar stands in his doorway and watches until you disappear into the elevator.
His apartment feels very empty suddenly.
Oscar closes the door and leans against it. His heart is still doing that stupid fluttery thing. This is ridiculous. He just met you. You’re a princess. You’re dealing with a massive crisis. This is absolutely not the time for him to be feeling whatever it is he’s feeling.
But he can still hear your laugh echoing in his kitchen, can still see the way your eyes lit up when you were talking about your friend. Can still remember the way you looked at him like he was just a normal person being kind, not someone seeing a princess.
His phone buzzes. It’s a text from Lando. Dude, did you see the news about Monaco’s princess? Wild.
Oscar looks at the message for a long moment, then types back. Yeah. Wild.
He doesn’t mention that you were just in his apartment. Doesn’t mention that he can still smell your perfume in his living room. Doesn’t mention that he’s pretty sure he just developed a crush on someone so far out of his league you’re basically in different galaxies.
Instead, he goes to his fridge, pulls out the eggs, and starts making that omelet he’d been thinking about before his entire morning got turned upside down. Normal. He can do normal.
Even if nothing about today has been normal at all.
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The palace feels like a prison.
You’ve been back for three hours, and in those three hours you’ve had meetings with your father, your father’s chief of staff, the palace PR team, and your personal lawyer. Everyone has opinions about what you should do, what you should say, how you should handle this.
Nobody has asked how you’re doing.
Well, that’s not entirely true. Your father asked, in that way he has where it’s clear he’s asking out of duty rather than genuine concern. You told him you were fine. He seemed relieved. One less thing to worry about.
Now you’re alone in your room, staring at your phone. You turned it back on against your better judgment, and the notifications are still coming in. Messages from friends, from acquaintances, from people you haven’t spoken to in years suddenly very concerned about your wellbeing.
Your lawyer says you can sue Sacha, that what he did is illegal in Monaco, that he’ll face consequences. But consequences don’t undo what’s been done. The photos are out there. They’ll be out there forever, archived and re-shared and impossible to fully erase.
You think about Oscar’s apartment. About sitting on his kitchen floor, talking about underwater habitats and cheese rolling. About feeling, for just a little while, like a normal person having a normal conversation.
Your phone buzzes. Another message. You’re about to ignore it when you see the name: Lilou.
Naomie and I are at the gates. Security won’t let us in. Tell them we’re allowed or I’m going to start a scene.
Despite everything, you smile. You call down to security and tell them to let your friends through.
Ten minutes later, Lilou and Naomie burst into your room carrying wine, chocolate, and what appears to be an entire pizza.
“Comfort food emergency protocol,” Lilou announces. “Also, your security is very uptight today.”
“They think I’m going to make a run for it again,” you say.
“Are you?” Naomie asks, setting the pizza down on your desk.
“I’m considering it.”
Lilou opens the wine with the efficiency of someone who has opened many bottles in crisis situations. “So. We need details. You disappeared for like an hour. Augustin nearly had a stroke. Where did you go?”
You hesitate, then decide that if you can’t tell your best friends, who can you tell? “Someone picked me up. In their car. Gave me a place to hide until Augustin could get me.”
Naomie’s eyes widen. “A stranger? Y/N, that’s-”
“Not a total stranger,” you interrupt. “Oscar Piastri.”
Both of your friends freeze. Lilou is mid-pour. Naomie has a piece of pizza halfway to her mouth.
“The Formula 1 driver?” Lilou says slowly.
“The very cute Formula 1 driver?” Naomie adds.
You feel your face heat. “He saw me running and told me to get in his car. Then he took me back to his apartment and we … talked.”
“You talked,” Lilou repeats, her voice flat with disbelief.
“About documentaries and cheese rolling and—it doesn’t matter. The point is he was really kind. And he didn’t make a big deal about who I am.”
“Because he didn’t know who you were?” Naomie asks.
“Not at first. I told him eventually.”
Lilou hands you a very full glass of wine. “Okay. So in the middle of the worst day of your life, you accidentally had a meet-cute with an adorable racing driver.”
“It wasn’t a meet-cute,” you protest. “It was … situational necessity.”
“Did he give you his number?” Naomie asks.
You shake your head. “No. I mean, why would he? I’m dealing with a massive scandal. I’m basically radioactive right now.”
“Or,” Lilou says, “you’re a beautiful, intelligent woman who had something horrible happen to her, and he’s a decent human being who helped you when you needed it.”
You take a long drink of wine. “It doesn’t matter anyway. I’ll probably never see him again.”
“You live in Monaco,” Naomie points out. “He lives in Monaco. The Monaco Grand Prix exists. You’ll definitely see him again.”
“Maybe,” you say. “But it’s not like anything can happen. I’m-” You gesture vaguely at yourself, at your room, at the palace around you. “I’m a walking scandal right now.”
“You’re a victim of revenge porn,” Lilou says firmly. “There’s a difference. And anyone who doesn’t see that can fuck right off.”
You love your friends. You really do.
You spend the next few hours eating pizza and drinking wine and trying not to think about the fact that somewhere in Monaco, Oscar Piastri is probably going about his evening, completely unaware that you can’t stop thinking about the way he sat on his kitchen floor and told you about underwater documentaries like it was the most natural thing in the world.
It’s stupid. You know it’s stupid. But in a day full of horrible things, that hour in his apartment was the only thing that felt … good.
Maybe Naomie is right. Maybe you will see him again.
Pairing: Sidney Crosby x Hollander!Reader, Quinn Hughes x Ex!Reader
Warnings: Trump mention, US men’s national team, cursing
Summary: I was so prepared to fight a war on your side
Authors Note: anything to distract me from the bigger picture (my 30k word Sidney Crosby Olympic fic)
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user1 “bestie” girl, you kiss that man on the lips
user2 like she’s seen more of that man than god has, that is not just her best friend
user3 so proud of Quinn
user4 so excited to get to see the Hughes brothers in the Olympics!!!
user5 idk why I giggle everytime Yn posts Quinn as if they haven’t been dating for like six years
user6 it’s the fact that we all know Shane and Ilya are in her DMs telling her to dump him
user7 girl get that man out the way I wanna see u
user8 I don’t come to this page to see a man
user9 they’re adorable
user10 kinda the cutest couple OAT
user11 she litteraly has an Oscar but she’s dating a man who plays hockey, this is the representation Canada dreams of
user12 Yn you were so good in one battle after another
quinnhughes ❤️
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user13 I will #notice that her family never comments on posts with Quinn in them
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ynhollander Pittsburgh film festival I love you!!!
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user13 girl broke up with her boyfriend and moved to….Pittsburgh????
user14 serving
user15 love her so bad
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laila_edwards you’re the cooler Hollander
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teyanataylor I LOVE YOU!!!
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user16 she’s kind of the coolest person ever
user17 so obsessed
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user18 she really broke up with Quinn and didn’t look back
ilyarozanov81 the coolest
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yunahollander my sweet girl!!!
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shanehollander24 you need to teach me how to dress
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user19 yn’s insta comments kinda the hottest place to be for celebrities im ngl
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user20 WHO IS THAT
user21 Yn saw Twitter speculating that she’s dating Sidney Crosby and said “oh, let me confirm that for you”
user22 SIDNEY CROSBYYYYY
ilyarozanov81 😎
user23 my dream date….cute
user24 oh to be an actress model model actress dating Sidney Crosby and having Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander as your brothers
user25 the concept of Sidney Crosby spending his summer with Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander
user26 who remembers the time Ilya fought Sid
user27 and then they started playing for Canada together so everything’s fine
user28 so glad Yn escaped the curse of dating an American
shanehollander24 ☀️☀️☀️
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user29 lando what are you doing here 😭
evgeni71malkin what is this “soft launch”? I have photos of you making out with him
ynhollander Geno.
user30 Yn never replies to comments this is so funny
yunahollander my VOGUE cover girl!!!!!!!
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user31 Sidney Crosby log in your beautiful gf is soft launching you but you don’t have Instagram to post a really vague comment neither confirming nor denying
krisletang 🐧🐧🐧
sabrinacarpenter you’re the hottest
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🎵 bloodonmyhands - Tate McRae
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ynhollander bounced back and found another (and he hates you)
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user32 that soft launch really went out the door
user33 the concept of Sidney Crosby talking shit about Quinn Hughes
ilyarozanov81 I also hate him
shanehollander24 me too 🙋♂️
user34 I love this
yunahollander my favorite couple 🫶
shanehollander24 ?
user35 QUINN HUGHES FIGHT BACK WHERES YOUR ANGER
user36 the mostly cropped pic of Sid omg I’m melting
user37 just the cutest couple ever
evgeni71malkin showed him this post and he wants me to comment “my beautiful girl” do not make me communicate for him ever again this has disgusted me
user38 IM DYINGGGGG
user39 Sidney’s never ending commitment to being a digital nomad will never not make me giggle
user40 how quickly the Hollander-Rozanov’s accepted Sidney actually warms my heart
user41 mind you they NEVER liked Quinn this much
user42 the concept of Yn using a song by her ex boyfriends brothers Canadian girlfriend to shade her ex boyfriend and posting her new Canadian boyfriend….there’s levels to this
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Summary: you don’t realize how much you’ve been shrinking yourself to fit into someone else’s life until you’re forced to look at the pieces. It starts with an Olympic gold medal and a boyfriend who laughs when your entire sport is treated like a political punchline. But it shifts with Sidney Crosby in the Milan cold, pointing out the devastating difference between a boy you have to make excuses for and a man who actually respects you. Sometimes, moving on isn’t just a breakup … it’s an absolute upgrade
author’s note: yes reader is basically just sabrina carpenter…
synopsis 𖦹ׂ ₊˚⊹⋆。𖦹°‧
for a while, will smith was just another verified name in your notifications. an nhl star who liked one of your posts at 2:17 a.m., then another the next night, then accidentally replied to your story after a sharks win. you weren’t supposed to answer. but you did. what starts as harmless pregame texting turns into watching each other from different cities — you from soundchecks and sold-out arenas, him from locker rooms and charter flights. somewhere between time zones and missed calls, the lines blur. and suddenly, the only rule that matters is this: don’t let anyone find out.
At the end of the day, I truly just feel horrible for the USA women’s hockey team, who were reduced to a joke by the president of the very country they won a gold medal for and whose anthem they sang proudly with American flags draped around their shoulders. Who were laughed at by their fellow Olympians and hockey players. Who have worked just as hard (if not harder) than the men to get to the point, because after the last Winter Olympics, many of them didn’t even know if they would be able to continue playing professional hockey on account of being women!
But I am so fucking proud of them and I refuse to let their win be overshadowed by this absolute garbage. They are gold medalists and always will be!
Summary: you meet Jack Hughes at your family’s club. He's sweet, nervous, genuinely falling for you. You’re falling too. But there are things he doesn’t know yet … like who your father is, what your last name means in North Jersey, and exactly how far your family will go to protect what’s theirs. Some love stories involve meeting the parents over dinner. Yours involves reinforced doors, expensive apology whiskey, and a very specific kind of family loyalty. He should probably run. He won’t.
Warnings: (off-screen) murder of a minor character
The bass thumps a rhythm that works its way through the soles of your shoes, up your legs, and settles deep in your chest. It’s a familiar heartbeat. The pulsing, strobing lights catch the glitter on your friend Gia’s eyelids as she laughs, her head thrown back, a curtain of dark hair shimmering down her back. The air is thick with the smell of expensive perfume, spilled liquor, and something electric — the kinetic energy of a hundred bodies packed together, all seeking a specific kind of oblivion for a few hours on a Saturday night.
This place, Aura, is a cathedral of your family’s making. Every velvet rope, every gleaming brass rail, every bottle of top-shelf vodka behind the bar is a testament to your father’s particular genius. From the outside, it’s the hottest club in North Jersey. A place for athletes and real housewives and kids with trust funds to see and be seen. In the back, behind a door that looks like any other but is reinforced with steel and requires your uncle’s thumbprint to open, it’s something else entirely. It’s the office. But tonight, you’re not thinking about the office. Tonight, you’re just dancing.
You move with an easy, fluid grace, a subtle sway of your hips that feels like a secret you’re telling the music. You’re aware of the eyes on you. You always are. It’s part of the inheritance. But you filter them out, compartmentalize them into the background noise of your life. Most of them are unimportant.
Until one isn’t.
Across the pulsing sea of people, in one of the elevated VIP booths, sits Jack Hughes. You don’t need your friend Bri to lean in and whisper his name in your ear. This is Jersey. You know your Devils. He’s with a few teammates — Luke Hughes, Dawson Mercer, their faces recognizable from TV and the sides of buses. They’re laughing, drinking, doing what twenty-something guys with multi-million dollar contracts do on a night off. But Jack isn’t laughing. He’s just watching you. His gaze isn't predatory or sleazy like so many of the others. It’s focused. Curious. Like he’s trying to solve a particularly difficult puzzle.
“Someone’s got a fan,” Bri says, her voice a low hum against your ear.
You don’t turn your head, just let a slow smile touch your lips. “Is he cute?” You ask, feigning ignorance, your eyes still locked on Gia’s.
“Is Jack Hughes cute?” Bri scoffs playfully. “Does my father skim a little off the top of the construction contracts? Stop playing.”
You laugh, a genuine, throaty sound, and finally let your gaze drift back to his booth. Your eyes meet his across the crowded room. He doesn’t look away, doesn’t try to hide the fact that he's been staring. There’s a flicker of something in his expression — surprise, maybe, at being caught so directly. A corner of his mouth quirks up in a half-smile. You hold his gaze for a beat longer than necessary before turning back to your friends, a new kind of energy humming under your skin. The bass suddenly feels like it’s beating just for you.
***
Jack feels the verbal jab from his brother before it even leaves his mouth.
“Dude, your tongue is gonna fall out if you don’t close your mouth,” Luke says, nudging his shoulder.
Jack blinks, tearing his eyes away from the girl on the dance floor. “What? I was just … looking around.”
“Yeah, looking around at one specific person for the last ten minutes,” Dawson adds, taking a sip of his drink. “You’re about as subtle as a hip check into the boards.”
Jack ignores them, his gaze snapping right back to you. It’s not just that you’re beautiful — and you are, in a way that feels both classic and dangerous, like a vintage Italian sports car. It’s the way you carry yourself. You’re not dancing for anyone. You’re not trying to be seen. You’re just … existing in this space like you own it. There’s an unapologetic confidence in the set of your shoulders, in the sharp, intelligent look in your eyes. You’re wearing a black dress that fits you like a second skin, and the way you move is making it hard for him to form a complete thought.
“Well?” Luke presses. “You gonna go over there or are you just gonna sit here and burn a hole through her with your eyeballs all night?”
“Nah, man,” Jack says, shaking his head. “Look at her. She’s with her friends. She’s in her own world.”
It’s an excuse, and he knows it. The truth is, he’s intimidated. It’s a foreign feeling. He can skate onto a sheet of ice in front of twenty thousand screaming fans and not feel a single nerve, but the thought of walking across this club and trying to string a coherent sentence together in front of you feels like staring down a five-on-three penalty kill.
“Since when has that ever stopped you?” Dawson asks, arching an eyebrow.
“Just … not feeling it.”
Just then, you look over again. This time, there’s no hesitation. Your eyes lock with his, and you offer him a slow, deliberate smile. It’s not just a smile; it’s an invitation. A challenge. And it short-circuits every single excuse in his brain.
“Okay,” Luke says, watching the silent exchange. “Game on.”
Jack feels a nervous energy bubble up in his chest. He pushes himself to his feet, running a hand through his hair. “Alright, alright. I’m going.”
The short walk from the booth to the dance floor feels like the longest of his life. The music seems to get louder, the lights brighter, the people thicker. He dodges a stumbling couple, sidesteps a waitress with a tray of shots, and keeps his eyes locked on you, his target. You watch his approach, that same infuriatingly gorgeous smile playing on your lips.
He finally reaches your small circle, the forcefield of your friend group. He has to lean in close, his mouth near your ear, just to be heard over the pounding beat. The scent of your perfume — something warm and sweet and spicy — hits him, and his brain stalls for a second.
“Hey,” he says. It’s all he’s got.
You turn to face him fully, your body angled toward his. You’re a little shorter than he expected, but the way you stand makes you seem a foot taller. “Hey.”
“I’m Jack.”
Your smile widens. It’s a little bit wicked. “I know who you are.”
The words throw him completely off balance. It’s not the fawning, star-struck recognition he sometimes gets. It’s a statement of fact. Of course, I know who you are. This is my town. He feels his cheeks get warm.
“Right. Yeah,” he stammers, recovering. He gestures vaguely toward the bar. “Can I get you a drink?”
You let out a small laugh, tilting your head. “I don’t pay for drinks here.” You make a subtle gesture with your eyes towards the bartender, who gives you a respectful nod from across the room. “Nice of you to offer, though.”
Okay. This is new. He can feel your friends watching, can feel the weight of their judgment. He realizes, with dawning certainty, that you’re not just another girl at a club. You’re someone. He just has no idea who. He decides to lean into it.
“Fair enough,” he says, a genuine laugh escaping him now. “So you own the place or something?”
“Or something,” you reply, your voice a low, playful purr.
“Okay.” He takes a breath. All or nothing. “In that case … can I dance with you?”
You glance back at Gia and Bri. They give you a barely perceptible nod, a silent, sisterly seal of approval. You turn back to him, your eyes glinting in the low light.
“Alright, hockey boy,” you say, your voice dripping with challenge. “Let’s see what you’ve got.”
You take his hand. Your skin is warm, your grip surprisingly firm. You don’t lead him into the center of the writhing mass of people but find a small pocket of space, creating an orbit that is suddenly just the two of you. The song changes to something with a heavy, intoxicating rhythm. He’s a good dancer, confident in his own way, but you move like the music was made for you.
He puts his hands on your hips, and you slide yours around his neck. The proximity is dizzying.
“So, you come here often?” He shouts over the music, immediately cringing at the cliché.
You laugh, a full-throated sound that he feels more than hears, a vibration against his chest. “Are you serious? Is that really the line you’re going with?”
“I’m nervous!” He admits, his voice cracking a little. “You’re throwing me off my game.”
“Am I?” You say, your lips close to his ear. “Why’s that?”
“Because,” he says, pulling you a fraction of an inch closer, “I have a feeling you’re the one used to playing it.”
The comeback is smooth, and he sees a flicker of genuine surprise in your eyes. You reward him with another one of those devastating smiles. The banter flows easily after that, shouted phrases and laughter exchanged in the space between beats. He learns your name, but you offer nothing else, no last name, no occupation, no backstory. You’re a beautiful, frustrating enigma. He finds himself not caring. He just wants more.
After a few songs, you’re both breathless and slick with sweat.
“I need a water,” you say, your voice slightly hoarse. You take his hand again and lead him with an undeniable authority through the crowd, parting it like the Red Sea. The bouncers see you coming and clear a path. You bypass the main bar and lead him to a smaller, quieter service bar in a corner of the club he hadn’t even noticed. The bartender sees you and immediately places two bottles of water in front of you.
“Thanks, Marty,” you say, and the man just nods, his eyes respectfully averted.
Jack leans against the bar, watching you. “So, seriously. What’s your deal?”
You take a long sip of water, your eyes watching him over the top of the bottle. “My deal?”
“Yeah. You walk through this place like you’re the queen. The bouncers part for you, the bartenders know your order. You don’t pay for drinks. You said your family has an ‘interest’ in the business.” He leans in a little closer, lowering his voice. “What kind of interest are we talking about?”
You set the bottle down, your expression unreadable. For a second, he thinks he’s pushed too far, that he’s crossed some invisible line.
Then you lean in, so your lips are just inches from his. “The kind of interest you probably shouldn’t ask too many questions about on a first date.”
His heart hammers in his chest. “Is this a first date?”
“It’s getting there,” you whisper.
The rest of the night melts away. You don’t go back to the dance floor. You stay there, in your quiet corner of the chaotic club, and you just talk. You talk about everything. He tells you about the pressure of the league, the constant travel, the feeling of living a life that isn’t entirely his own. You talk about growing up in Jersey, about the fierce loyalty of the people here, the way family is everything. You cleverly dance around the specifics of what your family does, but you speak with such love and pride that he understands it’s the bedrock of your world, just like hockey is for him.
He discovers the layers beneath your badass, confident exterior. You’re sharp-witted and funny, with a cynical edge that makes him laugh out loud. You quote lines from My Cousin Vinny and argue passionately that a hot dog is, in fact, a sandwich. You listen, really listen, when he talks, your eyes focused and intelligent. And you learn that behind the highlight reels and the cocky on-ice swagger, Jack is surprisingly down-to-earth. He’s goofy, and sweet, and he talks about his family with a warmth that makes your chest ache a little.
The hours bleed into one another until the lights come up, casting a harsh, sterile glow over the room. The music fades, replaced by the low murmur of a hundred conversations ending. The magic of the night begins to evaporate, and a sense of panic tightens in Jack’s chest.
“I don’t want this night to end,” he says, the words coming out more honest than he intended.
You look at him, your expression soft in the ugly fluorescent light. “Who says it has to?”
The question hangs in the air between you, crackling with possibility.
***
You say your goodbyes to your friends. Gia pulls you into a hug, whispering, “Text me so I know you’re not dead in a ditch,” which is her standard sign-off for any night that ends with a boy. Bri just winks.
Jack is waiting by the entrance, having made his own excuses to his teammates, who were giving him a series of thumbs-ups and lewd gestures he pointedly ignored. His focus is a laser beam, and it’s pointed directly at you.
You step out of the club and into the cool, damp night air. It’s a shock after the recycled heat inside. The city sounds are muted here, the distant hum of the highway a lullaby.
He walks you to his car, a sleek black Audi parked in a reserved spot right out front. He opens the passenger door for you, a small, almost old-fashioned gesture that you find ridiculously endearing. The ride to his place is quiet, but it’s a comfortable silence, filled with the unspoken energy that has been building all night. His apartment is in a modern high-rise overlooking the city, the lights of the distant Manhattan skyline twinkling like fallen stars.
He fumbles with his keys at the door, and you have to bite your lip to keep from smiling. It’s cute that he’s still nervous.
He finally gets the door open and flicks on a light. The apartment is clean, masculine, and impersonal in the way of a place inhabited by someone who is rarely home. A set of hockey sticks leans against a wall in the entryway, the only real clue to who lives here.
You step inside, and he closes the door behind you. The soft click of the lock sounds impossibly loud in the sudden quiet. You wander into the living room, running a hand over the back of a leather sofa. He just stands there, watching you, his hands shoved into the pockets of his jeans.
“Nice place,” you say, turning to face him.
“Thanks,” he breathes.
The space between you is electric, a high-tension wire pulled taut. He crosses the room in three long strides, stopping just in front of you. He lifts a hand, his fingers gently brushing a strand of hair from your face. His touch is light, hesitant, but it sends a shiver down your spine.
“I’m really glad you came here,” he says, his voice low and a little rough.
You look up at him, into those dark, earnest eyes. “Me too, Jack.”
He doesn’t need any more encouragement. He leans down and his lips meet yours. The kiss is tentative at first, a question. You answer by pressing into him, your hands coming up to cup his face, your fingers tangling in the soft hair at the nape of his neck.
The kiss deepens, becoming hungry, desperate, a release of all the tension and chemistry that has been simmering between you for hours. It’s a kiss that tastes of vodka and promises, of a night that is far from over. It’s the perfect end to the beginning.
The kiss is a lit match dropped on a trail of gasoline. It ignites everything that has been smoldering between you all night — the stolen glances, the charged banter, the electric brush of your hands.
His lips are soft and demanding, and you meet his energy with your own, a silent, fiery conversation happening between you. His hands slide from your face down your back, pulling you flush against him until there is no space, no air, just the frantic beating of two hearts against one another.
He breaks the kiss, only to rest his forehead against yours, his breathing ragged. “Wow,” he whispers, the word a puff of warm air against your skin.
“Yeah,” you breathe back. “Wow.”
His eyes, dark and impossibly deep, search yours. “I was not expecting that.”
“What were you expecting?” You murmur, your fingers tracing the sharp line of his jaw.
“I don’t know,” he says, his voice thick with an honesty that unravels something inside you. “But it wasn’t … this.” He leans in again, his next kiss slower, more deliberate, a process of discovery. He tastes of the vodka he was drinking and something that is uniquely, intoxicatingly him.
You are distantly aware that this is a bad idea. A very, very bad idea. He is Jack Hughes. His life is a fishbowl, his every move chronicled by sports blogs and social media. You are … you. Your life is a fortress, built on secrets and shadows, with walls so high no one is ever supposed to see inside.
Bringing him into your world, or even stepping into his for a night, is a risk you know you shouldn’t be taking. But as he lifts you effortlessly, your legs instinctively wrapping around his waist, you find that you simply do not care. The part of your brain that handles risk assessment has clocked out for the night.
He carries you towards the bedroom as if you weigh nothing. The apartment is dark, save for the ambient glow of the city filtering through the floor-to-ceiling windows. The glittering lights of the Manhattan skyline are a silent audience to your procession.
The bedroom is sparse, dominated by a massive bed with a simple dark grey duvet. He sets you down gently on the edge of it, never breaking eye contact. The air is thick with unspoken things, with the raw, potent energy of two people on the precipice of becoming something more than strangers.
“You’re sure?” He asks, his voice soft, his thumbs stroking the tops of your hands.
It’s the question that brings you back to earth for a split second. He’s giving you an out. He’s being a gentleman, which is almost comical given the circumstances, and it makes you want him even more.
You answer by reaching for the zipper on the back of your dress. “Jack,” you say, your voice a low murmur. “Shut up and kiss me.”
A slow grin spreads across his face. It’s the kind of grin that could melt glaciers. “Yes, ma’am,” he says, and then his mouth is on yours again, and all thoughts of consequences and bad ideas dissolve into nothing.
***
Back at Aura, the house lights have stripped the club of all its magic. It looks tired and tawdry, the floors sticky, the air stale. Gia and Bri are gathering their things from the booth, a collection of purses and discarded jackets.
“Have you heard from her?” Bri asks, scrolling through her phone.
“I texted her twice. Nothing,” Gia says, chewing on her lower lip. “She’s probably fine. She’s a big girl. And I mean … it’s Jack Hughes. It’s not like she went home with some creep.”
“I don’t know,” Bri says, her brow furrowed with a worry that is second nature to anyone who grew up in your world. “Her dad is going to kill her if he finds out she just disappeared.”
As if summoned by the thought, a large shadow falls over their table. They both look up into the face of your cousin, Nino. Nino is built like a brick shithouse with a temper to match. He serves as your father’s head of security, his chief enforcer, and your own personal, unsolicited bodyguard since you were in pigtails. His face, usually set in a bored scowl, is tight with concern.
“Where is she?” He asks. His voice is a low rumble, devoid of any pleasantries.
Gia forces a bright, unconvincing smile. “Hey, Nino! She, uh, she wasn’t feeling great. She grabbed a car a little while ago.” It’s a weak lie, and they all know it.
Nino’s eyes narrow. He doesn’t look at Gia. He looks at Bri, who has always been the worst liar of the group. “Bri. Where’s my cousin?”
Bri swallows hard. “She … she left.”
“I know she left. The valets saw her get into an Audi. Not her own. So I’m going to ask you one more time,” he says, leaning down and placing his meaty hands on the table, his voice dropping to a menacing whisper. “Who was she with?”
The girls exchange a panicked look. Snitching is a cardinal sin. But lying to Nino when he’s using that tone is a potentially life-threatening one.
Gia sighs, the fight draining out of her. “Look, Nino, it was fine. She was having a good time. He seemed like a really nice guy.”
“The name,” Nino grinds out, his patience gone.
“Jack Hughes,” Bri blurts out. “She left with Jack Hughes.”
Nino stares at them for a long, terrifying moment. A muscle in his jaw twitches. He doesn’t say another word. He just straightens up, pulls out his phone, and walks away, his thumb already flying across the screen.
“Oh, God,” Bri whispers, sinking back into the booth. “We’re all going to get whacked.”
“Don’t be so dramatic,” Gia says, though her own face is pale. “He’s not going to whack us. But her? Her dad is going to ground her until she’s forty.”
***
The text message vibrates on the polished mahogany desk of your father, Frank Y/L/N. He’s in the club’s back office, the one with the steel door and the soundproof walls, finishing up the week’s accounting with his brother, your uncle Tony. Frank is a man who values order above all else. His world is a complex machine of moving parts, and he needs every gear to turn exactly as it should. You, his only daughter, are the most precious, and most unpredictable, part of that machine.
He glances at the screen. The message is from Nino.
She left the club. With a civilian. Jack Hughes. The hockey player.
Frank reads the message once. Twice. He places the phone face down on the desk with a quiet, deliberate precision that is far more terrifying than any outburst. The air in the room instantly chills.
Tony, a leaner, more diplomatic version of his brother, looks up from a stack of receipts. He sees the look on Frank’s face and his posture stiffens. “What is it?”
“Our girl is out,” Frank says, his voice dangerously calm.
“Out where? She’s with Gia and Bri, she’s fine.”
“No,” Frank says, looking his brother in the eye. “She is not with her friends. She left the club with an outsider. A celebrity.” He spits the last word out like it’s poison.
Tony’s face falls. He runs a hand over his tired face. “Frank, she’s twenty-four years old. You can’t keep her locked in a tower. She’s going to meet people.”
“People?” Frank stands up, his formidable presence filling the small room. He begins to pace. “This is not ‘people,’ Tony. This is a complication. This is a loose end. This kid, this hockey player, what do we know about him? Huh? Is his phone tapped? Is he an FBI informant’s nephew? Does he have a gambling problem? Does he talk to reporters? Every time we let someone from that world get close, we risk everything. You know this!”
“It’s one night, Frank. She probably just went for a drink.”
“Nino said she got in his car! She’s not answering her phone!” Frank’s voice finally rises, the controlled anger cracking. “We have enemies, Tony. We have people who would love to get their hands on a piece of leverage like my daughter. And she’s out there, with some dumb jock who probably thinks the Sopranos was just a TV show.”
He stops pacing and points a finger at his brother. “Find him. I want his address. I want to know where my daughter is. Now.”
Tony sighs, the weight of the inevitable settling on him. He knows there is no arguing with Frank when he gets like this, when his paternal protection curdles into paranoia. He pulls out his own phone and makes a call.
“Joey,” he says into the phone, his voice all business now. “Wake up. I need a location. Hughes. Jack Hughes. The hockey player. Yeah, that one. I want a confirmed address for where he lays his head at night. And I want it fifteen minutes ago.”
***
Your clothes are a puddle on the floor next to his. The only light in the room is the pale, silvery moonlight slanting through the windows, painting stripes across his bare back. His skin is warm under your fingertips, a landscape of smooth muscle and faint, silvery scars. You trace one near his shoulder blade.
“What’s this from?” You whisper, your voice husky.
He shifts, rolling onto his side to face you. He props his head up on his hand, his expression soft and unguarded in the dim light. “Uh, a skate. Game against the Rangers a couple years ago. Got ugly.”
“Does it hurt?”
“Not anymore,” he says, his eyes roaming your face like he’s trying to memorize it. “What about you? You got any scars?”
You laugh, a soft, breathy sound. “A few. But none of them are from playing hockey.”
“I’d like to hear the stories sometime.”
“I’m not sure you would,” you say, a hint of your reality bleeding through the fantasy of the moment.
He doesn’t press. He just leans in and kisses you, a slow, deep kiss that says he’s okay with the mystery. For tonight, you’re just a girl in his bed. He’s just a boy. The outside world, with all its complications and expectations, doesn’t exist in this room.
His hands are wonderfully slow, exploring you with a gentle reverence that makes your skin hum. He learns the curve of your waist, the slope of your hip, the sensitive spot just behind your ear. You, in turn, learn the rhythm of his breathing, the strength in his arms, the way a small groan escapes his lips when you run your nails lightly down his spine.
It’s an intimacy that goes beyond the physical. In the quiet darkness of his bedroom, you talk. You tell him about your ridiculous childhood fear of birds, and he tells you about the time his brother Quinn convinced him he could fly, resulting in a broken arm. He talks about the immense pressure of being a first-overall pick, the weight of a franchise resting on his shoulders. You talk about the suffocating expectations of your own family, though you frame it in vague terms of “family business” and tradition. You find a surprising common ground in your gilded cages.
The hours melt away, each one drawing you closer, wrapping you in a bubble of shared vulnerability and escalating desire. The physical act, when it finally happens, feels less like a conquest and more like a homecoming. It’s unhurried, intense, a perfect synchronization of two people who have spent the last several hours mapping each other’s souls.
He moves inside you with a slow, deliberate rhythm, his eyes locked on yours. The city lights outside blur into a watercolor painting of abstract colors. The only things that feel real are his hands tangled in your hair, his lips on yours, and the overwhelming, all-consuming connection that arcs between you. You are completely lost in the moment, in him. His name is a prayer on your lips, and the world outside his bedroom window has ceased to exist entirely.
***
In the sterile, fluorescent-lit hallway on the 34th floor of the Waterfront Tower apartment building, the world is very much real. Nino stands in front of apartment 34B, flanked by Uncle Tony and two other men, John and Sal, whose collective neck circumference is wider than a sequoia. They are your father’s troubleshooters. When something needs to be fixed, they are the tools he uses.
Tony had Joey, their tech wizard, work his magic. It wasn’t hard. A player like Jack Hughes has a digital footprint a mile wide. Cross-referencing property records with a ping from his car’s GPS and a friendly “request” to a contact inside the phone company had them at his front door in under an hour.
“You sure this is it?” Nino grunts, staring at the innocuous-looking door as if he could melt it with his gaze.
“This is it,” Tony confirms, his voice grim. “Frank wants us to bring her home. He said to be … persuasive.”
“I can do persuasive,” Nino says, cracking his knuckles.
“Wait,” Tony says, holding up a hand. He’s the diplomat, the strategist. Nino is the hammer. “Let’s knock first. Let’s try to do this without making a scene. The kid is high-profile.”
Nino scoffs. “A scene is the point, Tony. We send a message. To him. To her.” He steps forward and bangs on the door with a fist the size of a canned ham. The sound echoes in the quiet, carpeted hallway.
“Y/N! Open the door! We know you’re in there!” He bellows.
They wait. Nothing.
“Maybe they can’t hear us,” John, one of the human refrigerators, suggests.
“Oh, they’ll hear this,” Nino growls. He takes three steps back, squares his shoulders, and drives his entire body forward. His shoulder connects with the door right beside the lock. Wood splinters. The frame groans in protest but holds.
“For God’s sake, Nino!” Tony hisses. “There are cameras in this hallway! Do you want to go to jail?”
“It’s a domestic dispute,” Nino says, lining himself up for another go. “Just a concerned cousin checking on my family. Sal, give me a hand.”
Sal joins him. They hit the door together, a coordinated battering ram of pure muscle. This time, the wood gives way with a sickening crack. The lock tears free from the jamb. The door flies open, swinging inward and crashing against the wall with a deafening bang that reverberates through the entire apartment.
The sound rips through your sensual haze like a gunshot.
You both freeze, every muscle in your bodies going rigid. Jack is still deep inside you, his rhythm cut short, his body tensed above yours.
“What the hell was that?” He whispers, his voice sharp with alarm. He pulls away slightly, trying to sit up.
Your heart plummets into your stomach. It’s a feeling you know all too well. It’s the sound of your two worlds colliding. It’s the sound of your father’s will being executed. A unique, gut-wrenching dread washes over you, so potent it’s nauseating. It’s mixed with a white-hot flash of fury and the deepest mortification you have ever felt.
“Oh, no,” you breathe, squeezing your eyes shut. “No, no, no, no.”
Before Jack can ask what you mean, you hear them. Heavy, pounding footsteps on the hardwood floor of the hallway. Angry, muffled voices shouting in a furious mix of English and Italian. They’re getting closer.
Jack scrambles off you, grabbing for the sheet to cover you both. “Who is that? Stay here!” He says, his protective instincts kicking in even as his face is a mask of pure confusion and fear.
But it’s too late.
The bedroom door is thrown open with such violent force that it slams into the wall, cracking the drywall and sending a small painting of a lighthouse askew.
And there they are. Framed in the doorway, silhouetted by the hall light, are four figures who have populated your entire life. Your Uncle Tony, his face a mixture of disappointment and fury. John and Sal, looking grim and impossibly large. And in the front, his chest puffed out like a raging bull, is your cousin Nino. His eyes are wide, scanning the room before they land on the tangled mess of sheets on the bed. On you. And then on the naked, terrified man next to you.
Time seems to slow down. For a single, horrifying, crystal-clear moment, the scene is frozen. You, half-covered by a sheet, your hair a mess, your skin flushed. Jack, next to you, equally exposed, his expression a frantic whirlwind of shock and terror. And your family, your keepers, your jailers, standing in the ruined doorway of your one night of freedom.
Nino’s eyes, burning with a possessive, familial rage, lock onto Jack. His lips peel back from his teeth in a snarl. His voice, when it comes, is a low, guttural growl that promises swift and terrible violence.
“Get the hell away from my cousin.”
The moment holds for a fraction of a second too long. It’s a grotesque parody of a Renaissance painting: The Violation of the Hockey Player’s Bedroom. Your cousin Nino, a Vesuvius of barely contained rage, is the central figure. Uncle Tony is his weary, long-suffering advisor. John and Sal are the gargoyles in the background. And you and Jack, tangled in expensive bedsheets, are the scandalized subjects, bathed in the harsh, judgmental light from the hallway.
Jack’s body is a rigid wall of muscle and confusion next to you. He’s holding the sheet up like a shield, a futile gesture against the four horsemen of your family apocalypse who have just breached his sanctuary. His heart is rabbit-punching against his ribs so hard you can feel the frantic rhythm against your own skin.
Then Nino’s growled command finally breaks the spell.
And you detonate.
The fury that erupts from you is pure, white-hot, and utterly magnificent. It eclipses the shame, the embarrassment, the fear. It’s an inherited trait, the Y/L/N family special, a firestorm that can level a man twice your size. You snatch the sheet from Jack’s grasp, wrapping it around your body like an avenging Roman goddess, and launch yourself out of the bed.
“Are you out of your mind?” You shriek, your voice bouncing off the walls of the bedroom. You aren’t yelling at them so much as through them. You point a trembling, accusatory finger at your cousin. “You, Nino! What in God’s name is wrong with you? Did you lose your last remaining brain cell somewhere between the club and here? You break down this man’s door? What is this, a movie? You think you’re Tony Soprano? You’re not even Christopher Moltisanti on his best day!”
Nino takes a step forward, his face darkening. “You don’t talk to me like that. You know the rules. Your father was worried sick.”
“Papa was worried sick?” You scoff, the sound dripping with incredulous rage. “Papa is a control freak who sent his favorite attack dog to fetch his daughter because she was out past her curfew! I am twenty-four years old! Not fourteen! And you!” You whirl on your uncle, who has the good sense to look at least moderately ashamed of himself. “Zio Tony! You’re supposed to be the smart one! The voice of reason! What happened? Did you get a concussion from the sheer stupidity radiating off of him?”
Tony holds up his hands in a placating gesture. “Sweetheart, listen. Your father was worried. You weren’t answering your phone. We didn’t know who this guy was, what his intentions were.”
“His intentions?” You say, gesturing wildly at the rumpled bed. “What do you think his intentions were, Zio? We were discussing geopolitical theory! Use your head!”
Throughout this, Jack is a silent, stunned spectator. He’s managed to pull on his boxers, his mind trying to catch up with the sheer chaos that has unfolded. He sees an opening in your verbal assault and tries to assert some control over the situation, his voice shaky but firm.
“Okay, that’s enough! All of you, get out of my apartment right now!” He says, standing up. “I don’t know who the hell you are, but you can’t just-”
“Oh, he’s talking,” John, the larger of the two human refrigerators, observes with a distinct lack of interest.
“Get out before I call the cops!” Jack threatens, reaching for his phone on the nightstand.
A great, booming laugh erupts from Nino. It is not a sound of mirth. It is a sound of profound, condescending amusement. Even Uncle Tony cracks a weary smile.
“The cops,” Nino repeats, wiping a fake tear from his eye. “That’s adorable. Kid, go ahead. Call them. Please. I’d love to hear it.” He leans against the broken door frame, crossing his massive arms over his chest. “Tell them you got a problem. Tell them Frank Y/L/N’s guys are in your apartment. See what happens. I’ll wait.”
The name hangs in the air. Frank Y/L/N.
Jack freezes, his hand hovering over his phone. The color drains from his face. He’s a Jersey kid now. He’s been to the restaurants, the clubs, the businesses that everyone knows are Y/L/N territory. He’s heard the whispers, the rumors that are as much a part of the state’s fabric as the Turnpike or pork roll. The name isn’t just a name. It’s a brand. It’s a warning.
His eyes, wide with a dawning, sickening horror, flick from Nino’s mocking face to yours. He’s connecting the dots. Your confidence at the club. The way the staff treated you like royalty. Your vague talk of “family business.” It all clicks into place with the horrifying finality of a cell door slamming shut.
He didn't just bring home a hot, mysterious girl from the club. He brought home the princess. He is standing, in nothing but his boxer shorts, in front of the North Jersey mob.
Your attention snaps back to him, your fury momentarily softening as you see the genuine terror in his eyes. You see the exact moment the calculation completes in his head. His world, a world of contracts and pucks and endorsement deals, has just collided with a world of whispers and shadows and broken-down doors.
“Oh, you idiots,” you hiss at your family, your voice dropping to a furious whisper. “Look what you did. You scared him.”
You turn your back on them completely, a gesture of ultimate disrespect, and walk back to the bed where Jack is still standing, looking like he’s seen a ghost. You reach out, your hands cupping his face, forcing him to look at you. His skin is cold and clammy.
“Hey,” you say softly, your voice a stark contrast to the venom you were just spitting. “Look at me. It’s okay.”
“Your … your last name is Y/L/N?” He whispers, his voice barely audible. “Your father is Frank Y/L/N?”
“We’re going to have a very, very long talk about that,” you say, your thumbs stroking his cheeks. “I promise. But right now, I need you to just breathe. Can you do that for me?”
He gives a short, jerky nod, his eyes still wide with shock.
“This is not on you,” you continue, your gaze intense. “This is on them. They’re overprotective, paranoid lunatics with no concept of boundaries. I am so, so sorry, Jack.”
Behind you, Nino clears his throat impatiently. “Alright, that’s enough of the sweet talk. Let’s go. Your father’s waiting.”
You ignore him, your focus entirely on Jack. You have to leave. You know that. Staying now will only make it worse for him. You have to get the storm out of his apartment and deal with it on your own turf. But you can’t leave it like this.
You lean in and press your lips to his. It’s not a passionate kiss like before. It’s a kiss of apology, of reassurance, of sealing a promise. It’s soft and deep and lingers for a moment, a silent message that this insanity is not the end of your story. It’s a final, beautiful act of defiance in the face of your family’s intrusion.
You pull back, resting your forehead against his for a second. “Rain check,” you whisper against his lips.
Then you turn, the sheet held tight around you, and march toward the pile of your clothes on the floor. The warrior queen has returned.
“Right,” you announce to the room. “I’m getting dressed, and then we are leaving. And on the way out, we are going to have a discussion about financial reparations for this door.”
You drop the sheet without a hint of modesty, your back to your relatives, and begin pulling on your black dress. You move with a brisk, angry efficiency, your movements sharp and jerky. You’re a whirlwind of righteous indignation.
“I cannot believe the audacity,” you mutter, wriggling the tight dress over your hips. “Breaking and entering. Is that what we do now? We’ve devolved into common thugs? There are splinters everywhere! He’s going to get a splinter in his foot, and then he’ll get an infection, and he won’t be able to play. Do you know what that will do to the Devils’ power play? Have you thought about that, Nino? Of course you haven’t! You don’t think about anything!”
You bend down, searching the floor around the bed. “Where are they? Did one of you Neanderthals step on them?”
“Step on what?” Tony asks, his voice weary.
“My panties, Zio! My underwear!” You snap, standing up straight again, hands on your hips. “Black lace. La Perla. They cost more than your tie. I can’t find them anywhere. Probably stuck to the bottom of Sal’s disgusting boot. Fantastic. Wonderful. This night just keeps getting better.”
You give up the search, deciding to go commando is a small price to pay to get out of this mortifying situation. You slip on your heels, the sharp click-clack on the hardwood floor punctuating your anger.
You snatch your purse from the dresser and march back towards the doorway, not even giving Jack another look. It’s better that way. Seeing the look on his face again might break the anger, and right now, anger is the only thing holding you together.
You stop in front of Nino, jabbing a finger into his solid chest. “You. You are driving me home. And you are not to speak a single word to me the entire time. If you so much as breathe too loud, I will reach over and yank the emergency brake on the Parkway. Do you understand me?”
Nino, for the first time, looks cowed. He just gives a sullen nod.
You sweep out of the bedroom, your family parting for you like you’re Moses and they’re the Red Sea. Your tirade, however, is far from over. It continues as you lead the procession of shame down the hallway.
“And who is calling the building manager in the morning to explain this? Because I’m certainly not. That’s going to be you, Tony. You’re good with words. You can tell them, I don’t know … there was a structural integrity issue with the door jamb. Blame it on the humidity.”
You reach the front door — or rather, the gaping hole where the front door used to be. You step over a large piece of the splintered frame, shaking your head in disgust.
“An absolute disgrace,” you say to no one in particular. “My father raises us to be better than this. To have class. And you four come in here like a bunch of animals. A SWAT team. What’s next? You gonna start fast-roping out of helicopters onto my brunch dates?”
You don’t wait for an answer. You storm out into the hallway, your four-man security detail trailing in your wake like a pack of scolded dogs. Your voice, still ringing with fury, echoes down the hall as you head for the elevators.
“I want a full apology. And a cannoli. A large one. From Giorgio’s. And don’t think for one second this is over …”
The elevator dings, and your voice is cut off as the doors slide shut.
And then, silence.
Jack is left alone. He’s standing in the middle of his bedroom, wearing only his boxers, the scent of your perfume still hanging in the air, a ghost of the perfect night you almost had. The moonlight streams in, illuminating the dust motes dancing in the air and the disaster zone that was once his front door.
He slowly sinks back down onto the edge of the bed, his head in his hands. He replays the last ten minutes over and over. The crash. The shouting. The name. Frank Y/L/N. The casual, terrifying way Nino had laughed at the mention of the police.
He looks at the rumpled sheets, the indentation on the pillow where your head was just a short while ago. He thinks of your kiss, the whispered promise of a “rain check.” How could a night that felt so right, so real, so incredibly perfect, go so catastrophically wrong?
He spots something on the floor, a small scrap of black lace peeking out from under the edge of the bed. Your panties. He reaches down and picks them up. The fabric is delicate, impossibly soft in his hand. It’s the only tangible evidence he has that the last few hours weren’t some kind of fever dream.
He’s alone in his ruined apartment, holding the underwear of a mafia princess. The daughter of one of the most feared men in the northeast United States. A girl he is already, inexplicably, desperately falling for.
The silence of the apartment presses in on him.
“What the hell,” he whispers to the empty room, “do I do now?”
***
The next four days of Jack’s life are a study in controlled chaos. On the ice, he’s fine. Hockey is muscle memory, a language his body speaks more fluently than English. He can deke, dangle, and snipe with the best of them, his mind blessedly blank for sixty minutes at a time. It’s the moments in between — the locker room banter, the drive home, the echoing silence of his own apartment — that are pure, unadulterated hell.
His front door is new. A solid oak beast with a state-of-the-art lock system, installed by a trio of silent, disconcertingly efficient men who refused payment and left behind a case of Pappy Van Winkle on his kitchen counter. It’s a better door than the one he had before, but it feels like a monument to the most surreal and terrifying night of his life.
He replays the scene in a torturous loop: the splintering wood, your family’s menacing faces, the sheer, animal panic that seized him. And then, the other part of the loop: your fury, your magnificent, take-no-prisoners defense of him, the softness in your eyes, the whispered promise of a “rain check.”
He hasn’t heard from you. Not a text, not a call. Nothing. It’s an agonizing silence that leaves him questioning his own sanity. The only proof he has that any of it was real is a delicate scrap of black lace, hidden in his sock drawer like a holy relic. He takes it out sometimes, late at night, the silk cool against his palm, the scent of you still faintly clinging to it.
His teammates, of course, are relentless.
“So, what’s the final verdict on the mystery girl?” Dawson asks as Jack is taping his stick before practice. “She a ghost? A figment of your imagination? Did you get catfished by the world’s hottest hologram?”
“Leave him alone,” Luke says, though he’s grinning. “He’s obviously heartbroken. She must have seen his bedroom and decided to make a run for it.”
“Shut up,” Jack mutters, pulling the hockey tape with unnecessary force. “It’s complicated.”
“‘Complicated’ is the official slogan for ‘she ghosted me,’” Dougie Hamilton chimes in from the next stall, not even looking up from tying his skates.
Jack just shakes his head, offering no further explanation. How could he? What would he even say? “Yeah, guys, the girl was amazing, but it turns out her family is the actual mafia and they broke down my door while I was balls deep inside her, so I’m just laying low until the heat dies down.” He figures that’s a conversation best left unsaid.
The silence from you stretches into a fifth day, the day of a home game against the Flyers. It’s a nasty, physical game, full of cheap shots and post-whistle scrums. Jack takes a high stick to the mouth that leaves a bloody split in his lower lip, but they win in overtime. The victory feels good, a welcome release of the pent-up frustration he’s been carrying all week.
He’s one of the last ones to leave the locker room. The adrenaline from the game has faded, leaving behind a familiar, bone-deep weariness. He’s showered and changed into jeans and a hoodie, the small cut on his lip still stinging. He says his goodnights to the trainers, slings his bag over his shoulder, and pushes open the door that leads to the private, concrete-walled corridor reserved for players and staff.
And his heart stops.
There you are.
You’re leaning against the cinderblock wall, arms crossed over your chest, looking as calm and out of place as a panther in a petting zoo. You’re wearing black jeans that fit like a glove, a simple grey cashmere sweater, and an expression of cool neutrality. You look devastatingly, impossibly beautiful. The harsh fluorescent lights of the hallway catch the gloss on your lips and the glint of silver from the delicate necklace at your throat.
Jack just stands there, his gym bag slipping from his shoulder to thump onto the floor. He feels like he’s been defibrillated. A thousand questions explode in his mind at once. How did you get in here? How did you know to wait? What are you doing? Are you okay? Is your father going to have me whacked?
He opens his mouth, the first syllable of “How-” forming on his split lip.
You cut him off before the sound can even escape. You push yourself off the wall with a languid grace and take a step toward him, a small, knowing smile playing on your lips.
“Don’t ask,” you say, your voice a low, smooth melody that cuts through the fog in his brain. “Let’s just say that when your family has a vested interest in the company that handles concessions and parking for this arena, a back-door credential isn’t the hardest thing in the world to get your hands on.” You tap the laminated ID clipped to the waistband of your pants. It just says Y/L/N. All Access.
He just stares at you, dumbfounded. Of course.
“I figured I owed you an apology in person,” you continue, stopping just a foot in front of him. Your eyes flick down to his mouth. “And it looks like you owe the Flyers a dental bill. Are you okay?” You reach up, your thumb gently brushing against his split lip. The touch is feather-light, but it sends a jolt straight through him.
“I’m fine,” he manages to croak, his throat suddenly dry. “I-I didn’t think I was going to see you again.”
“Of course you were,” you say, as if it’s the most obvious thing in the world. “I told you, didn’t I?” You lean in a little closer, your voice dropping to a conspiratorial whisper. “I’m here for my rain check.”
Just as the words leave your mouth, the locker room door creaks open behind him. Luke sticks his head out, his hair still wet from the shower.
“Hey, Jack, you coming or-” He stops mid-sentence, his eyes widening as he sees you. His jaw practically unhinges. “No. Way.”
The door is thrown open wider, and suddenly Dougie and Nico Hischier are there too, peering out like curious meerkats. A chorus of hoots and catcalls erupts from inside the locker room.
“HUGHES, YOU SON OF A BITCH!” Someone yells.
“THE GHOST IS REAL!” Another voice hollers.
A deep, crimson blush creeps up Jack’s neck. You, on the other hand, don’t even flinch. You simply turn your head, offering his teammates a dazzling, unbothered smile. “Evening, boys. Nice win tonight.”
They are rendered instantly speechless, their boisterous energy dissolving into slack-jawed awe. Luke just gives Jack a slow, impressed nod before quietly pulling the door shut.
You turn back to Jack, the smile softening into something more intimate. “Shall we?” You ask, gesturing down the empty corridor.
He’s still trying to reboot his brain. He nods dumbly, picks up his bag, and follows you. You lead him through a maze of back hallways, your heels clicking purposefully on the concrete, and out a side exit he rarely uses. A black Range Rover, the kind with tinted windows so dark they look like sheets of obsidian, is idling at the curb. A man who looks remarkably like a younger, fitter version of John gets out of the driver's seat as you approach.
“Evening, miss,” he says, his eyes briefly flicking to Jack with a complete lack of expression. He takes Jack’s gym bag and puts it in the back before opening the passenger door for him.
“This is Benny,” you say, as if introducing him to a valet. “He’ll take your car back to your place for you. Give him your keys.”
It’s not a request. Jack, feeling utterly out of his depth, wordlessly hands his keys over to the mountain of a man. He slides into the passenger seat. The interior of the car smells like expensive leather and you. You get in the driver’s side, and the engine purrs to life.
As you pull away from the curb, Jack finally finds his voice. “So … we’re not going to talk about the army that invaded my apartment?”
You sigh, your hands steady on the wheel as you navigate the post-game traffic. “We are. I’m sorry, Jack. Truly. There’s no excuse for what they did. It was insane, and it was wrong.”
“They seemed to think it was pretty normal.”
“For them, it is,” you admit, your eyes fixed on the road. “My father … he’s from a different time. A different world. His idea of keeping me safe is a little … extreme. The men you met? My cousin Nino and my uncle Tony? They were out of line. I handled it.”
Jack lets out a humorless laugh. “Handled it? What does that even mean in your world? Did you kill them?”
You shoot him a look, a ghost of a smile touching your lips. “Don’t be ridiculous. I did something much worse. I made them apologize to my father, in front of the entire family at Sunday dinner, for embarrassing him with their brutish, unsophisticated methods.” You say the words with a dramatic flair. “Believe me, Nino would have preferred getting whacked.”
Jack just shakes his head, a reluctant smile tugging at his own bruised lip. “And the door? And the whiskey?”
“A courtesy,” you say simply. “My family breaks things, Jack. It’s a flaw. But we also believe in fixing what we break. A very nice man from a construction company that my Uncle Tony has a … strong relationship with, replaced your door the next morning. I figured the Pappy was the least I could do for the trauma.” You glance over at him. “I noticed it on your bar. I figured you had good taste.”
He’s quiet for a moment, watching the city lights blur past the window. “So this is just … your life? Breaking down doors and sending apology whiskey?”
“No,” you say, your voice softer now. “That’s my father’s life. I’m trying very hard to make it not mine.”
You pull up to a sleek, modern building in Jersey City, its glass facade reflecting the glittering Manhattan skyline across the river. You drive into a private, underground garage, parking in a reserved spot next to a vintage Alfa Romeo.
“Where are we?” He asks.
“My place,” you say, cutting the engine. “My sanctuary. My escape pod. My father hates that I have it. He’d rather I stay at the family estate in Alpine where he can have his goons watch my every move. This was our compromise.”
Your apartment is stunning. It’s not a sprawling penthouse, but a chic, artfully designed space with an open floor plan and a breathtaking, panoramic view of the city. The decor is a reflection of you — modern, elegant, with an edge of something classic. There’s a charcoal grey velvet couch, shelves filled with well-worn books, and a vintage record player in the corner. But he also notices the subtle things: the heavy, solid-core front door with multiple locks, the discreet security panel by the entrance, the windows made of what looks like reinforced glass. It’s a beautiful cage, but a cage nonetheless.
“Make yourself comfortable,” you say, dropping your keys in a ceramic bowl. “Wine?”
“Please.”
You head into the kitchen, and he wanders over to the window, mesmerized by the view. He can see the whole of lower Manhattan, the Freedom Tower piercing the night sky.
You return with two glasses of red wine and hand one to him. “So,” you say, leaning against the back of the sofa. “Let’s talk.”
And you do. For the next two hours, as you move around the kitchen with an easy, practiced grace, pulling ingredients from the fridge and cupboards, you talk. You make him dinner — pasta from scratch, with a simple, fragrant tomato and basil sauce that fills the apartment with a warm, comforting aroma.
The act of cooking is disarming, wonderfully normal. It feels a million miles away from the chaos of your last meeting. He sits at the kitchen island, nursing his wine, and asks the questions that have been eating at him all week.
“Are you scared?” He asks, watching you knead the pasta dough on a floured countertop. “Of your father? Of … all of it?”
You pause, dusting the flour from your hands. “I’m not scared of them,” you say thoughtfully. “They’re my family. I love them. Nino taught me how to ride a bike. My Uncle Tony used to slip me twenty-dollar bills when my dad wasn’t looking. It’s … complicated. I’m not scared of them. But I am, sometimes, scared of the life they want for me. The life they expect me to lead.” You look at him, your eyes full of a vulnerability he hasn’t seen before. “I’m scared of never being able to have something that’s just mine. Something normal.”
He understands, more than he thought he would. He tells you about the pressure he’s felt since he was a teenager, the loneliness of hotel rooms, the feeling that his identity is entirely wrapped up in what he does on the ice. You find your common ground again, two people living extraordinary lives, both craving a slice of the ordinary.
You eat at the small table on your balcony, the cool autumn air crisp around you, the city a backdrop of a million glittering lights. The pasta is the best thing he’s ever tasted. The conversation is easy, flowing from serious to silly and back again. He feels the tension that has been coiled in his shoulders all week finally begin to unwind.
He reaches into the pocket of his hoodie. “I, uh, think you forgot something the other night,” he says, his cheeks flushing slightly. He pulls out the small scrap of black lace and places it on the table between you.
You look at it, then back up at him, a slow, wicked smile spreading across your face. “I was wondering where those went,” you say, your voice a low purr. “I was hoping you’d find them.”
The moment hangs in the air, charged and electric. The banter, the food, the wine — it has all been foreplay, a slow, delicious rebuilding of the connection that was so violently shattered. Dinner is over. The dishes can wait.
You stand up and walk around the table to him. You take his hand, pulling him to his feet. You don’t say a word, just lead him back inside, through the living room, and into your bedroom.
Your room is softer than the rest of the apartment, dominated by a large bed piled high with pillows and a plush duvet. You close the distance between you, your hands coming up to cup his face, just as you did in his apartment. Your fingers are gentle against his skin.
“About that rain check,” you whisper.
He doesn’t need any more invitation. He closes the final inch between you, his mouth finding yours in a kiss that is both a question and an answer. It’s a kiss of relief, of reunion, of reclaiming something that was stolen from you both.
This time, there are no surprises. No crashing doors, no angry cousins. It’s just the two of you, in your sanctuary, on your terms. The clothes come off slowly, deliberately, each touch a spark, each kiss a promise. You rediscover each other’s bodies not with the frantic, rushed energy of the first time, but with a slow, confident tenderness. It’s a confirmation of everything you felt before, but deeper now, layered with the knowledge of what you’ve both risked to be here.
Later, tangled together in your sheets, the city lights painting dancing patterns on the ceiling, he holds you. The silence isn’t agonizing anymore. It’s peaceful. He traces the curve of your spine, his bruised lip brushing against your shoulder.
The chaos of your world is still out there. The expectations, the family, the danger — none of it has vanished. But here, in this bed, in this small pocket of normalcy you’ve carved out for yourself, it feels a world away. He doesn’t know what the hell he’s gotten himself into, not really. He doesn’t know if a life with you is even possible.
But as you shift, turning in his arms to press a soft, sleepy kiss to his chest, he knows one thing with absolute, terrifying certainty.
He’s not going anywhere.
***
The months after your rain check fall into a strange, secret rhythm. Your life with Jack exists in stolen moments, a clandestine world carved out of the spaces between his games and your family obligations. It’s a life lived in the cozy warmth of your fortified apartment, the anonymous quiet of his, and the darkened interiors of movie theaters where you can sit side-by-side in the dark and pretend, for two hours, that you are just a normal couple.
It’s a fragile paradise, built on a foundation of unspoken truths. He learns not to flinch when a black Cadillac seems to be shadowing you on the Turnpike. You learn the intricate schedule of the NHL, planning your life around home stands and away games. He gets used to the presence of Benny, your silent, ever-watchful driver, who sometimes delivers bags of your mother’s homemade lasagna to Jack’s door with the solemnity of a state secret.
You are, against all odds, falling in love. It happens not in a grand, cinematic declaration, but in the quiet, mundane moments. It’s in the way he brings you coffee in the morning, exactly how you like it. It’s in the way you can decipher his mood from a single, one-word text after a tough loss. It’s in the easy, comfortable silence that can stretch between you, a silence that isn't empty, but full of everything you both understand without having to say.
Your bubble is warm and safe. But bubbles, by their very nature, are meant to be burst.
The pop comes on a Thursday night in early December. A cold rain lashes against the windows of your apartment. You’re curled up on the sofa, tangled together under a throw blanket, watching some mindless action movie. A half-eaten pizza box sits on the coffee table. It’s a perfect, ordinary night. Which is, of course, when you choose to detonate it.
“So,” you begin, your voice carefully casual as you trace a pattern on his chest. “My mother was asking about you today.”
“Oh yeah?” He murmurs, his attention still mostly on the car chase happening on screen. “What about?”
“Just, you know,” you say, picking a piece of lint from his sweatshirt. “The usual. She thinks you’re handsome. She’s worried you’re not eating enough. And she wants to know when you’re going to finally let her feed you.”
He’s still not getting it. “That’s nice of her. Tell her I’m eating fine.”
You take a deep breath. Time to rip off the Band-Aid. “Specifically, she wants to feed you this Sunday. At dinner. At my parents’ house.”
The effect is instantaneous. His entire body goes rigid beneath you. He fumbles for the remote, pausing the movie on a fiery explosion that feels deeply appropriate for the moment. He slowly, deliberately, sits up, forcing you to untangle yourself from him.
“Dinner?” He says, the word coming out as a squeak. He clears his throat. “Dinner. At your parents’ house. As in, the house where your father, Frank Y/L/N, lives?”
“That would be the one,” you say, trying to keep your tone light.
“The same Frank Y/L/N whose employees used my apartment door for demolition practice?” He continues, his voice rising with each question. “That particular Frank Y/L/N?”
“In their defense, they did a great job with the replacement,” you offer weakly.
He stares at you, his eyes wide with a very pure, very rational terror. “Are you insane? No. Absolutely not. The answer is no.”
“Jack, you have to,” you say, your voice softening. You shift closer, taking his hand. It’s already clammy. “We can’t hide in this apartment forever. If this,” you gesture between the two of you, “is going to be a real thing, a serious thing, then this is the next step. It’s a rite of passage. Like … like a Bar Mitzvah, but with more threats and better food.”
“A Bar Mitzvah doesn’t usually end with the guest of honor getting stuffed in a trunk,” he mutters, running a hand through his hair. “Does he even know about me? Like, for real?”
“He knows I’m seeing someone,” you confirm. “He knows it’s you. My mother has been showing him your post-game interviews on YouTube. He’s … curious.”
“Curious,” Jack repeats, the word tasting like poison. “That’s the same word people use for sharks and unexploded bombs. What if he doesn’t like me?”
“He won’t like you,” you say bluntly. He flinches. “He doesn’t like anyone I date. It’s his default setting. The goal here isn’t for him to like you. The goal is for him to not actively dislike you. There’s a difference.”
You spend the next hour coaching him. It’s a strategy session for a battle he feels he is destined to lose. The rules are simple, yet impossible. Rule one: Compliment your mother’s cooking. Extensively. Rule two: Do not, under any circumstances, ask any man in that house what he does for a living. Rule three: Laugh at all of your father’s jokes, even if they’re not funny. Especially if they’re not funny. Rule four: Keep your opinions on politics, business, and the New York Jets to yourself. Rule five, and this is the most important: Do not show fear.
“That last one might be a problem,” he says, his face pale. “I think my soul just left my body.”
***
The week leading up to the dinner is agony. Jack is a ghost of himself. He’s jumpy and distracted. At practice, he misses a pass so badly it sails over the glass and nearly takes out a Zamboni driver.
“Dude, what is wrong with you?” Luke asks in the locker room, snapping a towel at him. “You’ve been off all week. Is it Y/N? Is there trouble in paradise?”
“No, it’s … I’m meeting her parents on Sunday,” Jack confesses, his voice low.
Luke claps him on the shoulder. “That’s it? Dude, relax! It’s just dinner. Parents love you. You’re charming. You’re Jack Hughes.”
“Yeah, well, her dad is … different,” Jack says, the understatement of the century hanging in the air. “He’s in construction. Very old-school.”
“Construction?” Luke snorts. “What’s he gonna do, critique your foundation? You’ll be fine.”
Jack doesn’t have the heart to tell him that his foundation is, in fact, the very thing he’s worried about. As in, will he end up as part of a new one somewhere under the Meadowlands?
He spends Saturday night in a state of paralysis, standing in front of his closet. Nothing seems right. A suit? Too much. Like he’s trying to be one of them. A sweater? Too casual. Disrespectful. He holds up a button-down shirt. Does this shirt say, “Hello, sir, I am a responsible young man who respects your daughter, and I am not at all intimidated by your alleged ties to organized crime”? He decides it doesn’t. He decides no shirt in the world could possibly say that.
He finally settles on a pair of dark trousers, a crisp white shirt, and a tailored navy blazer. He looks, he thinks, like a man on his way to his own execution.
***
Sunday arrives, cloaked in a cold, grey drizzle that perfectly matches Jack’s mood. You pick him up, and the moment he slides into the passenger seat of your Range Rover, you can feel the waves of anxiety rolling off him. He’s wearing the outfit he agonized over, and he’s holding a ridiculously expensive bottle of Barolo like it’s a shield.
“You look nice,” you say, trying to sound encouraging. “Very respectable.”
“I feel like I’m about to be deposed,” he says, his voice tight.
The drive to Alpine is mostly silent. He just stares out the window as the landscape shifts from urban sprawl to the manicured, ostentatious wealth of North Jersey’s most exclusive enclave. You turn off the main road and onto a private lane, pulling up to a pair of massive, wrought-iron gates. A discreet camera swivels to look at you.
“Deep breaths,” you murmur as the gates swing silently inward.
You proceed down a long, winding driveway flanked by perfectly sculpted cypress trees. The house appears at the top of the hill, a sprawling stone-and-stucco mansion that looks like a Tuscan villa on steroids. It’s impressive and beautiful, but it’s also a fortress. Jack can see security cameras tucked under the eaves of the roof.
You park, and before you can even get out of the car, the heavy front door swings open. A woman with warm eyes and a cloud of impossibly black hair stands there, wiping her hands on an apron. This is your mother, Carla Y/L/N. She is the sun to your father’s icy moon, the warmth that makes the imposing house feel, almost, like a home.
She envelops you in a hug that smells of garlic and expensive perfume before turning her full, undivided attention to Jack.
“So!” She booms, her voice full of genuine delight. “This is the one! The famous hockey player! You’re much too skinny! Does she feed you? Come in, come in! Don’t stand in the cold!”
She pulls Jack into the entryway, pinching his cheek with surprising strength. “What a handsome boy. Look at that face!”
Jack, blushing furiously, is momentarily disarmed. The foyer is cavernous, with a marble floor so polished he can see his terrified reflection in it. A chandelier the size of a small car hangs above them. He feels people watching him from the adjoining rooms. He can see Uncle Tony in the living room, who gives him a polite, unreadable nod. He spots Nino in a far corner, leaning against a wall, his arms crossed, his expression one of open hostility. It’s like walking into a shark tank where one of the sharks is trying to feed you a cannoli.
And then, your father appears.
Frank Y/L/N doesn’t walk into a room; he materializes. He comes down the grand, curving staircase, not making a sound. He’s wearing tailored grey slacks and a black polo. He’s not a large man, not physically imposing like Nino. His power is in his stillness, in the unnerving calm of his presence. His eyes, a pale, piercing blue, land on Jack and stay there. It feels less like a look and more like a full-body scan.
“So,” Frank says, his voice a low, gravelly hum. He reaches the bottom of the stairs and extends a hand. “You’re the skater.”
Jack takes his hand. The grip is like iron. “Jack Hughes, sir. It’s a pleasure to meet you. Thank you for having me.” He remembered the ‘sir.’ That was your instruction.
“The pleasure is all mine,” Frank says, though his face betrays no pleasure whatsoever. He claps Jack on the shoulder, a gesture that is meant to seem friendly but feels more like a threat. “Come. You’re just in time. Carla made braciole.”
The dinner table is an intimidating expanse of polished mahogany, set for twelve. A legion of aunts, uncles, and cousins are already seated. The conversation, which had been lively, dips to a murmur as Jack takes his seat next to you. Your father sits at the head of the table, a king on his throne.
The meal is a blur of passing plates and stilted conversation. Jack follows your rules religiously. He praises your mother’s cooking with such fervor that she gets up twice to pinch his cheek again. He says nothing when one of your uncles starts complaining about new union regulations. And he focuses on the one topic he feels safe with: hockey.
To his surprise, your father is an expert.
“Power play looked a little sluggish Friday night,” Frank remarks, slicing into his braciole. “You’re dropping back to the point too much. You need to stay in that slot, make the goalie commit.”
“I … yes, sir. The Lightning were playing the box pretty tight,” Jack stammers, stunned.
“So you change your angle of attack,” Frank continues, as if discussing a business strategy. “You’ve got a sixty-million-dollar contract, kid. They’re paying you to solve problems like that.”
It’s a masterclass in subtle intimidation. Frank isn't just a fan, he’s done his homework. He knows Jack’s stats, his contract, his history. He is making it very clear that he knows everything about the boy sitting at his table.
Jack’s nerves, already frayed, begin to completely unravel. His heart is hammering against his ribs. The room feels hot. He reaches for his glass of red wine, needing something to steady his hands. But his hand is not steady. It’s trembling, a visible, humiliating tremor he cannot control. His fingers make contact with the delicate stem of the glass, but the motion is clumsy. The glass tilts, tips, and then topples over in horrifying slow motion.
Dark red wine blooms across the pristine, snow-white tablecloth like a gunshot wound.
Silence.
A deafening, absolute silence falls over the table. Every single person freezes, their forks hovering mid-air. Even the background chatter from the kids’ table in the other room seems to cease. Jack feels a dozen pairs of eyes on him. Nino is smirking. Your mother gasps.
Jack’s entire world shrinks to that ugly, spreading stain. He feels like he’s going to vomit.
“Oh my God, I’m so sorry,” he sputters, grabbing for his napkin, dabbing uselessly at the spill. “I’m so, so sorry, Mrs. Y/L/N. I’m so clumsy. I’ll pay for the cleaning, I-”
“Stop,” a quiet voice commands.
It’s your father. Everyone looks at him. Frank hasn’t moved. He is just watching Jack, his expression completely unreadable, his blue eyes narrowed in appraiFrank. He watches Jack’s frantic, panicked attempts to fix the unfixable for a long, agonizing moment.
Then, he does something no one could have predicted.
Frank Y/L/N picks up his own glass, full to the brim with the same expensive Barolo. He looks Jack directly in the eye. And then, slowly, deliberately, he turns his wrist and pours the entire contents of his glass onto the tablecloth right next to Jack’s stain. The dark red liquid pools on the damask, a mirror image of Jack’s blunder.
The table gasps.
“Don’t worry about it, kid,” Frank says, his voice perfectly calm as he sets his empty glass down. “Happens to the best of us. It’s just a tablecloth.” He turns his head toward the kitchen. “Maria! We need more wine out here!”
The tension in the room doesn’t just break, it shatters. The chatter starts up again, louder this time. Your mother scurries off to the kitchen, muttering in Italian. You look at Jack, your eyes wide with a mixture of shock and something that looks like relief. Jack just stares at the two matching stains, his mind completely blown. It was a test. A power move. A bizarre act of solidarity. It was the strangest, most terrifying, and most welcoming gesture he had ever witnessed.
***
After dinner, as the women clear the table and the men retreat to the living room for espresso and sambuca, Frank makes his move.
“Jack,” he says, clapping that heavy hand on his shoulder again. “Walk with me.”
This is it. The final boss battle. You give Jack a quick, anxious squeeze on his arm as he walks past. He follows your father down a hallway and into a study that looks like it came straight from The Godfather. Dark wood paneling, floor-to-ceiling bookshelves, a massive mahogany desk, and two leather wingback chairs sitting in front of a cold fireplace. The room smells of old books, leather, and faint cigar smoke.
Frank gestures for him to sit, then moves to a small bar in the corner and pours two glasses of what looks like scotch. He hands one to Jack and takes a seat opposite him.
“My daughter seems to like you,” Frank begins, with no preamble. He swirls the amber liquid in his glass.
“Sir, the feeling is very mutual,” Jack says, his voice steadier than he expected. The wine incident had, strangely, shocked some of the fear out of him.
“I don’t like hockey,” Frank says bluntly. “It’s a brutish sport. But it’s a business. I understand business. And you’re good for business. For now.” He takes a sip of his scotch. “Her life … it’s not a simple one. She is the most important thing in the world to me. Her happiness. Her safety.” He leans forward, his pale eyes pinning Jack to the back of his chair. “You bring attention. Photographers. Reporters. I don’t like attention. Attention is bad for my businesses. All of them.”
Jack knows this is the moment. He can either cower, or he can be a man. He takes a fortifying sip of the scotch — it burns all the way down — and meets your father’s gaze.
“Sir, I understand that. And I know … I have an idea of who you are,” Jack says, choosing his words carefully. “I know I’m in over my head. But I am falling in love with your daughter. Deeply. And I would never, ever do anything to hurt her. All I want is to make her happy. And I promise you, I will do whatever it takes to keep her safe.”
Frank is silent for a long time. He just studies Jack’s face, searching for something. Jack doesn’t flinch. He holds his gaze. He has laid his cards on the table.
Finally, Frank leans back in his chair. He drains his glass and stands up. The meeting is over.
“It was good to meet you, Jack,” he says, his tone neutral. It is not a blessing. It is not a threat. It is simply a dismissal.
***
The drive back to Jack’s apartment is thick with a new kind of silence. He is emotionally exhausted, his body humming with the dregs of adrenaline.
“So,” you say, breaking the quiet as you pull onto his street. “You survived.”
He lets out a long, shaky breath that turns into a laugh. “I think so. I spilled wine all over your mother’s priceless tablecloth. Your dad … he poured his own wine on the table. What in the world was that?”
You smile, a genuine, relieved smile. “That was my father’s version of a welcome wagon. He was telling you that you’re one of us now. You make a mess, we all make a mess. It’s his own completely insane, twisted way of showing solidarity.” You glance at him. “It means he doesn’t hate you.”
“He doesn’t hate me?” Jack says, incredulous. “That’s the bar? Not hating me is the victory?”
“With my father? That’s the championship, the parade, and the ring ceremony all rolled into one,” you say. “You passed the test, Jack.”
You pull up in front of his building. He doesn’t move to get out. He just sits there, processing the sheer insanity of the day. He met the family. He faced down the don. He spilled the wine. He survived.
He turns to you, and in the dim glow of the dashboard lights, he sees the love and relief in your eyes. He leans across the console and kisses you, a deep, searching kiss filled with the exhaustion, the terror, and the earth-shattering relief of the last few hours.
You had crossed a bridge. Your two worlds, once so separate, had officially, terrifyingly, collided. And somehow, you were both still standing. For the first time, a future together didn’t feel like a secret fantasy. It felt real. And that was far more terrifying, and far more wonderful, than any family dinner could ever be.
***
The months following the infamous Sunday dinner settle into a new kind of normal. The terror of that night, once a sharp, ever-present spike of anxiety in Jack’s chest, has dulled to a low, constant hum. It’s a background noise he has learned to live with, like the tinnitus of a life lived on the edge of a volcano. Your relationship, forged in the fires of that bizarre family trial, is stronger, deeper, and more real than anything he has ever known.
He has accepted the strange duality of your life. There is the you he loves — the witty, brilliant, passionate woman who makes pasta from scratch in his kitchen and can name every single Best Picture winner from the 1990s. Then there is the other you — the daughter of Frank Y/L/N, the princess of a shadowy kingdom, who can get impossible reservations with a single phone call and whose driver materializes like a ghost whenever you need him. He loves both, has learned that one cannot exist without the other.
It’s March now. The grey dregs of winter are giving way to the first hints of spring, and the Devils are on a tear, barreling towards the playoffs with the force of a freight train. Jack is playing the best hockey of his career. Life, against all odds, is good.
You’re at the Prudential Center, watching the game from a private suite — one of the many perks of being a Y/L/N. The suite belongs to a concrete company your uncle has an “interest” in. You don’t ask questions. You just enjoy the perfect view and the complimentary shrimp cocktail. The Devils are up by two against the Islanders, a bitter divisional rival. The energy in the building is electric, a crackling, visceral thing. Jack is flying tonight, a blur of red and black, his skates carving effortless arcs into the ice.
Late in the third period, it happens. Jack has the puck, streaking through the neutral zone. You’re on your feet, the roar of the crowd a physical force. You see the other player coming — a lumbering defenseman named Zach Trainor, a man with a reputation for dirty hits and a face like a slab of granite. It’s a nothing play. Jack has already moved the puck, chipping it deep into the Islanders’ zone. The play is over for him.
But Trainor doesn’t stop.
He continues his path, his shoulder lowered, his intent clear and malicious. He drives his full weight into Jack’s left knee. It’s a cheap shot, a textbook clip, the kind of hit that ends careers. Jack goes down in a heap, his helmet skittering across the ice. A collective groan of horror ripples through the arena. Jack doesn’t get up.
A cold, calm fury settles over you. It’s a chilling, familiar feeling, a switch being flipped deep inside you. The crowd is screaming, raining boos and curses down on Trainor as he skates to the penalty box with a smug look on his face. But you are silent. Your expression is a mask of ice. Your knuckles are white where you grip the edge of the suite’s counter. You watch as the trainers help a limping, grimacing Jack off the ice, and you know, with the certainty of a sunrise, that this will not stand.
You don’t wait for the game to end. You flash your all-access pass at security and make your way down to the forbidden sanctum of the locker room. The air is thick with the smell of sweat and medical tape. You find Jack in the trainer’s room, sitting on an examination table, his face pale with pain and frustration. A trainer is gently wrapping his knee in ice.
“Hey,” you say softly, your voice betraying none of the glacial rage you feel.
He looks up, his eyes full of a pained, frustrated anger. “I can’t believe it. The guy’s a scumbag. Knew exactly what he was doing.”
“I know,” you say, taking his hand. It’s trembling slightly. “Don’t worry about him. Just focus on you. How bad is it?”
“They think it’s the MCL,” he says, his voice tight. “Gotta get an MRI tomorrow. Right before playoffs …” He trails off, shaking his head in disgust.
You squeeze his hand. “You’ll be back. You’re strong. Don’t think about anything else.” You lean in and kiss his forehead. “I’m going to make a quick call. I’ll be right back.”
You step out into the quiet concrete hallway, the distant roar of the game a muted backdrop. You pull out your phone and dial a number you know by heart. It rings once.
“Papa,” you say, your voice low and steady. “It’s me.”
You listen for a moment.
“I’m at the arena. No, I’m downstairs. There was an incident.” You take a slow, deliberate breath. “Jack is hurt. A player on the other team, a deliberate cheap shot. He’s okay, I think, but he’s hurt.”
You listen again, your expression unreadable.
“The guy’s name is Zach Trainor. He plays for the Islanders.” You spell the name out, slowly and clearly. “Z-A-C-H. T-R-A-I-N-O-R.”
Another pause.
“Yes, Papa. That one. He was laughing about it in the penalty box … I know … I just thought you should know. That’s all.” You force a softness into your voice. “Okay. I love you too. I’ll see you Sunday.”
You hang up the phone, slide it back into your purse, and take a deep, cleansing breath. The switch flips back. The icy rage recedes, replaced by the calm, reassuring certainty that the problem is now being handled by people far more capable than an NHL disciplinary committee. You walk back into the trainer’s room, a serene, supportive smile on your face. Justice, in your world, has its own process.
***
The official diagnosis is a Grade 2 MCL sprain and a mild concussion. Four to six weeks. Jack is devastated, but also relieved it wasn’t worse. The next few days are a blur of doctors’ appointments and physical therapy. In between, he’s laid up on the sofa in his apartment, his leg elevated on a mountain of pillows, channel surfing with a deep, profound sense of boredom and frustration. You are his nurse, his chef, his companion, a doting, constant presence.
It’s late on a Thursday afternoon, a few days after the injury. You’re in his kitchen making tea when you hear him suddenly sit up.
“Whoa,” he says from the living room.
“What is it?” You call out.
“Come here, you gotta see this.”
You walk into the living room, two mugs in your hands. He’s pointing at the TV, where ESPN is running a breaking news update on the bottom of the screen. The text scrolls past in stark white letters against a red background.
BREAKING: NEW YORK ISLANDERS F ZACH TRAINOR REPORTED MISSING. WAS LAST SEEN LEAVING A MANHATTAN BAR TUESDAY NIGHT. NYPD INVESTIGATING.
Jack looks at you, his eyes wide. “Trainor. The guy who hit me. He’s missing. That’s insane.”
You just stand there, taking a slow sip of your tea. You feel nothing. Not surprise, not shock, not even a flicker of curiosity. It feels less like news and more like an update on a previously placed order.
“Huh,” you say, your voice perfectly even. “Weird.”
“Weird? It’s crazy!” Jack says, his mind racing. “You think he just, like, went on a bender? Decided to disappear for a few days?”
“Maybe,” you say, sitting down on the chair opposite the sofa. You tuck your feet under you, the picture of calm. “Or maybe he just got lost. Big city. It happens.”
The subtext in your voice is a cavernous, echoing thing. Jack looks at you, really looks at you, and he sees it. The lack of surprise. The serene, almost satisfied glint in your eye. The dots begin to connect in his mind, forming a constellation of pure terror. He remembers the cold fury on your face at the game. He remembers you stepping out to make a phone call. I just thought you should know.
“No,” he whispers, the word catching in his throat. “You … you don’t think … your dad …”
He can’t even finish the sentence. The implication is too monstrous to say out loud.
You just give him a soft, reassuring smile that doesn’t reach your eyes. “I think you’ve been watching too many movies. And I think you need more ice for that knee.” You get up and walk back toward the kitchen, leaving him alone with the scrolling news ticker and a dawning horror so profound it makes him feel cold to his bones.
***
The week that follows is the longest of Jack’s life. The story of Zach Trainor’s disappearance is everywhere. It’s the lead story on sports networks, a hot topic on talk radio, a grim headline in the tabloids. The speculation is rampant. Foul play is suspected. Jack tries to ignore it, but it’s impossible. Every news report feels like a personal indictment. He feels complicit, an unwilling accessory to a crime he can’t even bring himself to name.
He’s quiet, withdrawn. You try to draw him out, to distract him with movies and food and affection, but there’s a new wall between you, a barrier of unspoken dread.
The wall comes crashing down the following Wednesday.
You’re watching the evening news. A reporter is standing on a pier in Brooklyn, the dark, choppy waters of the Hudson River behind her. The headline at the bottom of the screen reads: BODY OF MISSING NHL PLAYER FOUND.
“Oh, God,” Jack breathes, his hands gripping the arms of his chair.
The reporter’s voice is somber. “… the body has been positively identified as 34-year-old Zach Trainor … an anonymous tip led police to this location earlier this morning … sources say the investigation is now being treated as a homicide …”
Jack springs to his feet, his injured knee be damned. He starts pacing the living room, a caged, terrified animal. The color has drained from his face, leaving it a sickly, ashen grey.
“He did it,” Jack says, his voice a ragged whisper. He’s not talking to you; he’s talking to the universe, to God, to anyone who will listen. “Your father killed him. He killed him. For me.” He stops pacing and whirls on you, his eyes wild with a mixture of terror and accusation. “A man is dead! Your father had a man killed because he clipped me in a hockey game!”
You remain seated, your composure a shocking, stark contrast to his hysteria. You look up at him, your expression one of almost maternal calm.
“Baby, shhh, come here,” you say, your voice a soothing balm. “Sit down. It’s okay.”
“Okay?” He shouts, his voice cracking. “How is any of this okay? A man was murdered! He probably had a family, kids! And your father just … had him thrown in a river!”
“He was a bad man who hurt you,” you say, your tone gentle, as if explaining a simple truth to a distraught child. “He did it on purpose. He tried to end your career. My father … he doesn’t let people get away with hurting his family. That’s all this is.”
“That’s all this is?!” Jack runs his hands through his hair, his mind reeling. He feels like he’s losing his grip on reality. “That’s not justice, that’s … that’s monstrous! It’s insane!”
“It’s not insane, Jack,” you say, and the genuine love in your voice is the most terrifying part of all. “It’s sweet. Don’t you see? It’s the sweetest thing in the world.” You stand up and walk over to him, placing your hands on his chest. “Don’t you get what this means? The dinner, the wine … that was him tolerating you. This? This is different. This is him showing you that you’re not just some guy I’m dating. You’re family now. And my father protects his family. He loves you.”
Jack stares at you, his mouth agape. He’s looking at the woman he loves, the woman he wants to build a life with, and he is seeing, for the first time, the true, terrifying depth of the chasm between their worlds. Your moral compass isn’t just different from his, it’s from another planet entirely. To you, murder isn’t murder, it’s a violent, bloody valentine. It’s a love language.
He stumbles back, away from your touch, and sinks onto the sofa, his head in his hands. He feels sick. He feels terrified. But underneath it all, a small, dark, and deeply shameful thought begins to form.
He loves me. Frank Y/L/N loves me.
The thought is so insane, so perverse, that he almost laughs.
***
A heavy, suffocating silence fills the apartment for the rest of the evening. Jack is shell-shocked, moving through the rooms like a ghost. You give him his space, understanding that he needs time to process this grand, albeit gruesome, gesture of affection.
Just after nine o’clock, there’s a soft knock at the apartment door.
You open it to find Benny standing there, his expression as impassive as ever. He’s holding a classic white bakery box, tied neatly with red and white string. He simply holds it out to you.
“From your father,” he says, his voice a low rumble. He nods once, turns, and walks away.
You close the door and bring the box into the living room, placing it on the coffee table in front of Jack. He stares at it as if it’s a bomb.
With a soft, happy smile, you untie the string and lift the lid. Inside, nestled in delicate, fluted paper, is a pound of perfect Italian rainbow cookies. Red, white, and green layers of almond cake, sandwiched with apricot jam, coated in a thick, dark chocolate.
A genuine, delighted laugh escapes you. “Look,” you say, your voice full of warmth. “From Papa.”
Jack stares at the colorful, cheerful-looking cookies. “Cookies,” he whispers, his voice hollow. “He sent celebratory murder cookies.”
“Don’t be morbid,” you chide gently, though your eyes are sparkling. “They’re my favorite. He only sends these for special occasions. When Nino graduated from the police academy … before he got kicked out. When my cousin got married. When my godson was baptized.” You pick one up, holding it out to him. “They’re for celebrations, Jack. For family.”
And that’s when he finally, truly understands. The cookies aren't just cookies. They’re a message. A welcome basket. A confirmation of his new status. The spilled wine was his invitation. The body in the Hudson was his initiation. And these cookies … this is his coronation. He is now, officially, part of the family. A made man, in the most terrifying sense of the word.
He looks from the cookie in your hand to your beautiful, smiling face. He sees the woman he is hopelessly in love with. He sees his future. It is a future filled with love and passion, and it is a future shadowed by a darkness so profound he can barely comprehend it. He knows he should run. Any sane person would sprint out of this apartment, out of this state, and never look back.
But he can’t. He knows, with a gut-wrenching certainty, that he can’t leave you. To leave you would be a different kind of death.
Slowly, his hand shaking just as it did at the dinner table all those months ago, he reaches out. He takes the cookie from your fingers. He looks you in the eye, a universe of terror and love and resignation passing between you in a single, silent moment.
He brings the cookie to his lips and takes a bite.
The almond paste is sweet on his tongue. He chews, slowly, deliberately. He swallows. He has made his choice. He has accepted his fate. He is one of them now.
At least Frank likes me, the thought echoes in the screaming silence of his soul.
And as you smile, reaching into the box to take a cookie for yourself, he realizes with a chilling clarity that it’s the truest, most terrifying thought he’s ever had.
Summary: you run into Quinn with a clothing rack on move-in day — all pink everything and chaos and plans. He looks terrified of life itself. You decide he’s your new project. (Turns out falling in love with Quinn Hughes is the one thing you can’t color-code or schedule. Turns out he’s been yours since that first collision. Turns out the boy who seemed horrified by everything isn’t scared of loving you.)
Based on this request
Quinn stands in front of East Quad with a box of hockey equipment digging into his forearms, and he’s pretty sure he’s going to drop it directly onto his foot. His mom is fussing with something in the car. His dad is already halfway to the building with another load. Jack and Luke are arguing about whether the dining hall will have chicken tenders.
“It’s a college,” Jack says, supremely confident for someone who’s still in high school. “They definitely have chicken tenders.”
“That’s not a guarantee,” Luke argues back.
Quinn adjusts his grip on the box and tries not to think about the fact that he’s here, really here, at the University of Michigan, and NHL scouts are going to be watching his every move and-
“Oh my GOD, I’m so sorry!”
The voice arrives before he even sees what’s happening. Then there’s a blur of pink — like, aggressive pink, the kind that makes his eyes hurt in the August sunlight — and suddenly someone’s backing into him with what appears to be a rolling rack of clothes.
The box slips. He catches it. Barely.
“I’m so sorry,” you say again, spinning around, and Quinn gets his first real look at you. You’re wearing a pink sweatshirt that simply says “Michigan” in gold script, white sneakers that look like they’ve never touched actual ground, and your hair is pulled back with what he’s pretty sure is a matching pink scrunchie. “This stupid rack keeps getting away from me. Why did I think I needed to bring this many clothes? That’s a rhetorical question, obviously I need all of these clothes, but—oh no, did I hurt you?”
“I’m fine,” Quinn manages.
“You don’t look fine,” you say, and you’re studying him with this concerned expression that makes him deeply uncomfortable. “You look kind of … terrified?”
“That’s just his face,” Jack calls out helpfully from behind them.
Quinn is going to murder his brother.
“Ignore him,” Quinn says.
You smile at him then, bright and genuine, and Quinn has the distinct thought that you look like the kind of person who’s never experienced a moment of social anxiety in your entire life. “I’m Y/N,” you say. “Y/L/N. I’m in Delta Gamma—well, I’m going to be in Delta Gamma. Recruitment doesn’t start until next week, but I’ve already met with the rush chair three times and I have my entire recruitment week outfit calendar planned out.”
Quinn has no idea what any of that means. “Quinn,” he says. “Hughes.”
“Hockey,” you say immediately, and now you’re really beaming. “Right? I did my research. I know basically everyone on campus because I made it my mission to learn all the important people before I even got here. That’s probably weird, right? But I like to be prepared. Are you living in East Quad?”
“Yeah,” Quinn says, still trying to figure out how this conversation is happening.
“Me too! Fourth floor. What floor are you on?”
“Third.”
“That’s practically the same floor,” you say, like this is a profound realization. “Okay, I really need to go because I think my dad is about to have an aneurysm trying to get my mini-fridge up the stairs — it’s pink, obviously — but I’ll see you around, Quinn Hughes.”
Then you’re gone, pink clothing rack and all, and Quinn is standing there holding his box like an idiot.
“Dude,” Jack says, appearing at his elbow. “What was that?”
“I don’t know,” Quinn says honestly.
His mom walks up, takes one look at his face, and smiles in that knowing way that makes Quinn want to disappear into the sidewalk. “She seemed nice.”
“Can we please just move my stuff in,” Quinn says.
***
He sees you again that night in the common room on the fourth floor. He’s only up there because Luke wanted to see what the view was like from higher up (it’s exactly the same), and you’re sitting on one of the couches with what appears to be a color-coded planner the size of a small textbook.
“Quinn!” You say, like you’ve been friends for years instead of having met six hours ago. “Come sit!”
He has no good reason to sit. He should go back downstairs. He has to unpack still. He needs to text his advisor about his schedule. He needs to-
He sits.
“I’m making my first semester plan,” you tell him, and you angle the planner so he can see it. Every single day is blocked out in different colored ink. “Pink is for classes, blue is for study time, green is for sorority stuff, yellow is for social events, and purple is for self-care. You have to schedule self-care or you won’t do it. That’s just science.”
“Is that science?” Quinn asks.
“It is in my heart,” you say seriously. Then you look at him, really look at him, and your expression shifts into something softer. “You doing okay? You still have that scared look.”
“I’m not scared,” Quinn says automatically.
“Okay,” you say, but you don’t sound convinced. “Are you nervous? About hockey?”
Quinn doesn’t know how to explain that he’s nervous about everything. That he’s been nervous since he was old enough to hold a hockey stick and realize he was good at it. That the weight of expectations feels like it’s physically crushing his chest sometimes. That he lies awake at night thinking about everything that could go wrong, every way he could fail, every person he could disappoint.
“A little,” he says instead.
You nod like this makes perfect sense. “I’m nervous about recruitment,” you admit. “I know I’m going to get into Delta Gamma — not to sound conceited, but I have three legacy recommendations and my rush resume is immaculate — but what if I don’t fit in? What if they don’t actually like me?”
Quinn looks at you, at your aggressively pink outfit and your color-coded planner and your absolute certainty about everything you just said, and he thinks that you might be the most confident person he’s ever met who’s also somehow completely terrified underneath it all.
“They’ll like you,” he says.
“Yeah?” You smile at him, and Quinn feels something weird happen in his chest. “You’ll be good at hockey. NHL good. I can tell.”
“You don’t know anything about hockey,” Quinn points out.
“I know about people,” you counter. “And you have that look. Like you’re going to be great at whatever you do because you care way too much about it. That’s a compliment, by the way.”
Quinn has no idea what to say to that.
“My family’s leaving tomorrow morning,” he says instead, because apparently his brain has decided to just share information at random now.
“That’s sad,” you say, and you sound like you mean it. “Are you close with them?”
“Yeah.”
“I’m close with my family too. My mom and I talk like three times a day. My dad thinks that’s excessive but he also calls me every morning to make sure I’m awake for class, so.” You flip a page in your planner. “Do you have an eight AM? Please tell me you don’t have an eight AM.”
“I have a nine AM.”
“That’s still so early,” you say with genuine distress. “I specifically planned my entire schedule to avoid anything before ten. I’m not a morning person. Are you a morning person?”
“I have hockey practice at six AM most days.”
You look at him like he’s just told you he practices human sacrifice. “That’s inhumane. That should be illegal. I’m going to write a letter to someone about that.”
Quinn laughs. He doesn’t mean to — it just comes out, surprised out of him by your absolute seriousness about morning practice being a crime against humanity.
“There it is,” you say, grinning. “You have a nice laugh. You should do it more.”
***
He doesn’t see you for a few days after that. His family leaves. Classes start. Hockey practice ramps up. Quinn falls into the rhythm of college life, which is basically just the rhythm of hockey life with some lectures thrown in.
But then it’s the following Thursday and he’s walking back from the library at nine PM, exhausted and vaguely contemplating whether he can just sleep in his hockey gear to save time in the morning, when he hears it.
Crying.
It’s coming from the little courtyard area outside East Quad, and Quinn knows he should just keep walking. He has a quiz tomorrow. He needs to sleep. This is not his problem.
He walks toward the crying.
You’re sitting on one of the benches, and even in the dark he can tell it’s you because you’re wearing a bright pink dress that looks like something from a 1950s movie. Your face is in your hands.
“Y/N?” He says carefully.
You look up, and your eyes are red and your mascara is smudged and you look absolutely miserable. “Quinn,” you say, and your voice cracks on his name. “Hi.”
“What happened?”
“Delta Gamma,” you say, and then you’re crying again. “They cut me. After the first round. They didn’t even give me a chance to show them my philanthropy presentation or talk about my five-year plan for chapter leadership or-”
You dissolve into sobs.
Quinn sits down next to you. He has no idea what to do. He’s the worst at this kind of thing. Jack is the one who’s good at cheering people up. Luke is good at making people laugh. Quinn just kind of … exists awkwardly nearby.
“Their loss,” he says finally.
“You don’t understand,” you say, wiping at your eyes and somehow making the mascara situation worse. “I’ve wanted this since I was eight years old. My mom was Delta Gamma. My grandmother was Delta Gamma. I had my entire college experience planned around this.”
“So make a new plan,” Quinn says.
You look at him like he’s suggested you should just spontaneously grow wings and fly. “I can’t just make a new plan. This was the plan.”
“You have like fifty backup plans in that color-coded planner,” Quinn points out. “I saw it. There was a whole section labeled ‘contingency scheduling.’”
“That’s for if I get sick during finals,” you say. “Not for when my entire life falls apart.”
Quinn doesn’t know how to explain that your entire life hasn’t fallen apart, that this is just one thing, that there are other sororities and other plans and other ways to spend four years at college. He definitely doesn’t know how to explain that from where he’s sitting, watching you cry in your pink dress over something that happened two hours ago, you still seem like the most put-together person he’s ever met.
“Come on,” he says instead, standing up. “I’m buying you food.”
“I’m not hungry.”
“You need to eat.”
“How do you know?”
“Because you’re crying and it’s nine PM and I’m guessing you haven’t eaten since lunch.”
You stare at him for a long moment. “Fine,” you say finally. “But I get to pick the place.”
***
You pick a diner off campus that has pink neon signs in the windows and serves breakfast all day. Quinn orders coffee. You order french toast with strawberries and whipped cream and a hot chocolate with extra marshmallows.
“This is my breakup meal,” you explain, pouring what Quinn considers an insane amount of syrup onto your french toast. “Except usually it’s for actual breakups, not sorority breakups. Do you think it still counts?”
“Sure,” Quinn says.
“I’m going to rush the other sororities,” you announce, and now there’s a determined set to your jaw that wasn’t there before. “And I’m going to get into one and I’m going to become president and it’s going to be even better than Delta Gamma. I’m going to make Delta Gamma regret cutting me.”
“That sounds healthy,” Quinn says.
You point your fork at him. “You’re being sarcastic.”
“Little bit.”
“I’m allowed to be dramatic,” you inform him. “I’ve had a traumatic evening. Also, being dramatic is basically my whole personality. You should probably know that now if we’re going to be friends.”
“Are we going to be friends?” Quinn asks.
“Obviously,” you say, like this is the most natural conclusion in the world. “You came and found me when I was crying. You’re buying me sympathy french toast. These are friendship actions, Quinn Hughes.”
Quinn doesn’t know how to tell you that he never does stuff like this, that he barely has time for the friends he already has, that his entire life is structured around hockey and school and trying not to disappoint everyone who’s counting on him.
“Okay,” he says instead.
You smile at him, and even with your smudged mascara and red eyes, it’s like the sun coming out.
***
After that, you kind of just … become part of his life.
You start studying together in the library, which mostly means you study and Quinn stares at his textbook and tries not to think about whether his defensive positioning in last night’s practice was good enough. You text him random thoughts at random times (Do you think pigeons have feelings? at 2 AM, I found the PERFECT recruitment outfit for round two at 7 AM, Why is contract law so boring? I’m going to DIE at 4 PM).
You show up to his games wearing a Michigan hockey jersey that you’ve somehow bedazzled with maize and blue rhinestones. You’re the loudest person in the student section, which is saying something. After his first goal of the season, Quinn can hear you screaming his name from the ice.
“Your girlfriend’s really enthusiastic,” one of his teammates says in the locker room after.
“She’s not my girlfriend,” Quinn says.
“Does she know that?”
Quinn doesn’t have an answer for that.
***
It’s mid-October when you get into Kappa Kappa Gamma.
You call him at 11 PM, which is late for you on a school night (you have a whole section in your planner about “optimal sleep schedules”). He answers on the second ring.
“Quinn!” You’re practically screaming. “Quinn, I got in! I got a bid! I’m going to be a Kappa!”
“That’s great,” Quinn says, and he means it. He’s been watching you stress about second round and third round and preference night for weeks now. “I’m happy for you.”
“I need to celebrate,” you announce. “Come celebrate with me.”
“It’s eleven PM.”
“So?”
“I have practice at six.”
“So we’ll celebrate quickly. Please, Quinn? I want to celebrate with you.”
Quinn should say no. He should congratulate you again and hang up and go to sleep like a responsible person who has practice in seven hours.
“Give me ten minutes,” he says.
***
You meet him outside the dorm wearing a Kappa Kappa Gamma t-shirt that you’ve clearly just gotten, pajama pants with little Greek letters on them, and the biggest smile Quinn’s ever seen.
“I know it’s not Delta Gamma,” you say as you start walking toward campus. “But I actually really love Kappa. The girls are so nice and they have the best GPA on campus and their philanthropic focus is really meaningful and-”
“You don’t have to justify it,” Quinn says.
“I’m not justifying, I’m celebrating,” you correct. Then you grab his hand. “Come on, I want to show you the house.”
Your hand is warm in his. Quinn looks down at your linked fingers and tries to remember how to breathe normally.
The Kappa house is dark when you get there, but you pull him around to the side yard and sit down on the grass, tugging him down next to you.
“I’m going to be president,” you tell him, lying back to look up at the sky. “Maybe not next year, probably not sophomore year, but junior or senior year for sure. I’m going to make this place even better than it already is.”
“I believe you,” Quinn says, and he does.
“What about you?” You ask, rolling onto your side to look at him. “What’s your big dream? Besides the NHL, which is obvious.”
Quinn doesn’t talk about this stuff. He barely thinks about it in concrete terms because that feels like tempting fate. But there’s something about the way you’re looking at him, about the darkness and the quiet and the fact that you’re still holding his hand, that makes him want to tell you.
“Captain,” he says quietly. “Someday. Maybe.”
“Not maybe,” you say firmly. “Definitely. You’re going to be a captain, Quinn Hughes. You’re going to be one of those players that everyone respects and looks up to and-”
“How do you know?” Quinn interrupts. “You barely know anything about hockey.”
“I know about you,” you say simply. “And I know you’re the kind of person who cares about things the right way. That’s what makes a good captain, right? Caring about the team more than yourself?”
Quinn doesn’t know what to say to that. You’re still looking at him, your face soft in the moonlight, and he thinks about kissing you. He thinks about it so hard that he’s pretty sure you can read it on his face.
But then you yawn, and the moment breaks.
“I should get you back,” Quinn says. “You need sleep.”
“You need sleep too,” you point out. “You have that inhumane six AM practice.”
“I’m used to it.”
You stand up, pulling him with you. You don’t let go of his hand as you walk back to East Quad. You don’t let go in the elevator. You don’t let go until you’re standing outside your door on the fourth floor.
“Thank you,” you say softly. “For celebrating with me. For being my friend. For … everything.”
“Anytime,” Quinn says.
You lean up and kiss his cheek, quick and soft. “Goodnight, Quinn Hughes.”
Then you’re gone, disappearing into your room, and Quinn is standing in the hallway touching his cheek like an idiot.
His phone buzzes. It’s a text from you.
That was friend behavior btw. In case you were wondering. Definitely just friend behavior 😊
Quinn looks at the string of emojis after your contact name (three hearts, all pink) and thinks that you’re the worst liar he’s ever met.
***
November slides into December. The semester picks up speed like a runaway train. Quinn has games and practice and conditioning and film study and classes and approximately six hours of sleep per night if he’s lucky.
You have exams and Kappa events and something called “big/little week” that you try to explain to him three times before giving up. You still text him constantly. You still show up to every home game. You still meet him at the library at midnight when you both should be sleeping, and you quiz him on his sports management terms while he quizzes you on constitutional law.
“The Commerce Clause,” you say, face planted on your textbook, “can go to hell.”
“That’s not the right answer,” Quinn says.
“It should be.”
It’s the week before finals, and Quinn is running on coffee and anxiety. The team is doing well — really well — and that just means more pressure, more eyes on him, more opportunities to mess up.
“You’re doing the thing again,” you say, looking up from your book.
“What thing?”
“The terrified thing. The ‘experiencing the horrors’ thing.” You close your book and lean across the table. “Talk to me. What’s going on in your head?”
Quinn doesn’t want to talk about it. He never wants to talk about it. But you’re looking at him with those eyes that somehow see through all of his careful defenses, and before he knows it, he’s talking.
“What if I’m not good enough?” He says quietly. “What if I get drafted and I can’t make it at that level? What if everyone who’s believed in me has been wrong?”
“That’s not going to happen,” you say immediately.
“You don’t know that.”
“I do, actually.” You reach across and take his hand, and Quinn wonders when this became normal, when holding your hand started feeling as natural as breathing. “You know how I know?”
“How?”
“Because you care this much. Because you’re sitting here at one in the morning studying even though you have practice in five hours. Because I’ve watched you at games and I’ve seen how you play — like every single shift matters more than anything else in the world.” You squeeze his hand. “That’s not someone who’s going to fail, Quinn. That’s someone who’s going to be great.”
Quinn looks at you — really looks at you — and thinks that maybe you’re the bravest person he knows. You walk around in pink outfits believing in things with your whole heart, putting yourself out there over and over again, refusing to let the world make you smaller or quieter or less.
“I think I’m in love with you,” he says.
The words are out before he can stop them. You freeze, your hand still holding his, your eyes going wide.
“What?” You whisper.
Quinn should take it back. He should laugh it off, blame the sleep deprivation, pretend he said something else entirely. Instead, he says it again.
“I’m in love with you. I think—no, I know. I know I’m in love with you.”
You’re not saying anything. You’re just staring at him, and Quinn is pretty sure he’s just destroyed the best friendship he’s ever had.
“I’m sorry,” he starts. “I shouldn’t have-”
You kiss him.
You actually climb halfway across the library table, scattering textbooks everywhere, and you kiss him. Your hands are in his hair and his hands are on your waist and he’s kissing you back like his life depends on it.
When you finally pull away, you’re both breathing hard.
“I’ve been waiting for you to say that since October,” you say. “Actually, scratch that. Since August. Since the day I ran into you with my clothing rack and you looked at me like I was completely insane.”
“You are completely insane,” Quinn says.
“I know.” You’re grinning now, that same bright smile that makes his chest do weird things. “But you love me anyway.”
“Yeah,” Quinn says. “I really do.”
“Good,” you say. “Because I love you too, Quinn Hughes. I love you and your terrified face and your six AM practices and the way you care about things so much it physically hurts you.”
Quinn kisses you again, softer this time, slower. Around you, the library is completely empty. It’s just the two of you and the fluorescent lights and the future stretching out ahead, uncertain and terrifying and perfect.
***
Dating you, Quinn discovers, is both exactly like being your friend and completely different.
You still text him constantly (now with more heart emojis). You still show up to his games (now wearing his spare jersey instead of your bedazzled one). You still meet him at the library at midnight (now you sit next to him instead of across from him, and you hold his hand while you study).
But now he gets to kiss you. Now he gets to walk you to class and put his arm around you and call you his girlfriend. Now when you smile at him like he’s the best thing in your world, he gets to smile back the same way.
The team chirps him endlessly about it.
“Hughes has a girlfriend,” one of the seniors says with genuine shock. “I didn’t think that was possible.”
“She’s really pink,” another one observes.
“She’s really loud,” someone else adds.
“She’s right here,” you say cheerfully from where you’re waiting for Quinn after practice. You’ve brought him coffee and a bagel because you’ve somehow memorized his entire post-practice routine. “And I can hear all of you. Hi! I’m Y/N!”
They all basically fall in love with you immediately. Quinn watches you charm his entire team in approximately four minutes and thinks that of course you did. You charm everyone.
“She’s good for you,” his coach tells him later. “You’re playing better. Looser. Less in your head.”
Quinn doesn’t know how to explain that you’ve somehow made everything easier just by existing in his life. That when he’s on the ice now, he plays for himself and his team, but also for you in the stands. That knowing you’re there, believing in him, makes the pressure feel less crushing.
“Yeah,” he says instead. “She is.”
***
Winter break comes. You go home to Connecticut. Quinn stays in Michigan to spend the holidays with his family.
“Tell me about her,” his mom says as they dig into Chinese food on Christmas Eve, and Quinn knows there’s no point in pretending he doesn’t know who she means.
“Her name is Y/N,” he says. “She’s pre-law. She wants to be president of her sorority. Everything she owns is pink.”
“You love her,” his mom says. It’s not a question.
“Yeah,” Quinn admits. “I do.”
His mom hugs him, and Quinn tries not to think about how fast everything is moving, how much he has riding on this next year, how terrifying it is to care about something — someone — outside of hockey.
“It’s allowed to be scary,” his mom says quietly, like she can read his mind. “Loving someone is always scary. But it’s worth it.”
***
Spring semester starts with a snowstorm and you showing up at his door at seven AM with hot chocolate and a determined expression.
“We’re going out in the snow,” you announce.
“I have class in two hours.”
“So we’ll be quick. Come on, Quinn. When’s the last time you actually had fun? Fun that wasn’t hockey?”
Quinn can’t remember. “I have fun.”
“You absolutely don’t,” you say. “You have hockey and stress and occasionally you have me, but that’s it. We’re going outside.”
So you go outside.
You make him build a snowman (“It needs to be anatomically correct!” “It’s made of snow!” “Give it a good snow torso, Quinn!”). You start a snowball fight that Quinn wins because his aim is better. You make snow angels and then you lie there in the snow, looking up at the grey sky, holding his hand.
“I’m cold,” you announce after a few minutes.
“That’s because you’re lying in snow.”
“This was my idea.”
“I know.”
“I have good ideas.”
“Debatable.”
You turn your head to look at him, and you’re smiling. “I’m really happy,” you say softly. “Like, stupidly happy. Disney princess levels of happy. Is that weird?”
“No,” Quinn says. “I’m happy too.”
And he is. Despite the pressure and the stress and the constant worry, he’s happy. You make him happy.
***
February brings more games, more studying, more late nights at the library. Quinn’s draft stock is rising. Scouts are at every game. The pressure is building like water behind a dam.
“You’re doing the terrified thing again,” you observe one night. You’re in his dorm room, sitting on his bed doing homework while he paces.
“There were eight scouts at the game tonight.”
“I know. I counted.”
“What if-”
“Stop,” you interrupt gently. “Come here.”
Quinn sits down next to you. You set aside your laptop and take both of his hands.
“You’re going to be drafted,” you say firmly. “You’re going to be drafted high. You’re going to have an amazing NHL career. I know all of this because I know you, and I know that you’re incapable of being bad at something you care about this much.”
“That’s not how it works.”
“It is for you.” You lean in and kiss him softly. “Trust me. Trust yourself. You’ve got this.”
Quinn wants to believe you. He wants to have your unshakeable confidence, your absolute certainty about the future.
“What if I have to leave?” He asks quietly. “What if I get drafted and I have to move and-”
“Then we’ll figure it out,” you say simply. “I’m not going anywhere, Quinn Hughes. You’re stuck with me.”
***
March is a blur. The team makes the NCAA tournament. Quinn plays the best hockey of his life. You’re at every game, screaming yourself hoarse, wearing his jersey like armor.
They make it to the Frozen Four. Quinn gets an assist in the semifinal game that SportsCenter replays six times. You kiss him after the game, in front of everyone, and whisper “I told you so” against his lips.
They don’t win the championship. They lose in the final game, and Quinn feels like his heart has been ripped out of his chest.
You find him after, still in his gear, sitting alone in the locker room.
“Hey,” you say softly, sitting down next to him.
“We lost.”
“I know.”
“I could have—if I’d just-”
“Stop,” you say, and your voice is firm now. “You played an incredible game. You played an incredible season. This doesn’t change anything about how good you are.”
Quinn doesn’t say anything. You put your head on his shoulder.
“You’re allowed to be sad,” you tell him. “You’re allowed to feel this. But don’t you dare let this make you doubt yourself.”
***
April brings spring and final exams and the slow countdown to the NHL draft.
“Come with me,” Quinn says one night. You’re studying for your contracts final and he’s supposed to be studying for his sports ethics exam, but instead he’s watching you highlight case law in three different colors.
“Where?” You ask absently.
“To the draft. In June. Come with me.”
You look up, eyes wide. “Really?”
“Really. I want you there. I need you there.”
“Quinn.” Your voice cracks a little. “Are you sure?”
“I’ve never been more sure of anything.”
You tackle him with a hug that nearly knocks him off the bed. “Yes! Oh my god, yes! I need to start planning my outfit immediately. Do you know how formal it is? Should I go with classic preppy or more sophisticated? Maybe a pink suit? Is pink too on-brand?”
“Pink is perfect,” Quinn says, wrapping his arms around you. “You’re perfect.”
***
May is a strange month. School is winding down but hockey never really stops. Quinn has meetings with agents, phone calls with teams, training sessions that leave him exhausted.
You’re taking summer classes to get ahead on your pre-law requirements, but you still make time for him. You still show up with coffee. You still kiss him like he’s the best thing in your world.
“I’m scared,” Quinn admits one night. You’re lying in his bed, your head on his chest, his fingers running through your hair.
“Of what?”
“Everything. The draft. The NHL. Leaving here. Leaving you.”
“You’re not leaving me,” you say firmly. “We’ve been over this. I’m yours and you’re mine and that doesn’t change just because you’re going to be a fancy NHL player.”
“It might be hard.”
“Lots of things are hard. You have a six AM practice four days a week. I have constitutional law. We’re used to hard.”
Quinn laughs despite himself. “Those aren’t the same thing.”
“They feel the same at the time.” You prop yourself up to look at him. “I love you. That’s not going to change. Okay?”
“Okay,” Quinn says.
“Say it back.”
“I love you.”
“There it is.” You kiss him, soft and sweet. “See? We’re going to be fine.”
***
The end of the semester comes too fast and not fast enough. Quinn takes his last final on a Tuesday morning. You take yours that afternoon. That night, you have one last dinner together before you both go home for the summer.
“Six weeks,” you say, pushing pasta around your plate. “That’s not that long, right?”
“Right,” Quinn says, even though six weeks without you sounds impossibly long.
“And then the draft. And then I’ll come visit you wherever you end up. We’ll make it work.”
“We’ll make it work,” Quinn echoes.
You reach across the table and take his hand. “I’m really proud of you,” you say quietly. “I know this year was hard. I know you were stressed and scared and dealing with so much pressure. But you did it. You made it through. And you’re going to be amazing at the next level.”
“I couldn’t have done it without you,” Quinn says honestly.
“Sure you could have. But I’m glad you didn’t have to.”
***
The next morning, Quinn helps you pack your car. It takes three trips because you somehow accumulated even more pink things over the course of the year.
“I don’t understand how one person can have this much stuff,” Quinn says, loading another box into your trunk.
“It’s a gift,” you say serenely.
When everything is finally packed, you turn to face him. The morning sun catches in your hair. You’re wearing a Michigan sweatshirt and jean shorts and you’re so beautiful it hurts.
“This is not goodbye,” you say firmly. “This is see you soon.”
“See you soon,” Quinn agrees.
“Six weeks. Then the draft. I’m already planning my outfit, by the way. It’s going to be perfect. It’s going to be so perfect that you’re going to forget to be nervous because you’ll be too busy looking at me.”
“I’m always looking at you,” Quinn says.
You kiss him then, soft and long and sweet. “I love you, Quinn Hughes.”
“I love you too.”
You get in your car. You wave at him through the window. You drive away, and Quinn stands there watching until your car disappears around the corner.
His phone buzzes. It’s a text from you.
Miss you already 💕
Another buzz.
But seriously SO EXCITED for the draft!!
This is going to be the best summer ever, I can already tell 💖
Quinn smiles and texts back.
Can’t wait.
And as he walks back to finish his own packing, he thinks about next year. About wherever he’ll be drafted. About you visiting, about making it work, about building something real.
It’s terrifying. It’s uncertain. It’s everything he usually tries to avoid.
But for once, Quinn isn’t afraid.
Because you’re right. You’re going to make it work. You’re going to be fine.
You’re going to be perfect.
***
Quinn has been nervous before. He’s been nervous for games, for tryouts, for every significant moment of his hockey career. But sitting in the American Airlines Center in Dallas, waiting to find out where his future will begin, is a different kind of nervous entirely.
It’s the kind of nervous that makes his hands shake. The kind that makes breathing feel like a conscious effort. The kind that-
“You’re doing the thing,” you whisper, and Quinn feels your hand slip into his. “The terrified thing.”
Quinn looks at you and almost laughs despite everything. You’re wearing a pink dress that’s somehow both elegant and unmistakably you — fitted with a structured bodice and a skirt that falls just above your knees. Your shoes are pink. Your clutch is pink. Even your lipstick is a shade of pink that Quinn has learned is called “ballet slipper” because you told him approximately fourteen times while getting ready this morning.
“I’m allowed to be terrified,” Quinn says quietly. “This is my entire future.”
“Your entire future is sitting next to you,” you say with a grin. “The hockey thing is just details.”
On Quinn’s other side, his mom squeezes his shoulder. His dad is leaning forward in his seat, focused on the stage. Jack is fidgeting three seats down, and Luke is watching everything with wide eyes.
“Here we go,” his dad says as the commissioner steps up to the microphone.
***
The first six picks feel like they take hours. Quinn knows the order — he’s studied every mock draft, every projection, every possible scenario until he could recite them in his sleep. Buffalo takes Rasmus Dahlin first overall, which everyone expected. Carolina takes Andrei Svechnikov second. Montreal takes Jesperi Kotkaniemi third, which causes some murmuring in the crowd.
“That’s surprising,” you whisper.
“How do you know that?” Quinn asks.
“I did research,” you say, like this is obvious. “You think I’m going to come to your draft without knowing what’s happening? Please. I know more about this draft class than I know about the Commerce Clause, and that’s saying something.”
Quinn loves you so much it physically hurts.
Ottawa takes Brady Tkachuk fourth. Arizona takes Barrett Hayton fifth. Detroit takes Filip Zadina sixth.
Quinn’s heart is pounding so hard he’s pretty sure you can hear it. Your hand tightens in his.
“With the seventh overall pick,” Jim Benning says, “the Vancouver Canucks select, from the University of Michigan, Quinn Hughes.”
For a second, Quinn can’t move. Can’t breathe. Can’t process.
Then you’re squealing — actually squealing, loud enough that people around you turn to look — and jumping up and down, and kissing him. You’re kissing his cheeks, his forehead, his nose, his lips, over and over and over, leaving pink lipstick marks all over his face.
“You did it” You’re saying, or maybe yelling. “Oh my god, Quinn, you did it! Vancouver! You’re going to Vancouver!”
His family is hugging him. His mom is crying. His dad is shaking his hand and pulling him in for a hug. Jack is whooping. Luke is grinning.
But Quinn is looking at you, at your bright eyes and your brilliant smile and the way you’re looking at him like he just won the Stanley Cup.
“Go,” you say, giving him a little push toward the aisle. “Go be a Vancouver Canuck.”
Quinn makes his way down to the stage in a daze. He shakes hands with people he barely registers. He pulls on the Vancouver jersey — blue and green, his new colors — and poses for photos. The jersey feels strange and right all at once.
When he looks up at the stands, he finds you immediately. You’re still jumping up and down, still cheering, and you blow him a kiss.
Quinn touches his cheek, where your lipstick is definitely still visible, and doesn’t bother trying to wipe it off.
***
The next few hours are a blur of media responsibilities. Quinn does interview after interview, answering the same questions in slightly different ways. How does it feel to be drafted by Vancouver? (“Amazing. Incredible. Still processing.”) What are you looking forward to? (“Learning from the guys already there, developing my game, contributing however I can.”) What’s it like to be drafted seventh overall? (“Honestly, I’m just grateful for the opportunity.”)
Through it all, he’s aware of the lipstick marks on his face. One reporter actually asks him about it.
“My girlfriend,” Quinn says, and he can’t keep the smile off his face. “She’s excited.”
“We can see that,” the reporter says with a laugh.
When he’s finally, finally done with all of it — the interviews, the photos, the phone calls with Vancouver management — Quinn makes his way back to find his family. They’re waiting in one of the designated family areas, and he sees you before you see him.
You’re talking animatedly with his mom, your hands moving as you speak, and you’re still glowing with excitement. Your dress catches the light. You’re perfect.
Then you turn and see him, and your whole face lights up.
You run. Actually run, in your pink heels, across the room and into his arms. Quinn catches you and lifts you off the ground, and you’re laughing and maybe crying a little.
“Let me look at you,” you say when he sets you down. You step back, your hands still on his arms, and just look at him in his Canucks jersey. “Oh my god. Quinn. You look so good. Like, professional hockey player good. Like, NHL good. This is insane. You’re insane. This jersey is-” You touch the crest gently. “This is really happening.”
“This is really happening,” Quinn echoes.
You kiss him again, softer this time, and Quinn thinks that he would relive every terrifying moment of today just to end up here, with you, wearing this jersey.
“I’m so proud of you,” you whisper against his lips. “So, so proud.”
***
That night, there’s a dinner with his family. Quinn sits between you and Jack, and he’s still wearing his jersey because you asked him to (“Just for a little while longer, please, you look so good in it“).
“Vancouver,” Jack says, shaking his head. “That’s far.”
“It’s not that far,” you say immediately. “It’s a five-hour flight. Seven if there’s a layover. That’s totally doable.”
“You’ve already looked up flights?” Quinn’s mom asks, smiling.
“Obviously. I have a whole spreadsheet.” You pull out your phone and show her what is indeed a spreadsheet with flight times, costs, and optimal travel dates. “I color-coded it by season and academic calendar conflicts.”
“Of course you did,” Quinn says fondly.
“I’m prepared,” you say with dignity. “Unlike some people who didn’t even pack socks for this trip.” You look pointedly at Jack.
“I packed socks,” Jack protests.
“You packed three mismatched socks. I saw.”
The whole table laughs, and Quinn feels something settle in his chest. This is his family. This is you. This is what matters.
Later, when they’re back at the hotel and everyone has gone to their rooms, you and Quinn sit out on the tiny balcony of his room. It’s past midnight. You’ve taken off your heels and your feet are in his lap.
“Development camp is in a week,” Quinn says. “I leave next Sunday.”
“I know. You told me approximately forty times.” You wiggle your toes against his leg. “I’m going to miss you.”
“I’m going to miss you too.”
“But then you’ll be back at Michigan in the fall, right? That’s the plan?”
“Probably,” Quinn says. “I mean, we’ll see how camp goes, but yeah. Another year at Michigan makes sense. Develop more, play big minutes, actually finish my degree eventually.”
“Good,” you say firmly. “Because I have plans for us sophomore year. Big plans. Romantic plans. Plans that involve you coming to formal with me and looking extremely handsome in a suit.”
“Just one formal?”
“Multiple formals. I’m in a sorority now, Quinn. There are so many formals. You’re going to be so tired of getting dressed up.”
You smile at him, soft and sweet in the moonlight. “This is a good thing, right? Vancouver? This is what you wanted?”
“Yeah,” Quinn says. “This is what I wanted.”
“Then why do you still look terrified?”
Quinn doesn’t know how to explain it. That he’s excited and grateful and thrilled, but also scared that he won’t be good enough, that Vancouver will regret picking him, that he’ll let everyone down.
“Come here,” you say, and you climb into his lap, your dress bunching up around your thighs, your arms around his neck. “Listen to me, Quinn Hughes. You were drafted seventh overall in the NHL. Seventh. Out of thousands and thousands of hockey players, they picked you. Vancouver picked you. And they didn’t pick you by accident.”
“I know, but-”
“No buts. You’re going to go to development camp and you’re going to be great. You’re going to go back to Michigan and you’re going to be even better than you were last year. And then, when the time is right, you’re going to play in the NHL and you’re going to be everything they think you can be.” You kiss him gently. “I believe in you. Your family believes in you. Vancouver believes in you. Now you need to believe in you.”
“When did you get so wise?” Quinn asks.
“I was born wise,” you say. “I’ve just been hiding it behind pink clothing and sorority recruitment strategies.”
Quinn laughs and kisses you, and thinks that maybe, possibly, you’re right. Maybe he can do this.
***
Development camp comes and goes in a blur. Quinn flies to Vancouver, meets his new teammates, works harder than he’s ever worked in his life. The coaches are impressed. Management is pleased. But everyone agrees: one more year at Michigan is the right call.
“You’re close,” they tell him. “You’re really close. But another year of development, another year of big minutes, that’s going to make you even better.”
Quinn calls you from his hotel room after the meeting where they lay out the plan.
“I’m coming back,” he says as soon as you answer.
“To Michigan?” You sound delighted. “Really?”
“Really. One more year.”
“Oh thank god,” you say. “I mean, I would have supported whatever decision you made, obviously, but I really didn’t want to do long distance yet. We’re too young for long distance. We’re not emotionally prepared.”
“We’re the same age we would have been if I’d stayed with Vancouver,” Quinn points out.
“Yes, but now we’re together, which makes us younger. That’s just science.”
“That’s not science.”
“It is in my heart.”
Quinn flops back on the bed, grinning at the ceiling. “I missed you.”
“I missed you too. When do you get home?”
“Three days.”
“Perfect. I’m planning a welcome home celebration. It involves your favorite restaurant and me wearing your draft day lipstick so I can kiss you all over again.”
“Can’t wait,” Quinn says, and he means it.
***
Sophomore year is different from freshman year in a thousand small ways.
For one thing, Quinn knows what he’s doing now. He knows his professors, his teammates, his routine. He knows which dining hall has the best post-practice meals and which library is quietest for studying and which shortcuts to take across campus.
For another thing, he has you.
Not just as his girlfriend (though you are definitely, definitely his girlfriend), but as a constant presence in his life. You study together at least four nights a week. You go to every single one of his home games and most of the away games that are close enough to drive to. You drag him to sorority events that he pretends to complain about but secretly kind of enjoys. You make him take study breaks and eat real meals and occasionally go outside for reasons other than hockey.
“You’re good for him,” one of his teammates tells you at a party in October. “He actually smiles now. Last year he looked like he was constantly expecting bad news.”
“That’s just his face,” you say, but you’re smiling.
The season goes well. Really well. Quinn plays even better than he did freshman year — more confident, more physical, more of a leader. Fans sell out every game. His phone buzzes with texts from his agent regularly.
You’re there through all of it. When he has a bad game, you bring him coffee and sit with him while he watches film. When he has a good game, you celebrate with him. When he’s stressed about his future, you remind him that he’s exactly where he needs to be.
“President,” you announce one day in February. You’re in the library, supposedly studying, but you’re actually showing him your phone. “I’m running for sorority president. Elections are in April.”
“You’re going to win,” Quinn says immediately.
“You don’t know that.”
“I absolutely know that. You’re the most qualified person in your sorority. Maybe in all sororities. Possibly in the history of sororities.”
“That’s very sweet, but there are two other girls running and they’re both really good-”
“You’re going to win,” Quinn repeats. “Want to bet on it?”
“What are the terms?”
“If you win, which you will, I’ll go to every single sorority event you want me to for the rest of the semester. Formals, mixers, philanthropy events, all of it.”
“And if I don’t win, which I might not-”
“You will.”
“-then I’ll go to that hockey alumni thing you’ve been trying to get me to go to.”
“Deal,” Quinn says, and he kisses you to seal it.
You win the election by a landslide. Quinn goes to so many sorority events that he starts recognizing all of your sisters on sight.
***
But then March comes, and everything changes.
Michigan loses in the quarterfinals of the Big Ten tournament to Minnesota. It’s a close game, hard-fought, but they lose. And just like that, their season is over. No NCAA tournament. No chance at a championship.
Quinn sits in the locker room after, still in his gear, staring at nothing.
His phone buzzes. It’s his agent.
Call me when you can.
Quinn knows what this means. He’s known it was coming. The season is over, and Vancouver has been clear that they want him as soon as he’s available.
He calls from the parking lot, sitting in his car with the heat running.
“They want you,” his agent says. “Rest of the season. Starting Thursday against the Kings if you can get there in time.”
“Thursday,” Quinn repeats. That’s four days from now.
“I know it’s fast. But this is it, Quinn. This is your shot.”
Quinn thinks about you. About the plans you’ve made for the rest of the semester. About the spring formal you’ve been talking about for weeks. About the quiet routine you’ve built together.
“Okay,” he says. “Tell them I’ll be there.”
***
He finds you in your room, surrounded by textbooks and highlighters and approximately seventeen different colors of pens. You look up when he knocks, and your smile is immediate and bright.
“Hey! How was-” You stop, really looking at him. “What happened?”
“Vancouver called,” Quinn says.
Your face does something complicated. Surprise and excitement and sadness all at once. “When?”
“Thursday. If I can get there.”
“Thursday.” You set down your pen carefully. “That’s four days from now.”
“Yeah.”
You’re quiet for a long moment. Then you stand up, walk over to him, and wrap your arms around his waist. Quinn holds you tight, his face in your hair.
“This is good,” you say, your voice slightly muffled against his chest. “This is what we wanted. What you wanted.”
“I know.”
“So why do we both feel sad?”
“Because I don’t want to leave you,” Quinn says honestly.
You pull back to look at him, and your eyes are shiny. “Well, that’s too bad, because you’re going. You’re going to Vancouver and you’re going to play in the NHL and you’re going to be amazing.”
“Come with me,” Quinn says suddenly. “To the game. You can fly out, watch me play-”
“I’ll be there,” you say immediately. “Obviously I’ll be there. You think I’m going to miss your NHL debut? Please. I’m already planning my outfit.”
Quinn laughs wetly. “Of course you are.”
“It’s going to be even better than my draft outfit,” you tell him seriously. “More sophisticated. I’m thinking a jersey — yours, obviously — but styled in a chic way. Maybe with a blazer? And definitely my lucky pink lipstick.”
“The one from the draft?”
“The very same.” You touch his face gently. “I need to be able to leave my mark when you get your first NHL point.”
“You think I’m going to get a point in my first game?”
“I know you are,” you say with absolute certainty.
***
The next few days are chaos. Quinn packs his entire life. He says goodbye to his teammates, his coaches, his professors. He promises to finish his semester work remotely. He calls his family approximately forty times.
And he spends every possible moment with you.
“I’m going to miss you so much,” you say on Tuesday night. You’re lying in his bed — the bed he’s slept in for two years, the bed he’s leaving tomorrow — and you’re tucked against his side. “Like, an embarrassing amount. I’m going to be one of those girlfriends who talks about her boyfriend constantly and everyone’s going to be so annoyed.”
“I’m going to miss you too,” Quinn says. “More than I can explain.”
“We’ll make it work though, right? We’ll figure it out?”
“We’ll figure it out,” Quinn promises.
“Say it again.”
“We’ll figure it out.”
“One more time.”
“We’ll figure it out,” Quinn says, and he kisses the top of your head. “I love you.”
“I love you too,” you whisper. “So much. Go be a hockey player, Quinn Hughes. Go be the best hockey player.”
***
Wednesday morning comes too fast. Quinn’s flight is at nine. You drive him to the airport even though he tells you that you should be in class.
“Class can wait,” you say firmly. “This is more important.”
At the airport, you walk him as far as security will let you. Your eyes are red and your smile is wobbly, but you’re trying.
“I’ll see you tomorrow,” you say. “I’m flying out tomorrow morning. I’ll be at the game. I’ll be the one in pink, obviously, screaming louder than everyone else.”
“I’ll look for you,” Quinn says.
“You better.” You kiss him, long and slow and sweet. “I’m so proud of you. I know I keep saying it, but I need you to know. I am so, so proud of you.”
“I couldn’t have done any of this without you,” Quinn says honestly.
“Yes, you could have. But I’m glad you didn’t have to.” You step back, wiping at your eyes. “Go. Before I start really crying and embarrass both of us.”
Quinn goes through security, and he turns back to wave. You’re standing there in your pink sweatshirt and jeans, and you blow him a kiss.
Quinn catches it and presses his hand to his heart.
Then he turns and walks toward his gate, toward his future, toward the NHL.
***
The game against the Kings is everything and nothing like Quinn imagined.
The rink is bigger. The players are faster. Everything happens at a speed that makes college hockey look like slow motion. Quinn plays his shifts, tries not to make mistakes, tries to just keep up.
But he knows you’re in the stands. He found you during warmups — sitting with his family who flew in this morning, wearing his jersey styled over a white button-down and a pink skirt, looking perfect and proud and like home.
Midway through the second period, Quinn gets the puck at the blue line. He sees a lane, sees his teammate driving to the net, and he makes the pass. It’s not fancy. It’s not highlight-reel worthy. But it works.
The puck goes in.
The arena erupts. His teammates mob the goal scorer. And Quinn looks up at the stands, finds you immediately, and sees that you’re crying.
The jumbotron catches it — you, in his jersey, tears streaming down your face, mouthing “I love you” at the camera.
Quinn’s heart feels too big for his chest.
They win the game 4-2. Quinn finishes with one assist, eighteen minutes of ice time, and approximately zero thoughts that aren’t about you.
After the game, after the media responsibilities and the team debrief and everything else, Quinn finally gets to leave. His family is waiting outside the locker room, but you’re not there.
“She went back to your apartment,” his mom says, smiling knowingly. “Said she wanted to give you time with us first.”
Quinn hugs his parents, his brothers. They tell him how proud they are, how well he played, how exciting this all is. And it is exciting. It’s everything he’s worked for.
But all he can think about is getting back to you.
***
The apartment the team has set him up in is small — a temporary place for the rest of the season until he can find something more permanent. But when Quinn walks in, you’ve somehow made it feel like home.
There are flowers on the counter (pink roses, obviously). There’s takeout you must have ordered on the way back from the game. And there’s you, still wearing his jersey, sitting on the couch with your feet tucked under you.
“Hi,” you say softly.
“Hi,” Quinn says.
Then you’re off the couch and in his arms, and he’s holding you tight enough that you squeak.
“I saw you crying,” Quinn says into your hair. “On the jumbotron.”
“I know. So embarrassing. I’m going to be a meme, aren’t I? That’s going to be my legacy.”
“You were crying because you were proud of me.”
“I was crying because you got your first NHL point,” you say, pulling back to look at him. “Do you know how incredible that is? Do you know how many people dream of that and never get it? And you just did it. In your first game. You’re nineteen years old and you’re playing in the NHL and getting points and-” Your voice cracks. “I’m just really proud of you, okay?”
Quinn kisses you. He kisses you like you’re the reason he made that pass, the reason he’s here, the reason any of this matters.
When you finally break apart, you’re both breathing hard.
“Come eat,” you say. “You must be starving. I got all your favorites. Well, all your favorites that your mom told me about. I should probably learn these things myself at some point.”
“You know plenty about me,” Quinn says.
“I know that you’re now a Vancouver Canuck,” you say, leading him to the tiny kitchen table. “I know that you’re incredible at hockey. I know that you got an assist in your first NHL game. And I know that I love you more than I thought it was possible to love another person.”
They eat dinner together, and you tell him about the game from your perspective (“The guy behind me kept yelling about plus-minus and I had to google what that meant”). You show him the photos you took (approximately sixty, all of him). You detail your flight out here and how his mom upgraded your seat as a surprise.
“She’s the best,” you say. “Your whole family is the best. Luke told me that if you get too busy to call me, I should just call him and he’ll yell at you.”
“That sounds like Luke,” Quinn says.
Later, they move to the couch. You curl up against his side, your head on his chest, his arm around you. The TV is on but neither of them is watching it.
“This is far,” you say quietly. “Vancouver. From Michigan.”
“I know.”
“I did the math. If I’m really careful with my schedule, I could probably visit once a month. Maybe twice if there’s a long weekend. And you’ll have some games in the other divisions, which are closer. And there’s summer, obviously. And-” You stop. “I’ve been thinking about something.”
“What?”
You sit up to look at him, and there’s something nervous in your expression. “What if I transferred? To UBC or somewhere else in Vancouver? I could finish my degree here, we could be together-”
“No,” Quinn says immediately.
“No?” You look hurt.
“Not no because I don’t want you here,” Quinn says quickly. “No because that’s not your dream. Your dream is to be sorority president at Michigan. Your dream is to go to a top law school — Harvard or Yale or Stanford. Your dream is not to transfer schools and rearrange your entire life for me.”
“But what if my dream changed?” You ask. “What if you’re part of my dream now?”
“I am part of your dream,” Quinn says. “But I’m not the whole dream. And I don’t want to be. You worked too hard to get where you are. You’re president of your sorority. You have perfect grades. You have a plan, and it’s a good plan, and I’m not going to let you change it for me.”
“But Vancouver is so far from Michigan,” you say, and your voice is small.
“I know. But we’ll make it work.”
“You keep saying that.”
“Because I mean it.” Quinn takes both of your hands. “Listen to me. I love you. I love you so much that sometimes I can’t believe it’s real. But I fell in love with you because you’re ambitious and driven and you have dreams that matter to you. I’m not going to be the reason you give those up.”
“What if I want to give them up?”
“You don’t,” Quinn says gently. “You want me to tell you it’s okay to give them up because you’re scared. But you’re not a person who gives up on things. You’re a person who makes color-coded spreadsheets and plans outfits for events months in advance and works harder than anyone I know. That’s who you are. And that’s who I love.”
You’re quiet for a long moment, your eyes shiny with tears. “You’re annoyingly right,” you finally say.
“I know.”
“I hate when you’re annoyingly right.”
“I know that too.”
You laugh wetly and kiss him. “Okay. Okay, you win. I’ll stay at Michigan. I’ll finish my degree. I’ll go to law school somewhere amazing. And we’ll make it work.”
“We’ll make it work,” Quinn agrees.
“Say it again.”
“We’ll make it work.”
“One more time.”
“We’ll make it work,” Quinn says, and he pulls you back against his chest. “I promise.”
You’re quiet again, and Quinn thinks maybe you’ve fallen asleep. But then you speak, soft and thoughtful.
“You know what’s funny?”
“When I first met you, you were the most terrified-looking person I’d ever seen. Like you were constantly experiencing the horrors.”
“I remember.”
“But now you’re the one telling me not to be scared. You’re the one with the plan. You’re the one who’s certain about things.” You tilt your head to look up at him. “When did that happen?”
Quinn thinks about it. About the past two years, about everything you’ve been through together, about how you’ve changed him in ways he’s still discovering.
“You happened,” he says honestly. “You made me believe I could do this. All of this.”
“Well,” you say, settling back against him. “Then I guess we’re even. Because you make me believe I can do anything.”
Outside, Vancouver twinkles with city lights. Inside, Quinn holds you close and thinks about the future. About your senior year apart, about law school, about his NHL career, about all the obstacles between here and forever.
It should be terrifying. It should be overwhelming.
But with you in his arms, Quinn isn’t scared at all.
You’ll make it work.
You’ll figure it out.
You’ll be perfect.
Together.
***
Quinn is pretty sure his teammates are trying to kill him.
Not literally, of course. But the way they’re all crowding around his stall after their first win of the season — a 5-2 victory over the Oilers that felt better than it probably should have — definitely feels like some kind of coordinated attack.
“Huggy Bear,” Brock Boeser says, slinging an arm around Quinn’s shoulders. “We’re going out. Celebrating. You’re coming.”
“I’m good,” Quinn says, focusing on untying his skates.
“Come on,” Adam Gaudette chimes in. “First win of the season! We gotta celebrate properly.”
“There’s this place downtown,” another one of the guys says. “Great music, better-looking women-”
“I have a girlfriend,” Quinn interrupts.
The locker room doesn’t go quiet, exactly, but there’s a definite shift in energy. Several of the guys exchange glances.
“Right,” Brock says slowly. “The college girlfriend.”
“Her name is Y/N,” Quinn says, and he can hear the edge in his own voice. “And I’m not going to some club to — what did you guys call it — ‘get some action.’ I’m going home to FaceTime my girlfriend like I do after every game.”
“Dude,” one of the younger guys says. “It’s just one night. What she doesn’t know-”
Quinn stands up so fast his stall door bangs against the wall. “I’m going to stop you right there,” he says, and his voice is cold in a way it rarely gets. “I love her. I’m not going to cheat on her. I would never cheat on her. And if you guys can’t understand that, then I don’t know what to tell you.”
There’s a beat of silence.
“Okay,” Brock says, holding up his hands. “Okay, man. We got it. We respect that.”
“Do you?” Quinn asks.
“Yeah,” Brock says, and he sounds like he means it. “Yeah, we do. That’s actually—that’s really cool, man. Good for you.”
Quinn takes a breath, forces himself to calm down. “Look, if you guys want to celebrate, you can come to my place. I have beer. I have a decent TV. It’s not a club, but-”
“I’m in,” Elias Pettersson says immediately from across the locker room. He’s been quiet this whole time, just watching. “I would rather hang out at your place than go to some loud club anyway.”
“Yeah?” Brock looks between them. “Okay. Yeah, I’m down. Better than fighting through crowds of drunk people.”
A few more guys agree. Some head out to the clubs anyway. But an hour later, Quinn has approximately eight of his teammates crammed into his new condo in downtown Vancouver.
“Holy shit,” Adam says, looking around. “Hughes, your place is like … decorated.”
“Is that surprising?” Quinn asks, grabbing beers from the fridge.
“Little bit, yeah.” Adam is staring at the throw pillows on the couch. The pink throw pillows. “Dude. Is that … is everything pink?”
“Not everything,” Quinn says defensively. But he looks around and realizes that, yeah, there’s a lot of pink. Pink pillows. A pink throw blanket. Pink kitchen towels. A pink vase with flowers on the coffee table. “My girlfriend helped me decorate.”
“Helped,” Brock repeats, grinning. “She helped.”
“Okay, she mostly decorated,” Quinn admits. “But I approved everything.”
“Did you though?” someone asks.
Quinn thinks about the day you arrived in Vancouver during the summer, took one look at his empty condo, and declared it “sad and depressing and we’re fixing this immediately.” He thinks about spending three days going to furniture stores and home goods stores and approximately seventeen different places that sold throw pillows. He thinks about you holding up paint swatches and asking him which shade of cream he preferred (they all looked the same to him). He thinks about how you made his place feel like home.
“Yeah,” Quinn says firmly. “I did.”
Petey is examining the bookshelf in the corner. “You have a lot of photos,” he observes.
Quinn walks over. The bookshelf is mostly photos, actually — photos of his family, his brothers, his time at Michigan. And photos of you. You at one of his games. You and Quinn at formal. You kissing his cheek. You laughing at something off-camera. You asleep on his chest. You, you, you.
“That’s her,” Quinn says, picking up his favorite photo — the two of you at the draft, your lipstick all over his face, both of you grinning like idiots. “That’s Y/N.”
“She’s really pink,” Adam observes.
“She’s perfect,” Quinn corrects.
Brock takes the photo, studies it. “You look different here,” he says.
“How?”
“Happy. Like, really happy. Not stressed.” Brock looks up at him. “You always look stressed, man. But in this photo, you look like nothing else matters.”
“Nothing else did matter,” Quinn says honestly. “I’d just been drafted. She was there. That was all I needed.”
“That’s disgustingly cute,” another teammate says. “I mean that in the best way.”
Quinn takes the photo back, sets it carefully on the shelf. “I won’t see her until next month,” he says. “But she flew in over the summer. Spent three weeks here. She helped me pick out furniture, helped me decorate, helped me make the condo feel like somewhere I actually want to be. So yeah, there’s a lot of pink. But every time I see it, I think of her.”
“How do you do it?” Petey asks quietly. “The long-distance thing?”
“Honestly?” Quinn hands out beers, settles on the couch. “It’s hard. It’s really hard. But she’s worth it. She’s worth all of it.”
“Tell us about her,” Brock says, settling into one of the chairs. “Like, what’s she like?”
Quinn doesn’t usually talk about you. Not because he doesn’t want to, but because he doesn’t know how to explain you in a way that makes sense. How do you explain someone who’s sunshine personified? Someone who makes color-coded spreadsheets for visiting schedules and cries at his games and believes in him even when he doesn’t believe in himself?
“She’s pre-law,” Quinn starts. “Junior year at Michigan. She’s president of her sorority — Kappa Kappa Gamma. She wants to go to a top law school, probably Harvard or Yale. She’s the smartest person I know, but also the most optimistic. Everything she owns is pink. She talks a mile a minute. She makes lists for everything. She’s-” He stops, realizing he’s rambling. “She’s my best friend.”
“How’d you meet?” Adam asks.
“She ran into me with a clothing rack on move-in day freshman year,” Quinn says, and he can’t help but smile at the memory. “She was wearing head-to-toe pink and talking about sorority recruitment and I thought she was the most overwhelming person I’d ever met.”
“And now?” Brock prompts.
“Now she’s still the most overwhelming person I’ve ever met,” Quinn says. “But I love her. I love everything about her. I love how she sends me photos of her outfits before sorority events and asks my opinion even though she’s already made up her mind. I love how she calls me after every game, win or lose, and knows exactly what to say. I love how she believes in me even when I’m terrified. Especially when I’m terrified.”
“Dude,” someone says. “You have it bad.”
“I know,” Quinn says simply.
They hang out for a few more hours, talking about hockey and the season and life. But Quinn keeps glancing at his phone, waiting for your usual post-game call. You have class until seven — he’s memorized your schedule — but you always call after.
When the guys finally leave around eleven, Quinn immediately FaceTimes you.
You answer on the second ring, and you’re in your pajamas — pink, obviously — with your hair piled on top of your head and textbooks spread around you on your bed.
“Hi,” you say, and your whole face lights up. “I watched the game! You were amazing! That assist in the second period was so pretty-”
“The guys came over,” Quinn interrupts.
“Oh yeah? How’d that go?”
“They saw the condo.”
You pause. “And?”
“They made fun of how pink it is.”
“Quinn Hughes, did you defend my decorating choices?”
“Obviously. I told them it was perfect.”
“Good answer.” You grin at him. “Did you show them the photos?”
“Yeah.”
“What’d they say?”
Quinn thinks about Brock’s comment, about how he looked different in the photos. “They said I look happy with you.”
“You are happy with me,” you say confidently. “I make you happy. It’s one of my many talents. Right up there with color-coding and parallel parking.”
“You’re terrible at parallel parking.”
“That’s beside the point.” You shift on your bed, bringing the phone closer. “I miss you. Is that pathetic? It’s only been like two weeks since I saw you.”
“I miss you too,” Quinn says. “Twenty-three more days until you visit.”
“You’re counting?”
“Obviously.”
“That’s disgustingly romantic,” you say, echoing what his teammate said earlier. “I love it. I love you.”
“I love you too.”
***
Three weeks later, Quinn is in Detroit for a game against the Red Wings, and he’s pretty sure the entire state of Michigan knows you’re coming to the game.
He knows this because you’ve been texting him updates all day.
Just left Ann Arbor with seventeen of my sisters.
We’re all wearing your jersey. EIGHTEEN JERSEYS QUINN.
I made signs. Multiple signs. You’re going to be so embarrassed.
Actually no, you’re going to love it, because you love me and you think everything I do is cute even when it’s objectively embarrassing.
Quinn is reading the texts and grinning like an idiot when Brock leans over his shoulder on the bus.
“Your girlfriend coming to the game?” He asks.
“Yeah. With half her sorority, apparently.”
“That’s adorable,” Brock says. “You’re going to play so well. You must always play well when she’s in the stands.”
Quinn doesn’t know if that’s true, but it feels true. Every time he knows you’re watching, he plays a little harder, a little sharper, like he’s trying to impress you even though you’re already impressed.
During warmups, Quinn spots your group immediately. You’re not hard to find — eighteen girls in Canucks jerseys, all in a row, all holding signs. One sign says QUINN HUGHES: MICHIGAN’S #1 EXPORT. Another says THAT’S MY BOYFRIEND with an arrow pointing down at the ice. A third just says HUGGY BEAR with about twenty-three hearts drawn around it.
But Quinn only sees you. You’re in the middle of the group, wearing his jersey over what looks like a pink turtleneck, and you’re screaming his name and waving.
Quinn skates over to the glass, and you press your hand against it. He presses his glove against your hand on the other side.
“I love you,” you mouth.
“Love you too,” Quinn mouths back.
The game is good. Really good. Quinn gets two assists and plays some of his best hockey of the season. Every time he’s on the bench, he can hear you screaming encouragement. Your voice carries above everyone else’s.
They win 4-1.
After the game, after media and after he’s showered and changed, Quinn makes his way out to the family area. His parents are there — they drove in for the game — but you’re already there too, bouncing on your toes like you can’t contain your excitement.
The second you see him, you run.
Quinn catches you, lifts you off your feet, and you’re kissing him before he can say anything. You taste like pink lemonade and lip balm and home.
“You were so good,” you’re saying between kisses. “So, so good. Did you see our signs? We had signs. Eighteen of us, Quinn. I mobilized my entire sorority for you.”
“I saw,” Quinn says, setting you down but not letting go. “You’re incredible.”
“I know.” You’re grinning up at him, your hands on his chest. “Your teammates are staring at us, by the way.”
Quinn looks up. Sure enough, several of the guys are watching with various expressions of amusement and surprise. Brock is grinning. Petey looks fascinated.
“Come on,” Quinn says, taking your hand. “I’ll introduce you.”
He walks you over to where Brock and Petey and a few others are standing with their families.
“Guys, this is Y/N,” Quinn says. “Y/N, this is-”
“Brock Boeser and Elias Pettersson,” you interrupt, shaking their hands enthusiastically. “I know. I’ve watched every single Canucks game this season. You’re both amazing. Brock, that goal in the third period tonight was perfect. Petey, your stick handling is genuinely insane.”
Brock looks delighted. “She knows hockey.”
“I know hockey,” you confirm. “I learned for Quinn. Well, I started learning for Quinn, but then I genuinely started enjoying it. Don’t tell him though, he’ll get a big head about it.”
“I’m standing right here,” Quinn says.
“I know.” You beam up at him. “Hi. You’re my favorite hockey player.”
“I better be,” Quinn says.
“So this is the girl from the photos,” Petey says, studying you with interest. “You’re very pink.”
“Thank you! It’s my signature color. Quinn’s condo is also very pink now, in case he didn’t tell you.”
“He told us,” Brock says, grinning. “He also told us you’re the best thing that ever happened to him.”
“He said that?” You look up at Quinn, your eyes soft.
“I say it all the time,” Quinn says honestly.
“God, you two are cute,” Brock says. “It’s actually disgusting. I love it.”
You end up talking to his teammates for another twenty minutes, charming every single one of them just like Quinn knew you would. You tell them embarrassing stories about Quinn at Michigan. You compliment their playing. You somehow get Petey to smile more in twenty minutes than Quinn has seen him smile all season.
Later, when it’s just you and Quinn and his parents, his mom hugs you tight.
“We’ve missed you,” she says.
“I’ve missed you too,” you say. “All of you. Quinn most of all, obviously, but all of you.”
“How’s school?” His dad asks.
“Good! Really good. I’m applying to law schools soon. Quinn’s been helping me practice for the LSAT, even though he definitely doesn’t understand half of the questions.”
“I understand them,” Quinn protests.
“You told me last week that the logic games ‘hurt your brain.’”
“They do hurt my brain.”
His parents laugh, and Quinn thinks about how easily you fit into his life, into his family, into everything that matters to him.
***
The season continues. Quinn flies back to Vancouver. You stay in Michigan, buried in schoolwork and LSAT preparation and sorority responsibilities. You visit twice more before Christmas — once in November, once in early December. Each time, Quinn’s condo feels more like home with you in it.
Then Christmas break comes, and you both go home. You spend a week at your parents’ house, then a week with Quinn’s family at their lake house. It’s perfect and comfortable and exactly what Quinn needs after the chaos of the first half of the season.
“I don’t want to go back,” you say on New Year’s Eve. You’re curled up next to him on the couch, watching the snow fall outside. “I want to stay here forever.”
“Me too,” Quinn says.
“But you have hockey. And I have school. And law school applications. And-” You sigh. “Being an adult is terrible. I want to go back to being eighteen and having you down the hall from me in the dorm.”
“That was nice,” Quinn agrees.
“Everything was simpler then.”
“Not really. I was terrified all the time.”
“You’re still terrified all the time,” you point out. “You just hide it better now.”
Quinn can’t argue with that.
You kiss him at midnight, and Quinn thinks that maybe, possibly, this long-distance thing is working. It’s hard and it’s not what he wants, but it’s working.
***
Then March happens.
Quinn is in Vancouver. You’re in Michigan, in the middle of midterms. He’s been following the news about the virus, about the cases spreading, but it still feels distant and unreal.
Until it’s not.
The NHL pauses the season on March 12th. Quinn gets the news in the locker room, and for a moment, no one says anything.
“What do we do now?” Someone finally asks.
No one has an answer.
Quinn calls you immediately. You answer on the first ring.
“Did you hear?” You ask.
“Yeah. Are you okay?”
“Michigan just announced they’re going online for the rest of the semester. Quinn, what’s happening?”
“I don’t know,” Quinn says honestly. “But I need to see you. Can you—are you able to come here? Or I can come there?”
“I can come there,” you say immediately. “Let me figure out flights. Let me call you back.”
But the flights get complicated. Everything gets complicated. Airlines are canceling routes. Borders are closing. The world is shutting down.
Quinn and you talk seven times that day, trying to figure out logistics.
“I don’t want to be apart,” you say during the last call, and your voice cracks. “Quinn, I don’t want to do this alone.”
“You’re not going to,” Quinn promises. “We’re going to figure this out.”
“There’s that phrase again.”
“Because I mean it. Where do you want to quarantine?”
“Together,” you say immediately. “Wherever, as long as it’s together.”
Quinn thinks about his condo in Vancouver. About your dorm at Michigan. About his family’s lake house.
“The lake house,” he says. “We’ll go to the lake house. It’s big enough. It’s away from everything. We can wait this out there.”
“When?” You ask.
“Soon. Now. I’ll drive back to Michigan. You can meet me there. We’ll-” Quinn realizes he’s making decisions without thinking them through, but for once he doesn’t care. “We’ll figure it out.”
“Okay,” you say, and you sound relieved. “Okay. I’ll pack. I’ll drive there tomorrow.”
“I love you,” Quinn says.
“I love you too. Be safe driving.”
***
The lake house is strange in March. Too quiet. Too empty. But when Quinn pulls up and sees your car already in the driveway, sees you sitting on the porch steps waiting for him, everything feels right.
You run to him. He catches you. You’re both crying a little, overwhelmed by everything that’s happening, everything that’s changing.
“Hi,” you say against his chest.
“Hi,” Quinn says. “We’re okay. We’re going to be okay.”
“Promise?”
“Promise.”
***
The quarantine days blur together. Quinn and you settle into a routine — sleeping late, working out in the basement, doing your schoolwork, watching movies, cooking meals together. Jack and Luke show up after a few days, having driven back from their own hockey commitments, and suddenly the lake house is full.
You fit into the chaos perfectly. You help Ellen cook dinner every night. You play video games with Jack and Luke. You sit with Quinn’s dad and discuss hockey strategy even though you both know you’re just pretending to understand half of it.
But mostly, you and Quinn exist in your own little world. You curl up together on the couch while you work on law school applications. You go for walks around the lake, holding hands, talking about the future that suddenly feels uncertain.
“What if the season doesn’t come back?” Quinn asks one day in April. You’re sitting on the dock, your feet dangling in the still-cold water.
“Then it doesn’t come back,” you say simply. “And you’ll deal with it. We’ll deal with it.”
“Just like that?”
“Just like that.” You lean your head on his shoulder. “Quinn, I know hockey is your whole life. I know how much you care about it. But you’re going to be okay no matter what happens. You’re going to have a long, incredible career. This is just a pause. Not an ending.”
“How are you so sure?”
“Because I know you,” you say. “And I know that you don’t give up on things. You never have. You’re not going to start now.”
***
Summer arrives. The world is still locked down, still strange, but the NHL announces a plan for a playoff bubble. Quinn will have to leave for training camp in July, then head to the bubble in August.
But for now, it’s June, and you’re lying on the dock in a pink bikini, and Quinn is trying to focus on the playbook in his lap instead of staring at you.
“You’re staring,” you say without opening your eyes.
“I’m not.”
“You are. I can feel it.”
“Can’t help it,” Quinn admits. “You’re distracting.”
You smile, turning onto your side to look at him. “Good. You work too hard. You should be distracted more often.”
Your laptop is next to you, multiple tabs open with law school applications. Quinn can see Harvard’s logo on one tab, Yale’s on another.
“How’s it going?” He asks, nodding at the computer.
“Good. I think. These personal statements are killing me though. How many different ways can I say ‘I want to be a lawyer because I like arguing and I’m good at it’?”
“You’re good at a lot more than arguing.”
“Name three things.”
“You’re organized. You’re determined. You care about making things better.” Quinn sets aside his playbook. “You’re going to get into every school you apply to.”
“You don’t know that.”
“I absolutely know that.” Quinn reaches over, takes your hand. “You’re the smartest person I know. You’re going to go to a top law school. You’re going to graduate at the top of your class. You’re going to become a lawyer who changes the world. I know all of this because I know you.”
“What about us?” You ask quietly. “Law school is three years. You’ll be in Vancouver. I’ll be—I don’t know where I’ll be. What if I get into Yale? Or Harvard? Those are both so far from Vancouver.”
Quinn has thought about this. Of course he’s thought about this. He’s thought about it every day since you started working on applications. The idea of you being across the continent, of only seeing you a few times a year, of missing three years of your life — it makes his chest tight.
But he also knows that he meant what he said back in the apartment after his first NHL game. He’s not going to let you give up your dreams for him.
“Then you go to Yale or Harvard,” Quinn says firmly. “And we make it work.”
“Quinn-”
“I’m serious. I’ve been thinking about this. The team travels to the East Coast a few times a year. You’ll have breaks. We’ll have summers. It won’t be easy, but-”
“We’ll make it work,” you finish softly.
“Exactly.”
You’re quiet for a moment, studying his face. “You really mean that. You’d do long distance for three more years after everything we’ve already done?”
“I’d do anything for you,” Quinn says honestly. “Three years of long distance? That’s nothing. That’s easy compared to not being with you at all.”
“It’s not nothing,” you say. “It’s a lot. It’s sacrificing time together. It’s missing important moments. It’s-”
“It’s what we need to do,” Quinn interrupts. “Because your career matters just as much as mine does. Because I want you to become the person you’re meant to be, and that person is a brilliant lawyer who goes to a top law school. Not someone who gave up their dreams to follow their boyfriend around.”
“I hate that you’re right about this,” you say, but you’re smiling a little.
“I’m right about a lot of things.”
“Don’t push it, Hughes.”
Quinn laughs and pulls you closer, until you’re tucked against his side, your head on his chest. The sun is warm on his skin. The lake is quiet. His family is inside, probably arguing about what movie to watch tonight. You’re in his arms, exactly where you belong.
“I got an email from my career advisor yesterday,” you say quietly.
Quinn’s heart stops. “And?”
“She thinks I have a real shot at a Top 10 school.”
“You have more than a shot,” Quinn says. “You’re going to get in. You’re going to get in everywhere.”
“What if I do?” You ask. “What if I get into Harvard and Yale and Stanford and I have to choose? How do I choose?”
“You pick the place that feels right. The place where you can see yourself thriving. And you don’t factor me into the decision at all.”
“That’s impossible. You’re part of every decision I make now.”
“Then factor me in like this: I want you to be happy. I want you to achieve everything you’re capable of achieving. I want you to look back on your life in forty years and know that you made every choice for the right reasons.” Quinn kisses the top of your head. “Pick the school that’s going to make you the best lawyer you can be. I’ll be proud of you no matter what.”
“Promise?” Your voice is small, younger than he’s heard it in a long time.
“Promise. We’ve made it through two years of you at Michigan and me in Vancouver. We made it through a pandemic. We can make it through law school.”
“We’ll make it work,” you say.
“We’ll make it work,” Quinn echoes.
You’re quiet for a long moment, and Quinn thinks maybe the conversation is over. But then you speak again, softer now.
“Do you ever think about the future? Like, the real future? After hockey, after law school, after everything?”
“All the time,” Quinn admits.
“What does it look like?”
Quinn thinks about it. About a house that’s probably too pink. About kids who will definitely play hockey and definitely have your smile. About growing old with you, about building a life that’s bigger and better than anything he could have imagined that day you ran into him with a clothing rack.
“It looks like this,” he says finally. “It looks like us, together, figuring it out as we go. That’s all I need.”
“That’s all I need too,” you say. Then you tilt your head up to look at him, and you’re smiling that smile that’s only for him. “I love you, Quinn Hughes. I loved you when you were a terrified freshman who looked like he was constantly experiencing the horrors. I loved you when you got drafted. I loved you through every game, every flight, every month apart. And I’m going to love you through law school and through the rest of your hockey career and through everything else that comes our way.”
“I love you too,” Quinn says. “So much. More than I know how to say.”
“Then don’t say it. Just show me.”
So Quinn kisses you, there on the dock with the summer sun blazing overhead and the lake stretching out endlessly before them. He kisses you like you’re his present and his future and his always. He kisses you like you’re the reason for everything good in his life.
Because you are.
When you finally pull apart, you’re both smiling.
“Come on,” you say, standing up and pulling him with you. “Your mom wants help with dinner. And I promised Luke I’d help him with his essay even though he keeps trying to write it about chicken tenders.”
“That sounds like Luke,” Quinn says.
“That sounds like your whole family,” you correct. “I love your whole family.”
“They love you too.”
You start walking back toward the house, and Quinn follows, his hand in yours. Inside, he can hear his brothers arguing about something. His mom is laughing. His dad is probably already setting the table.
This is his life now. Hockey and you and family and the constant push-pull of dreams and reality. It’s complicated and messy and sometimes really hard.
But it’s perfect.
You’re perfect.
And whatever comes next — law school, more seasons, more distance, more challenges — Quinn knows they’ll figure it out.
Because that’s what you do. That’s what you’ve always done.
You make it work.
Together.
***
Later that night, after dinner and after the dishes are done and after everyone has gone to bed, Quinn finds you on the porch again. You’re wrapped in a blanket, staring out at the lake, your laptop open beside you.
“Still working on applications?” Quinn asks, sitting down next to you.
“Just finishing up my Harvard personal statement,” you say. “Want to read it?”
“Always.”
You hand him the laptop, and Quinn reads. It’s brilliant, of course — articulate and passionate and so distinctly you that he can hear your voice in every sentence. You write about wanting to make a difference, about seeing the law as a tool for positive change, about your dreams of working in public interest law.
But it’s the last paragraph that makes Quinn’s throat tight.
I’ve learned that the best things in life require patience, dedication, and the willingness to believe in something even when it seems impossible. I learned this from hockey — not from playing it, but from loving someone who does. From watching someone pour their entire heart into achieving their dreams, even when those dreams are terrifying. From learning that distance and difficulty don’t diminish love; they deepen it. If I can approach law with the same dedication, passion, and tireless belief that I’ve witnessed in the people I love most, then I know I can make a real difference in this world.
“You’re writing about me,” Quinn says quietly.
“I’m writing about us,” you correct. “About what you’ve taught me. About how you’ve changed the way I see the world.” You take the laptop back, save the document. “Is that okay?”
“It’s more than okay,” Quinn says. “It’s perfect. You’re perfect.”
“We’re perfect,” you say, and you lean your head on his shoulder.
Above them, the stars are out, scattered across the sky like promises. The lake is dark and still. Inside, Quinn’s family sleeps peacefully.
And here, on this porch, in this moment, Quinn is happier than he’s ever been.
He’s twenty years old. He’s an NHL player. He’s in love with a girl who makes him believe in impossible things.
And whatever comes next — whatever challenges, whatever distance, whatever obstacles — he knows you’ll face it together.
Because that’s what love is. That’s what you’ve taught him.
It’s not about being together every single moment. It’s not about choosing between dreams. It’s not about making things easy.
It’s about choosing each other, over and over again, no matter what.
It’s about making it work.
And you will.
You always do.
“Hey, Quinn?” You say softly.
“Yeah?”
“Thank you.”
“For what?”
“For believing in me. For pushing me to follow my dreams even when it’s hard. For loving me exactly the way I am — pink clothes and color-coded spreadsheets and all.”
“Thank you for loving me back,” Quinn says. “For seeing past the terrified exterior to whatever’s underneath. For making me believe I could do this. All of this.”
“We’re pretty great together, huh?”
“The greatest,” Quinn agrees.
You smile and kiss him one more time, soft and sweet and full of promise. Then you stand up, pulling him with you.
“Come on,” you say. “Let’s go to bed. Tomorrow we’re making Jack drive us into town for ice cream.”
“It’s Jack’s turn to drive?”
“It’s absolutely Jack’s turn to drive. I have a whole rotation schedule. Color-coded, obviously.”
“Obviously,” Quinn says, laughing.
And as he follows you inside, his hand in yours, Quinn thinks about the future. About the bubble playoffs starting in a few weeks. About your law school applications. About all the uncertainty ahead.
But for once, the uncertainty doesn’t scare him.
Because he has you.
And with you, anything is possible.
Even this.
Especially this.
Always this.
Forever.
***
Four Years Later
Quinn has seen you accomplish a lot of things in the seven years he’s been in love with you.
He’s seen you become sorority president. He’s seen you ace the LSAT. He’s seen you get accepted to Harvard Law with a full scholarship. He’s seen you navigate three years of law school while he played hockey across the continent, making it work through FaceTime calls and stolen weekends and an unwavering belief in each other.
But standing in Harvard Yard, watching you walk across the stage as valedictorian of Harvard Law School, is something else entirely.
You’re wearing your cap and gown, but somehow you’ve still managed to make it pink — a pink sash, pink heels peeking out from under your gown, and what he’s pretty sure is pink lipstick even from where he’s sitting with your family and his.
When they call your name — “Y/N Y/L/N, Juris Doctor, graduating summa cum laude, class valedictorian” — the entire section erupts. Your parents are crying. His mom is crying. Jack and Luke are whooping so loud that people are turning to stare.
Quinn just watches you walk across that stage, shake hands, accept your diploma, and pose for photos, and he thinks his heart might actually burst.
You did it.
You actually did it.
After the ceremony, after you’ve given your valedictorian speech (which made half the audience cry and made Quinn fall in love with you all over again), after the photos and the congratulations and the chaos, Quinn finally gets you alone for a moment.
“Harvard Law valedictorian,” he says, pulling you into his arms. “What, like it’s hard?”
You laugh so hard you snort. “Did you really just quote Legally Blonde at me?”
“I’ve been saving that for three years.”
“That’s the most romantic thing you’ve ever said to me.” You kiss him, not caring that you’re in the middle of Harvard Yard surrounded by approximately ten thousand people. “I did it. I actually did it.”
“You did,” Quinn says, and his voice cracks a little. “I’m so proud of you. So, so proud.”
“Take a picture with me,” you demand, pulling out your phone. “I want to remember this. All of it.”
You take approximately six-hundred photos. You and Quinn. You and your families. You and your law school friends. You in your cap and gown, holding your diploma, looking so happy that Quinn wants to freeze this moment forever.
Later that night, back at your apartment in Cambridge — the one you’ve lived in for three years, the one Quinn has visited so many times he knows it as well as his place in Vancouver — Quinn posts a photo carousel to Instagram.
The first photo is you on stage, accepting your diploma. The second is you giving your speech. The third is the two of you, his arm around you, both of you grinning. The fourth is you kissing his cheek, leaving a pink lipstick mark. The fifth is you holding your diploma with the biggest smile he’s ever seen.
The caption: what? like it’s hard? ❤️so proud of you @yourusername
The comments start immediately.
@bboeser: she’s so far out of your league it’s not even funny
@_eliaspetterson: Congratulations @yourusername! (Quinn we all know she’s the smart one in this relationship)
@jackhughes: my future sister in law is SMARTER THAN YOU
@lhughes_06: proud of you @yourusername! quinn you should probably lock that down before she realizes she can do better
@_quinnhughes: @bboeser I know she’s out of my league. I’ve known since day one
@_quinnhughes: @jackhughes she’s always been smarter than me
@_quinnhughes: @_eliaspetterson facts
@_quinnhughes: @lhughes_06 trust me, I know
The comments continue, hundreds of them from fans and teammates and friends, all congratulating you, all making jokes about how Quinn doesn’t deserve you (he agrees), all celebrating this moment.
But Quinn barely pays attention to any of it.
Because right now, you’re in the shower, washing off the hairspray and makeup from graduation, and Quinn is standing in your bedroom with a ring box in his hand.
It’s rose gold with a pink diamond — because of course it is, because you’re you and everything has always been pink. He’s had it for six months, waiting for the right moment. He thought about proposing after you took the bar exam. He thought about proposing at Christmas. He thought about proposing approximately seven hundred other times.
But he wanted to wait until after today. Until after your moment, your achievement, your time to shine. He didn’t want to take any attention away from what you accomplished.
Now, though … now feels right.
You come out of the bathroom in one of his Canucks t-shirts and your pajama shorts, your hair wet and your face scrubbed clean, and you’re the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen.
“Hey,” you say, smiling at him. “Thanks for today. For being here, for bringing your family, for making this so perfect. I know you have playoffs and you probably should be-”
“Marry me,” Quinn says.
You stop mid-sentence. “What?”
Quinn gets down on one knee. His heart is pounding so hard he’s pretty sure you can hear it. “Marry me,” he says again. “I’ve been waiting to ask you all day because I didn’t want to take attention away from your graduation, from everything you accomplished. But I can’t wait anymore. I’ve known I wanted to marry you since we were nineteen years old and you kissed me in the library at midnight. I’ve known it through every game, every visit, every month apart. I’ve known it through law school and hockey and a pandemic and everything else life has thrown at us.”
You’re crying now, your hand over your mouth, and Quinn keeps going.
“You make me better. You make me brave. You make me believe I can do impossible things because I watch you do impossible things every single day. You graduated as valedictorian of Harvard Law School. You did that while maintaining a long-distance relationship with a professional hockey player, while flying back and forth across the country, while never once complaining about how hard it was.” Quinn opens the ring box, and your eyes go wide when you see the pink diamond. “So marry me. Please. Let me spend the rest of my life trying to deserve you.”
“Quinn,” you whisper, and you’re fully crying now. “Is that—is that a pink diamond?”
“Obviously. What else would it be?”
You laugh through your tears. “You’re perfect. This is perfect. Everything about this is-” You drop to your knees in front of him, taking his face in your hands. “Yes. Yes, of course I’ll marry you. I’ve been ready to marry you since you told me to go to Harvard even though it meant three more years of long distance. Since you believed in my dreams as much as your own. Since you made me believe we could make it work even when it seemed impossible.”
Quinn slides the ring onto your finger, and it fits perfectly. You hold up your hand, looking at it, and you’re smiling so wide it must hurt.
“It’s perfect,” you say. “It’s so perfect. How did you—when did you-”
“Six months ago,” Quinn admits. “I’ve been carrying it around, waiting for the right moment.”
“This is the right moment,” you say firmly. Then you kiss him, deep and long and sweet. “I love you. I love you so much. I’m going to marry you, Quinn Hughes.”
“I’m going to marry you too,” Quinn says.
You pull back, your hands still on his face, and there’s something mischievous in your expression. “I have something to tell you too.”
“Yeah?”
“I got a job offer. Well, I got five job offers, but I accepted one.”
Quinn’s heart sinks a little. He knows you’ve been interviewing with firms all over the country — New York, Boston, DC. He knows you’re probably about to tell him you’re moving somewhere far away, and they’ll have to figure out another few years of long distance, and he’ll support you because that’s what the two of you do but-
“Vancouver,” you say, and you’re grinning now. “I accepted an offer from Morrison & Sterling. They’re one of the most prestigious firms in Vancouver. They want me to start in their public interest division in August.”
Quinn just stares at you. “Vancouver?”
“Vancouver. Where you live. Where we can finally, finally be in the same city for more than a few weeks at a time.” You’re laughing now, clearly delighted by his shocked expression. “Did you really think I was going to accept a job on the East Coast? After everything we’ve been through? I told you six years ago that I was yours and you were mine. That hasn’t changed. That’s never going to change.”
“You’re moving to Vancouver,” Quinn repeats, still trying to process this. “You’re going to live with me. We’re going to be together.”
“Every single day,” you confirm. “Well, except when you have road trips. But yes, every single day. No more long distance. No more counting down days until visits. Just us, in the same city, building a life together.”
Quinn kisses you again, deeper this time, pouring seven years of love and longing and gratitude into it. When you finally break apart, you’re both crying a little.
“How did I get this lucky?” Quinn asks.
“Because you ran into a girl with a pink clothing rack on move-in day and somehow decided she was worth keeping around,” you say.
“Best decision I ever made.”
“Second best,” you correct, holding up your hand to admire your ring again. “Best decision was proposing.”
“Fair point.”
You stand up, pulling him with you, and you’re grinning like you can’t contain your happiness. “We should celebrate. We should call our families. We should-” You gasp. “Oh my god, I need to post about this. Can I post about this?”
“Of course you can post about it.”
“I need to get a good picture of the ring. The lighting in here is terrible. Let’s go to the living room. Actually, let’s go outside. The streetlights will look good. Oh, and I need to-”
Quinn just watches you, amused and so deeply in love. You’re already planning, already organizing, already six steps ahead of everyone else.
Some things never change.
“Hey,” he says, catching your hand.
“Yeah?”
“I love you.”
“I love you too.” You squeeze his hand. “Now come on. Let’s go show the world your excellent taste in engagement rings.”
***
You post a photo twenty minutes later. It’s you holding up your hand, the pink diamond catching the light, Quinn’s arm around you, both of you grinning like idiots. The caption is simple. He said what, like it’s hard? I said yes ❤️💍 Also I’m moving to Vancouver. Surprise!
The comments explode.
Your sorority sisters lose their minds. Your law school friends send congratulations. Your family comments with heart emojis. His family comments with various versions of “FINALLY.”
But Quinn’s favorite comment is from Brock.
he’s been carrying that ring around for six months like a nervous wreck. congrats to you both! @yourusername you’re still way too good for him
You see it and laugh. “I like that your teammates all think I’m out of your league.”
“You are out of my league,” Quinn says simply.
“We’ve been over this. I’m not out of your league. We’re perfect for each other.” You curl up against his side on the couch, your left hand resting on his chest so you can keep looking at your ring. “Can you believe we’re getting married? And I’m moving to Vancouver? This is everything I’ve ever wanted.”
“Me too,” Quinn says.
“What kind of wedding do you want?” You ask. “Big? Small? Pink?”
“Definitely pink,” Quinn says, because he knows you, knows that you’ve probably been planning this wedding since you were eight years old.
“Good answer.” You tilt your head up to kiss him. “We’re going to have the best life, Quinn Hughes. The absolute best life.”
And looking down at you — at your pink diamond ring, at your bright smile, at the way you’re looking at him like he hung the moon — Quinn knows you’re right.
You’ve made it through seven years of long distance. You’ve made it through college and law school and a pandemic and every obstacle life threw at you.
You made it work.
You always do.
And now, finally, you get to build the life you’ve both been dreaming of.
Together.
In the same city.
Forever.
“The best life,” Quinn agrees, and he kisses the top of your head.
Outside, the Cambridge streets are quiet. Inside, your phone is still buzzing with congratulations. On social media, the world is celebrating with you.
But here, in this moment, it’s just the two of you.
tw : fluff, chaos, angst, rivalry, family differences, cracks in relationship, hate comments
fc : morgan riddle
a/n : coming up with a series after soo long !!! let me know if you guys like it and wanna be tagged <3 this is part 1. ngl, in the next part, i might just drop the biggest plot twist ever, what if...they neevr weere dating and it was all a dream ? ( joking, maybe )
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ynorris feels like home again
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user1 OUR FAVOURITE INFLUNCER IS BACCKKKKKKK
user2 the tea this year is gonna be top-tier tea
user3 british tea we be getting !!
landonorris aren't you like my sister ?
landonorris where am i ?
ynorris grow up
landonorris i will tell mom
ynorris she loves oscar more than you
user4 lando has zac 💀
user5 YOU DID NOT -
user6 i can sleep when i am dead cuz this season be lit
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ynorris LANDO WE CAN BE WORLD CHAMPIONS I SAID !!! so happy bro for winning aussie gp <3
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user1 i can smell the rumours from miles
user2 this is so disrespectful of her !
user3 australia is literally her partner's home race !
user4 can't believe she would boast about lando when oscar literally crashed on his home race
user5 magui there just makes it more problematic !!
user6 she is not a norris if she is not causing trouble !
oscarpiastri i love you
ynorris i love me too <3
oscarpiastri say it back.
ynorris i love you too :(
user7 oscar being the one with reins-
user8 oscar please take reins from mclaren as well !
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ynorris Nihao 中国
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user1 DID EVERYONE SEE THAT!??
user2 heck i hate the norris siblings
user3 oscar you deserve so much better !!
user4 she didn't even post oscar of winning and when the hate got real edited a picture of him, LMAO
user5 her brother gets a winning post and her partner doesn't ?
user6 she literally added his picture on the last slide-
oscarpiastri 🧡
user7 BLINK IF YOU NEED HELP
user8 oscar being held at a gunpoint to put the heart
user9 tjust tired atp
user10 literally mclaren treats oscar better than her
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theothernorris chat, i still love him <3
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norizz ofc you do
oscpastry you don't need to prove it to anyone!
norizz you should literally adopt a max
max why did i get spawned
max but yes, don't care, won't care, didn't care
theothernorris pretty sure you messed up the sequence but yeah, i get the point
alexandra you will get throught it dw !
theothernoriss girls night ?
alexlily yes .
flavybavy yes .
carmenvroom yes .
rebsainz yes .
oscpastry i think you should spend time with your bf hm ?
alexandra stay away piastri
norizz am i invited ?
magui last time i checked, i was dating a guy, if you other plans, do let me know !
theothernorris please dump him
magui i might, don't worry
norizz magui, get out of the bed
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f1gossip Trouble in paradise ? YN Norris, partner of F1 driver Oscar Piastri and sister of F1 driver Lando Norris has been in the news lately, with speculations of mistreatment and a breaking relationship.
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user1 atp, it's just hanging by a thread
user2 god, what is this trope
user3 oscar, baby you deserve better
user4 oscar please run over the car on the norris siblings
user5 probably using oscar for fame
user6 let's write to fia
user7 as if they care about anything but cursing
user8 #protectoscar
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f1gossip THE PUZZLE FALLS TOGTHER ! YN Norris was seen out with a mystery man who is definitely not her partner!
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user1 expected.
user2 poor oscar
user3 used him like a tyre
user4 #protectoscar
user5 this is so low
user6 should have never dated
ynorris that's literally my friend !
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user7 Friend, my foot
user8 we all saw that right ?
osc baby <3
hey love, let's break up
let me know if you want to be added or removed from the tg !
you’ve lived your whole life under a name that echoes. schumacher.
it follows you through paddocks and press rooms, through whispered expectations and too heavy praise. some days it feels like armor. other days it feels like grief stitched into your skin.
you are michael schumacher’s daughter. mick’s twin. max verstappen’s oldest friend. sebastian vettel’s godchild. and somehow, impossibly, you are still your own person.
when the season begins, everyone expects you to break. the breakup, the pressure, the legacy — it’s all too much, they say. they’re wrong.
you don’t fall apart. you get faster. you win that championship and the grid could not be happier for you.
fc : annie.shr on ig
a/n : obvs i do not know michael's real condition- i wrote this based off my medical knowledge and based off what mick has said. i am very happy the family has been able to maintain privacy. all the love for the entire schumacher fam<3 also there are slight hints of romance between max and reader I COULD NOT HELP MYSELF SHUSH
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ynschumacher : he broke, i’m up‼️ let’s get the season started😇
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A few days ago, Monaco still smelled like salt and money and unfinished conversations.
You remember it too clearly. The apartment was immaculate in the way places get when no one actually lives in them anymore. Your helmet sat by the door, gloves still tucked inside like you might leave again at any moment. He had been pacing, running a hand through his hair, frustration sharpening his voice with every step.
“You’re never here,” he said, like it was an accusation instead of a fact he had always known. “You’re always working. Or with your family. Or at the factory. Or flying off to another country.”
You didn’t raise your voice. You rarely did.
“This is my career,” you said evenly. “You knew that.”
“I knew you drove,” he snapped. “I didn’t know I’d always come second.”
That was when something inside you tightened.
“I don’t ask you to come second,” you replied. “You’re choosing to stand behind me.”
He scoffed, bitter and cruel. “You hide behind that name of yours. Behind your dad's shadow.”
Your breath left you all at once. He should not have said it. He knew better.
“You do not get to speak about him,” you said quietly.
“Well, maybe if you spent less time chasing his ghost and more time being a girlfriend—”
The sound of your hand hitting the counter cut him off.
“I said you don’t get to talk about him,” you repeated, voice shaking now. “You don’t get to talk about my family, my career, any of it.”
He rolled his eyes, and in that moment, you saw it clearly. The resentment. The insecurity. The way he had always hated that your world was bigger than him.
“You’re married to racing,” he said. “There’s no room for anyone else.”
You picked up your bag.
“Then I’m done trying to make room,” you replied.
You didn’t dare to cry until the plane lifted off.
Texas is much quieter. It always has been. Quiet in a way that you could not quite explain.
Not empty — just wide. Honest. The sky stretches forever, the land steady beneath your boots in a way Monaco never is. Your ranch smells like sun warmed earth and leather and home.
You don’t even unpack before calling Gina. She answers on the first ring.
“I’m home,” you say, and your voice breaks.
“I’m coming,” she replies, already moving.
She’s there in minutes, hair pulled back, boots kicked off at the door as if she’s always lived here. She doesn’t ask questions. She just wraps her arms around you, and suddenly you’re sobbing into her shoulder like you’re seventeen again.
“He said something awful,” you choke out. “About Dad. About everything.”
Gina’s jaw tightens, but her hands stay gentle, rubbing slow circles into your back.
“I know,” she murmurs. “I know.”
You cry until your chest aches, until the season feels too heavy and the expectations too loud and the media too cruel already. Seeing the female Schumacher take Lewis Hamilton's place at Mercedes sure had a way of riling the media.
“They’re already tearing me apart,” you whisper. “They haven’t even let me start with this team yet.”
Gina pulls back just enough to look at you. “You are not fragile,” she says firmly. “You are allowed to feel, and you are allowed to rest. But you are not weak.”
The door opens without warning. Mick. He always knows when something is wrong. He freezes when he sees you curled into Gina, eyes red, face blotchy.
“Oh,” he says softly.
You look up at him, and somehow that makes it worse.
“I didn’t know you were home,” he says, already crossing the room.
“You felt it,” Gina mutters.
He sits beside you, pulling you into his chest, pressing his forehead to yours. “You okay?”
You shake your head.
He sighs, long and familiar. “Did he say something stupid?”
“That’s one way to put it.”
Mick huffs. “I hate him.”
You laugh weakly. “Everyone hates him.”
“Good,” Mick says. “As they should.”
He talks to you like he always does — grounding you, reminding you that you’re still you. Not a headline. Not a legacy. Just his twin. The girl who stole his fries and beat him in go karts.
Your phone buzzes on the table.
Max.
You answer, bracing yourself.
“What did he do,” Max says without preamble.
“Hello to you too.”
“I saw the post,” he replies flatly. “Explain. Now.”
You smile despite yourself. “We broke up.”
There’s a pause. Then, “Good.”
“Max—”
“What’s his address,” he interrupts. “The rookies want it.”
You laugh, startled. “The rookies?”
“Yes. All of them,” he says dryly. “They are very upset.”
“I’m not giving you his address.”
“Tsk,” Max clicks his tongue. “Unfortunate.”
“You are not letting five children commit crimes on behalf of me.”
“I said nothing about crimes,” he replies. “Just… conversations.”
You roll your eyes. “I’m fine.”
“I don’t believe you,” he says simply. “But I will accept it for now.”
“Thank you.”
“You’re welcome,” Max pauses. “You’re still you, yeah?”
You swallow. “Yeah.”
“Good,” he says softly. “Call me later.”
You hang up and exhale.
Gina grins. “He’s so...Max.”
As the sun dips lower, Gina claps her hands. “Come on. Horses.”
The three of you ride out into the open land, dust rising, laughter breaking through the heaviness. Mick races you like you’re kids again. Gina yells at both of you. For a while, you forget.
That night, curled up on the couch, Mick hands Gina the remote.
“We’re watching Sex and the City,” she declares.
Mick groans. “Absolutely not.”
“You lost,” you say sweetly. “Also, you love Samantha.”
He sighs dramatically and sits anyway. You lean back between them, warmth on both sides, the TV glowing. For the first time in weeks, you sleep without dreaming of the bad press, the car or him.
The season might be right around the corner but nothing matters when you’re home.
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You always go to him before you leave. No matter how busy the season gets. No matter how far away the first race is. No matter how tight the schedule becomes once the world starts moving again.
The room is still when you enter, sunlight filtered softly through pale curtains. Machines hum low and constant, a sound you’ve known long enough that it no longer frightens you. It’s just part of the rhythm now. Part of him.
Your helmet rests in your lap as you sit beside the bed, fingers tracing the familiar curves of it absentmindedly. This year’s design is new — silver and white for Mercedes — but there’s a small detail on the side, easy to miss unless you’re looking for it. His signature remains etched into the side of your helmet.
“Hi, Papa,” you say softly.
His eyes are open today. Not focused, not quite — but open. You’ve learned to treasure the days when you can see them.
“I’m leaving soon,” you tell him, voice gentle, careful not to rush the words. “Australia first. New season.”
You smile faintly. “New team.”
There’s so much you don’t say out loud. About Lewis leaving. About the weight of the seat you’ve taken. About how the headlines already cut sharper this year, like they’re daring you to fail. You talk anyway.
You tell him about your break up. About Mick and Gina always taking care of you- even if they knew all along. You tell him you’re okay, even if you don’t fully believe it yet.
His eyes move. Just slightly. Tracking you.
Your breath catches, and you still, afraid to break the moment. His fingers curl — barely, almost imperceptibly — tightening around yours.
“There you are,” you whisper, tears burning suddenly. “I knew you were listening.”
They fall quietly, soaking into the sleeve of your sweater as you lean forward. You press a kiss to his knuckles, reverent and aching all at once.
“I’ll be careful,” you promise him. “I’ll be brave.”
You stand slowly, resting your forehead against his hand one last time.
“I’ll see you soon.”
Mama meets you in the hallway. She doesn’t say anything — she just pulls you into her arms, strong and familiar. When you step back, she cups your face.
“He’s proud,” she says softly. “Always.”
You nod, even as your chest tightens.
Then the world shifts. Australia is bright and loud and fast.
Qualifying day arrives with the crackle of energy that only the paddock can bring — engines snarling in the distance, cameras flashing, voices overlapping in too many languages at once.
Max walks in beside you like he always does.
Close enough that his shoulder brushes yours. Close enough that you don’t have to look to know he’s there.
The media presses in immediately. Questions sharp. Smiles thin.
“How does it feel replacing Lewis Hamilton?”
“Do you think you can live up to the legacy of your father?”
“Do you feel extra pressure as the first woman in Formula One?”
Max’s jaw tightens. He doesn’t answer for you. He never does. But he watches. Every word. Every tone. Every implication.
You keep your answers calm, precise. Professional. He stays until the last camera lowers, then steers you gently toward the Mercedes garage with a hand at your back.
Sebastian is waiting. He opens his arms before you even reach him, and you step into the hug without hesitation. It smells like home and trust.
“You look ready,” he says, squeezing your shoulder.
“I feel ready,” you reply.
He smiles — proud, steady. “That’s all that matters.”
Before you can settle fully, familiar nervous energy approaches. The rookies. They hover for half a second before committing, eyes wide, voices quieter than usual.
“Uh,” Ollie starts. “We were wondering if you had… like… advice?”
You grin. “Come sit.”
They do. All of them. Clustered around you like you’re something fragile and powerful all at once.
You talk them through it — breathing, focus, trusting the car, trusting themselves. You don’t lecture. You don’t posture. You listen. They hang on every word.
When you’re called for qualifying, they wish you luck like it’s a ritual.
You climb into the car. Helmet on.
The first lap is perfect. Clean. Aggressive. Controlled.
When the board flashes P1, the garage explodes. George pulls in beside you — P2 — grinning wide. Max slots into P3, already nodding like he expected nothing less.
Toto looks like he might levitate. The rookies pile on you the moment you step out of the car, arms everywhere, laughter loud and unfiltered. For once, the noise doesn’t overwhelm you.
Later that night, the paddock finally quiet, you sit beside Max, phone in your hands. You record the voice memo slowly.
“Hi, Mama,” you say softly. “Today went well. Really well.”
Your voice wavers. “Please play this for Papa. Tell him I carried him with me.”
You swallow. “Pole position.”
Tears slip down your cheeks before you can stop them.
Max doesn’t say anything. He just stays. Like he always has.
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The paddock is different when you’re little. You don’t remember the fuel or the heat or the pressure. You remember color. Noise. Laughter. The way the ground felt uneven beneath your tiny shoes.
You’re five years old, legs dangling uselessly as your father carries you on one hip. Max is six and perched on his other side, arms looped securely around Michael’s neck like he belongs there.
You do. Both of you do.
Max is talking a mile a minute, words tumbling over each other about cars and speed and how one day he’s going to be faster than everyone else. You nod along enthusiastically, interrupting him to say you’ll be even faster, actually, because you’re very good at corners.
Michael chuckles, deep and warm, adjusting his grip so neither of you slips.
“You two,” he says fondly, shaking his head. “All about racing already.”
Max grins, unabashed. “We’re going to race here one day.”
“Yes,” you agree solemnly. “Together.”
Michael looks at the two of you — eyes bright, heart full — and smiles in a way that feels like sunlight.
“I can’t wait for the day,” he says gently, “that I get to watch both of you race.”
You don’t know it then, but that sentence will live inside you forever.
The present sucks you back in. Race day morning in Australia hums softly — engines distant, radios crackling faintly through the walls. You sit beside Max in comfortable silence, both of you half dressed in race suits, focused and calm.
No words are needed. You’ve done this together for so long that it feels natural, like breathing.
Max adjusts his gloves, glancing over at you briefly. “You slept?”
“Enough,” you reply.
He nods. “Good.”
That’s it. That’s the check-in.
Lewis finds you just before you head out.
He smiles when he sees you, familiar and kind. “You ready?”
You nod. “Yeah.”
He steps closer, voice lowering. “Ignore the noise. You’ve earned this. That seat, this moment — all of it.”
Your chest tightens. “Thank you.”
He squeezes your shoulder. “Go win.”
“You too,” you say softly.
The race is everything you need it to be. Controlled. Focused. Fierce.
You take the lead early and never give it back. Max stays close, relentless, familiar in your mirrors. George holds strong behind him, silver cars locking out the front. When the checkered flag waves, your breath leaves you in a shaky laugh. You’ve won.
Max finishes P2. George P3.
As soon as you climb out of the car, Sebastian is there. He doesn’t wait. He pulls you into his arms, lifting you slightly off the ground, holding you like you’re still a kid and he’s still there to catch you.
“I’m so proud of you,” he murmurs.
You cling to him for a moment longer than necessary.
The grid swarms you after that — handshakes, hugs, smiles, genuine congratulations. There’s no jealousy here. Only respect.
On the podium, Max bumps your shoulder gently, eyes bright.
“He's still watching us even now,” he says quietly.
You laugh, blinking hard. “Yeah.”
Later, the night settles. You sit on the hotel balcony, city lights glowing below, photo album open in your lap. You flip through pages slowly — childhood birthdays, paddock days, Mick and Gina grinning, your parents young and impossibly happy.
You stop on one photo. Michael holding you and Mick just after you were born, Corinna beside him, exhausted and radiant.
Your chest aches. Your phone rings.
“Mick.”
You answer immediately. “Hi.”
“Hello winner,” he says, voice warm. “I knew you’d do it.”
You laugh through tears. “I wish you were here.”
“I’m always with you,” he replies gently. “Testing went well, by the way.”
“Of course it did.”
You sit there together, miles apart but still inseparable. When you hang up, you close the album carefully and look out into the night. Some dreams don’t fade. They just change shape.
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Hungary is tight and technical and unforgiving. You’ve always loved it for that exact reason. But from the very first lap of qualifying, something feels wrong.
The car won’t rotate the way it should. The balance is off, snapping one corner and understeering the next. You push harder, chasing lap time that never quite comes to you, your jaw tightening with every sector.
P17.
You blink at the screen, certain it’s a mistake. Knocked out in Q1.
The garage goes quiet in that stunned, hollow way you’ve only ever seen from the outside. You pull the car in, remove your helmet slowly, methodically — because if you don’t move carefully, you might shatter.
Your chest feels too tight. You don’t look at anyone as you climb out. Sebastian is already there.
He doesn’t speak at first. He just waits until you’re standing in front of him, eyes glassy, frustration sharp and raw beneath your skin.
“Hey,” he says gently.
Your voice breaks immediately. “I couldn’t find it.”
He nods, like this is the most natural thing in the world. “I know.”
You sit together in the garage long after most people have left. He listens as you replay every corner, every missed apex, every second you felt slip through your fingers.
“This doesn’t define you,” he tells you quietly. “It’s data. We’ll fix it.”
He’s calm. Steady. Exactly what you need.
You stay late with the engineers, poring over traces and setups. Sebastian stays too, leaning over screens, asking thoughtful questions, grounding the room.
When you finally leave, he drives you to your hotel.
“Try to sleep,” he says, squeezing your shoulder.
You nod. You don’t. You curl into the bed instead, tears soaking into the pillow as you pull your journal close. The one you never leave home without.
Papa, you write shakily. Today was hard. I didn’t recognize myself out there. But I’m trying. I promise.
The knock comes just after midnight. You don’t need to check the door. You already know. Max stands there, hands in his pockets, expression soft despite the hour.
“You shouldn’t be awake,” you murmur.
He shrugs. “Couldn't sleep knowing you were like this.”
You let him in. He doesn’t push. He never does. He just sits beside you until the words come spilling out — fear, frustration, the weight of leading the championship, the terror of disappointing everyone.
He pulls you into his chest, familiar and solid. You lie there together like you did when you were kids — limbs tangled, silence comfortable. You eventally fall asleep with your forehead pressed to his shoulder. Max kisses your hair gently before slipping out.
Morning comes softer. There’s another knock. This time, it’s chaos. The rookies spill into your room, voices overlapping, concern written all over their faces.
“Are you okay?”
“We were worried.”
“Like, really worried.”
You blink at them, still wrapped in hotel sheets, then laugh. “You know you’re supposed to be competing against me, right?”
Kimi clears his throat. “We can start tomorrow.”
Ollie lifts the room service menu. “Breakfast?”
Gabriel nods seriously. “We need fuel.”
You sit together on the bed, eating croissants and fruit, laughing when Kimi admits he used Max’s card.
“He said yes,” Kimi insists. “Very clearly.”
The paddock watches as the five of you walk in together later — rookies orbiting you like satellites. The cameras love it. Fans eat it up.
Before the race, Mick calls.
“Hey,” he says softly. “Just checking in.”
“I’m okay,” you reply.
“I know,” he says. “Go show them.”
You start P17. You finish P3.
The drive is relentless. Clean. Smart. Aggressive when it needs to be. The overnight changes work. The car comes alive beneath you. The paddock is stunned.
Lando finds you immediately after. “That was insane,” he says, pulling you into a hug. “I knew you’d do something like that.”
Others follow — congratulations warm and genuine.
Later, alone in your drivers’ room, you record another message.
“Hi, Mama,” you whisper. “Please tell Papa… today I didn’t give up.”
Your voice cracks. “I think he’d like that.”
You wipe your eyes and smile. The season goes on. And so do you.
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Summer break feels strange when you’ve spent your entire life moving. No flights to catch. No debriefs. No countdown clocks humming quietly in the back of your mind. You use it to do something impulsive. You don’t tell Mick. You don’t tell anyone. You just show up.
The RLL IndyCar test day is hot and loud and alive in a way that feels different from F1 — less polished, more raw. You stand just beyond the pit wall, sunglasses on, arms crossed, heart thudding with anticipation. Jack stands beside you, vibrating with poorly concealed excitement.
“He’s going to lose his mind,” Jack whispers.
“I know,” you grin.
Mick pulls into the pits, visor lifting as he climbs out of the car — and then he freezes. His eyes find you. Then Jack. Then you again.
“What—” he starts, then breaks into the biggest smile you’ve seen on him in years. He jogs over, pulling you into a hug and gently lifting you.
“You’re here,” he laughs, breathless. “I can't believe it.”
Jack gets folded in immediately after. “Took you long enough,” Mick teases.
You step back, eyes shining. “You look good.”
Mick hesitates, then glances around, lowering his voice like he’s sharing a secret even though it’s bursting out of him.
“I signed,” he says. “Next year. Full season.”
For a moment, you can’t speak. Then you launch yourself at him again, laughing and crying at the same time. “Mick, that’s incredible.”
Jack whoops. “I knew it!”
Mick’s smile softens, something settled and peaceful finally resting on his face. “I’m happy,” he says simply.
And you couldn't be happier for him. But the memory comes unbidden.
You and Mick are nine. Jack is six and far too small for the kart he insists on driving.
The three of you race around a sunlit track, laughter echoing, helmets crooked and oversized. You take corners too fast. Mick pretends to be serious. Jack spins out and laughs anyway.
Michael watches from the fence, arms crossed, smiling so wide it hurts.
“Slow down!” he calls fondly.
You don’t. You never do.
That night, the fire crackles low and steady. You sit wrapped in blankets, stars scattered overhead, trading stories like treasures.
Jack talks about Alpine. Mick talks about IndyCar. You talk about leading the championship and how surreal it still feels. They tease you. You tease them back. It’s easy. Familiar. Safe. Like you are all young again. Unaware of what the future would hold.
You slip inside briefly, phone buzzing. A group FaceTime lights up the screen.
Kimi. Isack. Gabriel. Ollie.
“Hi,” you laugh.
They talk over each other immediately.
“I’m bored.”
“I miss you.”
“Do you know how weird summer break is?”
“I tried surfing.”
You listen, smiling, warmth blooming in your chest.
“You know you can come visit,” you joke lightly. “Texas is big.”
There’s a pause. Four identical looks of oh.
“Wait,” Kimi says slowly. “Like… actually?”
You blink. “I was kidding.”
They are not.
The next morning, you wake to barking. And then shouting. You stumble to the door in pajamas to find four rookies standing on your porch, bags in hand, sunburned and beaming.
Kimi lifts a hand. “Surprise.”
You stare at them. Then laugh.
“Come in,” you say, stepping aside. “All of you.”
Summer break, apparently, is just beginning.
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The rookies do not believe in easing into anything. They decide — loudly, unanimously — that they are making you breakfast. You sit on the counter, legs swinging, coffee in hand, watching them tear through your kitchen like a pit crew with no strategy briefing.
“We need eggs,” Ollie declares, already opening the fridge.
“Why are there so many types of milk?” Isack asks, squinting suspiciously.
Kimi is holding a pan like it personally offended him. “Do we… oil this?”
Gabriel, ever the calm one, is quietly reading the back of a cereal box. “There is fruit in this,” he offers. “This feels safer.”
“You are all guests,” you remind them sweetly. “You don’t have to do this.”
“No,” Kimi says firmly. “We do.”
Mick walks in halfway through the chaos, fresh from outside, freezes in the doorway, and just stares.
“…Why?”
You grin. “Breakfast.”
He snorts, leaning against the doorframe. “Of course.”
Eggs are burned. Toast is somehow both underdone and charred. Someone spills orange juice. But they’re glowing with pride when they place plates in front of you.
“You made this,” you say solemnly.
“We did,” Isack beams.
You take a bite. “It’s terrible.”
They cheer anyway.
Later, you take them out to see the horses. Gina meets you by the barn, eyes widening when she sees the group trailing behind you.
“Is this… a field trip?”
“Apparently,” you reply.
You help Kimi up first. He grips the reins like they might disappear.
“I trust you,” he says nervously.
“You shouldn’t,” you laugh, adjusting his posture.
Isack goes next, already talking to the horse like it understands him completely.
“You’re beautiful,” he tells it. “We’re friends now.”
Ollie decides feeding is his calling. The horse’s tongue flicks out, wet and surprisingly long.
He yelps and jumps back. “Absolutely not.”
You double over laughing.
Gabi stays behind, leaning on the fence beside Mick, chatting quietly about racing, about life, about what comes next. The sun is warm. The moment is easy.
The kart track is loud the moment you arrive. Engines scream, rubber burns, and the rookies all suddenly look far too serious for something that was meant to be fun.
Isack pulls on his gloves. “Okay. Rules?”
“There are no rules,” you say sweetly.
“That feels illegal,” Ollie replies.
Kimi is already climbing into his kart, focused in that way that makes everyone else slightly nervous. “She’s going to destroy us.”
“You say that like it’s a bad thing,” Gabriel adds calmly.
You pull your helmet on last. The light goes green.
Isack launches like he’s fighting for his life, immediately trying to block you in the first corner.
“You’re insane!” you shout, laughing as you slip past him anyway.
Kimi is fast — terrifyingly fast — smooth and precise even in a rental kart. You chase him for three laps, pressure building, before diving late into a corner and stealing the line.
“NO,” he yells, half-laughing.
Ollie apologizes over his shoulder as he accidentally bumps Isack. “Sorry! Sorry! Sorry!”
Gabriel hangs back, watching lines, then quietly picks them off one by one.
On the final lap, you’re out front. You win.
They pile out of their karts, sweaty and breathless, arguing loudly.
You pull your helmet off, grinning. “Training session complete.”
Back at the house, the mood shifts. The hallway grows quieter the closer you get. Your steps slow without you meaning them to. The laughter from earlier still echoes faintly behind you, but here — here it’s different. The air feels heavier. Softer. Sacred.
You stop in front of the door. The boys notice.
“Hey,” Ollie says gently. “You don’t have to—”
“I want to,” you interrupt, voice calm but careful. “I just… don’t bring many people in here.”
You push the door open.
The room is dim, lit by warm lamps instead of overhead lights. The walls are lined — not cluttered, but deliberate. Each helmet is mounted like a memory, not a trophy. Race suits folded beneath glass. Old gloves. Photographs framed in quiet order.
No one speaks at first.
Isack is the one who exhales, almost silent. “Holy shit.”
Kimi’s eyes move slowly, taking everything in. “These are… all of his?”
“Not all,” you say softly. “Just the ones that meant the most to him. Or to us.”
You walk in, fingertips grazing the edge of a display. “This one,” you point, “he wore when I was born. He joked that it was the first race he ever lost focus in.”
Ollie lets out a small laugh, immediately covering his mouth. “Sorry.”
“It’s okay,” you smile faintly. “He likes jokes.”
Gabriel steps closer to a photograph — Michael younger, arms slung around a much smaller Mick and you, helmets far too big for your heads.
“He looks so… happy,” Gabriel says.
“He was,” you reply. “Tired. Always tired. But happy.”
Kimi swallows. “Did he teach you to drive?”
You nod. “Before anyone else. He sat on the pit wall and made me explain every decision I made. Even when I was wrong.”
Isack laughs softly. “That’s terrifying.”
“It was,” you agree. “But it made me better.”
Silence settles again, thick but not uncomfortable.
Ollie hesitates. “Does it still hurt?”
The question is so earnest, so careful, that it cracks something open in you.
“Sometimes,” you admit. “But moments like this… it feels like he’s still truly here.”
They don’t rush you. They don’t look away.
Kimi steps closer. “Thank you for sharing him with us.”
Your throat tightens. “Thank you for asking.”
For the first time in a long while, the room feels lighter. You turn off the lights together. Healing doesn’t always announce itself. Sometimes it just… breathes.
The living room is chaos again within minutes. Arguments over movies. Blankets everywhere.
“You can’t make us watch that.”
“Yes I can.”
“We vote!”
You and Kimi sneak into the kitchen, laughing as you prepare snacks.
“Thank you,” he says softly.
“For what?” you ask.
"For treating us like family. None of us would've made it through our first season without you." He replies with enough sincerity to make you want to burst into tears.
"Of course. We all start somewhere and we all need someone to keep us steady." You say quietly and pull him into a small hug. He wraps his arms around you and exhales as you place a small kiss on the top of his head.
Isack and Ollie finally agree on Cars 2 as you and Kimi bring the snacks in. The boys surround you on the center of the couch, Isack's legs draped across your lap and Kimi's head on your shoulder. Within an hour into the movie, everyone has crashed. You fall asleep to the sound of easy breathing, heart lighter than it’s been in a long time.
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Texas feels different when it’s race week. The land is still wide, still warm, but now it hums with anticipation — helicopters overhead, distant engines, familiar faces flooding back into your world. The championship lead follows you everywhere, an invisible weight pressing gently between your shoulder blades.
Before qualifying, you go home. Your parents’ house is calm in the way it always has been, like the walls know how to hold grief without letting it spill. The door opens before you even knock.
Corinna wraps you into her arms immediately, strong and grounding.
“There you are,” she murmurs into your hair.
You breathe her in. “I missed you.”
She pulls back just enough to smile at you. “I missed you even more. He is in his spot."
You nod, then pause when she adds softly, “Max is with him.”
Your eyebrows lift slightly. “Max?”
Corinna smiles in that knowing way she has. “He asked if it was okay.”
You don’t answer. You just head for the stairs. You stop halfway up.
Max’s voice drifts down the hall, low and unguarded.
“She’s incredible,” he’s saying quietly. “You’d be so proud of her. I know you are, but… I wish you could see it.”
You press your hand to the wall, chest tightening.
“She’s grown so much,” Max continues. “We both have. But she’s always been like this. Brave. Stubborn.” A soft huff of a laugh. “Annoyingly fast.”
Tears sting your eyes.
“I try to look out for her,” he says. “Like you did. I don’t know if I’m very good at it, but… I try.”
Your breath shakes. You knock quickly before you lose your nerve.
Max turns immediately. “Hey.”
His expression shifts when he sees your face, but he doesn’t comment. “I was just— I can go. Give you some time.”
“No,” you say, voice thick. “Please stay.”
You move to the bed, sitting carefully beside your father. His eyes are open today, unfocused but present. You take his hand, familiar warmth grounding you instantly.
Max sits on your other side, close but not intrusive. He slips his fingers into yours without looking at you, steady and sure.
“Hi, Papa,” you whisper. “I’m home.”
You talk quietly — about Austin, about the crowd, about Mick's new contract and Gina's life. You feel Max listening, sharing the space with you instead of filling it.
Michael’s fingers tighten faintly around yours.
“There,” you murmur. “There you are.”
You stay like that for a long time. No rush. No expectations.
Max squeezes your hand once. “You’re not alone. You never will be,” he says softly.
You nod, tears slipping free.
“I know.”
Qualifying is the good kind of intense.
You’re calm in the car — focused, grounded, carrying more than just a helmet with you. The lap comes together effortlessly, corners flowing like muscle memory.
P1.
When you climb out of the car, your family is already there.
Mick pulls you into a crushing hug. “That was unreal.”
Gina wipes at her eyes, laughing. “You are insane.”
Corinna cups your face, pride shining openly. “He would have loved that lap.”
Max stands just behind them, arms crossed, a small smile playing at his lips. You catch his eye. He nods once. And for the first time all weekend, the pressure eases. You’re exactly where you’re meant to be. With your family.
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ynschumacher : one hell of a season. extremely honored to be your 2025 f1 world champion. in true schumacher fashion, i celebrated with a dinner at texas roadhouse w two of my biggest supporters:,) @/mickschumacher and @/gina_schumacher 🤍
i dedicate this win and my entire career to my papa<3 it was my biggest honor to wear your helmet during the race that won me this championship. you are my hero and have always been my biggest supporter- to keep your legacy going will always be the greatest achievement of my life. i love you so much and i hope i made you proud.
thank you all for all your kind words and love and support for my family. i adore you and this is just our first win...here's to many more 🤍
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Las Vegas glows like it’s holding its breath. Neon lights blur past as you make your way through the paddock, the desert air cooler than you expect, the weight of the moment settling deep in your chest. One race. One win. One world championship.
Sebastian never leaves your side. He doesn’t need to say anything — he just walks with you, shoulder brushing yours now and then, grounding you in the way only he can.
In your driver’s room, you sit quietly, helmet resting in your lap. You aren’t shaking, exactly. It’s worse than that — a stillness so intense it feels like the world has narrowed to a pinprick.
Then it happens. Your phone lights up. No message. No call. Just the time: 7:07 PM. Your breath catches.
That number has followed you your whole life — race numbers scribbled on childhood helmets, karting laps you never forgot, the time your father always seemed to glance at the clock when you were little. It’s meaningless to everyone else.
To you, it’s everything.
“Okay,” you whisper. “I see you.”
Seb watches you carefully. “You alright?”
You nod. “Yeah. I think… I think he’s watching.”
Seb doesn’t question it. He just smiles softly. “Of course he is.”
He taps twice on the doorframe before stepping fully inside, like he always does. Then he comes closer and crouches in front of you, forearms resting on his knees.
“You don’t need a big speech,” he says gently. “You already know what to do.”
You swallow. “I’m scared.”
“I know.” His eyes are warm, unwavering. “That means it matters.”
He leans in and presses a kiss to your temple, then your cheek — grounding, familial, full of love. “Whatever happens out there, I’m proud of you.”
Then, after a beat, he adds quietly, “Your dad once told me… that talent is loud, but courage is quiet. He said you had both.”
Your chest caves in.
“I didn’t know that,” you whisper.
“He didn’t say it to many people,” Seb replies. “But he said it with certainty.”
A knock interrupts the moment.
Lewis steps in, hesitant like he’s stepping into sacred ground. “Hey,” he says softly. “Just wanted to check on you.”
You stand and he pulls you into a gentle hug, rocking slightly. “You’ve carried this season with such grace,” he murmurs. “No matter what today brings — you’ve already made history.”
You pull back, smiling through the nerves. “Thank you. For everything.”
He taps your helmet. “Now go finish it.”
You lower yourself into the car.
Belts tight. Hands steady.
“Radio check,” crackles through the headset.
You smile instinctively. “Loud and clear.”
Then—
“Hey,” a familiar voice cuts in.
Your breath leaves you in a sharp laugh-sob. “Mick?”
There’s a pause, then, “Surprise.”
Your hands tighten on the wheel. “You weren’t— you’re not supposed to be—”
“I know,” he says, voice warm and smiling. “But there was no way I wasn’t here for this.”
Tears blur your vision. “I love you.”
“I know,” he replies softly. “Now go win this thing.”
The lights go out.
The race unfolds like a dream you don’t dare wake from. Clean starts. Perfect calls. Pace you didn’t even know you had. Every lap feels guided — like hands at your back, steady and sure.
When the checkered flag waves, you don’t hear the noise.
You just hear your own breath.
“You’ve done it,” comes through the radio, thick with emotion. “You’re the world champion.”
Max’s radio crackles to life too, GP nearly shouting, “YN has won the championship!”
Max laughs, breathless, overjoyed. “She deserves it.”
The cooldown lap is a blur of tears and disbelief.
When you climb out of the car, the grid doesn’t just congratulate you — they surround you.
The rookies are first.
Kimi wraps you up from behind. “GRID MOM IS A WORLD CHAMPION!”
Isack laughs, lifting you off the ground. “She did it!”
Gabriel and Ollie pile in, chanting your name until you’re breathless with laughter and tears.
Sebastian finds you next.
He holds you like you’re still that little kid in a too-big helmet. “He knows,” he whispers into your hair. “I promise you — he knows.”
Then Mick.
Your twin. Your other half.
You cling to him like the world might fall apart without him there. “We did it,” you sob.
“No,” he corrects gently. “You did.”
Max waits until last. He doesn’t say much — he never does — but when he pulls you into his arms, it’s solid and certain and safe.
“I need to go see him,” you say immediately, voice urgent.
Max nods. “I’ll get you there. Come on.”
You squeeze his hand. “Please stay with me.”
“Always,” he says simply.
When you arrive, the room is quiet. Too quiet for what you’re carrying.
You lie down beside your father, carefully, reverently. Your championship cap rests at the end of the bed. You take his hand, pressing it to your chest.
“I did it,” you whisper, voice breaking. “For you, Papa.”
Max sits beside you, hand warm in yours, thumb brushing gentle circles like he has a thousand times before. Seb and Mick stand close, bearing witness without intruding.
Finally, the grief doesn’t feel like it’s swallowing you. It feels like it’s resting. You close your eyes, breathing him in. And somewhere deep in your bones, you know — he’s proud.
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bonus : a true texas celebration
The next evening is quiet in the way only family can make it — comfortable, unguarded, real. No cameras. No schedules. Just you, Mick, Gina, and Max piled into the SUV, windows cracked, country music playing low.
“I get to choose,” you announce from the passenger seat, already grinning.
Mick groans. “This is dangerous.”
Gina smirks. “She’s been planning this since Vegas.”
You turn around, eyes bright. “We’re going to Texas Roadhouse.”
Max blinks. “That is… a restaurant?”
Mick laughs. “Oh, buddy.”
The moment you walk in, Max freezes. There’s neon everywhere. Fake cacti. Country music loud enough to feel in your ribs. Buckets of peanuts on every table.
He leans down to you, voice low and baffled. “Why is there… farm equipment on the walls?”
You shrug innocently. “Ambience.”
A server drops a metal bucket of peanuts onto the table.
Max stares at it. “Are we meant to… eat these?”
Gina grins. “Throw the shells on the floor.”
He looks down. Looks back up. “On purpose?”
Mick is already cracking peanuts and tossing shells with dramatic flair. “It’s therapeutic.”
Max hesitates, then carefully drops a shell.
You watch the exact moment he decides to commit.
By the time the rolls arrive, he’s tearing into them like he’s never known hunger. Butter on his fingers. Steak ordered medium-rare without hesitation.
“These rolls,” he says seriously, “are exceptional.”
You laugh so hard you nearly choke. “You love it.”
“I do not,” he replies, then pauses. “But I will be returning.”
When you get home, the house is dark.
You frown. “Did someone forget to turn the lights on?”
Mick slows the car. “Huh. That’s weird.”
You step inside—
“SURPRISE!”
The lights explode on.
The room is full.
Sebastian stands front and center, beaming. Jack Doohan is beside him, already filming. The rookies are losing their minds — Kimi nearly trips over the couch, Isack cheers, Gabriel claps, Ollie shouts your name. Drivers from across the grid fill the space, laughter and applause echoing off the walls.
Your hands fly to your mouth.
“Oh my— Seb— what—”
Seb laughs. “You thought we’d let you celebrate quietly?”
The rookies rush you first.
Kimi presses a small box into your hands. “We, um… we got you something.”
Inside is a bracelet — simple, leather and silver — engraved with your fathers number.
“You taught us everything,” Isack says softly. “We wanted you to have something you could carry.”
Your eyes fill instantly. “You’re going to make me cry.”
“Too late,” Ollie grins.
You pull them all into a hug, overwhelmed and glowing.
The night blurs into music and stories and laughter. At one point you catch Sebastian watching from across the room, arms crossed, content. When your eyes meet, he nods — quiet, proud.
Later, you slip outside onto the porch. The Texas night hums around you. Max joins you without a word, leaning against the railing beside you.
“Thank you,” you say quietly. “For everything. For always being there.”
He looks at you, eyes soft. “There was never a question.”
You smile, tired and full. “I don’t know what I would’ve done without you.”
He leans in, presses a kiss to your forehead — gentle, lingering. “You would’ve found a way. But I’m glad I didn’t have to watch you do it alone.”
You rest your head against his shoulder. Inside, laughter spills into the night. And for the first time in a long time, the future feels light. Home.