What to do when you are restrained from acting? Avoiding inaction paralysis!
I have continued to find myself restrained in terms of keeping my journey on the right path. Inaction paralysis strikes again. I know the road I need to take, but car trouble is keeping me from taking it at present. After the battery light appeared to say hello on Saturday after my 19-stop delivery run, paralysis from inaction hit me as I slunk back home with my $70 to lick my wounds and come up with a battle plan. Sunday, I used Chas’s car to take Mikey to work, but that is not a car I can do my work in because it needs an inspection sticker. So, I planned Monday to take it to get looked at with the hopes that it just needed a belt.
As luck would have it the belt was fine, but the alternator was not. Did you know a new alternator for a 2013 Kia runs $348? I called in reinforcements and got some help from Dad (so thankful for that!) Also, as luck would have it the shop had the part on the way as I arrived and assured me it would be good to go before close. $575 and about 2 hours later I was on my way, and grinning ear to ear ready to get back to work!
My primary income is my work with Spark delivering orders for Walmart, which I love my work honestly. However, every now and then, inaction paralysis creeps in. Never had a job I liked as much as this one. Very few people to check in with just honest work. Show up work for an agreed upon amount finish the job and move on. Love it, and no police looking for me so good to go there too. However, when things pile up in West Virginia, it’s easy to get caught in inaction paralysis.
I already lost the first of June, but I did spend it hard at work finishing stories for noggy.org and processing video. So, the second day being sunny and nice I was fucking ready to go! I take the car and drive it home, right as I am nearing my turn I notice the AC isn’t working. Then I look down and see the battery light has returned! Alas, my Kia, she over-heats now!!!! Her serpentine belt hath broken in twain.
I pull over and call the shop, they send a tow and here I sit at home waiting for the third when I hope to get back on the road! Now through all of this old Bryan Noggy wants to be pissy and negative and resentful for NO REASON! That is why old Bryan Noggy died a few times… because he is no fun, and not able to help in a crisis because he experiences paralysis, due to inaction.
Step in the NEW Bryan Noggy: This mofo looks at everything and takes inventory! I have my car disabled as she may be a car she still is. CHECK. I have my Dad helping with money he doesn’t have. CHECK. I have Chastity and Mikey both trying to help and just wanting it all to work out so I can get back to making the money we need to make society livable. DOUBLE CHECK. Furthermore, to avoid paralysis of inaction, I also have me, and I am going to keep working on any and all avenues that make sense, to provide the best life I can, for my family and myself, in that order!
As long as I don’t rest, I can’t allow myself to feel bad for my situation. I can’t rest though. I must keep on working… producing… trying to make the world a better place! Trying to make the universe make sense to me the only way I know how: Teaching. Inaction paralysis will not catch me here. Not teaching in a punitive or authoritarian manner, instead teaching how to swim in life’s currents and help your fellow swimmers! If half of us can swim we can teach the other half before we all drown. If no one learns to swim we will not make it far!
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