sunghoon x reader
prompt: “no no, i must protect your hand at all cost, this includes holding it at all times.”
you were sitting by the bleachers waiting for your best friend to finish his practice for ice skating.
you and sunghoon decided to go on a “date” because it’s been so long since you guys have gone out. it’s also because he’s busy practicing for his competition next month.
you watch as he approach you with a smile on his face. you can’t help but mirror him.
“how long have you been waiting for me?”, he asked as he put away his shoes in his dufflebag.
you stood up and said, “long enough to see you getting scolded by your coach again.”
“hey, to be fair doing a triple axel jump is hard”, he slung his dufflebag over his shoulder and held his hand out for you to hold. “let’s go.”
ofc, you also held his hand. even though you’ve been friends with him for a long time, and you know how much he likes holding hands, yet you’re still not used to it.
people would often assume that you guys are dating but ofc you always feel the need to correct them because it isn’t true. although sometimes you wish you guys were dating.
you don’t know when you started thinking of your best friend in that way. was it that one time when he cried over facetime because you were out of town for a week and said he misses you? or was it the time when he said “i love you” but it felt like he said it not in a platonic way? or were you just being delusional.
“earth to y/n? hello?”, he snapped his fingers infront of your face and you looked around your surroundings and both of you were already in the parking lot. were you that deep in your thoughts?
“oh...sorry”, you opened the car door and sat on the driver’s seat. “you know, you should really learn how to drive now”, you continued as he rolled his eyes.
“why would i learn when i have you?”, he put on his seatbelt and you checked your mirrors and started driving.
“because you never know when i might leave again”, even though you didn’t intend to but it came out as a whisper anyway.
you heard a clicking sound from his seatbelt and you tried not to look at him but you can see him looking at you from your peripheral vision.
“what did you say? because i don’t think i heard you right”, he nervously chuckled as you drove.
“it’s nothing”
“sure”
the whole ride was a complete silence but thanks to the music in the radio to fill it in. you on the other hand, felt like your heart beat will be heard by him because of how fast it is beating right now.
you tried glancing at him a few times when there’s a stop sign and you see him texting on his phone.
“we’re here”, you unbuckled your seatbelt and open your car door to setep out and he did the same thing.
you didn’t know you were walking really fast until he grabbed your arm.
“hey, why are you walking so fast?”, he ofcourse intertwined his hand with yours again, as always.
“oh, my bad”, you stared at both your intertwined hands again and wonder if it’s just his habit or something more.
again, it was silence as you guys reach your spot. the park was a lot fuller than you’d expected because it’s a saturday. there’s also a lot of kids running around and playing. you and sunghoon walked a little further to a more secluded area where a giant tree is at.
“you know, you don’t have to hold my hand the whole time. it’s not like i will go anywhere.”, you begin placing the blanket on the grass and spread it out.
“no no, i must protect your hand at all cost, this includes holding it at all times”, he placed the picnic basket on the blanket. after he was done he lay down on the blanket and closes his eyes.
“you’re being dramatic now”, you grab the freshly sliced fruits from the basket and ate some strawberries.
he shook his head still his eyes are closed. “do you ever wonder what if we ended up together? because i’ve been thinking about that lately.” he opens his eyes and looked at you.
you choked on your strawberries and he sat down and offer you some water. you thanked him and he chuckled.
“well, i wouldn’t say i’ve never because i have of course”, he grab your hands that was resting on our thighs and played with them caressing them.
“continue”
“right, i’ve thought about that a lot before. when i went away for a week.” i still do right now who am i kidding.
“i honestly expected your answer that day completely tho. i’ll always be here waiting whenever you change your mind”
ok so, what happened in that one week you left you ask? so he may have confessed his feelings for you the same day you were leaving but since you were too shock you ran away. he understood why you did what you did.
you like him too, yes. you still like him-in fact love him, that’s also a yes. he feels the same way towards you, yes. but commitment? that’s a no no.
you ran away like you always have from your problems. you didn’t know what to do and that’s the first thing that came into your mind. you were and still is scared of commitment. you don’t know why but you are. so now your chances with sunghoon are slim because of your stupid commitment issues. you know sunghoon and he would never do that to you, but you think he deserves better than to be with you.
“yea...i know”, you look anywhere but him.
—
that was three years ago.
thinking about it now is kind of stupid. but you do regret it a little bit.
you and sunghoon are still friends but not as close as before. he’s traveling the world being the olympic athlete that he is, while you moved to the big city and got a 9-5 job.
you found out through an article that sunghoon has been rumored to be dating with a fellow skater. it honestly did not surprised you. you knew one way or another that it would happened. and you’re hapoy for him even if it’s just a rumor.
what you didn’t know is that sunghoon is in fact still in love with you. he’s still waiting for you to say the words but it’s been three years so who is he fooling. he still hoped even if it’s just a tiny bit. but you thought that he gave up already...
is it right person, wrong timing or is it just your commitment issues?