HAWKINS P.D.

you don't tug on superman's cape you don't spit into the wind you don't pull the mask off that old lone ranger — indie jim hopper. of netflix’s stranger things. written by alex.

[meltedwiing]

   * BUT WE FLEW.

ind. sel. multimuse sideblog. feat. muses old & new. 18+ follows back from @mirafirstmate written by alex. 

                                  rules.   muses.   interest tracker.

[hopalongjim]

hop is moving !! i deeply miss writing him so, in the downtime of muse activity, pls catch us over @meltedwiing 💛

[mirafirstmate]

she says the shadows under my eyes are concerning; asks if i’m low in iron or if the nightmares are returning.                       it’s okay. i say. it’s okay. i’ve just been lying awake, thinking.

among us based original character. group affl. priv. slow. non-roleplay blogs DO NOT reblog. written by alex.           quote.

[hopalongjim]

i missed jim’s bday and i’m sad abt it. but also my muse for him needs a kickstart that might take a while to getting around to, so catch me @sniperwithasmoke bc he’s a bastard and stealing all my energy. 

[sniperwithasmoke]

       ❝ SOME CHASE WOMEN, SOME CHASE OPIUM DRAGONS, SOME CHASE POTS OF GOLD. Dammit, some chase postage stamps or currant buns. I chase these edge-of-life-and-death moments — when an animal or man tries to kill me, and I kill them instead. It’s the surge inside — in the water, behind the eyes, in the loins. That’s what Basher Moran’s about. All the rest is fancy trimming ——— ( written by alex ).

[hopalongjim]

“What the fuck?”

       ❝ hey ! ❞   he shouts, door to the fridge slamming shut as he turns, exasperated.   ❝ watch the fucking language! ❞   shit. real good, jim. stellar parenting there, you don’t even have the chance to wave as the opportunity flies past. 

eyes close, teeth are grit together, just shy of grinding. one, two, three – in – one, two, three – out.  ❝ that’s not what i meant. i… ❞   gaze is downcast, left hand is shaken out to rid himself of the anxiety threatening to overwhelm him. c’mon jim, you’ve got this.   ❝ i’m sorry for yelling. ❞   maybe it’d be more convincing if he could look her in the eye and the words weren’t half growled. ( you can do better ). a sigh. hand raking through his hair. and he looks up, shamefaced.   ❝ who’d you get that from anyway. ❞

@e1evenhopper //

[hopalongjim]

jim’s bday is next sunday. who’s gonna buy him a drink.

[sniperwithasmoke]

don’t expect much of me this week across blogs. property management is not a kind profession this week...

[hopalongjim]

i’m really into the 1984 vibe i’m getting from \W/ this season.

[wickedlymeme]

“You have no fucking idea.”

“Shut your fucking mouth.”

“Get the fuck out.”

“Are you out of your fucking mind?”

“What the fuck?”

“How the fuck?”

“What the fucking hell?”

“Where the fuck have you been?”

“Who the fuck are you?”

“Why the fuck are you still here?” 

“How the fuck did you do that?” 

“You’re fucking unbelievable.”

“I think we should fuck.”

“You really wanna fuck with me?”

“Watch what you’re fucking doing.”

“Did you just say ‘fuck you’?” 

“What the fuck are you watching?” 

“Where the fuck are we?” 

“How the fuck do we end this?” 

“Where the fuck do you turn it on?” 

“Have you seen this fucking thing?”

“Jesus fucking Christ.”

“Why the fuck did you do that?”

“What a fucking surprise.”

“You fucking well know what you did.”

“Leave me the fuck alone.” 

“Quit fucking bragging.”

“Are you here to fucking brag?”

“I said fucking LEAVE.” 

“I heard they fucked your best friend.”

“You know how this fucking movie ends?”

“You know where the fuck i’ll be.”

“Don’t fucking come back until you’re sober.”

“Don’t talk to your fucking mom like that.”

“You’re lucky they’re fucking dead.” 

“They fucking hated you.”

“They fucking loved you.”

“We all fucking burn in the end.”

“Time to atone for your fucking sins.”

“When was the last time you left the fucking house?”

“What did you fucking take?” 

“Wake up, please. Please fucking wake up.”

“They’re fucking dead.”

“Who the fuck did you ask out?” 

“You have no idea how much that fucking ruined me.”

“I fucking believed you. I won’t do it again.”

“You’re fucking beautiful.”

“You fucking well know why that happened.”

“Don’t fucking call me again.”

“They say heartbreak really fucks with you.”

[sniperwithasmoke]

       ❝ SOME CHASE WOMEN, SOME CHASE OPIUM DRAGONS, SOME CHASE POTS OF GOLD. Dammit, some chase postage stamps or currant buns. I chase these edge-of-life-and-death moments — when an animal or man tries to kill me, and I kill them instead. It’s the surge inside — in the water, behind the eyes, in the loins. That’s what Basher Moran’s about. All the rest is fancy trimming ——— ( written by alex ).

[hopalongjim]

i wish i could take the pain away.

he nods. blinks. lips pressing into a line. brow raised. and the breath is nearly stolen from him with just how much those eight little words stab at his heart.  ❝ – oof, ❞   he breathes with whatever he has left, hand moving, partially of its own accord, to rub at his chest as if her words had truly wounded him. 

he isn’t looking at her ( he can’t ). is that supposed to make me feel better? – he knows it isn’t, which is likely why he’s busy gaping like a fish trying to find the words that fit in the staling air between them. 

       ❝ i’m… ❞   a sigh. blue gaze is forced up by proudly jutting chin as he meets her eye and does his best not to shrink away from... all of this.   ❝ i’m supposed to do that, ❞   is what he settles on, trying a smile on for size. ( it doesn’t fit ).   ❝ take away the pain, make you feel better, y’know? ❞   a laugh. too stilted,  ❝ i’m the dad. ❞   this isn’t a situation you can joke yourself out of, jim. teeth grit, and he tries that smile again. ( it feels softer this time ).   ❝ you don’t need t’ worry about me, kid. ❞   sniff. fingers trace a cross over his heart.   ❝ i’m fine, i’ll be fine. promise. ❞

@e1evenhopper // meme.

[bailwhoreganaxoxo]

when you don’t feel like doing any of your drafts but you still wanna roleplay

[sicutcanis]

WHERE IS ALEX 2020 :

@sniperwithasmoke - sebastian “basher” moran ( modernised acd & hound of the d’urbervilles canon-compliant ) 1

@hopalongjim - jim hopper ( stranger things canon with improvements )

@whoyagcnnacall - the original ghostbusters multi ( all movie & some comic canon )

@lungslinger - john henry “doc” holiday ( wynonna earp canon divergent after s1 ) 1

@sicutcanis - jack rackham ( black sails canon with historical influence )

@foundlingsfather - din djarin ( the mandalorian canon ) *

muses currently only by request: @fightknife * ; @h6rror ; @helocopter * ; @superstitioussailor * ; percy weasley ( blog under reconstruction ).

1 : so many aus available     * : sideblog plotting is available for all blogs at all times even if they are by request only. i apologise that i’m bad at true multis.

[rothelp]

miscellaneous angst starters.

when were you going to tell me?

you can’t keep doing this to yourself.

that’s…a lot of blood.

can you walk?

please don’t lie to me.

you were supposed to leave.

i’m not going anywhere without you.

shh, it’s okay. it was just a dream.

there was nothing more you could have done.

it wasn’t your fault.

this is all my fault.

you aren’t acting like yourself.

i’m never going to let [her/him/them] hurt you again.

you’re hurting me.

don’t ever do that again.

go to hell.

please don’t cry.

you have to stay awake.

i wish i could take the pain away.

you could have died.

hey – stay with me.

it’ll be over soon.

did you ever love me?

i’m sorry. i can’t do this anymore.

things won’t always hurt this bad.

you passed out.

how much have you had?

i’m okay. it’s all fine.

it’s not okay! you’re not fine!

let me get you something for the pain.

it’s nothing. it’s just a bruise.

it’s clearly not nothing.

have you been to the doctor?

i didn’t mean the things i said.

i thought we meant something.

people who are okay don’t act like this.

you don’t have to go through this by yourself.

i don’t want you to be alone.

please don’t regret me.

i heard you crying.

you need to get some rest.

when was the last time you ate something?

i’m worried about you.

did you have another nightmare?

[name], there’s nobody there.

i want to be happy but i don’t think i deserve it.

please talk to me.

why are you mad at me?

alcohol isn’t going to solve your problems.

don’t leave me.

did you do this to yourself?

it’s breaking my heart to see you like this.

tell me what’s wrong.

tell me how to make it better.

why don’t you care?

get the hell away from me.

please don’t do this.

i can’t believe that you lied to me.

just…stay for the night.

you obviously can’t be trusted to take care of yourself, so let me do it for you.

you can’t die. i won’t let you.

just hang on, okay?

hold my hand if you need to.

i’m sorry.

why do you have a gun?

don’t panic.

just breathe.

you’re bleeding.

i’m trying to stop the bleeding.

you’ve been crying, i can tell.

you should have told me sooner.

i wanted to tell you in person.

a phone call would’ve been nice.

i hate you.

i love you.

[hopalongjim]

as I sit here listening to my husband call our cat by our baby’s name again and consider all the times it’s happened in the reverse or I’ve done either, I ofc thought abt hop calling el “sara” on accident but like also... I don’t know that I can actually see it happening.

[hopalongjim]

I’ll be back this week! But not tonight bc I’m pooped.