HopieannC

Gypsy soul, full of love, I'm on a journey taking care of my hub who is battling ALS, living fully, love art, creating, working with the earth, & words.

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Fall bouquets & fall backdrops. 🥀🌾🍁🍂🌲 . I'll be taking a note from nature and returning to myself. ✌️ . #fallmedicine

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Take me to the river. 🏞️🌲☀️🎨💧 . Available now www.hopiehippie.com . #hopiehippie

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Oz man sleeping with his Grandma. 😍🐶👵 . Had a nice and very productive weekend with my momma. Always grateful to have my mom to be able to fly in and help me with so much around here. It's a priveldge that I don't even think I could adequately express how much it means to me. 🙏💜 . Safe travels home momma 😘

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My momma @donna.203 took some photos today of me painting, while she insisted on cleaning my brushes. 🙏🎨😍👩‍🎨📸 . #hopiehippie #winsorandnewton #artforbreatfast #lunchanddinnertoo #thanksmom

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Oh.my.gosh. 😍 y'all! This painting of Steve's is making my heart 💓 skip a beat!!! This and others are available @driveforacure www.driveforacure.com 🎨 . Steve always says, "Thanks for helping me feel like a man," when he gets a check from his art. Steve loves working for our life. He's always trying to earn money to help ease the stress of medical bills. As much as I tell him not to worry he innately does. So I want to personally thank each of you who supports Steve's art. You help him feel full of purpose and like he's contributing. It's really endearing to watch his face light up with news of his sells so it's also a beautiful thing for me too! So thank you! Thank you! Thank you! 🙏 . Annddd.... As always a huge thank you to our dear friend @artistjeremybrown who works his ass off for us on this! As you admire Steve's art make sure to send Jeremy some 👏💜✨🦄 . Seriously though if you buy this one (or any really) tag me when you hang it in your house. 😍 . #driveforacure #artforacause #stevedezemberii #youarefulfillingadream

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I don't know if I realized how grey my hair was getting until my mom sent me this photo of Marlowe & I doing my morning pages this morning. 🧓 It's been a year since I've died my hair. A lot of people​ have recently asked me why I stopped dying my hair. . There's a couple of things that ultimately led me to finally decide to. The main ones: 1. I was tired of putting chemicals in my hair every three weeks just for the grey to come back. 2. As an act of self love I wanted to do some radical self acceptance I stopped wearing makeup too. I didn't want to cover "me" up anymore, instead learn to love me for me. 3. I was having headaches and knew dying my hair really never did my health any favors. . Despite a few comments of disbelief that I would "let myself go" mostly everyones been rather lovely about it. Most people who come at me about letting myself go give me an opportunity to explain how it's the opposite. It was doing what I felt was best for me at the time. Turns out a year later I still feel the same way. . My "old" hair as it's been said now matches my old soul. 🤗 . #goinggrey #radicalselfacceptance #justmeandmydog

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Puppy pile 😍🐶🐕 #noiwontgetoutofbedimcuddlingmydogs

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New paintings up on #hopiehippie 🙏💜🎨👩‍🎨 . A big thank you to everyone who supports my art in any way. Painting has really become an important way to fill the tank & I couldn't do it with all of you who support me. I never started painting because I thought I was a good painter, I started because I had no choice but to paint. I literally thought (still do) about painting all the time. I would see a flower and I would want to paint it, the sunlight shining through the trees, the birds, our deer visitors. That feeling of exchanging energy with paint and canvas and to show the world a goose into the world through my eyes, is a pretty incredible feeling. You get a piece of me with each painting I paint. I don't know if I adequately express how much it means to me and in turn how much your support means--but I hope this is a small start.💚🐢 . Also if you're feeling the call but maybe feel silly because you don't know how or what to paint. Just show up and listen, you'll find your way. 😍✨ . Also this magical song everyones been loving from my stories is The Light by The Album Leaf 🎶 . In case you can't tell Nature is my muse always. 😍🌲💐☀️🌿🌾✨💚🌎 . www.hopiehippie.com . #hopiehippie #thankyouforallofit #natureismymuse #artforbreatfast #lunchanddinnertoo

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Soaking up some sunshine with momma. If you want to see some funny outtakes check my stories....not easy to get photos with my momma who's always giggling 🤣 . #mommasherethisweekend #imhidingapimple

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The forest through the trees 🌲☀️🌲🎨 . #hopiehippie #iminatreestateofmind #treemedicine #forestmedicine #artforbreakfastlunchanddinnerbitch

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I wrote a blog today giving a very brief but pretty concise update on where Steve's health stands. As always blog can be found www.hopiehippie.com (link in bio). 💻💜 . #hopeforsteve #latergram #nowearentbackinthehospital #ijustneversharedthese #givingatasteofcake . Overalls @zasragirl

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TO LIVE THE LIFE 🎨🌲✨ . #hopiehippie ✌️

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In my happy place. 😍💜🐶🏡🌲🍁☀️ . #sothankful #thissweetbubby

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My dad left my mom when she was pregnant with me. I didn't get a lot of attention from my dad growing up, and I would seek it out from all the places in my life. . The first time a man forced himself upon me I was 5 years old. From there I began to do this thing where I would "go somewhere else" during anything uncomfortable happening to escape whatever it was. It took me writing my book to unravel so many pieces of my life because I've hidden it from myself. Facing some of these #metoo moments really helped me release the shame I had. . I felt like because I was seeking attention it was my fault these things would happen. That even though it made me sick to my stomach I would receive the attention whichever way they were giving it. Realizing that it was never my fault allowed me to forgive myself which allowed me to forgive everyone else. Once I found myself able to release I finally was able to write again. I released blockages that were weighing me down. I found myself able to be more present in the moment even if it's excruciatingly difficult because I have felt the peace facing life has brought me. . If you're not there yet, please don't loose hope. I know these are days where so much of what's really going on is in our Faces, but I find some hope in it. If you don't face the shadow you can't step into the light. Here we are as a collective facing our shadows. . We are shifting the world towards accountability, people standing up for others, people choosing to do the right thing. Growth hurts, but the healing at the end of it...💜🙏 #keepgoing I love you all. All of you whether you want to speak on it or not you're brave & amazing. #thoughtsfromhope #hospitalmedicine

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6 years! Wow. . Wrote a blog today (link in bio) with some thoughts on our past 6 years. Short, sweet, and sleep deprived. 😅 . ....... Steve and I mirror our strengths to one another, we mirror the ways in which we are capable of doing anything we set our minds to.  We also mirror our mean streaks, our love for calling people names, our addictions, need for control, and our need for attention. These shadows aren't there to break us apart, although it's really f'ing hard not to let them sometimes.  For Steve and I , what I consider the most fortunate with our love and life is that no matter how difficult and dark we've gotten our strength has always persevered.  Just like we come out of these hospital visits a little stronger so does our love through facing ourselves in each other.  The selves we want to run far away from.  It's a blessing to be able to grow with someone and to be able to watch yourself AND your partner break through old patterns that were leaving us in the shadows and walk into the light together.  Our marriage on the outside is an inspiration because we choose to keep battling this journey for our love.  On the inside here it inspires me because we have fully faced ourselves, faced one another, and have remained in love.  That is what I love about us.  If I could add anything to our vows I would add, that I promise to stay with you through the shadows and in the light.  . Read the whole thing on blog. 💜 . Feeling extra thankful today. Even though we are spending our anniversary in the hospital we are here together! All that matters. 💑🙏💜 . #hopeforsteve #anniversary #throughtheshadows #andinthelight #loveconquersall #youandme