close my eyes and simp

26. they/them. queer. simp.

[chaos0pikachu]

Shane: having a whole ass bottomed out existential crisis after coming out to his parents and having thoughts of the future

Ilya:

[officialkendallroy]

not gonna lie kitten, the only thing that's getting daddy through the week right now is canadian state funded ice hockey yaoi

[endlessly-ranting-antheia]

Ilya: I could marry Svetlana to get American citizenship

Shane: and I could commit a murder suicide right now. See how we’re both saying shit

[littlegirlinvisible]

HEATED RIVALRY 1.06: THE COTTAGE + HRTwT VERSION

[evanzbuck]

Ilya felt like his smile was going to split his face. He was overwhelmingly happy. Shane was beaming up at him, eyes bright and freckles crinkled, and Ilya loved him. And Shane loved him. Holy fucking shit. Shane Hollander is in love with me.

[everfaye]

I’ve actually been fucking your son for 10 years. Thank you for pasta

[livingasaghost]

genuinely i do think it's crazy how this show hit every single mark for no reason other than pure love of the game. like this wasn't a money grab and it didn't think it would be a big success, jacob just read a book he enjoyed and thought huh i think that would be a cool thing to make into a tv show. and then he brought on hudson and connor and they're fresh and passionate and not bogged down by the industry yet and they instantly became best friends and wanted to just have fun bringing these characters to life. and they didn't have a huge budget but they did the most with what they had and everybody took the show seriously and everybody took the book seriously. the cinematographer worked his magic. the music supervisor managed to snag a well-known queer hit and an up and coming new release and old school gems that have been around since the 2000s. it's canadian to the core, built from the ground up. it takes russians and the russian language seriously. it uses sex in such a specific, meaningful way that almost no other show has done thus far, and especially not in a queer context like this. they interlaced every episode with callbacks and parallelism and self-references. they didn't take themselves too seriously. they took everything so seriously. there is love and care baked into the core of this show and it's deeply queer and it doesn't shy away from the horrors of toxic masculinity and hockey culture but it is also, always, a story of joy and love and happiness. and on top of everything, it's almost word for word, the original source material from the book.

like damn it's no wonder this thing has made us all insufferable and become a huge fucking success! so few productions in hollywood are doing it like this!!!

[covenlesswitches]

“he should be at the club” well he’s at the club and he wants to fucking kill himself

[nyxlyx]

just when i thought i was calming down about this show, i find out shane was protecting his man from the wolf bird in actual fluent bird

[shnehollander]

Shane & Ilya Heated Rivalry S01E06

[heymacy]

HEATED RIVALRY SEASON ONE + hall of fame text posts

[3416]

mitch saying auston was the toughest call to make after the trade... okay bro okay br o i'm falling apart

[thelovelybookworm]

Just finished the We Were Liars adaptation, and as someone who read this in 2014 when it first came out…. I didn’t think the twist was going to hit the same. I still remember how I felt when I got to the reveal in the book, well past midnight, laying in bed, hand over my mouth after I had let out the biggest gasp I have ever let out.

I knew what was going to happen the whole time i was watching the show, I knew what was going on the WHOLE TIME but still it unraveled and still I cried.

They pulled out Saturn by Sleeping at Last, and it was over; I was a sobbing mess.

[jexversea]

literally me

[wmnylander]

LOVE DA LEAFS. NEVER SAID ANYTHING BAD ABOUT DA LEAFS.

[sexhaver]

musk is going to die in a Tesla explosion in 6 months after sticking his nose where it doesn't belong and we will never get a conclusive answer on whether it was a CIA car bomb or just a normal Tesla malfunction

[fernthefanciful]

Like to charge, reblog to cast

[doberbutts]

Anyway this is why I keep saying that people refuse to be normal about the idea of mixed race people and interracial relationships and communities happening and creating children.

I am black and black only until it is convenient to call me white. And it doesn't matter that I'm also native because I'm too black to be native anyway. I've talked about being multi-racial and having even further racial mixing in my extended family since I made this blog in 2014 but that doesn't matter if any of my racial mix can be used as a weapon against me.

Y'all complain about the stereotype of the tragic mulatto without understanding why that stereotype exists in the first place.

[doberbutts]

I think it was Hafu (Japanese documentary about its mixed race population) but I always liked a quote from this Japanese/Korean guy in which he says he is not half but both.

I'm not part anything. I am all three. I am not half (a third). I am both (all of them). There is no such thing as half a person. I am not only partially allowed to acknowledge my people.

All of them are my people.

[femmeharlequin-deactivated20240]

Followers helped me find this quote 🩷

ID: "I am not 'half Japanese' and 'half Lithuanian Jewish." When I'm singing a Japanese folk song, I don't sing with half my voice, but with my whole voice. When I'm taping together my grandparents' Jewish marriage contract, worn by time but still resilient, it's not half of my heart that is moved, but my whole heart.

I am complete, and I embody layers of identities that belong together. I am made of layers, not fractions."

-Yumi Tomsha

[mrsterlingeverything]

Do you only top?

I try to eat and sleep sometimes too