ana

this is my third account, please block me but don't report. I'm pro recovery for everyone but me.

[huh77ana]

If I hadn't eaten that small piece of chocolate (38kcal) maybe I would've fainted but I still would be more powerful than now, sitting on the bathroom floor with fingers deep in my burning throat while tasting my non-salty tears that leave a hot trail on my cheeks before letting the air cool my face. Without this piece I would be successful, happy but now? I am disgusting.

[huh77ana]

No because people don't get it. I would literally kill just for some pounds, inches or literally anything that'll make me skinnier.

[huh77ana]

Some of my goals currently

[huh77ana]

Short reminder that not posting doesn't mean I recovered

[delicatebones]

why can’t i just be skinny

i hate the pain of trying so hard and failing

i hate the pain of relapsing

i hate the pain of never being good enough for myself

when does this get better?

[huh77ana]

I envy people with a fast metabolism because I wouldn't be that fucked up by now if I had it..

[glutguts]

types of ppl w ed:

- sleeps or gets high through most of it to cope (me lmao)

- the one who is proana (:/) and always compare fasts

- the one who fatshames w reverse thinspo (:/)

- drinks water constantly and says "stay safe :)" before getting hospitalized

- drinks diet drinks so they arent hydrated

pls keep adding to this but i thought itd be fun to say what i got

[huh77ana]

The one with the disordered thinking but relatively(actually not really💀💀) healthy eating habits

[huh77ana]

I'm struggling

[huh77ana]

Sometimes I think I'm normal but then I need to google the calories in everything, make sport, want to vomit, can't eat without thinking about how fat it'll make me and the list is going on. And only then it hits me that maybe not everyone thinks like that

[slfcare]

as the colder months approach: i wish you all a healthy, calm end of the year. i wish you tasty cups of tea, comfortable clothes, warm beds, nutritious meals in safe homes, good music, new friends and unwavering health. you deserve good things now.

[huh77ana]

Sometimes I forget that not everyone feels guilty for eating and fat all the time

[huh77ana]

The feeling of fasting again after months is so fucking addictive.

[huh77ana]

My only flex is that a bandana easily fits around my waist even while being bloated

[dying-to-be-empty]

Reblog if you’ve binged within the last five days.

I want to show everyone that you aren’t alone; others do it, too. It happens, you aren’t a ‘failure’ for binging. 

[qoa]

[sheabutterbitch]

I see we’re no longer being subtle

[realshinjiikari]

This post just shot me between the eyes

[slowlybutsurelyyx]

Me telling myself that I’ll take the “before” picture once I’ve lost some more weight lol

[jonghos-left-airpod]

Muslims are being held in concentration camps in china please speak up about it and reblog also this is a post on Instagram speaking about it more in depth

View this post on Instagram

A post shared by @wallahis on Jul 22, 2020 at 1:22am PDT

[huh77ana]

My lowest weight was 83lbs but I felt so fat that I didn't take pictures so the only pictures I have a from the recovery were I was 97lbs

I hate myself for this.

[captnxstark]