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Taken aback by the character making their way to the seat next to her, Aliya narrowed her eyes at him, watching him closely. Ryker was an interesting character right from the start and she wasnāt sure yet if it was a good thing or not. However one thing she could admit was the respect she had for his honesty. āYeah, okay, you got me.ā she lets out a heavy sigh while glancing at the ceiling. āIām not feeling the happiestā A scoff escapes from her lips at the choice of word she used.
Happy. Seems like all her life pretending to be happy and feeling as if she has to be the one to keep it together for everyoneās sake seeped itās way through her new life. It sucked, to put it in simple terms. No matter how much sheād like to properly express her not-so-happy thoughts, she could never bring herself to be selfish in that sense. It didnāt help that Aliya viewed it as a gateway to vulnerability, a state of mind she never wants to placed in. Instead she lashes outwardly through impulsive decisionsālike dropping her successful career and her mom behind to start her life over in America. Aliya turns to him, making eye contact as she forces another smile āI guess itās automatic for me to seem like I am. Pathetic, right?ā She chuckles, making light of the situation. āHow are you dealing withā¦well, everything?ā She inquires in an attempt to transition the focus away from herself.
āi know. iād be cliche and be like -- your eyes out your feelings, but they donāt, you just got startled and started acting excited after staring into the distance for like fifteen minutes.ā ryker shrugs, perching himself on a chair near her. heās not the best with listening to peopleās feelings, both because heās remarkably apathetic as well as the fact he can be so blunt. most people say they want honesty, but they donāt, they just want you to tell them everything is going to be okay and therās nothing to worry about, and to just agree to everything. he hopes aliya isnāt like that, or by default sheās going to hate him.Ā āno, not pathetic -- itās normal. but people can tell, just remember that. wanna, uh -- talk about it?ā ryker attempts to be helpful.Ā āeh, iām fine. iām not as broken up about the fact i killed people as some are. it was self defense, they deserved it.ā heās been telling himselfĀ that, trying to get him to believe it.













