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Taken aback by the character making their way to the seat next to her, Aliya narrowed her eyes at him, watching him closely. Ryker was an interesting character right from the start and she wasn’t sure yet if it was a good thing or not. However one thing she could admit was the respect she had for his honesty. “Yeah, okay, you got me.” she lets out a heavy sigh while glancing at the ceiling. “I’m not feeling the happiest” A scoff escapes from her lips at the choice of word she used.
Happy. Seems like all her life pretending to be happy and feeling as if she has to be the one to keep it together for everyone’s sake seeped it’s way through her new life. It sucked, to put it in simple terms. No matter how much she’d like to properly express her not-so-happy thoughts, she could never bring herself to be selfish in that sense. It didn’t help that Aliya viewed it as a gateway to vulnerability, a state of mind she never wants to placed in. Instead she lashes outwardly through impulsive decisions–like dropping her successful career and her mom behind to start her life over in America. Aliya turns to him, making eye contact as she forces another smile “I guess it’s automatic for me to seem like I am. Pathetic, right?” She chuckles, making light of the situation. “How are you dealing with…well, everything?” She inquires in an attempt to transition the focus away from herself.
“i know. i’d be cliche and be like -- your eyes out your feelings, but they don’t, you just got startled and started acting excited after staring into the distance for like fifteen minutes.” ryker shrugs, perching himself on a chair near her. he’s not the best with listening to people’s feelings, both because he’s remarkably apathetic as well as the fact he can be so blunt. most people say they want honesty, but they don’t, they just want you to tell them everything is going to be okay and ther’s nothing to worry about, and to just agree to everything. he hopes aliya isn’t like that, or by default she’s going to hate him. “no, not pathetic -- it’s normal. but people can tell, just remember that. wanna, uh -- talk about it?” ryker attempts to be helpful. “eh, i’m fine. i’m not as broken up about the fact i killed people as some are. it was self defense, they deserved it.” he’s been telling himself that, trying to get him to believe it.











