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they/them he/hymn grammar nerd, anxious about everything, existential crisis at least twice a day

[hylasnerdthing]

let men wear dresses without people assuming that they're queer.

I repeat for the people at the back,

LET MEN WEAR DRESSES WITHOUT PEOPLE ASSUMING THAT THEY'RE QUEER.

[hiddenvioletsgrow]

Imagine, you're 16, all your friends are dead and you just started a new job with a cute 16 year old boss who's also super mysterious only to slowly discover, you remind him of his dead sister, he's *THIS* close to killing himself at any moment, and the ghosts attacking you might be a manufactured problem by rich people.

This all happening to my good friend Lucy Carlyle.

[an0neemouse]

Write whatever you want. Write that incredibly niche thing that only two other people on earth will get. Write the super indulgent cliche thing that makes you kick your feet giddily. Write the angry rage story that whumps them all and makes people cry.

Whatever it is that YOU want to write. Write it. Because only YOU can.

[typethreeghost]

its insane to me how ali hadji-heshmati captured george cubbins perfectly in the show. the little mannerisms and expressions he does even if they removed cubbins' 'weirdness' in the books and without looking like how he is described in the book is still truly that george we know in the books. people mostly comment on cameron and ruby's perfect casting but ali capturing george's character all over through out the show???

[hylasnerdthing]

shoutout to this guy! 🫶

comment was on a post of mine about not feeling “trans enough” as a nonbinary person btw

[hylasnerdthing]

hi how can I not be insecure of my teeth

[hylasnerdthing]

I can't wait to see all the ryland cosplayers and how people do rocky. I can already imagine people carrying around a plushy, or a cardboard figure, and I'm sure someone will eventually make a whole moving robot

[juniper-petunia]

they should make a version of socializing that doesn’t make you feel like you’re still the weird 12 year old kid that doesn’t know why she’s not normal like the other kids

[hylasnerdthing]

anyone else ever feel "not trans enough"?

I am AFAB and would say that I'm much closer to masc than femme in my gender identity and expression, but I feel like a lot of the time I might just be evening out all the inherent fem-ness that comes with my body. I like baggy clothing and lean away from femme clothes because that is what I am most comfortable in, both physically and in my gender expression, but that's still seen as "boy" clothing. It is masc, and I am seen as a boy.

sometimes I wish I was "entirely cis" or "entirely trans", because something in the middle feels unachievable most of the time. we don't owe anyone androgyne, but I do want to look androgynous. maybe still leaning on the masc side, but I don't want people to see me as simply a boy. I am non-binary. say it.

I feel like I might never achieve being percieved how I want to be.

[withered--s0uls]

when I was starting to figure out I'm not cis, the "she/they" was a "sorry for being nonbinary" situation, and now presently the "they/he" is a "sorry for being nonbinary" situation as well (especially because my native language is gendered as fuck).

I don't know where I'm going with this but lately I have been struggling a lot with dysphoria that simply cannot be fixed.

I dropped the she/her in English bc nobody used they/them. And people kept using it.

Now that my friends are mostly ppl who didn't know me back then I'm lucky enough that they/them is used more. But I'll never escape the he/him and assumptions that I'm a trans man just because of my native language essentially forcing me to pretend being a binary trans person. it's exhausting.

I'm fine with he/him. some days it's affirming. But other days it reminds me just how much I'm trapped in a world where I am expected to play the part, and how i can not play either role handed to me.

Most masculine terms feel distant and wrong. I play the part of being transmasc because that's what I need to do to be accepted. But I need to make it clear that I'm not a man. Transmasc doesn't inherently means trans man, and with how many people IRL assume I'm the latter, I'm starting to feel disconnected from a term that used to give me comfort. Maybe I'm somewhere between transneutral and transmasc, what do I know.

Not like I can really worry about that, when I constantly fear having to return into the closet.

[big--naturals]

⚠️warning⚠️ this transgender faggot on the internet will permanently alter your vocabulary options. would you still like to befriend them?

[hylasnerdthing]

wanting to write again after a period of low motivation and then I'm punched with a multiple choice decision I wasn't ready for

Would You Rather Write: >half-started oc-insert angst fic I no longer like >new original story idea that needs way too much worldbuilding >old original story from years ago >an entirely new original or fic idea that will need brainstorming

[hylasnerdthing]

I hate being scared. why do I have to be scared all of the time.

[soulren]

“Ghosts are real” I can see how you could believe that

“Ghosts aren’t real” it’s very fair and rational that you believe that

“Ghosts aren’t real anymore” I’m about to hear a poem or very sad story

“Ghosts aren’t real yet” the fuck are you going to do

[hylasnerdthing]

when the vent art actually came out so good but you can't show it to your friends because it would show that you're lowkey struggling

[hylasnerdthing]

I was just watching this video of don't do sadness and somehow the motion JGJ does for "man it blows my mind" made me think.. he... he really did blow his mind, huh.........

[my-autism-adhd-blog]

YES

Life in an Autism World