hy there

they/them he/hymn grammar nerd, anxious about everything, existential crisis at least twice a day

[hylasnerdthing]

would anyone care about L&Co ocs... is that a thing here... or do I keep to myself...

[hylasnerdthing]

I'm getting closet to the end of the 5th lockwood & co book and I'm now scrambling to find fanart of skull's human form

[hylasnerdthing]

watching iconic british tv game/reality shows and on the panel are just the most autistic people ever

[hylasnerdthing]

"we're not angry enough" and then nobody tells us what to do with our rage

[hylasnerdthing]

wow the world would sure seem a lot brighter if I had me some trans tape right now

[hylasnerdthing]

a Hadestown poem (by someone who has never done poetry before)

Roses are red Violets are blue Orchids are white Daisies are too

On that very day I summoned a flower With only my voice You called it a power

The carnation was red Red like your blood Red like his eyes Cold as a flood

I wasn't there when he took you My mind was lost in song You did what you had to But it's time to fix what's wrong

Marching into hell Our story will repeat Will you wait for me I will not accept defeat

[hylasnerdthing]

I NEEED to write again soon. or else I'll not write for another several months. I need to get my ideas down in a doc

[hylasnerdthing]

the mental battle of deciding if I should tell my friends in a friend group that I'd like to go by different pronouns (they already know I'm non-binary, I've already told them before but in a really "oh you dont HAVE to" way)

[hylasnerdthing]

let men wear dresses without you assuming that they're queer.

I repeat for the people at the back,

LET MEN WEAR DRESSES WITHOUT YOU ASSUMING THAT THEY'RE QUEER.

[hiddenvioletsgrow]

Imagine, you're 16, all your friends are dead and you just started a new job with a cute 16 year old boss who's also super mysterious only to slowly discover, you remind him of his dead sister, he's *THIS* close to killing himself at any moment, and the ghosts attacking you might be a manufactured problem by rich people.

This all happening to my good friend Lucy Carlyle.

[an0neemouse]

Write whatever you want. Write that incredibly niche thing that only two other people on earth will get. Write the super indulgent cliche thing that makes you kick your feet giddily. Write the angry rage story that whumps them all and makes people cry.

Whatever it is that YOU want to write. Write it. Because only YOU can.

[typethreeghost]

its insane to me how ali hadji-heshmati captured george cubbins perfectly in the show. the little mannerisms and expressions he does even if they removed cubbins' 'weirdness' in the books and without looking like how he is described in the book is still truly that george we know in the books. people mostly comment on cameron and ruby's perfect casting but ali capturing george's character all over through out the show???

[hylasnerdthing]

shoutout to this guy! 🫶

comment was on a post of mine about not feeling “trans enough” as a nonbinary person btw

[hylasnerdthing]

hi how can I not be insecure of my teeth

[hylasnerdthing]

I can't wait to see all the ryland cosplayers and how people do rocky. I can already imagine people carrying around a plushy, or a cardboard figure, and I'm sure someone will eventually make a whole moving robot

[juniper-petunia]

they should make a version of socializing that doesn’t make you feel like you’re still the weird 12 year old kid that doesn’t know why she’s not normal like the other kids

[hylasnerdthing]

anyone else ever feel "not trans enough"?

I am AFAB and would say that I'm much closer to masc than femme in my gender identity and expression, but I feel like a lot of the time I might just be evening out all the inherent fem-ness that comes with my body. I like baggy clothing and lean away from femme clothes because that is what I am most comfortable in, both physically and in my gender expression, but that's still seen as "boy" clothing. It is masc, and I am seen as a boy.

sometimes I wish I was "entirely cis" or "entirely trans", because something in the middle feels unachievable most of the time. we don't owe anyone androgyne, but I do want to look androgynous. maybe still leaning on the masc side, but I don't want people to see me as simply a boy. I am non-binary. say it.

I feel like I might never achieve being percieved how I want to be.