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[hyunnjji]

𝐇𝐘𝐔𝐍𝐍𝐉𝐉𝐈 — an independent, private, and extremely selective writing blog for the original character 𝐌𝐎𝐎𝐍 𝐇𝐘𝐔𝐍𝐉𝐈 ( college student, assassin for an organized crime syndicate ). due to the nature of hyunji's character, this blog will feature mature themes such as violence, gore, murder, torture, and others. minors please do not interact.

— dane, she / they, 22, philippines. blogroll: calamityquelled. pagliyag. gaehwaa. links: carrd. ask prompts. affiliated with: @euunhees.

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#𝐀 𝐒𝐓𝐔𝐃𝐘 𝐎𝐍: nature vs. nurture, wanting to forget about the only thing you've ever known, wishing for the waves to take you under, going back to the same place you always wish to avoid, the antithesis of living life to experience youth, growing old way too early, mothers and daughters breaking each other, constantly living with one foot in hell.

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[hyunnjji]

@mythcaels asked : ❛ you can kiss me, you know. ❜ from drake :)

it takes her aback. she looks at drake, wide brown eyes that are always calculating and tactical, looked like a doe's eyes caught on headlights for the first time. hyunji is a girl with an emotional capacity of a teacup. she does not know what it's like to be in love, to yearn for someone's touch, or their mere gazes. to be standing here in front of drake, with all of these strange emotions, followed by his statement of : you can kiss me. hyunji is confused. her heart is pounding out of her chest, and there are butterflies all over her stomach. there is awe and wonder in something new such as falling in love, but for hyunji, something like this comes with a price.

nevertheless, she takes a step forward, looks up at drake's tall stature and smiles before she kisses the corner of his lips, soft and chaste. " maybe you should do it next time instead of making me do all the work. "

[hyunnjji]

hyunji, for the most part, is quiet and apathetic. calculating, sometimes, but mostly just floating. she makes every decision on a whim unless her mission calls for a more strategic plan ahead. her mind isn't exactly at peace, but it is quiet — frighteningly so.

when she leaves gaehwa, she expects to grow further into herself. instead, she shrinks farther into the shadow of who she's supposed to be. she has foregone the process of enjoying freedom and has skipped to the part where she feels more alone in freedom than she had ever been while trapped.

of course hyunji sticks by her decision to leave gaehwa. she believes herself to be a good person after all (even when her hands are always bloody with another person's hopes and dreams, their family's love, their family's grief. the blood sticks to her hands invisibly even after she has cleaned her knives, sticky even when she has clawed at the places where it dripped with her fingernails bitten down to the quick) and knows that coming back because it is the only thing she ever knows is an act of cowardice and blasphemy against a god who has long exiled her into damnation.

her head used to function less destructively, but after leaving gaehwa, it seems to be the only thing her head knows how to do. destroy herself in her head with words. destroy gaehwa and her mother in her head with vivid imagery.

some days, destruction is all hyunji knows as she sits against the wall thinking of how she could redeem herself somehow. she has never experienced a loud series of excruciating noise made by her head, and now that she does, hyunji doesn't know how to bring herself back anymore.

[hyunnjji]

hyunji, for the most part, is quiet and apathetic. calculating, sometimes, but mostly just floating. she makes every decision on a whim unless her mission calls for a more strategic plan ahead. her mind isn't exactly at peace, but it is quiet — frighteningly so.

when she leaves gaehwa, she expects to grow further into herself. instead, she shrinks farther into the shadow of who she's supposed to be. she has foregone the process of enjoying freedom and has skipped to the part where she feels more alone in freedom than she had ever been while trapped.

of course hyunji sticks by her decision to leave gaehwa. she believes herself to be a good person after all (even when her hands are always bloody with another person's hopes and dreams, their family's love, their family's grief. the blood sticks to her hands invisibly even after she has cleaned her knives, sticky even when she has clawed at the places where it dripped with her fingernails bitten down to the quick) and knows that coming back because it is the only thing she ever knows is an act of cowardice and blasphemy against a god who has long exiled her into damnation.

her head used to function less destructively, but after leaving gaehwa, it seems to be the only thing her head knows how to do. destroy herself in her head with words. destroy gaehwa and her mother in her head with vivid imagery.

some days, destruction is all hyunji knows as she sits against the wall thinking of how she could redeem herself somehow. she has never experienced a loud series of excruciating noise made by her head, and now that she does, hyunji doesn't know how to bring herself back anymore.

[hyunnjji]

if anyone wants to write, i'm more active on discord honestly HFJKDHFJKDDFJK write w me there <3

[hyunnjji]

HYUNJI U R SO CUTE

[kimshyunjin]

jinsoul | air force one mv

[cchilyoja]

It’s a familiar dynamic, the two of them. Always on opposite sides but somehow together in the end, with any kind of hijinks and shenanigans. Whether she wants revenge or mayhem, she can have both, but they need to be smarter than their opponents. “ I don’t care about arson because it has too many issues, we need to be inside the building, then we also need to get out in time, it attracts too much attention, government, and police, and it is not a guarantee that everyone will, well not get out. We need a more sealproof plan.

” It’s odd how he is the opposite of how he is with everyone else, with her. Somehow, he ends up behaving as the more reasonable one, which is not the role he usually takes. “ I don’t enjoy suicide missions, unlike you, I want to make sure that I can walk away from this if or when I want to. And we are going to figure out a better plan of action, and make sure that we have all our bases covered, you can agree with that, can’t you Hyunji-ah? ”

With a sigh, he reaches towards the bottle and pours them both a drink before he downs his instantly. The slightly bitter taste is refreshing, especially when having to talk about these plans with her. “ How about an explosion? Maybe a car or plane, depending on what they use to travel, as long as all the necessary people are there. It can be detonated from far away? A bit safer, not perfect, but it could work. ”

[hyunnjji]

there's a bitter taste at the back of her throat as she thinks of a way to explain to him that she will be doing this by herself. that while she appreciates him and his help, there's no way that hyunji is going to bring this burden upon anyone else. in a way, the only reason why she ever told him her plan is to preface a goodbye. they have been through so much, and to disappear without a word just seems to disrespectful to all that they've gone through.

she takes her drink, but keeps her gaze on him. there's a sinking feeling in hyunji's chest once it registers to her that things would never be the same again. they would never be like this : arguing over plans, with junghoo being the one with the better judgment instead of hyunji. there's a stinging sensation in her chest when it sinks in to her that none of this will ever happen again when she commits to her plan by herself.

" no, no... " she trails off with a smile that doesn't quite reach her eyes. " i'm just... i'm just telling you what i'm planning to do, junghoo. this is my battle. i'm not going to ask you to fight it with me. " what little softness hyunji has left, it is seen now as she downs her drink in one go, staring at city lights from the balcony.

" i'll burn down the entire compound — my entire family, and i'll be burning with them. "

[hyunnjji]

@evelicious asked : " oh please , don't try to fool me with this innocent act . i've seen what you get up to come night-time . "

this isn't the first time someone has raised suspicions towards hyunji. she had grown used to it now, provide the effect of a plausible deniability even though they're both aware of what she does when the night comes. that's the key to proving yourself without an affiliation, refusing to say anything. isn't that what happens for some people tried on court ? dismissed due to lack of evidence ? while hyunji doesn't fancy herself a lawyer, she knows how things work to avoid getting crucified for her work.

" oh... you mean my ramen trips to the convenience store ? i was hoping you wouldn't notice... i mean... i haven't exactly told people yet that i'm seeing someone. " hyunji bites her lips and raises a hand to scratch her nape. " i'd appreciate it if you keep my midnight meetings with my boyfriend a secret. " she winks. she knows the other woman wouldn't fall for it, but the magic here is in what she says. it isn't hard to get a guy to play her boyfriend anyway.

[hyunnjji]

someone needs to sit hyunji down and tell her everything is gonna be ok

[weltenwellen]

Nikki Giovanni, The Collected Poetry, 1968-1998

[hyunnjji]

drops this here and leaves.

[hyunnjji]

@vulpesse asked : ❛   anyone who keeps the ability to see beauty never grows old.  ❜

the words ring through hyunji's head in an uncomfortable way. so what if she has forgotten what beauty is ? what if there is nothing more for her to feel other than the sheer desperation to try and become a good person, yet failing at it anyway ? there is nothing good and beautiful here anymore. all hyunji sees is the darkness of the world, the fucking stench of it reaching her nose and suffocating her that it hurts to even be. she doesn't know why ahri still believes in such things, but hyunji has stopped believing in that altogether.

" what about the people who couldn't see it anymore ? does that make them old ? or does it make them dead ? " she muses, her voice filled with quiet rage, a hurricane blowing up inside her mind that cannot be quelled.

[floraesky-a-deactivated20251205]

❛ Bad day . . ? Or would it be better to ask bad week instead . . . ? ❜ / @hyunnjji one - liner.

[hyunnjji]

hyunji giggles ever so slightly. she almost answers him with the words " bad life " but she manages to stop herself from doing so. " hmmm... more like a bad month. what else can i do, though ? it's not my fault my mother has trust issues and won't let anyone else kill her targets. "

[hyunnjji]

plotting call !! like if you want to plot something for our muses. whether it be a pre - established relationship, familial relations, etc. and i'll hop in your IMs or discord <3 ( this also applies to gaehwaa )

[hyunnjji]

i think it is worth noting that there is nothing deliberately scary or intimidating about hyunji's demeanor. she is easygoing. she can crack jokes. she is funny at times. then mostly she's just 😐 this emoji. perhaps one could be intimidated if they are quick to be scared or threatened by someone who is somewhat blank or impossible to read, but if not, then hyunji is not scary at all. she will only be scary when she's looking at you with a blank face while holding a knife to your throat and that's it.

though hyunji upon her return to gaehwa is much scarier. this is the point in her life where her rage has all but consumed her. if you factor in multiple instances in writing where gaehwa has messed with her or someone she loves? that's enough reason for hyunji to finally snap. her leaving gaehwa and her return to gaehwa are both pivotal points in her character in which she gives in to anger and rage — completely absolving herself of any thought regarding her image, and the possible consequences of her actions.