its so weird to be back blogging about a boy but idk where else to gush without annoying ppl lol
so jason and i have now been broken up for almost 7 months (which, first of all, is wild to think about). we haven’t spoken since the end of may (so almost 3 months) and i’ve been having random hookups every now and then (only with people that live alone and are also quarantining for the most part). so far, most of (if not 99%) of all the dudes have been eh, v lackluster and i don’t have much of a desire to spend time there post-coitus, much less cuddle lmao
at one point, none of the dudes in my hoe-tation (h/t Insecure on HBO) were hitting me up/available so i decided to expand my pool and hit up one of the guys who might be dtf that i just hadn’t messaged yet
his name is julian and his tinder bio says “rope dom” so i’m like hell yeah this guy will be dtf also i’ve always wanted to get tied up
when i message him we like actually chit chat rather than just set up a meeting, and he asks if i’m free to hang at the end of the week and in my mind i think “great, he’s gonna tie me up on friday”
on friday, my car actually gets towed lmao so i have to pick up my car and don’t get to his place until like almost 9pm. we smoke a lil and then we go to a park that has a p cool view of the downtown skyline and not that many people there
we spend like 3 hours there (until like 1am or so) just...............talking
and its cool af, and fun and we’re laughing and getting to know each other and it’s....fun? ? ? something i haven’t had with a dude in a while. he seems kinda tired as we’re going home, and he’d made mention that it was past his bedtime so i figure that’s my cue to go home when we get back to his place. instead, he asks if i’d left anything at his place (i hadn’t) and then if i wanted to go back for another bowl (i do) so we go back upstairs and we just smoke more and then i figure i should go home bc we’re just chit chatting but its getting late. he walks me to my car (i assume for safety reasons) and then asks when i’m free to hang again next (which i’m impressed by) and we settle on three weeks from then (i had actually thought it was 2 weeks but i misunderstood)
i go through a really heavy period of work and then i finally get to see him again. we hadn’t really texted or anything other than me letting him know about being featured for an interview so i wasn’t sure how it’d go down but i just had a feeling there was interest there. we settled to go to a cool park with peacocks (which was actually closed but we hopped the fence - i had to encourage him to go for it which was funny) and a tall point in the city to see the sunset. i wore a revealing top (sue me) and said i was trying to channel the peacocks (he thought that was funny). by the time we leave it like 10pm ish and he asks if i’m hungry and i say yes so we decide to make dinner and drinks (pasta with homemade meat sauce) and he made me a blackberry/lime/cucumber gin + tonic and it was delicious!! we eat and we just hang out and then we move to the couch to watch something on his tv and you can see that there’s a bit of casual leg touching but it wasn’t fully conclusive to me until i pulled away and he readjusted to make his knee more available
and then at one point he opens his arms for a hug and thanks me for helping him make dinner and we start to cuddle......and then i kiss him and we start making out and then he picks me up and we move to the bed
obv we do the do and it actually rules?? he’s v generous and attentive and just FUN. like that’s the best part of doin it with him - he’s so FUN. like he has such a proactive, always thinking attitude
we’ve seen each other a few times since (at one point i said no worries if he couldn’t hang, but that it’d be nice to see him and he said it’d be nice to see me too) and this past weekend was really just.........the best. he was so affectionate and just bending down to kiss me every now and then, like when he went to get us water during breakfast and as he passed by he bent down to kiss me?? and it was so cute?? we also had really cute sleepytime sex and it was so fun!! and he’ll come up behind me when i’m washing a knife and kiss me on the cheek. he kissed me goodbye (twice) when walked me to my car (which he does each time now)
he asked me about jason yesterday (interesting to note that we haven’t talked about exes since we first hung out, over a month ago - he specifically said that he remembered me mentioning it then) and so i told him what happened and i asked about his ex (that he mentioned he had dated for 5 years) and he told me that she actually cheated on him, which is wild
i just feel so...........comfortable with him?? we go grocery shopping together, we cook together, we nap together and the time fliiiiiiiiies it’s absolutely wild. he likes to just kiss my cheek and forehead all the time and i’ve never actually enjoyed cuddling with someone as much as i do with him. like legit i never want to leave and that is literally the opposite of how i felt the first time jason slept over. for the first time.....my head is fully in the clouds. the funny part is that he’s very much opposite from all the dudes i’ve previously preferred to date......and yet...........i’m enjoying it more than i ever have?? like he’s not aloof, he’s very active (both physically and like wanting to do things), he’s super affectionate, he’s v experienced sex-wise, he’s busy so delayed gratification (vs jason who was available to me 24/7)......and just.....the vibe is amazing. the chemistry on every level is like truly unmatched
also he weirdly looks a bit like tony lopez (yes the tik tok-er) and said i’m the person that’s made him c*m the fastest lmfao. he also was in a frat at a v fratty school but he’s a bernie supporter and a leftist, which rules - i personally like the fratty attitude bc he’s v confident as a person which i love. he also reminds me a lotttttttt of peter kavinsky from to all the boys which is A+++
anywho this is a love life update. i rly like this boy