3 am is loud

i overthink & overshare so this’ll be all over the place just like me! 🫶🏼 20F

[i-understand-vangogh]

I have let all my figs rot & still I wait for them to be ripe enough for me.

[i-understand-vangogh]

I see the rotting leaves on the plants I forget to water & still I wonder why I’m rotting along. When will I tend to my garden without waiting for someone with a gallon to walk by.

[i-understand-vangogh]

is God tired of me begging for you back

[i-understand-vangogh]

the flowers are growing & the evening is lighter. i will love again.

[i-understand-vangogh]

i love you, and i’m ok with from afar. just think of me sometimes when the moon is bright.

[i-understand-vangogh]

he feels like the in between. the in between of seasons. when i think of him i can feel the cool breeze in the warm sunlight as the season turns from winter to spring. i can hear the trees rattle with the wind and smell that crisp fresh air of the earth thawing. i feel it in my soul. my cold heart turning warm, just as the earth through the seasons, with his return. to him i was always the in between. never the lover always the filler, in between. with the seasons changing i will wait till spring. till you come back to find me again.

[i-understand-vangogh]

I have bags under my eyes, even in my dreams.

[mockingjaysnakes]

boyfriend material.

[cillmurphyslover]

From a interview today 😍🥵 so sexy

[i-understand-vangogh]

i can’t do this while i’m ovulating

[i-understand-vangogh]

me clearing my history after reading the most unhinged & smuttiest fanfiction that would probably put me into a psych ward if anyone found out😅

[i-understand-vangogh]

i just know tom blyth is the type to talk you through it😅

[i-understand-vangogh]

i blame Hollywood for my taste in bad men. they make EVERY bad guy be played by the HOTTEST men i have ever laid my eyes on!!!!

[i-understand-vangogh]

therapist: “so you’ve fallen in love with an obsessive, manipulative, narcissistic killer who happens to be fiction?”

me:

i like to check all the boxes ma’am😌

[msshadowqueen]

"Remember who the real enemy is." Finnick babygirl, I forgot when they put Tom Blyth in blonde curls.😭

[i-understand-vangogh]

if evil… why cute?

[i-understand-vangogh]

me after reading ANOTHER tom blyth/ coriolanus snow fan fiction

I can not get over how AMAZING YALLS WRITING IS. I AM FERAL & AFRAID!!!

[i-understand-vangogh]

Noun.

When I think of a noun, a person, place or thing, I can not think of it lightly. Everything about that person, place or thing digs up the deepest, soul-stirring, moment bond to it that I have no desire to give up. Mother, the woman I disagreed with most yet she's the woman I want to be. Father, the man who taught me strength and fragility. Sister, the girl I always wanted to be equals with and yet differed from the most. Brother, the boy who understands me the most yet is unaware of who I truly am. School, the place that held my chosen family and mortal enemies. Home, the place I look for everywhere I go yet can not seem to find. Brain, my greatest protector and biggest obstacle. Heart, the one you held and the one you broke.

[cosmicschmidt]

I need this man biblically.