hold on to the memories, they will hold on to you.

Graduated. still have strong feelings for one of my now ex professors.

[glazedeye-s]

“what he knew, he knew from books, and books lied, they made things prettier”

— hanya yanagihara, a little life.

[heart2heartwritings]

“We were almost in love. And that’s why it hurts so much.”

[samedinselimovic]

Wir konnten immer über alles reden, nur nie über uns.

[teachercrxsh]

A soulmate who wasn’t meant to be...

Sometimes I think that my love for him is just so real. It’s so pure and true, without judgment or shallowness. I see him as he is; an intellectual, funny and considerate man who always puts so much effort into everything he does for other people. He’s reliable and always knows what to say in any situation unlike me who never seems to know what to say to strangers. Sometimes I think in a past life we could have been together and through some unknown, invisible line of fate we find ourselves meeting again in this life but we are destined to be just strangers passing by without so much as a second glance. Perhaps it is a curse to fall in love with him in every life I live and never find myself in his arms. Oh, how I wish I could run into those arms and never, ever let go. We could just let the world change around us as our timelines finally merge into one. Sometimes I think that could happen, for one brief moment I could finally find happiness in another and everything would be as it should. But I’m afraid that will never happen and all these stupid, insignificant feelings I have for him will just be hidden in-between sheets of paper and whispered in dark rooms where they’ll cling to the curtains like dust.  

[yuyuuyuyuu-deactivated20230726]

i shoot my shot by including you in the fake scenarios in my head before bed

[why-tc]

Maybe if we had met in another life, we wouldn’t be so impossible. But at least I met you.

[cancelledplansjustincase]

....ALL I WANT IS TO GO FROM “cancelled my plans just in case you’d call” TO “wreck my plans, that’s my man” is that tOO MUCH TO ASK

[kissofpoisontcc]

How cruel is life,

To make two people so perfect for each other,

Then build brick walls between them?

[yeehaw-tc]

I’d love to see me from your point of view

[romancesuggestions]

Even if it’s not with me, I always want you to be happy. 

[soretango]

he’s in my dreams so often. i hope i show up in his too sometimes

[palermo69]

i wish i could spend more time with you.

i wish i could play with your slightly curly hair.

i wish i could touch your cheek.

i wish i could hold your hand.

i wish you were mine.

13:46

[smokeinsilence]

have you ever noticed you pick up little habits and phrases from the people you love? it’s no wonder our hearts are so easily broken when people leave. we become a reflection of the people that we care about and those personality traits stick with us even if the people don’t

[viridianmasquerade]

I make my ramen the way a friend taught me in eleventh grade. Every fall, I listen to a playlist made for me by a boy I drove across a border to hook up with. I eat sushi because a girl who won’t talk to me anymore made me try it, and Indian food because my best friend’s parents ordered for me before I knew what I liked. There are movies I love because someone I loved loved them first. I am a mosaic of everyone I’ve ever loved, even for a heartbeat.

[suffering-tc]

Does a song ever remind you of someone?

Not because of the lyrics, or the mood, or the vibe.

It just feels so utterly them.

[lostmyhp]

hearing you mutter a goodbye when i walked out of the room today killed me. it was so small, and i keep replaying it in my head.

[i-willholdontoyou]

An update I wasn't asked for: we had a video call.

A few weeks ago he suggested to have a video call like we did back in July or Agust (I don't remember now) so I obviously accepted. It took us a while to find the right date. He has been busy and so have I, with online teaching and everything.

Anyways, we finally spoke last Friday. I must admit I was really anxious about it, I wasn't sure I really wanted to meet him. When he messaged me in the morning, I kinda wished it was to cancel once again, so when he confirmed I got even more nervous. Nevertheless, I went for it.

I did my hair and make up and when it was time, I got myself a cup of coffee and waited for him to call. My phone started ringing and my heart went crazy... and guys, when his face popped up in my screen I just felt like crying. He was smiling so sweetly and I like to think we both took our time to really see and just smile at each other before anyone said anything. He was first to speak. My heart skipped a bit. There was that voice I'd missed so much.

We talked about everything and nothing I guess. It felt like one of our coffee dates back when he was still here. And I thought I'd been the only one to feel it, but right after we hung up, he messaged saying: "i hope we get to do this next year at home. Coffee and Cake like before".

I just miss him sooo much, and I can't wait to finally have him here again 😭

[schwierigephase]

“Some people are going to leave, but that’s not the end of your story. That’s the end of their part in your story.”

— Unknown (via verbautezukunft)