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Maybe in another universe, I deserve you

[iamachocolover]

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It's been a long time since I felt confident in myself. Maybe because I see people around me have achieved so much while I'm just stuck in here. So, often, I doubt myself. Do I really deserve it here? Am I just a burden for my husband? Even though he always assures me that I'm not a burden, I'm enough. Sadly, often, the outsider's voice is louder than his.

And then, this competition happens. I got into the team, even though I'm just a replacement. I was still doubting myself until the announcement said our team had passed the selection and that we would go to Jakarta for the presentation. I'm happy. I am proud, but some discordant sound still asks me what I will do there. So, I'm constantly trying to prove my worth. And finally, the result is out. We won. We secured the grant. So, here I am. Kinda relief but still questioning my contribution :")

So, I posted it to remind myself. To, I don't know. Maybe just to write about it. So maybe, one day I'm doubting my self, I can see this post.

[iamachocolover]

some people value sorry so much, and some people simply dont

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Out of sight or Out of my mind?

Please both

[iamachocolover]

I Miss Us

I miss our conversation.

I miss our “I can tell you almost anything”

I miss our night short trip

I miss us

[iamachocolover]

Ease my heart

“Blessed is He in whose hand is dominion, and He is over all things competent-” The Holy Quran (67:01)

So, today. I’m so angry. No. I am even mad, not just angry. I’m so mad than I even just crying and cant says anything. So, when I'm praying Dzuhur, I just crying while praying. And silently screaming in my heart to take this pain, this anger. I do curse the person who made me mad since I’m not an angel my self and makes me feel a little better sometimes. Maybe, because I do feeling worried about my future lately, besides mad at this person, my eyes just can't stop crying. I’m silently sobbing. Begging to take this person away from my life, why must I’m the only one who suffering, why can’t this person feels the same as I am. And no, I DO NOT have unrequited love, thank you. Back to the story, after that, I became so mad to all people. To the world. My victim mentality turns on hahaha. And make me blaming everything, everyone.

After the madness, tired, I just pray please ease my heart. All this pain, anger, and disappointment. After praying, I do feeling a little bit better but I’m still mad at that person. 

But, after I pray Isya, my heart suddenly feels light after reading Surah Al-Mulk, especially after I read this verse. All of my worries, my resentment to the world, suddenly gone. My heart at ease and feeling so much better. And strangely, suddenly I’m feeling that I need to write about this. Especially about this verse. So, yeah. I'm still not very good at writing. My writing is a mess, I know (look at my thesis) but I still trying to write, especially in English about my thought or feeling like this. I just hope I’m consistent so this Tumblr doesn't look rusty hahaha.

See you later. I hope its soon.

[iamachocolover]

Welcome Back (?)

Wow.... time flies since the last Tumblr post and another re-blog? Repost? Idk haha. The last thing I posted in here, my writing or rambling I suppose, already 2 years old. My grammar became worse since I rarely writing something in English. Except when I’m mad at my husband. Hahahha

Oh yes. I’m married now. And have a little daughter who I adore and makes my head boiling at the same time.

I’ll try, and one of the resolutions that I make suddenly this month, is I need to write more. Especially in English. So, my skill doesn't get worse and worse. Since I hate writing for my thesis, I think I need to start small like writing on my Tumblr. Again. So... yeah

I hope I can stick with this new goal and I'll see you again I hope?

[st-pam]

[chanyeolli-deactivated20161127]

How much money did Suho burn???

Like this rich lil shit could care less about how much money he just roasted…

** just for fun, if you guys go behind me and check my math or challenge me on this I will hide. @slayeol​ this is for you because I couldn’t figure out your math last night.

Facts:

He is standing on 100$ bills.

He is 5′8″ or  173cm 

By comparing his height to the pile of money we can find out the height and width of the mound, and assuming its a circular pile we can calculate the volume.

In my picture I use the number of pixels to height of suho as ratio

291 pixels = 1 suho

793 pixels = width of huge money pile

236 pixels = height of huge money pile *rough guess*

so if 291 pixels = 5′8″ or 68 inches then the pile is 185.3 inches wide or 15′5″ feet or 469.9 cm. The pile is 55 inches high or  4′7″ or 139.7 cm heigh.

Do a little math here… Half the width or diameter is the ratio and that is 92.65 inches. To find the volume of the dome of cash he is standing on we have to do (4/3πr3) / 2 and that is  1665692.708 cubic inches. This is also 10746383.075 cm3 or 1074.638 meters3 or 11567.310 feet3. 

A dollar bill is 0.06890922 cubic inches. source

divide   1665692.708 by  0.06890922 and you get 24172277 bills. 

24172277 100 dollar bills is worth….. 

2,417,227,700.00 USD $

TWO BILLION 417 MILLION 227 THOUSAND 700 dollers! Thats 2,671,362,934,239.50 Won.

No… that’s not quite right.

[cherubine-deactivated20241230]

we do not only have detectives and investigators in our fandom we also have mathematicians and i think exo is proud of us

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IM DYING WHARZGXFHCG OMG ITS OK I FORGIVE YOU FOR THE MATH THIS IS AMAZING 

[eveexolove]

Please add one!! 

When your bias could pay off the entire fandom’s plane tickets and hotel in Korea for an Exo’rdium concert 

With money he burned.

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You’re welcome.

[sd1d-enthusiast]

it got better 

[iamachocolover]

Adopt me $uho hyung!!!

[sandandglass]

Mandy Patinkin on The Late Show, December 18, 2015

[just-shower-thoughts]

Imagine if someone handed you a box full of all the items you have lost throughout your life

[a-case-of-tragic-magic]

#it would be nice to get my sense of purpose back

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“Oh wow my childhood innocence! Thank you for finding this,”

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“my will to live! i haven’t seen this in 15 years!”

[ilikechildren--fried-deactivate]

“I knew I lost that potential somewhere!”

[tatt00ine]

“Mental stability, my old friend!”

[gay-armadillo]

[iamachocolover]

My happiness and trust!

[abdulhaqq-faaris-blog]

قدر It might take a year, it might take a day - but whatever Allaah has willed will always find its way.

(Source: mywonderswhy)

[iamachocolover]

Catch up!

Hi everyone who still kindly following me even though it looks like I'm in coma mode 😔

So, yeah. My life this year has so many up and down and I still grateful because I learn sooooo much this year. So last year I accepted at No 2 The-most-big-Accounting-Firm in my country and resigned after 5 month after. It because my body and my parents (especially Mom) can't handle crazy and-not-logical overtime schedule. I even got my first rawat inap aka admitted at hospital for the first in my life thanks to it. And so, my dad calls me home and I came back to Malang agaiiiin to pursue my master degree.

It's already my first semester for my master degree and I kinda overwhelmed with the task and so many things to do but don't have time. Maybe because I became too comfortable to being jobless and it kinda upset me. Because I still kinda lost and some of my task not really excellent ( you know how perfectionist I am).

I do being proposed this year like 4 times already this year. I do really wanna married too, but it seems Allah still want me to wait and being a good girl to my parents. I do kinda said yes to one of them but it's seems that I don't know. We kinda lost and All of my best friend said its a breakup sign (?) so I accept my single status again. Maybe I'll tell you again in another post for another long explanation.

I do have a few new friends. Some of my friends stay and others go. I do learn so many type of people this year. I do learn so many lessons about expecting thing from someone. Well, I think I do learn and maybe will still learning so many things this year. And I try to writing again as often as I can.

Well, I start to think about make another blog ( yeah I know I can't really handle this and another one but still) for beauty reviews. Why, because a lot of my friend already bitching me like for almost 10 months for me to make it. It's because everytime they wanna buy something or try something they almost always ask me about that product. And even though I buy so many make up and skincare, I still think it's too early for me to start a blog review buuuuuuut maybe I'll give it a try as soon as possible.

For @shinywoo , I'm so sorry for me to be super late to post drawing of me and another things you ask me (yes I still remember) but I'll try as soon as possible I will upload it soon. I'm so sorry 😔😭 So, yeah. That's it. I have to go to do another task.

See you soon.

[jennayliu]

There are two people you’ll meet in your life. One will run a finger down the index of who you are and jump straight to the parts of you that peak their interest. The other will take his or her time reading through every one of your chapters and maybe fold corners of you that inspired them most. You will meet these two people; it is a given. It is the third that you’ll never see coming. That one person who not only finishes your sentences, but keeps the book. 

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JANUARY BABY

Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive. Down-to-Earth. Stubborn. Repost this in 5 mins and you will meet someone new in 8 days that will perfectly balance your personality.

FEBRUARY BABY

Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever. Changing personality. Attractive. Sexiest out of everyone. Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest And loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Horny. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions. Repost this in 5 mins and you will talk to someone new and realize that you are a perfect match.

MARCH BABY

Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Observant and assesses others. If you repost this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your new love in 8 days.

APRIL BABY

Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous. Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does work well with others. Very confidant. Sensitive. Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and others. Understanding. Fun to be around. Outgoing. Hyper. Bubbly personality. Secretive. Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and traveling. Systematic. Hot but has brains. If you repost this in 5 mins, a cutie that’s caught your eye will introduce themselves and you will realize that you are very much alike in the next 2 days.

MAY BABY

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High-spirited. If you repost this in the next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone you do not speak too much in the next 4 days.

JUNE BABY

You’ve got the best personality and are an absolute pleasure to be around. You love to make new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt and more than likely have an a very attractive partner. a wicked hottie. It is also more than likely that you have a massive record collection. You have a great choice in films, and may one day become a famous actor/actress yourself - heck, you’ve got the looks for it!!! IN the next 6 days you will meet someone that may possibly become one of your closest friends, if you repost this in 5 minutes.

JULY BABY

Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. spazzy at times. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5 mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 days

AUGUST BABY

Outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on attention. No self-control. Kind hearted. Self-confident. Loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful. Easy to get along with and talk to. Has an “every thing’s peachy” attitude. Likes talking and singing. Loves music. Daydreamer. Easily distracted. Hates not being trusted. BIG imagination. Loves to be loved. Hates studying. in need of “that someone”. Longs for freedom. Rebellious when withheld or restricted. Lives by “no pain no gain” caring. Always a suspect. Playful. Mysterious. “charming” or “beautiful” to everyone. stubborn. curious. Independent. Strong willed. A fighter. Repost in 5 mins and you will meet the love of your life sometime next month.

SEPTEMBER BABY

Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have many friends. Enjoys to make love. Emotional. Stubborn. Hasty. Good memory. Moving, motivates oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore. Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can understand. If you do not repost this in the next 5 mins, someone very close to you will become mad at you in the next 8 days.

OCTOBER BABY

Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves to takes things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care to control emotions. Unpredictable. Extremely smart, but definitely the hottest AND sexiest of them all. repost this in 5 mins or you will not meet the love of your life for 10 years.

NOVEMBER BABY

Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. If you ever begin a relationship with someone from this month, hold on to them because their one of a kind. Repost in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming up sometime this month.

DECEMBER BABY

This straight-up means you are the most good-looking person possible… Better than all of these other months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive in everything. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to, though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision, yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding. Able to show character. One guy/girl kind of person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves music. Pretty/handsome. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Sensitive.

Scary accurate.

[iamachocolover]

Eyyy

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Heaven

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Thought via Path

No one can decide what someone else should do with their life. No one – Read on Path.

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What is your acne telling you?

1 & 2: Digestive System — Eat less processed or junk food, reduce the amount of fat in your diet, step up water intake and opt for cooling things like cucumbers.

3: Liver — Cut out the alcohol, greasy food and dairy. This is the zone where food allergies also show up first, so take a look at your ingredients. Besides all this, do 30 minutes of light exercise every day and get adequate sleep so your liver can rest.

4 & 5: Kidneys — Anything around the eyes (including dark circles) point to dehydration. Drink up!

6: Heart — Check your blood pressure (mine was slightly high) and Vitamin B levels. Decrease the intake of spicy or pungent food, cut down on meat and get more fresh air. Besides this, look into ways to lower cholesterol, like replacing “bad fats” with “good fats” such as Omegas 3 and 6 found in nuts, avocados, fish and flax seed. Also, since this area is chock-full of dilated pores, check that your makeup is not past its expiry date or is skin-clogging.

7 & 8: Kidneys — Again, drink up! And cut down on aerated drinks, coffee and alcohol as these will cause further dehydration.

Zone 9 & 10: Respiratory system — Do you smoke? Have allergies? This is your problem area for both. If neither of these is the issue, don’t let your body overheat, eat more cooling foods, cut down on sugar and get more fresh air. Also keep the body more alkaline by avoiding foods that make the body acidic (meat, dairy, alcohol, caffeine, sugar) and adding more alkalizing foods like green veggies and wheatgrass juice. Another thing that most of forget – dirty cell phones and pillow cases are two of the top acne culprits and this area is what they affect the most!

Zone 11 & 12: Hormones — This is the signature zone for stress and hormonal changes. And while both are sometimes unavoidable, you can decrease their effect by getting adequate sleep, drinking enough water, eating leafy veggies and keeping skin scrupulously clean. Another interesting point: breakouts in this area indicate when you are ovulating (and on which side).

Zone 13: Stomach — Step up the fibre intake, reduce the toxin overload and drink herbal teas to help with digestion.

14: Illness — Zits here can be a sign that your body is fighting bacteria to avoid illness. Give it a break, take a yoga class, take a nap, take time to breathe deeply, drink plenty of water and know that everything always works out!

So the next time you break out or notice dark under-eye circles, look to your face map: your skin is probably trying to communicate on behalf of the internal organs. However, do remember that, as with all medical issues, it is always best to see your doctor or dermotologist for a proper prognosis. This is just a general guide to head you off in the right investigative direction – just because you break out between the brows doesn’t always mean you have a bad liver!

[touchedbythehandofgoth-blog]

whoa. I’m keeping this.