In the mind of

Hi, I'm Julian. 22 yrs, Tx. University of Houston Photos of Me Meet Ups Facebook Me

[aureat]

[iamjayytrann]

I still find myself missing you.

It’s been about a week now since you’ve gotten the closure you thought you needed. Since that its been a roller coaster, more good days, but sometimes really bad ones. Last night you had a dream about her, nothing bad. No words exchanged, no anger, nothing. You just saw her in your dream, but when you looked at her you didn’t recognize the girl in front of you, like somehow she looked slightly different but you knew it was her. It’s obvious you still miss her. Your subconscious mind is trying to help you move on, but your heart can’t help  but to stay stuck. You still miss her that’s inevitable. Keep fighting for the good days. You are strong Julian.

[iamjayytrann]

Move on.

So you finally got the closer you needed. It’s time to move on. I know you are hurting right now, and that’s okay. Feel the hurt but don’t allow it to consume you. You have a long road ahead, keep fighting. A good friend once said, there will be good days, and there will be bad days. There will be days when it hurts you less, and there will be days where it hurts a bit more. You are only human Julian, its okay to feel. Feel everything, because in those moments, you gave a piece of yourself to someone and you deserve to feel for those pieces of your heart that you gave. 

[iamjayytrann]

Breakdowns.

You just had a break down today. You took a deep breath and all of a sudden tears came running down your eyes. Julian, you are okay. It’s okay to cry. Let these tears release this pint up emotions you have bottled up. You are going to get through this, and you are going to come out stronger because of it. If she doesn’t love you for you, then YOU need to love you, for YOU. Keep your head up, keep fighting. One day after the next.

[iamjayytrann]

Day 123812983 of quarantine.

I’m starting to feel a lot better after implementing these routines in my life. I still certainly miss you, but I can go on my days a bit easier not thinking about you constantly. I still struggle to sleep at night, no matter how much energy I try to burn in the day. Is this the new me? sleepless? tired but can’t sleep? I wish we could talk like we use too, but why am I begging for these simple pleasures..

[bpdtaem]

[iamjayytrann]

I woke up this morning feeling okay, but it’s only a matter of time before it all hits me again.. #diary

[iamjayytrann]

Is anyone even still on here?

#daily #quarantinevibes

[iamjayytrann]

I’ve been struggling to sleep at night, the voices are just too loud. Too many questions in my head. Why wasn’t I enough, where did I go wrong, what could I have done differently. Some of these things I’ll probably never get an answer too and I want to be okay with that. #diary

[iamjayytrann]

I have this heavy feeling in my chest, I feel like i can’t breath, as if the walls are closing in on me. I want to be okay, I want to be happy, I want to be loved, I just want to love myself. #diary

[comparting]

[grritskris]

said everyone in some kind of way when trying to breakup and not wanting them in their life right away

[caramelcoatedxxxtacy]

I knew I loved you when I started making excuses for the way you hurt me.

(via bruiised)

[psych-facts]

The best project you’ll ever work on is you.

Sonny Franco (via to-salsabeel)

[the-psycho-cutie-deactivated201]

I was just thinking about someone else touching you and now I can’t decide on whether I want to break their hands or my own.

i just want you all to myself, i’m sorry  (via geo-wee)

[thesoulpages]

I still can’t delete our texts.

Six Word Story - thesoulpages ((c.n.p))

[tendersadness]

I wanted you to fight for me and you didn’t.

10 word story (via despre-noi-doi)

[ladiscutee]

You do care. You care so much it’s eating you away. You hate the fact that you care so much but it’s the only thing you know how to do but you constantly lie to yourself just so you can get through the day.

//12:06. (via missinyouiskillingme)