CHICHA

I'm way beyond your typical girl. Conformity disgust me. Green minded but not horny. Straight forward but not straight. Frustrated musician and artist. Doctor in the making and everything else in between. Oh and... Yoga and ice cream.

[bncmld]

Saddest english word? "ALMOST"

I was ALMOST good for him. He was ALMOST inlove with me. We ALMOST made it. 💔💔

[iamkubangsakang]

I ALMOST died. Still a sad wor? Hmmm...

[kateoplis]

“Now every girl is expected to have Caucasian blue eyes, full Spanish lips, a classic button nose, hairless Asian skin with a California tan, a Jamaican dance hall ass, long Swedish legs, small Japanese feet, the abs of a lesbian gym owner, the hips of a nine-year-old boy, the arms of Michelle Obama, and doll tits.”

Tina Fey

100 Years of Body Ideals | More

[iamkubangsakang]

2016: An obligatory New Year Blog post.

2015 has been the most depressing year for me. I have never been depressed in my life as much as I did last year. And I’m leaving all of it behind.

Created new social media accounts, balak ko kasi magbago. BWAHAHA. Again. Lagi nalang. Pero eto different. A more mature self. No more playing games. I had fun playing last year. Wait. I’ll stop. Gradually. I can’t just stop completely. Hahaha. I know I can change the username nalang. Pero di e. Kahit yung username ko noon, immature like the other posts. I am not going to delete posts kasi I like looking back to what I used to be and be proud of what I am and will be.

I remember my New Year blog posts before always say that I don’t have a New Year Resolution. This time I do. My plans and goals have taken me away from this age of mine. I feel like adulthood is starting to kick in. Maybe it’s the effect of the events of 2015. I have been hurt way too much by way too many people.

I will still be active here though. Gagandahan ko lang feeds ko sa mga bagong account ko. Sobrang trashy e. Pati yung magiging bagong tumblr account ko. Will be like my past blog post. Hindi na basta lang. Hahaha. Dito yun. Yung rants, bashes and other drama. Kapag sensible na posts dun sa isa. Hahaha.

Actually, wala nako masabi. Isusulat ko pa kasi yung mga plans ko for the 2016. I know I should have done this a few days back, but may house crisis kami e. Ayun langs. Mehehe. Byeee 2015! 2016, here I come.

[dephus]

[israelmekaniko]

SUGGESTED CANDIDATES FOR THE NEXT ‘DARNA’ ROLE

Dahil hindi na daw matutuloy ang pagganap ni Angel Locsin bilang Darna dahil sa di umano’y health reasons, napabalitang marami daw artista ang gustong mag-audition para sa nasabing role.

What if si Kris Aquino,

 “OMGG!! Nakakaloka! Make abot the bato!! DARNA!!!!” 

 What if si Darla, 

“Ding! Ang bato! DAR… DARLAAA!!! 

 What if si Angelica Panganiban,

“Tangina Ding! Ang bato! DARNA!!!” 

 What if si Kim Chiu, 

“Ding! Ang bato!”

 “Wait.” 

“Parang ito na ata ang icing sa ibabaw ng cupcake ko.” 

What if si Vice Ganda, 

“Ding! Salamat sa Real and Organic na Bato. DARNA!” 

What if si Gretchen Barreto, 

“Ding. Where’s the swarovski?!?

What if si Jolina Magdangal,

Chuva Chuchu chuva chuchu. DARNA!!!

What if si Ryan Rems, 

 Ryan: “Ding! Ang bato.” 

 Ding: < gives shabu >

What if si Anne Curtis, 

 Anne: “Ding! Ang bato!” 

 Ding: “Ayaw.” 

 Anne: “I can buy you. Your friends and that bato!” 

What if si Tito Boy, 

 "Kaibigang Ding, ang bato. Now naaaaaaaaa" 

What if si Ate Charo, 

“Dear Ding,

Ang bato. 

Nagmamahal… 

….Darna.“ 

What if si Donnalyn Bartolome, 

Donna: “Ding! Ang bato!” 

Ding: ( throws the bato ) 

Donna: “HA-HA-HA-HA-PPY BREAK-UP SURPRISE!” 

What if si Ella Cruz, 

 Ella: “Ding! Ang bato!” 

 Ding: “Twerk muna!! Twerk muna!” 

 What if si Korina Sanchez, 

 Korina: “Ding! Ang tsinelas!” 

 Ding: “?!?” 

What if si Pastillas Girl,

Pastillas: “Ding. Ang bato!”

Ding: “Tangina mo. Mabulunan ka sana.” 

What if si Yaya Dub,

Yaya: …

What if si Lola Nidora, 

 Lola: “Ding! Ang chiwibol! 

 Ding: < throws the chiwibol. >

 Lola: Hindi pa ngayon. Sa #TamangPanahon.

[iamkubangsakang]

TITO BOY. :))

[lejayne-deactivated20180616]

Even after the breakup, I still care and I always will.

[maikoneen]

you were a flower with thorns a beauty with horns i still couldnt believe that this is true is it really me? or am i really inloved with you

[dephus]

The only reason why people hold onto memories so tight is because memories are the only things that don’t change, even when people do.

Unknown (via ohteenscanrelate)

[iamkubangsakang]

To the last guy I let to see through me.

I have so much to tell you ever since you left. You know I never trusted any guy as much I trusted you and I don’t think I can do that to anyone ever again. You’re my best friend and the best anyone could have.

You saw right through me. Every strength and weaknesses, every flaw without losing your respect for me. Only guy who I can be locked in a room without anything bad happening. You saw how I can break down about things no one can explain and you know how to make me feel better.

You made me feel secured. You’re literally the first and only person who’s just a call away. You were there when I’m at my lowest. May it be physically or not, you were there. You were there on so-so days. You were there when I think I’m happy. You were there. Always. But then again, you WERE there.

You’re the only person who actually knows how depressed I am with life and I never thought that you’d be one of the reasons for it. Because of you, I am now afraid to trust anyone as much as I trusted you with everything going on my life. There are times that I would think how much you’ll love to hear this and that or how much I wanted to tell you things because you’re the only one who knows what to say. But then again, I can’t anymore especially with the thought that you’re not there anymore as much as you were there before. I wanted to be mad at you. But I can’t. Because I know how much you tried to be there for me even if you’re doing your best to stay away.

Honestly, I’m lost with what happened to us. I don’t know why you seem to have distanced yourself from me and our friends. Maybe it’s my fault. Maybe I was too attached, too dependent that you’ll always make everything look better for me, too secured that you won’t leave and too selfish for not even thinking about your feelings. Or maybe because I was a coward for not admitting to myself that I fell in love with you. For not taking the risk the with you. I thought it was the most mature thing I did this year. Maybe I was wrong. I was so afraid to lose you but I lost you anyway. Maybe that’s why it hurt so much.

You were never “just” a best friend. You’re THE bestfriend. The guy every girl should have. I miss you. I assume you know that from the countless messages last month. I decided to stop PM’ing you because I thought maybe it’s time to let go. It’s time to live without you. I want to start my 2016 not thinking about you and how we used to be. But I really really miss you. Thanks for making my 2015 bearable. I love you. Always have, always will. Goodbye.

[iamkubangsakang]

It has been a long while my friend. #yogalove

[iamkubangsakang]

Just so I can let it out.

Honestly. I’m not even mad. Not even sure how I feel about it. Upset? I think. As far as I can remember, I didn’t forget to stress out how important birthdays are to me, especially mine. And that it’s the only time in the year that I’d ask and expect anything from anyone.

It’s not the material things that I’m fretting out about. FYI, I can go buy what I asked you to whenever I want to. I only asked you to get it for me just so it would have a sentimental value. It’s really the time and effort you could have put on to get it that matters to me. Call me selfish for not understanding how busy you were. But tell me, how is a 30-minute(at most) transaction gonna consume all your time from the moment I told you what I wanted? No. Wait. This question’s rhetorical. Because if it’s not, trust me, I may want to be a doctor, but I’m good as a lawyer. :P All I’m telling you is, if there’s a will, there’s a way. ;)

See I’m not even gonna throw everything I gave back at you and how much effort I put on it. That’s just not me. But I can’t always give too much. I have to take sometimes. It’s not like what I asked for is as much as I gave. But you could at least come close or a little over half way. You said you were afraid that this would happen. If you were in the first place, you won’t let this be.

Now my love, let’s be mature on this. And not fight about it anymore. It’s time consuming. And it’s something we both don’t have right now, diba? This why I made this. So there are no questions asked anymore. I just want you to accept the consequences of doing this. No. I am not mad. And yes, I’d still date you this Saturday and on the next (if you want to). Then I’d tell you what the consequence is. See you. :)

[iamkubangsakang]

Hey beautiful. 😍😘🐶 #candybaby

[iamkubangsakang]

Yung totoo...

Halata naman e. Ano ba talaga ako sayo? Yung pinipiem mo pagtinatamad ka lang magporn. Tang ina naman. Reciprocate.

[iamkubangsakang]

Still can't get over last week. 😍😍 I fart youuuuuu. #clickplayfest (at SMX Convention Center)

[iamkubangsakang]

Click Play Fest

I have to post this amidst the busy sched. Kahit alam kong di ko makakalimutan to. I take logs of the things I don’t want to forget.

So my youngest brother is an aspiring youtuber and the whole family supports him. So when I learned that certain youtubers are coming to Manila last September, ayun. bili agad kami ng ticket.

So ang pinunta ko dun si Ryan Higa. Hahaha. Sobrang saya ko. Imagine, I am a lamp since 2008. Siya lang pinapanood ko sa youtube before I knew that I could learn how to play the guitar through youtube. Ang saya. Although, we didn’t get to buy the VIP. Masaya naman. Kasi ang priceless ng moment. Di ko masyado napicture’an kasi I want to feel every moment and see everything with my own eyes. Kumanta pako when he sang Nice Guys. Sobrang saya talaga. <3

I bought a baller (for someone) then a shirt for myself. Proud lamp squad e. Tapos may poster pa. Tapos ayun nga. My brother also has this priceless look on this face. He was so happy too. As in. Sayang nga wala si Max (younger bro). We mised him. Sana hindi ito ang first time for us. Haha.

Una yung mga viner dun. Si Sam and Colby. Ang gwapo nila. Shet. <3 Bwahaha. Nakikita ko na sila. Tho not a super fan. Nung uwian na. Bumalik sila sa stage. And they were taking Snaps I think? or nagvivideo sila. Tapos konti nalang tao nun. So I shouted, “Hi Colby!” And he noticed me. OMG. I died.

Yung Cimorelli naman. They are singer sisters. Dream team ko yan. Kaya pagnagkaanak ako na puro babae, gagawin ko talagang singers yung mga yun e. Chaar.

Next is Ki Hong Lee. The actor from Running Man. I didn’t know he was there. ‘Cause I didn’t watch the movie. But I know him from youtube. Grabe. Mas gwapo siya ngayon and sobrang bait. Ugh. Sana talaga nagVIP kami. Haha. Dapat bibili ako nung cap niya. Kaso wala nang money. Huhuhu.

And then there’s David Choi. He’s one of my favorite youtubers na nagccover. I knew about it when I was 2nd or 3rd year hs. Grabe. Sobrang ganda ng boses niya live. Di ko alam na nagttour na pala siya dito. Pero shet. Sinerenade niya yung isang girl. sobrang nakakainggit. And ang panget kasi sinasnapchat niya almost the whole thing. Like, what? R u srs? Why aren’t you enjoying the moment? It’s not always you’ll have it. Tapos vivideohan mo lang. People nowadays.

Finale talaga si Ryan Higa. Pero ayun nga. Nauna siya sa part ng blog. Because... Well, he’s the main reason why I went there e. Lol.

[iamkubangsakang]

MAY MESSAGE NA TUMBLR?! OMG. IS THIS A SIGN NA MAGKAKARON NAKO NG MARAMING TUMBLR FRIENDS? :))

[iamkubangsakang]

Kapag kaya ko na, tetext ko na si Yako.

Yaaa. Kamusta? Di na kita nakikita lately a. Haha. It’s been a while huh? Forgive this lengthy message. But anyway, wala lang. In case you’re wondering, I’m okay now. :) I want you to know that I live by the lessons you taught me. Haha. Yun naman talaga diba? Kaya nga Yako. Hindi dahil sa pangalan mo. Pero kasi, “kuYa ko”. Oh well. Your Words of Wisdom helps me survive this depressing life of mine sometimes. Charing! Jk lang. :) Masaya nako. I hope you are too. I hope we can be “siblings” again. You know I look up to you pa din. Well I was your number 1 fan. :P Ganda ng girlfriend mo a! In fairness. Pipili ka ba ng panget? Haha. Looking forward to talking to you again and kwentooooo! Miss you Ya. :)