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//.  @icarusfcll  →   continued.

               ❝ god no !!  you’d have to knock me out and drag me back there,  never been so happy to be gone from there in my life … so of course i’m happy.  i guess it’s just kinda setting in,  we’re really doing this,  we’re starting OUR life together away from all that back in philly. ❞          hand reached out to hold onto bucky’s,  fingers lacing with opposing ones in a tightened,  warming embrace.  the last thing connor wanted was for his other half to think that he didn’t want this anymore,  that he was regretting the sudden need to up and get the hell out,  because he definitely wasn’t ;  if anything, he had never been happier in his entire life.          ❝ this is what i want … it’s what we both need. ❞      

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                                                        ⟦    SMILE BEAMS,  GLAD that happiness radiates from his boyfriend in immense waves,  a far contrast to several weeks prior whilst back in philly,   the looming cloud of his lecturer causing misery   &  torture to latch upon connor like vicious leeches.   bucky hated to see such expression upon beautiful features,   now beaming   &   aglow with the fresh start that lay ahead of them,   smile of his own unable to become shifted.   after all   ----   it was a change for the former asset too,   even if he had to leave his best friend behind . . . again.   perhaps a worthwhile sacrifice when all that matters is the man in front of him,   fingers squeezing affectionately upon the hand-hold taking place.   this,   with connor ??   is undoubtedly HOME   &   if the other male is happy,   then bucky follows suit;   contentment flourishing for the first time within veins,   once thought never to be experienced again.                                                            ❛  —-   NO MORE LOOKING over our shoulder,  worrying,  for both of us,   huh ??   we can just    ----   be ourselves,   together     ----    right ??   ❜  ⟧    

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//.  @icarusfcll  →   continued. 

               ❝ i’ll be fine,  always am,  ain’t i ?  i’ll be back here before you even know it,  won’t even know i’ve been gone.  only difference is i might have a couple extra scratches to add to the collection of failed attempts to attack me.  assholes will learn somehow. ❞         in all honesty,  blake hated to hear the worry in the others voice everytime he had to leave to deal with clients,  a night that would be filled with beatings,  fights,  threats and constant arguing over whats good,  whats not and why he had to do what needed to be done.  to other people,  this kind of lifestyle was a death wish,  but to blake ?  he craved the rush it gave him,  he enjoyed powering over people,  knowing that the small pouch he held in his hand was someone elses be all and end all,  and that they would do just about anything to get it from him.         ❝ i’ll be fine,  y'know i will,  buck.  no worryin,  you hear ?  i’ll be back soon. ❞

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                                                         ⟦      ❛  —-   RIGHT.  I’LL JUST stop then.   stop worrying,   stop caring.   ‘cause that’s why i worry,  blake,   ‘cause i god damn CARE.   that the man i lo   ----  ❜                                                           &  JUST LIKE that,   bucky wishes he had stopped worrying,   that he had stopped speaking before those jaded words are about to spill,   halted in their tracks perhaps too late for blake not to harness notice.    it is the truth though    ----   love,    even if the soldier once believed that he never would again,  the emotion slamming him hard in realization as the vocal had nearly tumbled.   only now he knows why he is so frightened of losing the other man on his  . . . job,   only now it’s beginning to nestle like tightly-wound pythons within his gut just how he can’t lose blake,    not even to the consequence of lightened scratches in failed attempts to attack him.   bucky doesn’t want to see the opposed HURT    ----   is that really such a bad thing ??   for someone to harness care,   &  . . . whatever other emotion had almost confessed itself into the open.    maybe it is,   for blake anyhow,   maybe he simply needs to back off.                                                             ❛  —-     NEVER-MIND.  JUST  ----  go,   i guess. ❜  ⟧

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crimescened :

i’ve thought about it and yes, i’d sell my soul & turn myself inside out to make sure no one i love ever gets hurt again

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“Good morning. No, don’t get up, it’s raining, let’s stay in bed a little longer…” - clark

↳  @securvs  →  ACCEPTING    ||   IT’S FALL !!

                                                         ⟦     BEATING OF DROPLETS upon the windowpane has awoken him,   blurred orbs adjusting to grogginess    &   exhaustion gazing towards the melodic noise,   smile beaming.   rain is his favorite weather,   the way it sounds,  relaxing neurons that are constantly on edge despite having someone that HELPS with such demons now;    it still provides a soothing relief to the stress regardless.   thus;  despite clark’s protests in staying within satin sheets,   bucky can’t    —-   a true SIN to humanity if he simply goes back to sleep within the warming embrace of his boyfriend,   allowing the rain to wash past them completely unnoticed.    maybe this is childish behavior,   odd,   for someone to care so much about RAIN but    —-   he does,  he always will,   washing away of the earth’s demons  much like he hopes it could erase his own,  even for a few moments.   with a small groan of complaint vibrating within hoarse throat,   boxer-covered frame ejects itself from the salvation of bed-sheets,   scarred bronzed skin exposed as bare feet pad upon the carpeted flooring,  destination bound for the window.  seconds before metallic  &   fleshy digits are palmed upon the glass,   smile ever widening as vision inhales the heavy downpour that occurs outside.                                                            ❛  —-   NO,   NO.   I can’t miss this     –   i wish it could rain all the time.  ❜ ⟧

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“*sneeze* Sorry, allergies.” - connor

↳  @securvs  →  ACCEPTING    ||   IT’S FALL !!

                                                         ⟦     THE FIRST SNEEZE of the day had startled bucky,   the second ??   concern rippling within fractured nerves,   the possibilities that perhaps connor harnessed a cold   or something similar raging in neurons;   yet the twentieth of the day coupling an excuse over allergies ??   now it just makes sense,   along with being undeniably CUTE.    the blush that coats upon the tip of his boyfriend’s nose,   the rosy cheeks,   the slight lisp that injects into allergy-ridden profile     —-   perhaps it is moronic for the soldier to smile over plaguing hay-fever but it dances none-the-less,   reminding him of a small punk from the forties that had exactly the same problem.   ❰    he was cute too;  bucky guesses it runs in the allergy-doused generation.  ❱   with a quaint chuckle pricking atmosphere,   calloused digits lean over towards the tissue box upon the living room counter,  one,  two,  three bound in his grasp before extending them towards connor.                                                            ❛  —-   I REALLY SHOULDN’T find you adorable,  should i.  ❜ ⟧

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“Come in here where it’s dry!” - mark

↳  @securvs  →  ACCEPTING    ||    IT’S FALL !!

                                                         ⟦  HE COULD DO that,   allowing himself the displeasure of walking inside the abode,   dry as a bone without a singular droplet of rain upon essence;   much like his boyfriend,   but what would be the FUN in that ??   the water gushing from heavy clouds beats manically upon bronzed skin,   the inflections of bright lights flashing within the sky evidence to the STORM on the horizon;   it’s chilly,   goose-bumps littering upon his exposed skin   &   yet,  bucky doesn’t care.   how can he ??   this is a moment where he feels undeniably    —-    FREE;   the beating of cold that patters upon his skin,   the refreshment of nature.    arms stretch out as profile gazes upwards towards the dousing,  gloomy abyss whilst beaming smile imprints itself strong.   why would he come inside,  when it’s simply AMAZING among the rain ??                                                            ❛  —-   BUT IT’S SO beautiful out here !!  y’should come feel !!  ❜ ⟧

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first. he touches you and you light on fire. your wrist blazes where his fingers meet your skin. the burns don’t show, but it’s hard to breathe with ash in your lungs. it’s so hard to breathe. you’re suffocating daily. second. it hurts to watch him. he shines. he’s brighter than the sun, he’s too beautiful for your eyes. it’s hard to look at him. it’s even harder to look away from him. you’re going blind. third. your ears are tuned to his voice. you could pick him out in a sea of thousands. his voice makes pretty singers who sing pretty songs sound dull. his voice makes everything else sound ugly. fourth. the color of his eyes is blue enough to drown in. he is turning you into a clichéd love-wrecked being. you’re drowning, always sinking. down, down, down. fifth. you know him. you love him. through a thousand lifetimes, across millions of stars, you’d find him, you’d never leave him. you love him, till death do you part. ( sixth. he loves you, too. )

five things you know and the one thing you don’t. 19/09/14

[bhucewayne]

I’m not a cop, I’m a reporter.

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Send 🍙 to see what kind of lunch my muse would pack for yours

[rp-pizza]

Fall Starters because I can't help myself 🍂🍁🌰🎃

[icarusfcll-blog]

rp-pizza :

“Let’s open some windows, okay?”

“It’s starting to rain…”

“Bring a jacket!”

“Do we really need to go to a pumpkin patch? Can’t we just buy one at Tesco?”

“You sound sick. Are you sick?”

“*sneeze* Sorry, allergies.”

“Wanna go out for Halloween?”

“Looks like it’s time to rake the leaves…”

“Come in here where it’s dry!”

“It’s dark?! Already?!”

“Ooh it’s chilly out.”

“Please, enough with the pumpkin spice.”

“Good morning. No, don’t get up, it’s raining, let’s stay in bed a little longer…”

[greelin]

“did it hurt?” “did what hurt?” “when you flew too close to the sun and were punished for your hubris?”

[xstrange]

              “   well, i can’t say that i’m overjoyed to see you here..   ”

@icarusfcll

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                                         ⟦   ❛  ----   NOBODY EVER IS. ❜   there is a try not to stop bitter.   ❛  ----   but i need y’help.   if you can give it. ❜   ⟧

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toerr :

                                      like  he’s  going  to  listen.             fingers  extend  over,           turning  his  skin  lightly  so  that  he  can  get  a  clear  look.            ❛     you’re  too  busy  watching  my  back  to  watch  your  own.     ❜          concern  touches  his  features,         as  per  usual.           ❛       that  doesn’t  exactly  look  GOOD.       ❜

                                            ⟦   ❛   DOES IT MATTER ??  ❜  stubborn,  oh how it paints itself in thick splotches within the atmosphere,   bucky fueling husked groans as gentle touch resides upon blood-stained skin.                                                ❛  I’LL BE FINE,   unfortunately.   s’long as the people i care about are safe    ----   y’know the shtick,  okay.  ❜   ⟧

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“How can something this beautiful exist in such a fucked up world?”

↳  @notacircusmonkey   →   IDK WHAT MEME.

                                                         ⟦  IT SURPRISES HIM immensely.   in a world savaged by chaos  &   corruption,  a future they once looked forward to only to end up HERE,  perhaps seeking beauty in the little things shouldn’t reside.   it shouldn’t nestle itself within their essence,   striking chords of humanity,   showing the cosmos who they really are beneath the layers of guilt   &   malice slapped upon them for decades gone by.   at least,   not for bucky    &   his viewpoint anyway.   there is almost the desire to state it’s just a flower,  steve   but it’s not;   it’s not JUST anything,   &   the soldier knows that.   it’s so much more.   the beacon of salvation whilst the world crumbles around them.    something so beautiful now that they have landed themselves in the era of hell     —-     someone,   bucky doesn’t want to go down THAT road.                                                          ❛  —-   I DON’T KNOW.  think i ask myself that question every damn day,   stevie.  ❜ ⟧

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↳  @starksprincess  →   ACCEPTING     |   ICON STYLE MEME

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“You feel as bad as you look?”

↳  @dissolvedshadows    →   IDK WHAT MEME.

                                                         ⟦  THE GRANDEST LIE;   simmering up toxins within the depths of essence,  i’m fine,  i’m fine,  i’m fine when soldier truly feels himself unraveling at the seams.   perhaps that is obvious,   it’s already been pointed out to him   –   deepened lines of exhaustion concreted within calloused profile;   weary orbs barely able to stay open in revealing once-glistening auburn hues,  now turned gray  &  dulled;   frown lines the cause for the dimples upon darkened skin.   bucky is tired,   so god damn tired,   along with the rest.   he saves others the burden of knowing however,   he PROTECTS them from sympathy pleas   &   pity parties that may wish to dance from their presence,    offering company  &   advice that he doesn’t deserve.   the grandest lie   &   yet he can’t even look at her,   listening as it falls like repeated mantras from chapped lips.                                                          ❛  —-   I’M FINE.  GUESS i just look bad.   ❜  ⟧

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“As long as it doesn’t involve petroleum jelly and rubber gloves, I’m ready.”

↳  @dontdoboyfriends​    →   IDK WHAT MEME.

                                                         ⟦  THAT’S THE SPIRIT ??  though petroleum jelly   &  rubber gloves,   why would bucky involve those into the mix ??   seems like a random concoction   &    —-  no,   he isn’t about to ask,    save for any INNOCENCE that might be lurking within fractured neurons.    the frowned creases upon bronze skin relax,   prompting words from supple flesh as bourbon hues gaze towards the challenge.   wooden,   barely-holding itself together coaster residing on coney island;   allies   &  friends alike scared,   unwilling to join bucky upon the attraction,   so now ??   it’s the man named connor’s turn.                                                         ❛  Y’KNOW,   IT’S FINE if you wanna chicken out.   i hear law students ain’t too brave anyhow.   ❜   cue the small smirk embellishing into flesh,   teasing,  playing of course.   ⟧