Every time I think I'm over it, it turns out that I'm not. Every meal time has its own risks. I avoided all social meals for years before now. And now, I sit, at a birthday meal. Worried that I won't be able to eat all the food put on my plate. Or that I'll eat too much and throw up. Or I won't eat enough. Fucks sake. I just can't get over it I just can't










