barely holding myself together..

23 transman he/him. Gay and committed. A fucking mess and need people to talk to. csa survivor, hypersexual, ADHD, anxious, depressed, suicidal. sorry for the sad shit, I vent here

[ojibwa]

wow i just cant take this anymore *continues to take it*

[innocencelives]

[nuclearparade]

You know I’m not always proud of what my libido wants but at least I’ve never wanted to fuck Pennywise.

[mega-faunaa]

[viiperboy]

punching bag

[cptsdraw]

[sonelion-deactivated20180317]

[booksandcows]

[adekid]

now you are just as dirty as them

[bpdgoner]

them: i love you

me: that’s nice however that is Impossible™ considering i am, to the very core, fundamentally unloveable

[sadinternetloser]

I am not a good person and do not deserve any good.

[ifuckinsuc]

I really need someone to talk with..

This is all new for me but I remembered something a few nights ago. I've been trying to just ignore it but my body feels like it's going to be sick. I already threw up one morning and since then I haven't been able to shake the nausea. My therapist is out of town and I dont know what to do to help. I just want to shake this fear and utter disgust. I feel fucking dirty..

[etteraths]

[it-is-i-the-frenshiest-fry]

[rotting-milk]

look at me like that

(only csa/cocsa/trauma survivors interact)

[gothgirlthicc-deactivated201811]

You ever get the urge to just ruin your life? Start drinking, smoking, doing hard drugs. Telling everyone you know to fuck off. Cut until you’re covered with angry marks. You know it won’t help anything. But you can’t help but dream about it.

[traumartist]

dont dont dont dont