i'm on rent in my body

@ilcnv

- ̗̀ ilona nadia abbas-erdei ̖́- hungarian arab - 26 - lady-in-waiting i'm on rent in my body, i can't keep the landlord happy, i don't pay what i OWE, i trash the place too often, it doesn't matter: the walls have been cracking for years now, and the paint has FADED, i trash the place too often, it's what i DO.

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giorxcci

𝑵𝒆𝒙𝒕 𝑮𝒆𝒏𝒆𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒊𝒐𝒏 –– – 𝐇𝐨𝐮𝐬𝐞 𝐨𝐟 𝐀𝐛𝐛𝐚𝐬-𝐄𝐫𝐝𝐞𝐢

𝐟𝐭. @ilcnv

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extra hcs !

ilona would have considered all options before deciding to keep sofi. what convinced her to take a chance ? her new bff gaia for sure. ilona would have looked at gaia and thought “hey if she can do it, so can i lol”

gaia’s the godmother

ilona probably would have dragged baby sofi all over the world and probably after sofi turned three, ilona would have rekindled her thing with viveka.

so vivi definitely would have been sofi’s stepmom asnfjkdgnsdjka probably much to gio’s dismay lmao

ilona would have matured alongside zsofia. being a mom brought stability into her life that she hadn’t thought she’d find.

i think when zsofia needed to go to italy, ilona decided that it was just a poison she’d have to drink for her daughter. convincing viveka wouldn’t have been that hard probably --- and at that point the vilona kids would have been old enough to start school.

#giorxcci

iamthecrime

#[ music ]#this is 100% her anthem

me: *starts thinking about the main points of my characters’ psyche* me: *realizes ennio and ilona are practically the same character with different childhood traumas and jobs*

smh

#hshqooc

elysefz‌:

Ilona made it sound nice. Elyse still through it sounded terrifying. “I suppose. I guess I’ve always looked at relationships as something that ends. One of you is going to disappoint the other eventually.” She looked down at her hands, self-conscious. “Maybe I’ve just had a lot of bad experiences. Dated the wrong people.”

“I literally don’t mean to sound rude but that’s probably something you should talk to a therapist about. It’s clearly an issue.” The pot was calling the kettle black. Ilona could recognize her own destructive behaviour just a moment too late but rarely worked to improve herself. “How does that one quote go... ‘The marks humans leave are most often scars.’” Close enough. “No reason to be afraid of commitment though. Especially if you’re afraid of the other somehow letting you down.”

#[ elyse zollern ]#[ elyse zollern 007 ]

gigi-hadid-fashion

#[ visage ]

elysefz‌:

“Yes, I admit. I don’t travel a lot. Germany is plenty big for me.” She tilted her head, “You made it sound so nice and easy. You don’t think it sounds confining. I don’t know. Marriage always sounds so… constricting and vulnerable.”

“Absolutely not. It’d be nice to know that someone picked you. You’re... you’re what they want. You aren’t supposed to have an expiration date. Isn’t that why people date? To find the one person they want to keep around?”

#[ elyse zollern ]#[ elyse zollern 007 ]

gaiafarnese

“ oh yeah, i absolutely love the fanmail he gets… i mean look at this one: a cartoon character ! sometimes they come with a small trinket or something else that’s cute. save the creepiest letters, please. they make good stories. “ ( @ilcnv )

ilcnv

“So I assume he doesn’t touch this stuff?” Ilona asked as she inspected the pile of love letters. “What are the perks of this job? Do we get to keep those trinkets and cute things?” She ripped open the first letter. “What is the creepiest thing you’ve read so far?”

#[ gaia farnese ]

imperialsabrina‌:

“hm. because i’m concerned about what is appropriate.” she rolled her eyes and grabbed a drink from the trays being passed around. “well that’s shocking.”

Fine. If she wanted it to be like that, two could play the game. “Oh you thought I did it for you?” Ilona offered the girl a sympathetic smile. “Darling...”

#[ sabrina yi ]#[ sabrina yi 001 ]

highnessaisling‌:

❝ We would have made the prettiest flag. ❞ Aisling laughed. ❝ I’ll ask Vivi if she needs help representing the mother land. ❞ Her friend would probably be amused by Ilona and Aisling enacting the flag. ❝ My name is Aisling. ❞ Some royals might have been offended that someone did not recognise them but the Irish princess could not care less. She knew well enough that she was not important nor a recognisable face. ❝ Nice to meet you. ❞ She extended her hand in case the other woman would want to shake it.

Ilona’s happy expression froze into place for a second at the mention of the Swede. Soon enough she managed to get chirpy laughter out of herself. “She’d probably appreciate it.” Even if she didn’t, they could always find the Sun of Sweden, the littlest of Bernadottes would accept them with open arms. “Aisling, that’s a cute name. Mine’s Ilona. I-lo-na.” It usually took people a few repeats before they could pronounce it even somewhat correctly. She shook the girl’s hand. “Very nice to meet you too.”

#[ aisling uí brúin ai ]#[ aisling uí brúin ai 001 ]

imperialsabrina‌:

“cute?” sabrina asked, disgruntled. “whatever,” she said, dismissing any witty remark she was about to say. “you look amazing- just darling.” she glanced over ilona. “yellow looks so good on you.”

“Saying ‘hot’ seemed inappropriate,” Ilona pointed out before letting a trademark grin appear on her face. Saying the first thing that came to your mind was always the best way to make an awkward situation even worse. “Why, thank you. I do try not to look ugly.” The compliment was unexpected but it made her smile a tad more genuine. Perhaps Sabrina was one to forgive and forget easily.

#[ sabrina yi ]#[ sabrina yi 001 ]

elysefz‌:

Elyse looked around the room like she was looking for the person that Ilona was actually talking to before she placed her glass down on a passing tray. “Yes, alright. I could do one dance,” she couldn’t help but smile. If Ilona asked her nicely she’d probably dance all night. “But if anyone is getting dipped it’s you. This tiara took 20 minutes to pin into my hair and my stylist went to bed already.” She held out her hand for Ilona, graceful and regal.

“A dip? To this music? Very difficult to accomplish.” Truthfully she believed she was in a much better position to be dancing to non-classical music than Elyse. As beautiful as the duchess’s dress was, it did restrict her to a certain degree. “If the tiara doesn’t fall onto the floor, you aren’t dancing hard enough,” Ilona told her as she grabbed her by the hand and pulled her along towards the dance floor.

#[ elyse zollern ]#[ elyse zollern 007 ]

“Don’t you look cute!” she exclaimed when she realized she had been caught staring. The smile she forced onto her face was far from genuine --- she wasn’t sure how warm a welcome she’d receive from Sabrina. [ @imperialsabrina ]

#[ sabrina yi ]#[ sabrina yi 001 ]

“I want one dance. This music is perfect for dancing. Literally for the first time I don’t have to listen to those dull notes of waltz. Can you step outside of your comfort zone?” [ @elysefz ]

#[ elyse zollern ]#[ elyse zollern 007 ]

“You know, if you and I had entered the room at the same time, someone might have thought that we were dressed up as the Swedish flag,” Ilona chuckled as she sat next to princess dressed in the monochrome gown. “You the blue and I the yellow. Now, what’s your actual name, otherwise I’ll end up calling you blue... or teal as it is more accurate.” [ @highnessaisling ]

#[ aisling uí brúin ai ]#[ aislinf uí brúin ai 001 ]

lmk if i can write u a starter 💕