Vent Blog

Blog for my venting moments. No I'm not okay.

[ill-just-let-go]

Feeling like a ghost, they know I’m here yet I feel invisible

[thiabeagoodgirl]

i will forever be the hurting child, the angry teenager and the lonely adult.

[bpdohwhatajoy]

Been chasing a sense of belonging that doesn’t exist

[sa-dnesss]

“This is the loneliest I have ever felt”

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[sa-dnesss]

nobody talks about the fact that you can have all this crazy shit in your head, and want to open up and talk about your feelings but no matter what, you just can't make out the right words and properly put your thoughts and emotions into words

[ill-just-let-go]

I think I’m starting to feel the feeling of being ignored again

Not ignored like I don’t like you

But ignored like almost oblivious or forgotten

Neglected would be another word for it I suppose

Basically I feel like I’m not getting some needs met. But they’re not needed for survival, it’s purely almost like self care from my partner, attention perhaps ? I’m not sure

I’m writing this here because it’s almost like a journal entry for me.

[bpdohwhatajoy]

The cycle of getting attached to people who love bomb you and give you attention and get you attached only for them to rip it away and make you feel worthless. Then it’s you still putting in the effort and making them feel important while you feel like a pest that annoys them. It’s always a matter of time until any relationship reaches this point.

[bpdamn]

taking e v e r y t h i n g as a sign of rejection sure is one hell of a ride

[sa-dnesss]

“I feel like I am so far behind in life that I will never catch up. Everyone is doing so many things with their lives. I am just here. Frozen. I have been a ghost for years. I wonder if that is all I will ever be.”

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[sa-dnesss]

“I do not like who I am. There is nothing good about me anymore. I am sick of wasting my time. I am worn out, I am really tired.”

— there is no point of me being here if I am not doing anything useful

[ill-just-let-go]

Sometimes I wonder if your feelings are real, or if you’re forcing them to be there

It feels like theyre not real, it feels like a toleration

It’s hard to tell, sometimes you feel bright, sometimes you feel overcast

They probably were real before, but now I’m not so sure

[cryptid-corpse]

Reblog if there's something wrong with you

[ill-just-let-go]

It’s going to happen one day… and no one will even know why

They probably never really cared anyway

[ill-just-let-go]

It’s fine to feel emotions from when you were hurting.. but why do I still hurt from it like it was yesterday

[pglang]

this chapter of my life is called (damn bitch you sure you’re alright?)

[kipplekipple]

“I don’t want to die, I just don’t want to exist any more” sounds mild if you’ve never experienced it, but it is in fact a horrible, violent way to feel.

[ill-just-let-go]

As much as I want to allow myself to be depressed, I can’t. I’m a fucking adult who has to do adult things and I don’t even have time to be sad anymore.

The darkness is still there, in my headspace, just floating there, slowly overtaking my daytime thoughts until I eventually sleep.

Unfortunately for me, the darkness knows no boundaries. It invaded my sleep-space, darkening my peripheral vision until I wake up suffocating.

My chest hurts when it gets really dark.