is this fate?

put the oil in, light the lamp and let blood flow through rusty words.

[bugsnax]

NIKO 28 yrs (9/3/97) bi / ace? + nb (tme) they/them korean-american adoptee

CARRD / DIRECTORY

i do all sorts of stupid and gay shit

[thememedaddy]

[bugsnax]

does anyone have any tips for spacing out your hair washes? ive been washing my hair every other day ever since i started working fulltime and now my scalp is so dry bc of it :(

my hair also gets greasy really fast (bc its been overwashed) but is it counterproductive to get it wet without washing it in the shower? all the guides online say to wear a shower cap between washes but i'm p sure if i dont at least rinse my hair every other day its going to get So greasy :/

[thinlyveiledmurderthreat]

just really sad seeing another transmasc artist fall into the transandrophobia pipeline as well as imply some really terfy shit ( sex based oppression/"how society treats afabs" ignoring how it treats transfems ) so just a reminder:

"transandrophobia" is not harmful because acknowledging transmasc oppression is bad. "transandrophobia" is harmful because it pins - and was coined with the intent to pin - the blame for transmasc oppression on a unique prejudice of masculinity which does not systemically exist and thus discussions in its name completely miss the systemic transphobia we go through and why it happens, not to mention the transmisogyny at the root of the movement which is why so much of its theory cites sex-based oppression and assumes facing misogyny is a matter of being cafab vs camab.

of course we're erased and marginalized. but the word for men's transphobia in a male-dominated society is transphobia. and for god's sakes don't call women's transphobia men's transphobia.

[bugsnax]

i love percy so much but i slept like ASS last night because he decided to lay on top of me for most of the night 😭

[glasseels]

[holyisthenameofmyruthlessaxe]

after a suicide attempt in 2016

[holyisthenameofmyruthlessaxe]

“When Daddy comes in, he carries you to bed. Is there anything you feel like you could eat, Pokey? Anything at all? All you can imagine putting in your mouth is a cold plum, one with really tight skin on the outside but gum-shocking sweetness inside. And he and your mother discuss where he might find some this late in the season. Mother says hell I don’t know. Further north, I’d guess. The next morning, you wake up in your bed and sit up. Mother says, Pete, I think she’s up. He hollers in, You ready for breakfast, Pokey. Then he comes in grinning, still in his work clothes from the night before. He’s holding a farm bushel. The plums he empties onto the bed river toward you through folds in the quilt. If you stacked them up, they’d fill the deepest bin at the Piggly Wiggly. Damned if I didn’t get the urge to drive to Arkansas last night, he says. Your mother stands behind him saying he’s pure USDA crazy. Fort Smith, Arkansas. Found a roadside stand out there with a feller selling plums. And I says, Buddy, I got a little girl sick back in Texas. She’s got a hanker for plums and ain’t nothing else gonna do. It’s when you sink your teeth into the plum that you make a promise. The skin is still warm from riding in the sun in Daddy’s truck, and the nectar runs down your chin. And you snap out of it. Or are snapped out of it. Never again will you lay a hand against yourself, not so long as there are plums to eat and somebody-anybody-who gives enough of a damn to haul them to you. So long as you bear the least nibblet of love for any other creature in this dark world, though in love portions are never stingy. There are no smidgens or pinches, only rolling abundance. That’s how you acquire the resolution for survival that the coming years are about to demand. You don’t earn it. It’s given.”

excerpt from Cherry by Mary Karr, context being after a suicide attempt at age 13

[elfwreck]

Some context: Texas and Arkansas share a corner border. Now, Texas is FECKING HUGE and there are many, many parts of Texas that cannot visit Arkansas overnight, but there are parts where it’s no trouble at all.

However, those places of Texas that are close to Arkansas, do not include “close to Fort Smith, Arkansas.”

The closest Texas gets to Fort Smith is about 185 miles (about 300km), at “a little closer than Texarkana.” (Dallas, fwiw, is about 275 miles/450km from Fort Smith.)

So the dad in this story drove at least SEVEN HOURS round trip, to pick up a bushel of plums for his little girl, in the hope that some almost-out-of-season fruit would convince her to go on living.

[aeternatv]

So I looked up the author of this book, Cherry, and it’s a memoir. Mary Kate grew up in Groves, Texas. Which is nowhere near the Arkansas border.

Seven hours wouldn’t even get you all the way there.

[catmask]

everybodys got a friend who lives with a rabbit like nervousness justified as a survival mechanic that has yet to be disproved by death physical or metaphorical and so remains untouched and self fulfilling

[bugsnax]

just realized i've been overwashing my hair and i'm mad i didn't realize this sooner ._.

[valtsv]

"here's my original character, Man Who Sucks But Loves His Daughter Very Much" and it's a guy who worships at the altar of patriarchal violence and the woman he uses as an excuse and an effigy to absolve him

[valtsv]

well i think his daughter should tell him to kill himself

[kijosakka]

when youre speaking outloud and you say something in the wrong tone/cadence/misunderstand something/you speak too loudly/etc and it feels like fucking up a combo in a rhythm game

[perequiste]

things will work out + it’s still early + not everything is lost + trees

[transjudas]

never take for granted the moments when you’re not nauseous

[bugsnax]

my brain granted me an epiphany

[segamascott]

baby's first bruh moment

[t00thpasteface]

sorry to everyone out there who thinks they have the funniest tshirt but i think i can confidently say i just saw the actual funniest tshirt just now. i passed by a beautiful black woman with long multicolor braids blowing majestically in the beach breeze & she was wearing an oversized tshirt that said in gigantic letters "WHITE BOY OF THE YEAR"

[bugsnax]

im going to attack someone

got dragged to a grad party bc "we'll just be 1 hr, 2 hrs max!"

THREE

MOTHERFUCKING

HOURS

and we arent leaving anytime soon

[bugsnax]

its also been downpouring for two hours and weve been outside under a tent........ive just been playing balatro :(