im sinewave (it/he/she/any neopronouns) :^) i have bpd, audhd, cptsd, DID(?), OCD, and a few other things, as well as physical disabilities.
who is this blog for?
anyone with a cluster B disorder (or another stigmatized disorder, but mostly cluster B) and their loved ones.
before you follow...
narc abuse isn't real. pwNPD (and BPD/HPD) are just people who have a trauma disorder. they're not inherently abusive. using the word "narcissist" as a derogatory term contributes to the stigma.
if you HAVE experienced abuse, you are always valid and loved. please use language that stigmatizes ABUSE, not personality disorders.
i would never say your abuse didn't happen. only that it isn't people with trauma disorder's fault that it happened.
i am not a doctor or psychiatrist. that being said my asks are always open even if i'm too tired to get to it (cfs/pots/heds/whatever my issue is).
i don't do syscourse. there is no "one correct way" to be plural. the human brain is complex and vast and psychiatry has been cruel to people with trauma disorders or "non typical" brains. keep this in mind. mad pride <3
i post in "narc abuse" tags because i want to target the source of ableism. i want to say though that you shouldn't go into these tags. do not bother these people. assume ignorance instead of malice. and also the things they say will likely just hurt you.
remember that i love you. please be nice to yourself
intended for 18+
terms and tags (under cut)
pw(abreviation) - shorthand for "people with". i.e "pwNPD"
NPD - Narcissistic personality disorder
BPD - borderline personality disorder
HPD - histrionic personality disorder
(C)PTSD - (complex) post traumatic stress disorder
ASPD - antisocial personality disorder (often confused with ASD, which is autistic spectrum disorder)
FP - favorite person
if you need any more terms or abbreviations explained, send me an ask!
tags
#not cluster b - unrelated posts
#not mine - reblogs mostly
#not described - includes images with no alt text or descriptions/inaccessible posts
#described - includes images that are accessible to those with screen readers
strong criticism of therapy, psychiatry, the medical industry in general, pharmaceuticals
criticizing overprescribing potentially harmful medications like SSRIs instead of addressing core issues or trying other, less side effect heavy medications
defending marginalized people and calling out all bigotry, especially racism and queerphobia
stopping stigma against people with disorders like NPD, BPD, HPD, ASPD, POCD, OCD, ZOCD, and Plural people, ect.
fighting for mad pride, bodily autonomy, and EVERYONE'S right to be who they are
understanding power imbalances and abuse in the therapist's office
calling out the DSM for it's ableism, transphobia, racism, ect as well as understanding that it isn't the Final Say of mental illness or what a diagnosis is
not pushing a "one size fits all" method to mental health (i.e, talk therapy and medication and if that doesn't work then you're broken go be institutionalized)
accepting change, scientific growth, and changing/rebuilding the medical systems in place that have been used to torture mentally ill people (ESPECIALLY BLACK PEOPLE!) for decades, because everyone deserves safety.
exposing the long history of abuse in mental health
facilities and being against forced institutionalization and "ugly law" rhetoric
understanding that "doctor" "psychiatrist" and "therapist" are simply jobs upheld by regular human beings and those human beings can be wonderful or abusive, and wanting a positive change to keep vulnerable people safe and bring advocacy to them.
what it isnt:
saying all medication is harmful and that no one should take meds
saying all doctors are literally evil and we don't need them
saying that therapy is inherently unhelpful
anti-recovery
making excuses for mentally ill people that do immoral/awful things
saying your diagnosis isn't real or valid
saying your trauma isn't real or valid
saying neurodivergent people are inherently better or worse
wanting to get rid of ALL therapists and doctors
yes! for many people therapy is helpful and lifesaving, but for stigmatized people, its traumatizing and hurts them. also, the system is too underfunded to actually enforce proper practices of mental health care or even update various old diagnosis/entries in the DSM/whatever. that, or no one cares or has the interest to do further study.
therapists are just human beings with their own biases. i feel this way towards the physical doctor side of healthcare too.
it boils down to "healthcare companies fuck everyone over but especially the mentally ill/disabled and they hold back progress" and "capitalism evil" lol
ohhh i had a doctor's appointment so i get to be on my meds again :) I'll feel much better after which is nice... i def have POTS though. not fun but we ball.... it's ok i will Survive.. Thrive even...
ive been seeing people defending ppw/NPD in the comments against "narc abuse" bullshit a lot and it brings me joy... so that being said, sociopath/psychopath are NOT REAL TERMS and they are NOT DIAGNOSABLE!! narc abuse is EMOTIONAL abuse, people with NPD are not inherently abusive and to say otherwise is ABLEISM!!!!!!!
Mechanic (Demeas)- Demeas, son of Democrates, was born and raised in Syracuse. He comes from a long line of intellectuals and inventors. He sawed off his arm and replaced it with a complicated prosthetic to prove a point. Demeas is a hard worker and often loses track of time while working on his projects. He is friendly when around people and likes to cook for his teammates. He, Taran, and Haribert work together a lot and bond over a shared love of science. He wears light, loose-fitting clothing since his role has little combat. He wears a sundial that was passed down through the generations. When I drew him with a beard, I did not intend for him to look like Socrates, but here we are.
Spear bearer (Menecreates)- Menecreates left his mother and sisters in Mytilene to earn some money and kill people. His spears are heavy, and he takes care of (and names) each one. He is soft spoken and intelligent, but also violent. His shield serves as decoration more than protection. He works well with most of the other mercs and tolerates Ireneus. He spends his free time polishing his spears or talking with Haribert. His father was killed in the Mytilenean revolt, and he feels a sense of responsibility to protect his family. His dialect is very different from the more "central" ones the others have, which causes some language barrier.
Observer- The observer is an Athenian spy. He does not share personal information. He is one of the more isolated group members, and he has no problem with that. He wears fine linen and soft leather sandals that allow him to move quietly. He used to wear lots of oils and perfumes, but had to stop because enemies could smell him before he could backstab them. He relies on a small dagger to get the job done. In terms of relationships, he has more enemies than friends. He has a little in common with Haribert and Demeas, and sometimes fraternizes with them. He butts heads with Ireneus a lot.
Chemist (Taran)- As a chemist, Taran uses his knowledge to create various combustible substances and brew beer. He lost his eye in an explosion, but he is still just as dangerous without depth perception. He wears bronze armor, a tunic, and a cape, which is a lot for the Mediterranean, but he looks cool, and that's all that really matters. He is friendly with the enemy hoplite and often sneaks out to hang out with him.
Surgeon (Haribert Hludwig)- Haribert came from Germania to study Greek forms of medicine, and also to flee the penalties for medical malpractice. He wears a cloak and chiton, which he dries his hands on, but in the cases where he goes on the battlefield, he wears more protective armor. Since this is taking place (very roughly) around the 400 bcs and Archimedes (the person) lived around 200 years later, Archimedes (the dove) is not named after him. It's just a coincidence. Medic's prescription is pretty low, so he doesn't wear glasses, even though Demeas offered. He is happy just to experiment in his iatreion, tend to the doves, or chat with Menecreates.
Archer (Milon)- Milon was abandoned by his Cretan parents and found and raised by a Spartan couple. They tried their best to raise him as a hoplite, but his Cretan aim prevailed. He is patient and cautious in battle, which translates to his behavior out of battle. He and Ireneus "hang out" often, which basically constitutes Ireneus running around while Milon whittles. He is polite with the rest of the team. He and his parents exchange letters often. They don't agree with his lifestyle, but they love him nonetheless. He usually wears light linen and leather boots, given that he is a ranged fighter and there is less of a need for heavy armor. He has a water bladder for various liquids.
Foot soldier (Irene)- Irene is a Spartan hoplite. He was actually born underweight, and his parents abandoned him. Despite that, he somehow survived and became a Spartan hoplite. He has brain damage from past head trauma and other psychological issues, which have a huge impact on his personal relationships. He also has ear damage. He surprisingly gets along well with the other mercs, so long as they keep telling him that they are Spartans. He wears heavy armor, which is both protection and a symbol of honor. He rarely takes his helmet off, and he even sleeps in it sometimes.
Courier (Ireneus)- Ireneus has an Athenian father and a Corcyrean mother. He doesn't know his father's identity, only that he is Athenian, which he resents. He prides himself on his "λαγνεία βόμβος" tattoo, which he bears in honor of his idol Timaeus Jonas. He wears two small sticks with unique notches as a form of identification, aka dog tags. He doesn't wear shoes (against the Observer's demands) since footwear gives him blisters.
Fire-bearer- The fire-bearer wears a Greek chorus mask and bandages, either to hide nasty burn scars or their identity. No one on the team knows where they came from or their name. They (mis)use an incense burner by swinging it in a way to oxygenate the flames. They stick close to Irene and Ireneus, but are not at all opposed to playing with the other mercs or bothering the Observer.
I pumped this out pretty quickly, but I'm happy to answer questions/just talk about the au!! I understand that there are some inaccuracies, some of those are intentional. I'm really excited about this...
I should finish the side characters' designs today or tomorrow.
Just because you did something wrong in the past doesn’t mean you can’t advocate against it now. It doesn’t make you a hypocrite. You just grew. Don’t let people use your past to invalidate your current mindset.
cluster b people are not responsible for baring the weight of your (general, directed at neurotypical/non cluster b) abusive brother's aunt's dog's boyfriend's son.
unrelated emotional abuse has nothing at all to do with a group of people with a specific disorder.
if not all schizophrenic folks are murderers, then not all NPDer or BPDers are abusive. do not spread this ableist rhetoric. it is not OUR fault nor is it inherent to our nature that YOU have suffered.
wanting attention is not a bad thing. wanting people to care about you is not selfish. it’s okay to want people to listen to you. you don’t need to do anything to deserve love. love is not a finite resource; we hold enough of it in our hearts to love each other every single day of the year. you deserve to be loved every single day of the year. don’t forget that.
