I THINK I LOVE U <3 .α
β i might be drunk.. !
α₯«α‘. getting drunk after being at a party for not even an hourβbut getting taken care of by your crushβ¦ ~ π₯π€
student Taesan x student fem reader
Itβs friday night the day youβve been waiting on since these stupid ass exams wrapped up, your hands still aching from all of the group studies and writing youβve done this past week. instead of sleeping away the entire weekend like you know your body wants to, you instead decide to join the post exam celebration party happening tonightβ to hopefully loosen the tenseness your body has held onto since exam dates were announced.
busy days finally come to an end.
texting your friends thatβs you made it and then immediately going to the kitchen and downing drinks after drinks to take the edge off from all the smothering youβve been dealing with lately, grabbing bottles from all around the counter shooting vodka then tequila then beer then a cooler and then back again, knowing you shouldnβt mix your alcohols but not caring enough to stop your self.
deciding to grab a cup and mix whatever is in front of you to take with you and finally joining the mosh of people on the dance floor, you push your way through to the living room where the blasting music reaches your ears slightly too loud, following the flow of the group of bodies in rhythm to focused on not focusing to focus.
the sheer loudness of the music vibrating thought your body as it rubs against all the others in the same predicament, your friends are somewhere else maybe across the house making out with someone or getting irresponsibly drunk like you. the music seeping into your brain through your ears from the piercing volume itβs turned up too helping to put you in a haze, eventually the shots catch up to you and your dancing turns more into a stumble then actual steps, bumping into people trying to keep your balance and of course not finding your footing and falling completely into another person.
βwoah, i got youβ
too inebriated to realize whoβs holding you up from keeling over you grip their forearms to try and keep yourself steady though it doesnβt do much.
βI think you should sit downβ
nodding to whatever they say as they practically drag you out of the crowd, moving to a more secluded area where you could actually make out his words now. βare you okay?β still holding you up by your arms you finally look up to meet his eyes which are watching you closely incase your knees give out and you almost face plant again. βI think you drank too muchβ still keep watch of your face as you let out a giggle at his words and shaking your head making you wobble in his arms βnot enoughβ looking at you as if youβve just said the dumbest thing ever which you probably did, he opens his mouth again βwell you canβt stand on your ownβ¦ so Iβd say itβs enoughβ you of course take that as a challenge and try to back up and pull your arms out of his hands βno i can, watchβ but as soon as his hands leave your body you stumble a little too far to the left he reaches back out to put his hand between your head and the wall itβs about to hit instead hitting your head off his palm causing you to giggle again βokay.. maybe notβ you choke out a laugh.
Clearly your not safe standing so he pulls you to find a free seat around the house but most if not all are occupied with freaky couples or people passed out, a voice breaks out 5 feet away βwhat are you doing?β someone grabs his arm that has a hold on you, βwhere you taking my best friend?β the girl almost equally as drunk as the one in his arms βshe fell on me, i think she drank too muchβ she looks down at you wobbling in his arms, you giggle as you make eye contact with your friend pulling a sly smirk βarenβt i luckyβ minju giggles a little at your face realizing what youβre talking about and looking back up to the man holding you up βdo you live here?β looking a little confused he nods βyes?β βokay perfect help me bring her to your roomβ now looking shocked and confused βmy room? why..?β minju looks at him as if heβs stupid βcuz itβs quiet and thereβs no other seats open duhβ furrowing his brows at her and looking behind her to see sheβs right βokay okay, but itβs downstairs I donβt knew if she can make itβ she huffs βshe canβ βI canβ you both say simultaneously.
minju going to the other side of you to try and help although itβs not doing much, they haul you to the stairs, scared of you falling he grips your arms tighter βtake slow steps downβ his soft voice breaks from behind you as you take a step down. βI think I could do it on my ownβ he shuts down the idea as soon as it leaves your mouth βyou canβt even standβ you descend the stairs slowly almost at the bottom βwatch your step!β you skip a step and stumble down the last few somehow not falling to a heap on the floor in front of you βsorryβ you mumble out of breath from your near death experience, βitβs okay your aliveβ Minju smiles at you
finally making it to the bedroom minju opens the door for you as you take in the posters all around the room βwoaβ
βitβs so warm in hereβ she continues smiling in awe at the severely decorated room βah is it?β his face heating up a little at the mention of his bedroom, leading you to sit on his bed as soon as your butt touchβs you immediately lay back and sigh loudly βI like it in hereβ staring at the oasis poster on the ceiling above the bed, he sits next to you on the bed looking up at the poster he put up himself just 6 months ago βim gonna get her some water to sober upβ giving her a thumbs up as she go to the door βtry not to throw up k?β you send an overly enthusiastic thumb into the air
he follows you and lays back to stare at the poster as well enjoying the newfound silence enveloping the room until he speak up again βive noticed you a couple of times around campusβ you hum βreally?β βYeah your in my sculpting classβ you let out a soft chuckle βyea I amβ before continuing on βI noticed you a too, Well I always notice you actuallyβ βyou do?β
βmy eyes seem to constantly find youβ you say with your eyes closed in thought as if reliving the moments βI may not know you but my eyes doβ a smile slowly envelopes your face at the thought
a couple minutes pass
βwhy?β
you hum in response
βwhy do you always look at me?β
opening your eyes and letting out a long hmmmm turning to him to find him already looking at you, with your inhibitions dampened you looking straight into his eyes getting lost in thought for a moment
βyour captivatingβ
βcaptivating?β his voice softer then before
βyea..you as a whole
your captivating
even if the entire school was in one room
I think my eyes would still find youβ¦
taesanβ
he blinks at the words that just came out your mouth and you giggle at his face βwhy are you surprised? I thought you knewβ the furrow now coming back into his brows βwhat?β
βthat your captivatingβ
βhow would I know that?β
βwell you are obviously beautiful so I always thought you were aware of how people see youβ
his eyes widen at your unbridled words
βyou think Iβm beautiful?β the question alone causing a red to take over his ears and a prayer that the lights are dim enough you canβt see the change in color
βof course I do I think everyone doesβ
giggling starting up again at his obliviousness
βdo you not look in the mirror taesan?β
forcing the lump in his throat down βI doβ
letting out a smile βthen how do you not see what I see?β wiggling your finger around in his face βi feel like everyone knows you are but maybe itβs cause Iβm in love with you, nahh everyoneβs gotta know I mean your so beautiful how could they not see it right?β
taesans jaw goes slack as the red starts to sneak up his neck now too, to preoccupied with the thoughts youβve kept to yourself for too long to notice
βLike the way you express yourself through everything you do, your fashion, you wear the craziest things and I admire that soooo muchβ
your smiling brightly at him in his own room confessing your true feelings drunk in his bed as he just stares at you
βItβs amazing how in this boring town you still somehow end up being unique, youβre different taesan youβre so different and that could be why youβre so captivating.β You scoff softly at your own words βItβs not just your looks itβs your personality too, you have a unique personality you are quiet most of the time but when your really happy you can tell and youβre so funny and seem so genuine and actually interested in what people say, not that I uh easdropβ¦β you run your hands down your face and cover it a little as your giggle as what you just said.
taesans eyes didnβt leave you once throughout your whole vent about himself, Now unable to face you he stares at the ceiling his face now as red as his ears and his brain not yet caught up with all youβve said taking a minute to collect his thought which is much harder then said.
βmy eyes always find you too..β
he finally whispers
βIβve wanted to talk to you before but you seemed busy all the times Iβve seen you outβ
starting at his ceiling as he speaks
βI know youβre drunk and your words may not be as serious as Iβm taking them but-β
he looks over at you
your chest rising in a steady rhythm much slower than the music beating upstairs, he stops his words instead turning fully face you taking in your much calmer appearance. soft snores leave your nose as the alcohol finally take its effect.
sitting up still looking at your sleeping figure a small smile on his face before he stands up, grabbing the blanket from the chair and draping it over you so you donβt freeze throughout the night.
grabbing his tylenol and setting it beside the bed next to the cup of water that hes now noticing minju mustβve brought down at some point.
taking one last glance at you sleeping peacefully in his bed.
βgoodnightβ
a/n: this is my first time ever writing anything so i hope itβs not absolute assβ¦
if it is please tell me.
not beta read :(