Hello, everyone! So, this idea here wouldn’t have been possible without a friendly anon suggesting I share the textures I use which I thought was a great idea. And seeing that I’ve hit 6,400 followers, I thought It’d be best to now share my resources with you all as my thanks to everyone that’s supported and followed this blog. ♥
I do have an announcement pertaining to the future of this blog as I’ve decided to set it aside as an archive blog. An end of an era if you will. So you’ll most likely find me somewhere in the Vampire Knight tag, don’t worry. ;) I’m not quitting or leaving, but starting fresh. But I want to say, from the bottom of my heart, thank you, thank you for your endless support and love towards this blog and little ‘ol me. ₍՞◌′ᵕ‵ू◌₎♡
So, as promised, you can find all the resources I’ve used down below. ♥ [I don’t claim to own them, it’s all that I’ve accumulated over the vast majority of the years I’ve been editing on this blog. c;]
hi I've read your post and I fully agree with you.tbh I think Yuki is a duplicitous character，she said she loves kaname while she always can't give up on zero，she said she loves zero while she put him aside for fifty deam years，I just can't feel her love for those characters I can't feel she really cherish those people. and I wanna know your opinion on how yume also fits this mold，hope you have a nice day！
Hi, dear! I’m so sorry I’ve taken so long to get back to your ask. I just want you to know I haven’t forgotten your request! I’m slow when it comes to replying and way hella slow when it comes to articulating my thoughts, so I hope you can forgive me! > <
I’d be lying if I said I didn’t have similar thoughts as you on Yuuki’s duplicitous behavior as you said. I’ve been struggling with Yuuki’s lack of commitment to either of the men in her life, however, despite it all, I still remain somewhat hopeful Hino might change things towards the end to make it explicitly clearer for the fandom, but until that day comes, I’ll remain as cautious and weary as you, dear.
So, onwards to your request. Since this is an anti-yume interpretation, I’ll leave my thoughts under the cut to not step on any toes of those possibly offended that don’t wish to read such content. I’m not trying to convince anyone of my interpretation, just explain my thoughts on the subject.
In honesty, for all this time I took to mule over the reason yume also fits the same criteria that signify Hino’s commitment fears I really just wanted to sum it up to “because they failed.” Although that wouldn’t truly explain why or where those instances were expressed but only highlight the fact that yume already had a chance but failed in their relationship. So it creates the feeling of a moot point in comparison to the couples Hino is striving to work on and succeed. However, that’s not a fair assessment either since Hino has decided to add some stakes for yume by hinting at a possible resurrection of Yuuki in the future timeline, thus she hasn’t definitively cast the pairing out as of yet. Even though I don’t believe Hino will actually do it, I still think it’s best to remain as a healthy skeptic to anything Hino is or isn’t capable of since she’s proven her lack in integrity by retconning her intended ending before. So despite all pre-existing factors, it still doesn’t hurt to venture into what yume contributes to in further proving Hino’s commitment fears.
With that in mind, let’s start at the inception that allowed yume to start as a ‘romantic’ relationship which would be night 46 when Zeki had to say their farewells ad this chapter redetermines the state of each of the relationships for the setting of arc 2. During that chapter, both Kaname and Zero forcefully remind Yuuki where her place lies; to be next to someone who can follow the flow of time as she can because as a pureblood she’ll have an infinite life, i.e Kaname being the only option she has to turn towards. This heavily implies how much yume were placed together out of necessity because of their compatible lifespans as it iterates Yuuki’s lack of autonomy in the situation given the fact that Zero has established being her enemy and that their lifespans are incompatible, thus stripping Yuuki any chance of a choice when removing Zero and leaving only Kaname. It was also the implication of an infinite life that ignited Yuuki to develop a fear of being alone as seen during night 51 where Yuuki is shown contemplating over the meaning of forever through her promise to run from Zero for eternity. We see this fear escalate to the point that she uses Kaname as a security blanket of sorts despite feeling unworthy to stand beside him because of her split heart for Zero as she knows he desires a faithful fiancee.
There is a similar loneliness depicted within Kaname that he shares with Yuuki about living out eternity alone. As we’re shown his past, it reiterates the loneliness that is felt due to living forever as Kaname tried to abate it with sleeping. Thus both of them act upon this fear of loneliness by attempting to ride out eternity together despite it not contributing to any genuine desire to commit to each other out of mutual love.
For Kaname, he believed the “warmth” of the baby he saw would add something to his life making it worth living, but that’s not how one can fully appreciate life. A person can’t rely on other’s to fully “save” them from themselves, they also have to be willing to change aspects of their life and accept these changes to pursue happiness. And finding comfort in someone else to abate one’s loneliness solely usually does not work as more often than not you can feel just as alone with someone by your side as you would when completely alone. So really, if this was true love, we wouldn’t see these two characters continually suffer from a devastating loneliness together, that they do find comfort and love in being in each other’s company. Yuuki’s attachment towards Kaname leads to this shared loneliness as she identifies his sadness and loneliness with her own and empathizes with him deeply.
However, if two individuals are together only to stave off their loneliness but still act as if being in the same room they’re still feeling alone than these two individuals aren’t fit as a couple. Both Kaname and Yuuki have displayed multiple occasions of severe mental health problems and it bleeds over into their relationship as they use it to band-aid their problems and not better themselves by each other’s influence.
The reality between yume was that Kaname demanded things of Yuuki that she can’t fulfill, and Yuuki seems to latch onto Kaname out of necessity than a genuine need out of love, thus producing a dark onset to their relationship as it’s left unfulfilling and cause to see their worst selves brought out from each other. We eventually see it break as Kaname leaves Yuuki by night 66 despite Yuuki attempting to salvage their relationship.
So how does this apply to Hino’s commitment fears when Yume tried to commit to each other very forcefully? I’d argue it’s the fact that they forced commitment on to each other so strongly that it depicts commitment as a reprehensible thing, a toxic action. Too much of something is just as bad as the lack of it, one must find a balance to maintain healthy behaviors.
So I’m not sure if I did as well as I hoped, but I think that’s my best answer to how Yume fits along the rest of the couples, despite them failing and the others having future prospects, of depicting Hino’s deep-rooted commitment fear.Thank you again, dear for sending in this ask! I’m sorry it did take me a while but I hope this satisfies your curiosity. ;)
Here is the link to the VKM chapter 14 raws for anyone who would like to use them for editing. All that I ask is that you do NOT use them for scanlations. Thank you. I will try to do some very rough translations later when I have some more time. Please enjoy :)
Here we go with Vampire knight memories chapter 13!
We are really sorry for the late, but we’ve had some problems due to some circumstances. But we are here no matter what :D Thank you for the patience and thanks to everyone who sent us messages <3
Thanks to my precious staffers @zerolover66 @abandonedsock @judaluffy @violet869 @misakisan00
For the download HERE
i asked because od the psds and you are ignoring me T___T
I haven’t been ignoring you, anon, I was currently in the means of working on your request since I found the time right now to answer my asks I only saw recently, also I’d like to mention that setting up PSDs and uploading them also takes time too (as well as my RL necessities.) >:
Additionally, the PSD(s) you seek isn’t available because I didn’t save them (sometimes, I don’t when I’m satisfied with what I made and don’t feel that I’ll need a reference in the future) so I was in the stage of planning to recreate them.
However, I may or may get to do so which contributes to my time management and if I’m able to recreate old PSDs. I also hope to convey that I’m not entitled to give away my work I dedicate my hard work on. I’ve done so because I want others to learn and grasp the methods I’ve taken to edit, but it’s not to be taken advantage of either, although, which is to say, I’m not claiming you are trying to, anon.
I understand you wanted a response and I hope you can pardon me for taking the time to eventually getting to your asks, but as stated on my blog, I’m on a semi-hiatus so replies will be sparingly.
I apologize if I seem difficult or opposing, but what you ask for is my work and I have the right to also decline when I feel the right to do so. I do want to help others but there’s a fine line sometimes that I do want to make certain of between the value of one requesting and one that’s demanding.
Whether you meant it or not, which you most likely didn’t, the implication of demanding puts me on edge and makes me feel as though my only value is to be exploited for my work. :<
I hope you can understand where I’m coming from but if not, I’m also sorry. I’ll see if I can get to your request, but please, I politely ask for patience and forgiveness if I may take time to get to it or if I’m not able to at all due to time constraints. Thank you.
Hello! If you don't mind, I'd like to request a coloring of those three Zeki panels from VKM 13 after Zero ruffles Yuuki's hair while they're in bed. Thank you so much in advance! Your colorings are really beautiful :p
Hey there, dear. c: I hope you don’t mind that I added a fourth panel ;P Hehe, I hope you like it! Thank you for the request! And I’m happy to hear you think so highly of my coloring, i’m honored ♥ ^u^
oh, gosh, thank you so much! you're always so helpful and cheerful whenever i hop onto your blog, & i really do appreciate how lovely you are especially regarding queries about your PS download. I am super thankful & hope you know how nice an experience you make asking you a question, you're such a pleasure to message even on anon, & always pleasantly approachable. I just wanted to let you know! Thank you again, lots of love to you! You deserve it!
It was no problem at all! I’m glad to have been able to help, and honestly, your reply message means so much for me to hear. ♥ ; u ; You’re very kind, anon dear. TTT I’m relieved to know I’ve made the experience helpful and pleasant! >u< I never mind pitching in to aid anyone in or outside the vk fandom, so I do hope to keep striving for that approachability. ;> [If only I worked on my pesky timing in replies olz]
I’ve been told by those in the past that my blog seems to be otherwise intimidating, but really, I’m just a quiet editor who has a bit of trouble explaining since I’m not the most eloquent person. LOL XD [I find my edits/PSDs speak loud than my words of explanation on my methods heh ;;;;]
Anywho, thank you so much for your kind words, love, I appreciate it so much ; u ; ♥ ♥ And best luck in your endeavors! ^u^ &&much love right back ;>
Hi, sorry to bother you! I was just wondering if you had taken down your downloads for PS and SAI? I’ve used them before and always found them brilliant, and since getting a new laptop I was hoping to use them again — of course, no worries at all if they’re no longer available. I hope you are well, lovely!
Hey there, love c: It’s not a problem for you to ask! The reason I had taken it down was that I would consistently have individuals ask tech support questions or be wary of downloading and I gathered I should revamp the page to avoid the scrutiny or errors my tutorial might have since it’s possibly outdated. > < I haven’t used my own tutorial method in a while but I do still own the means to install it on my hardware (I just haven’t needed to reinstall the program, so.. XD) thus I’m not sure if it’s still current or compatible with windows or any updates since I posted it a long time ago.
However, for you, I’ll leave the link that you can access since you’ve said it’s worked for you. c: I might fix it in the future, but I’m also not fit to really help others with problems since I’m not as knowledgeable about the mechanics behind it. > <;; Honestly, my greatest suggestion is just youtubing it if there are any problems.
Anyways, here’s the link for you, dear! ^u^ Thank you, and I hope you’re doing well, too. ;>
Hello, fellow Zeki shipmates! With the newest vkm chapter right around the corner, those of us from officialzekiweek thought it would be great to end the year off with our event in addition to celebrating the new chapter. As most of you know, Zeki Week is a dedicated week of which we celebrate our beloved pairing, Zero and Yuuki. We hope to spread the cheer and season’s greetings before the new year. Thank you so much to all of those that supported this blog! Happy Holidays!
Rules: You can choose one theme or mix them together, just be creative and have fun! :) You can contribute by making edits in any type of media such as gifs, graphics, fanart, fanfics, cosplays, fanvids, playlists, etc. (Click the link for more info)
Themes:
Day 1: Natural Connection/Irreplaceable Partners
Day 2: Misunderstandings/Deep Dark Forest
Day 3: Opposites Attract/Sun and Moon
Day 4: Childhood Memories
Day 5: Naughty or Nice
Day 6: Season’s Greetings Cheer
Day 7: Anything You Want
Make sure to tag under #Zeki Week so everyone can see!
Whelp, this chapter is a quintessential case of the old adage “be careful what you wish for, you just might get it.” Nothing like being handed everything I ever wanted plot progression-wise on a silver platter for the small upfront price of the last shred of integrity of the only character I still enjoyed. A faustian bargain if ever I saw one. Bad form, Hino, bad form.
For a great many reasons, it’s taken me this long to be able to address this chapter. I’m not sure how this post is going to go; I’m constantly vacillating between frustration, contempt, disdain, disgust, dismay, disappointment, detachment, self-mockery, and rage when I think about this chapter. I’ve lost all respect for Zero, and despite what happened this chapter Yuuki continues to fail to return to my good graces and my sympathy for her is all played out. All I’m left with is a deep sense of awe that a single creator is capable of destroying such a promising work with such brutal efficiency no matter what opportunities to salvage it come her way. It’s truly a wonder.
The two prelude posts I wrote to help contextualize my review can be found here and here. If you haven’t read the chapter yet, a variety of scanlations are floating around the corners of the internet. Pick any one of them–they’re all roughly equivalent, give or take a line or two. Otherwise, let’s begin this debacle.
Note to the perpetually offended: This post is pure “zeki criticism” and I have tagged it as such for your convenience. Please blacklist accordingly or block my account to preserve your sanity and my patience. I’ve also tagged it “anti ky” for the sensitives from the other camp.
